Text
this weekend has been absolutely awful man
#part of my state is underwater. we haven't heard from people who are affected since the storm hit#my sister is closer to the damage but afaik she's okay. but i still worry#and we just got some very sad news about someone who my family is close with#on top of other things going on i am this 🤏 close to having an episode#sorry i know i don't talk much about my personal life but shit really sucks
19 notes
·
View notes
Text
.
#feel like my relationship with my younger brother is changed completely forever not to be dramatic lol but i am sad#we used to b very close but he has kind of. found his faith again and gone full missionary christian which like. i knew meant the dynamic#was doomed lmao but actually acknowledging it makes me sad i feel like i'm grieving for the friendship we used to have even though#it is literally a me problem i think from his perspective he doesn't think anything has changed. but i feel weird about everything#also his new gf is nineteen and he is. almost 25 and i am the only one who feels weird about it like i know she's over 18 but! idk i can't#tell if i'm being overly cautious or if my gut instinct is right. my sister & her husband have a similar age gap but they met when they wer#both over 30 so like. it didn't feel weird. and i didn't feel comfortable actually seriously talking to him about it apart from the first#time he mentioned her over facetime (he went to another country to do mission stuff & met her there) so like an idiot i've just been#making jokes about the age gap becausee like. thats always been our thing lightly bullying each other lol but he blew up at me and said#i've had nothing positive to say about her since he's been back home and that he thinks i hate her and i'm out of line for constantly#implying he's creepy for dating someone younger. idk i felt like such a freak idiot horrible person about it. it completely blindsided me#bc yes the jokes were coming from a place of idk how i feel about this situation so i'm going to rely on the humour-based communication#we have always fallen back on as a safety thing but i guess i was wrong or the dynamic shifted or something anyway it's all fucked#& everyone is just telling me i feel weird out of some?? misplaced kind of jealousy thing?? because i'm 'losing' my brother to his gf lol#which does not feel right at all he has dated so many other girls and i have never had a problem it is literally the age gap like i haven't#even met this girl i'm sure she's very nice! i just worry about her being nineteen!! jesus. and yes maybe i do feel some resentment around#a brother younger than me who seems to be able to live his life with zero difficulty whilst i'm stuck being this unemployed loser who ruins#literally ever friendship & relationship ive ever had but i think thats ok right like i can't help feeling that. i don't fucking knowwww#am i just projecting all these sad feelings about our friendship dying onto his new relationship or like. am i right to be genuinely#concerned she's six years younger than him and still a fucking teenager!!!!!! i don't know
51 notes
·
View notes
Text
everytime i feel bad and stressed about my life i remember that i might be in a troubling situation and having a bad time but im not season 4 fiona gallagher in the clink after leaving crack on the counter which my 3 year old baby brother happened to ingest resulting in a fatal near-death experience thats wracked me with never-ending guilt and forever altered my life
#this storyline was stupid you expect me to believe two-apples-tall liam gallagher came close to the crack AND managed to ingest it?#the crack which is lined up on the kitchen counter?#Also i don't believe that fiona would be irresponsible enough for liam to have been able to be close to the crack#that was an ooc moment and not like “its ooc cause thats the point shes going thru a tough time”#morelike “so ooc that it seems like a discrepancy that was overlooked for the sake of drama and shock value#as an older sister i feel like being watchful of your younger sibling if crack is in their general vicinity is an unstoppable instinct#its just not a plausible situation sorry like this is coming from someone who wholeheartedly embraces the realistic idea#of fiona falling short sometimes and being very human by struggling to consistently maintain her doting attentiveness#but anyways it's complicated cause Fiona clearly put it somewhere he cant reach#so how did he get access to it????#its like getting mad at a parent for putting a glass of wine on the counter#not comparing that to literal cocaine obviously this whole situation was nonetheless messed up#but just for some perspective... the writers were clearly doing cocaine themselves if they thought that#liam was bungee-jumping onto the counter and showing off his skills as an apparent budding olympics gymnast#not justifying anything but. listen.#the fact that it was on the counter FOR A REASONNN shows that fiona was careful to keep it out of reach and NOT do something insane like#putting it on the table#liam somehow magically having access to it defeats the purpose of it being on the counter.