Shoutout to the rottmnt fandom for curing my depression ✌✌✌
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EPISODE 5……..🥺
Right off the bat, i love the idea of percy’s forehead peeking out of the water, like the mysterious mermaid he is
Annabeth was the best part of the episode as always
Thought they were gonna talk more about thalia percy parallels grover just looked a lil tad distressed and that was it but whatever
Percy and his lil ‘hi’s will never stop being funny
the usual “i thought annabeth was gonna punch me but she was actually nice to me guys who would’ve thought someone would be happy to see me” narrative still shining through WITH THE HUG PLS CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW SWEET THE HUG WAS
grover’s so confused like “literally an hour ago you guys hated each other….am i missing out on some plot point”
dude was ‘looking for new tickets in the st. Louis arch as if they were going to be on the floor lying somewhere💀
Percy’s face when he addresses grover after the hug, he’s so proud someone actually hugged him 🥹his face is just like “hey grover look SHE’S HUGGING ME🥺”
Can I just say the writing for percy is perfect
like he’s so 50% there like he’s so good at communicating and asking what’s wrong and trying to understand the other person’s feelings (sally jackson’s son for you) but at the same time he has NEVER had a friend before so he ends up embarrassing himself 😂😭
”im pretty sure that’s what friends do” “….at least i think that’s what they do” pls 😭
grover’s face too help you’re already tired of being third wheel???oh honey this is THE FIRST HALF OF THE FIRST BOOK get comfortable
not their lil heads popping out and going back in. Peak comedy right there
Seriously adam did reallyyyyyy good as ares. Theres no one else i can imagine anymore as ares. The delicateness of his ‘good mood’ as if it is gonna break any second, the rage and fury but at the same time being extremely funny???
the diner looks so cosy it’s so cute
was kinda missing some percy rage in this but it comes out at the last so its fine
The real reason for grover to be so okay staying back is not the strategy of getting answers out of ares but because of how tired he was of taking care of annabeth and percy.
I feel like they should be showing luke more (later on they will, i have faith) im already forgetting about him it wont hit as hard if i dont remember him
Percy “ive not seen many movies since im broke” jackson x annabeth “ive never seen a movie since i live in a magical camp” chase
but the fact that annabeth’s never seen a movie kinda erases the fact that later on in hoo, annabeth talks about watching cheesy old romance movies with her father which kinda contributes to their dynamic but
the fact that percy would probably be the first one to take her to the movies makes me not care
honestly tho IM REALLY REALLY HOPING THAT THEIR FIRST MOVIE WONT BE THE ONE AT THE START OF BOTL I’d rage as much as annabeth when i see percy with rachel (not that im a rachel hater, im a circumstances hater)
grover is such a good therapist, like he is THE EMPATH. He tripped the god of war into talking about his life this is a grover appreciation post
annabeth zoning out with fascination at the mechanics and also i love the “percy being done with annabeth” representation
i cant see anything so nothing to say here
SEAWEED BRAIN THIS IS A HISTORICAL MOMENT IN PJOTV HISTORY THE FIRST SEAWEED-
grover manipulating ares through his emotions>>>>>
also ares roasting athena
Percy sacrificing himself AGAIN like the depressed kid he is
annabeth immediately reassuring percy that she would save his mom the character developmentttttttt from being inconsiderate about percy losing his mom to promising that she would save the lady EVEN THOUGH SHE BARELY KNEW HER
This is giving me too many feelings guys the lady she’s promising to save is the lady who will be the best mother figure who will singlehandedly heal her mommy issues AND BECOME HER MOTHER IN LAW
“Its warm” i thought this was gonna be the last thing he says before whatever was gonna happen to him so i was like lol famous last words
but fr tho the intenseness of annabeth crying for percy to GET UP and percy’s just fading out of the world trying not to cry trying to reassure annabeth that he’s okay IN WHAT WOULD BE HIS LAST FEW WORDS, literally everything he does is for someone else even in his dying moments its just magelhi”gdsjihoawerhoudfjls
especially with the “im not…..” [okay] lol we have always known that percy, it aint a big surprise
i got to applaud leah for how she portrayed annabeth’s brain chemistry altering every minute with percy and how that influenced her speech with hephaestus
i cant believe thats leo’s dad hes giving santa claus i do like him tho
Now that i think about it the percabeth hug should have been after percy comes back to life not after the louis arch scene since they were just starting to have two minutes of chemistry there and have the “you dont have to feel bad about the hug” in the zebra truck scene
percy trying to intimidate ares lolllll walker scobell did his best to make it look real tho so good for him for not representing it as it was; a lil 12 year old child threatening a wrestler looking god of war
”Thanks for the emotional abuse and the cheeseburgers” will forever be in the cinema hall of fame
i feel like grover either is going to say the wrong person or he’s going to figure out it’s luke but something’s going to stop him from saying it out loud
or he’ll say it which causes some angst amongst the team who dont trust him cuz both annabeth and percy worship luke like there’s no tomorrow
RAINBOW?? OHH THEYRE GONNA IRIS MESSAGE LUKE??
