#i couldnt get the sara right

[mudmerry]

first thing i did in 2024 was replay yttd and first thing i drew in 2024 was yttd fanart,, wonderful sign

[kiyomi-86]

this is a whole bunch of yttd yapping abt shin keiji and kai which is also not proofread so have fun ig

warning: spoilers for the whole game

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guys shin tsukimi is such a well written character u guys don't understand he got the 0% and changed his personality to be like sou hiyori (midori) just to end up finding out he was behind this. he was portraying himself as a villain when in actuality the villain was awaiting on the next floor. also in the first main game he wanted to get voted out so kanna could live, and (haven't played through the full shin route bare with me) its understandable if his actions are slightly questionable after because he just watched her die and saw the worst person in his life. like what would you do. YK WHO ELSE IS SUPER WELL WRITTEN. KAI. Kai deserved to live longer I'm telling you imagine his reaction to seeing gashu and rio ranger. UGHHHH. but yk the scene where Sara's like "when I was walking home that night, It's almost like the stalker was trying to.. talk to me?" yap yap then it shows a picture of Kai saying don't go home. he was obviously involved but not in a bad way, he just had to protect Sara. Sara would've gone to school the next day if she listened. ugh ugh ughh god that scene made me pause. YK WHAT ELSE?? OR WHO BUT YK. KEIJI. THIS IS KINDA HEARTBRAKING BUT YK THAT FEELING WHEN UR TRUING TO HELP A FRIEND OR WHOEVWR WITH WHAT THEYRE GOING THROUGH THATS SAD AND YOIVE BEEN THROIGH IT TOO AND SAD YOU COULDNT PROTEVT THEM?? dare I say keiji and Sara (father daughter dynamic fight me) based on the storyline keiji had his hallucinations when he shot his idol right? how much would it hurt him to see a literal 17yo highschool girl go through that. like he had to watch her get the same type of hallucinations and it's so sad to me, when I saw a scene that kinda mentioned that alot I literally was so UGSHHSHSHS cries sobs

got the yaps out cya (nobody read this)

[mugiwara--ya]

big life update including new job and yet another near death experienced wooooo

i got an easier, better paying, full time job with $$$ benefits $$$ and everyones extremely nice and lovely !!!!!!!!

then less than a week later i had to go to the ER for horrible horrible pain fever etc and ended up hospitalized for over a week with a severe kidney infection . dissociated through the entire thing it was awful and whenever i was lucid enough i was literally just crying the whole time and im still on antibiotics bc it was/is . an extremely aggressive infection .

and for Convoluted Reasons i barely understand, i couldnt like. take an actual medical leave . it was just my word of "hey im really sorry but im literally fucking dying". again not even a week into it, had barely finished training right before i blacked out lol

and then ! i got better ! and its all like a bad dream and im never thinking of this again :))))))) !!!

and ! i STILL SOMEHOW KEPT MY JOB !!!!! and i got right back 2 it lol and even though i had barely met like 3 ppl before getting sick everyone knew i was hospitalized and literally every new person i talk to asks me how im doing and its like ???!?!?!?!? and idk its a GREAT place to work holy shit. and like dont get me wrong its just a boring corporate job (insurance) but again everyones just SO NICE and so far ive been doing WFH but next week i'll go meet everyone at the office !!!! and god im so happy bc now both sara and i are working decent paying full time jobs and we're planning to move on december and oh my god dude . oh my god .

so yah thats how ive been doing thanks 4 coming to my ted talk !

[mydoctor]

9 people you'd like to get to know better

Tagged by @catalogercas thanks!

3 Ships: roy/jamie, dean/cas, jim/spock

aka the current, the been here awhile, and the forever

First Ship Ever: so i was late into online fandom spaces due to a few things so my first like Ship Ship where i was aware of what ship even meant was nine/rose. But back in the day like my middle/high school CSI days i shipped greg/sara real bad(sorry grissom). Listen my affinity for a sad wet pathetic fictional man goes back Years greg sanders was The Blueprint

Last Song: Family of Six by Petey. I’m going to see Petey in two weeks and im so excited his stuff slaps if you’re a former emo kid like me ✌️

Last Movie: i watched pee wees big adventure last weekend with a friend and I hadn’t seen it since I was a literal child and wow that movie does not get less weird

Currently Reading: im in a fanfic hole so the last book I read was months ago but it was We Ride Upon Sticks by Quan Berry and it absolutely slaps. Please read if you want to hear about teen girls in the 80s getting into the witchcraft to win field hockey

Currently Watching: I just finished the fall of the house of usher last night and unfortch it was slightly too yucky for me so I couldnt pay attention too much and missed a lot. It was good background for working on furbs though. Its probably good im just a big baby with fictional gore/horror

Adding Currently Playing: replaying Beautiful Katamari while I wait for baldurs gate 3 to come out for Xbox. Nothing like celebrating getting the newest gen console by playing a game on it from 2007 ✌️

Currently Consuming: just had a sandwich and salad from the mcalisters that just opened right near me 👍 i was hungry when i got it then when i got home everything seemed yucky but i ate it anyway(it was good) please clap

Currently Craving: attention

tagging @pixiestickers @lookforanewangle @captainshakespear @bishakespeares @cassiefisherdrake but no pressure!

