#hustalkshit

[hustparovoz]

stupid things that I did

without Stanley bc I am tired

stupid close-up

@void-dude and sry for trauma dumpung

I am gonna be hospitalized at the mental hospital and I'm sad that I'm probably not gonna be able to draw stantad. they are literally my therapy and I don't know what I'll do but but sorry

[hustparovoz]

posting it after sh

sorry. im losing motivation and mind

[hustparovoz]

just stupid rambles, vent

i just realized that I envy most of my mutuals, like Sopa, Sid, Fonosai...don't get me wrong. I love them a lot, I love their artworks and creativity, they absolutely deserve all the love they receive...but I can't help but want this recognition. I know that they made hard work to receive that, I know thinking that way is egotistical, i know that I maybe don't even deserve what I have now, but I just want to be noticed. I don't want to be forgotten in the depths of the internet. I'm just a stupid child with issues, and who wants nothing more but to be noticed. I need to work harder but I just can't. I'm already on the verge of.. I don't even know. I don't know what to do anymore. I just don't. I don't.

upd: and especially i want to be noticed by my mutuals. I really need their... I don't know. attention? but I always got really happy when one of my mutuals likes my post or reblogs it, I can't help but feel...appreciated?

[hustparovoz]

HIII GUYSS!! 🫂 info + DNI (finally)

currently in a deep burnout. please do not disturb

open to see stupid

My name is Hust and I live in Russia, Moscow!!! (GMT +3) I'm transmasc demiboy, and my pronouns are he/him and they/them🎀🫂

pronouns page🫂🎀

my sona ref!!! 🫂🎀🎀

Use tontags when talking to me, I can get confused-

I'm a digital multi-fandom artist, but I draw Undertale and my OCs mostly!! 🙏🎀

My fandoms!! (most of them)

UT/AU, Omori, Houseki no Kuni, Puella Magi Madoka Magica, Detroit: become human, Vocaloid / UTAU, Saya no Uta, Higurashi when they cry, Oyasumi Pun Pun, Neon Genesis Evangelion, Brawl Stars (lol), Harry Potter.

My english isn't the best, so I'm really sorry if I'm gonna write something nonsensical 😭

My fav colors are #a1b4e3 , #f2a2c4 and #281f30 (hex), and I relate myself to Tenshi Kaiwai/Mizuiro aesthetics!! My fav words are fever, ignites and maw, without context, they just sound silly.

all the tags are...in the tags!! 🎀🫂🫂 not all of the posts tagged, but I'll try do that later!!

#aaaaaaaa just my posts, literally

#hustart my...art🙏

#shithust is a random shitpost

#hustalkshit is a vent posts, I'll try not to write them a lot (maybe)

I'm a 14 y.o minor, please don't flirt w/ me seriously🫂😭

I'm an agnostic atheist, and I absolutely don't care what or who you believe in, but just don't insist on something

That's a safe place for people of any gender, sexuality and religion, excluding dni ⬇️⬇️⬇️

DNI:

russophobic, homophobic, transphobic, xenophobic, islamophobic and other phobic. groomers, necro and zoophiles, like, dude. any NSFW and 18+ content, it really triggers me. doxing. slur. misgendering. misogyny. radfem and terf. eyblism.

I am not a stable person with an unstable mental state. I have self diagnosed depression, and I sadly do self-h**m. I don't ask to be careful when talking to me...just a warning that I can and will do stupid things and say things that can be considered as a red flag. sorry.

man, there's a lot. 💥😭

[hustparovoz]

feeling existential crisis ,burnout and all-time exhaustion kicking in harder than I expected

[hustparovoz]

self hate

I don't feel alive anymore I just feel like a piece of meat that only can sleep eat and suffer from pain it causes to itself. my eating disorder has become worse and I want nothing but to be a mere skeleton. I hurt myself more often. Im not proud of any of this. I want to cry my eyes out but nothing comes out. I want to die but at the same time i don't. I want to talk to someone but I'm too scared. I'm sorry. I'm so goddamn pathetic and weak. I'm scared. I'm so scared. I'm afraid of everything. I can't sleep because I'm too afraid of the dark. I can't make myself do anything. I feel so goddamn helpless. I feel like Im falling into an abyss and there's no way out.

I'm sorry that I'm so stupid. maybe I'll delete this.

[hustparovoz]

not the derealization no plea

[hustparovoz]

sorry for not posting for a long time. I am not feeling well

[hustparovoz]

me