#i am cringe but i am free etc etc etc

[rurukatt]

Acts of Kindness

It’s been a while since I wrote anything, so I’m really glad I finally had the energy to sit down and do this. I’ve been wanting to write something for my RDO/RDR2 OC & Arthur, starting with how they met 6 years before the events of RDR2, so here it is! I hope you’ll enjoy my little self-indulgent thing! Or just the illustrations, if you don’t feel like reading. :]

Special thanks to @rangari​ for all the help with editing ❤️

Warnings: Suicidal ideation, mentions of family death

Word count: 7.3k

The rain was falling relentlessly as dusk settled over the land. It had only been four days, but to Sophia, it seemed like an eternity; making her way through the forest in an area unknown to her already proved to be a struggle, and the weather didn't help at all. She cursed the downpour under her breath, but most of all herself, for choosing the path that led across the river to her new hideout, a fairly well hidden spot under a rock formation, the only thing promising some sort of protection from the elements – and from the lawmen and bounty hunters at her heels.

She looked down at her right leg, wrapped up in a piece of cloth she'd torn from her dress, all covered in blood now. One wrong step on the slippery rocks of the riverbed had been enough to put an end to her escape, tearing the skin from her calf and causing bruises all over her leg, almost robbing her of the chance to even reach this refuge. She traced her fingers over the scar and let out a relieved sigh. The sharp pain ripping through her body at the slightest touch seemed to dull down to a constant throbbing ache, which was still exhausting but a welcome change after the past couple of hours.

The girl leaned back against the cold stone and closed her eyes as she listened to the monotone melody of raindrops in a desperate attempt to calm down and try to recount the events of the past few days that led her here.

Valentine. Yes, she had visited the town to fetch some supplies for her folks and things had been going fine until she witnessed something just before she set out to return to Strawberry. She rubbed her temples as if that could have helped her remember more quickly.

A man in an alleyway lying in a steadily spreading pool of his own blood, several others surrounding him.

If I had been just a little bit quicker to move past them, I wouldn't have caught their attention.

She squeezed her eyes shut.

One of the men throwing a bloodied knife on the ground in front of her and wishing her "Good luck" with a mocking grin on his face before disappearing.

And then the chaos, people screaming, lights lit, and her running as fast and as far from all of this as her legs could carry her.

The rest of that night and the path she had taken to eventually end up here was a blur that’s only started to clear up.

“I didn’t do anything to him,” she murmured to herself, perhaps to soothe herself, but deep down she knew it wasn’t going to convince anybody that comes after her. Somebody had died and somebody would hang for this crime, and as a cruel joke of fate, this somebody was her. The law will not care, nor will the bounty hunters looking for some quick cash.

Eyes still closed, she lifted her hands and interlocked her fingers, and although at this point she doubted a prayer would help her, part of her still held out hope that it wouldn’t go unheard.

That fraction of hope was soon shattered by the sound of gunfire.

Sophia felt the blood drain from her face. Her trembling hand reached down, fumbling around until she found what she was looking for – the knife that had been so “kindly” bestowed upon her back in Valentine. After all, it was what got her into trouble, and with its help maybe she could carve her way out of it; so she clutched it as tightly as she could, and waited. Despite her best efforts to remain calm, a cold wave of panic surged through her with each gunshot and scream, head and heart pounding as the noises grew louder.

And then the commotion ceased, just as suddenly as it had begun, yet somehow the silence unsettled her more. She tried to concentrate on the sound of what she assumed were  footsteps, although she couldn't tell anymore whether they were real or just figments of her imagination. Whoever, or whatever it was, they were getting closer, and the thought once again filled her with dread. Time was running out – that much was clear to her, even if everything else was clouded by fear, but exhaustion had begun to set in. She squeezed the knife for a last time before her grip loosened as she slowly drifted into a hazy semi-conscious state.

An uncomfortably familiar sound jolted her back to reality. A clicking of a gun that, even though she couldn't see it in the dark, was too close for comfort. She turned her head, looking in the direction the noise had come from and let out a sharp breath when she found the source of it; the faint moonlight filtering through the clouds was just enough to make out the silhouette of the barrel of a rifle pointing at her – and the man who was holding it.

“A pleasure to finally meet the terror of Valentine.” The sarcasm in the stranger’s voice was obvious. He lowered the weapon as he continued. “When they said it was gonna be easy money, I didn’t know what to expect. Definitely not this.”

With whatever strength she had left, Sophia swung the knife in the man’s direction. “If you come closer, I’ll stab you,” she said, her voice almost turning into a growl.

“Like you put a knife in that feller back in town?” came his response, followed by a chuckle. “If you want a fight, then by all means. But it ain’t gonna be a fair fight, ma’am.”

As much as it pained her, she had to admit the man had a point. Even without her injuries, she would’ve been no match for him – she was certain of it, even in her current light-headed state. She withdrew her hand, still fiddling with the knife as her eyes followed him when he stepped away from her. He circled around her hideout as if he was looking for something, occasionally stopping and leaning down, disrupting the silence of the night with the cracks of twigs. After some time had passed, she gave up on keeping an eye on him; the noises seemed to be enough to assure her he was still around and approaching her again. It was only then when she noticed the rain had ceased.

A bundle of thin branches landed right before her on the ground. She squinted, trying to take a better look at him as he began to stack them into a neat little pile; it took a couple of attempts to help it catch alight, but the flames were growing fast, sending amber sparks into the black of night. It was a mesmerizing sight, only eclipsed by the sheer joy of feeling warmth for the first time in days.

“Doesn’t hurt to see each other while we’re fightin’. Might help you aim your knife better.” the man remarked as he plopped down next to her, interrupting her quiet musing.

“There will be no fight,” she replied, somewhat annoyed. “I… I’ve changed my mind.”

