#fuck you im doing em all atm

[krippe90]

22, 24, 26

22. A song that moves you forward

Mama said knock you out - Five Finger Death Punch

24. A song by a band you wish were still together

Double Dragon Rap - Duane and Brando

26. A song that makes you want to fall in love

Vi 2 (till dom otrogna) - Magnus Uggla

[wosoragebaiter69]

but i didn't did pour the whiskey

barça femeni x reader

overview: they said getting over addiction wasn't easy, what about when no one knows? what about when relapse happens after a whole year?

A/N: my requests are sitting... but I can't get to them and im really sorry, ive been so busy atm and dont got much modivation for em'

TW: alcohol addiction, self-hatred, relapse, course language, actual detail instead of me brushing over it

!! viewer discretion is advised, i suggest only mature audiences read this !!

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In all honesty, you'd seen the signs. You'd known the inevitable was coming. The feelings of urge that you'd felt a year ago when trying to stop. You had stopped though, so you ignored it. Then it became more real. To the blank stares at the crates in the stores, rather than the hatred you harboured before after finally being ‘better’.

To walking and judging if you should buy it or not.

To blinking tears out of your eyes, wondering why you'd think that in the first place.

Because why would you, you were better now. Right? That's what you'd told yourself anyways.

It kept amplifying over the course of a week. Until you couldn't take it, until everything you'd worked so hard for for the past year came crashing down. All those memories of countless nights pacing, crying, yelling over a stupid fucking substance fade away.

Guilt. That's all there is. Guilt.

Guilt for betraying your past self who had cried for hours, who felt like she was going psycho over not having a single drink.

But, you can't find it in yourself to stop drinking it. It's just one beer, how harmful could it be? Said by the words of a true fucking alcoholic.

So, you do the only thing you can think of and cry. Cry until your face is numb, your throat burning with every breath, cry until your lungs can't take in any oxygen anymore.

Cry until you feel like you've felt something.

Then when you did stop crying what did you do? The only option you thought you had. Drink more.

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You knew you looked like shit, you felt like it too. Your face puffy from the numerous breakdowns the night before, your eyes red from the tears that had an endless flow, dark rings under your eyes from the restless 3 hour sleep you'd got.

Also not to mention the headache you'd acquired. Knowing that only last year if you'd drunk this much, you'd only start to feel something. That's not something to be proud of.

You try your hardest to make yourself look even the slightest bit presentable, getting rid of the puffy face with a shower and taking paracetamol to take away the ache in your skull.

This would do enough to convince them you were fine, it's not like you were the loudest or most obnoxious person on the team. Preferring to observe everything with a smile.

What you didn't consider? Your captains. You're only 22 so even if you're techincally an adult, they're still over 7 years older than you.

So you walk into the lockeroom for training, silently making your way to your cubby as usual. Until, you feel a tug on your sleeve. Alexia is standing there, worry etched into her features.

"You ok? It looks like you've barely slept." Her voice is low and quiet, something you were eternally grateful for.

"Yeah, just a rough night. Thanks capi." You don't lie, but you don't tell the full truth either. She can sense this but doesn't say anymore, allowing you to go back to getting ready.

You take the time to rethink of the previous night, the regret you'd felt immediately after taking the first sip. But, the feeling of being unable to stop.

No matter how much you'd told yourself it was nothing, you know this isn't the end.

You push the thoughts away, clearing your mind of any thoughts before walking out onto the field ready for training.

- - - - -

It was the same people you saw watching you; Alexia, Marta and Mapi. It wasn't every second but enough to showcase they knew something was wrong but just didn't know what.

You had joined in the summer from your old club in Italy. No one knew of the past you'd had with alcohol. It's not like you made an effort to tell them either, they respected your choices not to drink when going out and you didn't need to bring up topics that were from before even moving to Barcelona.

Maybe if they knew, you'd have someone to confide it.

Somehow you'd managed to hide it from your old team as well, but considering the close relationships that Barcelona had with each other you doubted it would be shrugged off as easily.

When training was finally over, you were quick to slip away. As the thoughts and need of what caused you in this melancholic state start to reappear in your mind.

Not now, why after so long did you have to collapse now? When the peak of your career could potentially be around the corner.

You want to survive like a normal person, you want to be able to do things without relying on a fucked up liquid. Why did it have to be you?

And why?

Why is the only thing you can think of to soothe these thoughts, alcohol?

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You stare blankly at the open carton, hesitation as you ponder if you should give in or not. Should you drink it? Part of your mind says yes, part of you yearns for it. The rational side says no, and to stop before it's too late.

But wasn't it already?

So you give in. The burning down your throat a painfully familar comfortality.

In a depressing way it makes you more aware of your surroundings, the beer bottles scattered in the room. Liquid all over the floor and on your things. It bothers you, but you can't bring yourself to clean it.

So you sulk, going over past memories. You'd never considered yourself a sad drunk, always being happier and finding a way to goof about while drinking. Then, very rarely toward the end of recovery getting angry. Never sad though.

Times change, people change. You thought you'd changed, but that kind of addiction? It never seemed to leave. Waiting until you're vulnerable to attack. Like an incurable disease.

Before you really comprehend it, the whole box of beers you'd bought yesterday are empty and strown across the floor.

You reach a point of feeling nothing, a numbing feeling brought by guilt, the alcohol making everything seem hazy. Your phone is ringing, but you can't bring yourself to answer. You can't bring yourself to care.

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Knocking at your door brings you out of the limboed state you're in. You figure they'll leave soon, and the knocking stops after a minute. Until the door opens revealing the three who had been watching you in the morning.

Alexia is the first to you, the others take in the state of your apartment and walk around elsewhere.

"Hey." It's all she says, but enough for tears to fall from your eyes. You can't bare to look at her face, so you keep your eyes glued to the floor.

"Come on, look at me." She uses her hands to guide your chin so you're looking straight at her.

