December being my birthday month, I decided to treat myself and upload 10 of my favourite songs of all time :D
That means that this will be the first rotation that contains something else than only japanese music AND that the genre will be all over the place lol
As usual, the link for each individual song is in their title and the link to download everything all at once is at the bottom of the post
So in this birthday pack, you'll find :
Dalida - Mourir sur scène
Mourir sur scène (literally "to die on stage" although an english version of the song exists as Born to Sing, though i kind of don't like her english singing voice as I feel it lacks depth...) is my favourite Dalida song, in which she addresses death directly. By the time she recorded this, she had already attempted suicide and I do believe that her love for singing and being on stage made her life bearable enough, at least for a while (she did end up killing herself, in the end).
She was a very tragic grande dame and that weighs a lot in my love for her, I have to admit.
Mourir sur Scène was a single on an eponymous album released in 1983
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Dir en grey - Lotus
This song was an love at first hearing and it's still as good as it was the first time I listened to it. It's just one of these songs that grabs my heart, will not let go, and will crush it and leave a gaping hole in my chest by the time the song is over kfjshksdjfhksjdfh
Lotus was a single from Dum Spiro Spero released in 2011
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Evanescence - Imaginary
I first was introduced to Imaginary through the version that is on Fallen. The thing is, Evanescence is the first band ever on which I hyperfixated. One album wasn't enough. I went on to find the Fallen demos and the Origin demo album. The version you're getting here is the version from Origin. I have not gone back to listen to the Fallen version since lol (the Synthesis version isn't bad either !)
So this version of Imaginary was on Origin, released in 2000
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Gothika - Fata Morgana Android
I'm still wondering if this is my rip from the album or my rip from their MySpace LOL.
So yeah, I first heard this as an untitled track on MySpace, back when they had just changed their name from Euthanasie to Gothika. I also don't think they made a better song than this... ^^;
Fata Morgana Android was on the album 120 Days of Sodom, released in 2007
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Hora - Ains5
I JUST FUCKING LOVE THAT SONG OK. And it's the only one without lyrics, here...
Ains5 was on Venom, self-released in 2007 (which also transonica and inner elements which are pretty good too !!!)
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Klaus Nomi - Cold Song
Happy birthday to me, here's the most depressing song ever ^_^
Klaus Nomi was pretty much my introduction to countertenor voices (which probably came as a recommendation from someone after I had gotten into Vitas around 2007 tbh), and I just fell in love.
Cold Song was on an eponymous album released in 1981 (if you'd like something less depressing, try Lighting Strikes or You Don't Own Me from the same album :) )
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Lili Fatale - Feels
I have to admit that I don't like a lot of québécois music, despite me being from Québec, but Lili Fatale definitely is an exception. Particularly for Feels. I find the song relatable and I like how her voice carries it and wraps around me, aaah...
Feels can be found on the album CK80296 (yes discogs is wrong on this one cause indeed the album title is the catalog number, but I guess it's also considered an eponymous album...), released in 1997
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Queen - The Show Must Go On
So I was introduced to that song through Moulin Rouge! lol. And then one day, I got a weird hair up my ass and went to download a Queen Best Of album and... Yeah, the rest is history, it will always, always be such a gut wrenching song ! And the show did go on, after all...
The Show Must Go On was released on Innuendo, in 1991
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Schwarz Stein - 黒い羊 (Kuroi Hitsuji)
Another one of my love at first hearing, this is the last one to date. I knew I was going to put a Schwarz Stein song in here, and it could have been so hard because all their songs are so fucking good, but I figured that anything from the midi:nette era is old enough for everyone to have heard it already, so I decided to go for a more recent song. I almost hesitated between this and Cocoon tbh lol
Kuroi Hitsuji is the B-side on the Ever After single released in 2019
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The Birthday Massacre - Blue
Blue was my introduction to The Birthday Massacre ! I then looked into them and realized their whole thing was violet and a weird girl, at a time when violet was my favourite colour and I was a weird girl, so it just... happened naturally tbh.