“I get to live another day,” he laughed. “Thank you for sparing me, miss.” He threw another branch into the fire.

Sophia turned towards him, finally taking the time to properly inspect her new acquaintance now that she could actually see him. She hadn't noticed how much bigger he was than her before sitting so close to him; the fact didn't quite make her less agitated, so she shifted her attention to his face. Ruffled, dirty blonde hair framed his rugged features; he was unshaven but not entirely unkempt, she concluded. Her gaze traced the arch of his nose over and over again before it settled on his blue eyes, lingering long enough for their eyes to meet.

"So what's going on here?" He broke the silence again. "Were you defending yourself from that man?"

She turned away, somewhat embarrassed that she was caught staring. The same couldn’t be said about the man whose intent gaze she could still feel on her, even after minutes have passed. He was far more patient than she had expected, but Sophia wasn’t sure when his patience was going to run out – it was better to start talking while he was asking nicely, even if it took all the focus she could muster.

“When I first saw him, he was already dead.” Her brows furrowed as she recalled the details of the incident. “There was a group of men around him. Three, maybe four of them, I can’t remember.” She lifted the knife. “This belonged to one of them, I guess it was his… parting gift to me. They left quickly and I tried to follow them, I really tried! But they were gone before I knew it. The sheriff showed up, one of them… one of them was with him, and I knew I had to– to Strawberry–” Her heart was racing, her breath coming in short, quick gasps as she struggled to continue, but no more words came out. The flames of the campfire and the surrounding shadows blended together as the combination of fear, frustration and confusion caused tears to fill her eyes.

He didn’t say anything. Instead of acknowledging what had been said or asking new questions, he placed his hand on her shoulder, rubbing her arm gently – a gesture she hadn’t anticipated from someone she had only known for less than an hour. Sophia didn’t know how much time had passed before she started to regain her composure, the oddly comforting weight still on her shoulder.

“Say no more, miss,” the man spoke in a low voice and gave her a small pat on the shoulder. “I think I’ve heard enough.”

She reached up to her shoulder, her hand searching for his just to hold on to something for a little more comfort. “What makes you think I’m telling the truth?”

He squeezed her hand in response.

“I reckon if you spend enough time in the company of conmen, you slowly learn how to tell when someone’s lyin’.” The man cleared his throat. “This whole business smelled weird from the start. But forty dollars is forty dollars, so I decided to try my luck… I’m glad I did.”

His words sounded genuine. Maybe a little too genuine, and Sophia couldn’t fathom why he’d go to such lengths to gain her trust if he was going to turn her in anyway… but something in her kept telling her that maybe a different outcome was possible. But at what cost? There was a bounty on her head. If she was to live, she had to do it on her own, get far away from here and stay out of sight for the rest of her life, leaving everything she’s known behind. A life on the other side of the law was unimaginable to her; the way she saw it, she was simply unfit for it.

After some quiet contemplation, she came to a conclusion.

“Can I ask you for a favor, mister?” She waited for a moment before continuing. “It’ll be beneficial for both of us.”

The man raised his eyebrows, his bright eyes showing a glint of bewilderment and suspicion.

“Depends on what you want, ma’am.”

She let go of his hand and turned her back to him. “You seem like someone who’s good with weapons,” she lowered her voice as she held out the knife to him over her shoulder. “I can’t do it myself. But this is no way to live. I don’t know how to… Just… be quick, please. As an act of kindness for forty dollars.”

Much to her surprise, he took the knife from her.

“If you were really so eager to die, you'd have done it yourself before I was on your trail, girl," his voice was more serious than before. "You're still alive. Only a fool clings to life so hard and throws it all away in the end. And you ain't no fool, are ya, miss?"

Not waiting for an answer, he tucked the knife into his satchel. "I'm keeping this until you get yourself together."

A resigned sigh left Sophia’s mouth in response, yet there was a sliver of relief in her voice. Although the uncertainty of what the future was holding for her still terrified her, this turn of events promised a second chance that was not likely to be offered again. Once again she had to admit the stranger was right; and considering her efforts to endure the hardships of the past few days, she felt stupid for even thinking quitting like that would be a solution in a moment’s weakness. However, there was one more thing that didn’t allow her to let her guard down completely – at least not yet. Her palm opened and closed around the empty space where the knife had been, movements repeating slowly as she tried to think of the right words to say. But rather than an answer, came a question.

“Why are you doing this?” It was a very simple question, but it summed up everything that kept her on edge. The man’s intentions remained a mystery to her, and no matter how much she tried, with every action of his it was getting more difficult to decipher them.

He huffed and stood up; to Sophia it seemed like he was just doing something else to buy himself some time before responding. She watched him walk away towards something she couldn't clearly see at first, but slowly, a faint silhouette of a horse was starting to take shape amid the trees. Muffled sounds of rummaging through a bag filled the chill night air for a few moments before he returned to her with a small sack and a jacket Sophia could swear he'd been wearing earlier. He crouched down next to her, draping the jacket over her shoulders.

"I guess I'm just tired of seeing folks die before their time," he said with a hint of sadness in his voice, adjusting the jacket as if he was making sure she was covered properly. "You're in rough shape, miss. That's a good way to catch something nasty," he gestured at her drenched clothes and her leg wound that was in desperate need of fresh bandages while grabbing some gauze from the sack.

Sophia watched him in silence, still processing his answer. Simple as it was, it raised a lot of questions, but for now she deemed it sufficient; it was becoming very clear that whatever it was he wanted, the man meant no harm to her. The fact that she no longer needed to keep her eyes on him all the time out of caution brought her some much needed relief.

