#how are mentally ill people supposed to live like this

[scooplery]

what am i supposed to do. every medication I've tried eventually stops working. therapy is just making me worse. i can't even go outside for a walk down the road without having a freakout. i have no idea how i am supposed to get and keep a job when i am this sick, when i don't know if im going to be this sick forever. i'm tired of laying in bed and im tired of having to do things i don't want to do and im tired of feeling like i'm not trying hard enough to feel better and im so fucking sick and tired of having to endure all of this when none of it is my fault to begin with. i'm so so so fucking angry that i was abused and tormented into being this mentally ill and now i have to spend all of this time and money undoing the damage that other people have done to me while they live happy lives and never think about me at all. how am i supposed to live like this.

[vbs-kaitos-big-naturals]

i think the main thing i hate about 'suicide units' in school health classes is how bad the advice is. like wtf??? no dont tell a persons parents theyre suicidal without the persons permission thats fucked up

instead of doing what school tells you, please follow these rules:

dont tell authority figures about someone's suicidal thoughts/sh unless you know theyre in active danger or they gave you permission. its a breach of privacy and trust, and it could put them in a bad spot if their parents are abusive.

please dont treat a suicidal person with pity/babying. its just plain demeaning. unless youre sure theyre okay with something else, treat them normally and just check in on them more.

and if YOURE suicidal, they dont even teach you how to deal with it or cope, they just give you 988/other hotline and send you on your way. its superficial care.

here are some ACTUAL tips if youre suicidal/struggling in anyway with mental illness:

if you cant do things the way youre supposed to, then cut corners. some is better than nothing.

the little things can make a difference. seeing your keychain always makes you feel a little better, so take that keychain everywhere. it wont fix everything, but a little bit of joy can go a long way.

find other people who are struggling like you. online spaces are a good start! however, if you feel like the environment is just making you feel negative and more depressed, you should leave to prevent further harm.

FIND THINGS YOU ENJOY. please. whether it be rhythm games, reading, drawing, hell, doing math equations, things that youre passionate about can be like a rock to support yourself when it gets bad. they make you feel better, they give you a purpose (though you dont need one to be worthy of life, remember that) and they give you something to connect to others with.

try to get some sunlight. vitamin D deficiency is awful and can cause serious depression, so letting the sun do its job can make you feel a little better. bonus points for either going outside or opening a window to get fresh air!

as soon as you can comfortably and safely do so, please try to go to a therapist to help you figure out how to cope with your symptoms. theyll still be there, but they can live alongside you instead of preventing you from living.

a lot of this stuff can be good for executive dysfunction too! if you need depression meals, a basic rule of thumb is to try and get all the food groups. if you only have instant noodles and some eggs, then make the instant noodles as cook the eggs in the broth. if you only have rice, peanuts, and some hot sauce, put those together. etc etc. there are tons of great resources out there too, ill probably reblog later with some.

most of all, of you seriously think youre at your wits end and might kill yourself after another issue, or maybe your parents yelled at you, or maybe you got laid off, whatever it is, call a hotline. things can be fixed, but if theyre fixed when youre gone, you wont be around to see how happy you could be :(

okay thats all. i hope i gave a few people better health education than school did. try to drink some water and maybe have a snack if you havent, and remember, i love you!!

(ps im not a licensed professional nor am i an expert, ive just been pretty depressed and suicidal for a long time, so this is speaking from mine and other's experience. if anyone else has something to say on it, i encourage sharing!! lets use our collective knowledge to defeat the pta mandated shallow health class)

[hussyknee]

I miss when different things used to happen. Memes and movies and discourse and world crises and celebrity drama and political discourse and disaster and more memes and such. Now it's just genocide, genocide, genocide, genocide, genocide, genocide, genocide, genocide, genocide, genocide, genocide, genocide, genocide, genocide, genocide, genocide, genocide, genocide, genocide, genocide, genocide, genocide, genocide, genocide, genocide, genocide,

[californiaquail]

just learned that one of the two people who i could call friends here fucking got married a couple weeks ago and the one other person (the one i lived on the same property with for 15 months) was there and even though i have seen her since it happened neither of them told me about this. and they have also regularly been hanging out without ever inviting me. obviously i don't need to be involved in everything but you never asked if i wanted to hang out even once even though i said multiple times hey we should all hang out sometime. ok 👍🏻

[delicatetaysversion]

spending my whole life trying and trying and trying and trying to be good enough for people who don't give a fuck about me

[ducktollers]

got a sortof interview for a research assistant job tomorrow and sooooooooo scareds :D

[chemblrish]

x

[green-mountain-goose]

