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totallynotagaywitch · 1 year

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being neurodivergent is the best and worst thing

like, i can create entire worlds in my mind, with government and landscape and history, and i do so whenever i’m bored. gods gaze down and weep at my power. but all of it is just futile attempts to escape the confines of this world

#i didnt take my meds today

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moeblob · 5 months

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Hello, can i have a modern sylvain pls??? PS: i love how you draw scrimblos

Finally another Wheel Spin and thankfully modern equals I get to draw someone with fish somewhere on their outfit. (Overlay layer my friend how I missed you)

#fe three houses #sylvain jose gautier #also shout out to literally everyone yesterday who backed me up and supported me on making sure i wasnt in pain #regardless of how others told me to take pain meds cause hoo boy #i do feel better today without the pressure of being a disappointment by taking care of pain as need be #esp since im making sure to not overuse it - like im still obeying the times in between the doses and not doing more than allowed #and so yeehaw managed to speed run sylvain aka it took 25 minutes and i know this bc i set a timer for 30mins #just to make sure i didnt overdo it from aiming to please too hard while still recovering #truly wheel rng and desktop timers my beloved #they really help me lmao................. i .... need the motivation to start too so setting a timer makes me have to start #instead of putting it off and off by scrolling here or staring at a blank canvas pondering nothing

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healingheartdogs · 9 months

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I have made a grave error, a horrible, awful, truly terrible mistake.

(I have POTS and I stood up from my seat at a normal speed and stretched.)

#pots #potsie #the real mistake was actually choosing to take my beta blockers a few hours late #because I REALLY REALLY wanted to enjoy some grapefruit juice with my meal when i woke up #sometimes sacrifices must be made for the sake of satisfying your tastebuds #in case you didnt know grapefruit deactivates MOST meds #so you shouldnt consume it after taking your meds for the day #and if you have grapefruit before your meds you need to wait a couple hours after until you take your meds #unfortunately grapefruit is one of my favorite foods and my absolute favorite fruit juice so choices were made today lol #also if you're like me and have ADHD then similar rules apply with vitamin C in general #dont consume vitamin c within a few hours before or after taking your ADHD meds or they won't work

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shortansweet · 3 months

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The urge to actually scream the fuck out on my parents rn......

#last week i had a migraine and they didnt let me take the meds bc its bad for my kidneys as they say (its not) and i fukin suffered in pain #the whole night.#TODAY THEY ARE DOING A REPEAT OF IT OR WTV IDK MY ALLERGY MEDS ARE WITH MOM AND SHES IN OFFICE #AND IM FUCKING DEALING WITH ANOTHET ALLERGIC REACTION LIKE FFS I'LL DIE SCRATCHING MYSELF #they just cant stop interfering

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peridyke · 6 months

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fat butch friday baybee......

#the dyke in question #do you like my funny green cargo pants i got them at the thrift store yesterday #ive been cleaning today and i didnt even need to take adhd meds (they wont give them to me) (angry)

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muppetjokernumberfivefan · 2 months

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dwde its literally my typing qwirk???

I was going to say, "get a better one," but for some reason I feel really compelled to apologize and grovel? What is wrong with me?

#ask #gavin #homestuck #the madness #realizing i didnt take my meds today thata probably it

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loyalhorror · 4 months

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tbh i can't even tell what kind of partner i am. distant? clingy? who the fuck knows. fundamentally insecure and prone to running i guess.

#rat.exe #i didnt take my meds today to see if itd stop the palpitations...#so far so good but also. I NEED THOSE. FOR A REASON

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riggedbones · 8 months

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ohhh i didnt take my meds this morning. checks out

#lucky.pdf #last time i thought i didnt take my meds in the morning i actually DID and it was embarrassing realizing that. today im like sure i didnt #take them tho. they are still there. it is tuesday and the tuestday morning box is full

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toastsnaffler · 4 months

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starting to get rly nauseous :-((((

#gonna try to drink a protein shake before i take meds this morning. probably i just didnt eat enough yesterday or sleep enough #and i have been very anxious anyway. but if its still like this tomorrow morning ill ask my dr if i can go back down to 30mg #its not as bad as concerta but its still really uncomfortable. my tolerance for nausea is very low #ugrjrhfjfgb dont wanna go to work today.....#.diaries

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steaksex · 1 day

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Today sucked ass and penis. Clearly the healthy thing ti do is repeat my self hypnosis trigger until i dont need to worry about having a brain or being a person

#raunchy rabble #it was whatever but i think i had to up my meds last week bc my doctors a dick #and so im onmy normal dose this week which is making me a sensitive hater #i keep trying to overcompensate for my shy nature and try to like grow as a person and shit #and bc everyone else in the class is shy and quiet i need to like try to ask questions for the teacher n shit #so he feels like hes like. doing his job #and i didnt even get to do the fucking art i wanted to do today bc everyone else was usong the printer #so i had to wait till after class to do the fiest step of my bullshit #and i stainrd the fuckin gel print thing and i kept making loud noises on accident #and there was an art exhibit and it was nice but it sas so hot in there and people kept taking pictures of the crowd #and i dont know where those pictures are going or how prominent im in them and ots wigging me out #and i did that stupid apologizing too much thing and its worse when someone calls it out #and there was a snack booth outside the art exhibit and someone kept encouraging everyone to take more #i thought everyone wouls but no. the stupid fat kid took 4 bags of chips and a handful of candy #christ. ohhhhh the devils posessing me (classic self consciousness which im not used to because i never fuckon go oitside)#anyways all that to say that i need yo be put down so deep i dont even know who or what i am and just left there