“It is indeed time to change these–” she hissed and bit her lower lip in order not to yelp from the sudden pain that shot through her leg when she pulled it up to remove the old dressing. She hadn’t moved much for the past few hours, which might have caused the illusion that the worst of the pain was gone. “I’m fine,” she held up her hand in protest before her unusual companion could even have opened his mouth to provide help; the procedure of changing wound dressings was not unknown to her, but she needed some time for the pain to subside and to finally be able to get to work. Removing the makeshift bandage turned out to be a much slower and more painful process than she had expected – she gritted her teeth while peeling it off inch by inch, the piece of cloth stuck to half-dried blood once again tearing the wound open as it parted from her skin.

“God damn it,” Sophia panted, throwing the rags into the fire before leaning back to the wall. Normally, she would have scolded herself for taking God’s name in vain, but this time she felt not a twinge of shame, only the never ending exhaustion and the growing need to just get this over with.

“You need a hand with that?” the man asked. He didn’t make a move, seemingly having understood she’d wanted to do this herself. However, as determined as she was at first, she found herself getting frustrated very easily by the task she was supposed to complete without issues and was grateful for that question.

“I believe I do,” she replied, glancing over to him.

He nodded and slid closer, ready to continue where she had left off when the girl grabbed his wrist. The sudden move caught him by surprise, bringing an expression to his face that almost made Sophia burst out laughing despite her current misery. “You need to wash your hands first,” she instructed him with a barely restrained smile on her lips.

“A little finicky, aren’t we?” He let out a small chuckle. “What are you, ma’am, a doctor?”

“Just the daughter of one.” She gestured at him, brows raised as if urging him to do as she said. Nature, of course, lacked the relative cleanliness of a doctor’s office, but she still wasn’t going to compromise; she stared at him until he gave in and pulled out a canteen from his bag to pour water on his hands.

“Satisfied, Miss Daughter-of-a-Doctor?” he inquired, which was met with eye-rolling and a small nod from Sophia. She was not quite amused by her newly given title, no matter how accurate it was, but it suddenly dawned on her that the stranger had no means of calling her by her name. In an ordinary situation, introducing herself would’ve been the first thing she’d have done, but this was far from an ordinary situation, and therefore the lack of good manners didn’t bother her too much. Still, curiosity kept her mind restless as she watched him proceed to clean up the wound and apply the new bandage – with a lot more care than she had hoped for.

“It should hold until we get to somewhere safe.” He rolled up the remaining gauze and put it back into the sack, then turned his gaze back to her, giving her a nod along with a subtle yet encouraging smile.

Sophia returned the smile. “Thank you for the help, Mr…. Mr. – “

“Morgan.” The man interrupted her. “Arthur Morgan.”

She stopped for a moment to thank whatever higher power saved her from having to outright ask – it was nice to finally be able to attach a name to the face.

“Thank you, Mr. Morgan. That was very kind of you.” Her voice was calm, but in her head countless possible conversations played; she knew it was her turn for an overdue introduction.

“Least I could do, don’t mention it.” Arthur waved his hand and sat down next to her. “Now, how may I address you, ma’am?”

“Sophia. My name is Sophia…,” she began, but suddenly went silent, staring into the light of the campfire as she contemplated her next choice of words. The man seemed honest and she felt a pang of guilt for rewarding his honesty with insincerity, but the need for some sort of precautionary measure was stronger, even if she had already given away her first name – he deserved to know at least that much, she thought.

The sound of him pushing back a stray charred piece of wood into the fire with his boot broke her line of thought, but in that moment, she had her answer.

“...Ashe. My name is Sophia Ashe.”

“You’ve got a nice name, Miss Ashe.” Arthur tilted his head, a smirk forming on his face. “Can’t say it's quite usual ‘round here.”

She blinked at him, looking for any signs of disbelief – she still couldn’t tell if he was being serious or just playing along, but he didn’t seem too intent on prying.

“That’s because I’m not from around here,” she replied. Had she used her actual last name, it would probably have gotten a similar reaction out of him. Upon seeing Arthur raise his brows in what looked more like inquiry rather than doubt, she continued. “I was born in New York. Spent my life there until my family decided to make a big move across the country when I was fifteen, but there was an incident and… I’ve been stuck here ever since.” She took a deep breath. It had been years since she even mentioned it to anyone, but she found the time passed has made it easier to talk about it, even if just a little. Or maybe it was the company? She couldn’t say. “My mother and father were good people, god-fearing, refined and kind. But they did not know this land. To them, bandits were just… a thing of the past, I think. Nameless figures in some romantic tales, and no more. When they realized that was far from the truth, it was already too late.”

In spite of her attempted detachment, she felt tears swelling in her eyes. “I think of them every day. My mother was a frail lady… she was the reason we set out for California – the cold months in the city did no good for her health and my father wanted the best for her. He promised me he’d take us for walks under the orange trees.” She reached up to wipe her tears. “There was no man who loved his family more than he loved us.” Her own talkativeness surprised her, but nevertheless it was good to have someone to listen to her, even if this someone happened to be a stranger.

She felt his hand on her shoulder again.

“I’m sorry about your family. Sounds like they were decent people.” His voice was low, almost whispering; she found it rather soothing. He waited a little, then added: “How’d you get by after that, if you don’t mind me asking?”

Repeating the same motion as before, her hand moved again to touch his. There was something genuinely calming about his presence, although she couldn’t quite put her finger on what exactly it was. “A couple down in Strawberry found me and took me in. They had no children, so I got to stay with them. Taught me how to do things around the house, cleaning, cooking, all that; even got me some work on a friend’s farm.” She caught herself squeezing his hand again, but since he didn’t seem to mind, she continued. “Not really how I imagined my life as a child, but I’m still grateful.”

“It’s quite the change after the big city life, that’s for sure,” he nodded.

“Do you have a family, Mr. Morgan?” She felt it was her turn to ask a question after talking so much; she’s grown fond of his voice and could do with a break from talking anyway.

He didn’t answer immediately, and for a moment, Sophia worried she might have insulted him.

