#i cant draw her like this so have a video edit of it instead

[cycle-hit]

happy kotoko guilty day to those who celebrate

[karamell-sweetz]

welcome to my blog!

time to remake my info post :D | last updated 16 september 2024

BASICS

my name is karamell! its a pleasure to meet ya :D

i go by she/her and am cis female :3 not too fussed abt pronouns tho!

at present i am 17, my birthday is the 16th of june. i’m australian + filipino, so sorry if i post something at an ungodly hour for your timezone lmao

this blog will be for my fandom reblogs, art and countless ramblings! i have a separate account dedicated to undertale multiverse content -> @karamellz-multiverse-l0g (i don’t post there a lot because undertale is on the backburner for now!) i’m currently aiming to get into an animation course for university, so all my art is working towards that :3

i am also self-appointed chairwoman of the rui kamishiro fanclub! not that that’s too important… but i like saying it lol

BYF

i don’t tag my reblogs/queue usually so uhh good luck poring through that >< all of my original posts are tagged for convenience though, you can find my tags in the search bar :3

in relation to that i’m VERY multifandom so srry if you get bombarded with stuff that doesn’t relate to you haha! but hopefully you’ll like the stuff i rb too, i’m a firm believer in the power of brainrot spreading and most of my fandoms are from the same niche anyway!

i dont have a dni because realistically i cant rlly control who sees my stuff, but if you or the stuff you post make me uncomfortable i’ll just block you. no hard feelings <3

FANDOMS + FAV LIST

project sekai - rui kamishiro, tsukasa tenma, wxs, n25, okay actually its everyone i love proseka soo much

vocaloid - miku, una + deco*27, n-buna, kikuo, pinocchio-p, inabakumori, picco, harumakigohan, maiki-p

d4dj - unichørd, hapiara, lyrilily

bandori - pasupa, morfonica, hhw, ras

enstars - trickstar, alkakurei

love live - rina tennoji, shioriko mifune, hanamaru kunikida, ruby kurosawa, you watanabe, ayumu uehara

fragaria memories - romarriche

milgram - amane, yuno, mahiru

undertale (utmv) - xtale, ink, murder time trio

danganronpa - shuichi saihara, kaede akamatsu, k1-b0

twisted wonderland - heartslabyul (deleted the game because UGH the grind)

denonbu - harajuku district

revue starlight - lalafin, karen, aruru (i love all of them tho)

cookie run kingdom - had a very minor fling with this one so you won’t see it a lot

genshin impact - also minor fling, have not played past liyue. solely here for the banger character designs

mcyt (idk if i’ll reblog anything from here but i know a little bit of the dsmp lore and am attempting to understand life series??)

other things you may see: lalaloopsy + other doll lines from that era, mlp, warrior cats, cute art i think is nice, lunime gacha games (i was very much a ‘gacha kid’ back in its prime), puyo puyo, writing stuff, THE COLOUR PINK, webcore, memes, cool crafts, yorushika, other teenage girl things idk

TAGS

karamell yells - ramblings and random stuff, may include headcanons and analysis

karamell doodles - my art! mostly fanart at the moment

karamell’s wips - works in progress (stuff i’ll never finish probably)

karamell’s pocket - posts i want to come back to

karamell gaming - random game screenshots

karamell rolls the gacha - my gacha pulls of varying luck

karamell’s mailbox - asks, submissions, tag games, all that fun stuff

karamell’s rq pile - drawing requests (which are always open btw, feel free to send some in if you’d like!)

karamell stop missing the blonde clown - thirsty? brainrot posts about tsukasa tenma because boy do i love him

karamell’s confections - various big projects (videos, edits, etc). all the cool stuff i make that isn’t normal art basically

karamell’s burning pile of ocs - see image below:

(utmv submissions for this will be posted on my sideblog)

UPDATE: the number is now 350 instead of 244!

when in doubt. rui scribble - various random scribbles of rui kamishiro because i like drawing him

karamell asks a question - mostly polls and stuff i need help with

say hi to my sideblog guys - self rbs from my utmv sideblog @/karamellz-multiverse-l0g. just for a little bump! :)

TAGS FOR MINI-SERIES

karamell’s project precure au - project sekai x precure (updates never)

wxs revue au - project sekai x revue starlight (updates randomly)

karamell’s birthday treat cafe - food-themed fandom birthday drawings (on break for a bit)

kamikou seniors trio - tsukasa ena rui posts because i want them to hang out

the mizuruiena agenda continues - mizuki rui ena hanging out

rui dress agenda - rui in dresses what did you expect

rui fanclub sekai - read my blog description. just silly things about a hypothetical rui fanclub

FIND ME!

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tiktok - karamell.sweetz

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art fight - karamellxsweetz

FRIEND ID (GLOBAL SERVERS ONLY)

bandori - 4636316 (karamellxshowtime!) (i might be out of friend space tho)

d4dj - ffzoJpPf (mirai.chørd)

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enstars - 7709727947 (karamelloid)

starira - 1324761851 (revue.sweetz)

that should be all. enjoy your stay on my silly little corner of the internet!! 🫶

[rxin3akamallory]

Rocket/Magril HCs because I’m obsessed with them!

(Doodle of Rocket n Magril based on one of @glow-autumz’s Rocket/Reader scenarios lmao)

So for those wondering why Magril’s right eye is all gray, it’s because it’s a camera lens. I cant draw for shit so I didn’t do a good job making that obvious lmao but anyways! She has a personal collection of videos and photos she’s captured of Rocket via her eye. She’s definitely threatened to show the other guardians more embarrassing photos of Rocket as a joke. Whenever Rocket’s out on a mission without Magril, she would look through some of the photos and videos of him whenever she feels anxious or lonely without him.

Rocket calls Magril “whiskers” to mess with her sometimes, and in turn, Magril would bring back the “Trash Panda” nickname and he immediately shuts up. (Edit: I left it saying trans panda on accident for a while instead of trash panda. Idk why that’s so funny to me help-)

Magril helped Rocket take care of Groot 2 during his baby and teen stages. She’s become Groot 2’s surrogate mother figure along with Gamora.

They both LOVE head scratches!

Magril is the autistic gf and Rocket is the AuDHD (autistic/adhd) bf!!

One of Magril’s stims is touching/petting soft things. She LOVES feeling Rocket’s fur. Even when they’re holding paws, she traces circles with her thumb on his paw to feel the fur. When Magril is overstimulated or experiencing anxiety, Rocket lets her bury her face in the fur on his neck. Magril just finds Rocket’s fur very comforting in general.

Magril HATES her laugh, but Rocket absolutely adores it. He would go out of his way sometimes just to make het laugh. It was during Vol. 2 where he first fell in love with it. When Yondu, Rocket, Baby Groot, and Magril are on the ravager ship, in a room full of security cameras, Yondu and Rocket start laughing as they’re taking out ravager after ravager. Magril starts laughing as well. Rocket hadn’t seen her have that much fun and look so happy in a long, long time.

In the films, Rocket and Magril become official during the climax of Vol. 2. Rocket is about to leave the ship to help Quill outside. Magril was injured when the ravagers captured her and Rocket, almost killing her, so she is told to stay inside with Yondu and Nebula. Magril wishes Rocket good luck and thanks him for saving her from being killed. Rocket replies with “In the likely event this whole bomb plan backfires, here.” He suddenly kisses Magril’s cheek. “That’s for keeping me in check.” Rocket was about to turn around only to be yanked back by Magril and pulled into a kiss. When they pull away, Magril says “You better hope your plan doesn’t backfire then.”

Rocket has a hard time sleeping alone because he got used to cuddling up to Floor every night. First, Groot 1 filled that hole, but then his sacrifice happened. Magril is now the one that fills that hole.

Magril is a Dolly Parton listener and Rocket is a Glen Campbell listener!!

Mfs got matching blankets fr!!

Rocket calls Magril “Doll”, “Dollface”, “Hun”, “Sweetheart”, and “Love.” Magril calls Rocket “Rock”, “Rocky”, “Rocketman”, and “Sweetheart” and “Love”

I gotta make more at some point!! They’re so silly like aaa! *giggles, squeals, kicks feet*

☆彡 @raccoonfallsharder

[nebulaleaf]

goodbye persona 5 royal. after 121 hours (140 on my switch profile) i got 69% of thieves den achievements, 99% in the compendium, and took 910 switch screenshots (third sem having a recording block really cucked me fr.) I think I did as much as i possibly could. despite my gripes this was my most fulfilling playthrough i've ever done of P5. i have a lot of bad things to say about royal but i really did have so much fun with it. getting excited over the new moves with the grappling hook (guessing where the cutscene would be and having fun being technical with chains de hook), making more strategic personas with fusion alarms, using all that extra time p5r gives as efficiently as possible. I loved maruki's confidant even if it ended in a kind of mediocre palace. he's just a fun guy who's so naturally inserted into the story it feels like he Should've always been there (except for the end). though its a shame because of how his confidant is structured in terms of topics, you cant easily insert it into p5 (its basically just a huge foreshadowing/ general set-up for the themes of 3rd sem). akechi's though... akechi's confidant and the addition of kichioji was WONDERFUL and i'd have killed for it in vanilla. im so glad for it. its such a fun place to explore and i love all the new npcs; penguin sniper was fun to play (though i hate playing with akechi, esp because its useless to) and jazzjin's gameplay elements were REAL FUN TO MAKE BUSTED ASS TEAMMATES WITH. no more what-ifs is also... a good song. i think i might even add it to my personal faves playlist. i'll have to sit down and listen to the ost when i don't have a headache. anyway there's probably a lot more good things i can say, but my head is kind of muddled rn lol. that post-game feeling fr.

ahh, but even when it comes down to the bad, like kasumi-- groaning every time she came on screen was fun in its own way too; whether it was laughing at the hilarity of it or coming to tumblr and grumbling about it with whoever was following along with my posts that day. honestly i just wish they tried a little harder with her and we got to know *sumire* instead of kasumi a little more. reading the interview where the devs admitted to her just being a marketing ploy and how they treated her as such really is crushing. its kind of a reflection of royal as a whole in a way to me. care *was* put in; i can see the heart behind a lot of this, but it's more focused on being flashy and appealing to those who missed the first wave of p5dom; or trying to draw back in those who have already played. which... is the point of a video game definitive edition, but kind of ironic when presented against the morals p5 seems to stand for. (or tries to, anyway. corporate meddling and cultural norms... this is still a video game that needs to sell.) i know i shouldn't treat silly anime game #685 that lets you date a maid-teacher as an 'art form' but i always felt p5 had a pretty solid and profound message. so to see royal trample p5 vanilla and then dance around wearing its skin is... certainly something. i know they're technically the same game, so royal has those messages too, but they get all tied up in the new stuff that royal brings forth (and doesn't deliver on. lmao. lol) on top of the already shaky at times writing p5 came with. i guess what im just trying to say is that royal's content is good... but it's being too much. and that just makes me really, really sad. despite all that, royal still kind of rekindled my love for p5 that was already present. every new playthrough for me lets me look deeper into what i like or neat details i missed; seriously i always find something new when i come back to this game. but this was especially true in royal. i found myself noticing when the tiniest detail was changed and it was always fun to compare them, even if it devolved into a tangent. i really only am disappointed like this just because I love persona 5 as a whole *so much*. its everything to me, so i want it to be the best it can be, yknow? anyway, thanks persona 5 royal. you've been a journey in multiple ways. try as i might, i won't forget you.

