#forgot abt this in my drafts so im just posting it lol

[pensbridgertons]

1.03 | 1.05 | 3.03

[actualonepiecetrash]

auck ever since this blog was riddled w weird negativity i havent been caught up within the fandom or the manga so rereading some and tryna catch up and . aughhhh luffy really went silly mode and fucked shit up ....

[j2zara]

🧭♻️🤔🖍️🤡 teehee

🧭An alternative title to your/ one of your WIP(s)?

I’ll cheat b/c im scared to say with certainty what an alt title is for my WIPs when i might go back to it. That being said, if you wanna know the titles of my Docs they’re so funny bc im scared of giving myself away so they’re all titled stuff like. LJ3P, ZJP, Pre-SB, J2JP etc etc.

Anyway. Why is it all of sudden i can’t think of anything…. The problem is there are a couple i could throw out but i also am considering using them for LJ3P or LJ3 fwb wip titles

There was a version of Biggest Lie that had a lyric from Casual as it’s title but i genuinely can’t remember what it was.

Oh! I remember one. i might’ve mentioned this before but “and he’s not with you (the universe must have divined this)” from Boyfriend was in the running for Stay / Leave! Picking something for that one was tough. (IYWD and Almost were ones that once it hit i felt so Certain w/ honestly not that much waffling. IYWD was a joke title i just started to like For Real and meanwhile settling on something Biggest Lie n Stay / Leave were llke UGH.)

♻️A scrapped idea for your current WIP

There was a whole version of LJ3porter that actually DID involve devils honey but I think the idea of a substance like that fucking with Ellie’s head had like darker implications for her than it did for blue b/c he was like. kinda into it. that being said in the draft she subjected herself to it but it still felt weird b/c it was fucking with her memory and making it unreliable narrator and i wasn’t sure how to convey that without the vibe coming across that like. Porter had a hand in it or something.

Tbh the devils honey stuff is actually a better fit for the LJ3 LSOP macbeth concept so im glad there’s a place for it bc i do think Ellie having a devils honey moment IS interesting but its not right for this story

🤔What’s a story you’d love to write but haven’t even started yet?

mentioned so so so so so briefly but again i think writing some sort of reincarnation au fic would be fun. I don’t have any concrete ideas for it but i do want ellie to find her boys.

I also geuinely am. still. like so so so so so so compelled by the concept of a LJ3 LSOP macbeth fic, especially the version with the use of devil’s honey which i know is a hard sell but idc. But i think something like. intentionally kind of disorienting and maybe even J4 pov would be difficult but like so so interesting. The Eternal Sunshine angle like really got to me but ALSO there might be an excuse to write LJ3Porter toxic threesome which i think is fun

I won’t lie. the thing about anxious overthinking girlfriend Ellie x boyfriend who fucks her till she can’t think straight j3 convo especially the degredation stuff where they get kinda mean w/ each other like absolutely gripped me so like. I may do that too. Lol

🖍Post Any sentence from your wip

Ellie’s arms dangle off the bed.

“This thing is too small for the both of us…” says J3 with a shaky laugh. He knows what he wants to really say, but he’s too afraid to say it.

J4 is quiet, still on top of him. “Sorry, I didn’t—I… I don’t want things to be complicated. You know?”

He should tell her the truth. “Probably for the best.”

🤡 How many Wips are you actively working on?

Tee hee indeed. I am boo boo the fool.

oh my god. Um… LJ3Porter wip (i will not shut up abt this). LJ3 FWB fic. Are the main two.

J2JacePorter w/ creeper Jace is waiting until AFTER i finish at least one of those but its not abandoned so it counts and it is something i do wanna finish so badly. The docs for my Pre-shatterstar sb fic and the Zarajaceporter fic i haven’t touched in a hot sec but like. I wouldn’t consider them abandoned, i’ll probably return to them… And I almost forgot that I have a j2j3 prompt i need to finish that i did work on a little bit the other day but like. wasn’t happy with. And i technically have written for the Oliviaviola J2 seducing Jace for Porter fic. Like. A few sentences but i do want to finish it. Anyway it’s absolutely histerical that I am genuinely like. But what if i started a reincarnation au wip or an LJ3 macbeth fic!

