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kaoarika · 1 year ago

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I have an entire rant/vent post in my head because I REALLY want to vent about how godawful it is attempting to do *something good* for the elections of my country... only to be sabotaged by the same institution that is SUPPOSEDLY autonomous from the government in turn (and it WAS autonomous! for the last 30 FUCKING years smh, but now it is infested with the government's parasites and I have heard AWFUL stories about the whole ongoing thing).

The one from 2018 was somewaht easy-peasy... this is straight HARD MODE (i really don't want to live the sequel of a pretty bad govenrment... but worse, you get me?)

But also, it's much more easier to do think and write it in Spanish... but also, I really don't feel like dropping everything out in the front, as well.

The whole thing is. However.

I feel betrayed. I went through a little more of a month stressed for stuff that I shouldn't have been stressed in the first place. My body is PAYING for it (I got sick on Wednesday and the less about my tmi situation, the better)... and the thing is FINALLY done in less of 24 hours. I really want to step back... but if I don't do this...?

All I know is that this will be the last time I offer my help to do this. Not under the parasites that are on board and making EVERYTHING of it a disaster.

But I'm very afraid. I'm scared. I don't know how I will survive tomorrow. All I want to do tomorrow, after everything is said and done, is get home, maybe read this week's Undelu, maybe watch something to distract me, and then bed. And then start organizing to see if I don't have smth serious, as it has been eating me for a while.

#...#other thing i will add is that... as someone with a major in graphic design #i was HIGHLY offended of their use of AI art in their online capacitation course :))))#i understand the general situation they are in don't get me wrong #but i have been living through a nightmare this past week (weeks)#i HAD to get sick i guess?#insert here cue of 'dawn of the final day' screen and sound #also insert here lots of spanish curses because i'm F**KING angry

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lucabyte · 1 year ago

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i feel like people are sleeping on the occam's razor situation of how buckwild it is to outright accuse a guy of being a clone of your friend even if you DO have a lot of circumstantial evidence. there's other options is what im saying. they could just be like. a guy. that's a sensible deduction. you should explore that deduction. ignore my shirt that reads I <3 RED HERRINGS.

i still think odile has the correct theory on lock but she's smart enough to know it needs like... a real smoking gun to be able to bring it up without sounding insane.

anyway. (mirabelle voice) i know its rude to speculate but has anyone else noticed the grieving? they seem to be grieving. does anyone have any thoughts on the grieving? i have some thoughts on the grieving.

#[isabeau voice] am i insane or does sometimes loop talk like they might have killed their whole family. is that just me? just checking.#nille design highly inspired by @kiwibrain's since its the one that imprinted in my mind. liberties taken since i didnt look @ reference #anyway i have a lot more thoughts on this? i guess ill hide them in the tags...? scroll down i suppose.#isat #in stars and time #isat spoilers #in stars and time spoilers #isat act 6 spoilers #isat loop #isat siffrin #isat bonnie #isat nille #isat fanart #in stars and time fanart #doodlebyte #----------------------------------------------------------------------#anyway the extra thoughts. are literally just my general thoughts on postcanon. (and thus are the context for all of my postcanon doodles!)#which is i think nille joins the party before loop reappears for a start (either from a period of nonexistence or just wandering around)#and that like. i think the party should be able to integrate loop as a completely new person. because they are! the secrecy isn't great but #They and Siffrin shuffle into different ecological niches in the party (eg. i think sif is more squeamish after it all but loop isnt)#and while it's not *exactly* what Loop wanted they get that beggars can't be choosers. and its pretty good #(i am glossing over how i think loop's reappearence drags both them and siffrin into a massive behavioural backslide and is likely a bit #distressing to watch go down. cycle of argument -> lovebombing -> normalcy -> repeat. etc etc. but since they are no longer literally #stewing in the worst pressure cooker of all time they do resolve it via productive conversation on their own time. its fine)#the party well-meaningly tries to deduce things from loop's vagueries and are able to pin down the DEAD FAMILY vibe pretty quickly.#but eventually the question of their prior identity falls by the wayside because well! they're just their friend loop! (also change belief)#as for how The Truth Come Out... this is what i mean by The Isabeau Torment Nexus(tm). which is that i think... isiloop should almost occur #BEFORE isabeau knows who loop is. he's just genuinely charmed by them eventually and tries to close the open end of the polycule #which FREAKS LOOP THE FUCK OUT because thats just too genuinely sick and wrong. and obviously w emotions high its not a great confrontation #ANYWAY told u i had more thoughts. if i were normal itd be a text post but.