[fkyumerica]

age group

all gay

ms.dahl, anne marie, chris, beth, elizabeth taylor, taylor swift, carrie, john deere

they are all gay

are you keeping any of them?

they send dogs back at people to kill them

odds are they wont be adopted

and they let them in a field

and that gay of a family will do it

i named them off

and ms.dahls mom,, obviously a old woman

you can tell when you see her

not going to lincoln park you did not learn their whoreing

seriously

a field

you saw won

one

amanda

and come in and out of the house

no this was mass group orgies here

homes, bars, outside

and no one complained

and you got to see ol whore her

and him in a truck

your pool

fucking on your trampoline

and a no stop

from anyone

they told me too

no he didnt see it

and shoot her to death for the face plant face lift

top and under ears

disney

cartoon

btch

and he draws all the time

and stole what i drew

to do it

thinking he was touching me the whole time

alix is ms.dahl

and would go up to ttouch me

then finger fuck guiermo from behind

then you in the ass

you just saw em leave

fucked you last night unconcious

and

i told guiermo it

and the younger guys didnt get hooking groups to happen killing them

because they didnt talk to me

and instead

liked them as their family

using them, no wanted a mom got a mom

now watch ugly her who cant brush her hair to wear a ugly dress

like homecoming

all of them

being retarded and fucking liking each other

or i would kill them

i still will

https://www.facebook.com/reel/5507956552662089 ugly dike bitch

wanted to be black oprah courtney

its not what he wanted

so it was free gay irish shit

now st.patricks day

and you all celebrate her

freedom

and her moaning

on microphone

they dont even have pompompurin

the star of this fucking show

curtis mated with all of them

and is her inbred son

and of who

your date for st.patricks day aaron

i say it it happens

they got everyone to do that their switch

and fuck her off

and her and him

4real

will leave you his hat

and she knows it

get her to stop or i will go

heres a video of me doing my hair now tell me not to

and i did learn to whore and no look at this face i am not one i did it for free

no cerebral

you cant spin it around

she did jenny it in front of him too

on the road again metallica

she just wanted you to know it

her next date

so many lines she survives

and kurgan

whose don

honks three times

gay male boston map

from zune

gay disney movies

of her fucking men and their other wives

and she says she is his wife

ms.dahl

renee right

no cidney

and shoot her for 9 lives

two white girls

and a whole black family

we're good right? all she wanted to do was show off to fuck another family. can we get it free this time? and i dunno we only got this. every fucking day get us two. from anyone yea halloween. and it was the school. the house big. big money. and the cars. peepee me. and a name the warners. I dont care you got a name? thats after they got ice cream again. and next day after fishing and car fucks new family with food too paid for all of it. warners. mmm commercial?

her own

now she is crucified

to find tony again

kaori will lose

she didnt go with him at 4

he didnt have a line

or a reign

she is not scottish and neither is her

so they all lose a line

and a def smoke spot

to confuse me

she didnt go either

took her spot

kentucky

now guess whose who

i said it

curtis

angelas mate stevie

and is that you careese

amber said yea

disturbs new wife

and old is out

her 15th

right?

birthday find out youre dead

and 3 face lifts for guys who look it

any time guys

now lets fuck

any time

restuarant guys

i wait for anyone

and she thinks she can point a finger at me

she can fuck herself

it wont let her live

she is already dead

noroi

do it to her

so yea

it happened

no black wig

went straight

dumped him

didnt go

took a dress

edited

instead

to be alix

and fuck you too she said

aaron

seriously

kill her

and all you could do is light her on fire

oh guiermo

you cant kill anyone

look at you

she said it

she is ugly to her and the whole cast

or youd kill her

to not fuck her next

didnt get a marriage

got a hoe

and freedom rings

end of school

just kill her

did it to liane instead

with three guys she didnt know

to fuck them next

and whoa all colored

so stupid, mallory did, her mom courtney

and whose it

to fuck you up still

kill all the whites who moved in to do it

had kids they are perfect

and innocent

thats just the moms

and kids what are ya gonna do

nothing theyre perfect

and innocent

amanda said it

with agnes too

and why go to her

you know it

curtis didnt and fucked agnes too

the disturbed guy is him

and chucky

one in the box

84 stood there to fuck him

black panther movie

and yea

meant she told you to fuck her

know a hoe

and what a hoe

is

still dont know

amanda

get to know her

greg said it

too

decorate cakes and feed it to your kids

find your hoe. the boat with the plastic surgery of only 12 people to live as after crypto life. the 13th is madonna. in movie we can leave mad and brth. O_O

no

haha

then her husband died

or they fuck underwater and its on tv

so they oops run away

illegal

theres william

and they all are

so

took her phone number right

she shot him

it is anne marie on the right

she lost her face right

oh your grandma

you dropped her off to live here everyday

youre shit

to make me what

for your crystal lake

he heard it

he is it

you

are

a pedophile

and other guys they fuck will come in and make them dream shit

and pioneer shit was always ugly

those people too

so why switch

they knew they would die

for having three wives already

and the wives met each other

and could talk

and walk

without drugs once

amanda got them

i made her do it

its about time they fess up

about ruining the country

with mexicans now

to fuck you for free shit

they wanted the pedophile shit

plastic toy store crap

everywhere

for all of them

to fuck her in stores with

and i mean any age

toilet

she kept having kids with him too

anne marie

and i shot off her face

with her gun for her

now whose a whore make your mom ugly

that one took care of her and that ones her mom

they all sit and wait for him

face lift face mask and no, they all had saggy meat faces, the mask is a face lift

im from gilligans island

and we all loved him

forever and ever and ever and ever

and her too

next group here kurgan

to him too goat

and they cant follow up after

next guy head butts them

and drugs shitss in their mouth and oh you found him

and oh i send in pussy drugs you feel it on your pussy now

and the girls heard it oh save me girl

s

get a blow job

and prom dress

i wont pay for it

and she gets one

now show me her naked

and build a bear work shop

he shot his dad then did it

james corbin to megadeth singer

then slayer

then type o negative

she got the map

now shes going to kill him, then drop the gun, then fuck him

never kills him though

makes you listen right youre that way

and molested who

ooh ooh ooh jo have my kid or youre mad i got the drugs in my hand

syringe

and too hoo

found her too

sacajawea

now masturbate to her

same ice skating duo every year

took care of them in lincoln park as kids

whore kathy bell sandradee

retarded too

didnt go outside after one class with her mom ms.dahl

and didnt marry either

and was his wife

kathys male

kathy and james

without a paddle

whose dad now

we got smart

and i was always a old man

jurassic park

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this is how they fuck

each other

kathy was in the movie too

then after

both looked female

edit

and timmy, our dad

mexican black disney guy out of a hat ol graham glasgow

who she date for a boat ride for him

and 85 women and 300 gay men

hide the women

hahahah

fuck yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

they sscream it

the women do

then their free boat ride after to fuck you

their 3 gears

truck, car, semi, bike

and so slow he cant catch you

so what molested

and james said he made everything in the stores

gay with rick james that is him

right

or whose boat

dont confuse me im gay

now im gay

ahhh mama

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/ckvHyBEgnO8 this is james too how gay is he

the other guy is kathy i opened a thing of bread and threw it on the ground now were gonna eat it

kathy is fred/vince mcmahon

and greg is the mcmahon son

carrie is him

and their boat attacks everyone too

then james turns into that white short blonde hair woman in wwf that would come out and yell at them

was it vince mcmahons wife i dunno

it was gregs

caidence

thought he was a gay creator of life

and is a man too or hides

as amanda

take off his wig this is him

amanda did marry chauncey leopardo/tim harris/doctor guy/stone cold dad in trailer park aka steve austin to cheat/luke skywalker/josh walinski/ryan/marilyn manson/mullet/trailer park trash/dad in noroi but wife was a male. he takes the anne maries gets them pregnant and leaves. trailer park showed it. he is david/curtis/bill/tom whoever/jeff/dopey/tony

he doesnt have hair he has that flat of a head

1st inbred

second

noroi

he was his dad in the show

movie

whatever

that thing holds up its head with that

skin and a stick

star wars

come on

john travolta/dan/hhh

curtis/his son

curtis is james corrbin

and jimmy corbin

and zach juwad

so happy no one knows im in a suit

[gaijinhunter]

Monster Hunter Rise: 2nd Trailer and news blowout

Hey guys this is Gaijinhunter. I am uploading this as a text post since I caught a cold and have been unable to edit a video.

There was a huge second wave of news for Monster Hunter Rise with the reveal of the 2nd trailer the other day during the Game Awards 2020 show. Keep in mind the actual full length trailer is much longer and better than the shorter edit they showed during the show so makes sure you watch it. It showcased a second map, 2 new monsters, several returning monsters, and more. They also updated their official website with a ton of information so instead of doing a trailer reaction or breakdown, I am going to give you all the info they shared but split up by category, trying to focus only on the new stuff.

New Map

Director Ichinose hinted in an interview that one of the new maps would be nostalgic and boy he wasn't kidding. The Flooded Forest from Third Generation has been massively remade and is back in MH rise. Of course given this game’s focus is verticality, there is no underwater combat sections but they really nailed it from what I can see. One of the most iconic parts of the forest was the ruins in the backgrounds, and now you can scale up it using the wirebug. How cool is that. 

With the new map we also got the reveal of 2 new monsters.

First up is the mermaid wyvern, the Somnacanth. This marks the much hyped return of the leviathan class of monsters which were missing in world and iceborne. This Monster looks so wild. It has a special breath that will put you to sleep, is super aggressive, and has this crazy taiko drum like chest in which it will grab oysters and other things and bust them against it to break them open and buff itself. The Japanese name is quite a mouthful and is called Isonemikuni. This is the monster that Ichinose teased with his cute drawing on twitter.

Next up is the tengu beast, Bishaten. This monster is really unique, it looks like a mix of a monkey, bat, and bird. It has a huge and powerful tail it uses for massive mobility and it will chuck various fruits at you as well. One of the most iconic fruits it throws are persimmons, which are very Japanese and if you haven’t had them before, they are kind of an acquired taste. It’s Japanese name is Bishutendo. 

For returning monsters we have a few. First is our favorite sponge, the Royal Ludroth. This is a fan favorite and a great early to mid game monster. It has one of the best move sets in my opinion, very telegraphed but it can still catch you off guard even if you are super used to it. Strategically figuring gout where to stand in order to cut off its tail or break the sponge has always been really fun and intersting so I’m delighted to see this monster return, also look at that texture of the sponge!

