#hopefully next year it isnt too bad

[blackskorpi0n]

my 23 faves of 2023🤸🏾‍♀️ in no particular order

tysm for the tag @sikoi 🫶🏾!!! I wanna tag @wldestluv-rs @crsentfairy @nepotisim @yngblkarawak @missatan @veone @gleamer @skaterboisims @salemsimss and anyone else who wants to do this 💗

[scalpelsister]

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[ars0nism]

ive made fun of oswald cobblepot a lot for being the way he is while achieving nothing but ive spent a week with my right ankle trying to kill me each time i walk and i have a newfound respect for him getting as far as he did. if i had to live like this for the rest of my life id beg for a wheelchair and p much never walk again, let alone build a crime empire

[hauntedrain]

Part 1: For our own Sanity | Alex Turner x Fem! Reader |

social media AU Summary: Alex and reader's relationship turns public after a string of events.

✮▹A/N: So my first time doing a social media AU, so hopefully its okay <3

✰▹Warnings/Notices: Face claim is Sabrina Carpenter, mentions of age gap (Reader is about 25), I used Milo Manheim as an Ex of the reader. Potentially very bad cuz this is my first social media AU. Some old photos used, Not edited.

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@PeopleMagazine: Y/N L/N continues to amaze as she and fellow singer-songwriter are spotted together in New York, Only 8 months after her breakup with Milo Manheim with whom she spent 2 years together with. More on this couple and Y/N L/N's relationships and reputation.

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user1: isnt she dating people left and right?

↪ user2: Yes, so for Alex's sake I would run. And look at that age gap!

↪ User3: You guys are actually crazy, Alex doesn't need to run, and her past relationships have ended because of her PARTNERS' stupid decisions.

User4: This girl can't catch a break can she? Yall are on her 24/7.

↪ User5: LITERALLY. They shamed her like a week ago for making an album, it's her job!

User6: Anyways, live laugh love Y/N and Alex.

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@Y/N L/N: I truly love coming and performing in New York and I can't wait for next time ❥ Thank you guys for being so kind and lovely. Now onto my UK tour!

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User7: I fear... it's a serve.

User8: I need confirmation about the Alex photos or else I might die.

↪ user9: She doesn't need to confirm to anything, it's her private life.

↪ User10: You act as though she doesn't flaunt her relationship like crazy, she probably even knew about or called the paps to take those photos.

↪ User11: Exactly, she's always been the one to get a man and show him and their relationship off for a bit, then break up and make an album. It's giving clout chaser and a form of gold-digging.

↪ User 12: Milo has 2.4 million followers on Instagram. she has 32 million. i don't think she is the one clout chasing or being a gold digger.

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@Y/Nupdates: Y/N and Alex Turner both have arrived at the Grammy's Award Show! Both arrived separately but sources say that both are hanging around each other for the most part.

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User13: Both are GLOWING.

↪ User14: Exactly what I came here to say.

User15: So they are dating?

↪ User16: Nothing is confirmed and it's none of our business anyway.

↪ User17: let us have our fun. Both are big in the music industry, so we're bound to get excited. Like, imagine all the new music.

User18: I've seen some people say that they left together after the show.

↪ User19: I need to know if this is true RIGHT NOW.

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@Arcticmonkeys: 2/14/24

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User19: IM SORRY WHAT?!

User20: what the fuck is that last slide.

↪ User 21: IF THATS Y/N IMMA SCREAM.

User 22: On valentines day?! THIS IS GONNA BE GOOD.

Y/N L/N: Cant wait.

↪ User 23: WHAT.

↪ User 24: I swear to god you need to tell us all the secrets or else we're going to go crazy.

⭒❃.✮:▹A/N: I hope this is good and that you like it! Ill make part 2 soon. Sorry for being so inactive life is just getting busy. However, I'm really excited about this one and I'm also excited about other fics too. Other than that, thank you so much, and love you guys! PART 2 POSTED

[gabessquishytum]