[brownbitchshit]

So yesterday I rewatched the entire Young Royals s1, not just bits and pieces. And I realized two things and which is why I am actually happy for Simon to get a new love interest :

Wilhelm treated Simon very badly in s1. Look I love Wille with all my heart and I think Edvin is one of the best young actors I have seen but Wilhelm was really shitty towards Simon. He loved him and adored him but he also disposed him time and again when things got hard which I understand why he did but from Simon's perspective it was really shitty thing to experience. At first Wilhelm kept leading him on and then shutting him out. And then his first reaction to the drug thing was to insult Simon lile a hypocrite when they got caught for doing it but he still said nasty stuffs to Simon for dealing it. The worst was when he visited Simon after the statement. He came in with a nonchalance vibe and said that was the only choice but they could still be together secretly as if Simon didn’t beg him to support him, not to throw him to the wolves and the fact that he was not ashamed to be in a relationship with Wille because they did nothing wrong. And when Simon said about not wanting to be a secret, Wille initially shouted saying he couldnt come out and how could Simon ask him that. Like dude how can you ask Simon to be a secret when he is going through such a horrible time. I actually got angry on Simon's behalf but kudos to Simon and it shows what a great and kind character he is, because he didnt hold any grudge against Wilhelm. He kindly and politely told him off and even in the end treated him with kindness because he knows it's hard for Wilhelm. I realized that Sara was right and Simon did let Wilhelm walk all over him.

So I think it would be a good thing for Simon to experience a relationship where he has equal footing and with someone who is fine with being with him in public. This is good for his self preservation. And it's good for Wilhelm too because he'll understand how Simon actually needs to be treated and how easy things will be for Simon if he choose to be with someone like Marcus and the fact that he is still there for Wilhelm, he needs to step up and treat Simon right.

[ilkkawhat]

Howdy. Did you watch any of the new csi show? If so, what were your thoughts. I watched a few episodes and thought it was good but didn't get too invested. Probably because I missed the whole gang. Of course, I was never gonna get the whole gang because of Warrick :( but my heart couldnt handle it lol. But, hey, maybe if you were super into it I might give it another go?

I have! I watched the entirety of season 1 and am about half a season behind I think on season 2? I think I stopped ironically right before Greg returned which is no fault to the show itself (rather some bad depression and severe intrusive thoughts that unfortunately affected me in ways that impacted my fandom life so to speak but that's not the focus of this ask)

I did enjoy what I did see and will admit some major nostalgia lust when it came to returning characters (still holding out for Nick of course lol and have had soooooo many dreams of it happening--weirdly enough I even had one where Nick, Sara, Warrick and Greg were all back together), and of course overall prefer the OG series, BUT I do enjoy the new characters as well--some have qualities that remind me of the old gang like Folsom gives me major Nick vibes sometimes (and well, he's just hot), Allie gives me some Sara vibes, etc. but also have their own qualities I enjoy too and I do look forward to catching up when I feel up for it!

[dungeonscribe]

Fandoms: Mha, Genshin

Amount of chapters planned: 60

just a uh normal crossover I thinks, I got really bored and when someone suggested I write something like this I said "Screw it. Why not." then started planning this one at the start of the summer but didn't have much time to do any significant planning

Just some general silliness of having genshin characters in the mha world but also the angst that comes with it I guess

and as the first post on this blog, a lot of these will just be rants about parts of the fic, not any of the actual parts fully written

Cast: Almost everyone from Mha, literally only Mineta, Sato, Ojiro, and Hagakure wont be there, bc I have no intentions of even trying to get their characters anywhere close to canon and also just didn't want to write them. As for Genshin, for majority of the fic it will be a specific cast of characters, 2 from each nation (inazuma has 3) until a certain point, in which I'll add 3 more characters. only at the last few chapters will it switch back to teyvat and then the whole playable cast will be there

All of the following were selected by a wheel

From Mondstadt, Albedo & Mika

From Liyue, Gaming & Qiqi

From Inazuma, Sara, Heizou, and Kuki

From Sumeru, Wanderer & Layla

From Fontaine, Furina & Freminet

From Natlan, Kinich & Kachina

From Snezhnaya, Dottore & Pantalone

If you couldnt tell, most parts including natlan and snez characters will be planned before their release in mind, so their characterizations being wrong is literally because of that, shrugs, if I feel the difference is too big I'll rewrite their parts lol

Timing: Mha, about 7 months before the entrance exam, for genshin it starts after the events of Fontaine

Story Layout

Tbh i plan on making the chapters long as hell to make up for how few I have for certain Arcs, but like considering how much I plan on writing they would have been long already