Then we got the return of the Great Wroggi, the anti-poison skill tutorial monster. This thing really messed me up back in MH3G until I spent the time to get the materials to craft anti-posion decorations and even then, like the Great Izuchi, it fights really well with its sidekick small wroggis and I cant wait to see the improved cooperative AI that they are making for the Great Izuchi applied to this monster as well. It’s armor also spots a really cool Crocodile Dundee hat and look in the trailer and you can see the palico armor as well. So cool.

Finally, we got a small scene that appears to show a snow map and a group of baggi getting hit by a Khezu lightening shot. Does this mean the Great Baggi will return? Not sure. But that scream 100% is a Khezu, and I cannot wait to see how it looks with higher resolution texturing, I bet it will be creepy as heck. So while not technically confirmed, I’d say it’s safe to say Khezu is returning in some form. The balance of all these monsters is so great, I love the selection so far.

As far as other returning monsters that might return, I think we all expect nargacuga and zinogre. These are flagship monsters from games directed by Ichinose and he even tweeted his palamute and palico both named after these two monsters. Especially given the Japanese aesthetic, I think it’s pretty much guaranteed they are returning. Then I think mizutsune is also highly likely given its Japanese design, the fox theme, the kimono armor. Plus the model for it doesn't look that far off from the new Somnacanth. Anyway I have super hyped.

Interaction with animals and endemic life

One of the huge features of Monster Hunter Rise is the focus on wild life and animals to buff your hunter or be used as tools during a hunt.

There are 4 major types of Endemic Life: Temp Buffer, Permabuffer, Hunting Helper, and environmental.

For Permabuffer, we got a new render of the Spiribirds, which will buff your hunter if you move near one, and the effects depend on the color of the pollen it is carrying. Green increases your max Health, Orange increases your defense, red increases your attack power, and yellow increases your max stamina. There is even a special rainbow colored one, which I assume will buff all 4.

Via their website, Capcom announced a new item called the Petalace, a bracelet made of a plant called a Sending Sprig that each hunter has equipped. This is what collects the pollen from the birds and buffs your hunter. There is a variety of Petalaces in the game and some may increase the amount in which an attack boost is applied from a single Spiribird, raise the max value that health can be boosted, and more. Here in the screen shot we can see the caps for each and the amount gained for each buff. Just a quick note but this is not going to be replacing charms as we know that they are giving away a talisman for pre-order.

For Temp Buffer creatures, they revealed the name of the Clothfly, a butterfly that will temporarily increase your defense once you interact with it and cause it to generate a cloud of dust. In previous videos we have seen Peepers that reduce stamina usage, birds that raise your base stats, and a dragonfly that boosts your affinity and I had calculated it out to being applied for 90 seconds but we’ll have to wait for hte final game to see if that depends on the effect or if they change it, but it sounds about right.

For Hunting Helper creatures, we got an adorable new render of the Stinkmink. You can carry up to 5 Hunting Helpers and use them like items. The Stinkmink can be used to cover yourself in a special pheromone that will attract large monsters to you, even allowing you to lure one monster toward another to cause a turf war. I personally can think of other applications like luring a monster toward a trap and stuff like that.

And for environmental endemic life, they didn't show it in the trailer but there are also wildlife that can be used like environmental traps. For example, use raw meat and the giganha fish will go crazy, damaging anything nearby be it a hunter or monster. I can’t wait to see someone hunt a Great Wroggi using only raw meat. I love that we finally will have more use for this item.

NPCs

In the new trailer we got to hear several of the NPC villagers talking and on the website they go into a lot more details. They have quite the star-studded cast in Japanese and the English voice actors are also very interesting picks. This really marks the first time in Monster Hunter that the main cast of villagers will all be called by name and speak, which I think adds a lot of personality to the game.

First we have Fugen the village elder of Kamura and skilled long sword user. 

Then we have Hinoa the Quest Maiden, a cheerful and optimistic girl who serves as the quest giver in the village while her twin sister runs the gathering hub. While not announced in any other language, the French and Italian language sites for the game list her sister’s name as Minoto. Hinoa’s name is Hinoe in Japnaese and for the rest of the cast their names are identical between the two languages.

One thing I am excited for is that they said that one of the ways they will help communicate the uniqueness of Kamura is through songs and they shared a sample of one of them in the full trailer. This one is sung by Izumi Kato. If you remember back in Monster Hunter 4 Ultimate they featured songs by the wyverian Diva, and I am so happy they decided to do songs again, they add so much richness to the world and are just lovely to listen to.

Next up is Yomogi, our village chef. In this game you will eat meals at her Tea Shop, where her speciality is the Bunny Dango she makes along with the help of some palicoes. I love that we’ve seen her in past videos with a heavy bowgun, so the idea that all the villagers are active participants in the story is great. 

Then we have Hamon the blacksmith. He used to hunt alongside Fugen back in the day but now creates weapons for the hunters of the village. His grandson also appears in the game and is a kind-hearted youth that loves your hunting companions.

Next is Kagero the merchant. Despite his mysterious appearance he is actually very warm and kind. If there is a sale going on, not only can you buy most items for half off, but you can also participate in a lottery where you spin a wheel and it dispenses a colored ball. Get a rare color ball to win a rare prize. You can do it once per sale, but you can also scan an amiibo to spin two more times, but only once per day per amiibo you own.

Finally we have Komitsu the sweet-tooth, she sells candy apples in town. What these do is still not yet revealed.

Companions

We got an adorable render for the Cohoot, the pet owl that shows the positions of monsters on your map. You can interact with it in the town and even dress them up in fancy outfits.

Kamura Village

We got gameplay showing that the entire village is open to the 4 person multiplayer session and you can even ride around on your palamute and use your wirebug while in the village to zip around and have fun. There is still a gathering hall but the ability to see each other in the village as well as jump around and really explore it is a lovely change they are making.

Story wise we got more info about the Rampage, both a story mechanic and new quest type. For some reason the monsters will sometimes gang up and attack the village all at once and no one knows why. They call this a Rampage. There was a really bad rampage 50 years ago that nearly destroyed the village and in response the town has created a Stronghold to stop further invasions. This looks like a new quest type with multiple monsters all at once, and a slew of different artillery options at your disposal. I could see this as being a really fun type of quest to do online with other players. 

And of course the most exciting news was that there will be a demo in January with more details to come later. That is far earlier than I expected and I now have to finish up my back catalogue of games in like the next month.

And that about wraps it up. Cpacom said that they will be sharing weapon preview videos for all 14 types very soon and if they do the way they used to do it, we’ll get one new video a day for 2 weeks. I hope you enjoyed this recap of the news and please let me know down in comments what you thought about the second trailer. And until next time, happy hunting.

[transrightsjimin]

@trespassers-will​ ok here we go

i also watched the various videos hidden inside each photo and the videos that were posted today as well and took notes too hjfhk

1. hobi’s room

okay so i thought i would rank jin’s room first but then i saw hobi’s room and i saw that couch nd went OMG okay thats no.1!! i love this interior so so much, like i normally hate orange and blue as a combination but this seems almost more like red and blue and it really reminds me of hopeworld. there’s many pop art-like graphic design posters adorning the walls, showing lines like ‘hope‘, ‘sweet’ and ‘my way‘. the shoes on the closet(?) behind him were disaplayed bc those are the colours we wears the most in his fashion. and then there’s this iconic inflatable clear pink couch and him wearing a pink robe and just GOD what a mood, i want a room like this!! the chair reminds me a lot of the type of fun quirky furniture i fantasized about and incorporated into my drawings as a kid when i was around 8-11, probably because i got inspired by stuff like totally spies and polly pocket, which had all these designs clearly inspired by 60s and 70s space age design but more in pink and purple i guess.

also i hate the search for such stills bc even w safe search on, you still have godawful f3tish drawings depicting those kids from totally spies ending up in search results and it’s disgusting. but yeah it reminded me of that

when i say polly pocket, i particularly mean this quik-clik (magnetic clothes and hair) era in 2005 which was what i had some stuff from. i had that couch / movie night! set and the pool and that

also i just really like hobi’s room because with all the posters and cabinets and clothing items laid out and a carpet and fun colours and whatnot, it really feels like an actual room you could live in, unlike any of the other rooms which feel very empty or too minimalist to me. but YEAH hobi’s room is my fav, i love the way a fuller room feels more cozy and habitable and floaties and inflatable floaties are AMAZING

2. jin’s room

jin’s room is so prettyyyy!! jins explanation of the room was very uhm confident and funny but i love that. the couch looks like a lilac shell, which makes sense as everything else looks very pearlescent. i really love cool-toned pastels like lilac, powder / baby blue, periwinkle and everything just looks like it’s part of a waiting hall for mermaids or something. there’s also gems in it which took me a while to realize bc i only noticed the glass chandelier and lamp but then i saw them in his hand nd on the table. i dont rly care abt gems / jewels but overall i just love how this whole room speaks ‘pretty‘ to me. robes are always a plus. as i was writing this, i was also reminded of hair extension mullet jin with iridescent clothing and all and that is actually my all time fav photoshoot / look of him. him saying he’s the gem of the room makes sense too as he’s sitting in the shell like a pearl. jin pretty pretty mermaid

ok from here on its getting harder bc place 3-8 is not so much abt which is nicer but which one actually makes me feel any emotion bc i just feel too exhausted for excitement over comebacks or anything really. also minimalism doesnt make me feel anything either. but ill try

3. jungkook’s room

ok ive been staring at a screen w few sleep for too long so ill try to go through my ranking faster bc ive been working on this post for too long, also partially bc i cant focus nd partially bc theres some i just rly dont feel much for but i feel bad for ranking one lower than the other or ranking smth higher when ive talked to someone who dislikes a room i like dghkfdf

but yeah i like jungkooks room! its a very intense blue tht might make you depressed if youre in it too long but again i love how theres multiple items stacked in the bg and intense blue lights, and the ceiling looks like it has soundproof padding. its like youre in a recording studio or at some vaguely nostalgic party of a friend of my mom, who had plants in her home nd rock music nd the tv on and was smoking nd it was a bit dark and mysterious. i like it, it intrigues me a bit nd makes me miss going to concerts. also this pic rly just reminds me of 2008-2010 pop music videos where theres always a party and dj and people are wearing sunglasses or something and theres a dance break at the end

4. yoongi’s room

also blue!! the first time i saw this pic it was bc someone sent it to me to say how ugly they thought the decoration / editing looked w the metallic dripping stuff from the couch and whatnot but i kinda like it :( i like his velvety clothing and the light blue in the rest of the room is really pretty. i like mirror themes when done well nd i like how the reflectiveness shows also in the metallic dripping nd metallic spheres and the mirror hes standing on nd the way light reflects on his clothes and from the lamp. only the lamp feels a bit too much like a contemporary art installation for me nd his room already is a bit too empty for my liking nd i had the feeling when i watched the vid of him walking through the room that there was not much to interact w in the room like it was a bit dull. his voice in the explanation videos made it feel more like a place of peace / solitude rather than boredom or loneliness though.