"Whatever it is, you can tell me." She pauses, "Let's sober you up first." You don't argue, and follow her orders. Exhausted, you pass out as soon as your head hits the pillow.

- - - - -

Waking up was easier than you'd thought it would be, your head not pounding as much as in the morning. It made sense though considering you'd drank less than the night before. There were pills on the side table with a glass of water which you take easily.

The sun is setting so you must have slept for a couple of hours by this point. When you walk into the living room you notice all the rubbish gone, the floors are clean and there's no reminisince of beer anywhere. Alexia, Marta and Mapi are talking quietly amongst themselves and look up once they realise you're awake.

"Come, sit." Mapi pats next to her. You nod silently walking over.

"Would you mind explaining to us what happened? I know you’ve said before don't drink, so this is very new. If you don't want to talk that's also fine but I don't want to see you hurt." Alexia says, she doesn't pry but she does make her point known.

"Ok, but please can you do no talking while I explain? I'm not sure how much I can take if I don't explain it all in one." You're not sure why you opened up so easily, maybe because you desperately craved for someone. Anyone.

"Last year, I was an alcoholic and I can't tell you really when it started. It was to take all the weight and pressure off my shoulders originally, but it turned worse. I just kept drinking regularly and when I tried to settledown, I realised I couldn't. So I didn't stop. It worked for me."

"Then as the season moved on I realised I did desperately need to do something about it but I was just so scared of what people would say to me. How would they react?"

“So instead of getting proper help I did it myself.”

"I got rid of all traces, didn't go out as much. It was horrible. I thought I was going crazy. I wasn't ok at all. I'd obviously relapsed a couple times when trying by myself to recover but it gave me more determination. I'd say it took like 3 months before I truly felt like I was clean."

"Then, I'd had the oppurtunity to play here and it's like everything went away. I should've known better." You sigh.

"Known what? Did you know you were going to relapse again?" Marta asks carefully.

"I saw the signs but ignored them, when I did give in... all I felt was regret, I still do. I think that's why I drank the rest if I'm going to be honest." You look away, not daring to look at any of them.

A pair of arms engulf you, large hands pushing your head to the persons chest.

"Listen to me, we can help you. You won't ever have to do this alone, not while I'm here ok? I don't know much about this, but I'll try. We all will." You start sobbing into her chest, clinging your fists tightly into her shirt. A way to thank them without words.

Because the belief they had in you made you feel like you could do it. Even in these drowning times.

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i hope you enjoyed fic, this may not be accurate to everyone but this is my experience with battling addiction to alcohol and i write it because i too relapsed after a year recently

this was more for also for awareness and just know that you aren’t alone in anything, if you feel you need someone to talk to i’m always here :)

[yeahtimesten]

a playlist for patrick zweig ⋆.˚✮🎧✮˚.⋆

i made a playlist thinking about this man and idk this is what i think it would be like… to be with him i guess? this playlist is sexy, sweet, angsty, passionate. i hope yall see the vision…. enjoy :3

fall in love - phantogram love it was enough to recognize to see i was the reason you feel sick inside

washing machine heart - mitski baby, will you kiss me already? and toss your dirty shoes in my washing machine heart baby, bang it up inside

always forever - cults you know you’ve got me in your pocket you don’t just have to wait around you know i’ll keep you in my locket just come here and we can settle down

juna - clairo why would i let you in? but i think again i don’t even try, i don’t have to think with you there’s no pretending you know me

kingston - faye webster it’s the thought of you that slightly scares me but it takes my breath away, forget what i was gonna say the day that i met you i started dreaming now i write em down if i remember in the morning time

step on me - the cardigans oh, i think you’re holding this heart of mine (my heart is yours) squeeze it apart, that’s fine

roi - videoclub, adéle castillon, mattyeux (english translation of lyrics) the lasting days, fleeing the night, i traverse your skin, i traverse the city the sweet smoke from your mouth leaves, escapes day by day when i reign in the night, im alone with my sins

air supply - sweet trip don’t make me smile if you don’t intend to only make me try if you can pretend to

everybody here wants you - jeff buckley and our eyes locked in downcast love i sit here proud even now you’re undressed in your dreams with me oh, i’m only here in this moment i know everybody here wants you

trash magic - lana del rey boy, you wanna go to my motel, honey? boy, you wanna hold me down, tell me that you love me? boy, you know that i have really never loved nobody but you?

perfect girl - marreux you’re such a strange girl the way you look like you do you’re such a strange girl i want to be with you

glory box - portishead just give me a reason to love you give me a reason to be a woman i just wanna be a woman

talk show host - radiohead you want me? fucking come on and break the door down i’m ready

margaret - lana del rey (ft. the bleachers) if you’re asking yourself, “how do you know?” then that’s your answer, your answer is no you gotta run, gotta run, run, run, run, like your heads on fire

heart to heart - mac demarco to the days we spent together to all the times we played a part in each others lives heart to heart

i’m your man - leonard cohen if you want a father for your child or only want to walk with me another mile across the sand i’m your man if you want a lover i’ll do anything you ask me to and if you want another kind of love i’ll wear another mask for you

i dunno what i’m doing on this account lol, i watched the movie super late and have been using my main acc to read fics and snoop in the fandom but i made this playlist and really needed to share it with lyrics so here!!! perhaps, if you want explanations or little blurbs based on any of these songs or others, send me an ask and maybe i’ll do something with them!!!

i’m also not sure if posts like this are interesting at all, but i’m also putting together playlists for tashi and art atm!!!

