#gay men stop reanimating the dead !!

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when will the gays learn that reanimating the dead is not a sure fire way to get a boyfriend

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camp here and there thoughts

considered spamming my friend, but instead ill put stuff here.

this is all my thoughts from as im listening to it, btw

sydney and jedidiah are quincent confirmed?!! (not clickbait)

i will literally eat up any character named rowan no questions asked

the first bit with the penguins reminds me of burrows end

one of my favorite silly weird things is time going past the numbers it should (reminds me of everything is fine. i think it was like, the first episode? digital clock goes from 2:59 to 2:60? super cool, love it)

"let us live to die another day" (will you live to see tomorrow or die another dayyy// once a spy always a spy.... sorry, sorry)

i love that theres emojis in the transscripts

i feel so bad for the vegans at camp

mentions of apocalypse? a character called rowan? (you know what time it is folks: obscure lyric references!!!! (my beautiful apocolypse, if i asked you to be mine, would our purposes align?) again, sorry. ill stop. no i wont.)

woo! sydney feelings hour!

i love syndey telling his tape recorder not to tell anyone about his hallucinations

ok random thing i just noticed the titles have like part of the one before them and part of the one after and thats just pretty cool

why is the sky always bad

sydney being very normal about death and jedidiah bein like 'no' is also very quincent

interesting the 'when you die you will rot' is a recurring thing

sydeys laugh is so cute i love himmm

ok so theres like a spider cabin, moth cabin, ladybug cabin and BATTLE CABIN?

children being bribed by sugar is one of the most realistic parts of this

ok but the distinction between reanimation and true necromancy is actually really cool

sydney as much as i love you why the heck did you say thick like that

(when youre a ghost recorder, no one knows your name, but they wont try to stop you if you arent playing the game)

'our bedroom' actually screaming

the voice acting is such yum

again, sydneys noncholance about death related things

omg gay?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

poor jedidiah is so pathetic and bbg

for the record i hate oposite day too

gasp: a navarro (makes sense shes a tyrant) (im refrencing gentlemens guide to love and murder? i think? i dont even know at this point)

i love that all of ep 5 is sydney being too extra and jedidiah being the most exasperated

ok so maybe the implication is that matthew isnt human, but also ppl can have extra color cones, but only afab ppl bc color cones are in the x chromosome (thats also why men are more likely to be color blind) so trans matthew hc now

sydney are your eyes ok??

justice for sydneys fancy soap

if someone does magic and hurts sydney i will cry

ok so now with confirmation that they use analog clocks i really wana know what they look like

also i was thinking about why the music from last ep reminded me of something v specific and i think its yokai watch?

"babe" ok theyve got to be gay right???

sydneys allergic to seeing goo? interesting

father time? a bastard? omg you know what time it is (hehehe time bastard)

sydney and jedidiah are so cute im actually going to die

aww i want lava cake w real lava :( (fun fact by strange definition water is technicaly a form of lava)

ok so the amount of wholesomeness makes me think something bad is going to happen

"theyre penny loafers :("

rowan rowan rowan rowan rowan rowan!!!

the audio design is so yummy idk if i said that already

(uhh i accidentaly skipped most of ep six so back to that)

(the elephant man is just dead ambrose and sydney is vincent if they werre better at communicating)

"worms arent people" uh, YES THEY ARE, rude.

jedidiah whatever your project is it cant be so important that you havent played chess with your bf in A COUPLE OF YEARS wtf

(ok now to regularly scheduled friendship goo)

sydney calling the camper different animals is one of my favorite things

why is the sky always fucked up

"scary things like...men" sir you are men (but also same i am so scared of men and also are men)

jeDIDiah lmao

"your husband" and sydney just goes with it

ok but why is sydney slowly giving more and more louis taopp vibes (plz dont be like him)

i love casual loredrops about chocolate shortages

"friends" sure.. sure.

ok... so sydney did know that jedidiah had pics of him in his office? bc they used to be on the corkboard/?????

poor bb sydney is sad that his husband isnt telling him things

"[Scoffs] Friend. As if we’re not… we’re not… [Sighs] we’re not." noo im gonna actually cry (i am- i was... i'm supposed to be the best/ref)

i wanna see sydneys haunted house and skeleton cat drawings :(

"Put the Silly Putty back. You don’t need more Silly Putty." (my friends @ me when i watch another musical) (myself @ me when i eat another one of rowans fandoms >:3)

"co-nurse" idk if hes actually the assistant or not but i think sydney calls him that bc control? bc he wants power

also jedidiah uses am and pm which is interesting bc i dont think sydney does

ok now i get why sydney doesnt like joshua

the trivia sections of fan wikis are my favorite thing on this planet. "it is unknown whether or not the color green exists"

btw they actually mention green eggs and ham in ep 1 so i think its at least a concept

i still hc trans matthew. no fan wiki can take that away from me >:(

juniper daddy issues confirmed??

"Well, we can — petition her!" (i will try to petition my father/ref sorry sorry sorry)

Wait, one more: Cunt.  (uuh, fucker /ref. will anyone even get that one? its filled my brain. i dont remember any quotes before or after... it's taopp. uh, the scene with louis and jason in the hallway or something)

we love sydney trauma dumping 2 mins into an ep

i wonder if he sometimes forgets hes broadcasting to a bunch of middle schoolers

i wonder if joshua knows that middle schoolers arent usually 14

i love that sydney doesnt know what oatmeal is

sydney: if only my husband would play 20 dimensional chess w me :(

"Lucille has a flamethrower. You have to listen to what she says." the only lesson ever

natsume def has parent issues

just remembered that the trees produce defensive slick

i want teethh flowers :(

"and I fear that the end is near." (the end is coming, the end is coming! /ref)

"as sweet, and patient, and motherly, and forgiving as she is" so... not at all?

i love the silly old timey music omg its so fun

gasp cannon date. thats crazy. someone better have a timeline theory bout this.

aww no teeth flowers? :(

im concerned about sorens stones

is the ticking clock new? it feels new

oh huneee :(

just remembered the notes in the description. thats lore, right? prolly im too lazy to check.

Word to the wise: you ever come across that statue, do not look her in the eyes. (the fact that it rhymes too) (someone should make a cover of a word to the wise but with this line) (please?)

matthew appreciation time

sydney mommy issues?

jesus heck how many cabins are there?

is that what the pebbles were for???? im still scared.

sydney's silly drum roll gives me life

im actually so in love with matthew

sacrificial rituals, yay!

D: can they just be gay and happy? please?

they better get happy >:(

the spooky is rly goodd tho

mommy issues: the episode?

again, we love sydney trauma time before minute 3 of the episode

mila is a theater kid confirmed?!

sydney it seems like theres alot to unpack about your mom...

i dont think i want to know what horn sap is

"It’s all very delightful, b-but quite strange" idk the way he says that line is so vincentcore

im v worried for marie ann

"Don’t worry — they aren’t real ants. But it is a real log! " honestly id rather eat ants than a whole tree

"bending over to whisper in my ear." sydney is a short king <3

ohh the centipedes

i love the contrast of ideas its super spooky.

 “I’ve just got to do better,”  (never let yourself rest, they can try to despise you, but not your success) (also ambrose vibes. idk, but like maybe jedidiah has a similar 'if im perfect then people will finally love me' thing goin on?)

 “Give me a hard time, okay? We both deserve that.” (more ambrose vibes)

i think hes looking for validation from lucille?

i like that the va's voice patterns makes it clear when hes talking quietly even though the audios still at the same volume

"I know I’ve constructed a few effigies in my time. " (effigies of the god appolo, dickweed /ref)

"There is a clear block of resin on my desk with a centipede inside. He wants to swap places with me. Lately, I am tempted to let him." spooky

(last couple eps had, like, news broadcasts at the beginning? idk if its been like that the whole time, but probably lore stuff.)

o no is it rock time? (also soren sounds like such a cartoon character i cannot get over it)

is mother of stones the reanimation lady from the death fields or whatever?

i love that the only actually vegan thing given to the vegans so far is assorted leaves

i have a feeling that normal day might not be normal...

idk why would worshiping a statue of stones to be reborn into a second life in the middle of the forest be illegal?

ohh its bc normal day i already forgot/

" Un-resurrect? Un… resurrect… Were we going to “surrect” the rabbit?" (i prefer 'mercy killing' /ref)

i want juniper and joshua rivals to lovers/rivals to friends content. just putting that out there.

sydney just kill the rabbit

ok the fact that sydney is worried about this death-related thing is really unsettling

aoisfeorgijefmoigjt4ri4tgoirjjitog this is so spooky i love it so much

sydney needs proper therapy

"I know I’m beating a dead horse, but the guy wants something from me, and he does something to me, and I don’t like that he just gets to be around no matter how much I protest!" (grace when max)

and it all comes back to control

poor baby boy

:(((((((((((((((((((((((

(poor boy, tormented /ref)

why he bri'ish

nevermind i dont want juniper content anymore

"jeddie, m'boy"

why does anyone like him

yes, yes rowan is handsome

himbo juniper, but i still hate him

"it’ll steal all your nutrients until you wither and die!" (its infectious, its deadly, its one to be feared /ref)

"I’ve always wanted to be killed by something that loved me." dont. dont say that sydney.

soren is the dark magic sugar daddy of camp. prove me wrong.