Blue was on the Violet album (still fucking iconic !!!), released in 2004
Gothika (2003)
Directed by Mathieu Kassovitz
Cinematography by Matthew Libatique
Fun movie, but to enjoy it you have to turn off your brain and ignore all of the plot holes. I really liked Dark Castle Entertainment's early movies, especially Ghost Ship and House on Haunted Hill.
If you've seen this and know the ending, I like to think the last screenshot's framing above ("NOT ONE") was intentional.
The idea came to me from the 13th Volume of the series "Superstitions", where Mélusine was depicted wearing Krapella's clothes. The thing is, we never saw Krapella wearing Mélusine clothes and I wanted to make an attempt.
I love a good Good For Her movie. The Other Woman is one of my favorites. Gone Girl, Kill Bill, Midsommar (even though I’m now realizing that’s a white supremacist cult), Gerald’s Game, and even Ready or Not are ones I really enjoy. When it comes to horror, I have a few. These are not only about the justice the women deserve after being wronged, but it makes you deeply think if the ending is really a satisfying one.
Trigger Warning: SA or implied SA.
GOTHIKA (2003)
Starring the iconic and beautiful Halle Berry, this 2003 film ages so beautifully. It follows a psychiatrist Miranda Grey who clocks out one night at the mental institution she works at only to wake up in psychiatric hold, her husband brutally murdered, and she the main suspect. Only, she remembers nothing of the night she supposedly killed her perfect husband and cannot even think of why she would ever do that to the man she loved. But no one believes her. She begins to suspect a vengeful spirit that haunts and torments her is connected to it all.
I’ve watched this movie multiple times and there is always something new you discover that you didn’t before. Miranda is a very unreliable character, so what she remembers and knows is all we can really go off of...which isn’t much. Throughout the movie, she’s gaslighted by doctors and nurses she once called friends and tormented by a mysterious spirit with no real answers. But the more she digs into who would’ve wanted her husband dead, the wilder the story gets. This movie shows how psychiatric patients are viewed on both sides of the table and it’s really heartbreaking, especially with the context of sexual assault.
My favorite aspect of the movie was how Miranda’s relationship developed with Penèlope Cruz’s character Chloe Sava. As Sava’s psychiatrist, Miranda wasn’t fully able to understand the weight of the words Chloe meant and had casted her off as crazy. But after her husband is murdered and she’s thrown into the same facility as Chloe where these women are being abused, she finally sees. She is now no different that Chloe, both women screaming for their own truths to be heard by those who won’t listen...not in the way that they should anyway. Overrall, the supernatural aspect of the move made it ten times better. It would’ve been amazing without it but it’s like the final spice in the pot to make the whole meal come together.
SUCKER PUNCH (2011)
Suckerpunch is a gem. It’s not so hidden. It’s talked about from time to time so people know about this amazing movie. But I’m still not satisfied with the level of praise I think it deserves. I personally believe it should have the very same cult following Jennifer Body rightfully gets. Like JB, Suckerpunch was promoted to boys as a sexy action movie instead of what it truly is, a psycological/fantasy dealing with trauma. There’s some actiom of course, but Psycological. Fantasy. Not much horror but I still want to add it to the list.
Directed by Zack Snyder, it follows Baby Doll (played by Emily Browning) who is sent away to a mental asylum after her step father murdered her mother and sister and planted the crimes on a traumatized Baby Doll (there’s a pattern here, yall!). To make sure that the cops don’t question Baby Doll during the investigation, her step father pays off a grimey orderly Blue Jones (played by the sexy Oscar Issac) to forge the asylum’s psychiatrist’s signature to approve of a lobotomy. This inhumane procedure will be performed in 7 days, so that is the amount of time Baby Doll has to convince the other girls she meets at the asylum to help her escape, including perky Rocket and her reluctant sister Sweet Pea. In order to cope with the sexual abuse the girls go through in the asylum, Baby Doll builds a fantasy world where the asylum is instead a brothel and in order to get the tools she needs (a knife, fire, map, a key, and a sacrifice) has to distract whoever hold each tool. Where the doctor comes in seven days to lobotomize Baby Doll, in the fantasy world of the brothel it’s a high rolling John who’ll do some “cherry picking” on the newly orphaned, virgin Baby Doll.