LIN MANUEL MIRANDA
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Babe wake up im going to rant about my ocs lore because im bored
Tw/cw depression, suicide, kidnapping, addiction, unreality
I write angsty stuff for my ocs oops-
When i first started making my characters they were very different in alot of ways and they were very different from what they are now. But i some how managed to glue all the chaos of my ocs together into a semi-coherent story. I went through an insane amount of world building with myself and i honestly dont think ive ever writen or typed any of it out before! its all just up in my head (and you know my memory is trash so ive probably forgotten of alot of things i made before lol). Anyways- i have two main story lines for my characters. Ethan's story, and Vevlet's story. Although i must admit Ethan's story is less complex than velvets simply beacsue it acts as a story of prequeal to Velvets story line. (Alternate realities that happen to have effect on each other basically- we love space time junk)
Ethan's world is very similar to ours, the most similar out of any of my fantasy worlds lol. Ethan's story revolves around self-discovery. I mean for it to be a wholesome/lighthearted thing that quickly leads up to dark undertones (spoilers lol). Ethan's story begins with Eef pre-transition (AFAB to NB). We get to see Ethan learn about themself and have fun exploring emotions and what it means to be alive. Ethan comes from a run-down family (mom khs, dad mia). So he lives with his adoptive parents (who i have yet to design and think about- theyre lesbians 100% though). A major moment for Eef is meeting his partner Seth. As you already know Ethan and Seth are cute ass boyfriends and stuff but guess what! im jammed their story full of angst and edgy shit bc i "wrote" most of this when i was hella depressed! Anyways Seth's family is like moderally welathy, wealthier than most i would say. Seth catches feelings for the emo chick ofc (forgot to metion Eef was definately a hot goth girl before he transitions).... uh yea anyways seth ends up flirting and crushing on eef and eef is like yea sure im bored and sad why not. and they end up dating after a while. Theres an important moment in their relationship when Ethan take Seth to this dead tree. THis dead tree is very important also bc it is where his mother hanged herself, and Ethan doesnt quite remember that bc he was very young when it happened, but he knows it as a place of comfort and he goes there alot when he feels sad or alone. this tree could be taken as symbolizim but heheh ill never tell. anyways Ethan is like yo my fevorite tree and Seth is like wtf okay bro ily and all but why a dead tree with an unstable tire swing?? ANd ethans like idk but i like it here reminds me of my childhood (op my guy) and they spend the night there. Also when ethan comes out to seth as nonbinary seth is just like ok,,, because hes bisexual lol. anyways time skip and Seth has some addiction problems once he graduates, long story short- Ethan doesnt like it bc his dad was a druggie so he trys to help Seth and Seth raises his voice and ethan is tiny compared to his bf so hes naturally like terrified of being hit and he suddenly feels his world of happy and peace he build back up bieng destroyed once again so he heads to his mothers dead tree and decides life isnt worth it anymore, and he hangs himself in the exact spot his mother did.... once seth comes off one of his highs or whatever hes like- oh fuck i yelled and acted agro to my traumatized partner. and he immedatly goes to the tree bc its Ethans favortie spot but its to late. regret is the only emootion anymore... its over for them.
now youre probably wondering how the absolute hell does that tie into velvets lore?? well do i have a tale for you. Velvets sotry begins on her 21st birthday, she is out for drinks with her douchebag bf and her bestfriend. several drinks later she yells over blaring club music shes going to the restroom, and as shes walking back she sees her bf and her bestie making out and she doesnt even say anyhting and walks out alone. She is making her way back to her apartment very tipsy. She then hears a vechile driving beside her, she cant make out anyhting theyre saying and the people in the car get out and before she even relises whats going on shes thrown into the vechile and is being beaten and yelled at. She passes out as theyre driivng to somewhere. When she next awakes she is in a barn-looking place. Concreate walls painted red and straw all over the floor. she cant stand, her legs stung and so did her entire body. for several days- she doesnt know how long she stayed in this place unable to move or do anything. Weak and starving, she gathered up her last bit of strength and hung herself on a low board (havent really worked out the details on that scence bc i keep changing my mind but she does hang herself). Cut to a space of nothingness- legit nothing- exactly its impossible to imagine nothing. In the nothing sits velvet all skin and bone, and then an entity, a hooded figure with long hair, sits next to her. No words are spoke, but the entity looks at velvet longingly. Then it tears out its eye- just full on plunges its hand into its socket and rips it out. bloody mess honestly. the entity hands its eye to velvet, and she takes it. there is no thoughts here, no sound, only actions. Cut once more to a coriners room place? ya know the place with dead bodies and tables and shit- anyways a bright light emerges from dead!vevlets chest and surrounds her entire body. *cue stunned doctor mans* Velvet arises from her death with her scars healed over and... wings. Yup shes an angel now. I mean her world already had monsters and things of suppernatural belonging but- angels are rare. She makes 1 of 2 angels in their relam as of current. Angels are "made" from regrets. Regret overflowing from two sources- one long dead and the other recent. This is where ethan comes in. Ethan's regret from how he died was powerful and sad, powerful enough for his spirt- an entity- to reach Velvets. Velvet too, had much regret in her death. So young and so many things that could have been avoided. In the days following up to her death in the barn/cellar she only felt regret. Regret for all she did and all she didnt do. So much pain summoned the entity. Their powerful forces of regret pulled them together and allowed Velvet to return- but at a price for the both of them. the entity lost its eye- symbolizing a loss of humanity and conscientiousness. While Velvet lost herself, she no longer can view her world in the same way. She has severe ptsd- like episodes and halucinations. She cant go back, she has to live through he own grief. Velvets appearnace also changes quite a bit. Her hair got longer, she has two sleek gray wings on her back, and- one of her eyes are purple now. why does it hrut her to see that eye? why is it all so familiar yet far away. Her human brain can hardly understand all the changes. But she was gifted this- she knows she must try. And luckily for her society sees angels as higher beings. They are given the umost respect but they are also greatly feared because of how misterious their origins are. The only other known angel meets with velvet quite alot through her story, he will act as a sort of guide/plot device to make things a bit easier for myself (havent worked out his lore tho or even a design for him hjbfkjsdb). Anyways im tired and its 1:35 am so thats all the lore you get for now, plus its the stuff ive thought about the most so- i dont really want to think any furtherb ahead yet lol. to many little things to work out...... i love creating but oml typing hurts after an hour or so-
Jam out!
... I don't even know what to say to this
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Hey it’s my baby’s birthday...
And all I can do is some random calligraphy xxx
I was alone, I took a ride
I didn't know what I would find there
Another road maybe I could see
Another kind of mind there
Then I suddenly see you
Did I tell you I need you
Every single day of my life?
Got to get you into my life
The Beatles
Hmmmm, and of course, Salvio just has...better literacy than me lol...
And hell yeah Giuliano is always the best on this ship...
(Honestly, I can’t get enough...!!)
So it’s been...
Well, I’m the fully committed kind of person and when I fell in love with a ship/fandom I’m here forever and ever. I jump through different places but my love for them never decrease a single bit.
I remember, a depressive and boring spring afternoon I clicked a random show to watch when I was browsing some drama video site, and I was like, ok Gomorra is not the kind of name I would instant click, but let’s give it a try. Not even half way through the episode me: “oh this shit is good”, two episodes later I found myself intentionally waiting for Ciro’s (who I thought was the leading character) appearance in the next scene. That’s when I realized, shit, I love it and I love him...