"Would a child really do that? Just come to Summer Camp and tell lies?" yes. they would.

song? song!!!!

if this isnt on the soundtrack imma be pissed

idk how to explain this, but salems voice is really sharp

i certainly dont want to know what ostrich cream is...

if this makes sydney bottle up his feeling and muck up his relationship with jedidiah more im not gonna be happy

(ok so i was just informed that its going to get worse and,, i dont know how to emotionally prepare myself.) (also its past 10:30 pm so bear with me if my thoughts get a lil incoherent. as if they ever were coherent)

cant remember if this happens with sydney too but theres static when jedidiah says the time. interesting

so sydneys smoke thing is unique to him??

we do love occupying characters with a physical task during conversations

ig marisol prioritizes efficiency and salem prioritizes the wellbeing of the kids

also salem dont badmouth sydnel like that

gay??

more confirmation that sydney needs therapy

im v glad marisols on sydneys side

jedidiah is bein kinda silly, marisols like 'he makes me uncomfy' and hes like 'just dont feel uncomfy'

if only sydney and jedidiah were as good at communication as the sapphics

love that sydney is like 'dont swear!!!!' but dumps all of his trauma on the kids

noo im sad :(

"It’s a laaaaaazy day today." <<<(me tomorrow after not sleeping all night)

nothing bad better happen on the speepy day >:(

"Men. Men sure are mysterious." mood

"I can’t describe how it feels to see a blue sky… almost… apocalyptic. " i love subverting expectations and turning something ordinary into something completely paranormal.

also vambrose moment (the apple)

o great thats where the canibalism comes in

eugh

i do not want

(and this is why salem is worried about you buddy. dont share stuff like that with kids.)

on the other hand kids arent, like innocent to this type of thing, really. i used to babysit my friends lil sister ( i think she was in 2nd or 3rd grade?) shed make lego skits about people murdering eachother, with like, a lot of detail too. and i dont think she was raised on particularly violent media. she played pokemon go on her parents phone or doodles in kids drawing apps. i think kids just kinda gravitate towards these kinds of things, especially if theyre told theyre not supposed to.

o no sydney being normal about the elephant man is not good

"You get hungry." hungy theme within his dreams?

"I like animals because they never forget to be scared: of starving, of getting eaten, of getting hurt or sick." also reaccuring thing from the bunny

and centipede thing. and ants. (im guessing bc its a dream it s lots of things relating to his current situation, especially thematically) (also i believe ants were brought up at some point when he said something along the lines of 'it felt like ants were eating my stomach lining'

the writing is so good its unfair

"I should never have forgotten to be scared." this is really interesting bc so far hes only been really scared by the elephant man.

"and none of the birds could speak English." ok i think its extremely disturbing to consider the fact that 'its a uniquely human thing to surpress pain' so the birds CAN talk but theyre still animals. they never forget to be scared and they never think to hide their discomfort.

also geez this episode is so dark compared to the others. it makes sense in universe, bc most of this is going on in sydneys head.

noo matthew was affected he better be ok after >:(

also appreciation for the slowing music, i didnt really register at first but thats definitely bc of the weird time happenings. and then the crank and it speeds up? super cool!

this series is so fun!!!

im a bit worried that jedidiahs 'extra special clock' may have something to do with his project? especially considering he has a lot of clocks around his office

more hungy, i think that bc he was hungy but didnt really realize it bc time weirdness, it seeped into his dreams somehow?

appreciation for sydney being able to eat garlic bread

also interesting thing, idk if its relevant in universe or just a writing thing, but no matter what happens with time it seems to always be resolved for sydney to know when 25:25 is.

oh fuck the canibalism is back

icky

i do not want

nope nope nope its getting worse

sorry im blood squeemish

more elephant man lore

kinda spooky. maybe his powers rely on electricity? or theres some greater creature hes afraid of that haas that effect

appreciation for the ending music of ep 16, and also just all the music in that ep.

hive? (the apothiosis is upon us?)

also really different music for the intro. idk if its like a genre or something related to hives, but its style really reminded me of queen b from nightmare time.

i want a waterslide to nowhere

i dont want a bri'ish man talkin bout 'beans on the cob' to be responsible for my safety, like, ever.

more sydney lore! poor bb sounds like he needs a hug. particularly from one Jedidiah A.A. Martin

i love the corporate bg music during harmlessmart its such a nice touch.

matthew matthew matthew matthew

fresh honeycomb sky.. hive theming?

this is exactly the shenanigans that middles schoolers get upto when theyre realeased into the woods

" So it has been, and so it will be; eternal in all directions in time." idk i just like this quote,

more ants

sports crystals = pokey?

bee tsunami

so he is co-nurse... when does jedidiah ever do his job? where is he?

noo sydney not the corner bread

comunicate!!! please!!!

"but he must love me, right?" :(((((((((((((((((

" — my journals." of course jedidiah only cares when it relates to his project. so quincycore, but if quincy didnt care about his bf.

D:

idk if i should keep watching this tonight. on one hand, if i keep watching i might cry bc sad, but if i stop i will definitely cry.

"He would always be the father, and I would always be the mother" (blitzstonecore)

"How he could love something so much… and forget to feed it." (he loves sydney, he just forgets to take care of him. in the way sydney needs, instead of the way jedidiah thinks he needs.)

a grey sky

reading wikis again, and the warriors thing is just such a mood, and idk if the creators understand dnd stats properly, or if he jus sucks that much at living, but negative stats are not possible. like players usually cant get below a 3. and -4 means he has like -7 con, so he has 1 hit points at first level, which is really pathetic. yes im going to nerd about this. (i think its super funny bc, like sure w a 19 for wisdom he probably wouldnt fail wis saves, but on the off chance that he did, viscious mockery, a bard cantrip, will knock him out no matter what, and if it rolls i think a 3 or 4 it completely kills him. he could be killed by a single insult.)

(ive been informed that this will make more sense once i finish it, and now im v scared)

(also prolly shouldnt be reading the wiki rn bc spoilers, but im doin it anyway.)

again, the stats are SO EXTREME. not as bad as sydney. he could feasibly weild a weapon (strenghth or dex if finesse i think) he has reasonable con which is good bc wizards have absolutely no health. idk whats up with his wisdom (ive heard it described as 'street smarts' and int as 'book smarts' but i think it kinda goes hand in hand with rizz for interactions, bc its used for like insight, which is kinda important to talk to people.) (thats actually something id say maybe doesnt work well with sydneys high wis. so far it seems like, while he is quite observant, hes not always super great at reading the room, or at least thats what ive gathered)

also idk about the charisma bc so far jedidiah seems a bit more put together in the persuasion/deception/intimidation area of things.

might eep now. that means its a great time for you to drink some water.

do it. stay hydrated. it mustve taken a ton of mental energy to get through this post, so you should take a break. get a glass of water, get a snack, take care of yourself. (sleep if its past midnight or if your name is rowan) then you can come back and finish reading this shitshow :]

ok its morning time to finish this (maybe)

restarted ep 16 bc i forgor

omg wait sydneys usin am and theres static

i love that theres a credit card stealing fish.

no sydney youre doing it again what did salem say

relation to sydneys worms?

"If he didn’t value these creatures when they were alive, why was he so affected by their deaths?" STOP NO IM ALREADY SAD I GET IT

and thats why sydney wont kill the centipede?

w h a t

spooky music

is the hive conected to the elephant man?

excuse me did he just call worms many legged creatures (ig like worms as in maggots and caterpillars and silkworms, not earthworms)

i love that theres always some counselors that dont get to participate in the camp meetings

sydneys impression of jedidiahs voice is so silly

"But I like endings; I like closure. That was the point of this whole exercise." more with sydney being more ok with death perhaps?

“Ha. Abandoning your child in a lake . . . . so that’s what motherhood means for you?” NO NO NO NO NO :(((

"But I am not my mother." so this is why hes so protective of the kids?

rowan hero?

this feels less like a hive and more like an egg

rowan hero!

bad smoke, different smoke?

hive queen

ye i was right, it egg

so they WERE gay at some point???

interesting that jedidiah doesnt mention the elephant man breaking into his office

he frames it as 'im worried about sydney' even though hes been ignoring sydneys concern until it affected himself

ye ye lucille gets it he only cares about himself and his project

hes emotionally attatched to sydney, but he doesnt take care of him, because he doesnt understand what it means to not be taken care of

sydney taught himself how to love, and he makes a conscious effort to try his best, but he prioritizes the kids because he doesnt want to be like his mom

ye ye lucille call out the lil guy

lucille has the same thoughts about the elephant man as jedidiah did before he tried to take the journals

noticed the clock ticking

ohh so spooky bad stuff in the journals?

jedidiahs trying to keep sydney safe, reminds me of the "it was cozy and safe, like a prison" thing

also lucille bein his mom explains why sydney and jedidiah are close?

jedidiah doesnt like death, maybe hes afraid of it. because its closure, like sydney said. bc he doesnt know how to care about something while its alive, so he settles for greiving when its gone.

also the ending 'do not anger it" is a repeat i think?

o no more tree stuff?

am again and static

at least today the vegans get somethig they can maybe eat?

so he is the assisstant nurse? confusion

buddy are you sure thats not a corpse

assuming the things jedidiahs getting shipped in are related to his project, hes making progress?

again with him prioritizes his project above sydney

also minor thing about the lunch b i feel like hes kinda underestimating sydneys intelligence (of course judging by the dnd stats its barely above average) and thats also v quincy of him

also i think he forgot to say the time, but theres static for dinner, prolly bc pm

interesting i dont remember when sydney switched. was it always like that? 19:04 PM implies a 19:04 AM, and thats a lotta hours

sydney appreciating nature

do you even like goo arts? arent you allergic to goo

ok really interesting that they bring this up bc sydney was just talking about how he and jedidiah had a bag of acorns that they took home? and they were fine

plant spooky

related to project?

:(

time static

:((((

his lil eep is v cute

not even chess. bro why do you even check on him if youre too tired to play chess

clock tic

physically safe.

D:

sad gay

more clocks tic

no you cant end the ep like that

sydneys still gone :(((((

juniper no one likes you dont laugh at your own jokes

oh but rowan honey is getting juniper to his job worth putting up with his horrible voice and personality

its extremely ironic that jedidiah is responsible for mediating counselor arguements when he doesnt comunicate with his own husband

"how do I explain to you that you need to care about other people?" DONT SAY THAt... it makes me sad...

"I worry about you sometimes, though, y’know?" heres a concrete difference between juniper and jedidiah: juniper actually makes the effort to care about rowans worry, even if he cant empathize with it. honestly i think this episode is included to show jedidiah through a different light, bc so far it seems like him and juniper are very similar.

they both rarely do their actual work, and have someone they care about who has a (maybe) irrational fear of something they cant understand

"You keep saying all this nice shit to him like it means anything and then consistently letting him down with your behavior." showing jedidiah recognises these traits in other people but not himself.

