#hasnt been updated in a while

[howlsofbloodhounds]

keep being continually drawn to this rewrite au of the source material fanfic for a fandom I’m hardly in not only because the plot and the writing and the characters are written so well but because moments in there remind me of or make me think of possibilities with killer and color and even the epic sanses/chromatic crew and I love that

[cherriesforheaven]

Been flashing triple-A passes At the cemetery gates

[screechingfromthevoid]

The cape wrapping was too much for me I have to leave

[itstimetoghoul]

i am doing a thing that i dont think i can post on tumblr but i will try!

[ganondoodle]

after i finally do the big botw2 ganondorf design post- what next? (more polls bc polls be polling)

*you dont have to specify if anything of it is fine with you, but its useful to know whats interesting to others

(to be clear, i want to do/finish all of this!!! question is if or how to mix it up and what the priority should be; like i want to do everything at the same time but obviously cant)

[kithj]

Hey sorry for more talking, but since the conversation was happening about gender stuff, reminded me about my own and thought, "hm Kit would probably appreciate hearing this". So, wanted to say that you've helped me further figure out my own gender shit, like categorically have helped me a lot there. When Blood Choke first dropped I was still IDing as soft butch (and not as a gender), but that plus more specifically Lea have helped me figure out I'm genuinely butch (gender). Lea, you locking them in a way, was a huge huge help for me, particularly the partial transition (? dunno better wording) she/her Lea has. Had been stressing a ton at the time about my hormone levels, T specifically, and even crying because I know I couldn't do injections which would help keep it low without an antiandrogen, but seeing the idea of what Lea did, yeah if I didn't make my own T I would absolutely do that it sounds great. So, like has helped me further refine my identity, get more comfortable with my hormone levels and body (at least in some ways; now I have the unfortunate opposite worries about not being masc enough 🙃), and has just been a big help and made me understand myself and my butchness a lot better. Sorry if this is unwanted and TMI and so on, but wanted to say in hopes that it would make you happy to hear, that you've helped, with your characters and lesbian gender posts on the Blood Choke blog, a butch work through its imposter syndrome and shit :)

this is lovely to hear 🥺💕reasons like this are exactly why i chose to keep Lea written that way (there are a lot of butches out there that do exactly what she did, and there are others that continuously take T just because they want to and like it) and also why i eventually gravitated towards a project like Blood Choke.

it took me a long time to kind of "settle" in my butch identity as well, and it wasn't until i started reading older lesbian literature, where butchness is actually openly discussed and celebrated, that i really had that moment of realization. i wish i could read more, especially about transfem butches, but a lot of that stuff is just not easy to access, being out of print, never been digitized, etc etc.

the most well-known piece is probably Xanthra Philippa's "Don't call me mister, 'Cause I'm a TS Butch" from gendertrash from hell, in 1995.

i do think for a lot of people there's that initial hurdle of thinking butch = aesthetic, rather than an actual identity, which leads people to thinking they can't be butch, that they're not "allowed" because they don't look a certain way (aka skinny and white and perfectly androgynous at all times). and with trans women and transfems specifically, there's also this expectation for you to be highly feminine and to conform to cishetero ideals when you transition, and that pressure confines you into a very small box that, imo, takes a lot of courage to finally step out of.

i hope that in the future there will be more of us writing and being loud and visible for other people to see and realize they can be butch too :-)

[toestalucia]

pacing back and forth thinking about dad asking logia if it truly was fine to leave seox

[feketeribizli]

alright i made a tag for the fags i always draw to have everything under one thing :-) find my ocs here!

[rouge-the-bat]

i really wish tumblr would add more features to polls soon

like the ability to set a poll to never end, and more time lengths in general (maybe being able to set a custom time length, or choose a certain date itll end on)

being able to choose whether people can change their vote or their votes are finalized once they click one.

a button to see the poll results (without it being a part of the poll options itself), and set whether or not thatll keep you from being able to vote or not once revealed.

and even an option to keep results hidden until the end!

and being able to select which polls you want to be notified for when theyre over, rather being notified for all or none.

[kisolvetica]

Sometimes I check up on the tumblr blogs of my favourite fanfic authors just to make sure they haven't completely disappeared from the face of the earth

[monzterbatz]

Wtf the notifications symbol is a lightning bolt now that feels so wrong 😭😭😭

[butteredfrogs]

are there any recolours for sdv which have been updated for 1.6? idk how much longer i can deal with the yellow dirt

[practicalsolutions]

Ayyy.

[gar-a-ash]

Thinking about working dogs and drive and how Reese was an insane high drive mess that was constantly on 24/7 and had super flashy obedience because he was that desperate for the YES and GOOD BOY that he would practically have a meltdown if he wasn't worked every waking moment vs Tassie who is probably the second chillest dog I have ever owned and only needs to be worked a couple hours a week but is otherwise content with frequent frisbee sessions and has equally flashy obedience with much less effort and is always ready to go at a word or motion but is also ready to settle down on command as well.

Just remembering that training Reese was always a battle where with Tassie it's an ebb and flow and we get the same results in such a shorter amount of time and she'd be considered a more medium drive dog. Also remembering reading a paper that linked drive to anxiety and thinking that high drive might not be in the dog's best interest if you can get the same results with lower drive.

Also thinking about all these training facilities and breeders hyping up the craziest dogs they own and constantly pushing for more and more insanity for the sake of... what?

[the-boiler]

losing my mind at this comment i got on my neocities website (which contains my boiler fanpage)

im guessing they have very little knowledge of TTR considering how they described the boiler as a "random very undetailed boss" LOL (that is NOT meant to be an insult, it is just personally amusing to me. plus im glad that my boiler obsession has reached non-toontown fans as well!!!)

[kicksnscribs]

Still alive but at what cost?