[what-the-fic-khr]

Hiii Bronwyn I hope you are doing well ! :’) I’m wondering if you’d be up for writing something a lil cute and sweet and fun about Squalo discovering that his s/o has their nips pierced?? 👀 absolutely understandable if this doesn’t spark any inspiration tho bc ahdjshdjfhd I am truly just So Down Bad for any squalo content atm💀 thank you for your time and consideration !! 🖤

WEEEE HI THIS HAS SAT FOR A WHILE BUT NOT AS LONG AS LTHERS. STILL IM SORRY HELLO I BRING YOU THIS. IDK IF IT FITS CUTE SWEET AND FUN BUT HERES WHAT I COULD GET OUT AT LEAST I HOPE ITS OKAY (I might write more based on it?? 👉🏻👈🏻)

character/s: superbi squalo, reader-insert (gender-neutral)

word count: 661

warnings: talkin’ about nipple piercings but doesn’t mention body type, so gender neutral. suggestive at the end lol

prompt: squalo learns his partner has nipple piercings

It was getting too damn hot. God, he needed to invest in a fan or something. This shit was getting ridiculous.

“Hiiiii.”

Squalo glanced up shortly to acknowledge you entering his office, grunting lowly before returning to his paperwork.

“D’you need your hair put up?” You hovered around to fiddle with some things after handing him some papers, checking to see if his windows could open any further than they were. The answer was ‘no’.

“Huh? Whatever.”

Wasn’t a refusal, so you shuffled over to carefully pull his hair up. It wasn’t the neatest, not by a long shot, but it got the majority of his hair off of his shoulders and out of his face. His brows furrowed; he didn’t have his jacket on and neither did you, but something hard was brushing against his back when you moved. He dropped it when you stepped away.

“Alrighty, good to go. Good luck with that.”

He grumbled something, nodding shortly. You went to leave with a hum, and he watched you closely, eyeing you over until finally the silhouette of your shirt changed just the slightest.

“Pause.”

You did, freezing in the centre of the room. You glanced at him curiously. “Yep? Somethin’ wrong?”

His eyes narrowed at you and you huffed a little at the attention on your chest.

“It’s way too warm for that right now, sorry-“

“Shut up, idiot, that’s not what I’m doing. Stay still.”

You did. You tried, at least, when he stood and rounded his desk to advance on you. You took a physical step back when he brushed a knuckle over one of your nipples, the two of you quiet.

“What the fuck? Since when did-“

“Oh!” You pet your chest with a pleased hum. “I just don’t have them in when I’m doing work, and you usually catch me in uniform. Ain’t no way I’m leaving this place today, so I figured I’d wear them for once. It’s been a while!”

This seemed to get the cogs turning in his head for a few seconds, and you would’ve laughed if not for the surprised noise you made when he reached straight for the hem of your shirt.

“W-Wait, you just said-“

“Show me.”

“What?! Right now?!”

“Is there a problem with that?”

You glanced past him at his window warily before tilting your head back to check his door, listening closely for if anyone was walking by. When silence met your ears you relented and lifted your arms to accomodate for him pulling your button down up and over your chest.

“Cute, right? I spent a lot on them; real crystals and all!” You chimed, proud of your taste in body jewellery. “It’s a shame I can’t wear em’ as often as I used to.”

“Used to?” Squalo’s brows furrowed. He’d been with you for a while now, at least over a year and a half, but had not heard of or seen them once until now.

“Oh, I’ve had ‘em since I could legally get them. So, a pretty long time ago. I just had to stop wearing them for safety when I started doing more physical work.”

Well, it made sense, but god that fucking sucked. They looked good on you.

Squalo slowly lifted his gaze up to you and you smiled, head tilting cutely. “Yep?”

You huffed, stumbling backwards until your back met his door when he pushed you across his room by the chest, leaning in, chest to chest. You gasped a little, Squalo wrapping his fingers around your chin and lifting your head.

“It’s still way too warm, but eventually I gotta get all this sweat off of me. Let me see them better later in the shower after work.”

Your breathing had picked up and your head was getting foggy. You nodded the best you could with his fingers holding your head in place.

“Good. Now get lost.”

“Ah… Sure.”

You needed a drink. A cold one.

[ruindgod]

be sure to check out my wanted plots! & below i'll list some muses that i'd love to write something with! i'll be away for most of the weekend in regards to replies but around for plots / chatting! feel free to send me a meme for a starter or send me an im for plots!

NOTE — * i will say that i'm totally open for romance plots!! but be aware that i'm only interested in writing queer romances atm. cishet romances just do not interest me & romance is not the only thing i'm interested in writing with these characters but i am putting it out there.

JUDE HOLLOWAY ─── [ charles melton. ] a bastard! living too fast and hoping to die young, jude burns through his father's money and exists from one moment to the next. i'd love to do smth where he can be a bastard ... great for crime plots or slice of life ... he's gay but extremely closeted, drives too fast, and is probably stealing from u ! for no reason other than he can! and ur an easy mark(: ...

SAM WINCHESTER ─── [ jack mulhern ] simple guy, i am ... i just wanna write sam winchester ... throw me ur ocs, ur canons, i'll take em all! all he does is hunt things and save people. it's the family business

WICHITA LOCKWOOD ─── [ oliver jackson-cohen. ] i would love to do something in regards to cults with wichita! nothing too solid here but i do have some ideas ... set in the 90s / modern day / or post apoc! count all ur trigger warnings, it would involve cults / cult activities / heavy religious themes and others things that would be involved with that.

AURELIUS ─── [ sleeping beauty ] pleeeeease let me write him! a fairy prince who lives in your dreams and can mimic any sound he hears, he's looking for his body / the tower he fell asleep in or his other verse where he's a trickster minstrel ... high fantasy adventures! modern versions! i don't care! he's silly!

honestly let me write all of my princes — mainly a high fantasy verse but they all have their modern counterparts!

RABBIT & WOLF ─── [ sen mitsuji. ] my crime twins ... rabbit is a bastard who can get you anything you need and wolf isn't much better but he's more of the bodyguard / fighter type ! they also have powers / abilities if you would like to do that! rabbit can teleport and wolf has super strength .. idk i think it would be fun to fuck around and find out !