"Your actions are what matter to the people around you, not your words or your intentions or your thoughts or your fucking anything else but your actions, and your actions show Sydney loud and clear that you don’t give a shit about him." aaand he let it slip. he knows hes doing the same, maybe? some part of him gets that.

hopefully after this there will actualy be some kind of positive change?

not sure if this is important, as i havent been reading the other log thingies, but under minor insight into it repeats a bullet point

theory: the elephant man took sydney???

"I promise you kids I will attend dutifully to the nurse’s office in Sydney’s absence. Or, I’ll make sure someone is, at least." more jedidiah avoiding his actual job, similar to juniper

again sydney prioritizes knowledge above all else, maybe a similarity to jedidiah

"One by one, we all stay alive…" cant remember if this was like an endy thing but it sounds familiar.. either way super spooky

yvonne dyslexic not clickbait?

"Of course I can, it’s — plain English." ok interesting def a thing about either yvonne or jedidiah, bc like they dont see the notes the same???

"I wanted her to get angry. I wanted a fight. I wanted consequences. I… I wanted… it to matter." he wants closure. he wants people to care about him

"She was kind then. So was Jedidiah." :(

:(((((((((((((

"really hard to believe that he would just — get up and leave." jedidiahs frustrated by the thought that sydney might not care about him like he thought?

another mention of religion. yvonne also mentioned praying in the last ep, and a while ago sydney talked about jedidiah being a 'good christian boy' or something like that

nvm that was the beginning of the last ep

im very good at life as you can tell

sorry back to 22

this is so strange

nother mention of religion

"My heartbeat has synced up with the ceaseless ticking… " reminds me of a comment i saw relating jedidiahs clocks to his heartbeat? idk i dont remember

this is... really disturbing. i dont know why

"holy day". interesting

this feels manipulative

no no elephant man if you turn sydney against jedidiah i will be very angy

wait isnt this like cult tactics, like asking someone to meet up in a low stakes setting, love bombing, asking them to do something to prove their loyalty. (i vaguely remember this from some yt video i watched about cats)

"Show you a love you have never known." hes preying on sydneys desire to be wanted, to be cared about

this is so unsettling my god.

" Jedidiah’s search party " means lucille aproved it?

"I mean, y’know, live like you’re dying, right? " (exexprincecore)

"What do you mean “that’s one way to put it”? Yvonne, these are blank papers!" enchanted papers?????????

ok sydney dont lie to them'

"Um. Okay. Listen. Sydney… I don’t want to lose you." but he doesnt really care, still

:(

clock ticking

"the tree finds human happiness nauseating." huh.

D:

"violent criminal history in the state of arkansas" thats all i could catch from the news thingy at the start, for some reason its not on the ep transcripts :(,,, but didnt elijah say hes from arkansas??? is that anything?

theres still static with the time

theyre dead?? like straight up?? all of cabin widow spider?

oh ok theyre not fully dead

as, like, the only sane person who cares about the elephant man, i wonder what marisols reaction is?

sports field? what about the musically inclined crystals?

hhehehe forgot that soren sounds like a cartoon villain

he nya like cat

...does the project have some relation to necromancy????????

tap tap tap tap tap tap

so crackers and butter cookies count as bread???

" but without death, it will never live." (to show ya the horror of stayin alive) (sorry sorry sorry sorry)

"Not because we want to, but because we must." ^^^^

wait wait wait i think i remember the one by one thing. but it was "one by one we all survive" and then "one by one we all stay alive" or something lik e that, so its interesting that it changed.

"but I can’t believe any amount of money would convince her to completely ignore the safety of the kids." again thingy with prioritizing the kids

"Seems this strain of mold just turns us into zombies, like… interpersonally?" mood

hahahaha juniper already is like that so the mold didnt have any effect

hun he is definitely deliberately manipulating yp

ok so idk about any of endy bits so far but it keeps bringing up not angering it and they "youve angered it" and im guessing if anything it has something to do with elijah??? or the project?? maybe both idk

"It’s like you don’t even care about the kids here anymore." huh

and it all comes back to control.

"Jedidiah… [Sigh] this mediation session isn’t for you and me." they need to go to couples therapy

" [Whisper] I miss you. .... I’m such a fucking idiot. " :((((

can the gays just be happy? just for a little bit? can elijah go away? can everyone please for the love of god or whatever just be happy for one goddamed moment?

no am, still static

i dont think thats a river

also, 'rapids'? he said like a moment before it was still, which kinda means its just more lake, and the land partially seperating it is an island

"they’re hungry for a sense of intellectual superiority." i love that the creatures in and around camp are half spooky half completely mundane

ye for once i think junipers right its more like a moat

"For today’s breakfast we have an eel’s head stuck upon a 500-year-old sword and slathered with pea mush — a hometown delicacy suggested by Juniper. He says they call it “scrumpledydumps!”" (ugh. british people.)

hc sydneys proficient in animal handling

... he feels like a curse and not in control of his life :(

forgot about the macaronis

uhh wouldnt a bridge make the hunt like destroy cam

(the horse? the divorce? /ref)

"I can’t figure out what this poor fox eats." is this a reference to the fly thing? showing contrast bc sydney actually thinks to take care of it?

still no am or pm but theres static

:((((((((((((((((((

please let them be happy? (this is why i stil havent finished yellow jacket. i simply cannot handle characters being sad or the undeniable feeling that something terrible is going to happen)

"the tree also finds human fear nauseating." huh.

clocks. are we finally gonna learn more about the project/??

no more river

beeping

what the actual f u c k is going on

id let matthew poison me with arsenic

holy fucking shit

i love that sydney raises his voice when he does an imression of joshua

"You know, when I was a kid, a large portion of my daily diet consisted of complimentary condiment packets from the school cafeteria."...sydney are you okay?/?????

at this point the static is kind of comforting. the only thing consistent at camp other than sydneys trauma

more beeping

huh??? i swear hamsters have been mentioned before

ye ye ye

how does sydney know what hamsters eyes look like if theyve been extinct for millions of years????

" 2:01 AM" WHOA thats new.... is it bc of maintenence? perhaps?

still static

oh fuck no i forgor about the journals

more clocks

FUCK

(extra thing this kinda reminds me of holloweane a bit just bc of the like not being able to give info, of course ms holloway does WANT to, and does try to tell duke, but anyway)

(and now i gotta go do stuff. why did i agree to do stuff after that episode. damn. anyway. this is your reminder to take a break from my ramblings. get some water, stretch, focus your eyes on something that isnt a screen. and of course, if your name is rowan, you should sleep probably)

hi im back

birds. huh.

and a clock tickin, but it stopped before the click.

apple=jedidiah?

what about the second hand???

clocks have knowledge. sydney wants it.

this musics quite the jam

is petrfified wings a thing? it feels farmiliar

" 25-26-100 hour days." hwhat the hell

he wants to be a clock? he wants to be flexible?

is this the extra special clock that fucked up time in that one episode?

wheat feild? related to the death fields? i think sydney mentioned someones wheat allergy in that ep

this is v strange

something.. something train related happened to his dad?

is.. is the next event sydneys death? jedidiahs death?

thats why he doesnt like it? why hes scared of death?

knowledge. thats what they both seek.

FUCK NO elijah go away i dont like you >:(

of course, elijahs using him to get information. also HOW THE FUCK DOES HE KNOW ALL THIS (sydney please get away from that creepy stalker)

"hot tea with honey is good for sore throats." (goddamit emma now i gotta make a tea with honey /rref)

the weird audio thing in the background right after the episode title reminds me of my printer.

poor campers, no salt. nothing better happen to matthew >:(

at least sydney stopped spreading propoganda about the elephant man

oh also hes back to saying the time, am and pm, and our dear friend static

fuck

thats a lot of blood

w h a t

static please help me

what do they have against france

" it’s so funny to watch the fumes struggle to conjure anything worse than what I’ve actually been through." >:0

"[HE BUTCHERES THE PRONUNCIATION]" me too buddy, me too

did...did sydney get a clock?

o no are the penguins gonna come back

sydney are you okay???

all of this better be on the soundtrack

[HE BEGINS TO HYPERVENTILATE AND CRY.] (mee too budy, me too)

" Are you ready? Why did you lie?" w h a t

ok ok ok im definitely gonna finish this today bc if i dont ill stay up thinking about it anyway

more god, sin and death stuff. also mention of adam, possible relation to up and adam? (intro bit still sounds like a hyperventilating printer)

(this is so long i wonder if anyones actually made it this far. wait atcually the fandoms small so prolly.) (i bet rowans reading this. i bet hes not actually sleeping like i told him to, twice.)

NO ELIJAHS BACK (idk if anyone else is here but i am a member of the elijah hate club)

brought up the ceremony thing again. (still seems kinda cultish)

quiet beeps

louder beeps

this "stupid man" sounds a bit like jedidiah...

"He did not understand how to feed it" again the starving thing

or, is it elijah? idk im confused

also wtf is goin on w the accent

:(

so muse is definitely sydney, prophet is elijah, so yeah i think the architect is jedidiah

"I will be the one to crystalize the truth of your perfection" (uh oh is he gonna pull an ambrose)

kinda sounds like hes gonna set sydney on fire

FUCK SYDNEY YOU BETTER TELL JEDIDIAH (pls just make them be okay)

"…I’m going to start sleeping in the room with Jedidiah again." ok ok thats progress good.. maybe hes not so distrusting of jedidiah anymore??? at least hopefully itll help w his pain

silence.

