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[fic] as one spring piles upon another

as one spring piles upon another

Shinsengumi Wasurenagusa | Okita Souji x MC!Reader | T | 859 words ao3 link

Okita Souji, and the letter that he will never answer.

A/N: I've always wanted to write for an obscure fandom, and here I am! If you're unfamiliar with Shinsengumi Wasurenagusa, basically it's a drama cd (or situation cd) series by Rejet revolving around Shinsengumi members. Each volume focuses on one character, whose story is intertwined with the main character -- you, the listener. It's a romance filled with angst and pain (Hiyokuroku, while lighter, does not escape the angst lol) and gets a little spicy at some points. Here is the TV Tropes page for the series.

This ficlet is set in Kekkonroku timeline, during Okita's health break. I mimicked the narrative format in that the character is talking to the MC, so it's a 1st person POV. Here is a fan translation of the volume for your reference. As for the audio itself ... YouTube took down Rejet's uploads, which is a shame. I think you can find bits and pieces in Soundcloud, but Hiyokuroku is the complete upload there.

CW: mentions of desire for death and allusion to non-con.

Dear Okita-san,

I hope you are better now than the last time I sent you a letter. I want to visit you but you never replied to any of my letters, so I thought you don’t want me to. That’s all right. Just thinking that you’re reading this letter is enough for me. Your health is the most important, after all.

Spring is ending soon, and the verdant leaves of summer are upon us. Weeks before, I watched the petals of the cherry blossom tree near the headquarters fall like a spiral dance, and it made me think of you. Do you still remember that night when we went to the festival, when we watched the fireworks together? You said that you wanted to become a strong and brilliant flower that keeps on blooming, but like fireworks yours may be fleeting, scattering in an instant. Cherry blossoms bloom and fall, quick and fleeting, but, Okita-san, you must remember that they bloom again the next spring. They bloom and fall, bloom and fall, again and again. And when you look at it that way, it seems as if they live continuously, don’t they?

I have faith that you’ll recover completely, Okita-san. You’ll return to Shinsengumi and to Kondo-san and Hijikata-san, like you’ve wanted. And by the time you come back, I’d have already mastered folding paper cranes and goldfishes!

So, please, take care. We’re all waiting for you.

Yours always,

Summer has arrived, and the mountains here are covered in vivid green. It is quiet, peaceful. The air is fresh, which is good for my body. The caretakers of this place are kind, and aside from them I rarely see other people. But that is fine.

I am well enough, considering. There are days when I feel like I can take up the sword again, but then there are days when I cannot even get up from my futon. During those days, my body is too exhausted from all the coughing and the blood. There are times when I wished it would all just end. What would be the point? I’m no longer useful to Kondo-san and Hijikata-san, to Shinsengumi. I failed as a captain. I failed them all.

I failed you.

But you wouldn’t stop hoping, would you? You keep sending me these letters that I have no plan on answering. You tell me things – inane, silly things that I wonder if you’re doing it to annoy me. You’ve annoyed me so many times throughout the years, and even now that we’re separated by so much distance, you still manage to find some way.

Yes, I remember the festival and the fireworks. I remember a lot more than that, you know. 

I remember the sweet taste of mizuame on your skin. I remember the glow of festival lights against your ruddy cheeks, your half-lidded eyes watching me as I licked your fingers, chasing the thick sweetness that dripped down your slender arm. I remember our kiss that night, you were so pliant and good to me, like my own little flower bud unfurling only for me. You were so embarrassed, but I know you were happy.

I did remember what I said – that I want to become a flower that always blooms. But I know now that it will never happen. Even if you tell me that cherry blossoms bloom and fall repeatedly over the course of their lives, it doesn’t change the fact that they fall. They bloom. And they fall.

It’s all right, though. Here, where it’s quiet, it feels as though everything is so far away, and nothing can touch me. In the back of my mind, I know that’s not true.

I still try. The hot springs here take away the pain in my body; it gives me relief. Even if I am still racked by severe coughs, eventually I’ll be healed … right?

During nights when the moon is visible, I sit on the veranda and watch. The moon is beautiful, and I imagine you at my side. Your face illuminated by moonlight. Your smile pretty as fireflies. I want to catch it with my hands. I can still feel the weight of your sighs when I laid with you that particular night, my remorse so unbearable that I decided, then, that I at least want to make you happy. That way, the wounds I left you that night would be bearable in your memory.

I don’t know if – when – I’d return. On easier days I wonder about you, if your cleaning skills have vastly improved. Do you still cry a lot? How many paper cranes and goldfishes have you folded? Are you still easily embarrassed by physical affection? Will you stay the same as I’ve known you? You write me letters, but there may come a time when you’ll stop.

Will you still love me, even after many seasons have passed?

My only wish is that I live long enough to return, even if just to get a glimpse of you. It won’t matter if I succumbed to my illness right after. It will be enough for me.

It will be enough for me.

‘The cherry blossoms Have already faded away,’ Simply that Cannot contain my grief, As one spring piles upon another. —Fujiwara no Teika

[merahbiroe]

I manage something to draw 

haaa-- i miss him so much :((

[kurokosworth]

Rejet Archive Resumption of Drama CDs this July!