Dubcon mating with alpha dream except hob knows EXACTLY what hes doing:) hob has been all but throwing himself at dream all semester all "ohh wow i would NEVER leave MY alpha like that.. too bad i dont even have one :(" hell cut it as close as possible going to class through his pre heat just to hopefully give dream a wiff of how slick and fertile he is. Dream does not seem to notice. But hob is one of the few omegas in the school this year so hob thinks his chances are pretty good to be able to get him in rut. He follows dream to his office all smug and confident. But he wasnt prepared for how overwhelming getting held down and rut fucked was!! Hes trying to crawl away despite himself but only gets hornier when dream physically drags him back. Hob has fooled around before but never done more than some over the clothes stuff with an actual alpha.. dream gives him his first knot and latches his teeth to the back of his neck to mate him as well. Hob is a bit teary and dream still hasnt come back to himself.. his pants were ripped off his body along with his underwear but dream lays on top of him so hes not cold. Hob is determined to keep his alpha though. Hes got his gym clothes in his bag and he drags dream off to his own room, planning to hide long enough that the bond solidifies and an emergency break wouldn't be possible anymore :) good thing dream isnt awake to make hob see someone for that!! Hes got a weird sense of honor and hob is doing all he can to make the bond permanent before dream can get in his way :)

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Oh YES. Sneaky, sneaky Hob. This is excellent.

Hob is ambitious, ok? He’s been told all his life that he’ll never get anywhere or be anything. He sees it as his job to prove people wrong. So he has a plan: put himself through uni, get a fantastic fucking job, and get himself the most eligible alpha he can find.

Not necessarily in that order.

Dream is just perfect. Clever, rich, handsome. Hob can’t understand why anyone would leave him, but he’s not complaining. With Dream’s previous mating bond gone, Hob is free to make his move. He’s a little scared of how it will work out, but Dream has been nice to him and shown an interest in Hob! Not in a sexual way, but that’s only because he’s too professional. Hob is sure that Dream won’t object to them being mated. Hob isn’t the perfect omega, but he’ll do his best. He’s (mostly) a virgin, and he plans to take good care of his alpha. What more could Dream want?

And once he becomes lucid again, Dream is surprisingly compliant. He doesn’t seem angry. He panics at first, but once Hob assures him that he wanted Dream to fuck him and mate him, he just kind of… accepts it. He takes Hob home to his big empty house. He just seems pleased to have an omega around the place!

Hob gets his comeuppance for his sneakiness, because the house isn’t entirely empty. Dream soon introduces Hob to… his son. Orpheus is preschool aged and spends his time split between Dream and Calliope’s homes. Hob is suddenly thrust into the role of step-parent to a child who could conceivably be his sibling, while Dream breathes a sigh of relief because he really needs all the help he can get with Orpheus.

But Hob doesn’t believe in giving up! He rolls up his sleeves (figuratively and literally), speedily reads a couple of websites about blended families, and decides that he’s going to be the best fucking step-parent anyone has ever seen. He does regret his underhanded behaviour a tiny bit, but he’s made his bed and now he’s going to lie in it.

And he still gets to ride Dream’s dick at the end of the day, so… it could be a lot worse. Every time Dream grabs him at the waist and pulls him back onto his cock, shoving his knot more firmly into his hole, Hob remembers how it all started… and he’s honestly really looking forward to his next heat. Dream fucked him so good in his rut, so Hob is pretty sure that spending a pheromone loaded heat with him is going to be amazing. And maybe they’ll even make a little sibling for Orpheus :D

[luckydoeslanguage]

Weekly Update | 四月23日２０２４年

こんばんは、みんな　(_　_)。゜zｚＺ

posting a little later than i usually do. This week has been more of the same, so there isnt too much to talk about. i debated waiting until next week, i dont want to break my habit :P Onto my updates:

Almost done the anime ive been watching. its a little slice of life called 'スーパーカブ', which follows a girl who buys a titular Honda super cub and her daily life. id say its a moe show, but it feels more down to earth than that. lots of motor vehicle vocab. when im done the show i want to post a review of it here so i'll save my comments til then.

started playing とびだせどうぶつの森 again in earnest. i started the save almost a year ago and it was kind of overwhelming at first but its more manageable now. I should really play more immersion games on 3DS.

i tried writing a letter to my favourite villager, マキバースタ. I sent her an ironing board cause i thought it would look good in her house :)

didnt start any manga :(. i looked around for some and didnt really decide on anything in the end.

i also spent a day looking into japanese magazine subscriptions cause i wanted to read some of the shoujo manga magazines. turns out shipping paper products to rural BC is expensive, so i didnt get any. :( womp womp.

didnt end up taking new cards on anki this week. i honestly avoided it all week until the last few days and even then it wasnt so bad. hopefully i can start taking 2 or 3 new cards a day tho i really want to.

im still sitting at about 5 hours of immersion in this week. hoping that starting a new show might help bump it up again.

