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[baejax-the-great]

WIP Wednesday-WitD

Patroclus cups his hands and draws the water to his face.

“Sir? Hey, sir!”

He tries to ignore Zagreus. He does. His hands tremble suspended between river and mouth and he is already losing water trickling through his fingers. The sizzle of burning feet on grass grows closer at a breakneck speed as Zagreus sprints toward Patroclus.

“You’re still here,” Zagreus exclaims with a huge grin on his face. “And I saw you in the arena last time. Did you find what you were looking for, then?”

Patroclus does not know how to answer this. His cupped hands hold now barely a mouthful of water, the rest of it slowly dribbled onto the grass.

He doesn’t want Zagreus to witness this. The other shades milling about—they don’t matter. But this moment, Patroclus unbecoming himself—he doesn’t want the boy to see this. He lets the rest of the water fall out of his hands.

“Were you going to drink, sir?” Zagreus asks with a small amount of trepidation in his voice. “You do know that… it’s the Lethe.”

Patroclus sits back on his heels. “Yes,” he says. “I know.”

The boy stands there awkwardly, about as still as Patroclus has ever seen him, the ground charring beneath his feet. The ribbons of grass flare orange then red then black with an undulating glow. It’s captivating. They crumble to pieces, black and gray dust, and new grass grows in its place startlingly quickly to burn all over again.  

“If you found a way to kill Achilles,” Patroclus asks, “And went beyond him to discover whatever was past Elysium and learned that there was still no way for you to get out, that you would never escape, would you want to know? Or would it be easier to forget and keep struggling for your freedom? Or even to forget that you ever wanted to escape in the first place?”

Zagreus’s expression crumples. “I…”

Patroclus waits. Is he asking the boy for permission? For understanding? Has he grown to value the judgment of Zagreus, or at least fear his disapproval? After this, Patroclus won’t be able to help him anymore, and he hadn’t helped him much to start with.

The boy’s attention turns sharply toward the arena with a frown. He waves and calls, “Hail, sir.”

Achilles is standing in the center of the gate, still armored, still holding his spear. Shades are scattering away from him as he strides onto the grass. More importantly, however, far past Achilles and far upstream, the movement of a tall, dark shadow catches Patroclus’s eye. It is too far away to make out clearly, but there is only one who roams these rivers.

Shit. He’s out of time, the one resource he usually has far too much of. Achilles shouts for him to stop at the same time Zagreus calls his sword to his hand.

“He’s talking to me, stranger, not you,” Patroclus tells him, fairly certain he’s correct about that. Zagreus is merely a duty to Achilles, whereas Patroclus is… something else. As soon as the words are out of his mouth, it occurs to Patroclus that he can do one good deed before he consigns himself to history. “Make me,” he calls to Achilles with as much challenge in his voice as he can muster, edging his way closer to the river.

Zagreus looks at him in shock, and Patroclus says quickly and quietly, “This is your chance. He’s coming for me. When he’s far enough away from the gate, run and don’t look back. I think he’ll let you go this one time.”

“Will you be—”

“I’m dead, Zagreus. Now go.”

Achilles does turn his attention to Zagreus briefly, and Patroclus quickly scoops up the river and swallows as much as he can. It is cold, almost numbing as it goes down his throat. How quickly does it work? Which memories went first? Will he even know? It doesn’t matter.

As he reaches his hands back into the river, he can hear the thundering of Achilles’ feet. He lifts his head just in time to see Zagreus bolting into the arena. Before he can fully swallow his second mouthful, Achilles tackles him.

[quitedisastrous]

thank you brain for giving me the intense urge to watch a pmv that haven't watched in years and can recall absolutely no useful information to search for it

[lelelego]

tell me how did i not realize sr2 johnny is wearing a shirt inside his outer purple button-up. i've been drawing him with his tits half out this ENTIRE TIME

[livefromthegallows]

sorrowful voice chaaattt i thinkim cooooookkkeeedddd

[g1-skywarp]

fear

[laintv]

BLOODBORNE ANIME GIVE IT TO MEEEEEEEE

[winsoongi]

If this rewrite of this part of ad terra that I really clicked with doesnt stay clicked I’m gonna lose it.

[heyitslapis]

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[worldwidewebzy]

I need to update my pinned to make it more like an actual fucking pinned

[tiredeyes1975]

i hate hate HATE doing the whole i promise ill eat thing. its so annoyingthat i have to

[rockfact]

im. pucnhing walls (still dont know how to write from jonathans pov so it sounds weird)

[fluffnugget16]

I LOVE THESE TOW GUHHHHHHHHHHHH STUPID LITTLE GOOBERS I LOVE THEMMMMM. 😭💃💻🖤❤

[just-a-carrot]

Carrot I love Genzy so much. I love their dynamic and every little thing about them. I love when Genzou gay panics I love when Iggy is oblivious as hell I love the excruciating pining and awkwardness and when they're all soft and lovey-dovey and. They make me so happy they make me so sad I love them I love them I love them so much please let them be happy I beg of you Carrot.

GUHHHHHHHHHHHH???

you do not know how much this just warmed my heart... 😭💕 tears literally in my eyeballs

I think about them every second of every day. I also want them to be happy 🥺

hearing that others could also love them so much makes me want to jettison myself into the sun /pos

thank you for sharing your genzy thoughts with me, this really made my day fjfjdjdj 💕

[seven-stars-in-his-palm]

i think tumblr just hates our whimsy 😔😔😔

alas, i was trying to go thru the archive 2 find the original titanic post u mentioned in response 2 that ask . before i was going 2 just keep scrolling down, but apparently firefox couldn't handle it 4 months in .

SCREAMS A D CRIES AND QAILS THATS WHAT YOU WERE LOOKING FOR?!?!?!?!? GUHHHHHHHHHHHH i kiss that post so much </3 i had taken a photo of it at some point but delteed it i swear!!! ik it mentioned sinking into the sea (the fic) and the beginning of the tag rant was "i mean if I was writing a titanic fic" URHJRD B JDEHDHDBD I MISS IT SO MUCH 💔 thank for your service anyway my man. i miss my post 😔

[chaotic-minds-think-alike]

God I wish iterators were easier to draw.. I want to so so so badly draw the internal structure because idk I am just feeling insane over them rn but my worst enemy… boxes… guhhhhhhhhhhhh

Crawling back onto Pinterest like a sopping wet spider to save more pins to my iterator inspo collection

[gifkitties]

guh...... erm.... ????????????? guhhhhhhhhhhhh Alt text: a white cat with black spots/lines on it is standing infront of kibble which is blocking half of the view of the camera, and it is looking away. the cat suddenly looks towards the camera, before looking away and then licking its lips. this cat is from the hello street cat feeders, and people have named him john :) i think he might have just finished eating Gif URL: https://files.catbox.moe/lqu93y.gif Posted by: 🐈‍⬛