"I need more from you," Max started without preamble, looking up from his desk towards his brother. "You are the Duke of Bern and that means something, so I need you to step up and contribute." @johannesgrunenberg
paris - november 2020
the end of hanon
@johannesgrunenberg
He looked so peaceful sleeping like this. Manon watched the rhythmic rise and fall of his chest with every breath. She felt a sudden urge to touch him, to trail her fingers lightly along the muscles of his chest, following the lines her nails had etched earlier, pressing down with her nails until he awoke and pulled her tight against him once more. Instead her hands curled into tight fists, the bite of nails against her own palms pulling her from any sort of leftover reverie.
The very simple fact remained- Manon could not marry Hans.
She’d said yes when he asked.
He’d dragged her to that park, their park, where they’d first walked and talked in the late January cold. Where late that summer over champagne and strawberries he’d asked if they were serious and she’d laughed and hidden her smile in his lap. But then after an incredibly rare third glass she pressed the key into his hands, the key to her house she’d had made weeks before, and flushed an uncharacteristic scarlet as she asked him to stay.
“For how long?”
He pressed, half smile across those lips she’d call home.
Forever, she thought, hopeless, foolish, and all those other words they ascribe to lost causes.
“As long as we are both in Paris.”
She’d thought that was enough.
The late November chill held promise, anticipation, so unlike the steady dread that came with a January freeze. She should have known better, should have read the signs, should have told him time and time again why it would never work. But she’d been swept up in the hope of it all, his eagerness and perhaps his foolish dream that they might somehow stay the same, stay this happy, with the rest of the world looking in.
Hans had always been a romantic.
His brother was getting married. The brother who’d banished him years ago for the simple fact of being second born and a threat. And so perhaps he meant to show up to the wedding with his own future bride in tow, another girl from the Isles leaden with Swiss jewels. That thought alone made her panic, reaching for the ring that weighed so heavy on her hand. Manon knew what it was to want to do just what a sibling did, and how it very actually worked out. She’d have thought Hans would know this by now.
But then, Manon hoped he’d given up on them by now.
Because there was a difference between choosing to leave and being told to leave, if they’d ended up in the same place. She had agency in hers, even if she was a child. He did not, and she knew he hated that. Still - they’d carved out a life here in this pocket of the world. She had her freedom, he had his students, and they had that imposing old house with all its drafts and ghosts. Most importantly - this space belonged to them alone.
He was romantic and he was idealistic. Perhaps he thought that marriage would just give a name to that which they were already living. A mere formality, a celebration full of only good wishes and love. She would wear his ring and meet his family and swear before a god she didn’t quite believe in plus all of the world to be his and his alone, and then they could come back to their house and their lives and everything would be fine.
It was a rare situation where Manon was the realistic one.
Because once they let the world in, it would all be ruined. They could not be Manon and Hans, Hans and Manon. No - there were titles and lands and lines of succession and politics to consider. She may be the youngest and most forgotten child of Wales, but he was the second son of a dead king, his brother not fully stable in his position as heir with no heir of his own. The world and powers that be would never let them return to this quiet street and their beloved haunted house. Not with the stakes this high, not with the world this uncertain.
It killed her that he did not recognize this.
The moonlight streamed in through her curtains, bathing him in an otherworldly beauty and a melancholy that she could not name. The space between them in the bed opened up like a chasm and Manon knew he was beyond her reach.
She’d said yes. And yet -
You can’t unring a bell.
Silently, she got out of bed and took off the ring. He did not stir. She’d had a bag packed at the bottom of her closet as long as she’d lived here, and it was only a few moments to add those possessions she’d grown deeply attached to. Another few moments and texts had her on a flight to New York in an hour. It was almost too easy.