5. namjoon’s room

ehh i think place 5, 6 and 7 are interchangable at this point. namjoon woulve ranked lowest but i listened to his explanation videos and saw him goof around in today’s video and appreciated it a bit more. the room still looks quite minimalist and not super comfortable, like youre not allowed to touch anything there (which is the same for jin i guess but i dont view that as smth meant to look like a living room). i do like how the wood theme is present throughout each wall nd in various items and w the windows nd use of space it feels a bit inspired by japanese interior design and that that is inspired by his bonsai tree nd love for woodwork, but im not sure. i was actually quite shocked some of his explanations were so short. so yeah i place this 5th bc i like how coherent the theme is but it doesnt feel cozy or inviting nd still very cold to me, maybe bc it looks too expensive or minimalistic in terms of colours.

6. jimin’s room

i like the flowers but also i dont like tiny flowers nd they tend to be the stinkier ones. i kind of like how jimins room feels the most like a grandma one w all the flowers nd offwhite and the lamp and beige i think? but the colours are so muted and if anything it feels like a place for a bridal photoshoot nd im just so bored. i love jimin nd feel bad for ranking a room he curated so low but it rly creates no serotonine in my brain, just melatonine bc im sleepy. i like how the room i obviously quite packed w stuff, but then the washed out colours make everything still look very bleak. hmm. i do like how the flowers reach outside the borders unlike w any of the others’ photos. im about to fall asleep so let me quickly finish this post

7. tae’s room

the picture in the middle behind him is interesting nd i dont know how he made that, nd i do like how he described his room as a place where there would always be enough food for visitors. i know it’s meant to communicate some highbrow, artsy vibe but w the weird editing and lightning nothing looks real in the room he’s in (including himself, like it doesnt even look like hes in the room) and it just looks kitschy instead of artsy. yeah i dont gravitate towards this one, it’s like deep-fried and desaturated at the same time nd i tend to avoid looking at it subconsciously

8. the first room photo

i first posted a long description here why but it disappeared but in short. this photo evokes no emotional response to me other than think of kind of crappy hotel rooms i was in w my parents while on vacation nd we slept in the same room or something nd the beds were awful nd made my moms chronic pain worse. the clothing is very boring and so r the colours of the room. i know bangtan curated stuff but its still the least interesting photo to me, maybe im too depressed to feel anything idk

im sorry this was prob very boring TT_TT i tried my best to make a ranking but i rly dont know nor care as much as i would want to

[hellyeahheroes]

Building Laura Kinney in D&D

And once again I try to build a teen superhero in Dungeons & Dragons 5th edition. Previously we have built Cassandra Cain as a frontline martial arts fighter and Static as an electricity-based wizard from DC and Nico Minoru as a staff-wielding Sorcerer from Marvel. So it’s time we add a front-line Marvel character to the group. And I think I have a good candidate

If you need music to get into the mood, take your pick

Let us start with the goals for this build. First, we need to ensure Laura is Best One There Is at slashing and stabbing people. Our second goal is to ensure she can take the damage as well as she can dish and can heal. Finally, we need to reflect on her sense

For Abilities I will be using Standard Point Array - 15, 14, 13, 12, 10 and 8 -, if you would rather roll or use point-buy, treat this as a guideline what to prioritize. Our most important stat will be Constitution, as she can get pulverized and keep going. Second is Dexterity, Laura can dodge machinegun fire after all. Then Wisdom for sharp senses and to help saving throws against Trigger Scent. Intelligence will follow, Laura has a vast array of skills, most of them she was taught. Charisma next, she is aloof and keeps for herself but was still good enough to fool professional agents even at a young age. We will dump strength - while Laura has shown she is stronger than an average person, we just don’t need it. Your stats should be STR 8 DEX 14 CON 15 INT 12 WIS 13 CHA 10

Let us pick her Race a.k.a. “Just Call it Species already, WotC”. I was always somewhat confused why Tulok the Barbarian, whose videos inspired this series, always pick non-human races for mutants. I mean isn’t the entire point of X-Men how they try to claim mutants are still regular people? But then I’ve made three of these builds myself and it was always “Variant Human” and it becomes monotonous. So I guess Magneto was right, mutants are Homo Sapiens Superior and that means non-human race

Tulok built Wolverine as a Dwarf but a) Laura isn’t this short (watch me go for a lonw-hanging fruit) and b) as evil-looking Tony Stark above explains, Sarah Kinney is Laura’s mother, meaning she is more like Logan’s daughter than a clone. And since there is no half-dwarf race, well go with something else. Say, which species in fantasy is all about how fucking superior they are 24/7? And has ears that kinda look like that weird thing on Wolverine mask?

Half-Elf grants you +2 to Dexterity and +1 to TWO separate Ability Scores. Pick Constitution and Wisdom. It also grants you a number of bonuses like Darkvision, allowing you to see in dim light up to 60 feet as if it was a bright light and in darkness as if it was a dim light, except without being able to see colors. You cannot be put to sleep by magic and have advantage on saving throws against being charmed, useful against trigger scent. You can use Common and Elvish language and one additional, pick whatever is campaign relevant. You also get two skills of your choice, I would suggest Perception and Athletics, the latter of which helps us somewhat mitigate low strength as it is the only STR-based skill, meaning if DM asks you for a Strength check you can probably talk them into making Athletics check instead.

EDIT: So, I was checking on dndbeyond and I realized I made a mistaken assumption that  Half-Elves get +2 DEX like Elves...and they do not. It’s baffling really. I guess we have to make Laura an Elf then. You get  +2 to Dexterity, proficiency with Perception and bonuses I didn’t cross out above. An Arenei Wood Elf variant also gets +1 to Wisdom, gets to pick one extra Proficiency, pick Athletics, gains +5 to walking speed and can hide even when only lightly obscured.

For the Background, there is no trained assassin so we will get the next best thing - Spy. It let us choose two more proficiencies, Stealth and Acrobatics will it be, and makes Laura proficient with Forgery and Disguise kits. You also get a minor feature that makes it harder for people to remember you in a crowd or walking in and out of a conversation as long as you didn’t draw attention to yourself.

For the class, we will start with Rogue. You gain proficiency with four more skills, pick Deception, Sleight of Hand, Intimidation and either Insight or Investigation. You also get proficiency with Thieve’s Tools, light armor (which is the most armor Laura ever gets and we will stick to it), simple weapons, hand crossbows, longswords, rapiers, shortswords, Dexterity and Intelligence saving throws and Thieves’ Cant, secret language of the criminal underground. You then get to pick expertise with two skills you know, gaining Expertise with them that doubles your proficiency bonus to them. I’d go for Acrobatics and Perception.

Finally, you learn Sneak Attack that allows you to deal additional 1d6 damage on successful hits if you had an advantage on an attack roll against the target or if an ally that is not incapacitated is within 5 feet from the target and nothing grants you disadvantage on the attack roll. Sneak Attack only works with ranged or finesse (meaning they use Dexterity modifier for attack and damage rolls) weapon, so in our case it will be Shortswords - pick up two shortswords that deal 1d6 damage.

If you need an explanation how attacks work, here.

Alternative: If you’re willing to stray away from core Laura experience, use daggers instead. They deal only 1d4 damage but can also be thrown, carry a bunch of them with you to use some of Laura’s abilities at range.

How two-weapon fighting in D&D works is that you can attack with one weapon and take your bonus action to make an attack with an offhand weapon but it does not add damage from your ability score to damage. Let us fix that with our first level of Fighter. It gives you a fighting style and we will choose Two-Weapon Fighting. From now on you can add your Dexterity to attacks made by your offhand weapon.

You also get Second Wind, allowing you to heal 1d10 + your fighter level of damage as a bonus action once per short or long rest. This is minor healing, for now, it has to do.

Second Level Fighter gets Action Surge, allowing you to once per long or short rest to take an extra action during your turn, meaning in a pinch you can make three attacks in a single turn.

Back to Rogue, second level gives us Cunning Action. It allows you to take a bonus action on your turn to take Dash, Disengage or Hide actions.

Third Level Rogue increases Sneak Attack to 2d6 and gets to choose a Rogue Archetype. Assassin gives you an ability to, well, Assassinate - you have an advantage on attack rolls against opponents who haven’t yet take a turn in combat, and every hit against them counts as a critical hit. How it works is that on critical hit you roll an extra dice of damage for every dice you would roll, meaning on normal strike you will roll 2d6 and on a critical hit with Sneak Attack you also double Sneak Attack damage, already rolling 6d6 on a single hit.

If it’s so good to hit as an Assassin then let us make sure we will. On 4th Level Rogue gets an Ability Score Improvement or let us take a feat but...why not both? Elven Accuracy gives you +1 to Dexterity and from now on whenever you have an advantage on attack rolls using Dexterity, Intelligence, Wisdom or Charisma, you can once reroll one of the dice. So if you don’t score a critical hit, you lose nothing rerolling lower of the results and if you didn’t hit at all you can reroll either.

5th Level Rogue upgrades Sneak Attack to 3d6 and gets Uncanny Dodge, allowing you to halve damage from an attack against you as long as you see the enemy dealing it.

All these damage dice doubled on a crit is nice, so how about we now try to increase our chances to actually get it? 3rd Level Fighter can pick Martial Archetype. Champion’s Improved Critical lets you now have a critical hit if you roll 19 or 20 on an attack roll, instead of just 20. This means you now have a 10% chance for Critical Hit.

BTW, I do find it funny Laura has a feature named similiar to the codename of one of her NXM teammates and her archetype shares a name with a Marvel team she was never in. 

4th Level Fighter gets their Ability Score Improvement, but we will take a feat again. Durable lets you increase Constitution by 1 and whenever you take a Short Rest and decide to roll Hit Dice to regain Hit Points, you add to result of each roll double the amount of your Constitution modifier.  Remember that increasing your Constitution bonus gives you extra hit point retroactively for every level you already have.

5th Level Fighter gains an Extra Attack, meaning you now attack twice during each attack action. Meaning you can attack three times with your bonus action or five times by also taking Action Surge.

6th Level Fighter gets another Ability Score Improvement and we will actually take it. You can spend two points one for Dexterity and one for Constitution

7th Level Champion becomes a Remarkable Athlete, allowing you to add your Proficiency Bonus to every Strength, Dexterity and Constitution check that doesn’t get it already, letting us sidestep low Strength modifier completely. It also lets you increase your jump distance by your Strength modifier, but Laura’s, as we just pointed out, has a negative one.

8th Level Fighter is another Ability Score Improvement, or rather, a new Feat. Tough gives you extra 2 hit points for every level you take and retroactively for every you had already taken. Right now it means 26 extra Hit Points and more to come.

9th level Fighter gets Indomitable, letting you once per long rest reroll one failed saving throw, but you have to use the new roll, even if its worse than the original.

10th Level Champion gets to pick another Fighting Style. Tunnel Fighter allows you to enter defensive stance as a bonus action and until your next turn make opportunity attacks without using your reaction and you can use your reaction to make an attack against a creature that moves five feet within your reach. Meaning you can now jump into the horde of enemies and they decide this isn’t worth it and try to move past you to your teammates, they get cut.