And time has passed and so much shit happened in life. But, had I not clicked that “random show” to watch I wouldn’t survive last summer with such a hype, I wouldn’t start to learn Italiano (tho I’m still so bad, I’m sorry prob my fav teacher in life (he’s name’s Fabrizio and he’s just so fucking hilarious I love him (and he speaks like 7 or more languages badass bro)))...And I wouldn’t have a tattoo like this, I wouldn’t be a Napoli fan (team played like shit this season tho..:(
All in all, I’m grateful I fell in love with a certain cat-eyes Italian dude (and of course, S A S A the teddy (re: I received a teddy bear as b-day gift this year, damn my friends know me so well lol i cant even)) and I will continue this love...forever and ever...
My plan was to go to Italy this summer but look at me now, trapped in my room waiting for this world to end.
But hey, at least I have Gomorra posters and photos on the wall accompanied me everyday :) I will keep my sogno italiano in check and maybe one day it will come true.
Right, I talk too much but Marco my baby, I love you and tanti auguri <3 We gemini must stick together and Salvio! plz kiss the kitten for me and more <333
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( park chaeyoung , twenty two , & cisfemale ) who ? these days , it’s all about blue hyong, who comes from los angeles & ca and is making headlines as a singer . she currently has a fan count of 42k , no thanks to the rumors of them being inflexible ! but , on the other hand , their most devout fans say they’re actually imaginative . last i heard , they caused quite a buzz when she publicly dissed her new record label and the misogynistic treatment she was receiving from their reps ! it’s no wonder they remind me of long rants in the notes app being posted to her twitter account , empty bottles of wine laying at recording studios’ floors & notebooks upon notebooks filled with lyrics she might never use but refuses to let go of .
well hello human friends !! n also hello to the non human friends too , wassup . i’m angie a dumb noodle from the middle of the south american jungle , and i’m here to introduce yall to this mess i call blue who’s a muse i have had for yrs now n carry w/ me wherever i go , with some minimal changes but she’s still the same messy bitch on the inside don’t worry folks ! so i will provide u w/ some background info on her n some possible connections under the cut . issa lil messy but we’ve been away for a while pls bear w me
blue is the only daughter to a couple of south korean immigrants that came to america when they were in their very early 20s n already expecting blue in order to chase the american dream n create a better life for themselves n their family . their life was pretty hard for a big part of blue’s childhood , while they were both studying n working odd jobs to pay for their education all the while taking care of a child . so blue didnt have the best childhood , not that her parents were bad or anything they just didnt have time for her . nowadays , they are a lot more comfortable in life , since her dad became a lawyer n her mom is a nurse , but they definitely didnt have an easy beginning .
ok so maybe bc they werent present durant most of her childhood they didnt notice a lol of signs that might have made things a lot easier for them , bc by the time they were available to emotionally be there , during her early teenage years , blue was already kinda a mess . she had grown up w very lil structure n refused the rules they tried to instill on her n was already used to doing things her own way . that lead to a lot of conflict between them , since they expected her to study hard n do well for herself in a nine to fiver when she was already sure art was the only way to go n while she did ok , she definitely wasn’t as good as her parents expected her to be .
so ... u know her teenage yrs were basic girl angsty she fought a lot w her parents n rebelled frequently n ran away from home like ... weekly , but she never rly had any real hardships . life was reasonably good but she always had something to complain abt ... just as she liked
[ MENTAL ILLNESS TW ]
but then she reached her late teens they all realized there was something going on other than the usual teenage angst she displayed all the time when she had her first manic episode . her parents thought it was a “ blue thing “ at first bc she was usually a very impulsive person n she rly didn’t have a habit of thinking before acting on her impulses , but her mom quickly noticed the signs of a manic episode when she realized how aggitated n restless she was , specially when blue described an hallucination she seemed to be having . they took her to a psychiatrist , she was admitted to a hospital n diagnosed w type 1 bipolar disorder n very quickly medicated . while the medication brought her out of her episode , n she was allowed to go home after her mood seemed to stabilize , blue also noticed it stunted her severely emotionally n decided ( against medical n parental advice [ pls dont do it fam !! take ur meds ] ) to quit her medication , falling into her first major depressive episode a few weeks afterwards . n for abt four years she’s been living w her disorder , n she doesn’t medicate at all . she’s super open abt her struggles n she has a Lot of them , specially w how much drugs n alcohol she consumes . i never said she was smart yall .
[ END OF TW ]
ok so as u probably assume , blue is an emotional mess . she has a very chaotic personality , n most of it isnt even from her illness or anything she just is a very chaotic person in general ? she is one of those artsy ppl who forgets to wash her own clothes so she ends up wearing the same dress for like , 3 days . she’s super outspoken n outgoing n rly easy at making friends if u can get past the dumbass energy she exudes 24/7 ? but yes just a very outgoing person n a outright mess most of the time . she is also soooo stubborn u will never get her to change her mind abt smth she believes to be right about in any way . u just cant . she loves a good time n loves partying n is the lack of impulse Queen soo if u got any bad ideas she is the one u should go for if u need any company . also .... so dramatic . she makes a big deal of everything n has 0 apologies abt that . just catch her crying over high school musical 3 or smth like that .
but yea on the bad side tho , blue takes up n gives up on projects so easily n she can be super fickle abt things in general . like , she will defend an idea for 7 hours but 2 days later she’s already onto smth else n doesnt even remember being so obsessive abt that other thing ? a mess . is also Quite abrasive ? if she thinks ur acting dumb shes not gonna be scared to call u out on it . can also have a Reaally explosive temper . not usually but specially during manic episodes she can be quite easy to annoy ngl . is very unreliable , especially if ur not too close .. tbh that is something connected to her disorder . when she’s on a manic episode , she will be too busy planning things she will never get around to doing or painting her entire house or spending 3 days awake n drunk writing 17 songs by herself . n during her depression is very hard to get her to do anything n even if she feels terrible , she rly cant be an available friend .
in regards to her sexuality , she’s an open bisexual and also is a crazy romantic n falls so hard for literally no reason . but like ... doesnt have the healthiest mentality for relationships ? not like in a toxic way but she will usually give 145% of herself at all times n honestly believes all of the ppl she falls for are the one (1) just wants to make things work no matter what . she’s v impulsive w/ meeting n falling for ppl tho so things dont rly end up working n she always ends up heartbroken over it . Well . At least she’s trying right ?