The car was out front, and yet she lingered at the bedside, silently granting him these last few hours of peace. Manon had only ever been good at breaking things, so she’d taken the love he offered and pried open his rib cage to demand more, demand it all. But when he’d handed her his heart and all he was, she’d dropped it like glass just to see how it shattered. Manon felt an echo of guilt, the sharp ache of something cut through that traitorous organ demanding space in her chest. So she broke something else, carving out her own heart rather than admitting she loved him more than she’d ever loved anything before. Carving out her own heart and breaking it apart rather than giving anyone else the power to do so.
Manon took his ring and left a note alongside her heart.
I might have loved you forever just like this. But I cannot deny who I am. And I am not the girl you marry. Think of me when you think of Paris.
We have learned that trauma is not just an event that took place sometime in the past; it is also the imprint left by that experience on mind, brain, and body. This imprint has ongoing consequences for how the human organism manages to survive in the present. Trauma results in a fundamental reorganization of the way mind and brain manage perceptions. It changes not only how we think and what we think about, but also our very capacity to think.
- Dr. Bessel Van der Kolk, author of “the Body Keeps the Score”.
(^ω^)ノminnie writes: this fic series is truly my pride and has been nothing more than a mere idea for a very long time but as i prepare to release the first installment soon, i figure now would be the best time to share the series masterlist with you all. please note: all of these stories are based on very real life events that have happened to me personally and are in no way meant to holistically represent the unique presentation of how trauma manifests within the individual. with that, i do advise you to be aware of your own triggers in regards to consuming this series as it will delve in a variety of triggering topics related to trauma and mental health recovery. please take care of yourself.
Han Jisung x afab!reader | trope: sex with the ex, soulmates | smut & angst-ish | wordcount: tbd
Synopsis: You kept telling yourself that this would be the last time you gave in to him. Just one last night with him, and you would end it for good. Though, how could you deny him entrance when he sounded so desperate to see you? After all, he was the closest thing to a soulmate you would ever find.
Warnings: mentions of alcohol | explicit content | dni if your under 18
smut tags: oral (f. receiving) | vaginal penetration | unprotected sex (wrap before you tap) | fluff and smut and angst | sex on furniture | nipple play | crying during sex | let me know if I missed something
Note: This took me about 2 months to write but it was totally worth it. It was supposed to be inspired by Taylor Swift's Never Getting Back Together, but somehow I drifted of that concept rather quickly. The whole angst thing is growing on me so expect more of it.
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genre. soulmate au (the one where you can't see colors until you've met your soulmate), romance, fluff, angst, friends to lovers, slow burn, MAJOR character death (my fics are incomplete without someone dying or crying :)
synopsis. love was monochromatic. Every form of love that had ever surrounded you was blotchy, shades of white and grey mixing until it turned black once and for all. People were blurry patches of black passing by, unbeknownst to you. Until he came along, drenching you in a color named love.
songspo. out of the woods (Taylor swift), summertime sadness (Lana del ray), one last time (Ariana grande), strawberries and cigarettes (Troy sivan), demons (imagine dragons), sad song (we the kings), can we kiss forever (kina) and happier (Ed sheeran)
release. TBD, but most probably till mid July! I've got the first chapter down tho :)
a/n. I am absolutely in love with jisung, I think my bias towards him shows in the copious amounts of jisung fics I write:)
I. PLAY ME A MEMORY
II. EVERYTHING, IN TIME
III. AMORE, AMORE
IV. PRETTY EYES, PRETTIER LIES
V. LOVE, JISUNG
Extra. To be added to the taglist, send me an ask!
. Reposting this on a new account !praying! That the tags work
. There aren't any major warnings other than *ahem* character death :), just a very melancholic series to help provide an outlet for the melancholia and stagnancy in my life
. Do not force me to write or update, I get one message *demanding* for the series to be updated, I will be deleting the whole series all together, i do not tolerate arrogance and/or entitlement. You can ask me for an update, but dare you demand, I'll block you and delete the entire series, learnt shit the hard way.