CHECK OUT THE REST OF MY MUSES!!! i wanna write them all): okily

[plutoons]

Can you do a tutorial on how your art process is done I’m about to quit on Art everything I make fucking sucks .

hey anon !! My art process is almost non existent cause i haven’t been able to stick to One definitive way and i don’t want to cause i think its limiting. I still have a long way to go for improving my skills and learning new things and figuring out different styles !!

Heres a quickk drawing showing what my “main” process is

This is something i generally have stuck to for most of my posted drawings (i can post things specific to some drawings on a separate reblog ^^ im just to lazy to get pictures of em for examples rn)

Doodle !! I cant visualize shit, and usually have a very vague idea of what id like to draw Or just nothing at all. So I doodle messily with expressive gestures till’ i find something that sticks

choose one final concept/sketch and clean it up a lil so i have a way better idea of what im getting myself into

Base colors cause i hate doing lineart. So i just go straight into colors casue its fun and i like fun!! Right on top or on a diff layer it doesnt matter. I color pick with my eyes and put base colors or anything i think it would be cool. No pressure and it can messy cause I’ll clean it up and figure shit out later

fuck around and find out (rendering ig)—> i cant explain it super well or definitively. I just layer and throw colors on top till im satisfied or Done with it. I flip my canvas a bunch or check my values to make sure the results come out to look more coherent regardless of the mess of color

Im just a simple person and cant handle something that requires too many steps or things that havta be done Just right so this works for me atm. This may not be your jam but finding a process in that works for you through trial an error is just a part of art. Do what works for you!! I think experimenting is so important even if it sucks in the end

(more Words / “advice ?” under cut)

I have so many shitty drawings and sketches and even colored things that outweigh the tiny bits of art i decide to show off

I totally get that creating art can get really discouraging at times; not getting the results you want when you want them no matter how much effort you put in just sucks, but it won’t always be that way :] even if it takes you 10 years to find your groove and see improvement or 2 years, it’ll happen. I find that i’ve only improved when i actively didn’t give a fuck about how my art looks and only cared that i was having fun through it all, and thats hard cause perfectionism is a bitch and its hard to get rid of. You could improve with studies and daily practice for sure but moving towards improvement can be as fun and light n breezy as you want to make it, like taking a break to explore different hobbies or changing up mediums or fucking around and experimenting with it can help !!! Allow ur art to be bad; cause fuck it, at least you made something and thats really really cool. Once you cut urself some slack it’ll be easier to improve upon your skillset and slowly but surely get to where you want

Sorry im a bit tired idk if this is coherent so heres a more direct thing i’d like to say:

Maybe ur art isn’t where you want it to be rn and ik it can kill ur motivation to keep going at it (i’ve experienced this feeling a lot and im sure so have many others). But you gotta ease up on urself and stop worrying about results so you can allow yourself to experiment and have fun!! And its hard getting into that mindset but you gotta keep trying and you’ll find it getting easier

[chanquokka]

Here's A Little Get-To-Know-You Tag Game!

Tagged by: de wonderfulest ppl @noonaracha @straykidsgallery and @itsstraykids thank you sm!!! (go appreciate their cool point stories!)

Name(s): juni! is what i decided. some friends on this hellsite also call me solar so wtv u prefer. atp i just have a bunch of nicknames bcs i also have a Weird Name, A Weirder (Family) Nickname in real life

Pronouns: he/she/they/it<3 when i say feel free. pls and thank u

Star Sign: libra, right when it starts (and just a day after seungmin's!)

#of Siblings And Fun Facts About Them(if u have any): one (1) younger gremlin brother, and the funnest fact abt them is that he has been a walking directory of telephone no's since he was 4 and now can be relied upon to calculate large numbers inside his head in point seconds. Still hates physics(and most things theory)> by which, he also stores insane and inane amount of stats info (abt all types of things, but mostly sports) inside his head ready to be flourished at a moments notice, which is mildly impressive when ur 6 and debating with college students the scores of a game that happened 15yrs before u were born but not now when ur 17 and ppl are more focused on your test scores rather than ones u know, so</3 also has his birthday on changbin's but he doesnt know abt that

#of Pets: there's a history there. with fishes that my ma deceived me with on my 12th birthday(when i asked for a pet, i imagined smth i could hold) and then liked too much herself that we had them for 5yrs. three times; birds, but my brother kind of freed them while singing a lullaby with only me as an unbelieving witness. a dog (belovedest of em all) my dad picked from street as a puppy and who, then, had to be given away after 3yrs bcs of Stupid Reasons im still mad abt. now i just have street cats showing up at my front door to safekeep their babies on my staircase's isolated nooks till they grow up and vanish and street dogs who believe i have endless supplies of treats and show me sad faces when i dont. i really want a pet</3 but for now im contending with pictures of kitties whose moms operate on strict 'see-dont-touch' policies and sweet sweet strays who like to befriend u too easy.

Fandoms: many, but rn im active mostly in skz and mxtx. id love to be in other stuff i read and watch but since Capitalism hates me dearly,,,

Favorite Color: darker shades of all and any colors(esp blue green and red)!!! can be relied upon immensely to look warm and pretty always

Favorite Song: picking favorites for anything is out of my capabilities. also am just listening to my favorite bollywood playlist a lot these days.

Favorite Author: have a working list of favorite poets that does not end at 1. have not read a book seriously in four years of exam/prep-locking. but even if i did, idt ill be able to pick any favorite bcs, yk. good things in many things. (tldr; its roald dahl) (and ruskin bond who i read when i was 5 and still read when im so tired bcs his stories inspire me to write always)

Hobbies: I dance(perform) sometimes? I write??(←derogatory, dubious) make stuff, mostly poems and stories and tinker with free things i can do, both online or craft. analysis of things with friends is a beloved activity. i liek yoga and stretching (rn in an ongoing war with 3° winter mornings to drag myself out of bed and go to class at 6) cooking when i have time but mostly, always, reading (or! watching) stories, poems and learning abt cool nonfiction things (does crying abt fiction count)

Favorite Holiday: none of the above its the trips and getaways u make for yourself. all my beloved memories are always mostly from when our family makes a trip to someplace my mom insists or there's a non-worrying emergency to go somewhere. just family getting together under some pretense, even tho it is stressful as fuck.

