#i cant cry right now

[vanillamatchadove]

calm down calm down calm down calm down calm down calm down calm down calm down calm down calm down. calm your heart beat calm your heart beat. breathe breathe breathe breathe breathe. god can someone just hug me and tell me i'll be okay? god help me im so so close to hurting everything around me hahah.

[southernreaches]

i need help with vet bills (again).

hi. for those of you who remember, earlier this year i asked for donations to help me afford toos' vet bills, who we found out through your help had kidney failure, and again with your help we got her on medication for it. unfortunately it wasn't enough, and we lost her. and then shortly after, dexter began deteriorating, which we put down to his grief of losing toos - she kept him young, he followed her everywhere, he only played because of her, he only ate when she ate, etc. without her he just stopped. and then he started to have seizures and fits daily. we got him blood tests, but he was suffering so badly. we made the decision to put him down. i didn't ask for donations this time, because i was so deeply embarrassed to ask for help again. but we are still recovering financially from that, as well as the parts of toos bills that didn't get covered from donations. my mother hasn't worked for a very long time, she's disabled and very sick, and she receives PIP from the government that only covers her monthly medications that are not covered by the NHS. my father retired early to become her full time carer, and we are living off his pension. i am too disabled to work, but because my mother already receives PIP and i live with them, the government are resistent to giving me any help - so i have zero income, and rely entirely on my parents.

this is jenny. she's a 14 year old cairn terrier, who loves when we garden because she wants to help dig holes. she helped us bury dexter and toos, digging their graves for them with my dads help. she's an angel, and loves people so much she likes to escape under the fence and join other families for awhile. one time she got into someones back garden and asked to come in as they were eating lunch. she really hates flies, and will try to bite them out of the air (she has never succeeded but i believe she will one day). she will rub her face against you until you start stroking her, and will growl and even bark if you stop! we don't have the money to take jenny to the vets, for a checkup or for anything they may want to do. this has been an ongoing issue, but toos and dexter took priority, and it hasn't been a bother to her. she existed as normal for a long time, but that's since changed.

jenny has this lump in her mouth, it is larger than the picture shows, but she is a nightmare to force open her mouth since this got so big, i think it's uncomfortable or painful for her. she can't properly close her lips now, and it has pushed all her front teeth away, misshaping her mouth, and sometimes it bleeds profusely. eating has become difficult for her, she can't eat anything hard, and currently will only eat soft human foods like rice, scrambled egg chopped up so small she doesn't have to chew, and things like soups and gravy. she's lost a lot of weight, and i'm getting frightened. to add onto it, i've found lumps like this across her body. i've done as much research as i can, and i believe it to be an oral tumor, it fits, and it looks right, and it spreading across her body is called 'full staging'. and going by all i've read - they will want to remove them in surgery. according to my research, this will cost anywhere from £585 - £4,740 for just the lump in her mouth. that's not including any checkup/test costs, or the other lumps on her body.

she hasn't been to the vet yet, i don't have any secure goal or bills to share, just my assumptions and beliefs from researching myself online. my parents refuse to take her because we can't afford it. i want to save up money, have it in my bank, and show them that we can help her now, before it gets worse, or it's too late. as i said before, i don't have any income, so the only way i can do this is with help.

here's a link to my paypal.me

the icon is a little mouse, and the @ is rivellon

i struggled so badly posting the first post like this for toos. i felt so guilty and embarrassed and ashamed. but i have no choice again, i want to help jenny. i don't want her to suffer. and selfishly, i can't handle losing another dog so soon. this year has been waking nightmare, and i need your help to stop it getting even worse.

please reblog and share, even if you can't donate.

thank you for reading.

[spirits-having-flown]

rip matthew perry 💔🕊️

[reineydraws]

i have this fic series i'm still working on where mihawk sort of becomes rayleigh's kid and spends ages 11-17ish on the oro jackson.

shanks and buggy imprint on him (bugs considers him a sort of older brother figure/sparring inspiration and shanks has a crush that eventually turns into full-blown love) and this is how i imagine they're like on the day mihawk sets off on his own haha.

[kristalijah]

HE'S CHECKING OUT GARY!!!! I REPEAT, HE'S CHECKING OUT GARY!!!!

[baeshijima]

[CAR CRASH] [GLASS SHATTERING] ‘GOOD LORD!’ [GENERAL COMMOTION] [BABY CRYING] ‘WAAAAH WAAAAH’ [YELLING] [POLICE SIRENS] WEEWOO WEEWOO [HELICOPTERS] ‘WE’RE REPORTING LIVE-‘ [EXPLOSION] ‘MY LEG... MY LEG...’