. Another series I shall TRY to complete, which is why I've limited the chapters to a grand total of 5 :")
thank you for the tag @thevikingwoman i will go ahead and do both eko and avi’li!
basics
Name: Eko Sostomi
Nicknames: Koko (by Avi’li)
Age: 33 as of just before Dawntrail
Nameday: TBD
Race/Clan: Miqo’te, Keepers of the Moon
Gender/pronouns: Ciswoman, she/her
Sexuality: Bisexual
Profession: A hunter
physical aspects
Hair: An inky black, with white tips
Eyes: Yellow
Skin: A cool dark beige
Tattoos/scars: No tattoos; a scar on her cheek she’s had since she was a child
family
Parents: BIG TBD but they’re both dead. Lots of internalized guilt over it.
Siblings: I go back and forth on this, I think she has at least one sister, but I can’t decide if she’s older or younger.
Grandparents: (shrug)
Other: her family were close family friends with Avi’li’s family, and Eko thinks of Avi as more of a mother than her own.
skills
Abilities: The Echo (her specific iteration of the echo is a very strong empathy along with some ability to relive memories); skilled in healing (WAR & WHM combo); skilled with the bow and lance, her primary hunting tools
Hobbies: She likes foraging in the wilds of Thavnair, as well as fishing
traits
Most Positive Trait: her enthusiasm and optimism; it took her a long time to find joy on her own terms, and now she looks on life with a kindness and optimism she had to teach herself
Most Negative Trait: her hesitancy; she hesitated leaving Sostomi Island, and she hesitated embracing her powerful affinity for healing. She blamed herself as the reason for her mother’s death for a long time.
likes
Colors: gold, yellow, and vibrant purple
Smells: the smell of spices, sweet and savory, in the air of Radz-at-Han; cloves; ocean breeze and salt
Textures: Satin and cashmere
Drinks: juices, and milk teas
other details
Smokes: no
Drinks: socially
Drugs: no
Mount Issuance: none; she is not part of a grand company; rides another mount instead (TBD)
Been Arrested: no, but just narrowly; it was touch and go after she ran away from Sostomi Island
* thought i’d post this list that was sitting in my drafts; not all of them because i have too many but have some (if) ocs ♡
ORIGINAL / MISC VERSES
edith blake. original, the wayhaven chronicles, the exile verse ♡ she/any (queer). november 13th. fc: laura james. 5′11/181cm. ROs: cal, adam du mortain. connections: kiara kingston (sister).
freddie han. ear candy verse. ♡ he/him (m). february 14th. fc: christian yu. 5′9/174cm. ROs: shiloh rue, winslow montgomery. connections: ryuwon han (sister).
ryuwon han. straight red verse. ♡ she/her (f). nicknames: ryu. fc: kim do-yeon. 5′10/179cm. ROs: jude schofield. connections: freddie han (brother).
zoe beckett. original (modern gods verse), the wayhaven chronicles ♡ she/her (f). fc: misc. 6′/184cm. ROs: veera, nat sewell. connections: jada beckett-jones (cousin). tag.
kate hanna ♡ they/them (nb). august 23rd. full name: kateebah. stage name: arkane (prev: rickety kate). band: dance of the planets. genre(s): alt-rock, pop punk. fc: nour rizk. 6′2/187cm. ROs: seven lawless.
sung-won kang ♡ she/they (f). december 15th. nicknames: sunni, lucky. stage name: lady luck. band: WBM. genre(s): pop rap, R&B, hip-hop, EDM. fc: jeon so-yeon/kang min-ah. 5′7/169cm. ROs: griffin reign + victoria valentine, orion quinn.
(Following on from : https://www.tumblr.com/thosedangnuns/721850812622684160/warriorvision-nun-contest-planning-post)
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What is this? 🤔 A Eurovision song contest type event on Twitter (tbd?) culminating in a live space where we play a song for each chosen character and have the audience 'vote' on it. Planned to be the day before the new countdown timer ends. All items below are musings and suggestions are welcome ❤️
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July 31 - Nomination day.