I think thats all! i feel like now that April is coming to a close and im almost a month back to learning japanese i havent been able to make as much progress as id like. But! im glad to be learning consistently again.

see you all next week! またね！

[wooltoesocks]

things i want to get answers to in the remaining episodes of four leaf: a very comprehensive list that must be missing some things i just cant remember at the moment (also soilers for up until ep 139):

just in general evrything about the bells, and more especiall like how is lina giving lupe her bells (because that is 100% gonna happen i think) gonna affect them, for example if they'll get lina's bell as like their own, and if that bell being kinda broken is gonna be any problem

will that be a permanent change, is lupe gonna give the bell back to lina after they deal with the wolf

what's gonna happen to cricket if they really do deal with the wolf? or how will tehy come to some wsolution that doesnt harm anyone

CARLA!!! is she gonna be okay? that wound looks very nasty. i hope they'll be able to cure it somehow, and if not, then chopchop there goes a leg :/

talking about carla, is she gonna give er bells to someone like she mentioned in 138? that is only in case she wont be able to continue, but it loks very bad rn, so my question is, is it gonnna be mercy? or in general, who is it gonna be?

also about the bells, i really wanna know how many bells each witch has!! it''s just something i think would be interesting to analyse. (i looked through all the episodes where a witch has their bells out buut i still now only know for certain the number of bels like 7 witches have (before 137 and emma giving up her bells): Erica 1, Emma 2, Socks 2 (most likely, unless she got mor after the prison break, that's when she at least shows only 2), Alishba 3, Linda 3 (both of whose bells were shown during the prison break), Carla 20, Lina 21.

also also (i use that word so much), the names of the witches! we now know there are 17 witches in the red hoods (+lupe +lina so maybe 19 but oh well) and of those 17 we know the names of 12 (episode 133)

what i wanna know too is like which bell belongs to which witch? we've seen some, for example in the flashback of when they first appeared, and also in the festival of roses we see some, but like i wnna knowww (ye sit's very trivial but that's what makes it fun i think)

the mom. what happened with her in the 8 months that have passed since lupe was last in their original world? did she just continue on like normal, or did she actually regret some of the things she's done? will lupe go see her again?

the inevitable. the thing i've been waiting for for like 2 years. the KISS! alvar mentioned the witch loking very mad and the also saying he's the kinda guy to ask twice before a first kiss and what i think will happen is that he is gonna ask. like he's just the kinda guy. but the thing lupe (most likely) will be "mad" about is just that al didnt tell about it (even tho he was gonna tell you lupe, you just didnt want him to). or they arent mad, but just like very confused/fristrated and Al just interpreted it wrong? i dont know. we'll see (hopefully tomorrow in 140 but at the evry least in 141?? like i dont think it will take so long that it would be 142? (i am delusional). also looking at the future chapter thumbnails (not a fast pass reader), it looks like someone is using some kind of reddish/pinkish magic / teleporting right next to him)

okay this isnt a theory or anything, i just know lupe's dad is gonna be so smug learning about lupe and al's relationship when they do get into one like judging from ep 116 and the "crush" i jut know

okay wow this is a long post but i need to get these out of my head and scream into the void and wait if it screams back

back to the bells, they'r gonna give everyone their own one back right? if they deal wit hthe wolf, there shouldnt be any need to hoard all the power, and i dont think it would be very fair to let 72 people just go on about life without really even knowing what's going no just because you wanna levitate. i know it's probably more complicated than that but yeah

also (fuck, this word again) what's gonna happen to the witchs' craving of gloom? is it gonna go away if there is no wolf (okay this is assuming that it's dealt with and they wont come to a peaceful comclusion but if that happens i just really hope cricket will be okay)

are other witches gonna wanna get rid of their bells and become human like emma?

i would like some more information about the different worlds, although i think it's unlikely tha will come up in the chapters themselves, but maybe as some bonus content somewhere?

okay so i already wrote about like if Lina's bell being broken is gonna have any effect on lupe, but will it affect Lina herself? i would assume not, but you never know

just in general, i cant wait to see how everything comes to a conclusion and how the ending is gonna be (even tho i would love for it to go on for longer). are we gonnna see another time skip?