Entrance Exam Arc: Chapters 1 - 4

Quirk Apprehension Test Arc: Chapters 5 - 6

Battle Trial Arc: Chapters 7 - 10

U.S.J Arc: Chapters 11 - 16

U.A Sports Festival Arc: CHapters 17 - 24

Vs. Hero Killer Arc: Chapters 25 - 30

Final Exams Arc: Chapters 31 - 35

Forest Training Camp Arc: Chapters 36 - 41

Hideout Raid Arc: Chapters 42 - 45

After this it clips back to the world of Teyvat since I don't want to get into the whole rise of villains saga just yet (I wasn't pay attention when I read up to that part, so it doesn't feel right to write it)

Act I: The Outlanders Who Caught the Wind [46 & 47]

Act II: Farewell, Archaic Lord [48 & 49]

Act III: Omnipresence Over Mortals [50 & 51]

Act IV: Truth Amongst the Pages of Purana [52 & 53]

Act V: Masquerade of the Guilty [54 & 55]

Act VI: Incandescent Ode of Resurrection [56 & 57]

Act VII: Everwinter Without Mercy [58 & 59]

Epilogue: Chapter 60

I'll decide after the epilogue whether i wanna go to the next saga or not

onto the next post lol

[izzysbeans]

It is so common of me to wish i was dead. As a kid i was obsessed with beetlejuice, i wanted to be like Lydia, talk to the dead. I even asked my mom one day if i could have her seance table with candles and all. I remember how she freaked out: she thought i'd started to like the dead more then i did the living. In retrospect maybe she was right. She forbade me from watching beetlejuice for a while, but ghosts were everywhere and she couldnt stop death from following me.

Around that time my grandmother and my great-grandmother both past away. I insisted my mom let me see their bodies. She couldnt believe how calm i was. 8 years old, looking death straight in the face, no fear in sight but rather fascination instead.

At 11 i started going out on my own and id walk alone to the cemetery, sit right at my grandfather's grave and tell him all about how me and my brother were doing. Id see him in every white butterfly and every sunflower field. I envied that peacefulness and i wished i could reach him.

At 14 i met a boy who liked to cut his thighs. He hated his life and there was a weight of expectations on his shoulders, things he could never do, he could never be. He tried to kill himself and i screamed out the door of that bathroom so loud i thought i'd never be able to speak again. My brother kicked the door down. There was a lot of blood. He survived and he hated me for saving him. I didn't know what i was saving him from. It broke my heart i wondered if it was my right to make that decision for him, if i had made the right one.

That same year i tried to kill myself too. It is not that i thought there was no way out or that i was trapped in some way. I felt like i didn't have anything to do with this world or in it. I felt like there was no saving me anyway. Id imagine my friends and family suffering for my death. Slowly but surely getting over it. I took all my pills and i went to sleep. Too quickly my body realized what i had done and i started throwing up compulsivly. We lied about what had happend when i went to the hospital. I felt nothing when i woke up.

When i turned 16 my cousin Sara past away. She left a husband and two kids here. I went to see her body and in a way i was relieved for her. She had suffered so much because of her cancer. I couldnt fathom her strenght, she foght it for so long. At her funeral i cried in anger because the priest dared to say god had claimed her and god makes no mistakes: i kept thinking how cruel must a god be to rip a family apart like this. For the first time i thought maybe death wasnt so fair after all.

At 21 i studied to become a mortician. For the most part i was just looking for a job. I felt like not many people wanted to do it and it seemed like something i could be good at. I saw some bodies and reacted accordingly. I was happy. It felt like i was doing a good thing. Honoring them. But there isnt much work in that industry for someone who looks the way that i do. So i had to find a new job.

Now i work at a tech company and i find myself back to when i was 8. Wondering every day what lies beyond the vail. Wishing i was experiencing Lydia 's adventures. Wanting to cross over to find out what else is there. One foot here one foot in a different realm, always living a half life, never fully experiencing anything. I stay in the world of the living and yet all my life i have lived as a ghost.

I am alive but death still follows me.

[kusanalogy]

Perfect plan

Characters: hu tao x gn!reader

a/n: hu tao's birthday special! I was supposed to put sara with this since her bday was only yesterday, but i didnt like the outcome so i decided to do it with hu tao. I enjoyed writing this tbh, ill most likely do more of these. Childe's bday is next and the fatui teaser gave me motivation so ill give him a bday special too <3

inspired from her 2022 birthday letter, Not the exact scenario (but same idea) and reader is not the traveller/mc

word count: 300+

She said she got the perfect plan for activities to do on her birthday, but you did not expect her to take you fishing.

A few days ago, She found a book about fishing while putting up posters for promoting the funeral parlor. Well, of course she had to get it! It was on sale, it was a good collection for her bookshelf, and maybe inspiration for poems

"Sooo... this is how we're gonna spend your birthday?" You sigh

Hu tao nods "Isnt it amazing? Ah, looks like you got a fish!"