Make a single tweet for each participant asking for song nominations. https://twitter.com/NunVision account exists. Maybe need some minor graphics? We might have to salt the tweets to begin with a few suggestions.
August 5 - Last day for song nominations.
Result : List of songs for each character.
August 7-12 - Song voting.
Make two tweets a day, one for each character, containing either a poll of all of the songs (or a link to an external poll). Encourage people to vote for not only the 'best' song but the 'most fitting' one for the character.
August 7 - Ava Portugal / Michael Ireland
August 8 - Beatrice Finland / Hans Switzerland
August 9 - Camila UK / JC Germany
August 10 - Yasmine France / Vincent Spain
August 11 - Lilith UK / Duretti Italy
August 12 - Superion Italy / Salvius the Netherlands
Result : The nominated song for each character.
August 14 - The Final!
A live space (est. 90-120 minutes) where we introduce and play each of the songs. When all songs are played, we play a short recap (10 second clip of each song + the characters name) then provide a voting link. We wait … 15 minutes? - then announce the results dramatically as is tradition.
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QUESTIONS / THOUGHTS
- How should we do voting in the nomination round? It is way easier and more user friendly to do a twitter poll, but do we add drama by making not revealing the result until the final show? And is that drama worth it?
- How should we do voting in the final round? 12, 10, 8–1 like in the ESC? Should we have a small panel of 'experts' do a small voting round before hand to make it infuriating just like the ESC?
- This is a dumb idea and I love it and I can't wait to do it.
(I don't suppose you can tag users on here like yo can on twitter?)
where: alicante, spain
when: december 19 (idk time is weird)
who: the boys ( max & @johannesgrunenberg )
The Winter Palace hadn’t been as cold as the chill that now stretched between brothers. Max had considered summoning Hans to his office, but couldn’t foresee that going well. Instead, the eldest had gone in search of the younger, pausing in the doorframe of a half-unpacked suite. “Will your wife be joining you?” He said by way of greeting, if only because he couldn’t think of anything better that wouldn’t have Hans instantly down. “It will be nice to have almost everyone in the same place.”
a rebrand and a fandom switch all in one night? Who does she think she is
She thinks she’s me that’s who. Hi I’m astronomoney (Mr. NoMoney was my fathers name) and I used to write fanfiction (a lot) but then I got bored and busy and I quit. Now I’m twice as busy and twice as bored so I’ve decided to start writing for fun again.
As I mentioned earlier I’ve decided to rebrand, but I also lied. I’m not switching fandoms, I’m expanding into new ones! I used to write just for DC comics and I still will write for them every once in a while but I’m also adding some new fandoms to the list!
The Fandoms I’ll be writing for include (but are not limited to)
DC Comics
Percy Jackson
Grishaverse
Star Wars
Star Trek (on @starship-argo)
And probably more!
I realize some people are here for very specific things and won’t want to wade through fandoms they’re not in (I get I’ve been there) so I’ll be sure to tag each fandom by the name listed above.
How to request
To get a fic fit for you, all you have to do is request! First check out my rules (+ a small requesting guide if you’re a first timer) then scroll a bit and you’ll see what characters I’ll write for in each fandom. When you see something you like just type it up in my ask box with some details about the fic you want and send!
Rules
Few and simple and subject to change at any time!
I don’t write flat out smut
I don’t write for generally triggering topics (r@pe, pedophilia, self-harm, etc…)
I don’t have a ton of time so while I’ll read every request I get I may not be able to write them/ they may not be ready for a long time. Please be patient with me!
I won’t tolerate hate comments, if you don’t like something I do feel free to block me as I am free to do the same to you
I can change/add to my rules at anytime
Pretty clear cut if I do say so myself. Now on to the fun stuff!