Alternative: If you play with a DM that does allow Unearthed Arcana (so you cannot do it in Adventurer’s League), you can replace Tough with Blade Master, which gives you +1 to attack and damage rolls with a Shortsword and gives you an advantage on all opportunity attack rolls. It makes you deadlier to many opponents with Tunnel Fighter, but more vulnerable.

11th Level Fighter gets a third Extra Attack, increasing your total number of attacks in a single action to three and to freaking seven with Action Surge and offhand weapon.

12th Level Fighter is an Ability Score Improvement time, round up your Dexterity for better attack, damage, AC and Initiative.

13th Level Fighter gets to use Indomitable twice between long rests.

14th Level Fighter is our last Ability Score Improvement, Round up your Constitution.

And we will wrap things up with 15th Level Fighter and a Champion feature, Superior Critical, which now lets us crit on 18, 19 or 20, increasing a chance of critical hit on an attack to 15%.

And so we have Laura as an Assassin Rogue 5/Champion Fighter 15. Let’s see how viable this build is

First of all you have an insane amount of Hit Points. Between Fighter’s d10 hit die, maximalized Constitution and Tough you should have on average somewhere around 260 Hit Points and with Durable and Second Wind you even have means to heal yourself from any wounds. Second, you have the means to deliver a ton of damage with your Sneak Attack, Assassinate feature, Elven Acurracy, multiple attacks and improved critical hits. You have 15% chance to crit on any attack, 39% with Elven Accuracy on Advantage. If you attack with Advantage (Elven Accuracy included) you have 77% chance to crit at least once with just your three base attacks, 95% with Action Surge and 97% if you also use your bonus action. Finally, you’re skilled in multiple things, many of which are related to stealth, giving you further opportunities to surprise enemies, and your physical abilities.

On the downside, Laura has rather low AC without magic items, Dual Wielder feat could slightly improve it but we do not have access to it. Laura is also dealing piercing or slashing damage, to which many of higher-level enemies have resistance or outright immunity. We also lack in mobility, meaning some of the advantages of this build will go to waste if enemies simply don’t stand close enough to one another, even with dash as a bonus action. You’re also a bit of one-trick pony, I wouldn’t recommend this to a player that gets bored with doing the same thing each round. Finally, you know what 97% chance to crit is not? 100%. There will be times when you will roll these 21 d20s and not get a single crit, just starring at the dice in sheer humilation and wondering if that thing hates you or what.

But at the end of the day, you’re still one damn badass, that will be hard to put down. Sneak up on your enemies, get close to as many as you can, disregard the damage dealt to yourself and unleash hell. Just remember this is team effort and one of the best ways to get that sweet, sweet advantage is to have a partner flank your opponnent. So don’t be an edgelord and work as a part of the team

[markleetrashh]

Makeup Voiceover;Jaehyun

Request: Makeup voiceover with Jaehyun please!!

it’s been a long time since i did this

and once again im really bad with anything that’s got to do with make up so i apologise

you can check out my mark one here!

at the same time, go check out and support zelia’s ( @mochamark ) one here with jeno’s!

dont sleep on her works

i wont go on anymore so let’s start!!

so you and jaehyun decided to do this challenge because you saw a few couples doing it

plus jaehyun’s been begging you to feature him on your videos since forever

which he does appear in vlogs

but that’s another story

and your subscribers would keep on asking you to feature jaehyun too

mainly because they’re all shookt over his good looks and sweet voice

the other half is because they hardcore ship you two

so one day you start filming your video while jaehyun’s cooking dinner for you two

and you try to make the video as short as possible so as to not let jaehyun suffer

after half an hour of filming and editing you’re finally done

so you call jaehyun into the room,

a mic in front of him and your laptop

“okay babe, you can start now”

and he gives you the sweetest smile ever and clears his throat

before playing start

“hi everyone!! it’s jaehyun here and we’re finally doing the video all of you have been requesting for the longest time, a makeup voiceover!”

“don’t worry guys, i’ll make sure this will be as good as my girlfriend’s make up skills”

“oh no okay enough talking she’s gonna start”

“so first off, you want to start with the foundation”

“she’s using her favourite-she always tells me- the Laura Mercier pressed powder!”

“look at her squishing the sponge like she always does, it’s really soft!!”

“apply it all around your face and dab it out evenly”

“ooo my girl’s looking brighter now”

“alright moving on to her eyes- how beautiful”

“jaehyun focus”

“sorry got too distracted by her beauty hmmm”

“so she’s taking out a palette- woah it’s so big”

“and it’s called the uh…”

“too faced sweet peach? did i say it right”

“oh she’s using the ‘peaches and cream’ shade”

“take your brush and softly apply it above your eyes”

“doesnt it suit her well wow”

“moving on to the next eye, make sure to apply the same layers!!”

“oh she’s taking a marker now”

“oh wait it’s a eyeliner”

“oh look at this forgetful bun she forgot to show the brand”

“dont expose me jae omg”

“i love you”

“so you want to just use any eyeliner you can find, and draw it around your eyes”

“don’t poke your eyes yes”

“hold up why doesnt she need a mirror to do this what is this sorcery”

“eyeliner done, moving on to blush”

“comment down below if you agree Y/N doesn’t need blush, her cheeks are naturally so rosy and pink!!”

“oh no wait she’s being clumsy again”

“she’s taking her highlighter instead”

“why is she so forgetful i love her omg”

“okay so she’s using the Benefit Watt’s Up stick”

“draw a few lines on your cheekbones and your nose”

“blend it out properly!!”

“she’s shining oh im in love”

“okay time for the blusher”

“she’s using the Tarte brand one”

“just brush it lightly around your cheeks”

“doesn’t she look adorable”

“lastly!!”

“lips time”

“wait when did you buy this babe why haven’t i seen this before”

“i just got it two days ago, continue”

“it’s called the uh Stila Stay one”

“it’s in this nude-pink colour”

“look at her pouting her lips woah”

* asks for a peck on his lips *

* you push him away and try to hide your giggle *

“anddd my girl’s done with her look”

“doesn’t she look gorgeous, i think im looking at an angel right now”

“it’s Y/N now!! thank you so much for requesting us to do this challenge and we both had fun doing this”

“yes, dont worry i’ll ask Y/N to feature me in more videos in the future”

“support my babe and subscribe to her channel! also give her all the views she deserves yes, thank you for watching, this was jung jaehyun”

after you stop recording he flashes you his smile again

"babe you did well"

"did i? you never fail to amaze me with your skills"

and you cant help but give him a hug because he's so sweet

"thank me when you gain more views"

[slaaneshfic]

“There is no reason for you to live: gendered trauma and ecstasy in ‘No World Dreamers, Sticky Zeitgeist episode 2: Aperitif (conference notes)

This is my text/notes for my presentation at the "beyond the console" conference at London South Bank university / v&a the other week. I've not edited this into a proper essay format because it's already going to be re-edited into part of a thesis chapter in the next month.

“There is no reason for you to live: gendered trauma and ecstasy in ‘No World Dreamers, Sticky Zeitgeist episode 2: Aperitif’

[introduce self and position as artists, researcher and phd candidate in art practice, working primarily with post-structuralist feminism, horror, and play.]

This paper is built on a structure which I hope reflects and supplements the material it is concerned with.

[Note that it is brutally chopped out from a thesis chapter primarily about Cixous, whos work shadows the whole text but who only appears briefly as a sort of cameo towards the end. As such there is a large section about her relation to queerness, her use of the category “woman” as a post-structural rather than essentialist term, and the relation of these of these to my own identity as genderqueer. I just want to state at the start, to reassure against the obvious horror of a masc presenting person on stage lecturing on such a huge figure of feminist art that I approach this with the utmost love and care for her work.]

First I need to establish the position from which I am writing it, which is that the video game I am about is address is a work of art. There are many other ways to approach video games; as products, as recreational activities, as social of historical objects. However approaching it as a work of art not only only feels most comfortable for me as an artist and researcher of art practice, but it both reflects the increased art context in which the maker’s work is presented and also allows for a ways of looking at the work which is particular to art.

In a 2001 journal chapter entitled “The Aesthetics of Affect, Thinking art beyond representation” the artist and lecturer Simon O’Sullivan calls for a way of thinking about and reading art works which centre’s their aesthetic and affective qualities, that which grants them an “apartness” from other objects (O’Sullivan, 2001). O’Sullivan draws initially from the philosopher Jean-Francois Lyotard, and the journal chapter begins with a quote from the later which ends with the following statement :

“But the work is not merely a cultural object, although it is that too. It harbours within it an excess, a rapture, a potential of associations that overflows all the determinations of its “reception” and “production” (Lyotard, 1991).

    This images of “rapture” and “excess” will return throughout my writing here, particularly in regards the feminists and queer philosophers I will be primarily drawing from, and again because such things are in my view central to the game I am going to talk about. However before all of this I wish to make clear my position which echoes O’Sullivan’s call for “Art history as a kind of creative writing” (O’Sullivan, 2001). I will attempt to avoid where possible a hermeneutic analysis of the game where it becomes only a expression of social production to be reduced to an ‘explanation’, instead I want to place this “bundle of affects” (O’Sullivan, 2001) alongside concepts and ideas, with different intents and aims, and see what happens in between. Paraphrasing writer AB Silvera in “Radical Transfeminism Zine”, “Multiplicity of strats guys, you cant carry every team with a Hanzo, sometimes you gotta use D.vas Ult to break a choke point” (Silvera, 2017).

The work of art can now be introduced by its name, which is “No World Dreamers. Sticky Zeitgeist. Episode 2: Aperitif” (Aperitif), the second in a series of collaborative works by coders, artists, musicians, writers Porpentine Charity Heartscape and Rook (Heartscape & Rook, 2018). in the words of one of its makers Aperitif “combines top-down RPG, Shmup, visual novel and medical sim” (Hayes, 2018). In playing the game, the player alternately takes control of and interacts with four principal characters. These characters include “Ever. The Loser”, and “Brava. The Leader” who are broadly humanoid with cat/fox/deeresque features including enlarged ears. There is also “Chalcedony. The Big Sister” and “Agate. The Little Sister” who are both “labor drones” who have been modified and “overclocked” almost beyond capacity in order to have some kind of consciousness. All four of these characters are employed by a large company called “Innocent” to recover salvage from a contaminated and overgrown former city referred to by the characters as “Swamp-Dot-Com”. The area’s contamination is connected to the presence of a mysterious object only referred to by this point in the series narative as “The artefact”. Another character that we see, and occasionally have control over is called “The Therapist” who is presented as a human size, anthropomorphic moth-like person. Finally, we also hear from an interact with “MOM”, the Innocent A.I., and possibly (though not via intelligible words) from the Artefact itself.

The episode prior to Aperitif was titled “No World Dreamers, Sticky Zeitgeist. Episode one: Hyperslime” (Hyperslime) and primarily serves to introduce the setting and characters, principally through the eyes of Ever, detailing her mental health and particularly anxiety (Heartscape & Rook, 2017). Episode one was concerned with our characters getting to work, passing various obstacles to achieve this including panic attacks and mandatory drug tests.