“I di– I do,” he started, with a tired half-smile. “But I don’t think it fits your image of a family, miss. A bunch of criminals, outcasts… people who have nowhere else to go. But I’d kill for them – and I’d die for them if I had to, just like anyone would for theirs.”

She was not prepared for this answer. “They’re lucky to call you family,” she blurted out, for the lack of a better response.

“I’m the lucky one here.” He chuckled, squinting at her. “I hope I didn’t scare you too much. We ain’t like the fellers that were after you,” he gestured towards the woods, in the direction where the sound of gunshots had come from earlier, with his free hand. “Or those who… took your family from you.”

“No, it’s just… so hard to believe you’re a petty criminal, after all you've done for me.” She lifted her head until her eyes met his.

“You don’t know me, Miss Ashe. I’m much worse than that – a bad man who does bad things; always have been, always will be.”

“You have quite a strange idea of what a bad man is, Mr. Morgan.” Her initial shock was quickly replaced by anger and confusion. A bad man. Unless he was a really good actor, this couldn't possibly be true, could it? It made no sense to her.

"You're one to talk with your idea of what an act of kindness is," Arthur let out another dry laugh.

“I was just scared.” There was a bit of defensiveness in her tone. Part of her wanted to stay silent to not annoy him too much and risk getting left behind, but the other part wanted to argue with him despite how much the lengthy conversation and experiencing such a wide range of emotions in such a short time had worn her down; she knew she was right. “But you still chose to go out of your way to help me when I asked you to kill me. You could’ve just agreed and get your money. Is that a bad thing, Mr. Morgan? Is that what bad men do?”

Her questions were met with silence. He didn’t ignore her – to Sophia it seemed as if he was just struggling to find the right words to say.

“Arthur.” She pulled his hand from her shoulder into her lap, holding it with both of hers. “If you don’t mind, I would ask you for another… act of kindness.”

He snorted and shook his head, a faint smile playing on his lips after getting called by his first name. “Told you I’m not harming you. And don’t even think about getting the knife back.”

“No, it’s nothing like that,” she replied quickly. “Can you promise me something?”

“It better not be another wild idea–”

“Don’t call yourself a bad man in front of me ever again.” She knew she wasn’t in the position to give out orders or even to ask for anything, but she felt like she had to give it a try.

“I guess it only matters if you stay around me, but… sure, I can do that.” He looked down at their hands, then back at Sophia, who appeared to be content with his answer. “I take it that means you’re coming with me then?”

“Do I have another choice?”

He exhaled slowly. “Nah, I don’t think so, unless you want to be dragged back to Valentine.”

As much as she yearned to see civilization again, that was the last thing she wanted. Although Arthur was still barely more than a stranger to her, there was a particular sense of safety around him which she wasn’t ready to give up yet; it gave her a glimmer of hope that she might survive if she goes with him – in stark contrast with the certain death she’d face if the law got her. It was an easy choice.

Sophia opened her mouth to say something, but her throat was so dry she could hardly speak – all that came out was a hacking cough. Arthur moved immediately, reaching over her for the canteen and handing it to her. She accepted the water, taking small sips until the last drop was gone from the bottle and her coughing stopped.

“I should’ve asked sooner,” Arthur remarked as he fetched a small packet from his satchel and placed it in her lap. “When was the last time you ate?” “I had dinner back in Valentine. I had some food in my bag but threw it all away on my way here. I didn’t want it to attract animals or something…” Sophia screwed the lid back on the canteen and put it down before investigating the little bundle she just received. It fit into her palms, and when she unwrapped it, the package revealed half a bread roll and a tiny piece of cheese.

“Smart,” Arthur gave her a smirk as he watched her devour the contents of the packet. “You probably should’ve eaten some of it before you threw it away, but– hey, slow down a bit, miss! It ain’t worth choking on.”

“Thank you,” the short expression of gratitude came out as a mumble; she wasn’t even sure he understood it. Small as it was, the improvised meal was more than satisfying; Sophia had never expected that some dry bread and not so fresh cheese would make her so happy one day. With her hunger satiated, she let out a yawn; her eyelids felt heavy and her head slowly fell to the side, resting against his arm. He was talking to her again in that familiar, calming tone she was so captivated by; what he was saying, she had no idea anymore, but at some point the words stopped and changed into a low humming – the last thing she heard before she finally fell asleep.

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The first rays of sunshine just started illuminating the morning sky when Sophia was slowly nudged awake from her sleep. Without opening her eyes, it took her a moment to register that Arthur was still sitting next to her – the smell of smoke and sweat was the same as she remembered it from the night before, but it was not nearly enough to bother her; she snuggled in a little closer, reveling in the warmth that radiated from him. His arm was moving in a delicate, careful motion, and she squinted her eyes open to see what he was doing. A journal lay in his lap, open at the page he was trying to fill up with writing and some drawings – what exactly they were, Sophia couldn’t see clearly. Upon noticing that she was no longer sleeping, he quickly closed the journal, leaving her no time to inspect whatever he had scribbled down there.

“Mornin’, Miss Ashe,” he greeted her, turning to her. “How’d you sleep?”

“Good morning, Mr. Morgan,” she muttered in response. “Fine, I guess. Could sleep for a little longer, though. You?”

“I bet you could.” He slipped the journal into his satchel. “Don’t you worry about me, I’m rested enough. My shoulder’s a bit sore, but I’ll live.”

“Sorry.” She felt a little guilty about it – after all, that was her fault for having slept leaning against his arm; it wasn’t the most comfortable position for him, but she was grateful that he hadn’t moved away. “I swear I don’t plan on using your arm as a pillow again.”

“I understand. It’s a small wonder you had any sleep at all on a pillow like this,” he laughed. “Well, now that you’re awake, I think we should get going. It’s still early enough. If we’re lucky, we won’t run into anyone on the road.”