#if they really wanted for it to be believable that liam managed to snort it they should've put it on the table#but we already know that situation wouldn't be believable in its entirety cause we know that fiona would literally never leave it there#WHICH IS MY POINT. LIKE THIS SITUATION IS JUST ANNOYINGLY UNBELIEVABLE. FIONA WOULD NOT DO THIS AND HOW DID LIAM EVEN GET TO IT??#theres like 39482939 overlooked discrepancies just for the sake of getting to the shock#just to circle back Fiona would literally never let liam go near crack no matter how far gone and fucked up she was#I KNOW THIS BECAUSE I AM AN OLDER SISTER.#its just so UGHHHHH anyways obviously i still think in canon yeah Fiona was at fault shouldve been more careful and watchful#no matter how you look at it its clear that a risk like this just cannot be taken and she had to be blamed to an extent#but me personally? i reject it because it didnt feel natural to me at all there were 394939 other ways to frame a Fiona downfall#And i loved all the other ways her spiral was shown like getting messed up and ending up in Sheboygan#all the shit she got into with robbie + the impulsive urge to ruin the good thing she had going with mike#so human and believable and deeply flawed unlike the liam situation which was horrifically OOC and unrealistic
10 notes
·
View notes
Text
Why is it that anime that mainly features a heterosexual couple always have such gay undertones like??
#aaronymous ramblings#komi can't communicate#kaguya sama love is war#spy x family#saiki kusou no psi nan#the disastrous life of saiki k.#okay saiki k doesnt really count but come on#my dress up darling#toliet bound hanako kun#literally 90% of anime in the romance comedy genre that ive watched recently or not recently#some examples:#shoko komi and manbaga i am so sorry if thats not her name but them sitting on the stairs in the manga and having that heart to heart…#horimiya#hori worried about other men stealing her man and not other women#my dress up darling characters just being hopelessly bisexual#love chunibyo & other delusions#monthly girls' nozaki kun#yor simping over a random woman coming into her home unnanounced#tadano cross dressing and being very close with other men#kaguya simping over the presidents sister#honestly this could be some form of like strange homophobia thats reached 6 layers of irony and has come around to being embraced by the gay
228 notes
·
View notes
Text
like. Nina listens to Taylor, moderately keeps up with the front-facing aspects of her life, enjoys her quality, has her minor critiques, recognizes her place in the current culture, can set her down and do other things when she wants to, and most importantly knows who Taylor is through her art.
#you cannot engage with Taylor completely casually it doesn’t work#you won’t get to know her#you have to let her in. go on a sunset walk with your headphones in and open your heart to her and just HEAR her#and then once you know who she is you can go from there#but there absolutely is this level of refusing to get to know her#and I am truly (once again) not addressing people who have that door simply closed (my mom! my older sister!)#people whose opinions matter so much to me#but I am talking to the people who wrestle and want to love her but actually hate her and idk. I feel that it is something where—-#well it’s like people isn’t it. you have to get to know her without judgment#and without bias#you have to know her FROM her#(which does not involve Easter eggs OR celebrity headlines if you hate both of those things#and then if you don’t like her you do in fact have to leave without making that other people’s problem#especially Taylor’s!#I am thinking of this girlboss journalist who wrote a piece on Taylor the other day#that was LIVID with Taylor for sharing only positive reviews on her insta story#(as is not only Taylor’s right but literally normal behavior??????????)#and was practically foaming at the mouth about how Taylor’s level of power was getting scary#and it’s like. I’m so sorry for swearing but BITCH#a lot of the numbers are out of Taylor’s control and also NOT REAL. Taylor also DESERVES her success and is simply doing her job very well#and riding the waves of virality she knows how to create in ADDITION to that#also stop worshipping power and money!!!! the way you clearly do!!!!!!!#Taylor is not doing anything with it except her job!!!!!!!!!!!!!#she is also CLEARLY a human being who suffers#SEE HER AS SUCH#and end it THERE#INSANE#turning off reblogs for this one#because I have gotten carried away but wow
11 notes
·
View notes
Text
have had two very serious matching tattoo proposals in the last 7 days. unfortunately I cannot see myself w either
#my sister wants a matching kitten and my friend wants a matching pair of knitting needles#both very cute but neither are for me HOWEVER I think I am getting close to a second tattoo
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
102.
