Not to keep harping on it but Death Note has plenty of fridge horror to go along with the unintentional humor and romance.
Like,,,the ENTIRETY of Wammy's House is such a fucked up concept. An orphanage where they crank out genius kids into the world by...what? What are they doing with those kids? What do you mean one of them died in there? Wait—and the second one is a serial killer? And one joined the mafia? What—WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO THOSE KIDS—
Not to mention the intricacies of L and Watari's relationship. He's seen as a butler/father figure until you find out that he's an inventor/war vet who took in an orphan with the express purpose of making him useful. No wonder Wammy's runs the way it does when the og, the man it is named after sees children as tools and means to an end. And, given that L has already made them so much money playing stocks that it doesn't even matter anymore (Mr. Builds A Skyscraper To House Five People), why is Quillish still with him? To keep an eye on him? To make sure L doesn't forget where he came from? Out of some sort of guilt for never teaching him how to take care of himself because those weren't the skills that Quillish thought it important to cultivate? Or maybe even to keep him dependent on Quillish to keep functioning properly.
And then there's the horror of L himself. Not even the implications of him, but the proof of who he is and what he can do. The thought of a man with so much money and power and influence that if he wanted to make you disappear, if he wanted to torture you or hold your loved ones hostage or kill you and everyone that's ever shaken your hand he could and no one would fucking bat an eye—that's fucking terrifying. (Where the fuck is Beyond—) And, not only does he have the power to do all that; no one would question it because he's part of Law™. His every action can be excused as being part of the Greater Good, despite the fact that L himself has admitted that everything he does is for his own benefit and/or entertainment.
Light, of course, is an obvious horror—but one of the most horrific things about him is glossed over. I'm not someone who personally believes in the Death Note's corruptive powers or aura or whatever, but that's not what I'm talking about. I'm talking about the fact that, once you give up the Death Note, your memories of it are erased. All the people you've killed, all the things that you've seen, you've still seen and done all those things, you just don't remember it. There's a hole in your mind, and all that prickly, thorny mess that grew in you when you were a killer is still there, choking you—you just don't know why. Why are you so unfazed by death? Why don't you cry when your mother dies? Why are you so afraid of being something that looks like you? Will you ever be certain of anything again? Will you ever, truly, know yourself when you can't remember all the atrocities you've committed? Can you ever change and grow again if your roots are gone? Or are you stuck in stasis forever now, your mind stalling in one place in order to keep you from remembering the people you've killed?
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it makes sense for both beef and emerich to live in usetuben - beef is a has-been arm wrestler and emerich is a scientist who's responsible for like. most of hardlight technology but has been largely forgotten and cast aside by his peers
we have no fucking idea why montrose is in usetuben though. it goes with his personality and general character that we know nothing about him but also, why usetuben? he could probably be anyone and work at any layer. he's a fan of ephemera, why not work there? i think the only connection he has with like, the nostalgia theme thats going on in usetuben is his relationship with the animatronic family
so either he also used to be someone else and is now cagey about his past, or theres something else going on
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Hello, if it’s alright could I draw some fanart of my interpretations of the different angels? I must admit I barely passed the half way point on your novel and I’m obsessed with the angels. Although I do have a question where are the women??? Jkjk. But it’s been an itching question since they are gender less beings with many forms. Also do the angels ever take their more biblical form and 🪶🪶🧿🧿🧿🪶🪶 hello brother their fellow angels?
hello! of course!!! I love seeing interpretations!!! (though i do ask not to whitewash, if possible hghghg)
And the women!! Well! The (biblical) explanation is longer than I expected but here ya go:
Angels as genderless beings is.... actually not true. The Bible refers to angels as "sons" of God a couple times – like Job 1:6, Job 2:1 (most explicitly), and Genesis 6. Genesis 6 is pretty important, because if Job is right about angels being the "sons of God", then this chapter says angels are capable of sex and procreation (with women, at least, though I have some thoughts on that). Also, angels exclusively appear as men, in the Bible. When the angels visit Abraham, they're described as men. When they visit Sodom in Genesis 19, and all the Sodom men line up to try and have sex with the angels, the angels are described as men. (In fact, the "gay people are evil" understanding of the Sodom story is entirely contingent on angels being understood as men.) (Fun fact: it's from Sodom, also, that I reasoned all angels are outrageously sexy.)
But why are angels all men in the Bible? Well, the reason is because Eve is supposed to be the first women, and in traditional (sexist) Christian thought, Adam is a man, modeled on God, who is masculine. Because the angels are between them, then they're supposed to be men, or at least man-ish.
I remember when I learned all this I thought it was absolutely hilarious. God and his all-sexy-male angel paradise. Incredible. Perfect.
But in all seriousness, the origin of this idea is that Christianity is really sexist. And the gender of angels is something pretty much every significant angel writer/artist has struggled with, like John Milton in Paradise Lost.
The back and forth about angel gender is actually my absolute favorite thing about Paradise Lost. The most significant line is "for spirits, when they please, can either sex assume, or both;" which clearly states that angels are supposed to be intersex. And yet, all the angels in Paradise Lost are men, use male pronouns, and they're described in almost entirely masculine terms; one instance where that isn't the case is this one line about Lucifer: "his form had yet not lost all her original brightness". Even here, the feminine characterization is just an attachment to the masculine.
