what do you mean neil josten knew to calculate the distance between him and an older man so he could easier avoid getting hit (and run away) when jean moreau calculated to stay within arm reach of his coach because “a coach who had to get up to strike hit harder than one who could simply take a swing”. i’m gonna be sick.
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Kevin being called a bitch and a diva is so perfect, it's a shame Neil didn't talk like a normal modern person tbh, he would've loved calling Kevin a cunt
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thinking about kevin begging riko and tetsuji to let him take a history class and then agreeing to do all of riko's assignments, whatever it took, because he loves it that much that he was willing to go to those lengths to still pursue that passion. then thinking about all his history books, him watching documentaries and memorising a million interesting facts that he rarely gets to share with anyone. or what if the post cards he sent jean were scribbled with little tidbits of historical info about the places he'd been?? what's his favourite historical time period?? how far back does his interest go??? what's his favourite historical civilisation? who is his favourite historical figure?? what historical landmarks does he wish to see?? why history to begin with??? it's just so endearing i wish we knew more about his passion for it because yes exy is his legacy by birth right but also there's so much more to him than just that
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i've seen a lot of people talking about how different kevin is from jean's pov and i just have to say that kevin isn't different in tsc, neil just isn't jean.
neil's pov of kevin is more than the simple flip between Kevin Day the Celebrity and Kevin Day the Insufferable Bitch (which is a consistent trait across all three pov's we see kevin trough) or Kevin Day the Coward. i would even go as far as to say that kevin is infinitely more complex through neil's eyes because neil can't decide how he feels about kevin.
for jean it's almost simpler (almost). he loved kevin; 'once upon a time he would have done anything for (kevin)', but then kevin left and jean felt betrayed and abandoned and he wanted to hate kevin but at the end of the day he doesn't. he knows kevin in ways neil doesn't and may never, but to say that we only see kevin's sincere intentions and gentleness through jean's eyes is just incorrect.
kevin and jean can't even speak to each other because before they can ever get anywhere they will have to talk about riko and what riko did to them and in turn the things that made them do to each other. kevin and jean go no contact because that is better than talking about riko, but when neil came back from evermore kevin was willing to revisit those nightmares he'd been running from if neil needed to talk about it and the fact 'that he tried at all was so unexpected neil felt it like a balm to every bruised inch of his skin.'
kevin feels 'bottomless guilt' for leaving jean to riko, he is likely tormented by everything he was forced to standby and watch or even participate in. kevin is broken when neil begins to get to know him in the foxhole court but that gentleness that jean sees, the complexity of kevin's vulnerability and his defensive, detached disposition is just as present in neil's observations. neil is more apprehensive about it than jean, but that doesn't mean it isn't there.
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jeremy in fanfic: *sunshine and good mental health incarnate*
jeremy in tsc: *more avoidant of his issues than neil fucking josten and jean fucking moreau*
(my man does the ”i’m fine” better than neil could ever dream of)
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