man i just remembered there are alaso civilians in Garua at the moment too like the redhoods are gonna get the to safety right? maybe that will also help a little with the public's fear of the witches, the news that hey maybe they're not bad through and through (even tho that was never the case but most people still thought that so)

fuck this is long how many words even is this... 1005???? man that's like 2/3 of the essays we had to write in high school. yea it's easier to just put stuff from your mind into bullet points but this has taken me like maybe 45 minutes where as those essays took at least 5 hours. i bet i could make one from one of my interests in like 2 hours and i would be much better than any of those monstrocities i wrote

anyway back on track

actually those are the main ones i remember now, maybe i'll update this once more come to mind, but for now this is enough for today

pictured above is me falling for this series

wait one more thing: is it stated anywhere how much the bells weigh? i would assume they're more like incorporeal so they wouldn't hve any mass, and i fell like should know this i've read this series 5 or 6 times. but if they do infact hve mass, do the witches have to actively levitate them or are they jsut funky like that

[dailyharuka]

yap session up ahead (its about the gachas)

i have to save for the haruka 4* in april and then there are TWO haruka four*s in may with one day trip and the rerun of tied by painful hope

tied by painful hope is limited but the other two are event gachas so if i pull other times they wont show up asdjghfahsd so now i have to grind for the haruka cardsa djfhajsdhga I REALLY REALLY WANT THE BEYOND THE ADVANCING WHEELS ONE BECAUSE SHE LOOKS SO PRETTY IN IT??

(page break cuz there is a LOT MORE)

LIKE HELLO???? i also kinda want the bon voyage one

THESE HAS COSTUMES TOO ARE YOU KDDING ME OH MY IM GOING TO EXPLODE

I ALSO REALLY REALLY WANT TIED BY PAINFUL HOPE BECAUSE I REALLY REALLY WANT THE SHORT HAIRED HARUKA CARD???

what i think ill do is pull for the one on april til i get the card then grind for the two in may

based on how much i have by the time the gacha comes out ill pull a specific amount and then stop then grind more and towards the end of the bon voyage event ill analyze how much i have and how much i should pull

and then ill spend the rest on the tied by painful hopes card

i also kind of want to pull for the mafuyu kitty event cuz its ALSO limited but i may just wait for next year to pull if i get all the haruka cards

there is ALSO an evillious chronicles rerun in may so hopefully that doesnt tempt me to make a detour

I ALSO MIGHT PULL FOR THE HONAKANA WEDDING EVENT BECAUSE THOSE CARDS ARE SO PRETTY?? HELLO??

i might get tempted to pull for the crying mafuyu card in july

and then ill grind for all three haruka bday cards in october because you know what happened LAST OCTOBER??? 70+ PULLS AND NOTHING I WILL NOT LOSE THIS TIME. I REFUSE. I ABSOLUTELY REFUSE TO LOSE TO THE HARUKA KIRITANI BIRTHDAY CARD THIS YEAR

I WILL GET THE SHINY BIRTHDAY CARD

and then i might pull for darkness fiesta mafuyu on the rerun but thats aside the point

and then right after that they have the niigo world link gacha... AND THEN THE SANRIO CARDS??? AJHFDJASHFA THEY HAVE A RERUN FOR FLY TO THE FUTURE IN DECEMBER BUT I ALREADY HAVE THAT CARD!!!! IT ONLY TOOK LIKE FOURTY PULLS (which isnt that bad)

wait i think im missing cards

THERES THE SPORTS EVENT

ughh its in september so i wont have as much saved for the bday cards as i want BUT it IS permenant gacha so ill probably do controlled pulls

and then obviouslt theres brand new style with the new fits but thats just two stars

THERES *TWo* IN OCTOBBER ARE YOU KIDDING ME I CANT

and then theres valentines day card and the one from the minori event that just happened

hoping haruka comes home in the first few pulls so i can pull for other characters too

i honestly just really want the overly luxguriys night the IF card and the bday cards the most (AKA THE LIMITED ONES)

oh yea and the new years one (theres a rerun for it in jan) SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

btw im basing all of this off the japanese gacha schedule so if they change it when doingi things on en i will explode

honestly im hoping i dont get too tempted to pull for other cards from characters i really like but i only really like two characters to want to pull for (being haruka, duh, and mafuyu) hOWEVER i may also go for wondersho world links cuz MAN those are so cool

I LOVE PLAYING CARDS SYMBOLISM

OMG WAIT the card where she (hrk) broke the door handle is also a perment card so i dotn ahve to worry abt that TOO much WAIT AND SO AS WELL AS THE UPCOMING TWO CARDS?? WAIT WHY IS THE WIKI CONTRADICTING ITSELF?? anyways i NEED the birthday cards

[nebylitsa]

end of the year reading asks: 2, 15 and 24!