Do You Have Any Partner(s): persuading my best friend atm but sadly she's straight</3(no lmao)

Fun facts about you/anything extra you wanna share!: since im having it rn- coffee doesnt keep me up or sometimes even makes me nod off, a fact i discovered after my 14yr old brain had the brilliant idea to try out the cool, forbidden drink after dinner knowing i wasnt allowed to. this is not fun to my ma but growing up in a sort of restrictive household, im also just weirdly good at sneaking and doing stuff im not supposed to without getting caught. i also do not know how to talk in lesser words. this is an absolute curse, yes i have tried. beware</3

this^ is a mess but thank u i had fun!! lemme tag: @winterfloral @syannie @hyunhomoons @quokki @chogiwow @agibbangs @rainknow @lixence @hyunebear @straykidsgallery @jerirose @ambivartence @hongjoongpresent + anyone who wishes to! apologies if tagged already!

[xshimaeraxx]

I've seen many posts about people missing how common asks used to be so I have been trying to send about an ask a week. Now I send this ask first anytime I follow someone as I really don't want to bother anyone, so I'd love to know if you enjoy receiving asks and if so what kind of asks. Not having energy for asks or being comfortable with them is perfectly okay.

The categories I have in my ask notebook that I file under are in colour. Please feel free to make your response as long as you want or private (the asker cannot directly respond to private responses).

Self, Job/Work: please let me know what you are comfortable with from eh idk just ask it to nothing personal at all.

Baggishield/Tolkien, Dragon Age, Johnlock/Sherlock, ineffable spouses, other fandom: Please let me know what fandoms. I think my main fandoms and ships are Bagginshield/The Hobbit, Sherlock/Johnlock, Dragon Age Inquisition, {Pippin/Faramir Merry/Eowyn}/The Lord of the Rings and I dip my toes in a few that I currently can't remember but ships I don't engage with the canon of at all are: Good Omens but only for Crowley/Azirapheal, Stranger Things but only for Steve/Eddie , The Witcher but only for Geralt/Jaskier, and Ladybug and Cat Noir but only for Adrinette .

OC's, art/drawing, their writing, blog specific only

Story snippets ideas and prompts: Do you like receiving them?

Pets: I'd love to know all about them

Garden and Hobbies: What type of gardening and/or hobbies?

Like being tagged in things: If so what kinds of things?

*Asks are sent for fun, no pressure to answer.

hello!!! yeah, i love receiving asks, lmao, & as for ur questions:

self, job/work: hmmm. im not rly comfy w any major questions ab my irl life (like stuff along the lines of “where specifically t do you live” (like im a brit, but if somewhere were to ask js where i live in the uk, i wldnt answer, as is common sense (imo) when it comes to the internet), “how old are you” “what is (are) your irl name(s)” etc. etc. - identifying stuff, basically), tho anythin’ else is pretty much on the table rn.

fandoms: oh, fandoms my beloved. my main fandoms atm (for both reading & writing, tho some r only reading while some r only writing, etc. etc.) are cuphead (i have way too much worldbuilding for this one au of mine that branches off into so many aus of the au, its genuinely gettin a lil crazy /pos /lh; i write fic for this one, aswell- in fact, its kinda my main writing-for fandom atm ^^), the hobbit (bagginshield my beloved i love you shjshsjehejs - i also dable vaguely in lotr (mainly gimli/legolas + parentshield tbh lmao) but its mostly js the hobbit for me), good omens (i love the ineffables i love s1 & s2 & HSJSHSJSHSJ i js love it like. all around. fuck gaimon tho, death of the author tyvmm), my hero academia/boku no hero academia (i dont engage w fandom much other then a few fanfic writers’ blogs here on tumblr & ao3 fanfic lmao XD; love the anime tho), harry potter (FUCK jkr, speaking as a brit myself none of us claim her, the transphobes can have her, we dont want her /lh - love the (good parts of) fanbase tho. ive actually made some rly good fic-writer friends thru it over on discord lmao), & ofc rise of the guardians!!! (fuckin love that thing, so sad there was never a second move :sadblob: love playin around w fanon/fandom lore tho, & i LOVE jackrabbit (bunnymund/jack) its my main ship in the fandom, tho im a multishipper so im also kinda partial to some other ones ofc)

ocs, art/drawing, writing, blog specific: not entirely sure what this one’s asking/if its actually a question, but imma answer it any lolol XD. anygays - ocs: i have a few cuphead ocs, but none of ‘em r self-inserts & all only rly exist bc of/for/to enhance/move forward the plot of my (main) cuphead au, tho ofc theyre still ocs - love ‘em like my children even if i dont love ‘em as much as i do the canon characters, snirk. art/drawing: i do draw, tho i rarely post any of my art, and one or two times i have its usually bc im js proud enough of it to want to share it, ehehe. writing: i write. so much fanfic. none of its posted, but i have so many wips i frankly dont know when any one of ‘em will be, sooo… shrug. blog specific: my blog isnt rly “specific”; its more js a place for me to enage w cool art & fics & such & reblog stuff i like on here as well as probably self-promo my own fics & such, as well as js a place to put my random ramblings in XD.

story snippets & prompts: oh, i love ‘em!! always nice 2 get a new burst of writing motivation ::D

pets: ohhh, cats. i love cats. had one for a while for around a good two years or so but after he injured his paw & we had 2 keep him inside for 3 weeks straight, the flightly lil bugger’s runaway. he (might’ve; still don’t know for sure whether it rly was him or not, but he apparently responded to his name from my mother’s accounts, so :shrug:) came back in the middle of the night a week or so ago now, but idtk whether he’s dead, alive, or js been taken in by some other family who thinks he’s a stray. :sigh:

gardening & hobbies: i don’t garden, and as for hobbies… not much, rly. i like writing fic, i like reading, i like going on (short, i have shite stamina) walks every other day or so, i like talkin w my few friends. like i said, not much. ::)

like being tagged in things: yes, i do! and as for what… anything, rly! tag games, fic wip games, askbox/ask games, im good w ‘em all! ::D

thx for the ask; have a good day/night/timezone!! ::>

[matrixonvhsanddvd]

Here's my set up!