So like. 2.75 that i’m actually volleying between with real sincerity, and i think 7-ish to count like. i have not given up on it and do plan on finishing it.

[lavenite]

alright i have annotated cecelia and. well i didnt cry honestly i think i was more just angry then sad about um. bad writing? LMAO that sounds stupid but its fine now. well 'fine' i just ripped into it and felt better i think. going into actually editing it will be hell i think but at least its Something you know. and ill feel better as i slowly work on that. ive split it up into 5 sections so ill try to do one per day. and actually work on it until im happy and satisfied and not worried about submitting. though at this point i keep going back and forth on if i Should submit cause like. i like this story. this is my story. its something i Started for a competition but its more mine than anything else.

well i mean i already had the story before i decided to work on it. i just chose that to work on um. anyway thats what i want to do from now on. for competitions i want it to be My stories that i dont just write for the sake of submitting and filling the themes. i mean obv i want to fit the requirements but im gonna stop stressing so much about if it will or wont fit bc thats fine. if it doesnt fit i can always submit to some other place OR it can just be mine. thats okay.

well ive lost the plot on whatever i was originally gonna say but ummm cecelia is noted and omg i keep leaving this unfinished i left for like 3 hours anyway im fine now i had a talk w my dad so i have a plan. gonna edit cecelia over the next 5 days and then draft the three stories i need - at the very least draft nothing abt rewriting yet. AND I FORGOT TO POST THIS AGAIN!!!! ITS BEEN LIKE 5 HOURS MAN.

ANYWAY i was gonna go to bed but now i am up again so i am going to organize something. probably my other stories - or i should probably work on my neocities to get it like half-way presentable lol

[manj9rou]

i have over 120 drafts

[cleumz-moved]

r requests open? if they are i wanna request belphie, mammon, and lucifer when reader just kinda slithers up into their jacket/shirt when they're cold, and how'd they react?? they/them prns pls <3 (srry if u got this double times my wifi sucks and wonnt let me see if i alr asked it :')

requests r open!! it says so right below the 'RULES' section in my pinned post!

ALSO IM SO SRRY IT TOOK SO LONG- i was in my drafts nd i forgot abt it :') liek twice-

alsoalso, m not sure if it notifies u so m just gonna tag u ok?

requested by the lovely @victowgwantz !! thank u 4 requesting!!

ok, on 2 the post!

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warnings? nope! lmk if i'm wrong tho!

characters included? lucifer, mammon, leviathan, belphegor

-> LUCIFER !!

he's so smug. so so smug.

but also don't put ur cold hands near him!

he squealed like a lil kid the first time u did this. ur hands r cold, okay!!

anywho, he's so happy you trust him enough

he wraps his arms around you, and holds you close, keeping you nice nd warm

-> MAMMON !!

he fucking loves it when u do this <3

please please please do this more often lol

he wants u to do this in public but actually please dont

he'd start blushing like crazy lmao

another 1 whos so happy u trust him enough!!

levi nd belphie below the cut!!

-> LEVIATHAN !!

r u looking 2 kill him? bc if u keep pulling shit like this hes gonna die of embarrassment or smth

he thinks ur so cute when u do this lmao

but also hes like all like why??

bc he isnt that warm either?? thats why he wears that funky long jacket, its all toasty nd warm :))

-> BELPHEGOR !!

hes sooo warm!! nd soooo soft <3

he loves it when u do this

he doesnt get embarrassed (unlike some of his brothers most certainly would) its just 2 much effort ig (i feel ya bestie)

he thinks its super cute but also why do u trust him this much??

also, keep in mind if u do this ur stuck 4 like atleast an hour, hes going 2 take a nap nd hes very strong so u cant break free lmao

-> AUTHOR !!

requests r open if ur interested!