2: Did any book inspire you to seek out further media, such as the movie/show/fanfiction? How did you feel about that take? i actually only did the opposite of that this year, as it happens! i got into phantom of the opera from the 1990 miniseries and the musical, and have since devoured hundreds of thousands of words of fanfic about it. still havent gotten around to reading the book though.* same with rebecca - watched the 1940 film and bought the book, but havent read it yet.

15: A book you never thought you'd be into but were proven wrong i didnt think id like calling a wolf a wolf by kaveh akbar because id actually started reading it several years ago and never finished, but i gave it a second chance this year and LOVED it. liked his other book, pilgrim bell, too.

24: What new releases are you looking forward to next year? i dont know when itll actually come out (i mean, hopefully next year??) but the second volume of the worst journey in the world graphic novel adaptation

*ok this is not entirely true. the reason i still havent read poto isnt just because i "havent gotten around to it," its also because i genuinely cant bring myself to start reading it because i know i will become very sad and its going to hurt so so fucking bad :)

[thefirstknife]

i also wonder how these elitist dudebros are gonna feel when theyre like 10 or 15 years older. like i hope theyre ashamed of the way they acted, but mostly i wonder how theyll feel when their reaction time isnt as good as it used to be, when their eyesight gets a little worse with age. gaming gets harder as you get older and in my experience that seems to be one of the only things that makes abled people realize how inaccessible gaming can be. obviously thats far off from now and hopefully by then we’ll actually have the accessibility tools people are asking for, but it does make me wonder how theyll feel when theyre in someone else’s shoes for once.

Yep, I wonder the same. People always think about disability as something that doesn't affect them, but even if you're perfectly healthy, there is one thing that's inevitable: aging. You will age and you will need accommodations. They also seem to think about "disability" as just some incredibly devastating diseases, but anything as simple as anxiety or bad eyesight is a disability when it comes to gaming. The argument always seems to be dismissive of disabilities because they seem to think that disabled gamers are rare. Which is simply not true.

Got a few more asks so I'll answer them beneath the cut!

This is one of those issues that people don't really think are ableist, but it is. I bet on my life that they say that shit to anyone who is disabled in real life and needs accommodations. I can't fathom how they can't understand that equating any help to "handouts."

And even if they were handouts? So? I know that I earned my loot and titles by playing and proving that I can do it. If someone does the same but with help, how does this affect me? It doesn't! This is even more mind-boggling when it's about an item in a video game.

Yep! They also often say that if those options are in the game for everyone, then people will fake disabilities just to use them and that's yet another ableist argument that people use in real life to deny accommodations to others. Because "someone will fake it." I don't care bro. Literally outside of direct competitions in a tournament, nobody cares if an abled person "fakes it" and gets a gun by turning on an accessibility option. Hell, sometimes you might be too tired to finish an activity and you want to get it done faster and you can turn an option that allows you to do so. I see no issue with this even if you're fully abled.

True! A lot of people who need Divinity the most are also the people who are least likely to get it. It requires you to do a raid which already disqualifies a lot of people who don't have raid groups and can't go to LFG for whatever reason. And even if you've done raids and you can keep doing them, Divinity quest is time consuming and finding a group patient enough to help can be difficult. A lot of these elitists have completely lost (or never had) perspective on how the game plays for average players. Not everyone has a raid group ready to go.

We definitely need more similar weapons and abilities. It would be really nice to be able to choose how to make a truly supportive build that is useful in raids. And yep, agreed, more raid bosses should be like Rhulk where you have to move and using a Well of Radiance and slapping a Div bubble is often not the best way (although it can certainly be done! Options!). I would gladly have cool mechanics for dps and mechanics that require some supportive abilities or provide support.

Yeah, I think more raid modes would be good. I am in favour of Bungie making more hard difficulty options and working with these streamers even in order to make something they would like. Just leave the rest of us alone.

And yeah, if they truly agree that Divinity or Well are an issue, just get a deal and don't run them for the contest. They all seem to agree that Divinity is boring, but no one wants to drop it. Y'all know each other, just go into a group chat and say you're not using it for next raid race or whatever. But as you said, that would require them to agree on what to ban. And it would also require them to understand that if they deliberately refuse using in-game tools and utilities, maybe someone else will win the race. What a terrible fate.