#smoking tw#CAROLYN IS A REAL ONE.#never to be as we began / one lonely girl‚ one very lonely man.#AND.#''we've got a bond in common you and i. we are both alone in the world. oh‚ i've got a sister [...]''#➤ edits & art. ┊ the evans cottage art gallery.#➤ roger collins & victoria winters. ┊ pain sometimes precedes pleasure,miss winters.#➤ re: carolyn stoddard. ┊ never the same girl twice.#➤ re: burke devlin. ┊ i am stranded in a hungerland of great prosperity.#man I really. am obsessed with their relative loneliness. it’s also like 2 am and I’ve had a few drinks as I’m typing this so like#Vicki who was lonely and surrounded by peers but longed for family. Roger who is surrounded by family but nonetheless feels an acute#loneliness — and very few peers!#how they long for touch. how their monents of touch are always a few degrees removed into Hell.#vicki pulling at and sobbing into his lapels after she’s seen a ghost. his hands over her mouth to silence her. grabbing her on the#staircase to interrogate her. the only time he ever even kisses her on the cheek to my memory is in front of Jeff#when he’s conceding he won’t tell her about his little moment of infidelity.#(and … maybe also demonstrating that they’re close enough that he can stroke her arm/kiss her cheek)#he’s always grabbing her but. a proper long hug when.#… ‘for 20 minutes straight. they don’t pull away‚ they don’t look at your face‚ and they don’t try to kiss you.’#and of course touching hands only within the boundaries of a séance. though there are a few tantalizing moments almost on the bannister!
10 notes
·
View notes
Text
𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖆𝖗𝖊 𝖑𝖔𝖛𝖊𝖑𝖞 𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖓 𝖎𝖓 𝖞𝖔𝖚𝖗 𝖒𝖆𝖉𝖓𝖊𝖘𝖘 — THE ANGUISH OF ATALANTEA AND THE SACRIFICE OF SAERA. THE CAUTIONARY TALES OF HOUSE ANDORAL. [ TEMPLATE BY @unholymilf ♡]
#oc: atalantea andoral#oc: saera surik#kotor oc#kotor ii oc#star wars oc#leg.edit#an intro edit for the dearie girls as they have the braincell at the moment <3#atalanteas own ancestor was the only member of the house to break off from tradition as to become a sith and became a jedi#(theyre is another branch that remained sith and the scions of the sith and jedi branches are all clowns i plan for s*wtor <3)#and saera was a ward of the house and was a sister to atalantea once! deserved better the girlies did!#THATS MY REVAN AND MY JEDI EXILE AHH#revan!atalantea is canon in star wars TO ME#the colors turned out so cute and very pleased how well the song choices fit for the dearie girls <3#the tower fits her and the story for her so well i am on the floor ATALANTEA DEAR!!!!!#i love a messy space family ♡ !!!!!!!!!!!!!#AND OFC ASH DEARIE YOU DEAR YOU TY TY AGAIN FOR CREATING THIS TEMPLATE its the cutest!!!!!!#atalantea lost her mind and saera died and for what and for that they’ve been a cautionary tale ever since 🥀✨😭#but they raised a hand against the sith emperor and came close to zeroing him so i love them with all of my heart#because atalantea declaring war on him after saera died in order to avenge her sister like they’re so dear to me u know? like already?