"Hm? I didnt, what are you talking abo-" you turn to her confused, but it seems like she disappeared.

You look around the area, trying to find hu tao until you hear a voice by the shallow waters.

"sorry i distracted you!!!! Im gonna catch this! WITH MY HANDS" She shouts as she tries to grab the fish with her hands

You run up to your girlfriend so you could get her attention "Uh- are you sure thats a good idea!?"

She didnt respond, but instead caught the fish "It worked my y/n!! get the bucket, quick! its very slipperly.." Hu tao demanded

Hu tao attempting to catch a fish with her hands while it slides out of it multiple times. The scene and thought made you laugh. Almost making you not want to help her and just watch for entertainment. But you still get the bucket from your original fishing spot, and hu tao manages to putthe fish in.

"Phew, that was a lot of work! It'll make a good dinner though, so its worth it" Hu tao said

You wipe the sweat off her forehead "...You know, we couldve just switched locations if you couldnt get fishes with the fishing rod. Anyways, lets get back. You're clothes are in a mess right now"

"Sigh, oh y/n, thats the fun part! hey, after this, how about we take a walk around wuwang hill? Or recite poems? or-"

You interrupted "Yes yes, we'll do it all once your cleaned up. You dont wanna smell like fish, no?"

[tweedledumble]

today im thinking abt the genshin acc that i abandoned bc i did the ar ascension quest months after i turned ar 35 and turned ar 43 right away and kept getting killed by slimes </3

thinking abt c4 razor whose talents i couldnt level up because i turned all my broken masks into stained masks and accidentally turned all of those into ominous masks </3

thinking abt barbara who i was planning to use as a dps bc funny but i had to abandon that dream bc the oceanid became too hard to fight </3

thinking abt rosaria. my sweet baby rosary. i was fighting skirmishers for her. i learned how to one phase the cryo regisvine for her. i was so proud of her 1k dmg but got bullied by friend for the low dmg so i turned into a razor main that same day bc i was too lazy to farm for better artifacts </3

thinking... abt ningguang... the first character i ever pulled and how i was gonna put her on my main team after i learned how to fight the geo hypostasis... but couldnt bc i ran out of artis... </3

thinking abt ayaka and how i only ever used her to ice bridge bc i was scared shitless of inazuma so i never had the materials to ascend her </3

thinking abt xiangling... im sorry queen </3

thinking abt gorou and how much i cussed him out for coming home instead of shinobu knowing damn well i did not pre farm for her </3

thinking abt sara and how much i screamed when she came home bc she was the first char i got from a one pull </3

thinking abt bennett and how ecstatic i was when he came home bc finally!! a pyro user!!1! </3

bro i miss that acc so much but my cowardice overpowers all other senses😭 i will never ever go back to that lvl 67 treasure horder hellhole

bonus

thinking abt the shithead who joined my world and was like "can i farm for kazuha" n i was like yea ofc u can go crazy man n they were like "can u help" n i was like omg yea sure wtvr u want man bc i didnt know what materials kazuha needs bc why would i and they made me fight the maguu kenki for the first time in my life and i was so so scared and unprepared bc i never fought it b4??!?!?@,?! but i didnt wanna admit it so i pulled up w my 1k max dmg lvl 70 rosaria and 900 on a good day dmg lvl 56 barbara and kept dying <///3 bro had to carry me w their 6k+ dmg razor

idk why i called them shithead sry they were decent im just salty bc they had us fight it 6 times in a row i was crying the whole time wondering what i did to deserve that

[walkwithheroes84]

Pasion de Gavilanes, Season 2

I was excited to hear about the second season, but hearing some people discuss it - have they ruined the main couples from season 1? 

Let’s talk about the  Reyes-Elizondo family.

Should I watch this? Am I mistaken about anything?

Spoilers follow:

Norma and Juan: Look, I never found them to be that exciting. But, they sound down right boring in season 2. They look for lost horses. Juan stares at people in an intense way. They have a meal with Juan David. They discuss Leon and Erik. They look for horses. Meanwhile, their twins are assholes, and I know these two wouldn’t raise assholes.

Óscar and Jimena: Firstly, I thought she was going to have a child at the end of S1? Or am I remembering Tierra de Reyes? But, instead they are the fun aunt and uncle, who own a store. Which is great. 

I could see Jimena as being the fun aunt, who listens to the problems of everyone. Jimena was always a sweetheart. Spoiled sweet, as they say.

But, Oscar. ..yeah. I know he was always a bit of a money-hungrey jerk. HOWEVER, he was loyal to Jimena. Now, we have him having/had haved an affair and a son from that affair? And gaslighting Jimena! She’s seeing people wonder around their garden, and he’s basically telling her she’s seeing things that aren’t there. 