In England most ppl do use roll ups. U tend to find that ppl who only smoke straights (pre rolled) are older ppl, ppl who have more money and ppl who don't smoke often enuff to bother. A packet of straights can last a really long time and will keep better than a packet of baccy (loose tobacco) as there's less to dry out.

I use a rolling tin because i cant roll freehand for shit no matter what (and im a handy person, its just too fiddly for me), it's easier to do while walking and i have physical difficulties. It's rare that i see anyone else use a tin, i only started because my bff did! It's not uncommon for ppl to use a rolling machine tho, which is like a tin that's been reduced to just the liner and..rolling pins?

Tins are no more expensive than a good rolling machine and tend to last longer. I prefer to change the liner when it dies rather than but a new one tho. They can be annoying to clean if u care about that but they're useful in that they can hold ur supplies! And put stickers on :3

A packet of tobacco is usually about 30g for £12-17 (tho average is about £14) now from a regular supermarket. It did used to be less before the recent inflation :( a 20 pack of pre rolls is about the same price. To give u an idea of how much more cost effective roll ups are than straights; a 20 pack currently would last me 2-4 days (IV had to cut down coz i have no money lol but this is numbers only, not counting factors like poverty) and 30gs of baccy would last me 2-3 weeks.

It's still common to see empty cigarette packets littering places and u will occasionally see a tobacco packet. They're all decorated now with warnings and warning images due to the law, all packets. They have different warnings and related pictures they get used but I'm not sure how often new ones are added? This one is my favourite atm for sure:

It's also useful to at least have the ability and resources to make a roll up if ur ever desperate/smoke drugs. Old fags on the floor can be picked up and u can squeeze any unsmoked baccy out into a bag to use for a Frankenstein roll up. I tend to find certain brands of straight cigarettes only get half smoked ?? Very good pickings if ur bottom of the food chain.

Its also easier to roll a spliff if u can...roll lol (spliff as i know it to be is a regular fag sized roll up with a blend of baccy and weed) and any other combo of smoking materials (other drugs, herbs etc).

On community culture (i promise this is the last bit), rolling sumone a fag is way more intimate and thotful than just handing em a straight (tho depending on ur Poverty Status™ it may be difficult to accept a straight due to their higher value). There's also the act of passing on the rest of ur fag to another person, usually towards the end of its life. Here that's called, 'twos'. So itd be, 'can i have 2s?' or, 'u can have 2s if u want?' which is a fun word for it i think!

Sorry to ramble but i figured ud be interested and i enjoy teaching ppl about menial things like this lol

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Holy fuck thank you so much for detailing all this to me, I was honestly really happy reading all of this because it interested me so much. It's funny to me still how the demographic for rolling cigs here is usually the polar opposite lol, it seems its always people who are a lot older who enjoy rolling them up more than just buying a pack of straight cigs.

Also I absolutely love the pack you showed off of course, I'm always a sucker for the ones with "gore" on them, but also I've just never seen a tobacco pack before so that's really sick, thank you!

I guess if someday I'm ever down in England for some reason, I will be very caught up on smoking culture at least. Thank you again for sharing lol

[autistic-sidestep]

17, 28, and 31 if u want!

17. what is their ultimate goal?

this is the question that made me sit on this ask since september cos idfk lmao. (im also lowkey shaking sidestep WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS WAR YOU'VE STARTED THAT YOU'RE ALLUDING TO,,,) while sura IS a tactician and presumably she does have plans like expanding the syndicate? making sure she stays the hell out of the farm's reaches? this is probably where the fate/"all of this just feels inevitable" motive plays in cos honestly? [plankton voice] "i never thought i'd get this far" (in their villain career and like. living wise. lol suitag at it again) is tempering a lot of what she thinks she can achieve. this is not great when you're supposed to be the leader of a budding criminal organisation but! he's doing it anyway!

28. what do they find attractive in others? what’s a turn-off? i think it's assertiveness/confidence? but mainly being able to annoy the shit out of each other/bantering/general sense of humour.

there is a running theme across the various people sura's attracted to that being mutual annoyances to eachother. (well. idk if cigs' rey can really be annoyed back. he's the one being annoying + the outlier out of the four. ortega, chen and geek-o13's cyrus all fit tho)

most of all just being able to be… comfortable with the other person, ig. that used to be ricardo pre-hb but not anymore :/ sura's very annoyed that they're still crushing on him. something something lingering hero-worship feelings + do i want to be him or BE him 🏳️‍🌈. fun fact! in a julia verse sura would be equally smitten with charge. more femme presenting pre-hb for sure and copying the long hair to have braids just like her. and then going completely the opposite direction post-hb to distance itself from her by having its hair short.

i'll get back to you on turn-offs i have no idea atm lol.

31. what is their combat style like? it's a mix! there's definitely a stylish flair to it as argos, but they can change it up on the fly. usually they like baiting opponents with an opening move/getting a feel for the way they react before going in, similar to chen and ortega with a mysterious/functional step during the gala. sura was originally a fighterstep before i flipped them to tactician, but some of that fighty mindset is still there (hopefully reflective of their daring/caution stat being pretty balanced). even though the powersuit exoskeleton lets sura fight more directly, there's still a lot of obfuscation/dodging/momentum redirection still leftover from being sidestep. sura likes being hard to figure out. keep em guessing lol.