[casual-flower]

aww thanks!! yeah im sure it'll be great. i'm super excited for college actually!

HAHA i guess we all think alike like that 😂😂

YES YES HAND APPRECIATION!!!! 💕

ikr!!! its so much fun. ooooh i'd love to see that!! i'm sure it would look amazing~! (yup its corrupting my whole body and mind, really)

sure! i have like a bunch that i wrote down yesterday.

...okay now im looking at my notes and realizing i did less of "plot ideas" and more of "here's my philosophical take on this song and which character(s) i should write for it"... oops lol

but still

like, Not Today by TØP. that would parallel a scenario in Saeyoung's route, because it talks a lot about how like... okay i mean just look at these lyrics:

I don't know why I just feel I'm better off / Stayin' in the same room I was born in / I look outside and see a whole world better off / Without me in it tryin' to transform it

You are out of my mind, oh / You aren't seein' my side, oh / You waste all this time tryin' to get to me / But you are out of my mind / Yeah

Listen, I know / This one's a contradiction because of how happy it sounds / But the lyrics are so down / It's okay though / Because it represents, wait, better yet it is / Who I feel I am right now

...

I'm, I'm out of my mind, oh / I'm not seein' things right, oh / I waste all this time tryin' to run from you / But I'm, I'm out of my mind

Heard you say, "Not today" / Tore the curtains down, windows open, now make a sound / Heard your voice, "There's no choice" / Tore the curtains down, windows open, now make a noise

anywayyyzz... i dont have a specific scene in mind, but i know i can do like an introspective thing with this

(if u have any ideas about this feel free to share hehe ^^)

[417]

Ahhhh sorry it took me so long to get back to this, Four!! I had it in my drafts and forgot to finish it 😭😭

Omg that's great!! What are the parts you're most excited for? :D

Yeah it does seem to be that way lmaooo, and there can never be too much hand appreciation dksksksk

Thank you!! 😭 Its gonna be tricky to draw much, I found myself in a point where I'm gonna be very busy for a long time I think 💀💀 I'm gonna post as often as I can tho :p

OMG I get u tho I do the same thing djajsjejne it's like a analysis parallel moment, I love doing those eeeeee

707 route spoilers ig? mysme spoilers in general idk lol //

WAIT I've never heard this song before, the lyrics u sent fit so PERFECTLY?????? 😳😳😳 Like with the whole thing abt 7 avoiding MC, her chasing after him, the curtains down and window lines kind of reflecting saeran breaking into the apartment THERES SO MUCH EEEEEEEEEEEE that's such a good choice for a song!! :O

[mimi-ya]

mimi~ it is i, your favorite anon🚶‍♀

just wanna drop by and say that i rlly love your fics. i hope you're not under any pressure since you have a lot of fics in your drafts. i totally forgot abt my promise at revealing myself. at first, i thought that i should reveal myself after you finish the zoro fic that i requested. but thats been so long.

and im actually just rlly shy to reveal myself to you. tho we've alrdy interact a lot without me being an anon. and you tagged me in your trebol thirst post 👁👁

- 🍩

hi bestie!!! i love that you read my fics! still can't believe anyone cares about the daydream i think up!

and you let me know who you are when and if you feel comfy! it doesn't have to be out in the open either! some of my emoji anons and i talk in dms but still use their emoji in asks, and it's like a secret we have now, lol. y'all know who you are!