Sara and Franco: I completely understand that Michel Brown was too busy for the show, and they originally plan to have Sara as a widow - with Michel Brown coming in for a few days to film flashbacks. But, even when Michel Brown was able to film longer - they should have still kept to the orignial idea. 

Having Franco disappear on Sara and their children three years before the start of the season doesn’t sit well with me. (Even if he was kidnapped or something). Couldnt they just say he was overseas on business?. I get that they had to refilm things when Michel Brown was able to film more, but having him leave/be kidnapped feels like drama for drama.

Rosario: First, I could swear that Rosario went to Sara and Franco’s wedding to tell them that she was sorry for everything she did to them and that she was off to find her own happiness.I get that she married an abusive man and ran back to her home town. That alone could be a great story - especially as he’s looking for her. But, now we have her in a story that doesn’t really flow with her character arc from season one. (At least two me), 

The season shows her singing, sleeping with Juan David, and whine about Franco being the love of her life. 

Gabriela: I thought she would have become a better person after 20 yrs -especially after the events of season one. Nope. She’s horrible toward her daughters, granddaughter, sons-in-law. She only listens to the twins, who are horrible people.

Juan David: He’s sleeping with Rosario. But, he had a ‘love at first sight’ moment with Muriel, who happens to be Rosario’s daughter. 

Leon and Erik: Norma and Juan’s twins. They may or may not have killed a man. They appear to be idiot jerks most of the time. Let’s hope for character development.

Gaby: She’s Sara and Franco’s daughter. Of course she’s smart. And of course her grandmother ignores everything she says.

Andrés: I believe he’s Sara and Franco’s son? But, I don’t think he has munch going on. I know Rosario flirted with him in front of Sara and it seemed super awkward.

Sara, Norma, and Jimena: Twenty years ago, these ladies were out solving mysteries. Now, they really aren’t? I understand that the show is trying to focus o on their children/the younger generation. 

But, the  Elizondo Sisters I knew would not leave things be. They’d really be working on solving everything. For example, Jimena finds a house on their land. It’s a brick house with a smoking chimney.  The Jimena I know would have gone back, get her sisters -maybe grab Juan - and they would have gone back. Not just ride away. Norma and Juan would be taking care of things for Leon and Erik. Not let them (badly) deal with solving the myserty of who really killed the man they are said to have killed.

[radiorenjun]

Okay so imma rant about my whole day today related to genshin cosplayers so GET READY TO BE ENVIOUS OF MY Y/N MOMENTS @lebrookestore @gu-nil since yall were lowkey curious about the thing in my previous post here's context LMAOAOAOA

So like I went to this anime event called Animetokku in this mall near my house right AND THERE WERE LIKE SO MANY AMBER, YOI, HUTAO (ESP HUTAO), KUJOU SARA, XIAO AND BAAL COSPLAYERS BUT BRO SOMEONE COSPLAYED MS HINA?? I swear I saw someone shirtless to commit to their xosplay and I saw like a dinosaur cosplay, a heizou cosplay, TRANSFORMER COSPLAYS and a sht ton of demon slayer cosplays.

So like i was a kobeni cosplayer right? Handing out paper cranes to my friends and for the sake of privacy I'll be changing everyone's names so like I met up with my ex senior Cici who was cosplaying as hutao right and were both BIG NICCHO SIMPS (nicchocholas is this Xiao Cosplayer in indo u can look him up on insta he's super duper hot and he's great at cooking genshin foods on his tiktok) and then like I was their photographer whenever we come across each other so I took photos of them being kabedoned by a female gojo cosplayer (God I wished I was cici in that moment the gojo cosplayer was so fcking pretty bye)

And then afterwards we like lost each other in the mall right and me and my friends( blue, Oyster and cake) were getting tired because we were walking for like hours and hours taking pics and shit and we decided to go to Starbucks and otw we found a scaramouche cosplayer and they were posing w strangers yk w awkward distances in between them yk AND ME BEING SOMEONE WHO LITERALLY PLAYEF GENSHIN FOR SCARA I HAD TO ASK FOR A PIC RIGHT SO I CAME UP AND ASK FOR A PIC AND THEY??

OMG THEY STEPPED CLOSER TOWARDS ME? WRAPPED THEIR ARM AROJND MY SHOULDER AND PULLED ME TO THEIR SIDE?? BRO MY HEART WAS BEATING SO FAST I COULDNT EVEN TAKE THE PIC PROPERLY I WAS SCREAMING I WAS CRYING I WAS DYING IT FELT LIKE FLYING HUT MAYBE I WAS DYING WHO KNOWS AND I LITERALLY FELT MY HEART DO THE DOKI DOKIS AND LIKE? OH MY GOD IM STILL ALL GIDDY THINKING ABOUT IT HELP

And then we walked towards Starbucks right to take a rest and then lookie we met up w Cici and their sister (I'm good friends w their sister too since we were classmates) and then like they were like "OMG ANGIE HAVE U SEEN NICCHO YET" I WAS LIKE "OML NO HAVE U" AND SHES LIKE "NOT YET BUT MY FRIEND ALR TOOK A FRIEND WAIT" AND THEN LIKE THEY OPENED DISCORD TO SHOW ME THEIR FRIEND AND U KNOW WHAT??