(reading comments) i saw some ppl saying sydney died and got revived and that makes sense considerign the story but also WHAT THE FUCK

reason jedidiah wont tell him about the project? or why hes so intent on keeping him physically safe? (how much does he know about elijah, bc elijah seems to know a lot about him)

another mention of god in the news before the title

no more printer sounds? maybe i just wasnt payin attention

"Hey, what’s this co-nurse stuff? Aren’t you Sydney’s assistant?" joshua out here askin the real questions

idk whats goin on but somethng seems really off

clock

:(

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. that is no way to end an episode. again, this is why i cant finish yellow jacket. i do not like the sad.

idk if its just me but elijah sounded a bit different.

shit this is already episode 31.

trees

also um fuck what the hell is that title. the pyre??? sydneys just gonna go with it?! dude hes gonna set you on fire !!!

also side note taking a moment to appreciate the pacing of the series so far, the whole time its felt like just the right amount is happening, it never feels too rushed or boring. also the attention to detail and callbacks and references are amazing

oh fuck he mentioned the penguins. that means jedidiah will knwo he was looking for the journals

wow it s been a while since he talked about the sun or the moon, kinda nice to hear about the sky again. of course now im remembering jedidiah talking abotu the stars and im sad again.

the moon was in the sky all day? is that normal?

oh. she wants control. like how sydney talked to elijah. to prove he has control. to make a choice.

"was that being fed is not always the same as being nourished." back to the starving thing.

the clock is back

he misses jedidiah :(

still dont know whats goin on with the centipede

"I need to prove I’m worth something to you" (ambrosecore)

"My body is whole. My body is eaten.' spooky.

they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy they better get happy

:(

32!

glitchy walky talkies? i think thats that kind of beep. something something something RADIATOR? idk as someone whos bad at listening, i kinda wish they put the beginning bits in the transcript, but i guess thats bc mysteries???

static is back. aw, the moon has returned to her duty.

"Ahhhhh, to overthrow nature…" reminds me of the natural order thing joshua said during the camp revolt thing

also i was so right about elijah's culty stuff

communication? are they gonna be happy, maybe, at some point???

...i may have read spoilers in the wiki that they get together in 34, so i hope that means theyll be happy.

fuck fuck fuck fuck noo no non on no no elijah stay away

"Am I alone… ? " D:

glad he has a gun. that definitely cant backfire in any possible way...

fuck fuck fuck why is cabin dungbeetle like thhis

sound design is still so fuckin sick

jedidiah describing sydney: he's, uh, fuck, idk hes hot?

hes so pathetic /affectionate

OH FUCK ELIJAH KIDNAPPED HIM!!! TONIES WHY DIDNT YOU START WITH THAT WHAT THE HELL

no no no you can t end on cliffhangers like that (i say as if im not gonna watch the next one in like a minute) (i could never watch shows or podcasts as they come out i would actually die from the cliffhangers)

oh wait its not the end of the ep.

again sound design is immaculate

if sydney dies at the end of this series so will i, just putting that out there. (oh same with jedidiah)

YO OMG HES SO SMART i forgot about the reflection thing. what did he steal?? idk he took something that was like 'the only way i could seee my reflection' or something.. that makes so much sense.

by the way imma be at least a bit upset if we dont get any more rowan content before the end of the series.

(last ep)

FUCK you elijah i hope you BURN in HELL (sorry to any non elijah-haters, but also, not sorry bc hes bad)

"every day is a living fucking nightmare!" i mean this is just a thing thats said and not, like, unique to the show, but jedidiah does say something similar earlier on i think

the whole love vs want think kinda reminds me of linda, and like wiley bein like 'you dont want to be loved you want to be adored' (of course thats more framed as a villain thing so..)

FUCK WAIT THEY KNOW EACH OTHER???!!!!

"She keeps him like a prison." callback to the prison thing? the ''it felt comfy and safe, like a prison" i think it was something like that

so elijah is connected to the clocks somehow??

FUCK FUCK FUCK I FORGOT HE HAS THE JOURNAL

NO NO NO WHATS HE GOING TO DO

salamander man=elijah?

thats when he died???

second journal entry reminds me of, this is weird, but like dnd memes? and how magic kinda comes naturally to classes like sorcerers and bards, but wizards learn through study?

also im very confused by why the journal entries are so important, and why elijahs voice keeps changing. its really unsettling

so jedidiah was looking into magic to heal him?

"You turn it off and back on again." holy fuck

oh my god so thats why necromancy is such a reaccuring thing? and them being like , dw real necromancy isnt popular

the clock is also an interesting thing, idk what it means tho

aww the statics back :)

why is lucille like this

whats her goal in any of it

"This information… resists being known." (ms holloway vibes)

his, dad, died from that??

" Because I’m nothing without you, Sydney, I really am." (quincent vibes)

i find this switch really interesting bc up untill this moment sydneys always been the one, kind of, like, comfortable with death? and it makes sense now, i guess, because jedidiah was afraid of it, afraid that sydney might find out, and hed get hurt again

"But there’s something kind of sexy about that, though, right?" (a real stroke of luck, when the one man you can murder is one of the men you--- /ref) (sorrry sorry sorry this is a serious conversation ill try to be more normal)

awww gay (now for the happy? maybe? can they please be happy?) (sorry i said id be normal.. ill do that now < ---lying)

"Uhmm… [Sniff] hey, I, uh, haven’t seen you drink water, yet. I don’t think you’ve been drinking water — here. Drink. " (this is a reminder to all my friends who dont hydrate enough. do it. or you'll end up like sydney, nearly burned on a pyre by a weird russian guy in an elephant mask)

the gays? on their way to being happy? even just for a bit? not clickbait? (dw i know elijahs gonna come back and fuck everyone over in a lil bit. just let me have my moment)

"Also, he’s gone. For good." dude dont fucking jinx it!

"Seems the two of ‘em have gotten quite cozy. " (thats kinda gay dude)

i was so confused then i remembered that it was 20 dimentional chess

still kinda confused about the mirror thing

WAIT WHAT THE FUCK THATS THE END

NO NO NO NO NO NO

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im sad now D:

anyway, i am sincerely sorry that you had to read this hot mess. uh, rowan, if youre still here. go to sleep.

ok now im gonna go read fanfic and hope it can heal me from this emotional rollercoaster.

bye <3

[jvten]

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i'm jay, sometimes JV. they/them pronouns only.

im neurospicy, bisexual, genderfluid, nonbinary and aroace if you have a problem with that it's treason then (/ref)

im legally married to boromir son of denethor captain of the white tower who is definitely not dead nope not at all 👍

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liminal horror / liminal spaces / dreamcore / weirdcore

dark fantasy / sci-fi fantasy / basically anything in the fantasy genre tbh

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writing (but do i do it? not really no)

acting / theatre

alt rock / rock / metal music

dilfs

men

boromir

fuck man. just sean bean

❥ fandoms I'm currently in and/or media I currently enjoy

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Studio Ghibli

Lord of the Rings / The Hobbit

Star Wars (The Bad Batch, The Clone Wars, etc)

My Friendly Neighborhood

The Amazing Digital Circus (not as much tho)

♫ my current projects (as in, writing)

Beast (first volume in Tenverse Saga) (fantasy steampunk)

Love, Decay and Mayhem (ninth volume in Tenverse Saga) (apocalyptic fantasy)

ReAnimate (cyberpunk/science-fiction dystopian)

Star Guardians (alien/space science-fiction)

Project LIMINAL (thriller/horror dreamcore)

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[dipplie]

Temporary list of my stories and OC’s until one day I make a comprehensive and well made list:

Blinded:

Polli: My oldest OC and fun fact was my persona till she become edgy and I wasn’t 12 anymore. Everyone’s favorite yes yes I’m aware. Yellow, energetic, eats dirt and bugs, I can’t tell if she’s evil because of a wisp possession or just crazy. Breaks the 4th wall. Is she a Mary Sue???????? Who knows.

Melody: NOT Polli’s girlfriend despite Polli’s delousions. Has an abusive mom :(. Only has one eye and then no eyes and then robot eyes or smthn idk she becomes a badass when she gets older. But otherwise trembling in her shoes all the time.

Melodys Mom/Sharren: Bitch. Okay well all I’ll say is she’s old and grumpy and probably smells bad.

Louise: Total hotty, rich kid, FtM, got bullied as a kid for his weight. Had a squad of fans basically in high school. Lived with his mom after his parents got a divorce but his mom was semi abusive, projected her femininity onto him, and wouldn’t have been supportive of his transition, so between middle and high school he went to live with his dad and got his sex change and testosterone. His best friend in elementary and middle school stopped talking to him after his transition, and became his competition for the most attractive and sought after boy in school (except Louise is a sweetheart while his friend Tommy is a dick and really gross) His dad runs a company that specializes in technology, and after meeting and falling in love with Melody (even after all her abusive trauma and losing both her eyes) he has his dad and some of the developers create a way to get her vision back and I mean honestly I love him how could you not love him he’s so perfect.

Watching:

Fick: Big nerd boy with thick glasses. I feel like he’d use Reddit but don’t quote me on that. Big crush on Vivinya. Boy don’t wander into the woods- oh look dead body with a curse on it don’t touch it- aaaand now he has a wisp that makes him kill people, way to go kid. Panic attack central.

Vivinya: True crime girl, yucky yucky. Probably had a knife collection. “uwu I’m insane” except she actually is and starts using Fick to kill people for her and treats him like her “Yandere boyfriend” or something cringe and gross oh god. She deserves jail. JAIL. Needs to learn guys need to give consent too. Just overall sucks 1/10.

Tommy: I mentioned him early to be Louises ex best friend and rival. He used to have a crush on Louise actually but that don’t excuse being a BITCH!!!! Also needs to learn people gotta give consent he is just as gross as Vivinya. Cheats on all the girls he gets with because he’s again, a bitch. Idk if he deserved to get murdered though I mean he was still a teenager but it’s fine. Thinks of the song Seventeen from Heathers actually this story does feel a tad reminiscent of heathers with vivinya being a crazy and wanting to off a bunch of students. Huh.

Suzannie: Tommy’s older sister who’s a detective. What a coincidence. Monotone and depressed. Probably because her little brother got murdered. Gets real awkward when she’s talking about her brothers murder(s) to Fick and Vivinya like “when I find who did this to him they’ll regret being born”. Kind of really pretty actually.

Adolescents (there isn’t actually a story here yet but don’t worry about it shhhh):

Nelson: HIMBO HIMBO H- Jock stupid idiot big dork god he’s so awkward and his main personality trait is having a crush on Naomi and being a dork when talking to her. Probably could benchpress you.

