i will twist you into the spaces between my ribs,
memorize you in song and color and breath.
i will memorize your patterns of speech,
your voice and the shape of your eyes.
i will pretend you into being at my side—
a ghost of what it will mean to have you
in months or years,
when the space folds shut,
i’ll still be waiting.
i will pull every secret and story you’re willing to give
i will lock them in a box with my lungs
i will memorize the shape of your hands and the touch of your breath
and treasure the moments we spend.
i will capture you in my mind’s eye
to carve out the space in my heart i will keep you to fill
i will learn the path of the smile to your face,
and the course of your laugh from your chest—
and maybe when you’re here we will see the strings that bind us
that pulled you to me in the beginning
they are written as red in the stories i read—
i’d like to think ours would be green.
i will learn the weight of love with nothing to hold us apart—
the same as your head on my shoulder
i take a bit of your weight, you take a fraction of mine
some people belong.
there is such a thing as forever.
there is something beyond the usual romantic love
there is devotion, the exchange of soul and joy and pain
there is the room we have made for each other
with so much more to go, so much to gain.
there are dreams i will force unto earth
and you are one of them.
i will learn what it is to love you in person—
i love you polyamory i love you open relationships i love you situationships i love you queer platonic relationships i love you friends with benefits i love you uncommon demonstrations of love i love you complexity of the human emotion and experience
can someone make a QPR dating app please. please i'm begging you. it isn't enough to just have a "find a friend" app because every time i try one the person i'm talking to ends up either catching feelings or being REALLY weird about it when they find out i'm aro.
"but you'll die alone!" and you will not live to see it; you will die by my sword before death takes me.
For me being in a qpr lately is like. No we're not dating. Yes this is my boyfriend isn't he great and lovely and handsome aren't I lucky. No I don't want anyone to mistake us for romantic partners. Yes I want to marry him. No we're not "just friends". Yes I don't want people to think our friendship matters less than our love. No I don't care what people think. Yes I want you to know that we're each other's and each other's alone. No I've never had a crush on him. Yes, I love him with all my heart and soul.
I am so deeply in love with you. No words will ever do justice to my adoration and affection for you. All I can say is I love you I love you I love you I love you
I swear to god, I need to give myself the right to complain, HEAVY EMPHASIS ON THIS TIKTOK THAT I GOT ON MY FYP A WEEK AGO, everytime my partner starts a new relationship, I LOSE MY FUCKING MARBLES
We just discovered that me, them and another friend all wanted to go to the first comic con happening in the country I live in, so we started planning a bit through text, I said it'd be easier to plan in call, they said no they're in call with they're gf and doing "important stuff" not sure as to what that refers to but I'm like, ok it's understandable that they don't want talk to me about certain things, I respect that.
I ask when we could call, I get ghosted...
My need for strict schedules and routines as an autistic person is not helping my frustration in this situation, I need to be planning weeks ahead otherwise I WILL forget...
Oh your ship broke up? That’s sad. Sherlock Holmes and Dr. Watson have been in a queer-platonic partnership for 136 years though so I’m good. Y’all take it easy.
Just want to live in a silly little house and do simple easy work that lets me live comfortably and live with someone that I love and they also love me and we are soulmates but we are also both aroace so we just live in perfect queer platonic bliss and I kiss their forehead as we lay in bed watching tv shows