52 notes
·
View notes
Note
Are you sure you haven't contracted sepsis dude?? Your posts really sound like it's worth getting checked out /gen
im gonna give it a couple days & see,,, going to the doctor has to be my absolute last choice o(-< i have no way of getting there except through my mom and she isnt aware of my sh and it. wouldnt go well if she were
#ive been monitoring it closely for other symptoms n so far im ok do not fret o7#but#shes gotten very mad at me before just asking if i did because i always wear long sleeves (which is just because im ugly i never had then)#on my arms anyway#shes not the type of person who accepts that kinda stuff w . any kind of caring and i am Afraid. i am so very afraid#im completely isolated here i have to keep the relationship as calm as i can#shes my only source of anything i could lose everything#and her relationship w my sister has only gotten worse since she started being open w her mental struggles they fight verbally & physically#literally everyday#she shit talks her constantly#n belittles her 2 the point of breakdowns#literally only because of it#it just. would not be good#i have to try everything else first#asks
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
hate when ppl talk about touko from bloom into you like she was pressuring yuu into having feelings for her when she was literally doing the opposite? she wanted yuu to NOT have feelings for her lmao
#touko is no saint but i swear some ppl read yagakimi with their eyes closed lol#i am a little too passionate about yagakimi cause it's very important to me#like yes their dynamic is not healthy at first but the whole story is about it becoming healthy#yuu stands her ground and is like actually no touko you can't go on pretending to be your dead sister and having me as stress relief#"learn to love yourself bitch#and touko is like shocked pikachu face and then does as she's told#and in turn yuu is like wait a second why do i even care i'm not in love with her because i haven't felt this grand world shattering feeling#and she's like hold up... just because my love doesn't manifest that way doesn't mean it's not love...#actually now that i think about it i've been choosing touko time and time again from the start#love is not only about circumstance but about making that choice to be with the person you love again and again#anyway i think that yagakimi is very neat#and i think some people see it through a way more malicious lense than it was intended to be#which is fine too like interpret it however you want#i understand this view especially if you went into via someone recommending it as completely wholesome girls falling in love story#but it does bug me a little#also i like having wlw romance that is not completely saccharine#bloom into you#yagakimi#my post
50 notes
·
View notes
Text
man i wish i could draw comics i had such a good idea for a rly good character backstory one for Moss
#pidge babbles#oc: moss#ive finally given him a pre-lobotomy name!!!#it was maw :)#it's between him and orin who i think had a very contentious relationship bc i think they did have a pretty intense rivalry#but were also very much uuuuh trauma-bonded bc who else could understand them???#maw absolutely saw her as his sister and the only one who was even remotely close to him in terms of power#but he was also very cold and calculating and uuuuuh brutally honest bc he saw no point in mincing words#he was more into mincing flesh#but he and orin absolutely butted heads over methods and abilities#and maw always saw himself as Intrinsically Superior#not because he was Daddy's Favorite but because he was made to be the perfect Bhaalspawn#he didn't *think* he was better than Orin#he simply *was*#to him there was no arrogance in that statement#ANYWAY my friend gave me his old surface pro so i could try to get back into digital art#and i finally got a charger for it#and i dont think it is salvageable unfortunately#he's gonna fuck with it and see if he can get it to work#but if he can't oh well#i got it for free#im bummed but like not mad about it u kno#i have been looking into a refurbished one#and idk maybe i can save up and see if i can drop a couple hundred on one i know for sure will work#it'll also be nice to have a comparatively light and portable laptop#my old laptop is a gaming laptop and as such is Really Fucking Hefty lmao#huge pita to carry around#its also 10 years old and slow as balls#ANYWAY here is my ramble i am slowly trying to get back into being creative again but idk#shit's been whack for the last few months
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