This distraction of the brothel Johns and the workers lunges us into another fantasy world that mirrors the task at hand. In one, Sweet Pea has to copy the map in the office of the head of the brothel who parallels Blue in the asylum. Baby Doll dances to distract Brothel Blue who left his office. As she dances, the second world opens up. We are now behind enemy lines of World War I. Bombs detonate and magazines of bullets are released on each side of the battle as zombified men fight. Babydoll and her new friends are tasked to get behind enemy lines and retrieve a map. Whether or not they complete this mission reflects if Sweet Pea got the map from Brothel Blue’s office which definitely reflects if the map is also acquired in the asylum. My very guess is that this “dancing” she does is “sexual favors” in the asylum, the distraction needed to get the tools.
The action alone is amazing, so I see why they relied on it being the biggest thing the advertised, but it really did this movie a disservice. The story has layers so it won’t be seen on the first watch. It took me many watches to understand the complexities of the world within worlds, why they exist, and what certain things meant in parallel to each world. While I once watched it for the fun action, it became more sad, more soul-sinking. Even the ending I had to understand it was for the best of the character, despite it not being what we all expected it to. But it’s so beautifully sad, this bittersweet feeling. I might make an entire post talking the ending of it. One of my favorite movies.
SHUTTER (2012) (2003)
Shutter is very similar to Gothika. If it weren’t already a Thai remake of the same name, I would’ve assumed it was derivative of it. But it stands perfectly on its own.
Shutter follows newly wed couple Jane and Ben, played by Rachael Taylor and Joshua Jackson, who relocate to Japan shortly after their wedding. Ben is a photographer at the school and had already worked at the school previously, so he has American friends there, Adam and Bruno. While driving, similar to Gothika, the couple a girl that walked out into the road. But when the frightened couple gets out to help the victim, she’s nowhere to be found. Over the following few days, Jane is haunted by a mysterious spirit that relentless harasses her to no end. The only way to see this spirit is to take pictures from a polaroid. This spirit has also shown up in her wedding pictures back in the states and now appears in every photo as a smudge that seemed like a printing defect. But Jane learns that these spirits show up in photos when there is an intense emotion attached to it, and the reason why is grim.
I don’t remember how I discovered the movie but I’m glad I did. It seems like the typical movie like The Ring or Drag Me To Hell where an entity haunts the main character, there’s some research done in a library or a boxy computer, and then the evil is defeated through help. However, Shutter adds the same layer I love to all these movies where nothing is how it seems. This entity isn’t just some bored spirit that wants to pick on a newly wed couples. There is a reason.
Like Gothika, I loved the supernatural addition. It don’t hurt nobody to add in a demon, a vengeful spirit, or some gremlin running around an apartment building luring your kids to impending doom. Anything out of this dimensional world gets a gold star for me. Even in serious topics that’s more than just a family moving into a haunted home. Shutter does it perfectly. But like Suckerpunch, the ending is pretty sad. It still gives that Good For Her message, but…..is it really? I don’t want to spoil much of the ending, but is that really the afterlife we would want for Megume? Attached to a person that doesn’t deserve her time instead of moving on?
You can tell this movie came at a time where the cut and dry Evil Has Been Defeated movies they vomited out in the 2000’s were getting predictable and directors wanted to switch it up. I’m never big on adapting foreign films, especially when the Thai one was just as good, but I’m a little biased here since the 2012 version is the one I first saw. The 2004 Thai version is amazing and should be watched along with the 2012 remake.
I didnt intend to even use this account i just loved this song and i wanted the lyrics so badly but I went through hell to look for them just the original lyrics itself and after going through hell and back finally found it
Just posting it here to make it easier for anyone looking for it