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[us-the-voices-and-more-voices-2]

no one absolutely no one

me: *immense psychological pain, only pain and flashbacks*

me: sigh *opens up character.ai and starts ranting*

[lordelmelloi2]

I wrote all that stuff yesterday about being lonely and coping and then proceeded to get into an argument with my father over text in which he said I didn’t deserve his or my stepmom’s love & attention bc of something I can’t even remember that happened when I was severely mentally ill like 8 years ago so I’m like. Well. Emotionally crushed. Happy birthday to Rose tomorrow I guess 

[carnival-core]

Ok it is rlly late for me rlly early for others so fuck it I'll make a post here . If I remember to I'll delete it later if not it's not like anyone stalks my blog that I know of so whatever

But gotta ask , partially as just a depressed person but especially as a trans Floridian . Like . What's the point. Of anything. Anymore. What's the point.

[beansnpeets]

Gonna ask my boss for a raise tomorrow I think. I do not make enough money right now. Period. Like I get by okay because Jon is supporting me financially, but if I were to be on my own I'd never get by.

The way prices have been going up on everything is insane. I didn't realize how much I'd been spending on groceries. I'm spending a LOT more than I should have to on just groceries. I'm so beyond frustrated and afraid. I'm tired. I'm anxious. Everything is falling apart and there is nothing I can do.

[zoology]

this post is not about “antis” or “paraphilia,” a concept that is antithetical to healing from OCD and all forms of intrusive thoughts. you are not your intrusive thoughts and thoughts aren’t actions but publicly posting your fantasies about doing harm to others IS an action and legitimizing your intrusive thoughts & urges as “real” and a core part of your identity is bizarre and reflects extremely poorly on what you actually believe and desire. paraphilia as a medical condition or mental illness is a hypothesis born from sex-negativity, homophobia, and transphobia & self-identifying as a paraphile on tumblr is a dogwhistle for wanting to commit actual harm — nobody with a mummification or scat fetish is identifying themselves as a paraphile and you know it, “pro-para” activism centers solely on normalizing sexual abuse.

if you’re going to come onto my post and argue with me about how i have OCD but still have “paraphiles dni” in my bio you are either extremely misinformed or deliberately obfuscating the truth of what this dogwhistle means. if you have thoughts about hurting people or animals, you are not a rapist or an abuser just for having those thoughts. but if you make these thoughts a core part of your identity, if you tell others and yourself that they are real and reflective of what you feel and believe, then obviously i am going to think that they are real and reflective of what you feel and believe and i want nothing to do with you for the exact same reasons i want nothing to do with bigots: your BELIEFS (not thoughts, BELIEFS) guide your actions.

to anyone with sexual intrusive thoughts that they don’t like and find stressful or upsetting, GET OUT OF PARAPHILE SPACES. you are more than your intrusive thoughts. you don’t deserve to stew in misery and convince yourself that you can never move past these thoughts and that they define you. you CAN move on and live a stress-free life with acceptance and ERP therapy. the self-identified pedophiles and zoophiles you’re hanging out with are not interested in helping you heal, improve your self-esteem, or develop an identity outside of sexual intrusive thoughts.

people who base their entire identities around a supposed uncontrollable desire to commit rape and publicly post abusive sexual fantasies can’t have it both ways by calling what they otherwise describe as an unchangeable desire “just a thought” when called out. if you don’t want to hurt anyone, get away from people who unashamedly do and begin working to move past these intrusive thoughts regardless of if you’re diagnosed with OCD or not.

[mcalhenwrites]

I'm not going to pretend it doesn't make me angry that I spend months and years trying to peddle my work to make ends meet, that I spend so much time mentioning my books and comms and everything, and people ignore that consisently... But the moment I finally break under the hopelessness - when it's obvious that it's fucking futile, that almost no one deems my work good enough to share with anyone else - suddenly they're concerned and scolding me. I'm working several jobs, bathing, generally keeping things clean, and I do this with several health problems including chronic pain. I found out that one of my cysts is growing and I may need to have it surgically removed. Which means potentially missing work to recover. Which means more money I lose. I spend so much time crawling out of the hole and it goes ignored, but the moment I just give up bc I don't have any strength left, suddenly that's my fault and I'm mentally sick. And that kind of makes me wish my entire situation upon people, and when they whine that it's hard, well fuck you, you thought I could ace it so surely you can, babe! I hate being angry about this, but it's just so exhausting to tell people who accuse me of not trying that I HAVE I HAVE SO FUCKING HARD AND YOU DID NOT PAY ATTENTION THEN Or you know you're attempting to gaslight me by claiming I didn't try despite that I obviously have worked my ass off trying, and that's so much fucking worse

[septxwber]

it's so unsettling to get out of the shadows

[bongjuiceconcentrate]

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