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bigfatbreak · 2 years ago

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warmup of the day is: here's to hoping for another year

#ooc #warmup #i had a nasty customer today so i was thinkin bout it is all #thought i might doodle my thoughts out #this doesnt mean we dont still get sick. fatigue and chronic illness are always around the corner. and our environment is rough #but its kinda nice.#anyway i guess the moral of this story is ill fight a thousand shitty karens before i let my sister die of the plague thank u

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hexxingcode · 15 days ago

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woe, fish polycule be upon ye. i just thought the video game outcome was too interesting not to draw in some way... so you can have these bitches i guess. and the devious lamb. actually i have the design too.

stupid cult leader reference image ^

i like the golden fleece. i am not very good at using it but i like it

#siiigh now i have to tag all these fuckers #we draw at times!#cult of the lamb #cotl #cotl lamb #cotl haborym #cotl baalzebub #cotl saleos #thank FUCK kallamar doesnt actually show up id DIE if i had to draw another fish #you can pinpoint the moment i decide im sick and tired of backgrounds and perspective #mostly by how right after that point i just stop drawing them entirely #heheh #i doubt thisll do as well as my other one... kinda tough to beat when you dont have such notable characters as that comic's... alas #i was just really passionate about the fish polycule today #too much lore in my brain. get it out so i dont fixate on it as much #ask me about my cult of the lamb world... ill fuckin tell you about it... and then die #does anchordeep have a tag. probably not #i dont care if it does frankly. the huge anchorheads will find it on their own #note to self. do not call them that #sorry to all the “green fluffy jellyfish” fans #he's scary and hooded... because i think it is cool and also i do not like green fluffy jellyfish #i was going to make his teeth weirder and more fucked up but decided against it because id hate drawing it at angles #so you get saleos oversimplified but also mildly complicated i guess #i just like him so i dont want him to be really annoying to draw. lol. this was the easiest thing for me to do #he's spikes

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starregulus · 1 year ago

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Thinking about how the Foxes constantly let Andrew play games while going through withdrawal and no one probably said anything about it

Would they have let Matt play like that? Or even Seth?

And the way they thought the drugs "helped him" and didn't really want him to come off of them even though he willinging put himself through hell for a game they know he doesn't like (eventhough he does) just for a moment of sobriety. a moment of having control over himself and his thoughts

#I'm SICK #also I'm looking at you Wymack howd you let him do that #like i get it but also ?????#all because they thought he was a monster and not human i guess??#like genuinely I wonder if doing that every week couldve had irreversible damage #aftg #all for the game #andrew minyard #neil josten #andreil #andrew x neil #psu foxes #palmetto state university #palmetto state foxes #the foxhole court #tfc #the foxes #starregulus

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eve-was-framed · 1 year ago

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people who look down on service workers are some of the worst people alive because why the fuck do you think you’re better than someone who’s making money through actual honest work when there’s about 48283717 different highly unethical ways to be making money these days? like congrats sir the employee you just verbally abused for 15 minutes is working a shitty job for shitty pay and you just pushed them further into considering if they should just say fuck it and become a fentanyl dealer or start scamming elderly people with dementia

#the pandemic showed us that we could not function without the working class #while the upper classes got to stay home we had to go out and work and risk getting ourselves and our loved ones sick #but go off I guess luv xx

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goldensunset · 7 months ago

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idc how many times i’ve said it i will NEVER get over just how good bbs is in hindsight after dr. like ik that’s what happens when you make a prequel but like. it isn’t every day that a prequel is actually as effective as it’s supposed to be

#i feel a little sick to my stomach remembering that eraqus actually straight up died #that xehanort *killed him*.#that eraqus’ students mourn him and they’re left in the dark without him and they don’t even know everything about me #him*#(i can’t type)#ARGHGHGHHHHHHGGGGH.#his character is amazing #like it was long established that they used to be friends but had a falling out and that xehanort went to a dark place #but like.#MAN it’s so hard to wrap my head around it. SICKENING…#truly dark road context adds so many delicious layers to birth by sleep and makes it hit so much harder #i mean union x context also. the keyblade graveyard #but dr in particular…#anyway in case people didn’t know the posts i make are always a direct result of whatever music i’m currently listening to #so you get 3 guesses as to which kh ost came on shuffle and made me go insane again #khposting #kingdom hearts #khdr #khbbs

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moonsglare · 9 months ago

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[recommended song: albireo by rokudenashi.]

you love her.

it’s something you’ve always known, really. you’ve loved her since you were kids, sitting on her roof and looking at the stars. you loved her and she loved the stars. they flickered in her eyes every time she would point them out—cassiopeia, orion, pegasus, leo, among many others. she spoke of them like they’re old friends, sharing their stories with you, but most of the time you would get too lost in the sound of her voice to pay attention. you would wish she’d speak your name in that tone.

it’s on a clear night, both of you still in your school uniforms, when she tells you about binary stars. “they’re caught in each others’ gravity,” she explains, grinning, golden eyes as bright as the fiery red of her hair, and you remember thinking it feels familiar. you remember relating. you’ve let yourself get pulled along by her orbit for years now—so much so you think that maybe, without her gravity, you might just fall apart. thne she tells you about albireo; a binary star. points it out to you amongst all the other little lights that hang from the heavens. the glint of albireo’s component stars overlap with each other just like how her fingertips brush yours, and the heat expansion of the universe pulses forward with each beat of your heart. your world gets bigger for every second you spend by her side.