After approximately a six month hiatus with only a couple things posted in June, Rejet Archive will be resuming its uploading of older Rejet Drama CDs during this July! They even posted a schedule so you know which ikemen to be on the lookout for~

DELIVERY SCHEDULE

The dramas to be released this month are vol. 1 Gerardo followed by vol. 2 Lucia from Criminale F! (Season 2) on Mondays and Thursdays, vol. 1 Saito Hajime followed by vol. 2 Itou Kashitaro from Shinsengumi Hiyokuroku Wasurenagusa (Season 3) on Tuesdays and Fridays, vol. 1 Usui Enju followed by vol. 2 Kurumiya RanRan from √HAPPY+SUGAR=IDOL on Wednesdays and Saturdays, and vol. 1 Izaya from THANATOS NIGHT on Sundays.

Week of July 1: Gerardo Track 1 | Saito Track 1 | Enju Track 1

Week of July 4: Izaya Track 1 | Gerardo 2 | Saito 2 | Enju 2 | Gerardo 3 | Saito 3 | Enju 3

Week of July 11: Izaya 2 | Gerardo 4 | Saito 4 | Enju 4 | Gerardo 5 | Saito 5 | Enju 5

Week of July 18: Izaya 3 | Gerardo 6 | Saito 6 | Ranran Track 1 | Gerardo 7 | Saito 7 | Ranran 2

Week of July 25: Nothing | Lucia Track 1 | Itou Track 1 | Ranran 3 | Lucia 2 | Itou 2 | Ranran 4

If you join their channel membership, then you can listen to the CD in full the day it premiers! However if you're just a regular viewer, you'll have access as well but will need to wait each week for a new track to be uploaded. 🥺

This means that so far for public viewers in July, only the first track of Gerardo's Criminale F has been posted on the channel. 

For series that were unable to be completed in July, I would assume they continue in August.

Whether you are new to various Rejet classics or a long term fan, I definitely recommend giving one or all of these a listen! With physical copies of CDs becoming harder to come by due to its age, listening via Rejet Archive is a great way to officially enjoy and support the series. 🎵

Happy Listening~! 🎧

[yumegasaki]

Shinsengumi Hiyokuroku Wasurenagusa Tower Records Tokuten

Wasurena Academy High School Division ~Student Council VS Disciplinary Committee~

The Wasurena Academy student council is a noble gathering of the most brilliant students.

However, a group of individuals who are sceptical of the student council appear.

They pull their armbands onto their left arms as they declare a rebellion against the student council...

[withoutjoy]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Dazai Osamu/Nakajima Atsushi (Bungou Stray Dogs) Characters: Dazai Osamu (Bungou Stray Dogs), Nakajima Atsushi (Bungou Stray Dogs) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Alternate Universe - No Powers, Domestic Fluff, Slice of Life, Video Cameras, Lowercase Summary:

"do you love him?"

"with my entire heart, yes."

[ao3feed-dazatsu]

by hiyokuroku

"do you love him?"

"with my entire heart, yes."

Words: 1364, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Dazai Osamu (Bungou Stray Dogs), Nakajima Atsushi (Bungou Stray Dogs)

Relationships: Dazai Osamu/Nakajima Atsushi (Bungou Stray Dogs)

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Alternate Universe - No Powers, Domestic Fluff, Slice of Life, Video Cameras, Lowercase

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Reserving Soma Schicksal from God Eater please! Today is 7/27 and this is my personal! Thank you mods~

Sure thing!Soma will be on reserve until August 2nd

- Mod J(\__/)      (=’.’=) (“)_(”)

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Heyyy just droppin' by to say what an awesome blog you have uvu have a nice day/evening! /olliesout

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[duizhangfleur]

shinsengumi wasurenagusa drama CD new series, hiyokuroku, doesn't have kondo isami part...... oh. oh. WHY??!!! but Kondo-san is my favorite.... /wailing on the corner

[yumegasaki]

Shinsengumi Hiyokuroku Wasurenagusa 6 Translation

After the Ikedaya Affair, you begin working for the Shinsengumi as a maid. Despite you trying your best to carry out all the work at the headquarters, Yamanami points out mistakes to you on a countless number of occasions. When you are sent out shopping, but find yourself unfamiliar with the shops Yamanami tells you to visit, he strictly informs you that you should be able to remember them all in one go. One day, you notice that the sageo cord Yamanami uses to attach his sword to the sash on his clothing is broken. He believes that it doesn't matter what kind of sageo he replaces it with, but you say that his current one suits him well. Yamanami replies that it doesn't matter whether it suits him well or not. What is the true meaning behind those words...?

[ao3feed-dazatsu]

by hiyokuroku

on the edge of the rabbit hole, atsushi sees colors

Words: 1173, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Series: Part 1 of memento mori (pacific rim au)

Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Nakajima Atsushi (Bungou Stray Dogs), Dazai Osamu (Bungou Stray Dogs)

Relationships: Dazai Osamu/Nakajima Atsushi (Bungou Stray Dogs)

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Pacific Rim Fusion, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Character Study, Mild Blood, Implied/Referenced Sex, lapslock

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Happy birthday admin Mel!! :D

Hello there, thank you so much! I hope you have a great day ahead! 

☼ Admin Mel.

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