in regards to her career n art , she’s posted youtube covers n original songs for a couple years and gathered a decent following ? she wasnt huge or anything but she did get a record deal w an actual big label out of it a few months ago . blue was pretty happy abt it but then when the recording process started she realized they werent treating her as she thought she deserved at all ? which resulted on her taking her thoughts to some reps of the label n when she didn’t feel any difference in the way she was being treated she took it to the public ? which definitely caused quite a sitr bc she wasn’t a huge name but she was big enough ? so now she’s in some considerable trouble w her label but Also more famous than ever so they are choosing not to bury her for now ? she’s in some definite trouble though so it’ll be fun to see what happens next n what her moves will be ? spoiler alert : it’ll prob be smth dumb.
i still have so much to say but i’m so lazy wow . dont start ur intros so close to opening time folks thats my tip as an old internet auntie . OK SO ONTO SOME CONNECTIONS NOW
some label mates who she may or may not get along with ?
hookups !! she prob has a few she regrets too bc who doesnt am i right
best friends !! ppl who actually support her n she loves w no restrictions just love all around friends
exes </3 not gonna lie i have some sad ideas abt this one
good influence bc blue is a mess she needs one of those pls someone slap her head n make her drink some water
a fling she has feelings for but may not be requited ... i like my romantic connections to be angsty did yall notice
artistic soulmate !! someone her artistic bitch side just vibes with ? could be a songwriter or singer or anything tbh
some indecisive romantic shit where blue rly knows sh’s too messy n this person is too amazing ? but they still have feels so ... now what ?
this is p mcuh it ?? it has taken so long to finish this i hate myself but HEY if u like blue or dislike her u should hit me up so we can come up w some plot ideas ? i wish i had a quirky goodbye idea but my brain has just quit working guys so u get nothing from me other than a good old fashioned goodbye thanks for ur attention i love u
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A kpop newbie’s reaction to BLACKPINK
Alexa: bold
Alex: italic
today you are reacting to... BlackPink!
o damn, are you sure this band isn’t your favourite?
pFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFT- ok, good one, anyway this is them :3
((she tried sending me a picture but it didn’t work))
awh come oN
~ technical difficulties, please stand by ~
dfgfd shhhHhhHhH i know wot im doin smdh. this is alreaDY GOING BADLY
...should i just google them?
its okay, i got it. this is them
o damn. they're very pretty, but that was to be expected
yep.. so what concept do you think they have? lol as if it isnt obvious
idk man three of them are giving me death glares. uhh black? and pink?
tbh,,,,,they have the girl crush concept, like, theyre all badass and stuff
oh, well that’s.. interesting
i cant believe im letting you edit this post.. anyway, opinion on them? they dont look that similar, thank god
well the red-haired one i like the most so far since she doesn't look like she wants to choke me (and not in the kinky way)
fgjgfghj yes i see
the one wearing the 2b outfit is probably your goth waifu
omf
and the pink(TM) one looks like she's the sugar mommy of the group
m o o d
i'm guessing she's the leader? it could just be the thanos throne
they dont really have a leader.. this is also them
ah, lovely, a picture where they don't look like they want to murder me
yes, finally
a bunch of talented asian cuties, wot is new
to be honesT. i'll start with the first one from the second picture
alrighty
her stage name is rose
the first two from left to right are the prettiest imo
o rlly
i'm gonna get lynched alive for saying that, aren’t i
so, opinion?
she's uhhh 23? and a singer, and she's the goofy one
well youre right about her being a singer.. shes 21, and yes, she is pretty goofy. she is fluent in english because she is australian
n i c e
this is her kickin everyone's ass
((Then she showed me this video))
i-
skinny legend
and they said infinity war was the most ambitious crossover... asian idols wearing brazilian carnival outfits as some dude sings that song from shrek 2? sign me tf up
LMAOO
gee her voice still gives me chills
rose step on me
alexa that's lewd, let us move on swiftly
sorry i just
like her
shes also a good dancer
i'm guessing she's gonna be my favourite
o
english speaking idols get bonus points, and she seems to excel at everything else, so...
yes, she is amazing. oh, she also cried over her fish's death
;-; oof
:( bless her
anyway, you have any questions?
nop, she's gucci, let us proceed
right, the next one is jisoo
she's a qt ;; she looks like a dork i want to shake her hand and give her a hug
this is her smiling
i-
see thats the heart smile
is she the radiance? because my retinas are burned
SDFGFDSADFG MOOD
literally no one is gonna get that joke
wat if they do?
then they are people of culture
opinion?
uhh, she is the soft one, and.. she's short because why not, and she's 22 and she sings ;;
o- i mean, she isnt really tall, but she isnt that short. yes, she is a singer, the oldest, 23 y/o and she is a goofball, a derp. very entertaining tbh
she looks adorable and has a cute name and is a goofy dork god bless
all of them are good at english but her. but she Tries- and is confused.
o o f
tis a baby
she deserves all the hugs
she isnt the best dancer, but shes a Great singer, and very stable on stage
their hair alexa
their hair is so fucking aesthetic
i KnoW
i am in pain, pack your dictionary we're moving to korea
fuck yeaH
the next one is lisa
abs of JUSTICE
hot diggidy
she's the sass queen, and she's uh.. 23, and a rapper
oh, this is also her
she is also 21, and yes, a rapper!! a very swaggy one
jackpot
but shes a whole cutie, and the youngest
awh ;;
and she gets embarrassed easily
i see, so she's the tsundere of the group
she is from thailand, and i think shes fluent in four languages, including english
nice, man
she is also an Amazing dancer
n i c e , m a n
shes kinda my wife but theyre all my bias so i cannot decide
it is Too Hard
i only have one bias u-u
ofc u do
remember to only have one waifu alexa, too many waifu will ruin your laifu
a baby
they’re all cuties this is fucking illegal
it i s
do you have any question about baby lalisa over there :(
so far this is a very solid kpop band
o
lots of english speakers, cute dorks and pure babies everywhere
;-; yes
it has my seal of approval
n i c e
the last member is jennie
o damn. jennie? j-just jennie?
just jennie. she doesn’t need anything else
is that an ACDC shirt
apparently
why do they all look so good and fashionable, and both glamorous and cute and pure at the same time, alexa the space-time continuum shouldn't allow this
pffft
opinion?
hmm..
she's both a rapper and a singer, and uhh.. she's the second sassiest, but also a goof, and she's 23.
I'LL STICK WITH MY 23
also damn nice thighs
she does have amazing thighs tbh..
WAIT HOW DO YOU KNOW SHES ALSO A RAPPER AND A SINGER
well usually in smaller kpop bands one of them does the support for both singing and rap..r-right?