Picking up where Hyperslime ended, Aperitif is concerned with our characters beginning the job they are assigned, and their discussing the material and social relations within that environment, as well as portraying material effects these provoke. I would like to consider this through philosopher Eugene Thacker’s definition of the horror genre as “the space between”, and “passages between”, “I cannot see what I believe”, and “I cannot believe what I see” (Thacker, 2015). For our character’s, this field of uncertainty crops up frequently and extends at times out to include us the player. Early in the narrative, text from an unspecified character or voice sets this tone:

“Jeez how much blood do you have?

The Inside becomes the outside.

    The world grasps hungrily at the swamp gate. Two voracious circuitries at war. the fever of skin grafts.

    Four salvagers set out in search for debris” (Heartscape & Rook, 2018).

The context for this statement is not revealed until the end of the game, and the “who” that is speaking all of it remains ambiguous even then. Our player character proxies recount their memories and feelings about Swamp-Dot-Com in fragments as you explore it with them in turn.

It is important at this point to note that it is implied to degrees that some or all of Aperitif’s “four scavengers” are not cisgendered. This was first implied in Hyperslime, but I will stress that this is my interpretation of the game. It is never stated within the game’s text that any characters are trans, cis, non-binary, or what if any concept of gender exists in its setting. However in the sequel Aperitif, the characters gender identity contrasting to that one assigned to them by a social power is implied more strongly. This contrast is also expanded as their non-cis status is not just in relation to gender but in terms of crossing further boundaries to arrive at their identity.

Accessible in the game’s folder from the start, and later triggered by an on screen event is a pdf manual for Agate, the younger robot sister. The pdf presents as an official service manual for the original robot model which Agate belongs to, which has been subsequently annotated and edited by Agate herself and her sister after they are both upgraded to consciousness. Agate is implied to be transgender because her manual originally labels her a “[redacted] labor drone” and she herself has altered this to instead assign her the name “Agate, cool girl” (Heartscape & Rook, 2018).

The overlapping of transgender identity discourse and sentience of nonhuman or modified humans is not without precedent. In the article “Making and Getting Made: Towards a Cyborg Transfeminism” in Salvage, writer Solvi Goard argues that the “1995 anime version of Ghost In The Shell [offers] both the dream and the nightmare of trans politics”. Goard makes the case that “Cyborgs [...] are undoubtedly transgender [because] they choose and change their bodies based on what relationship they desire from that body” (Goard, 2017). In Ghost In The Shell, the cyborg cop protagonist Major Motoko Kusanagi begins to express doubts about her own existence through the course of the narrative which centres on hyper augmented bodies and brains and the limits of existence and identity (Oshii, 1995). Goard identifies this doubt, “the visceral confusion that comes about from knowing how you feel and experience your body, but having that experience jar so powerfully with what meaning other people and society give to it” as “one many trans people will recognise” (Goard, 2017).

The doubts and confusions over self expressed by the characters in Aperitif are different to those of Major Kusanagi. Chalcedony expresses fear and regret that like her, she sister Agate was “overclocked” and modified to have sentience and that “she would pay for it with every moment of her life” (Heartscape & Rook, 2018). For Chalcedony, much of her anxiety is around her and her sister being unable to be safe, to rest, to have energy, to have “a room to hide in” (Heartscape & Rook, 2018). While Agate seems exhausted by the demands of her body run beyond its intended capacity, and at the newness of the world after their escape which is both exciting and terrifying in turns. (The pdf robot manual states that the overclocking can lead to violent failure of the unit’s heart, and that these are advised to be bought in bulk. This whole section in the manual has been all but obliterated by Chalcedony with a note to tell her younger sister not to read it [this should be a footnote, but i dont have the ability to insert footnotes on the tablet I’m using]).

Both the robots experiences undoubtably jar with “what meaning other people and society give” them (Goard, 2017) as they are literally on the run from that authority, but this is joined by the jarring of the body itself not functioning as they need it too. The culmination of this will be the medical sim section of the game where we play as Chalcedony attempting to repair her sister’s overworked organs, potentially watching Agate repeatedly die in the process. What seems to most concern Chalcedony at least is this perpetual state of exhausted, unstable, borderline survival. She asks herself “what if it was forever. What if nothing changed, and we kept as we were. Unable to perfectly live or die” (Heartscape & Rook, 2018). This same anxiety about not escaping is echoed shortly after by Ever when she states that she “and Brava always said we’d be the ones to make it out. We wouldn’t be the losers stuck in this nowhere shithole” (Heartscape & Rook, 2018). Constructing improvised temporary solutions to keep going through trauma and awareness of their imminent potential failure is common to most of the characters in Aperitif, if not the entire universe they inhabit.

Characters within the game might lament the possibility of their being caught in limbo, but our encounter with the work of art called Aperitif is one of approaching something always in flux and always pointing to incomplete or decaying possibilities. Video games broadly of the sort Aperitif belongs to often present the player with avenues which may be explored or ignored. In this instance, there might be dialogue options we do not choose, or we might miss sections of the map, and not trigger every piece of narrative description text. This is one potential way in which we experience this game as never fully resolving, as an altering space. Knowing that you could have told Agate “We are sisters and our fate is bound together” but instead you told her “I’m doing for you what no one did for me” when asked why you as Chalcedony keep looking after her means the game does not quite resolve into a fixed form (Heartscape & Rook, 2018). You might speculate on what would have happened in game if you took the other path, and your emotional response to the game might have been different also. This however could be said of most games of this broad type, and that all but the completist who must replay every possibile forked path experiences such a game as fluid in this way. However there is another instance of alterability in the experience of encountering Aperitif which melds with the former This instance is less common, and I would argue makes Aperitif a richer and more complex experience for its lack of solidifying resolution.

When playing Aperitif we are never given full, authoritative, and non conflicting information on anything we encounter. We experience much of the game as a mediation of a visual landscape which we interact with, and our proxy character’s interior monologues on this landscape, its history, its impacts. Each character has a different response to this space and the first half of the game consists of exploring the same map, with the same triggers for these monologues with each character offering a different association. A clearing with a pool triggers the text for Ever “this is where I hide”, for Brava the description is “I think this is where Ever goes to whack off”, and for Chalcedony it is simply “small water” (Heartscape & Rook, 2018). Across these multiple descriptions is presented a world that resists one single interpretation, but beyond this, the specific writing that the game employs is frequently one which is open, personal, multiple and incomplete. We experience the game therefor as a series of fragments, and these fragments feel less like they were crafted to convey one meaning than as they were pulled together and placed somewhere for them to form new associations with whatever text came before them and whatever the audience had already in mind. In a published interview, the writer Kathy Acker who practice involved cut ups and often plagiarized re-edits was asked about control in their work and gave the following response.

    “When you write are you controlling a text? When you’re really writing you’re not, you’re fucking with it” (Acker & Lotringer, 1991).

Text in Aperitif feels extremely fucked with, and invites the player to fuck with it further. The ruined signposts which litter Swamp-dot-com contain easy to cite examples of such fucked with text. Approaching these signs with a controlled character triggers an onscreen text. Some sign-triggered-text describes its context in the manner of “The sign says, Feeling depressed? This is the only thing it says” (Heartscape & Rook, 2018). Other sign-triggered-text such as “watch out for stuff” lack the initial contextual statement leaving available the possibility that this is something else other than what the sign reads (Heartscape & Rook, 2018). What could be read simply as inconsistency of form becomes yet another way in which the experience of this work of art invites us to embrace uncertainty. The narrative content of these signs re-enforces this. As a player there is real joy to be found in uncertain fragmented warnings and questions, which leave us plugging in whatever context we have to hand to try and make sense of. The fucked with text triggered by bringing a character near to one of these signs (or not, if you happen to miss them) sits very much within that definition of the horror genre from Thacker, as well as Eve Kosofsky Sedgwick’s broad definition of “Queer” as existing in “lapses and excesses of meaning” (Sedgwick, 2004). They elicit both the disbelief that what we read is correct and the absence of that which would fully qualify and resolve them.  

It would incorrect to suggest that there isn’t an overall linear narrative to Aperitif, but that narrative is not responsible for the only, or dominant experience of encountering it. That encounter, is one of being hit with a splattering of different affects, each eliciting thoughts and associations and creative possibilities for us as collaborator rather than mere musculature for that narrative skelton. O’Sullivan describes the affective encounter with art as “self overcoming”, to be immersed in our encounter to the point where our self, that certainly of the “I” becomes lost. The splattering of affects in Aperitif as we jump from witnessing character struggle to articulate their trauma and love, to the game on various levels presenting us with an incomplete or decaying experience of an incomplete or decaying world strongly provokes such self overcoming. This isn’t the unrelenting insistence that we forget our human body and commit to the protagonist of a narrative, supporting their every decision and telegraphed emotions backed up with orchestral swells, rather instead the game seduces us into active collaboration with never claims to be certain, and to be fine with this.

Philosopher and writer Helene Cixous in her text “The Laugh of The Medusa” called for women to write “Ecriture Feminine”  (Cixous, 1976). Such “women’s writing” presents an alternative of art, language, and being, distinct from the phalogocentric order which supports its power through reason. I believe that Aperitif embodies much of what Cixous called for, through its “intoxicating, unappeasable search for love” (Cixous, 1976).

Of relevance to a game series that began with a character “getting high and whacking off”, the Ectriture Feminine in “The Laugh of The Medusa” is frequently described in terms of masturbation. [Note about queerness and concept of “Woman” in Cixous] Principally this association is about the creation nof desire, of something that is erogenous at different territories and speeds. This is not the monomyth of phallocentricity, the seminal work where writing is built like a tower, but a multiplicity of queer desires that are not just the one dull drive to completion. Cixous elaborates on this with the following;

“Heterogeneous, yes, for her joyous benefit she is erogenous; she is the erotogeneity of the heterogeneous; airborn swimmer, in flight, she does not cling to herself; she is dispersible, prodigious, stunning, delirious and capable of others of the other woman that she will be, of the other woman she isn't, of him of you” (Cixous, 1976).

This is writing that self overcomes. The uncertainty of horror is now joyous delirium, yet the circumstances have not changed only our ethical position to them. Our encounter with Aperitif mirrors the loss of self, overwhelming affects, and improvised collaboration with an unstable world which its characters experience. However for us at least, this is not crashing trauma, but what O’Sullivan identifies in art as an exploration of the “possibilities  of being, of becoming in the world” (O’Sullivan, 2001).

[smolragematti]

StevenBomb 6 [ Heavy Spoiler Warning]

First, if you have watched the leaked videos, please try to watch them on TV when officially come out or on the CN app. Support the show. Please.

This is the edited version with the keep reading line so as not to accidentally spoil anyone who has yet to watch the Bomb or does not plan to watch until the May 8th (The Keep Reading/Read More is having trouble please let me know if it shows up)

1. What is Lion exactly? No really. He is beginning to feel slightly more like plot convenience. One second he can take 5 people to the moon and next he just takes Steven hours away from a destination in a desert. Barfs up a key. HOW AND FOR HOW LONG WAS THAT IN THERE?!?