Arthur stood up and walked over to the remains of the campfire to scrape some dirt onto the smoldering ashes with his boot, then stopped in his tracks for a moment as if he had a sudden revelation and smiled to himself before carrying on. It didn’t escape Sophia’s attention, but she chose not to comment on it – she was much more preoccupied with taking in the sight of him revealed by the daylight. Somehow he seemed even taller and broader than she recalled from last night, but having glimpsed into what was hiding behind the rugged facade, it didn’t intimidate her as much as it had when she first saw him. She had no doubts he could be ruthless if needed – he had demonstrated that even before they met by shooting the men that had tracked her down, she reminded herself, – however, the good things he’s done for her far outweighed the possible threat he was posing.

He let out a sharp whistle, and a horse galloped up to him shortly after. The animal looked well cared for, much better than its owner; it had a chestnut coat Sophia found especially beautiful.

“Good morning, girl,” he welcomed the horse with a fond tone that was clearly reserved for a beloved companion, pressing his forehead to the horse’s as he patted her on the neck. “Let’s get you on her,” he turned to Sophia and led the horse closer, extending his hand to help her onto her feet. “Can you stand?”

Sophia nodded in response as he pulled her up. The pain was still there when she shifted her weight onto her right leg; although she was able to stand, she knew she couldn’t possibly walk without stumbling, but that wasn’t something she had to worry about too much. He put both of his hands around her waist and lifted her onto the horse so effortlessly as if she had weighed next to nothing.

“Don’t worry, she won’t throw you. She’s a sweet girl,” he assured her, adjusting the saddlebag and fastening his rifle to the saddle before he swung himself up to sit in front of her and looked around. “Alright, let’s be on our way. Hold on tight, Miss Ashe!”

He didn’t have to say it twice. Sophia wrapped her arms around his waist as he urged the horse forward through the woods; their little encampment soon disappeared behind them and the scenery gradually changed from forest to lush meadows with snowy peaks towering above them in the distance.

Hours had passed since they set out on their journey, only stopping occasionally to let Arthur’s horse rest. During those stops, she observed him taking out his journal and sketching or jotting down whatever was on his mind; good manners dictated she should not poke her nose into something that was none of her business, but her curiosity proved to be stronger.

“You really enjoy writing in that book,” she began, restraining herself from directly asking to see what’s inside. Sitting across from him, her chances of sneaking a peek were low, so she had to find other means to take a look at the journal’s contents.

“I ain’t much of an artist, but it’s a good way to pass time.” Aware of her nosiness, he closed the journal again. “I don’t think there’s anything in this for a sophisticated young lady like you,” he added with a little chuckle. “But there will be others at the camp who can entertain you with a conversation or two about… cultured things. You seem like someone who likes art and books and whatnot.”

Her face brightened up. To finally have people to discuss the things she loved with after all those years, it sounded like a dream. “I do like all of those things!” she replied with thinly veiled excitement.

“Then maybe you can educate an uncultured man like me on the way,” he grinned as he walked over to her to help her onto the horse again. “We’re still not quite there yet, so you’ve got plenty of time.”

“I could…,” she hesitated for a moment, but decided to continue. “If I can ask for something in return.”

Arthur leaned against the saddle and shook his head, almost laughing. “Another act of kindness?” He glanced up to her. “You wanna play a game, lady? I’ve been meaning to ask something of you anyway. If you let me, I’ll be in your debt and I’ll do a little act for you. But if you ask me for one more, you’ll owe me one. How’s that sound?”

Without skipping a beat, Sophia held out her hand. “Deal.”

Arthur shook her hand and proceeded to settle in the saddle. “I’m asking for a promise, Miss Ashe,” he started while gently nudging his horse to move. “One day, I’ll ask you a question, and I need you to promise me you’ll give me an honest answer. I hope that ain’t too much.”

His words took her by surprise, and although she wondered what that question could possibly be, she nodded in agreement. “Fine, I promise. It certainly doesn’t seem too much. For everything you’ve done for me, I feel like I already owe you more than I could ever repay.”

“You don’t owe me nothing for what I did last night.” He cleared his throat. “So what is it you want? I’ve got your promise, now it’s your turn.”

“Can I see the drawings?” Sophia peeked out from behind him. “Just the drawings, not even all of them, just– just what you did today. That would be enough.”

“Ain’t you a persistent little lady?” Arthur sighed with obviously faked annoyance and reached down to pull out the journal from his bag. He opened it at the most recent drawings and held it up for her to see. “There you go, I hope that sates your curiosity.”

Sophia was astounded by the level of detail in those sketches; it was not what one would have expected from someone who supposedly wasn’t “much of an artist”. A rabbit, a deer, some wildflowers, mountains and fields – they almost looked like photographs.

“You keep saying things about yourself that aren’t true,” she turned to him. “These are breathtaking, Mr. Morgan. Thank you for showing them to me.”

Arthur gave her a nod as a quiet thanks and put the journal away as they continued their journey in silence for a while.

“...Do you still want me to talk about art and… other things?” Sophia asked suddenly.

“I thought you’d never ask,” came the answer immediately.

And with that, she started talking. About the art galleries they had visited back in New York, about artists her parents loved, her painting lessons, the books she had read, the libraries she had visited, her favorite authors, and everything else that flooded her mind, overcome with sheer joy and excitement after having no audience for this kind of talk for years. And Arthur listened, occasionally nodding and asking her to talk more about this or that – and she did, until she was so exhausted she started drifting off.

Still holding on to him around his waist, she could feel his arm over hers; he was most likely just making sure she wouldn’t fall off the horse in her sleep, and she appreciated the gesture. He started humming again; it was the same calming tone that had helped her fall asleep the night before. But this time, the humming slowly grew into whispers, and the whispers into words. Arthur was singing, and Sophia did her utmost to stay awake to hear his voice, careful not to let him know she was still listening, until reality started to fade and gave way to dreams – dreams about a man singing a song she had never heard in her life.