i need to expel the silly guys in my brain . but i forgot how to draw and writing is hard... much to think about
#vwoop.noises#I am thinking about cool war again. there is no tangible reason for this#Tge only rita summers stan in the whole world.. I think somethint could be done interesting abt her#I'm not sure whether shes bad bc of misogyny or bc none of the side characters were good#I hesitate to be mean bc Just a guy wrote that. Got no compensation for this. Etc etc. It's like conceptually advanced fanfic is my way of -#understanding this space#This being said.#It is very edgy for the sake of kt#And I want to play with your stock characters#Anyways Rita. Why is a child hanging out with the magic terrorists#They give off college dropout vibes but i think shes a little younger than like normal Knew them in highschool vibe. Hmm. Maybe#But regardless. She has to do highschooler chores . She has homework..#its just silly to me. Esp. bc shes just a goth little teenager#I think she's edgy on her own. Not even because the whole thing is edgy. She doesn't get toned down in my mind she believes she's#playing + winning 4D chess#In my beautiful mind palace she wasb rlly good friends w/ jessie b4 Average Tragic Backstory and is kind of like. sus abt the whole thing#very Yesterday was a terrible tragedy. You have classes today#As well as like. She's a bit younger and can cope a bit worse with everything. I think. As is her right as a goth teenager#she's just like. Angry.#Which is yknow. Why magic terrorism#but also w/ like jessie a) Her sibling is coping worse* and then b) Nobody says anything ever so as to not upset joey#*I have rewritten this whole thing in my mind Heart . He mitosis'd and then unmitosis'd as timeline course corrections and this is#quite difficult on a person.#but in the downtime.. shes just a bit silly....#magic terrorists and their princess of darkness (Also a magic terrorist)#I've also decided shes close w og just because I say so . They look similar and people r like Oh how sweet You are looking after yr little#sister. And she wants to do murder.#they both have dark hair; she dyes hers to look gother. and similar faces I Guess < The faceblinder but I'll decide when I draw them
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
(Superboy #75 / Impulse #78)
Need to convey that a character is depressed and questioning his superhero identity? Lifeless gray shirt, pale blue jeans, nondescript shoes. As far a cry from primary-colored supersuits as you can get.
#comicsposting again#KE: all I got is who I am#BA: fastest attitude alive#I noticed this while reading [number] 78 to my sister today#not identical outfits but very close
15 notes
·
View notes
Text
Mmm car ride today, sounds like a chance to get some rough writing done
Think I shall write something self indulgent for the holidays, and once fam has left I will finish Midnight Alley finally <3
If you're wondering why I haven't been writing at night as usual, I've been waking up earlier so going to sleep earlier, and my fam is from another timezone that's behind us (and works a 5 am job so is attuned to early sleep) and is sleeping in the living room, and my computer is in the loft next to the living room and my typing is very fast and VERY. VERY. LOUD. my siblings hate when I type lol
#personal#my sister has very pointedly closed her bedroom door bc of my typing#and when playing phas i turned push to talk on not so the ghost wouldnt hear me talk to myself#but because when i paused to answer messages the typing would make my sister mad lmao#i wear noise cancelling headphones so i dont even notice rip#also it is 5:30 am i am not meant to survive this early
27 notes
·
View notes
Text
isekai is such a popular genre right now, and its taken a clear shift from 'i got isekai'd and now im a fantasy hero!' to 'i got isekai'd and now i get to live a quiet and happy life in the countryside/as a librarian/pharmacist' and obviously a lot of it is just......someone wrote this to kill time and draw boobies, but Parallel World Pharmacy was so good???? i cried so many times, and i love the shift in tone the genre has gained with stuff like that