2. It was nice seeing Connie’s dad for a bit. He seems pretty cool. More plz. 

3. Onion was running from Aquamarine and Topaz and I wonder what would have changed if they took him home instead of leaving him at FunLand

. 4. Lars got some development. Hazzah.

  5. The cool kids are actually cool and not some cool jerkish teenagers. Bless.

  6. I was a little hesitant on the voice saying “Are you my dad?” Being Aquamarine’s but now that I hear it, it works. She is small like a child so having that voice makes sense. 

7. Pearl can draw!!!!!!!!!!!

8. I did not expect that Topaz captures humans the way she does. I have to say that is really interesting. (Did they make sure to keep the humans fed? I mean their mouths were covered and it had been a good 12-24 hrs [max being Onion least being Jaimie].  Also, I am not surprised by the lack of personality. She is from homeworld. Probably meant to be a silent guard type of gem. She is only meant to do as she is told without questioning. Remember, they have a heavy caste like system. Disobedience is not tolerated. 

9. “Oh my god. Hulk Hogan finally made his cartoon debut” -Maddy’s reaction to Topaz

10. Aquamarine is Syndrome. I am so glad I wasn’t the only one to think this. 

11. How high and rare are aquamarines? Pearl’s reaction just made me curious. Like are they valued more than Sapphires??? I need answers. 

12. Pearl, Amethyst literally doesn’t know what the big deal is. She doesn’t know anything about Homeworld or how their system of importance works. She literally had not seen another Amethyst until the Zoo arc. 

13. “Report by Peridot 5XG” OOOOOOOOOO. Everyone was right. Its the list from Marbled Madness. Which makes me wonder how Peridot would take it if the Gems told her about it. 

14. Speaking of Peridot, how do they not know anything? Its not like the Barn is far away. Like they could probably see Alexandrite from the Barn if they looked the right way. Are they even going to tell those two? I would think that they need Peridot’s knowledge of current Homeworld in order to figure out a way to help Steven. Will they try to get her limb enhancers [would they even work after being in the water for months?]

15. Lars’ reaction isnt fucked up. I am about as skinny as him and I would probably piss myself. You really think he would make a difference? Sure you can try but with the possibility of getting injured, yeah no. Thats terrifying. Not everyone has to be brave. 

16. Jaimie and Onion are a blessing to the episode “I am My Mom”. Good comedic moments. And that dive gets a 7/10 in my book.

17. AQUAMARINE STOPPED ALEXANDRITE WITH HER ENERGY WAND. STOPPED. HER. SOMETHING MALACHITE HAD A SLIGHTLY HARD TIME TRYING TO DO. NO EFFORT. NONE. HOW STRONG IS SHE. LAPIS V AQUAMARINE. 

18. How much influence do the Diamond’s have in each other’s courts? Like Yellow Diamond sent Aquamarine, a blue gem most likely in Blue Diamond’s court. Is it because Yellow and Blue are equals that they can do this? Probably. 

19. Aquamarine and Topaz arent discount Lapis and Jasper. Fite me. Aquamarine, while I adore her, is a little bitch. Ready to tell Topaz to kill humans. She dont care. 

20. STEVEN YOU. NO. YOU CANT SING A SONG OUT OF THIS SITUATION. HOW ARE YOU EVEN GOING TO GET BACK. THE GEMS WOULD NEED A LONG TIME TO BUILD ANYTHING CAPABLE OF GOING INTO SPACE(MAGICALLY GET THE ARCHAIC SPACE SHIP RUNNING?!? IDK). MUCH LESS FAST SOMETHING ENOUGH TO GET TO HOMEWORLD. I DOUBT THE DIAMONDS WILL JUST GIVE HIM A PRIVATE FLIGHT BACK TO EARTH. STUFF WITH THEM CANT RESOLVE THAT QUICKLY.

21. THE DIAMONDS ARE GOING TO FIND OUT HE IS A HYBRID AND LIKELY EXPERIMENT OR TEST SOMETHING. IF PERIDOT KEPT THOSE REPORTS MAYBE THEY WOULD HAVE ACCESS ON HOW HE FIXED LAPIS’ GEM.

General Notes.

Part of me is concerned about the pacing of the show. They have to tell a fair chunk of info in 11 minutes along with not getting a consistent schedule like every Thursdays or something. I am worried that its somewhat coming back to bite the storytelling in the butt. While I enjoy Steven trying to help everyone, he also needs to learn how to do it in different situations for different people with different backgrounds. Garnet’s reaction after Room for Ruby made it seem like there was something he needed to change and do for her to have actually stayed. He tried to talk to Jasper like he would Lapis and Peridot, but she isnt like them. He didn’t approach the situation like he could have in order to have actually helped her. People can rant about it all they want, but Steven is a kid and he is going off of previous experience. It worked with Lapis and Peridot. So its a reasonable assumption that it work for her. He didn’t know about Pink Diamond. Now that he has information, he could try again. (provided this arc get resolved). The Diamonds might be the first step in him realizing that. Granted I do not think they would just ignore Steven’s existence much less let it slide. Plus we still have White Diamond. Who knows what she is like, much less how she feels about Rose Quartz or Pink Diamond’s shattering. We actually get to see homeworld. Different gems and their system of running things.

[fluffi]

so should i reply in tiny font or just regular font?

hybe should do better in spreading out the comebacks of the groups under them :/ they're already at a huge advantage, might as well use it strategically. AHA streaming mvs is so convenient for a multi. the filler vids i could use in between could be mvs from the other groups that i stan. also you know what, i still haven't watched a single final performance bc im waiting for a friend to watch with me :D

i have a chinese movie recommendation in case you want something to cry over. i still love its ost and it's been months since i watched it. i'm not sure if you watched it already but more than blue. i've never cried over a movie as much as i cried for that one. the angst *chef's kiss*. i'd do anything to wipe my memory of it and watch it again for the first time.

also sungchan is mc-ing in inkigayo every sunday! and honestly, what the hell is nct hollywood :D but a part of me thinks it's just going to be a bunch of asians living in america like johnny that'll be a part of it. just a hunch tho. imagine having all 4 units coming back in a year with like 1 unit per quarter of the year. i'm not sure if sm even has the money to do this, especially when they filed bankruptcy recently.

and i've seen a lot of twitter memes saying taro's ghosted stans T_T alexa play ghosting by txt T_T sm come on give him smth to do, you're wasting talent.

the mall didn't burn down entirely (like from the outside it looked fine). the ventilation system caught fire so it was more internal—ceilings and all that. covered things with soot(?) and ashes so the entire mall was closed for nearly 2 years. and hey, i've experienced a school fire too back when i was younger. i, too, thought it was nothing but a fire drill until i saw the charred remains of the buildings behind our school : D thankfully, no one died.

the new nct track is for a samsung commercial AHAHA it's funny because nearly everyone uses apple TT_TT and the mv screams neo culture tech tho (well as it should lmao). yes, i was talking about that part in hot sauce but yes, it grew on me too.

ateez really know how to do a performance. they put the standard so high for me when it came to performing. their facial expressions and overall stage presence just impresses me. it's been a while since i've seen idols draw me to them by those standards.

ah, the long stan list! good luck in getting through it and i hope you do have fun as you go :] (also you can check out aurora by ateez and whiplash by tbz. the songs popped up in my head as i was typing this reply, you might like them)

ohhhh, what was the pd48 scandal? i don't watch survival shows so i don't know any of the stuff going on. would you care to elaborate? about their disbandment :(( i hope you're okay now tho! are the other girls still debuting in new groups? anyone eyeing an acting career instead of being an idol?

YES, A PATTERN IN THE BIASES (if you count an analysis of two ppl as a pattern, that is.) because it's the same pattern i have for my biaswreckers :D jake & seungmin, not only do they have the same animal to represent them, they have the same 'golden retriever' type of personality that just makes you go all soft. ygwim ;n; i wish i could elaborate but both boys just devastate me in the same level and my friends pointed out that they were quite similar in some aspects.

jaemin used to send really long bbl messages :< like if there was anything he loved most it was nctzens and it was obv in his messages. speaking of dream, album repackage news today! idk what to feel bc my hot sauce albums haven't even arrived yet :D + i'm dead br0ke.

how do you even manage to read 30k TT__TT i cant handle long fics bc of my attention span :D also, yes, i found the user now, i'll check if i'll like their works soon. <33

YES YOU SHOULDVE BEEN THERE T_T what a day that was. i think seungmin is still sweet and active in bbl. not a single cent goes to waste with him. also i think i'll post the drabble some time this month.

and oml seungmin vs jake :o let's see how that goes O.O XDD

clickity-clackity AHAH do you have a mechanical keyboard? :c i wanted one too but i haven't got around to saving up for one. but yes indeed, typing asmr v relaxing \m/

sunny hyuck day, fullsun sunday, fullsunday T_T feels were very strong that day. i kept seeing edits on my twt tl and i would just s o b : D i've only stanned nct for a year but i've seen him grow so much i just wanted to crie i love him sm :') yk my mom didn't cook spaghetti for my birthday, but she cooked for hyuck's? : D

and i checked ur recs blog and indeed, full of nct T_T

also have i mentioned that your desktop thing amuses me so much HAHAH i got confused for a sec if i had twt opened or tumblr. plus, i've been wanting to mention that i noticed that our mobile themes are opposites. black and red, white and blue. it's cute XDD <3

help, people have been telling me that our asks are long but i highkey love it. i added a ‘keep reading’ for the mobile users though, sorry in advance hh.

honestly, both works. tiny font saves space but regular font does more justice for my poor eyes haha. its your call!

hybe comebacks :( yeah enhypen got lucky because they came back right before cb season so they got three wins (yay)! on the bright side, txt just got their first win and bts has six wins, so it all works out i guess. omg yes, the streaming thing is perfect. i stan like 20 groups so i have a never-ending cycle of filler mvs and its always so helpful. ooh for the final performances - you wont regret watching any of them! literally wild, kingdom's budget and talent are wild.

ooh, I don't watch any cdramas lmao. i want to but i can barely finish kdramas. if its a movie ill watch it! ive never heard of more than blue but ill check it out <3 where can i watch it?

yes yes i have just realized that sungchan is yujin's co-mc! i watched their special stage (which is literally adorable) and was today years old when i realized that the dude is sungchan pls. nct hollywood was so unexpected and i still have mixed feelings about it now. LMAO JUST ASIANS LIVING IN AMERICA...help. that would be interesting (?) but the concept reminds me of those horrendous awesomeness tv shows. lets hope sm pulls this off well and proves me wrong. lmao all 4 units coming back would probably happen, but i hope none of them get overworked :( i constantly feel like mork lee has four clones :'( also...sm filed bankcruptcy??? dang, what happened?