Naomi: Gamer or something and a nerd geek. Her main personality trait is having a crush on Nelson and also being a dork when talking to him. Probably a weeb and fandom dweller. Can’t draw but she commissions artists to draw. She does write copious amounts of fanfiction though.

Andrés: Ohhh the school bad boy babyyyy. Baseball bat with nails in it or something. There’s like... A thing between him in Charlotte and he wants to be a thing but she’s being difficult and makes it hard to talk to her or about her and ugh.

Charlotte: Princess, high school princess. She’s actually pretty nice when you get to know her- but she’s a diva. Ballerina after school. Best friends with Naomi and doesn’t know what she’s talking about when she mentions ships or OTPs but she listens anyways because she’s a good friend. There’s like... A thing between her and Andrés but she doesn’t know if she’s super into him but geez he’s really hot but she gets such mixed responses when she asks her friends about it and what if it doesn’t work outttt.

Marlon: They/Them but they’re okay with either pronouns they aren’t sure yet, he or she is okay... Box boy box boy. Autism... He doesn’t want to admit He’s attracted to men but he’s totally attracted to men. He lives alone which is probably illegal for his age but somehow he manages. Everyone thinks he’s “the quiet kid” and he’s really sad about it no don’t make jokes like that please guys ahh-

Sing for Me:

Kat: The color pink, addahadda(adhd), angry and loud and short. For being only like 10 and being an adorable little lesbian dressing in sparkly pink dresses she actually likes screaming a lot and would totally sing heavy metal if her producers let her. Loud and mad but gets so soft around her girlfriend. “If anything happens to Brie I’m killing everyone in this room and then myself”.

Brie: French... Birds and stuff. Loves her girlfriend even though she is so loud. So fast. So much. Likes to write pretty things. Is only like an inch taller than Kat. Filled with so much love for everything.

Elliot: The girls manager. Lots of coffee. Stressed out of his MIND please help this man. Probably gay. Seems like a smug dick but he is just a tall and lanky dork that loves puppies and wants nothing more than for Kat and Brie to be happy. Accidentally brands them as sisters and then Kat kisses Brie and- oh fuck oh shit oh no what has he done. Hides the fan and non fan responses from them. Poor guy.

Horror Hosts:

Ichabod: Hot demon who’s the son of the current ruler of hell or something. I mean he’s hot, smart, and royalty, what more do you want. I very specifically hear the dub voice of Kyoya Ootori from OHHC as his voice don’t @ me. Goat legs????? Yeah??? Don’t be rude.

Barnabie: Ohhhhhhhhh big orc teddy bear I’m crying I love him????? He puts up a more confident ploy and the given stereotypical personality orcs supposedly have but he’s just a shy boy that wants to give girls flowers and call boys pretty. Help him.

Garrison: Gary Burger. Fat hairy gay man. I mean werewolf. Wouldn’t it be funny if I made the whole werewolf thing backwards and made him transform into a HUMAN only on the full moon??? Party animal, pun absolutely intended. LOUD AND FUNNY he’s a dork. Bites. Horny on main Garrison please you’re supposed pamper and flirt with the guests but not quite that much.

Vincenzo: Token Vampire but he’s Italian because I felt like it. Talk and lanky of course. Bitch face. Blood coffee? Yeah lots of coffee. Tired. Let him sleep in Ichabod. Steps on people. Can summon and reanimate corpses but has a bitter attitude towards them because they get annoyed with him as much as he gets annoyed with- everyone else. He does have a soft spot but idk where it is. When he’s talking to guests he’s more suave and sexy though.

Kai: Genderfluid haha get it because slime fluid-... I’ll stop. Probably objectively the hottest because they can look anyway they want and shift their vocals to sound like almost anything, also probably objectively the best in bed (if you’re okay with the texture of Jell-o) and honestly come on save some for the rest of us it’s not fair. This boy can SING oh my god seranade me and whisper in my ear baby. Spunky and sassy.

Hallvor: BABY OCTOPOD BOY OHHHHH I LOVE HIM HE’S SO SWEET AND IS AN ANGEL DARLING BOY SO EMBARRASSED SO SHY SOFTEST VOICE OHHH- ohhh nooo he’s got a knife ohhhhh Hallvor baby don’t be like that ohhhh... Used to work in hentai actually (I wonder why) but quit because of immoral practices and good for him we love that. Okay he’s not actually a yandere or whatever but he DEFINITELY wants to squeeze you a little too hard and has those crazy eyes.

Carla: Main character of this OHHC monster clone. She sucks I don’t like her because listen listen she kills monsters as a living and when she tries to kill our boys here, Ichabod catches her and goes “no” but then the rest (not knowing her murderous intent) fall in love with her and Ichabod is like: “shoot well I’ll keep you alive and around but I’m watching you” and blah blah romance and feelings and character development and wow she seems like she’s grown to care about them... So Ichabod removes a curse he put to prevent her from harming them or leaving... AND THEN SHE STABS THEM ALL IN THE BACK IM CRYING. I mean she might have an extra reason for needing to kill them but I haven’t decided if I want to actually put it in the story yet so.

Fingertips:

Maria/Marianna: Was this goth angry chick and the head of these losers but after a failed heist, fire, and being betrayed and dropped from a window on a 3rd or 4th story down into flames, and going to the hospital and changing her name, she changed totally and become a soft pretty girl... And then the next three boys went “HEY BOSS WE FOUND YOU” and she went “oh no” and now she’s just an anxious wreck like “no no no no no I don’t shoot people in the face anymore no no no no no” And has a fear of hands. Also was Diamontés best friend in primary school and yes all these characters went to the K-12 school all the other characters do/did. Pretty voice. The story is mostly about her being anxious around all the other characters because who was it that betrayed her and dropped her into the flames below? Find out next week on th-

Nikki: He’s that character that you see and immediately go “oh he’s gross and is angry and is a bitch” and you’re right he is and has a cockney accent and screams a lot and probably swings a knife around a lot, but he’s got a sweet interior (somewhere in there... somewhere) Screamo heavy metal. Him and the rest of these character briefly talked about having a band and then they didn’t and then at the end of the story they do and although he plays guitar mostly, if he does do lead vocals he screams a lot. Bitch.

Anthony: Pretty boy but like the “was in the army” pretty boy vibe. Probably played football in highschool. Pyromaniac. Punches Nikki a lot. Almost gives himbo vibes sometimes, almost. Kind of likes the old timey cozy aesthetic. Plays the piano sometimes but “oh I’m not very good at it” Plays extremely well

Diamonté: TALL. Purple goth boy aesthetic hellll yeahhhh. CRAZY EYES AND THEY SPEAK VOLUMES WATCH OUT. Drums. The scary kind of quiet because he just smiles at you. Crowbar. Okay but he’s actually really sweet though. Secretly loves watching Anthony and Nikki get into fights so that’s why he rarely puts a stop to it. I think he’s a sadist. Can be a gentle giant, but can also be a not so gentle giant. The only time he’s really talkative is after copious amounts of booze.

Unnamed/Undesigned 1: Literally a pimp and he’s pretty gross. Blonde hair and pink and white clothes.

Unnamed/Undesigned 2: Chick that likes to throw knives and be angry and threatens Marianna a lot but in a quiet and monotone way, Marianna is pretty scared and hopes that these are just shallow threats uhhhhh.

Unnamed/Undesigned 3: Sells guns (without a lisence of course) and wears a bandana over his face a lot. Tired. Grumpy.

Unnamed/Undesigned 4: Like Marianna, was cold hearted and cool but then got caught in the fire and got all soft. He only has one eyes but how sweet his eyepatch is a heart. Recoved along side Marianna and they are good friends good friends tha- wait Marianna are you going back with them oh god you can’t do that oh dear oh no oh-

(I don’t have a story or name for these two but they’re my comfort ship OC’s and my current hyper fixaction right now):

Rodriquéz: I literally designed him with almost all the traits I find attractive in a guy other than freckles so as you can imagine I find him super HOT. I also designed his personality on what I find attractive from a guy so as you can imagine I find him super GREAT. But anyways he’s grumpy and closed off and monotone and smug. I really could go on for hours about how I want him to step on me I’m so sorry guys. Both him and Samantha give the “21 and having immature fun” vibes. They’re a thing but they like going to bars together and splitting off and doing their own thing (or doing someone else’s thing if you get what I mean haHhahHhahGahGhaha-) But so help them if anyone doesn’t oblige by the “no” from one of these two, someone’s gonna get beat up.

Samantha: (She literally just my personality shhhhh don’t tell anyone it’s a secret) Bubbly, energetic, a little shy by extroverted, bombshell blonde or something? It took me way too much time and effort to design her but I’m really happy with how I finally designed her, I love her outfit. She could kick me in the face and I’d say thank you. Girly drinks at the bar. Got that trauma and anxiety™️ secretly though. Skips and jumps a lot. As I’m typing this I keep looking up at the drawing of her and more and more I would want her to also step on me.

(Space Story I don’t have a nice title for):

Unnamed/Undesigned 1: So... Funny story this story originally was with me and uh... My ex I guess... So I gotta replace the MC’s... Whoops ahaha... Awkward. But anyways the MC is a robot and a girl and is a slight tsundere or smthn.

Unamed/Undesigned 2: Has a space ship, works for this organization in space that protects the galaxy. Is cocky, lazy, sly, oblivious, and an idiot. The love interest- obviously. Probably accidentally committing space crimes. (Like space pirating hAHAHA-) Kind of cool when he wants to be.

Dandelion/Dandy: CAT. WITH A JET PACK. Kind of an asshole. Fun fact used to be Polli’s cat but then when the Second MC crash landed on earth she was like “fuck this noise I’m going with space boy laterz” (okay she can’t talk but she thought it).

Zizii: Lesbian alien? Yeah???? Okay but I mean her main character trait is being a dorky back alley doctor and engineer obsessed with the MC because they’re a sentient robot with emotions and a lazer arm and rocket boots WOW!!!!!!!!