BRO CICIS FRIEND WAS THE SCARAMOUCHE COSPLAYER OH MY GOD ??

and so we set on a mission to go find the scaramouche cosplayer so we can get more info on niccho ans CICI (SHES A HUTAO COSPLAYER, MIND YOU) TOOK MY WRIST AND STARTED RUNNING ACROSS THE MALL, PULLING ME WITH HER. I ALMODT TRIPPED ON MY OWN FEET AND WHEN MY HAND SLIPPED OUT THEY GRABBED IT SO I DONT GET LOST AND SOMEHOW WE WERE RUNNING ACROSS THE MALL HAND IN HAND TOGETHER?? HELLO??

I FELT LIKE A SHOUJO PROTAGONIST HELLO IS YHIS WHAT IT FEELS LUKE TO BE A MAIN CHARACTER? TO BE Y/N??

DUDE I ALMOST SLIPPED AND WE WERE SQUEEZING IN BETWEEM THE CROWD HAND IN HAND WHILE ALSO DITCHING BLUE OYSTER AND CAKE

and then we found the scaramouche cosplayer and cici was like "angie is a huge simp for u now" AND I DEADASS HID BEHIND BLUE OUT OF PURE EMBARRASSMENT BYE AND THEN WE TOOK PICS AND THEN PART WAYS RIGHT AND NOT LONG AFTER ME AND OYSTER FOUND THIS ZHONGLI COSPLAYER HE WAS SUPER HOT BUT HES LIKE A COLLEGE STUDENT I THINK AND OH MY GOD

I WAS ABOUT TO TAKE A PIC WITH HIM RIGHT BUT BEFORE I XOULD ASK HES LIKE "CAN I TAKE A PICTURE QUICKLY?" TO ME AND MY FRIEND CAMILA AND BRO??? BRO??? I DIDNT GET TO TAKE A PIC Q HIM ON MY PHONE BUT HE HAS A PIC OF ME AND HIM ON HIS PHONE QHICH HES GONNA POST ON INSTA IM SCREAMING???

AND THEN THE ZHONGLI COSPLAYER WAS LIKE "hey Oyster can u hold my phone for a bit" and I turned to Oyster "Oyster u know this dude?" AND Oyster was like "o yeah he's my sisters friend" AND I DEADASS

MY JAW

DROPPED.

SCREAMINF CRYING PUNCHING THE AIR RN?

anyways I will sleep peacefully tonight thank you

[weirdmageddon]

good lord what a fucking stressful day

driving up to class there was a truck in front of me for like ten straight minutes that was going 19 mph on a 35 mph road and there was a car behind me and i could just feel his pain too. it was taking all my mental effort to not blare my horn. soon as that fucking truck turned onto another road i pressed down so fucking hard on the gas pedal to get across the message to the cars behind me that i was pissed off we had to go that slow and that it was not my decision like sort of an apology to them like “you saw that fucking guy?? im not gonna keep putting you through that”

then when i got out of class i drove to the bookstore and was told i have no funds in my account to buy books and that i need to go to financial aid office. then i got anxious because nobody there knew where it was (i dont live on-campus so idk either) and i couldnt find any answers online because the map wasnt loading.

so then i looked at one of those “you are here” maps around campus and saw that financial aid was on the other side of route 41/tamiami trail (left side of campus). so i waited at that stupid light for 5 minutes and once i got to the other side i had to find a place to park which was annoying, and i still couldnt find the stupid office. i asked inside the first building i saw and the lady said it was across the road (pointing to the OTHER road, not route 41) so i walked over there. didnt look like the financial office but i checked anyway and it was locked, (and it wasnt the financial aid office). btw i’m in florida if it’s not obvious by “tamiami trail” and i have a heat intolerance (im 99.99% certain i have POTS, all i need is an official diagnosis but i havent had the appointment yet) and i started getting really fatigued and i was sweating my ass off and couldnt think straight and i felt that i was starting to get teary.

so im trying to find this stupid office in this oppressive heat. with a heat intolerance. and wearing a mask which made it feel a lot harder to get in air. i tried to ask this random kid but i broke down in front of him because i couldnt hold my shit together over something so minor as being unable to find this fucking office and i bet he thought i was insane or mentally unstable and i realized this so i was apologizing to him. when i inhaled it was so loud they were like gasps and i couldnt do anything about it and it made me so embarrassed...like the kinda gasps people do after running for their life. not quite hyperventilation because it wasnt fast but whenever i took in air it was like a sharp wheeze 😭 like my throat was so tight the air getting squeezed through it made a loud noise

so idk i think i maybe had a panic attack outside because i couldnt find this motherfucking financial aid office in this 90°F 70% humidity weather where it feels like 104°F so i could barely breathe to begin with and no one had given me good directions. then i involuntarily began holding my breath because it was embarrassing to be making loud sobbing gasps while walking.. which made it even harder to breathe but at least i wasnt drawing attention to myself.