Asks
asks typically (but definitely don’t have to) look something like this:
[greeting of some kind] Hi! I was hoping you could write about [character you like]? Where [vague or specific scenario or trope] happens? Could it be [angst/fluff]y please? Thank you in advance!
At least that’s how I usually do it
Characters the incomplete list (☆ = my favorites)
DC comics
Dick Grayson
Jason Todd ☆
Tim Drake ☆
Damian Wayne
Jon Kent
TBD
Percy Jackson
Percy Jackson ☆
Annabeth Chase
Grover Underwood
Luck Castellen
Clarisse LaRue
Leo Valdez ☆
Jason Grace ☆
Piper McClean
TBD
Grishaverse
Alina Starkov ☆
Nikolai Lantsov ☆
Zoya Nazyalensky ☆
Kaz Brekker
Jesper Fahey ☆
Inej Ghana
Nina Zenik
Matthias Helvar ☆
TBD
Star Wars
Luke Skywalker ☆
Leia Skywalker
Han Solo
Poe Dameron ☆
TBD
Star Trek
More info at @starship-argo
MASTERLIST (incoming date TBD)
That’s the gist! I’ll add relevant information as needed but for now, ciao!
truly i am completely guessing what this fic game is but i was tagged by my dear pals fox @eddiediazes and e @gayeddieagenda so here are all of my current concepts and wips as listed by nickname I have for them and then the actual title (if there is one)
marjan manifesto (in uncertain terms)
my magnum opus, the marjan coming out fic. I’ve been writing chapter ten for so long. it will be here eventually I swear to god I just haven’t gotten my rhythm back yet :(
self indulgent boxing fic ([title tbd])
maddie’s been back in the boxing gym when she can and asks eddie to fill in to run training drills with her when buck is on a pickup shift. they discover that they have things to talk about.
the [redacted] fic (of propositions and provocations)
i literally cannot explain this one without sounding completely deranged. the fic concept started out as a joke (ana and eddie invite buck to have a threesome) and then it somehow turned into a series of cacophonous shattering sounds and explosions, but like, emotionally (it gets cancelled last second and now they know too much about each other and Aren’t Handling It). it’s actually somehow become so ridiculously heartbreaking and i apologize in advance lmao
celebration dinner (precipice)
eddie has recently accepted his attraction to buck, chim knows, and the buckleys, hans, and diazes are out to dinner.
dear mccracken ([title tbd])
eddie collects his thoughts on the back of an airplane napkin during a flight from El Paso to LA.
anyways I think these are all of my things atm! idk who’s done anything recently but if you have something to share 🫵 i tag YOU
Kins: Rhaenyra Targaryen, Dean Winchester, Klaus Michaelson, Jason Todd | Red Hood, Thomas Shelby, and Han Solo.
Nemesis(es): Richard Nixon †, Devin Grayson, Ronald Reagan †, Andrew Tate, The entirety of the Catholic Church (not to be confused with Catholics), TBD.
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important tags:
#dirttalks : "omg I wonder what's going thru dirt's head" wonder no longer! If I ramble, you can gamble on it being here!
#asked / #answered : "ugh, I wish I knew dirt better" oh boy, you're gonna love this one!
France 1926.
The great painter Claude Monet has died, leaving Rey Aubert a young, single servant girl with art in her blood and nowhere else to go. An unexpected opportunity sets her sights on Paris to find inspiration and family. Meet Jacques Bazin. The wayward son of a politician, an established artist in his own write, and student at the Art School of Ren. His art is as controversial as his behavior. He has completely embraced the modern art world. He has no idea his world is about to be turned completely upside down.
Words: 70, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English
Fandoms: Star Wars Sequel Trilogy, Star Wars Original Trilogy
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Categories: F/M
Characters: Rey (Star Wars), Ben Solo | Kylo Ren, Finn (Star Wars), Rose Tico, Claude Monet, more tbd - Character, Han Solo, Leia Organa
Relationships: Rey/Ben Solo | Kylo Ren
Additional Tags: France (Country), Alternate Universe - 1920s, Painting, Art, Enemies to Lovers
SORROW FOUND ME. independent and private multi muse with extremely low activity and way too many muses loved and sometimes ignored by lacy.