Thanks! I had to stop because I need to do Iron Banner, went from twitter pvp to Destiny pvp.

I do feel that someone has to speak about this. I've seen other people making similar posts in regards to how much this whole things reeks of ableism and ignoring accessibility, but it doesn't gain much traction. And if it does, it gets drowned in ableist comments. Truly one of the worst times in Destiny community.

A shame, given that Bungie is dedicated to accessibility, however slowly it may go.

[julianalvarez9]

i feel like i have to tell you as MY spanish speaking blog (as in i love footie and f1 and we brainrot abt the same men at the same time so you're basically my favourite) im starting to learn spanish next month!! and i took it as an option (is that what its called? idk english isnt my first language) last year and i'm very excited about it if you can't tell 😅 it counts in my final grade so hopefully i won't do too bad

OMGGGGG THATS SOOO EXCITING!! i love that you called me your favourite spanish speaking blog 😭 if you ever need someone to practice with, i'm down!!! i would looove to help 🤍 you'll do great anyways i'm sure!!!

[joonsytip]

noooooo, the yearning from dk!!!! Tsd has me feeling all sorts of things...but mostly anger towards jeonghan heheh. He's my bias but im soooo rooting for dk! Even tho hannie knows his feelings now, he still isnt compatible with reader and if they get together, i just see a lot of suffering on her end. Yes, he changed for her but he shouldn't have to change just to be good for her! He was clearly good to other women before he 'changed' and realized his feelings,he was awful and took her for granted. Two years is too much to waste just to want something back when you dont have it, especially not to the degree that hannie treated reader. He didnt lead her on yes, but reader can do better now that shes in the healing process. Hopefully reader can spend some time away and grow, advance in her career and enjoy her life. Maybe even focus on her friends and realize that maybe she had a good man around all along 🤭 im soooo rooting for dks love (silly bc it's a x jeonghan fic but still 😂) hannie ily but u dont deserve mc!!! 💞Sunshine couple dk x mc 💞 i cant wait for the next part and thank u for writing such a fic! I really like revenge fics so even tho he's my baby pls really break jeonghans heart heheh!! Also jihoon is everythinggg in the fic. I know hao is the bestie but hoonie is serving with calling jeonghan on his bs behavior and backing off when he sees reader is having a bad day 🥺 i wish seungkwan worked at that office bc he would have been going tf off!!! Hahah

Anon - who are you??? I think we need to sit together have a nice & thorough discussion about each and every character of TSD. Fun fact, though I've told it multiple times, Jeonghan and Seokmin, both are my bias, so I'm constantly debating and choosing war with myself while writing this fic!!

Thanks for bringing light on Jihoon, because he indeed is a wise and underrated character in this fic! Please keep looking forward to the next part, which I hope I'll be able to drop soon!

[ppnuggie]

hi hi congrats on 300 followers!!! (Imo you deserve a million but i mean everyone starts somewhere)

This ask is for the 300 follower special!!

personality :: for this part I'll put good and bad personality traits that I have

Good// I've been told that in general I'm a really nice person and that I care a lot for others,,which i do,, I'm very protective over people that I care about and love,, and will not hesitate to throw hands with somebody who disrespects them,, even if I clearly can't win in a fight,, I'm very open to people that I care about,, and I share a lot with them,, I always try to be there for people,, whether they're a good friend or not

Bad// I've also been told that I'm really gullible and will believe just about anything anyone says,, which is also true,, I tend to let myself be used as a doormat for other people,, I'm also a really needy / clingy person,, another thing is that I'm really touchy person,, not sure if that's a good or a bad thing but I put it here anyways,, especially to people I love I always feel the need to be around them and or touching them in some way,, not in the weird kind of way but touching them like holding their hand,having a hand on their shoulder, Etc,, one last thing is that im really quick to trust people,, it has faded over the years with lots of people coming and going,, but even so I am really quick to trust people

For likes and dislikes,, im not sure if you mean 'what i like in a person' or 'things you like in general', but im assuming you mean things in general

likes :: rainy days,, especially when its dark outside,, reading books about things that interest me,, binging movies/tv shows,, playing video games,, talking to my best friend for hours about literally nothing,,the smell of diesel fuel- (im not joking),,watching youtube,,drawing,,the smell of new alcohol markers,, reading tf x reader fics,,hugs,, and cuddles <3

dislikes :: when someone leaves the faucet water purifier on,, being disrupted when im focused on something,, people talking when im trying to focus,, losing my concentration,, when someone takes wayy to long to respond,, people judging me for how i look and the things I like,, not being able to be myself,,yelling,,and when someone is mean to me or my loved ones

fandom :: Transformers!! Either tfp or bayverse u can pick:)

any sort of gender preference :: male please!! Thank you:))