i walked over to the student recreation center to get into the air conditioning and get some water. i sat down and i noticed i was STILL involuntarily holding my breath. they’re not breath-holding spells like babies do, like i dont do it until i get blue in the face but it’s sort of an automatic response as though to not make any noise? but it’s really involuntary it kinda becomes my default mode of breathing instead of normal respiration (anyone else do this when crying btw?? i tried looking it up but all i got was breath-holding spells in babies)

so taking few minutes while trying to calm down i took my phone out and searched for the financial aid center’s location on google and i still got nothing descriptive. i asked a more students around if they know where it is, one said he didnt know, and i was about to leave but near the exit there were like 4 students playing billiards and i asked them if they knew where it was. and i think one of the kids knew me from middle or high school because he remembered me and looked sort of familiar and said “sara are you okay” and i broke Again and i felt absolutely pathetic, but they ended up actually helping me this time find it and were really nice. turns out it WAS on the online campus map the whole time but i overlooked it because it was labeled “Palmer D / Financial Aid” and my tunnel vision ass just did not even recognize it because i was looking at the first letters going down the key list. and i felt so stupid. all of that for nothing. i couldve just stayed parked where i was for class earlier on the other side of tamiami trail. then i trudged back through the heat to my car and thats when i turned from feeling lost and panicky into frustrated and irritable because i KNEW where i needed to go but it felt like everything around me was so goddamn slow. i had to wait at that light for the full 5 minutes again because it turned from green to yellow just as i was driving up to it.

once it was green, i pulled back into that parking lot i was in at the beginning of the day and walked into the financial aid office and actually got something accomplished. i filled out a form (that they never made clear last year due to covid 🙄) which makes my bookstore funds automatically deposited and i helped walk a freshman who came in through the exact same steps after i finished mine. so that made me feel a little better.

at this point i was so full of adrenaline and cortisol and i acutely noticed how fucking DISGUSTING it was outside, the air was so muggy and it was overcast and like 90°F just an absolute swamp ass jungle. and i got back into my car and waited at that fucking tamiami light AGAIN and some stupid lady was like one whole ass car space behind the light so i couldnt turn into the right lane until it turned green and i was sittingthere for 5 mins just WAITING for this idiot to pull forward. then i waited at ANOTHER 5 minute light immediately after that before being able to actually drive home. just so many minor inconveniences all throughout my day that made everything feel so much worse.

i’ve been home for 4 hours at this point, i already showered but my body still feels like it’s full of stress hormones. my body is actually still has very minute tremors from all the stress. great start to the semester already.

[clanwarrior-tumbly]

Alright, i hope i am not much of a bother but

What if

Joe, Keiji, Reko, Alice, Sou, Mishima and Q-Taro had hallucinations of

Reader. Nailed it (couldnt bring many girls or kids into that list sorry). I just like how you see how Sara tries to get over the Joe's death so how about reverse thing (kind of)

Also sorry if im a bother again (qwq )

Oh don't worry!! These were a delight to write :3

.........

Joe

“Hey, Joey~”

He tenses up, hearing that familiar nickname. But you were dead. So why was he hearing..?

He turns and sees your hallucination form, shocked, though he tries to laugh it off. “W-Wow [y/n]..uh..longtime, no see-?”

“You think this is some joke?” You sneer. “Well..I only expected you to laugh...you murderer.”

His heart sinks into his stomach. ‘What? But I didn’t...I was just trying to save...’

“Why didn’t you save me if you loved me so much? Or maybe...you threw away my life so you could be with your precious Sara/Ryoko..is that all?”

The constant taunts start to break down his upbeat façade, which he always tried to maintain for your sake.

But seeds of doubt and guilt fester more into his mind. And those seeds only grow with every reminder of you.

Keiji

As if the hallucinations of his childhood hero weren’t bad enough...there was you, too.

But as much as it pains him--there’s only one way he could deal with them. The only way he knows how to that’s kept him sane for this long:

Just ignore them. Force them out of your thinking process.

Though it gives you all the more reasons to haunt his dreams.

“You can forget all you want...but you can’t ignore what you did to me, my sweet "friendly policeman".

“........”

No matter what you do. Even if you strangle him, make him relive the moment of your death--he just ignores you.

But that’s fine.

Maybe showing off a gun oughta make him pay more attention to you.

Reko

The guilt over your death was real, especially after you took the blow when Doll!Reko went to stab her.

She can only console you as Alice went to destroy the doll himself.

Even then, her guilt in just watching it all unfold was enough to manifest into a horrifying hallucination of you.

The most you taunt her with is “why didn’t you stop that faker from killing me?” Besides that, you remain a silent yet constant presence.