#Maybe because i wish for the same thing but only if my dog and two best friends can come too#but that one and grace of the gods is just devastatingly gentle#its not a power fantasy its just im tired and hurt anf i want to thrive instead of survive because our society doesnt make me happy#but someone or soemthing takes mercy and kindness on them#but that one was especially profound with regards to his sister while maintaining the control of 'end this disease with a physical punch'#and we lack that kind of control we want that kind of control over literally anything in this life#also it was so pretty#not unique but still very soft visually speaking and funny but not taking away from the content#and again the characters are kind#dont get me wrong id totally like reincarnated as a slime too but thats mostly for the non gendered shapeshifting#also dragons and i wanna befriend the orcs and wolves#but id probably end up a goblin in that one....#anyway isekai when done well is so healing even when it has almost no plot#i love intense anime but god some of the gentle and beautiful ones are all i ever need#and i crave fantasy so much i adore magic and creatures and demons so much and the softness of some of these plots#but idk that one grabbed me by the throat and slammed me into the bricks#i didnt actually like ascendance of a bookworm all that much i kond of found parts of it annoying and i didnt love the artstyle#but i did absolutely love the fact she was disabled whether they called it disability illness or magic#she was for all intents and purposes disabled in the same way i am and it was heartening to see how much love they had for her#and how good her family was ngl i cried about her father and i wish mine came even a little close to that but thats a DIFFERENT topic#dont ask me about yakuzas guide to babysitting#i dont like the realizations that one gave me#but the more that come out in this genre the better it is and the more representation will drop into it hopefully in all directions#for gender and sexuality as well as disabilities#because this subgenre is so well equipped for disabilities especially because its soft and slow and so full of love#ranking of kings isn't isekai but i think it could open door for fantasy in general too because its a light genre even when its serious#its just ...pure and light and ready to welcome hardships without trauma#the characters are always kind and the setting is new and magic affords accommodations other genres dont#magical mobility aids that dont erase the disability will always be infinitely more interesting to me than heavy machinery that#that you have to strap into but that also means finding other accommodations too like having bojji read lips instead of getting an implant
20 notes
·
View notes
Text
wanted to draw a couple Larro interactions because shes been on the brain the last couple days. some context under the cut-
image 1 is Larro and Wilos. Larro has a habit of overworking herself till she drops, especially in a crisis. I imagine the context behind this here is the ship's got a lot of power down, and its gotten really cold, and shes been working herself to the bone trying to fix everything and keep what few systems they do have online. cue Wilos coming to find her, and insisting she take at least a 5 minute break and get in the bloody blanket because she's going to freeze her fingers off, damnit. Larro gives in, and within seconds of being in a warm cozy blanket, shes asleep on Wilos' shoulder
it still takes a good long while for Wilos to realize he has feelings for Larro. to be fair to him, he is literally the first Vorta to ever develop a crush, so its not like he has any context for why she makes him blush like a schoolgirl
image 2 is Larro getting her hair cut, something she has Ruven do for her. she cuts her hair after the traumatic s3 finale. in battle, her and Wilos were both nearly killed, and she blamed herself for Wilos' injuries because he was hurt trying to protect her. it happened because she was grabbed by her long hair, so she decided to cut it off so it would never happen again. Ruven was more than happy to do it for her
Larro had been keeping her hair long and very similar to her older sister's for a long time. this is her first time seeing herself with a new hairstyle in a long, long while. she likes it a lot. its not a very traditional Vulcan hairstyle, but shes never been the most traditional Vulcan, so its very her, in a lot of ways. she likes it a lot
#queens originals#my art#star trek oc#uss athena#larro#wilos#ruven vahl#Larro and Wilos are best friends and he is about the only person who can convince her to get some goddamn rest#and Larro and Ruven are also pretty close#he cares a lot about her#Ruven is like the unofficial barber of the ship cause he's great with haircuts#he's the first person Larro goes to and its a very sweet scene between them#I didnt draw it but there's a scene after that one of Larro going to T'Strei (her older sister)#and showing her her new hair#and T'Strei compliments her on it and says it suits her very well#I need to draw Larro and T'Strei interactions#but alas I am far too tired to do so atm
2 notes
·
View notes