[yuspne]

words cannot describe how nostalgic and warm ur art is… love the goroken sibling dynamic though! care 2 share any hcs u have for them ? ^_^

hiiiiiiiii tysm !!!  im rlly glad you asked hehe . taps mic ,. okay so i have like 1 billion of these but unfortunately im hella busy w college atm and dont rlly have time to list em all but here are some i have at the top of my head rn :D

their moms are sisters + shido father ,,, popular hc actually and i freaking love it

idc in my head they grew up together but got separated when mamakechi died and reunite  when both are 18 (p5 tl) (that one swings drawing of mine is based on this)

im a huge goroken + futaba siblingnism truther . liek helllooo they are so real !!! (wakaba and mamakechi yuri and that one bald fuck who Unfortunatelly is their father)

i dont talk about this one much bc it has a lotta gaps and isnt rlly a hc but it works the best for my physical appearance hcs explanation so . sees siblings au . basically p3 tl but add goro there and u get the fuck u brothers . i will probly yap on this once i have time to actually think bout details and stuff ! So . appearances, idk they are twins to me !!! here are two old twt screenshots with some details :3

both of them cant cook they are losers ‼️

cuz they look the samr they love impersonating each other like for example imagine shadow ops hqs . someone calls for goro but instead of goro comes ken and the person who called for him has no idea its not actually goro because ken copies goros speech style and everything ,,, or they could also do this with their unis just for funsies (and only koromaru can tell them apart at first glance when they are in this fuck u brothers mode)

  they have featherman watching sessions where they just randomly decide to rewatch all the seasons + movies once every three months or so (this is goroken + futaba) 

Okay thats all for neow ! i kinda suck at putting my thoughts into words so uh my apologies and thank u for reading :DDD

[xplrstoner]

A carrd template! ^^ Also omg can we plzz talk about how firee NWD is because it’s been on repeat for us! We’re also going to our very first Greyday this year and we are beyond excited!! :DD

Ah I’m so sorry I don’t do carrds atm, I haven’t done them in a few years and I’d be too nervous about making it bad LMAO, but as an alternative - I can always make a rentry for you, with all the information you need, you can just dm me the info !!

AND YES OHMYHGODO SO FUCKING GOOD ꨄ IM OBSESSED WITH IT ISTG MIGHT BE MY SECOND FAVOURITE ALBUM FROM THEM EVER . What’s your top 3 ? I’d say mine is probably 1. Drag em to the river 2. Burgundy 3. Misery in waking hours. YOURE SO LUCKY !! I hope you guys have sm fun, I’m hoping I can go next time, I’m so excited for u guys, ur gonna have sm fun I’m sure of it ꨄ

[radical-rigatoni1]

Making my own little au where Mikey goes to rise, WXCEPT I actually like 2012 bros, I think they're fun, and I get rlly mad when their characters are done wrong. Like NO he would NOT do that!! Unless it's hardcore an au, then slay. Like " hey sunshine " by leaden , that's a good one. GOT OFF TRACK but yeah I won't butcher 2012 besides some little jokes, like leo and karai bejng icky jokes. Maybe some apritello, NO SHIPS BTW !! Writing fan romance of these guys with April or Casey or anything makes me feel icky, like Unless it's canon I won't do it, I refuse. WICH ALSO MEANS NO TCEST!! I FUCKING DISPISE THAT SHIT!!

So

No romance

I like 2012 enough to not slam the boys

I hate mischaracterization

My writing is something I'm working on but I promise I'll fix ut enough to not be annoying

And rise is going to have moments with all of them, im a raph fan and a donnie fan and a leo fan and a mikey fan!, so nobody gets too much screen time, well maybe the mikey's for 1 on 1 bonding bcs they are aus of eachotehr and they totally would be besties. But I hate it when you can obv tell the writer has a preference.

No gender headcanons tho, and no Sexuality headcanons too, I keep em straight and cis, sorry nb donnie fans, and gay leo fans, I just don't wanna. I don't hate them I just don't feel like working through that atm, and I don't think I ever will.

Oh! And rise is after the movie, but kinda way after, some headcanon lasting effects but nothing crazy, just leo having random pains, raph's sensitivity to his eye and also partially blind, mikey's shaky hands and Donnie hating people touching his shell.

I don't know when I'll upload it, but stay tuned because I'm planning on drawing some stuff for it, trust me my art is better then the last tmnt art post I made, I swear.

[warwithoutreason]

amaristm -> road-boy -> warwithoutreason

woah introduction real. long post sorrey

hello my name is lane or juno. he/it/Several neopronouns. i'm a gay lad just click this [ <- pronouns.page link ] for more information

if you feel like learning more click the wonderful keep reading button. warning for flashing stuff down the very bottom of this post

uh im australian [ as in the white boy variety. not aboriginal ] and use the fucking aest/aedt timezone [ i have No Clue which one it is rn man ]

getting it out of the way up here since i think it's one of the first things most people look for in a description but i don't have a dni because hey who's gonna follow that. however, if i look at your blog and you're marked as a transphobe on shinigami eyes or generally you're bigoted i am going to block you. or if i just don't like you i will block you. homophobes transphobes terfs aphobes racists and ableists go fuck yourselves <3

the theme used on my blog is by @/ricecodes. profile picture from corru.observer you should play it [ flashing lights tho so beware ]

i use [ square brackets ] instead of (parenthesis) because it is fun. for some reason ive decided to space them out in this post i dont know why but i dont normally do that

i have awful humour [ deez nuts ur mom etc etc. sometimes ironic homophobia. EMPHASIS ON IRONIC i am gay myself i don't have anything against queer people ] and i have a grudge against using proper grammar. sometimes i use tone indicators. i also swear a lot

there might be nsfw on this blog but it'll all be textpost jokes 👍

i call people man and dude and bro a lot just know that i mean it in a completely gender neutral way. if you don't like something i say about you [ in terms of calling you bro or something that might cause a bad gender time ] Please tell me and i'll stop doing that

i have too many interests but heres some of em [ key: Very Interested, i like this a normal amount, not very into it atm, i appreciate this but wouldn't consider myself a proper 'fan' ]

my ocs [ though everything i post about them when i do like once per year will probably be incomprehensible ]

corru.observer [ Play it. play it. i fucking love corru observer it is in your web browser quick easy and free. pley it plase /nf ]

ultrakill

just. generally. chonny jash's music

the kirby series [ mainly rtdl, robobot, star allies and katfl. also the anime a bit? ]