That’s all it takes for her to breakdown into tears, letting her makeup run down her face (and occasionally onto her hands or pillow).

She can’t even look at knives anymore, or a plain white room without thinking of you.

Alice

“I bet you love going back to being a murderer...you did kill me, after all--”

“S-Stop this..” The ex-prisoner trembles, seeing your red form in the mirror, covered in black cracks. “There’s..nothing I could’ve done about the situation. And the real [y/n] wouldn’t call me a murderer! Y-You’re just a mere vision deceiving me!”

For a moment you’re quiet, and he thinks he could chase you off.

But oh, was he wrong.

You grabbed the handcuffs on his wrist, grinning as you tug him closer to get a better look at his panic-striken face.

“Could a vision do that~?” You laugh. “Honestly it’s sad...I thought you’ve changed. But now everyone sees you for what you really are.”

And so you prey on his fear, making him trip on the metal ball attached to his chains--even strangling him with them (though to anyone else, it looks like he’s strangling himself).

Suddenly that machine Safalin was talking about seemed enticing...

Sou

“How’s it going, Mr. 0.0%?”

Immediately, Sou breaks down just at the sound of your voice echoing in his mind.

“N-No...stop this..please...”

Your hallucinations are actually quite encouraging...

In the sense that you encourage him to throw away more of his former self, feeding into his paranoia and distrust of everyone.

“S-Sou is having visions like Kanna and Big Sis Sara, too, right?” Kanna notices after he wakes up screaming one night.

But..he lost trust in her, too, thanks to you.

Maybe you’re right, though. 

It’s his fault you died..his fault for trusting that the others won’t give you the majority vote.

Mishima

He promised you nothing bad would happen if you voted for each other in the test run.

If only he knew a tie could’ve saved your life...

Whenever he sleeps now, he can only see hallucinations of you--sometimes headless. 

Other times only your head appears on the floor in a pool of blood, the collar’s beeping sound ringing in his ears.

“How could you protect your precious student when you couldn’t even protect me? You may as well have murdered me in cold blood.”

“Th-That’s..not true! We didn’t know it w-would actually kill you! I’m so sorry, my dearest..”

Q-Taro

“So your go-to strategy is to kill off the weaklings? Huh..guess I was a weakling to you, too.”

“N-No..that ain’t what...!!!”

The baseball player keeps his head down low--the brim of his hat over his eyes.

But no matter where he looks, he always sees you.

Like Alice, he’d try to stand up against you, insisting your taunts aren't what the real you would say.

Yet the guilt drives him to be more reclusive and excessively apologetic, even when he’s done nothing wrong.

Though it’s not like you’ll stop haunting him just because he decided to be kinder.

[violencebian]

seriously wonder why sara was the leader. like something about it doesnt sit right with me. surely since keiji was claiming to be a cop people would look to him as a leader so it makes sense why theyd listen to sara when he volunteered her to be the leader but theres just something odd?? about it to me. why would this grown ass man want a 17 year old girl to be the leader and serve as the leader? it makes me wonder what his motivation was or if maybe he somehow knew about saras survival rates or ai? but if he knew about the ai he wouldnt want her to lead, right? he'd be suspicious of her. theres gotta be some motivation for it on his part, right? then again it can easily be shrugged off as just her being the protagonist so naturally she gets to be the leader. i wonder if it has anything to do with his asu-naro vow (or possible lack of one). i dont think its a coincidence that we couldnt see his.

[alice-dont-break]

a little recap :)

I didn’t have tickets to tribeca but I decided to go and try to find them at the screening venue! as I walked up I spotted Kim and both Saras, and about 10 mins later I saw lil buck and boogz so I knew I was in the right place and stuck around.

about 15 mins later a party bus type car rolled up and JAS, BENJAMIN, RAFA, AND HELEN got out. they were put straight on a golf cart and I literally ran around to Jasmine’s side, asked for a pic and she said “of course c’mere” and we took it and it’s my fav thing in the world. i dont wanna post but dm me :) we didn’t get to talk more because literally two seconds later the golf cart pulled away, but helen waved and said thank you for coming!!

oak then walked in about 10 seconds later but i was still shaking and literally couldnt make words lol so i just.. let him walk by (oops)

then, naturally because i couldn’t stop shaking, I stuck around for ~15 mins, trying to calm myself down, when ANOTHER fancy car rolled up, and ANTHONY walks out. I walked up to him and asked for a pic, and assistants were yelling at him to get in the cart but he fully planted his feet and looked me in the eye and gave me his full attention and it was genuinely so nice and charming. we talked for a minute and fist bumped before he got physically pulled away but he called out after me when i turned away and said “have a good one and thanks for coming and supporting” 🥰

my reflections are that they are all GORGEOUS and RADIANT and i love them :’) also helen looks like she has never aged??

but anyways, please conduct wellness checks for the foreseeable future because i am UNWELL.