[just-null]

the way you drew kokichi .. i think im ascending to the heavens .. i see the light .. chest collapsing .. heartbeat flatlining ..

oho, a Kokichi enjoyer!! tysm!! it was my first time drawing him at the time so im glad i didnt fail him. i dont want to fail any of the kyoto group. i love them all!! even w my clear favoritism

he's nice too, a bit more expressive than Noritoshi so i can finally draw something that isnt :| or >:( even if it isnt by much- i like him too

I like how he's both a dick but also kinda sweet. He's a different flavor of tsun... i can use this. my knowledge on him is limited but FROM WHAT I SAW IN THE WIKI OH MY GOD???????? OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!! KOKICHI!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[avocado62524]

[ginkashino]

my mother made a bank account in my name without telling me and now im in the red. I cant afford my next psych consult and im running low on my meds. I desperately want to get out of this house. im so tired.

If anyone has disposable income i do commisions, $45 for a linearty sketch, just so i can get myself out of this hole, at least debt wise.

it would be something like this

heres my kofi as well. genuinely desperate, if you want a more detailed comission by all means DM me and we can discuss prices!

thank you so much

[stage1midboss-art]

feelin a bit sad

[river-of-wine]

The way Hosea talks about Bessie is genuinely one of the sweetest things ever I just. How fondly he still reminisces about her, how dearly he holds her memory. From areas that remind him of her to little things like playing dominoes with Arthur, she’s always on his mind. The last thing he thinks about when he goes to sleep and the first thing he things about when he wakes up. “How a wretched sinner like me could be given someone so perfect, so beautiful to take care of for once in my wretched life, do my best”. God he loved her. He loves her. He cannot rationalise her death, he cannot see any fairness in how she has died and he is still alive. He left the gang for her and it didn’t last but he did leave, he tried to live a normal life for her, and she understood when he drifted back into things. Even with his approaching death, he’s worried that he won’t get to see her again, that she’s gone to heaven and he won’t end up there with her, and even still he says he’s ready for his own death. He loved her and he still loves her and he loves her until his death does find him. Every time he talks about her you can just feel all of that love he still has for her and it makes me so emotional. Old man loves his wife

[kris-py-president]

You're telling me. You're telling me. That David Lister. DAVE LISTER. stopped Rimmer from committing suicide. (Because that's LITERALLY WHAT THAT WAS. HE WAS GONNA UNPLUG HIMSELF and DIE.) he stopped him from committing suicide by. Comparing him to moonlight. Fucking MOONLIGHT. what the fuck what the fuck‽‽‽‽‽‽ AND IT WORKED‽‽‽‽‽

[luck-of-the-drawings]

[<==PREV PAGES] [NEXT PAGE==>(not out yet.wait a year.or maybe more.imagine.]

saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.

[candy69gurl]

I'm sorry to break this to my mooties and followers,

but Tumblr is killing my academic career, and I must stop using it. I can't even waste another minute right now. This year is very crucial to me. I thought I could manage studying and using Tumblr at the same time, but I already wasted my last year and I have to put extra effort this year to pass the exam in 2025 or I would never be able to fulfil my lifelong dream of being a doctor. Even though it's already too late and I might not succeed, I still have to try.

MAY OR MAY NOT POST. Will not monitor any activity or anything; I can just post whenever I feel like it.

Thus, don't expect a response from me to any messages, comments, or inbox. I apologise to you all, but I had to. If I pass the exam, I swear I'll be back in 2025; if not, I'll be back in 2026. However, I'll be back. I hope no one uploads any of my writing till then.

I had a long wiplist, but I won't have time to do it this year. Please wait till I return. If somebody posts any of my wiplist, my bad.

[szaryherbatnik]

Episode 46 spoilers

I mean god fucking dammit. Its past 5am i stayed up to watch 45 and 46. I cant imagine how it must have felt watching this shit live.

I dont even know what to fucking say. Gricko hearing his daughter die. Him telling hootsie to run away only to hear her die like a minute later.

Kremy having like a second or two to look at gideons corpse before he gets attacked. Kremy with this strong motivation of having a good afterlife, just dying while looking at the corpse of the most important person in his life.

Torbek crying and trying to do anything jesus christ. AND FROST. The way derek was describing how panicked frost was was so uuhggGhEAGGHHHHH it broke my heart i cant fucking do this anymore??? When he tried to shield all of them, when he begged to get spared while trying to protect kremy and gideon, WHEN HE THREW HIS BACKPACK. Im sure that frost, like gideon and kremy, doesnt have anyone outside of this group. That was IT for him he looked at all of this and decided its worthless to even try to stay alive god fucking dammit.

Idk i mean someone is gonna save them. Idk who or what but theres more episodes. But that doesnt change the fact they all watched each other die in the span of about 2 minutes. Im just not fucking okay. Remember when they did a drag show? That was fun.

[thelittlestaxolotl]

I’m making a plush of second whaat do you think?

That’s the horn ig

KDIDIDIRIRIEOROFKDKLWPWLS

THIS. THIS IS SO COOL...

MY CHILD IS CORPOREAL EVERYONE