☾

The thin fabric of the tent wasn’t enough to keep the chill night breeze out, but it certainly offered much more protection than the cliff she had hidden under last night. Sophia rolled over on the cot and pulled one of the two blankets over her chin. It wasn’t as comfortable as her bed but it still felt like a luxury after what she’d just been through, and on top of everything, at long last, she was clean. She vaguely recalled arriving at the camp just before sunset; a quite intimidating lady helping her take a bath, get new bandages on her leg, food and clean clothes while commanding everyone around, and an older, kind man asking some questions, speaking in a refined manner that reminded her of her own father. She’d seen a few other faces too, but she could barely remember them. The sound of a conversation coming from outside of the tent caught her attention. She recognized Arthur’s voice as he mumbled something.

“I know, son, I know,” a familiar, kind voice responded. “But you need to do the talking this time. I’m sure Dutch won’t mind the girl, but he expected money.”

“You don’t have to remind me.”

“Maybe she could help us. She’s well educated and seems to have a sharp mind, we could find a way she could earn some money.”

“Stabbing and conning people is out of the question,” Arthur snorted. “She would cut herself before you know it, and… she ain’t that good at lying.”

“Anything can be learned, Arthur,” the other man replied. “She could learn from the best, if she’s willing to.”

“Hosea, please.”

“You know I ain’t wrong! Now go. Dutch will be back tomorrow, get some rest until then.”

As the conversation ended, the entrance of the tent opened and Arthur entered.

“I see Miss Grimshaw made you feel quite at home”, he remarked with a grin, lighting the small lantern next to the cot and spreading a quilt on the ground for himself. “ Don’t worry, you ain’t stuck here with me forever. You’ll get to be with the girls tomorrow, so you only have to put up with me snoring next to you tonight.”

“I’ve survived worse,” Sophia peeked out from under the blanket, watching Arthur sit down and lean his head on the cot so they were eye to eye.

“I know. I was there," he said. "But you're safe now, and… welcome to stay until you figure out what you wanna do from now on."

They lay in silence for minutes. His eyes were moving; to Sophia it was almost as if he was trying to memorize her features. She pulled the blanket from her face, which won her a grateful smile from Arthur. Her own gaze was just as restless; after all, he was finally close enough for her to take a good look without worrying about getting caught staring. It was definitely the face of someone who could've used a good night's sleep but she was pleased with what she saw, and every new little detail she discovered added to her joy – especially the small scar across his chin that she found rather charming. She reached out, although with a bit of uncertainty, to touch it; to her surprise he didn't back out, turning his face into her palm once she was done inspecting the scar – a gesture that flustered her so much she could only manage an answer when the light of the lantern went out.

"You're the nicest man I have ever met, Mr. Morgan."

"The nicest? You're making me worry about the company of men you keep, miss." His voice was getting noticeably more and more tired, but she could still feel a smile forming on his face. He inhaled as if he was trying to continue, only to change his mind just before even a single word came out – he must have remembered what she had asked of him earlier.

"I know it's getting late," she started, "but can I ask for one more thing?"

"What is it?"

She knew it was a selfish request, but it was worth a shot.

"Would you sing something for me?"

"I would if I could sing at all, ma'am."

"Strange, I could've sworn I heard you singing on our way here," she replied, still hoping he would cave. "It must've been the wind "

Arthur let out a drawn-out sigh that turned into a chuckle. "You're racking up quite a debt, Miss Sophia." He placed his hand on her arm and gave her a little pat. "Let's keep this between ourselves, alright?"

He started singing right away, so quietly only the two of them could hear it, and despite his voice cracking a couple times, he kept at it until his words faded to incomprehensible mumble and eventually, a steady snoring.

Sophia grabbed one of the blankets and pulled it over his shoulder, even though he was fully dressed and probably not bothered by the cold; it just felt like the right thing to do. She curled up under hers and decided to leave pondering about her future for tomorrow – she had plenty of time for it now that she was given another chance at life. All thanks to an outlaw who claimed to be a bad man, yet contradicted this statement at every turn; whose voice echoed in her head even now, lulling her into sleep once again.

[daydreamycrustacean]

Was gonna post this along with something else but this felt elaborate enough to post on its own so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[plushchimera]

maybe Roan is actually a dragon, because... no one can stop me?

[houdadraws]

[demon4dilfs]

randomly bought this cute photocard holder yesterday, decided to put Javert in it 💀

bonus image since I printed off two pictures of him:

[cemeterything]

oh fuck if i finish homestuck i'm almost certainly going to end up making a marble hornets au for that aren't i. fuck it. slenderstuck will be real in t-minus however many weeks it takes me to read this thing.

[habitsbf]

i love having comfort characters. like yes these awesome little freaks from all sorts of different media bring me joy and live in my head rent free. idc if some of them murdered people. its okay because i said so. i forgive them for the atrocities, which is why i am letting them live in my head without paying rent. leave me alone.

[amazingspider-z]

Back at it with Bleach!

AKA the: If arrancar get to look kind of like shinigami despite starting off as hollows, Visored should get to look a little bit hollow all the time despite starting off as shinigami. As a (not) treat. post

(Bonus: some more floating heads under the cut)

[lucky-draws]

started pokemon x again... my humble team so far

[cerise-on-top]

I love the Against PDA Laswell/Valeria x Jealous fem reader! Thank you so much!

Kate Laswell x GN reader

After a bad marriage, Kate never thought she would have another chance for a relationship

Then 💥BOOM💥 reader appears in her life!

But there's a problem....

Kate and her Ex partner have a daughter (Kate LOVES her daughter)

But she doesn't like the reader...