❝ sorrow found me when i was young. sorrow waited. SORROW WON. ❞
rules and muses found under the cut
01. my name is lacy and i’m 25+ years old. i’m an aries with my moon in sagittarius, cancer ascendant and i have no idea what any of this means. i'm not affiliated with netflix, the show outer banks or madelyn cline or anything.
02. the psd i’m currently using was made by pinkinnards and icon border was made by me, but i’ll also use various psds from various creators. all credit really goes to them and none to me. i’ll probably use psd’s by venuscommissions, plutocommissions, calisources and more. if you ever have any questions, please feel free to shoot me a message. i promise, i don’t bite.
03. i will probably practice exclusivity and mains and affiliates, but at the moment i don't have any.
04. i ask that you please not follow me and then unfollow me to follow me again and try to get me to follow you. that will not make me follow you, it’ll just make me softblock you and then hardblock if it continues. also, please don’t like my starter calls or send me meme’s if we’re not mutuals. i am mutuals only.
05. i don’t usually write smut, but if i'm really comfortable with another person then i don't mind giving it a try. i do ask that you please tag your smut though and don't try to force me to write it.
06. i will not follow people that use certain faceclaim’s. gal gadot, chris pratt, ezra miller, scarlett johansson and more probably. if you have questions about why then just send me an ask and i’ll let you know. i’m uncomfortable with them and i just want to be comfortable on my blog.
07. i am extremely slow and i honestly can't help that. i have a full time job and at the moment am only getting one day off a week. it's exhausting, but i'm doing my best.
KDRAMAS:
naksu/cho-yeong - alchemy of souls - go yoonjung
ahn min-hyuck - strong woman do bong-soon - park hyungsik
kim shin - goblin - gong yoo
cha sunghoon - business proposal - kim minkyu
shin hari - business proposal - kim sejeong
ryu sunjae - the lovely runner - byeon wooseok
bae rona - penthouse: war in life - kim hyunsoo
oh injoo - little women - kim goeun
na wondeuk/lee yul - 100 days my prince - do kyungsoo
lim jugyeong - true beauty - moon gayoung
lee suho - true beauty - cha eunwoo
han seojun - true beauty - hwang inyeop
THAI DRAMAS:
kinn anakinn theerapanyakul - kinnporsche - mile phakphum
payu - love in the air - boss chaikamon
TELEVISION:
nancy wheeler - stranger things - natalia dyer
sarah cameron - outer banks - madelyn cline
nancy drew - nancy drew - kennedy mcmann
clarke griffin - the 100 - madelyn cline
elena gilbert - the vampire diaries - nina dobrev
josette 'josie' saltzman - the legacies - kaylee kaneshiro
willow rosenberg - buffy the vampire slayer - alyson hannigan
kara danvers/zor-el - supergirl - melissa benoist
mia smoak-queen - arrow - brec bassinger
louis de pointe du lac - interview with a vampire - jacob anderson
lesta de lioncourt - interview with a vampire - sam reid
ANIMATED:
charlie morningstar - hazbin hotel
emily - hazbin hotel
stolas - helluva boss
millie - helluva boss
VIDEO GAMES:
jessica riley - until dawn - tbd
LITERATURE:
nesta archeron - acotar - tbd
elide lochan - throne of glass - emily bader
manon blackbeak - throne of glass - tbd
ariadne - crescent city - tbd
sathia flynn - crescent city - tbd
danika fendyr - crescent city - tbd
isabel 'belly' conklin - the summer i turned pretty - jung chaeyeon
elizabeth bennet - pride and prejudice - keira knightley
sophie beckett - bridgerton - tbd
hyacinth bridgerton - bridgerton - tbd