but you learn she’s more like a comet than a star. upon the scale of a human eye, a star is stationary. unmoving. permanent. and she is anything but. there’s a restlessness in her, a longing, but it’s different from yours. the gravity she moves along is not from another—not from you—but from the stars beyond even what is known. she wants to dance from system to system, to know the warmth of a star as she passes by but never to stay. and so you find that part of you isn’t surprised when she says she’s leaving, to venture forth onto the starry rail and the path of a god long gone. “i’ll miss you,” she says, her golden eyes warm with sincerity as she takes her hands in yours, and you want to tell her you will too, but the words lodge in your throat stubbornly. you can only manage them after she’s gone, nothing but a shining light in the sky, but the words burn up in the stratosphere before they reach her.

you still love her.

a year after she departs, a discovery is made. albireo is a false binary—its component stars are light years apart, made to seem close by the illusion of spacetime. you don’t know if you want to laugh or cry at the irony. a binary star that never was, and a love that never was. close enough to taste, far enough to miss. you want to ask her for your heart back, but you don’t even know where you’d put it. she’s had it for so long, even if she doesn’t know. it’s always been hers. so you swallow down the ache in your throat like a burning star, and pick up the phone with a smile when she calls.

(in the distance, albireo shines down on you, alone.)

#sev.scribbles #himeko x reader #i guess. no outright confirmation but very himeko coded #anyway this is kinda bad but ive been so sick about albireo by rokudenashi that i had to physically get this out of my system #dont even get me started on spica………….. smtg abt the lyricism of some jp artists gets me so crazy #rokudenashi yoasobi eve ado my beloveds fr #edit: wanna clarify i directly added some lines from the song into this as a reference; it was intentional #ok going to bed now gn fellas

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pidges-lost-robot · 1 year ago

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Lance: Shiro's like our space dad

Shiro, in exhausted 25 year old who is sick to death of being treated like he's in his forties/fifties or some shit: excuse me...

#sincerely - a person who is 23 and has had people honest to god look them in their eye and tell them they look 30 #i mean i also get guessed as being 18 but the point still stands i bet shiro is sick of this shit #had a guy insist i was his parent despite only being a year older which wasnt too bad #till he complained i was a neglectful parent cause i couldnt walk him to his apartment in the middle of the day five mins away #shiro 🤝 me = getting treated like we're someone's parent like we're not like in our early to mid twenties #voltron #vld #voltron: legendary defender #voltron shiro #shirogane takashi #vld shiro #shiro vld #shiro voltron #lance voltron #lance mcclain #vld lance

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starreduste · 4 months ago

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⊹°˖જ⁀➴˖°. 𓆩♡𓆪 l o v e w a g o n 𓆩♡𓆪 ⊹°˖જ⁀➴.°˖

`💌✧* ♡ ❤︎ ♡ ❤︎ ♡

Originally had the idea to make an all pink Speedwagon to represent myself with -- but he quickly ended up becoming yet another AU version of him (which at this point, I feel like I have WAAAy too many,,, lmao ♡).

Anyways, this Speedwagon is a whole lot more susceptible to becoming lovesick than most (and that's saying a lot, for the guy who canonically dedicated the whole rest of his life and career to taking good care of one, singular, other man's entire family, but go off-).

He's also a hopeless romantic, incredibly sappy/emotional, and has the potential to exhibit some yandere-like behaviors -- if you're into that sort of thing.

That's about all I have for now, but I love him...

Don't you?~

`💌✧* ♡ ❤︎ ♡ ❤︎ ♡

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nombitenary · 5 months ago

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How’s the new year treating you?

Him and me both.

#for context.#family emergency (recent)#medical shit (recent and old and. just ongoing and the worst.)#financial crisis (got laid off unexpectedly)#animals were sick.#but. i Am alive so that is something #and i use crutches now which has been. interesting.#maybe this is my glorious return ft. an off model christopher i can't be arsed to draw better.#had my abuser reach out to me again also so that's super cool and fun to navigate #sorry to traumadump on the vore blog but also. nah. i'm not this is my blog i can do what i want.#gnarl snarls #<-my new talking about things in the tags tag #not putting this in the chris tag this is low effort slop #BUT his story got updates so. ask if you want i guess maybe you'll get something. maybe i'll vanish for more months again.#also jesus christ wow watching the world uh. do that has been fun (not fun)

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uhbasicallyjustmilex · 7 months ago

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feeling very grateful for the cute barista today who clearly clocked a) my fontaines d.c. tote, and b) the fact i was stuck on a spectacularly bad date, and proceeded to play me an entire playlist of fontaines d.c. and sneak me extra vegan marshmallows with my hot chocolate