#hey u know what

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

[ineffabildaddy]

“stop feminising crowley” if you stop to consider the prospect of david tennant with long hair and a miniskirt and decide you wouldn’t hit that then that’s literally a you problem

[hyakunana]

I hate the sewers . jpg

[medicalunprofessional]

the sickness is winning sorry .. more doodles. oohhh i can feel my artstyle shifting ever so slightly

i like rendering mundane doodles its fun and good practice for me 🫣

[turtleblogatlast]

Leo getting hit with a truth curse but instead of forcing him to admit to super sad or worrying things it’s things like “it was me who broke the remote” “I saw Mikey prank Donnie and helped hide it because it’s way funnier if he didn’t know who it was” “I rip my clothes to look more like Raph’s because he’s really cool” “my stripes aren’t even red they’re pink!”

[dog-teeth]

something to recognize that choosing recovery again and again is difficult work, and you are not weak for faltering

[baltharino]

Gurren Lagann | 1x01

[mblue-art]

hhappy pocky day 11/11!! here's some self-indulgence ft oreo man///

[hejee]

morrigan mansplaining elvhen culture while playing as lavellan hits so close to home (ily morrigan but this is not it 😭)

[sukugo]

gojo's lips in jujutsu kaisen 0

[muppetbyers]

doing wayyy too much for it to be unrequited

[samijey]

Drew Mcintyre - Wrestlemania XL

[ssspringroll]

DL (sfs, no ads)

They're reminiscent of citrus, ergo, they are citrussy.

Not much more to say than what's in the image. 18 swatches, some look like a slice of citrus fruit (in both realistic and unrealistic colors) and others were just kind of accidents while I was recoloring, but the effect was really really cool so I kept them.

Slider compatible. Custom thumbnail. All ages.

Sclera and shadows and everything were made by hand, the iris is an edit/paintover of one of the slices from this image. There are two versions, one without a spec map, and XSHINY, with the spec map the way I like it, which is super duper shiny. I use a cube map replacer, but if you use the EA cube map, you might prefer the look of the non-shiny one (the preview image up there features the non-shiny version). You can only have one version. My TOU is pretty open, so edit the spec to however you like it, I don't really care.

[pigdemonart]

🙈 hehehe

Heres some pics of the lad!!!!

[b4kuch1n]

What is this for, love? Home, or glory?

[nerice]

　　　　　まどかのための世界

            this world is for “ m a d o k a ”