Also just some facts that might help: i wear glasses that always slide down my nose,, i almost never wear shoes in the house,, and i have a big bumblebee plush from g1 that i always carry with me :)

tysm !! 🥹🥹 im slowly gaining some <33 but hopefully ill reach my next goal ,, 500 followers 😎😎 also i wear glasses too but they slide down too 😭😭 i dont wear them unless im watching smt on tv tho 💀💀 i just cant see too far away ,, heres your matchup thoo !! tysm for being a follower of mine and supporting my content 🥹❤️🙏 i went with tfp with this as well :D also i do like the smell of gasoline too 💀💀 ion know why but i do ,, not that i actively participate in smelling it 💀😭

𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐃 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 :

- ratchet

- breakdown

𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐋𝐔𝐃𝐄𝐒 :

- ratchet

• whilst ratchet comes off as disinterested or grumpy most the times ,, he does have a slight interest towards you

• he does like that you care a lot for everyone at base ,, but he doesnt say anything about it

• occasionally he’ll spare you a genuine smile or two ,, not much for pda but in private moments he doesnt mind your hands all over him

• he’ll let you set on his shoulder or rest against his helm if it makes you feel better <3

• he doesnt play video games ,, but he can agree that he does love rainy days on earth ,, the soft raindrops bring him comfort and peace

• he can also relate to the losing concentration part 💀 he cant stand it

- breakdown

• hes more loud then ratchet is and more energetic then the old medic

• but it isnt much of a bad thing ,, he does tone it down when hes around you ,, taking notice of your dislike towards yelling

• he’ll definitely play games with you in his mass displaced form tho :D !!

• and for rainy days ,, he’ll take you on drives so you can experience it ,, he’ll drive slow and smooth ,, play soft music and just enjoy both of your guys’ comfort

• he will also binge movies with you ,, he is interested in what you humans come up with for entertainment anyways

• he doesnt mind touching either ,, he really loves it 🥹 he loves your affection a lot <33 so you dont gotta worry about that

𝐒𝐂𝐄𝐍𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐎 :

soft rain pattered against the window ,, rolling down and away from your view. the sky was a dark grey ,, the sun nowhere to be seen. warm air blew through breakdown’s ventilation ,, keeping you cozy in his alt mode as he drove slowly down the empty road.

he found out that you had enjoyed the rain ,, and soon grew to understand why. he even had a special place in his spark for the weather on earth. even if he wasnt much a fan of the cold or super hot days ,, he didnt mind the rainy weather. not only didnit provide a nice free shower but also time with you.

soft melodies played out his radio ,, strolling down the black road and going who knows where. the scenery was calm and peaceful ,, the moment you two shared would definitely be cherished.

[reflectingiridescent]

Hey, I’m so sorry the shitty job is continuing to be shitty :( I’ve been there, when on the drive to work the central reservation starts looking more enticing than finishing the journey into the office. And thats when you know, you have to quit.

Nothing is more important then you well being. no job, no manaager no nothing. If you have to walk out and never look back for you. Thats what you have to do, do it.

Work will replace you, your family, friends and peole who care about you will never.

If you need to stick out the final months you need to make sure your safe first. If the idea of unaliving youself is persiting, you need to make certain you are safe, and make it as hard as posisble for yourself to do anythgn when your in that bad place. Remove any dangerous objects, don’t have then anywheree acessible to you. Go out and buy the bigggest shampoo and conditioner you can, don’t wait for them to run out. Make plans. Even somethign small. Have those things to look forward too.

Seek help now. It may be a load off when you finally get to leave that place. (IT was for me). However consider that the time youve been there has been traumatic. It may have effected you deeper than you can realise and sometimes just getting out of that situation isnt enough.

Talking thearapies are great. There’s online self help guides for things like CBT if you can’t seea professional. Medication can help, and there’s no stigma in needing this.

When we break a limb, the healing prcess is just one component, once you get that cast off there’s physiotherapy, occupational heath, and time to rebuild the strength. Consider the same for your mind. Giver yourself the grace and space to heal. Hopefully this will help you long term in the future.