[peakblr]

rad asks: 3, 10, 16

ah hey!!!!!! thanks for asking 💕💐 sorry this took so long

3. Are there any parts of radical feminism, or beliefs commonly hold by radical feminists that you strongly disagree with?

im actually having a hard time answering this ahshskshdlska i wrote a really long rambly response but i ended up justifying what i was describing as disagreeing with LOL so like. idk no widely held radfem beliefs are coming to mind, sorry im just as disappointed as you are shdkshdlsjds i hope this doesnt sound sheepish or anything. So i’ll say what i do agree with, which won’t come as a surprise to anyone probably.

i’m anti porn, i think porn should be illegal, should not exist and all of it should be destroyed, pornstars should be given justice and compensated somehow for the govt allowing this shit, and all pornographers should be considered lower than dirt and killed publicly LOL. and i don’t feel bad about that, they don’t feel bad about filming rape and selling it, having the pornstars they abuse lie about how they love it when asked. i feel the same way abt prostitutes and their pimps, that paid consent is not consent and pimps can all drop dead.

i’m all for separatism, no it would not stop men from being men, but it would save women and girls a lot of grief, hurt and scarring.

i think gender isn’t real, is used to oppress women and helps no one, and that id rather it be abolished than exist to validate some people who like gender roles, ackshully.

ive been agnostic for a long time; my mom and my brother are atheists, my dad is a deist. but i will sooner believe that the creator of everything is female, having given birth to the universe than a male. A man’s involvement in creation is his ejaculation. No more, no less. life does not begin in the testicles, or you wouldnt see all this anti abortion stuff, you would see more anti male masturbation stuff–if it weren’t mostly about using women as incubators, lol. that being said i’m pro choice clearly.

i am anti surrogacy, for similar reasons. same sex couples should absolutely be allowed to adopt, but no one has the right to have a baby except the woman who can use her own uterus for her own baby. even with infertile women, there is no justification for paying another women to rent out her uterus.

i currently am not vegan but i admire the ideas behind it, and i see the similarities between how animals and women are treated. i do know however that those who are farming this produce are not necessarily treated well either. disclaimer i know literally jack shit about it so i can’t really speak much for it either way at this moment.

i know there are trans identified, detransitioned or reidentified females who don’t like words like “mutilation” to describe the surgeries they have had to remove their breasts or to alter their privates to mimic penises, and while i don’t insist on mutilation being the word used, i don’t see how it is inaccurate and i find it hard to talk about it in a positive light, less i be endorsing that women get these surgeries to ease their discomfort with their bodies. that being said i don’t want tifs or detransitioned/reidentified women to beat themselves up and constantly regret it. it is not their fault that they were made to be so disconnected from their bodies. they did not want that, and with the trans movement there were not a lot of people telling them that there are other ways besides transitioning to deal with these feelings. i don’t see how this can be hard to believe seeing as we call it the trans cult all the time, which is an accurate name by the way.

i like the alternative spellings of woman and women. womyn, wombyn, wimmin, womxn, a mon, wom or whatever it is. i don’t currently use them myself but i love them and i don’t care how “stupid” you think it is. you know whats stupid??? the words “trans woman,” “trans man,” and “nonbinary.” “Cis woman.” yeah ill take wombyn any day rather than agree that i “identify” as a woman for not subscribing to the transgender religion.

political lesbianism is shitty, i understand some straight women don’t wanna be celibate, but dating lesbians to stick it to the men and not because you love that lesbian is selfish i think. if youre bisexual then you are also not a lesbian but by all means be a febfem or just a bisexual who does not fuck with men.

prostitution will never be empowering. make up, nails, impractical clothes, revealing clothes is not empowering, having men think you are sexy or fuckable is not empowering. you are not “doing it for yourself.” “Poly” relationships are not empowering or woke, making yourself more accessable sexually to men is not empowering in the same way that it empowers men to have sex with multiple women.

idk ive been writing this for a million years but thats some things off the top of my head that i know i Do agree with, i know that wasnt the question but i still wanted to say something lol. i realize now this answered multiple questions from that ask post so im sorry if anyone else thought of asking those things that i answered LOL