No pressure, take your time 🫶 and take care

You're welcome! That was a lot of fun to write! I got a bit carried away on this one, so it's quite long, sorry about that! This idea was really cute, inspiration really struck me on that one! Thank you for requesting it! Thank you for requesting in general, especially for the girls! I love them, but it's a genuine shame they don't seem to get as much love as the guys!!

Reader is gn. Only thing I can think of is that Kate's daughter, Luna, was about to get abducted, but reader saved her, so nothing bad happens aside from that. Luna and reader get along later, though, because I'm a sucker for happy endings and want Laswell, reader and their daughter to have a lovely future together. Some parts are almost like a drabble, other parts are more headcanon-y.

Remarried!Laswell, her daughter and Reader

It’s one thing to have the love of your life leave, all the memories, the good and bad, the small trinkets here and there, even just a small dessert call upon feelings that are much better left behind, left in the dark where no one could find them. If only it was that easy. During spring cleanings, Kate would find something to remind her of her ex wife every time. A brooch with a sapphire in the middle, an old recipe book, the very first wooly hat Kate’s wife picked out for their daughter, Luna. It was tiny, bearing the motive of snowflakes on a pink background. And to think their daughter has long since grown out of it. Time really does pass, regardless of whether you’re enjoying the moment or wishing the past had never happened. A few years ago, Kate’s heart would have been torn upon finding it, slashed open to show the insides of a still beating and bleeding heart. But that was the past. She had always been a strong woman, she had no choice, after all.

It was her wife, who gave birth to Luna, and it shows. She took after her so much, from the color of her eyes, her height, even her nose was reminiscent of her ex wife. She was absolutely gorgeous in Kate’s eyes. Her little girl grew and grew, but no matter how old she was, that was still her little girl. While Kate may not get the chance to see her all that often, a few times a year at most, both of them are usually overjoyed when they do get to spend time with each other. Even at 14, when it’s almost embarrassing to be seen with your parents, her daughter couldn’t hide her growing smile whenever she saw her mother. It was familial love in its purest form.

And eventually, you came along. Beautiful you, who was patient and understanding towards Kate. Caring you, who wouldn’t rush her into something she wasn’t ready for just yet while listening to her every woe whenever the melancholy of her ex wife caught up with her. Dazzling you, who gave her another chance at romantic love, slowly mending the holes in her heart. It was a give and take, always: No matter what it was you gave Kate, she’d return it tenfold. You, in turn, would do so as well. A kiss would turn into a necklace bearing a genuine ruby, an intimate and loving night into a vacation on the mountains or the beach. It took a while, but eventually Kate was sure you were the one. Someone, who would never betray her, someone, who would stay by her side, even when the world would stand against her. She was willing to arrange the most dangerous of missions for her most trusted people if something would ever happen to you. Kate was capable of pulling just about any string, get a favorable outcome eventually.

But no matter what she did, Luna simply didn’t seem to approve of you.

It started off with a simple mention of you. First, a friend. Her daughter didn’t seem to mind. She was glad someone was able to make her mother smile again. But when it turned into something more, something more serious, she would frown. An annoyed quip, a passive-aggressive remark, it was evident that no matter what Kate would tell her about you, the latter would react negatively. Regardless of whether you tripped while taking out the trash or proposing to your then girlfriend.

It would take a while for you to actually meet her daughter, but when you did she seemed distant at best and annoyed at worst. Anger wasn’t the solution to anything, so you tried to engage in conversation with her, give her small gifts you thought she might like. Christmas, Easter, Halloween, her birthday, you never forgot about her. But no matter how much effort you put into slowly building a relationship with her, you were rejected. She had two parents, she didn’t need a third one. You knew Luna was Kate’s everything, which is why it hurt twice as much when she seemed to hate you. Afraid of making things potentially worse, you were unsure whether or not you should keep going, it seemed almost pointless. Even when Kate told her daughter to be nice to you, to give you a chance at the very least, it didn’t seem to help.

In a cruel turn of events, disaster has struck. You were tasked to escort Luna home, you and Kate did live together, after all. A young girl and her “parent” usually wasn't something many people would look at twice, it was among the most ordinary things. After dusk, when the sun was barely enveloping the world in its warm rays, three men walked in your direction. Maybe it was your gut feeling telling you to be more aware of your surroundings, maybe Kate had told you to be extra careful these days and nights. Either way, they stopped walking when the two of you got closer. By then, even Luna seemed to realize something awful was about to happen. Just as you were about to walk towards the other street, two of the men lunged out at you, going after her.

This wasn’t something that should have happened, so for a split second you froze before reacting, Luna screaming out already. Even though both of you were shocked, scared out of your mind as she was dragged away into the nearest alley, something within you sparked. You were hoping you’d never need them, but Kate had given you lessons on how to defend yourself if you ever needed to, and this time was as drastic as it could possibly be. Using your knowledge on martial arts, you were able to take one of them down as quickly as possible, having him writhe in pain on the ground, unable to compose himself anymore. The third guy advanced towards you, thinking you to be easy prey still. He was taken care of even more quickly than the first one, adrenaline coursing through you. Your legs carried you at a speed even the raging storms would envy, Luna looking back at you, yelling for help still. Her mother wasn’t around, you were the only safer person left, the only aid in a battle she likely would have never won on her own.

She struggled, resisted the creep to the best of her abilities, flailing, biting, screaming. It was enough to buy you time to get to her. As he turned to you, you jabbed your index and middle finger on the spot underneath the larynx. Curses escaped him as he released her, holding onto his throat while gagging. Barely put together, he stretched his arm backwards, an obvious attempt at hitting you, the perfect opening. In a swift motion, you deflected him, taking his arm instead while using your knee to kick him in the groin. A direct hit, leaving him incapable of doing much else aside from whining on the ground, making the most pathetic noises imaginable to man. It mattered not, Luna was more important than anything else. Despite being aware of her dislike for you, this was an exception: You grabbed her by the arm, dragging her out of the alley and to the nearest light post.