One month can seem like a long time. Break it down. Same way as eating an elephant, you do it one bite at a time. Get through the next week, if thats too much, just the next day, or even hour by hour. Celebrate each of these milestones. you can get there. You ARE getting there. You can do this becuase you are doing this!!!

Please stick around. You’re going to do wonderful things.

And i have so much more to ask you about your writing.

I think the most annoying thing is that I have been in some version of this cycle for three years. Work is bad, but there’s a pandemic so I can’t easily move jobs. The pandemic gets better, I lose my job and visa. I burn out at the next job because I was so overworked at my last job. I negotiate to take a three month break and come back to this back-breaking efficiency thing they have put on me (where both of the people running my program burn out before I do 😂😂😂 and one has to be warded at the national mental hospital).

I’m just building back my finances from the three months off. Like I’m fine, but nothing has been sustainable for three years. And yet I am sustaining? But I can’t do this forever. And now I’m scared that the next job I landed (because I secured a new job over a month ago) is going to be the same, despite it being a different industry.

Like I physically can’t afford to burn out again? I’m just worried.

Two days from now, I’m taking a week off. And I moved up my therapy appointment. And yet it still just seems like every day at this job lasts years.

[foragecore]

Every time I laminate i think abt how now this shit is going to be in a landfill some day or burned up to go in the air with trash. Blocking of wear and decay at cost.

yeah i know it isnt great environmentally but i try to only laminate what im gonna use hundreds or thousands of times. like im a teacher and theres a lot of materials im gonna be using for the next 50 years or so and then hopefully after that i can pass them on to someone else. so i dont beat myself up too bad about laminating them. also laminated stuff can be sanitized with wipes and such which is good when you work with germy kids

[lettersformiah]

9:37am, 4 aug

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!!!! MWHA MWAH MWAH MWAH MWAH MWAH MWAH MWAH MWAH MWAH MWAH MWAH WAH MWAH MWAH MWAH MWAH MWHA! 18 kisses for your 18th <3 <3

i love you sosos much and i hope youre sleep is good!! im so sorry i wasnt really around yesterday but sometimes life just gets me like that yk? but! im here now :D i love you i love u i love u i love u hehehe i hope you get spoilt and i wish i could do something more for your bday >:( its so painful that i cant have a dinner or just hug you :( i miss u so much. but! january! we make up for all the things in january! we can get a little mini cake and celebrate both of our bdays! and we gotta do valentines day then too! im excited for all of the things we are gonna do even though its literally like 4? 5? months away heh. getting ahead of myself but only bc i miss u so much! i want to do all of the things with u. and! we will get our cute airport meet too!!! heheheheh im so so so excited!!

im in geo right now and mrs haggart isnt here and the work is boring as os i dont want to do it hehe. maybe ill do it in french. but i dont think ill be doing much of anything then. i gotta take out some money before work for next week and ill need to buy a drink or smth. but when its slow i can buy a chocolate! or!! i really wanna try the new v so i might get one of those. the warehouse is so chill and i really like working there! shitty im working on ur bday :( but im excited to see sophie and aj again bc they are so sweet and they make working there not so bad. hehe i love you so much. i want you to be able to read this soon so i gotta remember to upload it asap. so hopefully i did that. i love you.

i dont have much news other than that. i still need to handwash a shirt for tomorrow which i think i can do before i hop on my bus. i also really wanna call u before work but i dont know if you will be around. might die if i dont talk to you for like 18 hours though >:(

im so excited to pick my subjects and im so so excited for next year. i was looking forward to year 11 last year (my mistake smh) but year 12 will be purely subjects i want to do or can do and there will be no english or science or french or silly fuckin algebra. and im excited ! apart from exams. im a bit worried about those this year because i dont think ill be able to do drama? bc i wanna focus on the alice in wonderland stuff. soo i think ill do geo and english? bc english sucks but i can ramble about techniques in a poem and answer some questions about it i think. i think i can do that okay. im excited to get a few extra weeks off too!! ill have an extra couple weeks as study leave but obvs only doin 1 exam sooo?

only a few mins left of geo! i did a little bit of work but honestly id rather spend my time thinking about u >:) i do that all the time. but been doin it a bit more today. i miss you and i love you. wake up soon darling cause i wanna talk to u agaon hehehe

i love you so much lovely

-mads<3