2001: a space odyssey

i have no mouth and i must scream

scp: find us alive

17776 / 20020

undertale

deltarune

omori

mob psycho 100

generation loss

half life vr but the ai is self aware

the magnus archives [ not finished yet, though ! i'm at like season 3 ]

project sekai [ + vocaloids in general ]

the process of elimination [ by disfixdog/hypertextdog. read it now. shameless advertising. it's awesome ]

no follow [ by shishka. VERY fun browser game ]

the upturned

demonvn / demon detangled [ by gertritude. its still in progress i think ]

the mandela catalogue

spiderman: itsv + atsv

heathers

the stanley parable

portal 1 + 2

ai builds

ace attorney [ the first stuff, i stopped when apollo justice showed up lol ]

serial experiments lain

off

ride the cyclone

yume nikki

faith: the unholy trinity

neon white

grab a snack at 4 am

regretevator

lego monkie kid

i sometimes do picrew chains and uquizzes and stuff, as well as occasionally gettin up to shenanigans with mutuals

occasionally i post art [ usually of my silly ocs ] under the tag #roadboy art. i don't think i've done this in like a year now. don't take any of the art in the tag as a representation of my art style ive changed it a lot

^ @/b0nkcreat ^

^ https://corru.observer ^

^ https://shishka.neocities.org/nofollow ^

^ https://disfixdog.neocities.org ^

^ @/aropride ^

^ https://spiritcellar.neocities.org ^

^ made by me messing around on blinkies.cafe ^

^ made by my friend astrid ^__^ it screams because it does not know how to communicate its feelings ^

[whatthebodygraspsnot]

Hey how do you keep the little kiddies attentions when you actively try to teach them something? I know kids love to learn so I wanna know if you've got any secrets

I'm teaching skiing to 3 and 4yr olds atm and they're awesome and I love it but it's so hard to keep them focused when we're learning something new

skiing what 🥺 i can't believe. okay im not sure the transferability to your specific material, but here's some tactics i use daily.

Big Group

changing voice inflection/facial expressions to keep things exciting. im sure you already do this because it's instinctual when working with kids this young, but specifically if they're talking over you, crouching down a little and dropping into a whisper (still making sure they can hear you tho obv.) it's weird to them and many times they'll wanna hear what you're saying so they'll pay attention lol

"okay ready? let's turn on our listening ears" *pantomiming twisting a knob by each ear* / "lemme see your eyeballs" *pantomiming binoculars in front of your eyes* <- the wording of this one is weird but my kids know im weird and respond to it lmao. not sure if they're returning for are multiple classes or just one, but when they hear these phrases recurring, they recognize it's time to listen to something extra important.

lots of verbal repetition. especially if it's a specific word they need to remember. after repeating it a bunch, using it in a open ended sentence that they all answer. (ex. "and then we use our sticks, which are called ouuuuur ___?" *they answer* "nice! yes.")

One on One

obviously differs with each kid's learning style, but again lots of repetition. i assume theres a lot of physical movement going on with you, so not only repeating the motion, but using the same voice inflection with the motion each time. (ex. "we snap our boots onto the ski - snap! snap! - and we STAAAAAND UP)(<-everyone catching me in 4k for not knowing how to ski.) if it's the same noises/inflection and they're repeating it with you when they do it, you'll find it's easier for them to compartmentalize the motion. it'll also earworm back into their brain as reference when they're doing it on their own. it's kinda like a lil mantra they can follow.

a touch of what i like to call The Dumbass Method. personal favorite. it's not used a lot, but every once in a while, you pretend to forget what the next step is. if they know it and offer it freely, hit em with a "OH yeah - you're right thank you for reminding me." they'll feel awesome and powerful and their confidence will be boosted.

"it's okay to mess up!" obviously your material has more dire consequences to them messing up, so you'd have to narrow that down to whatever you think applies. but like.....just letting them fuck up. ya know? letting them fuck up and then reassuring them that it's okay and then helping them correct it with a smile. if they know it's okay to fuck up then they're usually more willing to try/do great shit!

through the course of writing this i have become absolutely obsessed with the concept of teaching 3s/4s how to ski, so if you ever have stories PLEASE i beg you share them lol. hope some of this is helpful

[lemonpixycat]

heya sorry to be adding to the innudation of messages your probs getting atm, and dont worry if you dont feel up to replying or anything, but i just wanted to also add my sympathies for your loss -- everyone is so right that she knows how much you love her no latter what and that its a mark of a good owner and a someone who wants whats best for her that despite the really fast turn around you know its best to let her go, even though it kills you. Im so sorry still though. I just wanted to advise that smth i did when we recently lost our two family dogs in the same way of seeming better than very quick decline is to get a blank card or even your phone notes and write down everything you know about her rn - her face her smell how she'd react to different weather, if she gets the zoomies sometimes or if shes ever puked on your fave pair of shoes etc. When the griefs really fresh its so hard to lose all those little things too and its nice now for me to look at the reminders i took down the day before their appointments and know that george used to howl along if i ever cried in front of him and patrick used huff really dramatically if you had to get him to move off the sofa after he settled down for a nap. They were weird little guys that lived in my house for years and years and their quirks made em so unique. I miss them so much but i love them the same still. Pets are the fucking best man but god the loss hurts - give her big pets from me and im sending you the biggest hug vibes i can via tumblr ask box <3

I really like that idea of writing down all the things I remember about her. I might do that tonight in my journal; I never want to forget what a special little girl she is Thank you so much for the sympathies and I'm sorry about your doggies