ugh omg yeah shotaros talent is seriously being wasted in the basement right now. as for fires, scary T-T i wasnt that fazed by them until the australia wildfires happened, and i learned about the consequences of fire and got really scared. its good that the entire mall didnt burn down though! although its weird that no one is opening it :( schools really need to tell us the difference between drills though, it might be dangerous for those rebellious kids.

yeah i just realized that the nct track is an endorsement which partly explains why i cant listen to it. the mv's visuals are stunning!! the set and people are so gorgeous aa i cant

oh yeah im not an atiny but i have acknowledged since 2020 that they have one of the best, if not the best stage presence and expressions on stage for 4th gen. i think their only worthy competitor would be stray kids actually. theyre truly one of a kind and all of them are cute especially that yeosang guy. i will definitely check out your song recommendations though!

oof the pd48 scandal is extremely complicated. to condense it in a few statements: all of the girls' rankings have been rigged since the very beginning and it was rumored that they already had their end group before the show even started. it was like this for pf48 and pdx101 (group x1) which was why x1 disbanded within a month of debuting, and izone were on hiatus for like 4 months. im not the best at explaining stuff like this haha, but i think you get it. you can check out yt or search up 'pd48 scandal', a ton of articles and videos. as for new groups, nothing has been made clear yet. theyve only made instagram handles for now and appeared on variety shows haha. as for acting career, hyewon was supposed to do acting but was forced to join pd48 so maybe she'll continue acting afterwards? nothing is confirmed yet!

lmao two similarities, its okay it counts. ah, true, i can see their similarities now that youve mentioned it, as well as how jeno is kind of like that. however, i am currently attached to jaemin so we'll see what happens from there hehe. i swerve easily.

jaemin on bubble grr, that would be a whole experience. from the bare minimum of vidoes ive seen for him wbk jaemin is so whipped for czennies. ah yes repackage! i saw the post on instagram and went to the comments to see everything screaming ‘iM bROke!’ and it was lowkey hilarious lmao. kpop is really trying to suck our money T-T.

ope the longest fic ive read is like...40k words i think? and it was by jeonginks. ill read anything eiko produces lmao, theres always so much substance in her work. ooh, tell me what you think of luvdsc’s stuff, i just finished binging their entire masterlist lmao.

seungmin vs jake yeah, i havent been catching up on skz enha content because im still obsessing over the dreamies but when that saga is over then im going to focus on my ults lmao (which might include dream soon, hehe).

yes yes i have a mechanical bluetooth keyboard that i use to connect to my computer! it literally sounds amazing lmao, its only 10am here but i feel like im going to doze off from the clickity clackitys already. i cant wait for you to get one! tell me when you do, we can match hehe.

hyuck is an aodrable brat please. hes like the best comedian of nct at this point, so hilarious and filled with variety i love him. he rose up my bias list pretty fast too. LMAO YOUR MOM IS SO COOL I LOVE HER ALREADY. if only my mom would cook for my ults’ borndays.

yes my rec blog is a mess right now, ill organize it soon haha.

omg thank you and yes my website theme is one-of-a-kind. even i get confused when i open it or edit it, and i constantly get comments about it. also i just realized our opposing theme colors and i love it! its adorable.

[diary-iguess]

wahppn

J: nothing bad it was just really hot and i changed clothes twice

wake up 7 o clock for my interview, eat one piece a bread and some orange juice

ace di interview

dem tell me fi fill out the application twice

some yout try sell me a jelly candy

it cant open, but eventually does

Monique forwards

i meet her friend in the painting studio and we go get a box lunch

i sit down and eat the food

im sweating my life away

R: pepper?

J: before meeting the hustling yout, i left my portfolio in the hr office so mi did have to go back for it

no it's just hot af inna kingston

and i was wearing a long sleeve shirt

Paige seh him nah fwd fi di shoot

Thevrtistisjvmvicvn is sitting next to me, but i'm talking more than he

me a wonda how he can go school in full business attire and not become a puddle of sweat

Yanah appears and asks if she can have something nutritious

on campus

like a shake

Juice immediately says no dawg

Juice is working on a mythological drawing, but the paper he's using is trash and i tell him so

he says something about how it will still sharpen his skills and i said he needs watercolor paper if he's going to mix it with watercolor

is my story interesting?

i'm interested in telling a good story

R: I'm more interested in your friend's names

J: thevrtistisjvmvicvn said he wants to be a curator, but hasn't curated any shows yet

i tell him do that shit

lmao

R: Thevrtistisjvmvicvn, Yanah, Monique and Juice

I actually fucking love Juice

Now i know there are places I can't say that out loud

J: i ask my father if he can pick me up because Paige nah forward

he replies hmm

lmao have you seen the film?

my phone is dying and i have no credit because the tuck shop only selling $500 credit today

*back to the story*

i'm telling you this from my laptop

R: What parent says "hmmm"? was this a text?

J: yes

i knowwww

like

can't even K me

wtf

my shoes too big for me, so i stand on them instead of wearing them for a bit

Juice is playing music on his phone and one of the songs is from frank ocean's second project that he released the same time as blonde

my mind is blown

R: That must be some song

J: Yanah returns from the tuck shop with water still disappointed that there is no health food available

more mindblowing that he released two projects at once

i tell theartistisja that i like doing projects with many layers of meaning and process

i talk about my ananse storybook thesis and how i want everyone to know ananse is a deity and amina blackwood meeks taught me that

i say something like "yea, she's rad"

i talk about how the first time i met easton lee, i believed someone when they joked that he was 100 years old

and hoped that he didnt remember when i asked him if it was true

im dying laughing rn

my cousin invites me to sit and do work together at starbucks later

my father sends me a message "M is here, please call her through K-dollasign"

R: googled Easton Lee

J: lmao what did you find? he and my grandmother are friends

they're both legendary chinese-jamaicans

R: I can see he's definitely chinese-jamaican

J: yes and so is my grandma lol

R: author, poet

not bad

1931

J: but no doubt their swagger is enwrapped in their proximity to afro-jamaicanness

wow he's 87 this year

or 86?

M is my grandmother

i message K-dollasign

"i heard grandma M is here"

he replies "makes sense"

but intonates that he was not previously informed

i try to decode my father's message and K-dollasigns response

"makes sense"

he must be referring to Shutterbug's wedding

the same one i wasn't sure i was invited to

R: LOL

wow

are you going?

J: wait nuh man

R: lol

J: okay so i reach home, turn on my laptop

charge my phone

i frantically whatsapp my relatives

fb message uncle Macbook to get in touch w grandma

i try to search the internet for clues as to when this wedding will be

my sister says i should just ask Shutterbug if i can come

so i do that

uncle Macbook replies me with a different number to call, i call, get grandma

she says "no, no, no, you can't come to the wedding, the guests have already been counted and there's too many"

my heart sinks

i say, okay, well i can still see you today?

my cousin Carlton who wants to go to starbucks has arrived at my house

R: woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow

J: i try to devise a plan with Carlton and grandma and my dad all talking at once to pick grandma up and she says something about not wanting to be stranded and i say we would never let that happen to her

the phone isn't working very well and at some point my father has the phone

i return to my whatsapp messages on the laptop and Shutterbug has replied!

"hey, we were overcapacity a few months ago, but there's some space now. if you can make it on sunday, please come"

i tell grandma what she said

"okay, but how are you getting there? and where are you going to stay?"

i had not thought of this second part

the wedding is in mobay

R: MUFUFUFUFU

on a beach

duh

just sleep on the beach and get dressed in someones room in the morrow

J: i quickly say "aunty Rose's"

and she has already said she's very busy today and the plan to see me nah work out

"see you in mobay then!"

okay bye grandma, i love you!

"i love you too sweetheart"

now i have to whatsapp aunty Rose and see if she will shelter me

and K-dollasign to see if i can drive with him

R: funny at points but not a bad day

J: Carlton still deh yah a try reach liguanea fi get some food

the story did not get resolved yet

lol

it wasnt a bad day just long af

R: wait what

J: let me try summarize

R: Well I mean, between Yanah's Healthy snack Crisis and the Wedding Snafu, I thought the day was sealed with you tryna get aunty Rose

J: I was also supposed to meet Pearl at starbucks for 3pm

when Carlton and i pull up to starbucks, Rose a walk up deh too

synchronicity

R: 'the hell? Starbucks is a spot now?

J: that's the culture of the company

im like baffled as to both my grandmother and father asking me if starbucks is an appropriate place to link and do work together

that's how they've been selling the place for at least the last ten years

i order a tall strawberry and cream frappe w coconut milk and Carlton is very excited to get a pumpkin spice frappe, no latte because he doesn't want to burn his tongue

yesterday Pearl showed me a video she edited featuring this black guy with ginger hair, Souffrant

Souffrant appears before us in starbucks and sits at our table

i'm supposed to edit my own video with Pearl's color correction advice, but i'm still trying to figure out my travel situation

before we went to starbucks, we walked to tastees and my mom replied to my frantic messages about grandma and the wedding with "ur not paying attention to what i tell u"

there's like a whole thing where i'm trying to get my cousin Jazz's number to ask if i can go from kingston to mobay with him because K-dollasign is unavailable.

aunty Rose says of course i can stay with her and of course she has Jazz's number

resolve dat, so mi have a place to stay and a drive

there are several unrelated phone calls that need to be made but mi still nah no credit, so i borrow Souffrant's phone

then the next chapter is me, Carlton, and Pearl trying to walk to sov after i finally finish editing my video.

i take some really dope shots of the sunset

pause for incoming illustration

R: i mean

sure

make hay

all of the birds with 1 stone

J: -picture of sov-

R: this is sov

dark

but its sov

J: it's the golden sunset reflecting off the walls

then we all go to kfc and then i try look for some shoes to wear to the wedding, but then mi nuh even know if it's really a beach ting, but never fear, my likkle sister is here to whatsapp me the link to the wedding info website the couple set up!

it's a garden brunch affair ting

so we think to go to lee's instead of payless and when we reach back in fronta payless di people dem close

so now i will go to the thrift store tmrw to cop a whole new fit from the dress to the shoes.

when i reach home my father is going to the airport and grandma (dad's mom, not the one i was tryna see earlier) asks me to come with them which i would have done anyway.

driving back from the airport, grandma's bajan soca music continues to play in the car, but it seems louder now without dad's voice. i try to talk to grandma about herself. i ask about high school. she says, "do you expect me to remember 50 years ago"

i'm like yes of course

she said

"well

i was head girl"

of course! i say

and she was also in charge of sports such as running

the drive back home is very slow because grandma cant really see in the dark

when we finally reach home and i lay inna mi bed, mi wonda why mi so tiyad

and now i know why

thanks for tuning in, this has been an appreciation for the life we live, by Jeana like jeans pants

totes forgot the best part where K-dollasign pulled up on Carlton and me in traffic when we walked back to the plaza to get to the car

then another man pulled up on us and Carlton cuss me jokingly bout how i know everyone and we probably see someone else weh mi know

#fabulous

R: like bloodcleet jeans pants

yea, cause clearly you're a superstar

beer people, links and visits

J: