#i am very sensitive to caffeine 😭

[sleepyjim]

wait a minute i Did not take into account that this could actually genuinely kill me real in real life. Oh No

[bonesandthebees]

In hindsight... I think the headache from coffee is actually from the smell, bc while I have a shit sense of smell, I am also very sensitive to it! And any intense smells (candles for example, I love them sm but they hurt my head a lot :(( ) tend to give me headaches...

Still sensitive to the caffiene tho, hand shaking wise (it also like triggers my anxiety big rip FJGKFK, it gives off the same symptoms of it so my brain goes haywire)

I've never had an energy drink and I don't think I ever will FHGJGK

aww that sucks that you can't enjoy candles they smell so nice :(( I get the headache thing though. my mom loves the smell of burning sage while it gives me a horrible headache

caffeine used to trigger my anxiety really badly. when I was in high school it interacted super badly with my medication so I'd be insanely anxious all day if I had coffee in the morning, but I liked the taste so much I made the decision to just stop taking the medication instead 😭 (there were also other reasons I decided to stop taking it but yeah the coffee thing was definitely part of it)

i've only had an energy drink once. when I was in my senior year of high school the boy I sat next to in first period calc was this really chill guy and sometimes I brought him hashbrowns if I got mcdonalds drive thru for breakfast that morning, so one day he walked in with a rockstar energy drink for me and while I didn't drink energy drinks I wasn't gonna just say no to a gift. it was fine?? idk I didn't like it that much but it didn't make me terribly buzzy at least

when I was in college the alternative I would turn to when I got sick of coffee was yerba mate (a type of tea that has just as much if not more caffeine than some types of coffee). everyone at my school was obsessed with those things so if I ever needed a really intense caffeine boost (mainly during finals week) I'd down one and be buzzing so much

[starsaver94]

Hey! Can I have a matchup for Hetalia (and maybe BNHA too)? I’m a cishet woman (although I’m beginning to explore the possibility I’m asexual heteromantic). I’m also a premed/chemistry major with no time for an irl relationship 😭 I really need some escapism right now. I also work as a volunteer EMS on weekends. Outside of my school and work my hobbies are singing/acting (I’m taking classical voice training, but I prefer performing musical theatre and jazz), skiing (the only sport I’m any good at) and TTRPGs.

I’m also a big nerd about history, American comics, and folklore. I’ll rant for hours about my special interests if nobody stops me. I’d generally describe myself as ambiverted. I’m socially awkward, but also very loud and expressive. Its partially due to autism, but I’m a bit oblivious, I’ll admit lol. My MBTI is ESTJ. I don’t put much stock into MBTI but I do agree I’m a very Type A person. When it comes to the things I’m good at, I’m a major perfectionist, but I’m proud of how hard I work. I think my greatest weakness is probably thoughtlessness/impatience, but my greatest strength is humility.

Some miscellaneous stuff: I love dogs but am a cat person for sure. I have terrible insomnia, not helped by my caffeine sensitivity. Like, a cup of green tea after 4 and I literally won’t sleep at night. I’m a morning person, I usually get up by 7 because of class (if work doesn’t keep me up all night anyway). 

The most notable thing about me looks-wise, I’m 5’0 and like, 95 lbs soaking wet. Travel sized, if you will. I’ve also got curly brown hair which looks absolutely stunning immediately after I wash it and is a pain in the ass at all other times. My aesthetic style is sort of casual vintage, I love the style of the 40s-60s.

In terms of the type of people I’m attracted to, physically I lean towards masculine presenting individuals but that’s not a hard and fast rule. Personality wise, I love a knight in shining armor or prince charming sort of guy. My friends like to joke I’m himbosexual, and they’re not *wrong*, but I definitely find the “pure of heart” part more important than “thicc of thighs and dumb of ass”. Somebody who’ll sweep me away from danger and bridal carry me off into the sunset and then listen to a 30 minute recount of Walt Simonson’s run on Thor. I also want a guy who has something super passionate about too! Infodumping is my love language (and acts of service). I’m also a sucker for reformed villains, like nothing is sexier than character development and genuine personal growth. I'd also appreciate a guy who's more forthright because I'm too shy to confess first.

Hope this wasn’t too long! :) 

I pair you with...

Spain!

This man is absolutely enamored by you and your ability to listen to him talk about his culture.

He'll tell you about every landmark or building that you walk past during romantic walks.

This also means teaching you about his cultural cuisine as he cooks for you.

He'll often play his Spanish guitar and will smile when he hears you singing along to it.

[ghosts-and-blue-sweaters]

Just spedran an assignment and finished with like 10 mins to spare (I had a week to do this and started today help dhfkfk)

I am so very Eepy but also low-key hyper bc I drank pop for the first time in MONTHS and I'm very sensitive to it lmaodjfjgk

Hopefully I'll be able to sleep tonight thooo I am planning on thinking about crimeboys as I sleps but first gotta brush my teeth dududu

STOP why is that so relatable 😭 I literally had months to work on a paper and I only started working on it… one week. Before it was due.

AIDSAJSGAJGSJAGS BUT I GOT 100% ON IT SOMEHOW!!! PRAYING THAT THE SAME HAPPENS TO YOU!!!

Once again, very relatable XD Honestly, caffeine/sugar doesn’t make me hyper or anything (I’ve had coffee before bed and fallen asleep just fine lol) but I just… struggle to sleep… in general. If I don’t take melatonin, I will be up until 3 or 4am >:/

(But soft acoustic music definitely helps like La Jolla by Wilbur Soot I’ve literally fallen asleep to that song before)

I hope you had a good sleep :D

YEAHHHH BRUSH YOUR TEETH, KING!!! DO THAT!!!

OH MY GOSH CRIME BOYS!!! OH MY GOSH!!! YES!!! Dude I came across a gif today of them doing a little handshake together and it made me very happ :D

I’ve been thinking about the Inconsolable Differences stream lately… I think I’ll watch it soon :) I’ve already seen it like three times alsvajsgajgsja

[nippleplayer0]

greetings and salutations, hope I don’t bother you too much by sending in such a random ask. may I please have a romantic matchup for bsd?

I use they/them pronouns and I’m pansexual. my myers briggs type is INFJ and my star sign is taurus.

Im about 4’11..not to happy about it. I’m kind of introverted, and can be considered not a people person. I find life a little nihilistic. I’m into dressing in all black and taking a liking to gruesome and morbid things like slashers, analog horror, witchcraft, true crime, necromancy, anatomy, etc. I typically consider myself a "gorehound" ig. I participate in "Vulture Culture"; and I also like to visit abandoned places just for fun, along with playing quite a few escape rooms. I just have a genuine comfort in the uncomfortable.

I’ve come to the conclusion I just scare people off. In reality, I’m intimidated by everyone around me and find it hard to start taking, which may or may not come off as rude to people.

when I become comfortable with someone I start to become really sarcastic and joke around with them with witty banter. most of my humor comes off really insulting, and I’m brutally honest, but I’ll apologize and say it’s a joke or I didn’t mean it if it becomes a problem. even though I do have a hard time understanding physical social cues.

lots of people don’t like me or stay away from me because of my rude behavior. I’m not good with overly sensitive or overly annoying people at all because of that, and I can’t stand kids. Idiocy can get on my nerves too sometimes. I’m a huge animal person though. I have my moments where I can get really feisty, or very quiet and closed off. I’ve been told I’m also a laidback person. I’ve also been told I never know when to quit, and I find I hold grudges for certain things. It’s not as common now but I used to get called a vampire by other kids when I was younger since I had oddly pointy canine teeth. I find it funny, seeing how I am today.

I’m the type of person that has lots of opinions on things but I keep them to myself and bottle them up. If pushed far enough I’ll become unforgiving, and aggressive. especially with the types mentioned above.

I find the most comfort in just being in my room drawing, listening to music ( pierce the veil, deftones, system of a down, slipknot, rob zombie,,, sometimes radiohead, insane clown posse, jazmin bean or mother mother, etc. ), or even occasionally playing video games, reading, writing, or talking about a random conspiracy theory I have. I do acting in my spare time as a small hobby too, and I’m learning how to play electric guitar. I also work as a scare actor.

I’m a plushie maniac and when I fall asleep you can always see me cuddled up to one of them. I find it because I’m really touch starved. I also have this specific blanket I can literally not sleep without. Im also a caffeine addict, and I’m guilty of being very submissive and maybe even masochistic- and a bit of a pyromaniac. I dissociate or daydream a lot, so you can often catch me starring.

I suffer from a handful off mental and physical syndromes like asd, insomnia, asthma, depression and anxiety. These have all been diagnosed professionally, and I’m definitely not trying to make myself "quirky". unfortunately health problems run in my family.

I’m very fidgety, and often bite the inside of my cheek or bounce my leg rapidly. you don’t need to rocmantasize this stuff ofc, but I think it’s good to know so the person can tolerate me.

you do get to this, thanks for your time. <3

I match u with me ?!!1!9128@49#9#.#.# qklqaz

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Jk I match u with..

TACHIHARA

He probably shit his pants when he first saw u

OKAY FR THO 😭😭

You scared him but like. He liked that. 🤨🤨

Everyone thought he had a death wish, you're a well feared member in the crime scene, taking a liking to the risk and horror it all brought

And he's walking up to u like "heyy 😋😋"

Things might seem stiff, but I can totally see you two accidentally finding each other while hanging around abandoned places 🧍🧍

He realizes soon that it's not that you're mean or scary, but you're also timid and just aren't sure how to talk to others

He's patient with you, and though he's a little 😨 to some of the things you like, he likes them as well because it's what you like

Ik he listens to Korn and ICP prove me wrong I dare you

I CAN SO SEE HIM PLAYING GUITAR

He likes helping you learn, !!

He's always there for you no matter what, how could he be in love if he wasn't willing to love all parts of you ? He knows it isn't easy, and he wishes it didn't have to be that way, but the next best thing he can do is love you regardless, and help you if you're ever in any distress.

[thistle-and-thorn]

uncanny that this is on my desk as I read your answer to my ask & I am halfway through re-reading it after putting it away for a year!!

I think it’s a book that requires that bit of space, tbh; you need to get away from the sound and fury and the grinding relentless onward march of trauma and chaos and the little bits of kindness and light and apathy tangled amidst the bloody, blue-black, hopelessly tumbling shades of it—you need to get away from that, & look at it again through a slightly less-frantic lens and when you do it unfolds itself in a way that halts those lazy comparisons to Miller’s Circe, or the squabbles about the jarring effect of Barker’s use of 21st century slang/speech etc. etc.—& god it is a staggering book, esp the first half. pls make me stop rambling now sorry. ✨ x

AHHHHH WHAT A COINCIDENCE. Never stop rambling around here pls. This is definitely a book that I am reading to re-read?!? I can tell there’s so much that I’m missing.

I think reading this as anything other than a pointed response to Madeline Miller will leave you fundamentally disappointed in this book. I think Barker is taking, honestly, a more traditional approach in this novel by treating the Trojan War as an Every War. It’s a classical redux of her Regeneration series basically. And like—that works for me? The Trojan War IS a pointless war—a conflict controlled by gods, based on a pretty shaky and ever-changing premise, a military exercise run into the ground by Agamemnon that destroys an entire generation of men including the best of their respective societies in Achilles and Hector. The genius of men like Odysseus is wasted away solving conflicts he tried to prevent. Like how is that different from WWI? Or Vietnam? Or the invasion of Iraq? Decisions pushed by a military industrial complex no average person can understand, invasions based on false premises, entire generations lost, and extended occupations with no firm end dates, chaotic exits that leaves a trail of humanitarian crises in its wake. I’ve had a hard time with this partially because I volunteer in refugee resettlement and the experiences that I’m learning about from these new neighbors are eerily and graphically similar to what is described in the book. That’s the reason behind the modern language and slang—it’s a story that’s happening right now. Troy, Saigon, Kabul, and Kyiv are all the same place, actually.

And then there’s the women: the women who are abandoned like Penelope, who are abducted and abused like Cassandra and Briseus, who dehumanized/blamed/ deified like Helen. I read comments that said how frustrating it was that the women had no agency—and it’s like yeah, I imagine it is frustrating to have no agency. that’s the fucking point. It’s called The SILENCE of the Girls. It’s the title (😭😭😭), the LITERAL title. *screeches* the TITLE, the NAME. if this was on a03 it would be tagged “what it says on the tin.” The former preschool teacher in me is DYING. Like, that’s so BASIC. The Very Hungry Caterpillar is about…guess what? A CATERPILLAR THAT LIKES TO EAT. This is about..guess what? Women who are VOICELESS. I just. Anyway.

And when you think of it like this—some of the response demanding that the women have more agency or that it pass the Bechdel test (?) feel artificial and reductive and dismissive of the way that these women survive and keep their dignity in the face of physical, existential, and celestial horror.

I liked Circe a lot actually (I read song of Achilles in, like, high school so I don’t remember lol) but, I think, as a complete non-expert, TSOTG is actually in a way…truer and more sensitive to the traditions of the narrative role that women often inhabit in classical literature? As the memory keepers? The mourners? Like I’m not thinking of TSOA, I’m thinking of this as a prequel to Euripides’ Trojan Women.

Anyway, i should cut off MY rambling. I’ve had like so much caffeine this morning can u tell.

[stupidcanofpeaches]

For the fanfic ask game! ^_^ 😭🏅☀️💕

hi, hello, here i am! 😭 Have you ever made yourself cry writing a fic? well. not exactly cry but i did get a bit teary-eyed while writing spoiled. i happened to have already read the comics before i watched the show so this new interpretation of five as this desperate, intensely family-oriented, traumatized man who's running on caffeine and anger just basically hit me in the teeth. i love comic five too cause he's just straight-up unhinged and it's a wonderful thing (I am a gazelle and the jungle is my home, anyone? that was brilliant) but show five is just. whoa. a whole new brand of tragic. so. yeah. thinking about all that background info and the implications of what life in the apocalypse must have been like for him really got to me. 🏅 What is the fic you’re most proud of? probably spoiled and cages? hard to say which one i like the most. i'm proud of spoiled because it's my first completed multi-chapter fic in general and the first one that got such a high (for me haha) views and kudos count. and cages is my fav bc it was at first one of my smallest pieces that i wrote sleep-deprived at six am in my phone notes and it became so inexplicably popular i still can't believe that 300+ different people liked it. like yeah that's far from some of the fandoms greatest hits but for me it feels so huge. then i added the second chapter, also written sleep-deprived. both times the writing process was so dang smooth and easy, i wish it was like that every time haha.

☀️ Has anyone ever left you a comment that made your day? What did it say? oh absolutely. honestly pretty much any comment is enough to get my heart pumpin' but i particularly enjoy those super long, ranting, wall-of-text comments. you know the type. the very very best one was left on one of my darker fics which i absolutely did not expect since it was and still is completely and fully in the dead dove territory. and i do mean full on nsfw dead dove haha. they were just so sweet and positive about it all despite the subject matter: in particular they praised my detailed writing style (which i still think is unnecessarily detailed at times but im a blabber mouth both in and out of fanfiction), the pacing and characterization. i especially loved the line about how reading it felt like "sinking into something darker until it suddenly swallows you whole at once". it's just such a way to describe the thing, and i just went back and re-read that comment time and time again for weeks after.

💕 What is the WIP that you are most excited about? probably the sequel to the aforementioned dead dove fic? it's really dark, involves a lot of violence and some extremely sensitive subject matter but i still really like it somehow? i had it in my drafts for literal months by now, had to reupload it to ao3 drafts time after time (thanks automatic deletion system) and it's already bigger than the first part and the thing just. keeps going. it's not my most popular fic, far from it, but it is the most popular in terms of comments asking for a continuation. i can't wait to see the response when i finally wrap up this monstrosity and post it haha. thank you for asking!! i'm actually like super excited lol cause it's my first tumblr ask ever