,,,,,,,,,now that you say it
it finally happened folks, i taught alexa something about kpop
badass
THEY'RE ALL SO PURE, FUCC
THEY ARE, they have the badass girl crush concept, BUT THEYRE ALL FUCKIN CUTIES IRL
also, take this
my poor heart
jennie is so smol ;; jennie is the smolest
i'm sorry, i was distracted by the thicc
mood tbh
she is also fluent in english lmao
pack your shiT ALEXA WE'RE GOING TO KOREA
y ES
theyre all really cute and entertaining, they dont go over the top, but theyre still pretty funny - as funny as a girl group can be anyway
pfft
i find all of them entertaining tbh. show me some songs fam
o, alrighty. this is a dance practice, it was the first thing that was released and everyone went nuts
((Then she showed me the dance practice video))
lisa is the one with shorts, jennie has the cap, rose is the one with braids and the last one is jenniejisoo
oof, a bit too edgy for my taste, sorry. but the routine is great!
well, they were kinda made to be badass
yeah, i figured
also, a little side note
o?
their company is one of the biggest companies out there, but theyre known for their shitty management, as in, they dont really give idols many comebacks or promotions, so they dont have many songs;; even tho they debuted two years ago
well, that kinda sucks
yep..
i imagine this business is pretty finicky behind the scenes. i guess it can’t be all sugar and glitter all the time
true.. anyway, this is is one of the two songs in their debut ep lol
((Then she showed me “Whistle”))
also, may i add, their mvs are hella aesthetic
they seem to be.. not a fan of the super edgy american-ish songs though
yeh, their second ep was better. this is from the second ep
((Then she showed me “Playing With Fire”))
pyromaniac title, piano in the first second. this one's gon' be gud
yeah, this one was definitely better - well, not objectively, just imo
yeah
then theres this beautiful beautiful song
((Then she showed me “Stay”))
that title gives me the hibby jibbies
y e p p
nvm i saw a mcdonalds in the background and now i'm chuckling
sdfdsdfg
honestly the mv is So Pretty
ALEXA I DIDN'T SIGN UP FOR SAD TIMES
shhh its a nice lil song just dont read the lyrics lmao
...i'm reading the lyrics now
I THOUGHT THEY WERE SUPPOSED TO BE A BADASS GROUP WHAT IS THIS
the chorus is so nice tho, with the claps
it is.. well, that was mildly depressing
at the end they hold hands and laugh and jump around in a circle in the mv and its just.. i rlly like the mv and the filter is very pretty
a e s t h e t i c
anyway, back to badass
((Then she showed me “Ddu-du Ddu-du”...?))
this is their most recent release, this time with a mini album
and i see thanos’s throne is back
y eS
these sets look expensive as fucc.. is that a fennec fox?
maybe..
and the evil parrot from rio? what is this, a crossover episode?
THE MOST AMBITIOUS CROSSOVER
first we had the shrek 2 song, now this
they gon' hit me with dat turu turu du alexa halp meh
i k r
wat u gon do
is that.. a sparkly tank?
y ES
jennie is an icon
i feel like i've ascended
tbh all these things were so unnecessary yet they did it anyway
well i certainly don’t regret it
that breakdown at the end is kinda cheap, but i think the diamond tank made up for it
definitely
sdfvbvGJHGthere are two mvs left
oh, just.. just two?
y es
i feel bad for them ;; did u say it's been two years
yeah..
this is so r00d
yes, always feel bad for yg artists
what’s yg?
its a company - their company
ah, i see
their shitty company
oof
here's their debut song (which i dont really like but Oh Well.)
((Then she showed me “Boombaya”..? who the hell comes up with these names?))
well, in all fairness if they're one of the biggest they probably have a lot of bands to manage
not really.. they had very successful bands though, so that kinda paved the way for the ones nowadays
ALEXA THESE FUCKING LYRICS ARE KILLING ME
ASDFGBFVDS MOOD
CLICK CLACK BADDABING BADDABOOM QUEEN
"i'm so hot i need a fan i don't want a boy i need a man" BISH YOU'RE A 5 FOOT 20-SOMETHING ASIAN IDOL CHILL
hjkjhghj shhHHH
this is a whole drugtrip
it iS
are those.. black leather biker pants... mixed with blue jeans? this is some next level shit alexa i can't handle this
y ES
fashion icon
why do coke when you can watch this for free and legally?
ikr
theres one last mv, and its better, trust me
..alright...
theyre cute in this one
((Then she showed me “As If It’s Your Last”))
jisoo is the one with the heart magnet and i love her
awh ;;
man these titles are edgier than 13 year old me
oh come on, its a love song
that dancing, it's s-so lewd <-<;;
it iS
oh, i forgot lisa's rap is in english
n o i c e
i didn't know jennie had her own ice cream business
girl is going places
okay but 1:36
what about it?
th-the cotton candy part
pfff
sorry i remember the first time and saw it and was like fukc thas cute
well, it was. it was pure ;;
alright, final thoughts?
well, they're a bunch of cute and talented dorks, but that ain't nothing new. either way, 10/10 for the lewd dancing and the fact that they speak english. give dem more comebacks, fam
they have lewder choreos, but thats for another day.
justice4blackpinkcomeback edition
yeS, let’s make a petition
Heya peeps, it’s a boii mod Alex here. This was the first time I put together a Reaction Wednesday post, so uh.. yeah... I think it turned out pretty good! But seriously, a lot of work goes into these, even though it may not seem like it. Anyway, I hope you enjoyed it! See you next week!
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this world works in hella weird ways
so,, tuesday my friend had been admitted to the hospital in really bad condition (hes doing better tho!) and wednesday night my last rabbit passed away, and ive had a near-constant migraine and stress vomiting all week up until today
i woke up feeling pretty great honestly? and it was like. okay. this is neat. what else bad is gonna b thrown at me.
i was all good, got ready, bopped to mcdonalds to get me a coffee and when i come out i just see this thing on the ground where a car had been parked and i was like “oh no its a rat”
wrong. it was a freezing, starving, soaked, and matted kitten and my soft heart wouldnt let me pass it up. my mom saved him while i had school and hes currently napping in a blanket on my lap.
it wouldnt be all that weird if this was the first time something like this has happened? but yall
back when my cat Blackie passed away, i was a mess -- i was full on grieving. i felt like i’d lost a part of my soul. i would sit by his grave and cry and talk and beg for him to come back because i legit cant remember a time in my childhood when he wasnt with me.
my cat Ginger showed up around a week or two later and helped me to focus on the cats i had. i still grieved, but i could function a little bit more than before. she helped me heal and i can never thank her enough for that
after that, my cat Socks (he’d been frequenting the house for a while; he just didnt approach us for anything, he was a stray thru n thru) let me get close to him and actually pet him. i’m,,,, honestly convinced that Blackie had told him to take care of us, as he immediately loved up on me and my mom, wanting inside and all that jazz
those two made a tough time easier.
then, a while after Socks disappeared, my rabbit Harley died and Ginger disappeared as well. again, i was thrown into an episode of depression.
then Sweet Pea came into my life. he was so small and i my instincts screamed for me to protect him, to become a mother to him, and i did just that. he gave me something to strive for: to see him grow into a good boy.
finally, after he’d finished growing, the newborn kitten me an my mom tried to save died and my cat Zeus took a turn for the worse-- this came with stress and regret and so many negative emotions i could barely drag myself out of bed.
now we have Nova and Mocha, the twins who keep me laughing.
its weird; ive convinced myself that i was bad luck ever since i can remember, yet these little fuzzy blessings keep coming into my life. maybe i am bad luck. maybe i am a curse upon my family. but at least i can count on a small addition to come take care of me.
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92 truths tag!
Rules: once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 truths about you. at the end choose 25 people to be tagged
🌙 LAST
drink: waterrr
phone call: with my dad!
text message: with my friends in our gc, we were talking about something stupid my friend did eheheheheh
song you listened to: beautiful by crush
time you cried: honestly i cant remember at this rate
🌙 HAVE YOU EVER
dated someone twice: um no
kissed someone and regretted it: um no
lost someone special: um yes
been depressed: um yes
been drunk and thrown up: um
🌙 IN THE PAST YEAR HAVE YOU
made a new friend: of course!
fallen out of love: ehh kinda
met someone who changed you: yeah a lot of people!
found out who your true friends are: uh huh
found out someone was talking about you: ehh kind of
🌙 GENERAL
how many people on tumblr do you know in real life?: 0 sfhdghd
do you have any pets?: nope, i used to have some tho
do you want to change your name?: yes and no
what time did you wake up this morning: 6:45 am
what were you doing last night: i watched an episode of miraculous ladybug AHAHAHAHA
something you cannot wait for: everything
have you ever talked to a person named tom?: nope
what’s getting on your nerves right now: school
blood type: B!
nickname: coco, court, crouton (yes the salad thing), scourtney
relationship status: uhhhh im trying to love myself
zodiac sign: scorpio!
pronouns: she/her
favourite show: i dont really have one nowadays slkfhggf
college: uhhh i’m in high school?
hair colour: black/dark brown
do you have a crush on someone: on idols yeah, but in real life theres a few people here and there who i think are cute but not really my type so no i guess
what do you like about yourself: uhhh nothing specific
🌙 FIRSTS
first surgery: i’ve never had one oof
first piercing: ^^
first sport you joined: none oop
first vacation: the first one i remember is…. italy? or is was new hampshire idk
first pair of sneakers: i wanna guess they were white
🌙 RIGHT NOW
eating: i had a sandwich earlier!
i’m about to: do more hw djdghdggdj
listening to: dream in a dream by ten
want kids: honestly no handling myself is hard enough LSFGDLJGH
get married: maybe? depends on the guy
career: none?
🌙 WHICH IS BETTER
lips or eyes: eyes!
hugs or kisses: hugs!
shorter or taller: depends on who we’re talking about
troublemaker or hesitant: excuse me i'm an indecisive person
older or younger: older
romantic or spontaneous: kjdshgldsagsfg
sensitive or loud: ish
hookup or relationship: re. lation. ship.
🌙 HAVE YOU EVER
kissed a stranger: ew
drank hard liquor: on accident but hey it was cherry flavored
lost contacts/glasses: my vision is great thanks
sex on first date: EW
broken someone’s heart: hopefully not
been arrested: i wish bish
turned someone down: someone never came to me in the first place oops
🌙 DO YOU BELIEVE
in yourself: trying!
miracles: yeah!
love at first sight: well it happened to me so ljdsgsfg
im sorry i feel a bit lazy right now so i'm not gonna tag like 25 people 💖💖 feel free to do it tho and say i tagged you! and also psa love hyuna as much as you love sunmi and as much as i love you all 💖💖
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85 question game rules: answer these 85 statements and tag twenty people
tagged by @steambend
the last
drink: coffee
phone call: my dad
text message: actual text “can i come over now?” but i use whatsapp or messenger more
song you listened to: uhhh i was listening to 5h’s new album
time you cried: honestly cant remember its rare
dated someone twice: i went on one date with this girl 2 years ago and thats the extent of my dating history
kissed someone and regretted it: oh god idk if we kissed (i mean probs) but in like april i went out with my football team and the next day i got a text from some rando that identified himself as “the oyinbo prince that got your number last night” (oyinbo is nigerian slang for white) rip me
been cheated on: never
lost someone special: two years ago
been depressed: few months ago
gotten drunk and thrown up: i dont throw up when drunk only when badly hungover. last time was in june.
three favourite colours: all shades of purple/ burgundy/ yellow
in the last year have you made new friends: yeah
fallen out of love: nope
laughed until you cried: yep
found out someone was talking about you: nope
met someone who changed you: no
found out who your friends are: i mean i guess i rediscovered the strength of some friendships
kissed someone on your facebook list: yes
in general how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life? majority of them but sometimes i add them when drunk and im like who tf
do you have any pets? i used to have a dog but she died a few years back :(
do you want to change your name? no
what did you do for your last birthday? got drunk went out
what time did you wake up? ehh like 7
what were you doing at midnight last night? tungle
name something you can’t wait for: honestly i really want vlds4 to reignite my love for the show
when was the last time you saw your mum: she went out like 3 hours ago lol
what are you listening to right now? nothing
have you ever talked to a person named tom? yeah
something that is getting on your nerves: more ppl wanting someone (coughcough) to replace shiro as permanent black paladin (someone was really out here saying they hope keith unlocks more black lion features than shiro did miss me with that shit fam shiro bonded with black within two (2) episodes more than keith did in 7 ANYWAY IGNORE THE SALT)
most visited website: tumblr
hair colour: purple usually, brown rn
long or short hair: long usually, short rn lol
do you have a crush on someone? ehhhhhhh theres this dude at uni and weve kinda been flirting for 3 years but nothings happened but like i wouldnt be opposed to a date i guess
what do you like about yourself? im honest
piercings: two in each ear and a nose ring
blood type: honestly no idea
nickname: al
relationship status: single
zodiac: libra
pronouns: she/her
favourite
tv show(s): a:tla, vld i guess, orphan black, skam before s4 (im sorry s4 was a mess)
tattoos: one on me finger
right or left handed: left
surgery: wisdom teeth
sport: football or zumba
vacation: i went to santorini last year
pair of trainers: nike airs
more general
eating: im not currently?
drinking: also not currently…
i’m about to: find some food
waiting for: going back to uni
want: allura to go back to being leader/fake shiro theory to be true and real shiro comes back to the black lion/keith is part altean(or polluxian whatever just make him romelle’s kid) and is related to acxa/shallura get together in canon
get married: i’m not fussed
career: engineer
which is better?
hugs or kisses: hugs
lips or eyes: lips
shorter or taller: taller
older or younger: older
nice arms or nice stomach: arms
hookup or relationship: either i guess. depends on the person
troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant i guess? idk im not really hesitant but i dont go looking for trouble
have you ever
kissed a stranger: ya
drank hard liquor: ya
lose glasses/contact lenses: lol YA
turned someone down: i was gonna say no but i remembered i turned down my best friend in summer camp when i was 10 LOL he was cool about it tho
sex on the first date: does it count if there was no date
had your heart broken: um…platonically moreso than romantically if that makes sense
been arrested: not my black ass
cried when someone died: yes
fallen for a friend: mhm
do you believe in
yourself: right now yeah
miracles: yes
love at first sight: attraction my guy not love
santa claus: nope
kiss on the first date: if the date went well why not
angels: yes
other
eye colour: brown
favourite movie: probs like. moonrise kingdom. or aquamarine. idk fam lol
tagging: @the-allura-shirogane @allurahimesama @littlespacestars @katiiesbishop and anyone else who wants to pls feel free
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eyy i was tagged by @lancekoganee, @lovelylangst, and @fictionismynationality for the 92 truths thing so here it issss
LAST…
[1] drink: dr pepper
[2] phone call: uh well the last like 5 people to call me were spam numbers but the last i actually talked on was with my sister
[3] text message: bff callie
[4] song you listened to: just one yesterday by fall out boy
[5] time you cried: a few hours ago when i remembered my characters name in the demi episode game that i played a year and a half ago was “whipe dat azz”
HAVE YOU EVER…
[6] dated someone twice: unfortunately yes
[7] been cheated on: no
[8] kissed someone and regretted it: no
[9] lost someone special: ?? im not sure bc there’s a lot of people who used to be special but the friendship either imploded or slowly died sooo
[10] been depressed: no
[11] gotten drunk and thrown up: no lol i am rather pure for my age lmao
LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLORS:
[12] dark green
[13] pastel pink
[14] that blue that looks really good in velvet
IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…
[15] made new friends: yeah!
[16] fallen out of love: yes? im not sure if it was love to begin w sooo
[17] laughed until you cried: bruh i did like 3 hours ago lol
[18] found out someone was talking about you: yeah apparently im “famous” at best buy bc my coworker (who also works there) was telling his coworkers about shenanigans him and i get into
[19] met someone who changed you: yee
[20] found out who your true friends are: yeah. ive cut out a lot of people but its for the better
[21] kissed someone on your facebook list: not currently lol (my current bf isnt my friend on facebook lmao)
GENERAL…
[22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: most of them tbh, but i need to go through and clean out my friends list
[23] do you have any pets: 3 cats and a doggo
[24] do you want to change your name: nah but a nickname would be cool
[25] what did you do for your last birthday: i didnt work i saw Fantastic Beasts in the morn and had lunch w my bf, then hung out w my friends and had dinner w them and the fam, went home and played sims
[26] what time did you wake up: 7-730ish am
[27] what were you doing at midnight last night: coming home from work/starting precal hw
[28] name something you cannot wait for: obviously voltron season 3 but i also want to jsut get thru the next few weeks bc work is going to be a n i g h t m a r e and i want my suffering to be over asap
[29] when was the last time you saw your mother: 2 hours ago
[30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: honestly i would go back in time and tell little middle school me to try out for region (bc i honestly believe if i had just had a year or two more expirience auditioning, then i wouldve made the all state choir) and then go to junior yr me and say “stop being an angry ho and c a l m d o w n . i wish i could go back a year from today and tell myself that the management position is not worth it. to find another job while i can. (however, i use my job as motivation to do well in school: “do well, keep up my gpa, get my degree. i dont want to be at the movie theater forever”)
[31] what are you listening to right now: my klance playlist (death of a bachelor is currently playing)
[32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: ive talked to a tommy and someone whos last name is toms
[33] something that is getting on your nerves: anything customer related/ “can an available manager come to the stand for an employee purchase”
[34] most visited website: college homepage, math hw website, tumblr, gmail, netflix (recently made my friend watch voltron every MWF after out speech class lol)
[35] elementary: my awkward acne/glasses/pre-braces/braces phase. also i wore training bras for 3 yrs bc i was so uncomfortable w my boobs that i couldnt tell my mom i needed an actual bra
[36] high school: i can look at pictures and tell by my smile where i lost my childish innocence (halfway thru junior yr)
[37] college: community rn, but i plan on transfering to tamu and getting at least a bachelors in environmental science. i have to research into carriers to see if a masters/phd is worth it, but that is something im interested in
[38] hair color: blonde when clean
[39] long or short hair: the question of the century. i look good w a lob, but i also love braiding hair sooo
[40] do you have a crush on someone: i mean i have a crush on my bf lance
[41] what do you like about yourself: i guess im funny. i can sing the whole danny phantom theme song
[42] piercings: triples in each ear, helix and double forward helix in my right ear (planning on getting a faux snug in my left ear eventually. id like a nose ring, but work wont let me. i maybe want a belly button ring, if i decide to work out for it lol as if)
[43]blood type: i dunno, but looking at it makes me queasy so
[44] nickname: maycakers, big titty t, mak
[45] relationship status: long term relationship (idk how many months now but its over 2 yrs so)
[46] zodiac sign: scorpio
[47] pronouns: she/her.
[48] fav tv show: voltron, avatar the last airbender (im laughing i typed “airbeder” at firs), the office, drake and josh
[49] tattoos: never (ill stick w piercings)
[50] right or left hand: right
FIRST…
[51] surgery: does having a wart dug out of my toe count
[52] piercing: the standard single pair when i was 6
[53] best friend: aaliyah but once we got to middle school we didnt have classes together and i didnt see her much in highschool (i heard about her bc she broke a lot of sports records. shes gonna be an olympian in 2020 y’all. i can feel it)
[54] sport: does drill team count
[55] vacation: we went to the state capitol w my grandparents
[56] pair of trainers: wtf are trainers
RIGHT NOW…
[57] eating: nothing bc my stomach is currently revolting
[58] drinking: grape powerade
[59] i’m about to: take a nap gd im tired
[60] listening to: euphoria by loreen
[61] waiting for: sleep to take me
[62] want: my period back ache to stop
[63] get married: i want to get married so bad i want to be super domestic and have a bb and that kid is gonna recycle EVERYTHING and i will love them
[64] career: ecologist? environmental researcher? environmental biologist? agricultural reformer? idk i just want to do something w the environment
WHICH IS BETTER…
[65] hugs or kisses: hugs
[66] lips or eyes: eyes are pretty
[67] shorter or taller: taller bc then ur head is in their chest when u hug. or u have to get on tippy toes to kiss. yes.
[68] older or younger: older older older
[70] nice arms or nice stomach: yknow stomaches are nice and all but u cant see them bc shirts. u can see arms tho ohmy
[71] sensitive or loud: idk im loud so
[72] hook up or relationship: relationship ftw. hook ups sound...really gross to me (my ace ass cant fathom hookups lol)
[73] troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant
HAVE YOU EVER…
[74] kissed a stranger? ew no
[75] drank hard liquor? the only thing ive ever drank ever is a shot of cherry sake (i spit that back out it was gross) and a shot of goldschlager (which cleared sinuses i didnt know i had and made me reaaaalllly giggly)
[76] lost glasses/contact lenses? lmao all the time
[77] turned someone down: yeah
[78] sex on first date? no
[79] broken someone’s heart? yes
[80] had your own heart broken? not really? i felt sad both times i broke up w my ex but i knew it was for the best
[81] been arrested? no but ive had someone threaten me w calling the cops
[82] cried when someone died? my granny, cat, hamster
[83] fallen for a friend? i mean my bf was my friend before we dated so i guess
DO YOU BELIEVE IN…
[84] yourself? tbh i am super confident in my schoolwork and just... not at all at work
[85] miracles? yeah but sometimes they fail me
[86] love at first sight? no
[87] Santa Claus? rip
[88] kiss on the first date? ehhh
[89] angels? maybe
OTHER…
[90] current best friend’s name: CALLIE
[91] eye color: blue
[92] favorite movie: oh fuq i love tangled and anastasia
i dont know 20 people or whatever so imma tag @pierce-the-llama, @marcoandthebodts (you sent me one of these like 55245 years ago and i shall do it now lol), @connors-sweet-ass, and @justklance if y’all want to
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It's been a long time since ive typed here and in my offline diary. But i have to get these things out so I'll try to type everything out in the order ive felt them and what i think. All of this happened over the last few months before this. So like feb/march/April to now.
I'm very tired writing this
I'm still dating my current bf. In the past, during this relationship Ive sorta struggled with my sexuality but even more so since i had never had experience and at the time i was getting over the crush on one of my friends whos a girl. During this time (this is before this year, so parts of 2017 and then parts of 2018), at the ending months of 2018 i realized I didnt really like her like that and I felt like i wasnt appreciating what i did have. I had my boyfriend who is my best friend and I kept flip flopping around and it wasn't right. I had tried to break up about 3 times during the 3 years we've had so far together and it wasnt right. I cant remember every reason why i specifically chose to end things the first time but it was over something stupid i think. But i missed him so so much and we obviously got back together. Since then things were really nice. I kept getting confused tho... i knew i really liked him but i had also felt i liked other people that i almost had chances with. But i knew it wouldnt ever work like me and my boyfriend did.
I always felt so at home with him... but for some reason i was always influenced by everyone else's opinions. The distance between us and the fact that my friends kept saying not to do it because itll be hard and them having experience when i had none really always pushed me. Which is why, and this is the time i realized i was way too impressionable, when i broke up w him (or tried to take a break) it was cuz i just ... was lonely. I was just lonely and didnt wanna keep having this longing feeling. He was here emotionally connected with me but i couldnt be with him physically. It was probably the worst choice i made. Even though we got back together its still scarring. I cant keep doing this and so I felt a lot of guilt and said even when things are tough i cant panic and run away. That breakup lasted for a couple of days and it was the WORST pain i have ever felt emotionally. It was different then other depressive episodes ive had. I had literally gotten a chunk taken out of me. It was like i had been killed but my soul was still awake in my body. It lasted for like 3 or 4 days until i couldnt be like this and reached out. Immediately i felt better once we made up. I dont know how he feels about it. But i never wanna do that again unless i am absolutely sure.
Fast forward to 2019. I feel something is off. He told me about something he's been interested in for a while and its not a problem. But i cant explain what i feel like when its brought up and i think its because its a really big change. It sort of alters the way i would have to view him bery very slightly but even small change freaks me out. Anyway, it was p chill tho. But i noticed hed been a little distant and seemed to be having trouble with whatever thoughts were in his mind. But he wouldn't really let me in apart from snippets. Which is fine, but i also worry.. ykno? I want to show him its ok to work thru it with others. But i guess it's partly an ego thing. Everyone likes to feel wanted and trusted ykno? Idk. But we didnt really talk normally for a bit.....
Until one day things just got better. I stopped complaining to him so much because it became toxic. I am a very self centered and controlling person and sometimes it really gets the best of me. I dont need the spotlight but i need ppl to think a certain way of me or make sure I'm not the cause of anything bad...
Which is the problem. I care so much for him but for some reason i make my care for him really about myself. I do love him and want him happy... but im also afraid that maybe he could be happier without me. I talked to my friends about it and honestly there are some things he does or says that make me really upset. But at this current point in time i cant imagine myself talking to anyone else. In my eyes hes perfect for me and is the only one who can ever tolerate me... but thats so toxic and idk what to do...
Then he came to visit me. Which is a story for another post..
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