Story I want to revive:

So I had a story I started writing a long time ago about this tech theatre kid that had a crush on this other theatre kid character, but in a play that other character has to kiss another person for the show, and as the story progresses the MC convinces themselves that it isn’t just a play and that their crush actually loves and is kissing that other kid. And in the play, that other character is supposed to die. Show night comes along and they die, but like actually, and by the hands of the MC (Idk maybe like a light falls on em or smthn). So it’s a grotesque scene the audience sees as just an act. (Mutters I dunno I think my idea’s cool...) So I’ve been wanting to design these characters and work more on the story but I’m busy being obsessed with Rodriquez and Samantha so. (And the Horror Host Club too I love them too still).

Other Characters that either don’t have a specific story or are kind of like background characters:

Jacqueiliquinne Merril: Sara Berry vibes from 35mm (go look up The Ballad of Sara Berry, maybe like an animatic idk the first one that comes up is nice) But otherwise rich, pretty, popular, bitch. Tries to like, steal Louise from his squad and it’s like bro that’s unnecessary who hurt you that’s so rude. She gives Nui from Kill La Kill Vibes too. Oh she knows her name is long and annoying but you have to say the whole thing.

Brianna: Jaqueiliquinne’s sister. Big titty goth gf??? She’s pretty popular too and kind of a bitch too but to a much lesser degree. Her and he sister throw hands a lot when no one is around, you know, “THEY GIRLS ARE FIGHTINNGGGG”.

The Louise Fan Club: 4 characters I haven’t named yet. One writes fanfiction of Louise and shares it with the others and with him sometimes and although he thinks it’s a bit weird he also finds it a tad endearing and supports her. One is an aspiring photographer and is constantly asking Louise to model for him. One is an artist and draws Louise all the time. And one is an aspiring musician who writes songs based of Louise’s relationships which again he finds a little weird but endearing and supports her.

The Jacquiliquinne Merril Fan Club: Genderbent-ish (I say ish because one of the characters is a little bit less defined gender wise) versions of the Louise Fan Club. Yes I’m lazy, and no they don’t get along with them, infact they hate each others club with a passion. 

Unnamed/Undesigned: I wanna make some hacker kid just because I wanna have one.

Unnamed/Undesigned: I also really wanna have a super cutesy magical girl and then a really super duper generic boring character probably like star vs the forces of evil idk I never watched that show but it looks cute.

Me: I exist in the universe fukc you I can do what I want it’s my story and I get to chose the who also if you wanna be in the mess of a universe go ahead draw yourself with my OC’s I allow and encourage and appreciate it. I literally made the Horror Host Club as a sort of Harem story and you are absolutely allowed to make out with them if you’re a monster fucker DO it GO ahead it’s canon.

and that is ALL I have FOR now Knowing me I’ll make like 12 more characters by July, and I mean I need more characters for the high school anyways so...

[niopham]

MY  MAIN  THREE  OC’S  &&  THEIR  BLEACH  VERSES

All  three  of  these  characters  lived  together  in  the  North Rukongai, District 80 (aka Zaraki).  They  were  all  raised  //  taken  care  of  by  Mina’s  mother  who,  due  to  unfortunate  circumstances,  died  in  a  fight  between  her  &&  some  other  people  in  the  district.  Not  to  worry,  though  they  were  young,  the  three  were  able  to  fend  for  themselves  just  fine  despite  the  odds.  They  all  entered  the  Shin’o  Academy  together  &&  they  all  graduated  together.

AKITO  MITSUNORI:  Trans male. Bisexual. The  eldest  of  the  3  &&  judging  from  his  funny  &&  outgoing  personality,  you  probably  would  have  never  guessed  that  he  grew  (  &&  kinda  thrived  tbh  )  in  the  80th  district.  Literally  the  chillest  of  the  group,  unless  you  put   the  lives  of  his  friends  or  squad  members  in  danger,  then  I’m  sorry,  you’re  getting   the  cold  blooded  pit  viper  of  your  nightmares.  Don’t  worry  though,  if  you  survive, he  is  very  forgiving.  Super  easy  to  befriend.

He  is  in  the  4TH  DIVISION  &&  ironically,  a   4th  seat  officer.

His  Zanpakuto’s  name  is  Yamata  No  Orochi  (  It’s  funny  because  I  do  muse  Yamata  No  Orochi  from  Onmyoji  &&  honestly,  He  may  just  be  Akito’s  Zanpakuto  spirit  in  his  Bleach  verse  ).  Akito’s  zanpakuto  has  very  unique  ability.  This  Zanpakuto,  in  it’s   shikai,  has  the  ability  to  heal  wounds  but  also  fester  them  &&  make  them  infected.  He’s   able  to  fully  restore  lost  limbs  as  long  as  the  other  person  is  still  alive.  His  BANKAI  can,  reanimate  the  dead // revive  the  dead.  Every  corpse  he  reanimates  starts  out  as  a  snake  //  reptile  esque  zombie (  really  just  have  reptilian  eyes lmao  )  but  will  eventually  be  fully  revived  after  being  a  zombie  about  15-20  minutes.  

LUX  NOVAO  -  XUE :  Cis  Male.  Gay Asexual.  The  second  eldest  of  the  3  &&  also  the  quietest.  He  has  ADHD  packed  on  with  a   lot  of  trauma  &&  quite  honestly,  for  the  longest  time  he  radiated  anxiety.  Though  nowadays,  he’s  got  a  lot  more  confidence  &&  is  a  lot  like  Akito  in  the  terms  of  silliness  once  you  get  to  know  him.  He  is  the  embodiment  of   Looks  like  a  cinnamon  roll  but  can  actually  kill  you.  Not  to  worry  though,  hates  unnecessary  conflicts,  just  wouldn’t  be  smart  to  underestimate  him.  He  was  an  easy  target  when  in  the  80th  district  because  everyone  thought  he  looked  super  weak...which  was  true  for  the  most  part,  he’s  no  longer  that  weak  defenseless  boy.  

He  started  out  as  a  5th  seat  in  the   13TH  DIVISION  but  has  since  been  promoted  to  Lieutenant.  &&  after  Ukitake  RETIRED  (  bc  we  are  not  acknowledging  his  death  in  this  house )  he  eventually  became  captain. 

Fuck  it,  he  even  has  a  verse  where  he  is  the  Kido  Corps  Commander  //  Grand  Kido  Chief  &&  his  boyfriend  is  the  Vice  Kido  Chief.  because  when  I  say  this  boy  is  GOOD  at  Kido  I  mean  HE’S  FUCKING  GOOD.

His  Zanpakuto  is  named  Hisho  Raijin. His  shikai  is  well  known  for  it’s  speed  &&  it’s  send  bolts  of  lightning  out  at  will.  His  bankai  Kinda  reminds  me  of  that  category  6  hurricane  King  Ghidorah  made  in  the  2019  Godzilla  movie  bc  thats  kinda  EXACTLY  what  it  does  &&  therefore  you’ll  probably  never  see  it.  It’s  one  of  those  bankai’s  that  poses  as  a  potential  threat  of  everyone  involved.  I’ll  have  to  delve  into  that  later.

MINA  AINO:  Cis female. Ace  Aro.  The  youngest  but  the  most  rowdy  &&  chaotic  of  the  3.  Though  at  first  glance  she  just  appears  to  be  an  angry  girl  who’s  always  looking  for  a  fight. She’s  snarky,  sassy,  &&  takes  no  bullshit.  She  has  taken  down  men  over  twice  her  size  &&  SHE’LL  DO  IT  AGAIN.  But,  there’s  a  lot  more  to  her  than  what  she  lets  on,  the  girl  just  has  a  lot  of  trust  issues  &&  they  only  got  worse  after  she  was  exiled  like  the  rest  of  the  visoreds.  The  visoreds,  Lux ,  &&  Akito  are  the  people  who  know  that  she  actually  a  big  baby  who  craves  love  &&  affection.  Homegirl  just  wants  to  be  able  to  let  her  guard  down  for  a  little  bit.  Mina  suffers  from  Chronic  Migraine  &&  vertigo.  She  also  has  a  bad  right  knee  that  will  start  acting  up  when  she  has  been  up  on  her  feet  far  too  long … not  that  would  actually  stop  her  from  doing  anything…

before  she  was  exiled, she  was  the  4th  seat  officer  of  the  3rd  division.  She  was  reinstated  as  the  4th  seat  once  she  came  back  to  the  soul  society.

Her  Zanpakuto’s  name  is  Raiju  No  Shuhasu. It’s  abilities  involve  the  entire  manipulation  of  sound  frequencies.  I  made  a  post  describing  it’s  power  a  while  ago  &&  I’ll  link  it  up  as   soon  as  it  find  it.

[radvendermenace-blog]

here’s a list of some of radonna’s rogues gallery / super friends who she hangs out with a lot and a rating of how well she gets along with each of them because i love talking about my disaster wannabe mythbuster kids

rogues gallery:

huxley: created her with help from mother morgue, intended to create what was basically a cyborg ghost in order to bypass robotics/computers in the workforce because a ghost would just need to be programmed with the specific skillset of its job instead of the job AND human judgment skills, instead used prototype cyborg ghost (radonna) for Evil(TM), has since lost control of prototype cyborg ghost. -3/10, radonna hates his guts and wants to kill him

mother morgue: soviet-era mad scientist who has been able to maintain eternal life and is on a quest to find a way to reanimate the dead in order to bring back her family who froze/starved to death, a lot more neutral evil compared to the rest of the villains because she has somewhat of a moral compass and she’s very professional and impersonal in her supercrime but she still won’t hesitate to perform incredibly gruesome acts or hurt people. 5/10, radonna doesn’t really like her and she doesn’t really trust her but she knows she needs mother morgue as an ally in case of emergency; interestingly, mother morgue seems to respect and even care for radonna in a weird way

the author: basically kilgrave except instead of people doing whatever he says, whatever he writes comes true, did not realize he had this ability until the antagonist (antihero?) of one of his stories came to life and started terrorizing the city, has since used this ability mostly for petty non-lethal revenge. 1/10, radonna has had it up to here with entitled men in positions of power

the phantom creeper: the author’s character who came to life, kind of a victorian gothic antihero, he seeks a living body that his late girlfriend’s ghost can inhabit, when he met radonna he instantly fixated on her as the dead girlfriend’s ghost; he has the ability to be altruistic and he’s very much a tragic horror character but because the story is unfinished it’s unclear whether deep down the phantom creeper is basically a good guy who got lost in his grief and was molded into a villain by forces beyond his control (the author) or if he’s truly just a malicious villain hell-bent on getting his lady back no matter the cost. 3/10, radonna empathizes with his role as someone else’s “creation” but as long as he’s gonna pull that straight boy nonsense he needs to stay far away from her

cupid: rich girl with painfully distant parents who paid a bunch of people to create a “love potion” which she then gave to her parents to try and make them pay attention to her, later may have accidentally killed her parents when they became dangerously overprotective/possessive due to the love potion, has since become a general annoyance by tinkering with the love potion and giving it to random people she thinks need a little more love in their lives. 1/10, it’s not for sure yet but cupid may have given radonna a love potion to make her fall for the phantom creeper because cupid felt bad for him and could see that radonna was lonely, and she figured if they stopped fighting for 2 seconds and went on a date instead everything would be solved... except cupid failed to take into account the fact that radonna is a lesbian with trauma relating to losing her agency so naturally this scheme ended terribly for everyone involved

super friends:

metal betty: the leader of the super friends, is potentially invincible due to her ability to absorb heavy metals and re-purpose them as organic pieces of her body. 9/10, they are truly star-crossed loves but they have moral differences that make for great character development and terrible fights

idris, the all-seeing girl: can literally see anything in this dimension, can read minds, can see potential futures, can use x-ray vision, you name it she can do it. 7/10, idris knew about radonna’s life as liz keane practically from the moment they met but kept this knowledge to herself and even acted as an ally for radonna on more than one occasion when the rest of the super friends couldn’t understand why she was the way that she was (spoiler alert my dudes it’s because she was fucking MURDERED and she is BITTER and ANGRY?)

silver star: basically transman ghost rider, has an antique sheriff’s badge from ye olde wilde weste days that belonged to a sheriff who was also a transman, the sheriff’s ghost awoke when the guy touched the badge and now he guides the kid and can manifest a sick ghost horse and ghost guns. 7/10, he and radonna have shared experiences-- they’re both meant to be subversions of the “bury your gays” trope-- and they tend to stick together because of that; metal betty is also queer (bi), but she’s more... patient?? maybe?? with anti-queer stuff, she’s more willing to educate and discuss and give second chances whereas radonna and silver star are pretty much “i don’t have the patience or the energy to give the same speech over and over and over again to every single person who asks or demonstrates a lack of knowledge and honestly i shouldn’t even have to in the first place, society can kiss my ass”

[lafenixrey]

My top 10 favorite Naruto characters. This only includes characters from the original & Shippuden series.

10. Kushina Uzumaki

Naruto’s mama. The boys picked on her, called her tomato, & she literally whooped all their asses & got her infamous nickname, “the Red-Hot Habanero”! I stan for women who hold their own! Kushina literally gave birth & still fought off a demon-fox to save her son. ICONIC! THE BADDEST! I wish we could have seen more scenes of her as a bad bitch kunoichi.

9. Rock Lee

Wow. What a wholesome lil peach. My guy always gave it his absolute full-brow all!!! Never gave up! Inspirational! When he left the hospital & fought Kimimaro off the shits?!?? How many of y'alls faves could fight like a pro when he’s smacked??? Rock Lee said fuck the drinking age! Ima get this Drunken Fist off!!! Remember when he also got drunk at the restaurant, he fucked up that whole establishment & it took both, Gai & Neji to stop him? Omg. Lmao Rock Lee is a legend. I love him.

8. Gaara

Whew. What an incredible character development on this one. This browless bastard literally went from a cold-blooded killer to a Kazekage who wants to protect his village & be valued & loved. Gaara gave the war speech of his LIFE!!!!! My guy had me in TEARS! Omg. Commander of the allied shinobi force! He literally told all the shinobi to get their act together & if they still had beef after the war, to come see him. SPICY!

7. Sai

An underrated character. I love him. He was really out here just saying the entire truth, without any bias. But also, checked out all the books to learn how to be a proper friend & comrade. He really provided me with some of the funniest Naruto interactions in the series. Naruto was sick of his shit. Lmao he’s a staple in MY Team 7.

6. Shisui Uchiha

Whew-woo-hooooooooooo! I get so emotional over this lil baby. THE ONLY ANGEL IN THE UCHIHA CLAN & NO ONE CAN CLOCK ME ON THIS ONE! Shisui deserved all the better things in life. He only got limited time of screen time but I was DEVASTATED when he gave his life “for the good of the village.” This is when I started to hate Danzo with a fiery passion. The Uchiha’s or the village didn’t deserve Shisui. He was too pure & his eyeliner was too popping for all their corrupted mess.

5. Shikamaru Nara

I mean. What can I say about this pineapple head that hasn’t been said already? He ALWAYS did his part! My guy always minded his business but also, always came in clutch. When everybody got put under a genjutsu except him but he took it upon himself to take a so instead? Lmao! Iconic. Also, Shikamaru is truly Naruto’s bff (best fucking friend)!!! He wanted to be better so when the time came for Naruto to become Hokage, he could be there for him! We should all strive to be a friend like Shikamaru & we all wish to have a friend like him.

4. Temari

This kunoichi really doesn’t get the love she deserves. It’s cause she’s a confident bitch who gets mistaken for rude! & you know what?! Maybe she is mean & rude! But fuck y'all! She’s literally never thirsted after men throughout the series & was ALL about doing her job & was GOODT at it! I love her so much. She really curved a dead, reanimated dude & I screamed!!! Isn’t afraid to hurt feelings! I just relate to her. lol

3. Yamato

#JusticeForYamato2KFOREVER!!! I could talk about Yamato all day. The way they did my guy at the end of the series was foul!!! They got me tight!!! So they just kidnapped him off that floaty island, use him for some bullshit & forgot all about him!!!! Then they assign him to babysit Orochimaru, who is the one who experimented on him as a child! Like…..the injustice is so incredible. But lemme focus on why I love him. He was such a good “replacement” for Kakashi. So professional! Efficient! Loyal! Talented! He’s really it! He’s really come a long way. Danzo THOUGHT he could control him but he had heart! I absolutely loved his relationship with Naruto. He took care of Naruto with his ALL! Although he was his superior he treated him like his equal, guided him & respected his input. But also? Was not afraid to reprimand that ass & put fear into his heart. Lol Yamato had a dope of sense of humor though. It kinda feels like he was Naruto’s older brother or uncle. A very important male figure in Naruto’s life! I don’t even wanna get into the great Kakashi interactions cause there’s so many! Kakashi loves Yamato & the feeling is mutual! Yamato really is a great, essential character.

2. Kakashi Hatake

The most well-written & multi-dimensional character in the entire Naruto series. As a writer myself, I hope to write characters as interesting & dynamic as Kakashi. Honestly, if you don’t like Kakashi, I can’t trust you. Like, how??? Kakashi is super-flawed, like, my guy had a fucked childhood. He deserved better but he made mistakes, learned from them, & strived to be better than the day before. He was a lil asshole lmao but now??? A dork. A friend. A great comrade. A Hokage??? Whew. Such incredible growth! I would trust Kakashi with my life tbh & I don’t trust nobody! & the reason Kakashi hasn’t aged is because he minds his business & I respect that so much. Kakashi is just an icon. Swag levels through the roof. I just. There’s so much to say but not enough time! I’m in the #KakashiHive. 

1. Naruto Uzumaki

I get wild emotional if I think too deeply into what Naruto did for my life. Like, honestly, I just started watching Naruto for inspiration for a script I was writing. I did get that inspiration but I wasn’t expecting to get sucked in & be invested. I can’t relate to Naruto at all. He’s just so pure but he inspires me to be & do better. Although he’s a fictional character, there’s a lot of qualities about him that I think everybody should apply to their own lives. Also? The baddest bitch. No one can take him. If anybody wants to try & whoop his ass, they can line up & wait to get their wig rocked. It’s inevitable. Ugh, I love him so much. Like, he made me like the color orange. An icon.

[rippedjeansandloudmusic]

capitolo quattro

Chapter Three ---> [x]

sorry this took so long.

Nico almost had a fucking panic attack.

“That was fucking Bianca,” he said, his forehead laid on the cold tile of the table. He lifted his head only to bang it on the table again. “And Hazel oh my god. She looked like a motherfucking goddess. How is that even possible? It’s just a goddamned tattoo but nooo it just had to be fucking stained glass the same fucking stained glass that Hazel used to make with her mother - ”

“Okay, lover boy,” Percy said, hitting the space between Nico’s shoulder blades with his free hand. “If you think he’s that hot, why don’t you go up and tell him you’re soulmates?”

“Well, I don’t know, do I look like the kind of person someone that hot would like? Because I sure as hell wouldn’t date me if I was him.”

Nico went to bang his head again, but Percy’s hand protected his fall. He just groaned louder. Now his plan of killing himself by blunt force trauma wasn’t going to work. Fuck.

“Fuck my life.” He groaned out, trying to both express his discomfort and embarrass Percy enough to let them leave. But he didn’t want to embarrass himself in front of fucking Apollo. Fuck.

“Why does he have to be so fucking attractive? Like, why couldn’t he be you, Percy? Why did he have to be a goddamned reincarnation of Apollo!?”

“I’m going to try not to be offended by that, Nico.”

Jason just snorted, joining Nico on banging his head on the table.

“Now you understand my pain!” He moaned out, banging his head on the table again. Percy groaned, throwing his hand under Jason’s head as well.

“When did I become the parent of two angsty teens?”

“When you decided to let me pick this place of any place in the fucking large city that is New York. And when you got Annabeth.”

And they stayed like that for about two minutes.