In my opinion, John Milton wants to explore angel gender (and angel homosexual sex, too, btw, as per angel Raphael telling Adam all about the gay sex angels are up to), but Milton is held back by the pretty clear Bible teaching that angels are supposed to be male or at least male-ish. (Also, my friend Cas is much more of an academic about John Milton, angels, and angel gender, and I'm mostly parrot-ing him because he's much smarter than me, so they're your guy if you have questions). I like Milton's ideas of angels being between gender, though, and I plan to do a lot more with that:
I played around with the bizarre idea of God and his all-male paradise, but ultimately, the angels in ABM are not male. There is no such thing as male because there is no such thing as female. Like Milton, I think they're between genders.
Why do they use he/him pronouns, then? As a nod to the "all angels are male" Christian teaching, and (on a more personal level) to explore tenderness and queer gender expression (all the makeup and jewelry and dressing up) in he/hims. (Plus, it's a tiny jab at machismo, which is incredibly attached to Mexican Catholicism and an enormous source of pain for me, so now I get to make Catholicism gay and girly and laugh to myself). But, lastly, pronouns don't equal gender. Men can use she/her, women can use he/him. (Especially coming from a Mexican perspective, it's pretty common to hear gay men use feminine pronouns to refer to themselves.)
But what about their bodies? Do they not have masculine bodies, then? As I mentioned in this ask (where I discuss the trans-ness of the ABM trilogy and angels and also God) and this ask (where I discuss angel sexual organs), I stay vague because you have the room to imagine whatever you want. Specifically, angels are intersex but what that means for their physical bodies is basically up to you.
(But why would you write vaguely? Because ABM is about gender and queerness, and the fact that it can't be easily understood and it takes on a life of its own for each reader is the point !)
ABM and its sequels are about angel gender trouble and gay feelings, so don't worry, you have a lot to look forward to in that regard.
Oh and about the "biblical forms".... :) no spoilers
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Ms. Llama I love how you do the prison au boys but I have to know how inmate mc meets inmate boys 👀
I think I may have done this take on the prison au before, but it was so long ago that I wanna do it again from scratch anyway!
Mc is either framed, or just in the wrong place at the wrong time and ends up taking the fall for a crime she didn't commit. Thanks to overpopulation issues in human prisons, she's given two options; carry out her full term in a 'normal' human prison (even though there's nothing normal about prison), or take a reduced sentence inside a majority Monster population prison. She chooses the latter and joins a minority of human prisoners inside a mixed human/Monster prison.
Sans: Everyone knows Sans. Everyone likes Sans. He’s everyone’s friend, the casual smiling face, his stupid jokes and easygoing gait allow him to cruise and get what he wants without drawing too much attention to himself. Picking on Sans gets you immediately disliked by pretty much the entirety of the prison, because why the hell are you picking on the 1HP guy, you goddamn bully? Only a select few have figured out that he’s more than the goofy, harmless smile he puts on.
He’s her cellmate. It’s the usual song & dance with Sans, he’s sharp and cold toward her at first, writing her off as just another violent human and clearly annoyed he has to share a cell with her. But for no reason easily discernible to her, after a few days he suddenly warms right up and becomes willing to help her in any way she needs. He’s vital to her survival at the prison... he’s already been there a while, he shares all the unspoken rules and regulations. He has some friends, and his approval seems to come with a comfortable level of mutual respect from other inmates... he helps her slot into the rhythm. She’s desperate for a friend in this terrifying unfamiliar hell, and he’s more than willing to step up, to be the one she relies on.
She doesn’t know what he’s in for. She doesn’t ask; she assumes it can’t be that bad, seeing as he’s so well liked by the other prisoners. Everyone seems to get along with him, talking to him like he’s a friend... They wouldn’t get comfy with him if he did something truly awful, right?
Red: He’s still the king of this particular hole, running it from the inside out. Everyone fears and respects him. She doesn’t need to know the ins and outs of the prison to tell he’s the big shot- just from the way he sits at his mess hall table, minions flitting around him like fish around a shark, she can tell he’s bad news. She does her best not to make eye contact, not to catch his attention... and for a few hours, she does just that, managing to escape his notice and convincing herself that the two of them will never meet.
Until he happens to see her.
‘Smitten’ is a good word for how Red feels- and unlike her Nurse AU counterpart, Prisoner Mc doesn’t have the luxury of being able to make Red keep his distance. He can get as close as he damn well pleases. He’s an incessant flirt, constantly calling her pet names, calling her over to his table in the hopes she’ll sit with him, trying to give her gifts and special privileges while subtly flexing his power and control... don’t you wanna be comfy? don’t you wanna be safe and relaxed? She turns down his gifts for fear of being indebted to a hotheaded mob boss while behind bars, much to his chagrin. But he gets it... it’s smart of her. He likes 'em smart. No matter what he does, she won’t give in to him- she’s convinced he’ll lose interest if she keeps him at arm’s length long enough.
He’s the king of the prison, for sure. He wishes she wasn’t so resistant to being his queen.
Skull: Skull has a bad habit of attacking/trying to eat human prisoners who get too close to him, so like before he’s cordoned off- but experimentation by the prison found he behaves better when he can get some fresh air. A section of the protective custody area was rebuilt entirely for him, so now, he has a tiny corner of the courtyard fenced off with barbed wire so he can sit outside and calm down, surrounded by people without being able to attack them. That’s how Mc meets him; she sees him through his fence.
He’s a frightening, silent beast, always wearing his mask and always with his massive claws in restrictive gloves. Other prisoners jokingly call his corner the ‘bear cage’. And now, he’s got a new hobby- Mc watching! Anytime she’s in the courtyard he moves over to the part of the fence that’s closest to her and stares unbrokenly. His behaviour after he’s seen her is always great to the point that it’s suspicious... but who knows. Maybe soon, if he keeps up his good behaviour, he could be released back into the prison population.
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