10. What’s your relationship with the term “terf”?

ah! i do jokingly call myself that occasionally, you can see it right there on my about page. but in all seriousness it’s horseshit and goes to show how narcissistic the trans movement is. I see people, newly self described radfems who haven’t figured out what the point of it all is, who try to say “there’s a difference between terfs and radfems! You can be radfem and trans inclusive!” or whatever. To which I say, 

these are not two separate groups. Actual radfems are called trans exclusionary because they don’t think men who identify as women can be oppressed by women, and that having been born as a woman is not a privilege, regardless of how that woman identifies. 

radfems aren’t even trans exclusive, really. While there are many detransitioned, reidentified women, there are also many who have transitioned and intend to stay that way, or who are even transitioning currently for their own reasons and comfort, while still confronting their womanhood and how they have been affected or are effected by being a woman in our society as well as how transitioning is dangerous. it’s male exclusive more than anything, and rightfully so. any problems men have are created by other men, and as one user on here put it, feminism should not be “all lives matter.” 

i forgot to say this initially but being “trans inclusive” is interpreted by some to mean “trans endorsing,” that being trans is an innate thing just like homosexuality, that brain sex is real, and that there is nothing wrong with trans identified females getting surgeries they don’t need on perfectly healthy genitals, or getting hormones they otherwise wouldn’t naturally have that have life altering side effects. otherwise i would be called trans exclusive. LOL. so it really does not mean anything, ultimately.

16. How do you feel about the terms TIF/TIM?

i think they’re great. it says exactly what it means. it is much more appropriate than trans man or trans woman, and it makes it easier to talk about them with a little less word salad. the term trans man others tifs from females, and the term trans woman others tims from males. this is problematic. there is nothing differing tifs from females and tims from males outside of the fact that they are trans identified. the only differences they may have are if they have surgically and or hormonally transitioned, but it is not enough difference to make them the opposite sex, nor does it erase male or female socialization, and the benefits or consequences of being a man or a women, respectively. i worded this a lot better when i saved this draft last but tumblr seemingly ate it LOL so thats a drag. but yeah. tif/tim is great. i don’t think it should be offensive, there is nothing insulting or cruel about it. at best it is “invalidating.”

thank you for sending me these!!!! i’m sorry if my answers were unsatisfactory or hard to understand lmao i edited a lot of fluffy blabbering out of my responses believe it or not. i hope you’ve had a great day and that you’re having a lovely night 💌🌻😊

[dread-and-despair-dyke]

I really relate to your deep thoughts posts, and im thankful you post them. Its nice to know im not alone. Being afraid to think around others, zoning out every second of my existence, being afraid someone will hear your thoughts even if you know they cant… im glad youre here, though I wish things would improve for you at least. Do you wear earbuds/headphones everywhere? Its something i do to deal, even if its silent its comforting.

ive had this in my drafts for half a year but i didnt have anything else i needed to add so i think i just forgot to post it

this is so sweet, thank u anon ily :’) ive always found that a big part of coping with being alive is finding other people who feel the same way, and then hanging around with them as much as possible - if that person is willing ofc - with the intention of just. finding people who feel the same way as you about whatever things

i hope things improve for me (that sounds so self-centred to say ahaha), and i hope things are good for you too, and if not that they improve as well

about the earbuds thing--

ok i used to wear them a lot at like age 14? just bc i got rlly into music then. but the ones i had were over-ear headphones , and i didnt realise it looks weird to people if u walk around wearing over-ear headphones apparently. so one time i was in the lunch hall at school and a teacher (who already disliked me) said somth to me in a rlly infantilising (?like talking 2 me as if i were an idiot or a small child) way, leaning down and talking in like a pitying or babying voice about how 'do i wear the noise cancelling headphones because all the talking is a bit too much' like it wasnt anything bad but she was being so weird abt it. and i was like lol they arent noise cancelling theyre just regular over-ear headphones and i just feel like listening 2 music . but she continued and said some other shit i dont remember 

anyway since then i always feel weird wearing headphones in public bc maybe people will think im mentally challenged . which isnt a bad thing ofc, i just remember feeling rlly shitty bc of that one teacher for some reason