“Okay, my hands are going numb, so I suggest you grow a pair and go talk to him.”

Nico scowled, finally sitting up and beginning to fidget with the napkins in front of him. He laughed bitterly, rolling his eyes. “Yeah, Percy, let’s just start a fucking musical number as we’re at it why don’t we?”

Percy rolled his eyes, picking Jason up from his baby fit and smacking them both upside the head. Nico didn’t react, not really unused to Percy’s hitting-upside-the-head tricks, though instead just glared at him again.

“You said when you met Annabeth you felt like you were walking on water. Why the hell do I feel like I just became reanimated after being dead for fifty years?”

Percy bit his bottom lip, giving Nico a knowing look. “You know,” he started, “sometimes you scare me with your violent way of comparing things.”

Nico glared at him again. Percy wasn’t affected, though got the message.

“You do realize that as soon as I met Annabeth, even though I was in pajamas still, I walked over and talked to her, right?”

Nico found a new way to hit his head; the back of his chair.

“Jesus Christ di Angelo, just go talk to the guy. I don’t understand what the big deal is here.”

Nico went to snap at Percy though stopped, knowing he wouldn’t understand. This guy - goddamn it Nico didn’t read his nametag - looked amazing. As though the god Apollo himself just waltzed down from Olympus and blessed this kid with his looks. He had freckles across his face, covering the bridge of his nose and his collarbone and shoulders. He looked fucking gorgeous without even trying. No offense to Annabeth, but he couldn’t see anyone looking better than him. And he would keep that opinion until the day he died.

He realized he was staring and shook his head, looking down at his napkin. He realized it was now in shreds in front of his seat and groaned, throwing the napkin down and crossing his arms across his chest.

“Aw,” Percy said, giving Nico a look that made him want to deck Percy immediately. “You look like your true form: an angsty gay teen.”

Nico went to punch Percy though Jason held him back, grabbing his bicep.

“Now can you tell me where the girls are?”

Nico thought about it for a minute.

“Call Hazel, tell her - ”

Nico stopped himself mid-sentence.

“Call Hazel.”

Jason didn’t hesitate, grabbing Nico’s phone from the table and unlocking it

“Passcode?” Jason asked, not removing his eyes from the screen.

“Naomi. N - A - O - M - I, Naomi.”

“Who’s Naomi?” Percy asked, spinning in his chair like a small child. Nico rolled his eyes.

“Don’t know. It’s on my arm, though, so I thought it was a good password idea.”

“So what you’re telling me is,” Percy rubbed his forehead. “You have someone's name - someone who you don’t even know - as your phone password because it was convenient?”

“Basically, yeah.”

“My god,” Percy facepalmed, and Nico just stared at the boy behind the counter.

He was talking to the girl beside him, smiling happily at something she said. His eyes sparkled with glee, his head thrown back for a moment.

As the atmosphere calmed down his eyes looked over at Nico’s table and he froze, making eye contact with Nico. Nico quickly looked away, face burning, and chewed (not bit, chewed) on his bottom lip.

Percy was texting Annabeth, Jason was on the phone with Hazel and Nico was spaced out, staring at the napkin in his hand like it was from a different planet.

“She’s at the Macy’s Mall,” Jason said, hurrying to stand up from his chair and almost knocking it down in the process. Percy jumped up as well, grabbing Jason before he could run off.

“Nico,” he said, raising a brow at Nico. “Do you want us to fly by on our way back?”

You mean do you want to come by? I doubt you’re going to be near Jason for long.

“No,” he replied instead, eyeing his shreds of the napkin on the table. “No - just, don’t die, alright?”

Percy nodded appreciatively, finally letting Jason pull him away. They were out of the shop in minutes.

That just left Nico, the hipster passed out in the corner, three homeless men and about five other people left in the cafe.

Great.

He continued staring at the napkin shreds, trying to boost his self-esteem to go and talk to the guy.

What if I just, didn’t talk to him? I mean, we’re soulmates, we’ll find each other again eventually.

Nico dismissed that thought. He wanted to meet the guy, yeah, but he wasn’t sure if he would get the opportunity to make himself known. They could be roommates next year, or maybe get paired for a project or share cubicles in the same office in ten years. He wanted to meet this soulmate under his own terms; not by fate, or destiny, by Nico di Angelo.

So, he picked up a pen.

He doesn’t remember where he got it exactly - probably from the floor underneath his chair - or how he started writing on a new napkin, but before he knew it he was walking out of the shop, hands in his pockets, fear in his heart and hands shaking.

God, I hope I didn’t fuck up.

+

Will was having a fun time, he guesses.

Lou and he were mostly talking after the three guys walked in; almost no one coming in after that time. His gaze kept on wandering to the other guys, though. In particular, the one that looked like an emo kid straight out of MySpace. Nico. Though, every time they would share a glance the boy would look away, clearly flustered, and proceeded to rip something in front of him to shreds.

Will knew it wasn’t okay to find that attractive.

The guy looked to be maybe eighteen, but no older. His hair was pulled back by a bright pink hair tie (Will soon realized that that was the only color the guy had on that day) showing off his sharp cheekbones and pale complexion. He seemed to be perpetually squinting at things, as though he lost his glasses and couldn’t find them, and had a permanent scowl etched into his face. Will found himself comparing Nico to a god, and Will wasn’t sure why, but he was appalled by the idea. More… more accepting if anything.

It was odd.

Will thought that maybe, just maybe, they could be soulmates. Though he quickly brushed that off. They said that when you met your soulmate you immediately wanted to get to know them, he reasoned, but I just want to be with him. I don’t care what his favorite color is, or if he has a best friend. I just want to be near him. Be with him.

But, wait…

His jacket covered his mark.

Will blinked a few times at his register, trying to come back to reality, though that thought stuck with him.

Why would anyone want their mark covered?

Will wasn’t sure why.

Maybe that was why he didn’t want to get to know Nico, too. Maybe he had to have evidence that they were soulmates before he could feel those things. The things people talked about in books or movies.

Wow, he thought to himself, I’m getting meta here.

It wasn’t that long after his revelation that the door to the restaurant slammed shut.

Will looked up, his hair in his face a bit, and barely saw the flash of purple move past the outside window.

He’s gone.

Will’s stomach filled with an unexpected pool of sadness.

I don’t know if he’s my soulmate or not.

Then he looked back over at their table, expecting it to be vacant, but saw Nico still sitting there; hand in the process of taking back his hair (he had taken it down, Will now

realized, in the last five minutes or so) and was tapping his fingers in quick succession on the table.

He looks agitated, Will thought, his eyes trailing back to the door. Why is he upset?

“Solace!” Lou yelled at him, snapping her fingers under his nose. Will flinched, almost hitting her hand away, but stopped himself short.

“Shit, Lou,” he settled for instead, placing a hand on his chest. “I didn’t see you.”

“Really?” She asked in a clearly sarcastic tone. “I was calling for you for ten minutes, dude, what the hell?”

“Sorry, sorry,” Will quickly apologized, spinning around to look at her. “What did you need?”

Lou rolled her eyes, waving into the back room with her hand. “Mom needs you to take the trash out. All, of the trash.”

Will scoffed, walking backward into the room.

“What? It’s just trash,”

It wasn’t just trash.

There were bags of the stuff, so much so that Will was surprised the shop hadn’t been shut down on just basic health precaution. There were ten bags, easy, and he was expected to carry it all out by himself?

Needless to say, it took him about twenty minutes.

When he finally came out of the back room almost everyone was gone. Lou was waving away some homeless guy in the far back corner, but besides that, it was mostly vacant. When Lou came back Will was sitting on the counter, throwing his legs back and forth and thinking of Nico. He found it odd, thinking of a stranger, but he couldn’t get the boy’s face out of his head; his fragile face and stone cold glares. Will could tell that he wasn’t very open, even if his clothing didn’t say it enough, his body language did. How he crossed his arms and legs, rarely opening up, it said enough. At least to Will it did.

“Grab the trays,” Lou said, running around the counter and expecting Will to follow. Will did, grabbing the tray beside Lou’s and following her out the room again.

“You do know how to clean tables, right?” She asked.

“You do realize I worked at your dad’s restaurant for years, right?”

Lou snorted, making a beeline towards the tables in the back of the restaurant. Will totally doesn’t make a mental note that it’s directly towards Nico’s table. Most certainly not. Nu uh. Nope.

Will trailed the outer edge of the establishment, cleaning up tables and throwing away leftover plastic cups and bagels people were too lazy to throw away.

About an hour later he was finished, throwing away the leftover cup in his hand and sighing, collapsing into a chair beside him.

“Yo, Solace,” Lou yelled from the front of the store.

Will got up, walking across the tiles to the front counter. The tray was at his hip, held by his right hand. His left was rubbing the back of his neck, wanting to relax his muscles a bit. This was frequent after cleaning the tables; his neck and legs were almost always sore and he wanted to pass out. Today was no exception.

She was leaning against the counter, a napkin from a table in her hands unfolded, and she seemed to be reading it.

“I think you’re going to want to read this.” She handed the paper over, smiling brightly and failing at trying to hide it.

“It’s addressed to the quote, ‘cute boy behind the counter’.”

Will raised a brow, turning the napkin over, careful not to tear it, and read the front. Sure enough, it was, in fact, addressed to the ‘cute blonde boy behind the counter’.

He pursed his lips, giving Lou a look through his eyelashes.

And promptly put the letter in his back pocket.

Lou’s eyes bulged at his moves, staring at him like he was crazy.

“Read it, dumbass!”

“Why?” Will asked, shrugging. Truth be told he was shaking, though tried to be nonchalant. “It’s just a letter.”

Lou began sputtering, throwing her hands in the air at random.

“Just a letter, Solace! Seriously! Read the damn thing!”

Will just shrugged again. “I’ll read it when I get home.”

Lou glared at Will, facepalming before stalking to the front door. Will ran to catch up with her, tucking the letter even further into his pocket to make sure it didn’t fall out.

Fucking Solace, Lou thought to herself.

That letter was from your soulmate. But, you’re just too stubborn, aren’t you?