She was quaking, her eyes watery as she bit back tears. This was no moment to show weakness in front of you. As she bit her lip, the force was enough to make it bleed, she took a deep breath  while you looked her over, making sure she wasn’t injured. A few bruises would form from the rough treatment, but she’d be alright. You wanted to comfort her right now, tell her that she was safe, that you’d make sure not a single pig on this planet would harm her, but you couldn’t focus on that solely. What you had to do was make sure she’d get back home safely to her mother. Kate would kill you if something happened to her, or worse.

You hurried home, never letting go of her, your eyes darting around the streets. Barely anyone was out. Apologies and promises of safety, you spoke them all in a determined tone.

Luna looked at you as you pulled her along. Your touch wasn’t dreadful this time, it was far from detestable. Your hand was warm on her arm, your presence comforting. Maybe you weren’t such a horrible person to have around. And maybe, just maybe, you could keep Kate safe, too. Keep her happy, make sure she can smile forever, give her the solace you gave Luna just now. She wanted to stop, stand still and apologize for the treatment she had given you, it wasn’t fair. Not to you, not to her mother. But she kept going, her home perhaps a minute from where she currently was.

Only when the door fell closed behind you, after you locked it, could you finally take a breather. Luna was still shaken, but nowhere close to tears. Uneven breathing was all that plagued her, but she was finally safe again.

It was time to release her, apologizing for touching her without her consent. But for once, those eyes that seemed to show but resentment for you, they were tired. Although you had let go of her, it was her turn to hold your wrist, a small plea, almost silent, begging for you to not go just yet. It wasn’t your place to refuse and thus you gave her a nod, calming down from your own high. Your voice was so much more gentle than before. How was she feeling? Where was she hurt? Would she be alright?

There was barely a response, only one you could really understand.

You weren’t a monster, you weren’t going to drain the happiness from everyone she ever loved, Luna finally understood that. While your voice may have just barely reached you, she stood completely still for a few seconds before wrapping her arms around you, face buried in your shoulder. You were a good person, she was going to be okay. Everything was okay. She had her mothers and you.

A tight hug, you’d return it any day, looking to the corner of your eye as you noticed some movement there. It was Kate, shocked and worried, immediately rushing to her girl’s side, asking her what’s wrong. This wasn’t something Kate shouldn’t have known about, so with as much calmness as you could muster, you explained the situation to her. Luna carefully turned to her mother, Kate instinctively took her into her arms.

Sitting her down onto the couch, both of you stayed with her the entire night, even when she had fallen asleep. Small conversations sound through the living room. Kate couldn’t thank you enough. Her world was with her still, unscathed and mostly unharmed, because of your quick judgment and your capabilities. This was something she could never repay you for, even if you gave her an eternity of time. It was a rare sight to see Kate in any amount of disarray. She was of calm mind anytime, no matter what. Strong-willed, cunning, brave. Even she had her weaknesses.

But as concerned as she was during that night, she could notice a change in the atmosphere soon enough. Luna’s words weren’t malicious towards you anymore. A smile here, a chuckle there. When the suggestion of getting you a birthday present came, Kate was stunned for a moment. Her little girl and her spouse getting along, it seemed so far out. But any destination was reachable if you gave it enough time, if the circumstances were right. By no means would she ever wish anything horrible upon her girl, willing to kill those men in the same way a lion would kill its prey, but the situation had improved. Luna would ask about you, how you were doing, how the marriage was going, even giving you the present yourself. Almost shy, she handed it to you. You, too, seemed a bit surprised, but the scene was lovely. You and Luna finally got along. It was like something out of a pleasant dream. As you opened the present, your face glowing with glee, Kate, too, couldn’t help but smile. 

[dissentersrising]

v models, sornieth edition

>dragons, unlike humans, do a lot of things with their mouths (biting people. carrying things. okay that’s about it) so while the v models weren’t designed to be super accurate to any given dragon, this still came through in the design philosophy >v1’s jaw has sharp spikes for slicing through things, mostly used just in case it needs to refuel immediately. did i mention these things run off blood because now i did um look that’s literally ultrakill canon don’t look at me man >anyways magic’s a lot more of a concussive force than, say, a whole bullet so a blast of magic isn’t guaranteed to make anything bleed, so it’s just a failsafe >not incredible for holding things, given the rest of its (and by extension, mirage’s) jaw is smooth, but that’s an afterthought in its case anyway >v2 a) isn’t designed as an actual warbot b) can’t absorb blood directly through its plating so its jaw is designed differently for actual grip >it can actually hold things. woohoo >also more emotive because it’s designed as an enforcer, ergo the average joe is expected to see one of these things running around sometimes. less uncanny when you can see some facsimile of facial expression, i guess >technically v2 is supposed to move its mouth when speaking. less uncanny or whatever. it stopped doing that after it ran off because it can’t be assed to bother >mirage just doesn’t because she doesn’t give a shit >i dunno if v1 can even talk actually

[onconstellationstreetmp3]

whoa its may the fourth... star warsposting COMMENCE!

[devilsskettle]

i feel like i’ve been WAITING for the other shoe to drop wrt people’s opinions about watcher for this very reason. not that i think the reaction is completely not understandable but the greater the parasocial relationship, the greater the fallout as soon as public opinion shifts. you don’t have a relationship with these people they’re just content creators, chill

[majorbaby]

the longer the uncertainty around the place where i post my silly fandom stuff lasts, the more likely i am to post the really silly stuff. bubble tea shop AU i inflicted on my best friend two years ago:

[svankmajerbaby]

nevermind 👍 im listening to my spotify wrapped again and my music taste is immaculate

[journalppt2]

Do you ever just wanna