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moeblob · 5 months

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You know, when I kept getting asked "so you didn't ever have severe pains before now?" in the hospital and I kept replying "I have a high pain tolerance" I meant it. However, there is only so much pain my tiny 4'9" body can hold... (aka I am sweating and in agony bc I'm getting told to use LESS severe pain meds so I don't rely on them too much and it is AWFUL)

#moe talks a lot #i was shaking earlier and despite the fact i sound like im gonna cry #and the fact that my mom can pick out im about to cry from pain bc im trying to take less pain meds #LIKE MY MOM IS INSTRUCTING ME TO DO #shes like well why arent you taking any pain meds #BECAUSE THERE ARE TWO AVAILABLE OPTIONS AND ON A SIX HOUR TIMER #i cant take both at once or else what happens to me if i hurt before the six hours is up #i have to manage them in a way that allows me to benefit from both and being told im doing it wrong #after being told well its your fault it got so bad because you never complained about pain before #YEAH NO JOKE? REALLY? I NEVER DID? because everyone acts like im too young to feel that kinda pain #oh youre hurting? just wait until youre older #and its currently agony to breathe again but that i guess is also my fault bc im trying to use pain meds #holy moly i just want to not get dizzy standing up cause wow dang #sure would be nice if the multiple incisions in my stomach didnt THROB every time i sneezed or coughed or cleared my throat #but since i didnt use much pain meds before because i would be mocked for being too much of a baby its like #welp damn now i could really use some and im being called out for being too reliant #anyway time to sleep more because that means im not noticing my pain #im literally smaller than most children and so i do understand my body size makes people worried about the medication intake #but can i please just go a day without being asked how much im taking or when i last took it or if im gonna cry #anyway sorry for the excessive rant today never really had surgery or anything so this is brand spankin new suffering

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listen-to-the-inner-walrus · 9 months

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#just saw someone suggesting that ''everything being a disorder today'' stems from wanting a scientific explanation as to why theyre #different from everyone else and that desire itself stems at least partly from neoliberalism and individualism and wanting to be special #and buying into the facades of neoliberalism #and i get what theyre trying to say #but #my guy #your explanation was in context of things like chronic pain disorders and d/Deafness and autism and allergies #which most definitely do not stem from that. like i would still be autistic and still have chronic pain if i was not in a neoliberal society #neoliberal ideals are not the cause of my functional neurological disorder #neoliberalism isnt causing my peripheral nervous system to not work properly #i understand the argument youre trying to make and it definitely applies in some cases #but do not come into disabled spaces sprouting that shite #you know why i seeked a diagnosis for my chronic pain issues? because different chronic pain disorders can be treated differently #theres no point giving ne anti inflammatory meds for my fibromyalgia #and actually i do need the meds i take for my fnd because they reduce my nerve pain enough for me to function as a person #i didnt want a name for it so i could certify that i was an individual and not like everyone else #i wanted a name for it because i was in pain and i was suffering and i wanted medical treatment for it and i wanted an explanation as to why #i was in pain all the damn time

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lunar-fey · 29 days

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ohhhh my god. okay. so. my aunt does like, she buys random junk in bulk from retail wholesalers and then resells it on like, facebook marketplace and ebay and stuff. whatever. so my mom works for her. makes a flat $50 a day, regardless of the fact that shes disabled and doing hard labor for at least 8 hours a day, often 10+. and min wage here is $10 an hour but mom argued that $50 a day is still more than what she would make working the same hours at an actual job because of taxes...like girl that would be 50% taxes. you do not pay that fucking much. so thats already Bad.

but today mom shows me a video of a knife theyre gonna sell, and i watch 2 seconds and i realize its an automatic knife, and i tell her hey. thats illegal to possess in this state. let alone sell! and mom is like ohhh [aunt] knows what shes doing itll be fine.... we sell knives on there all the time she just doesnt put pictures and calls them something else on the listing to get around fb/ebays policies :)

LIKE. HELLO. THATS NOT BETTER. YOURE COMMITTING MULTIPLE CRIMES. *AS YOUR JOB.* and she was just like "its not a big deal she knows what shes doing." folks, this is the same aunt that, very illegally, paid me to sort through her clients confidential tax documents and bank records and stuff. because she works for a bank. and took the records home to sort them. i dont think she DOES know what shes doing, actually!

#why do both of my parents need to be so impressively incompetent. i like. cannot find the words for how . i feel about this #like. idc about crimes. go forth. be free. but maybe. just maybe. you should not make your job #“hi today i will post about how i am selling illegally possessed objects on a widely used public forum”#dont do crimes STUPID. yanno.#in other parent news. its now like. month 6 or so of dad refusing to get his insurance reinstated.#hes been on the same step (taking his paystubs to the dhhr office) for like 3 months?#anyway apparently he found out today/last night that when he was a kid he was diagnosed with gastroparesis !#which is like ! cool! you have a diagnosis AND ive been living with that for 16 years and can help you 🥰#but we were sitting there with mom (this was right before the knife thing) and she was like “well you gotta get your insurance now so you #can get on the right meds“ and dad was like yeah ill go....#and mom was saying well go in the morning when they open etc etc and he was like i will #and i pointed out that just two weeks ago i told him that too. and he didnt want to. bc hed lose money due to not being able to work #and mom was like well he doesnt work at 8am. and i was like yeah i know but i told him to go at 8am two weeks ago and that was his response #and then he proceeded to claim that this whole time he didnt know they opened at 8am.#folks. he doesnt start working until like...usually 10 or so. WHAT GOVERNMENT OFFICE DOESNT OPEN UNTIL 10.#PLUS. WE LIVE IN A RURAL HOUR. *BUSY* TAKES LIKE AN HOUR. MOST OF THE TIME YOURE IN AND OUT WITHIN 20 MINITES.#ive been fucking considering PAYING HIM to go get it.#and then he claims he didnt know it opened at 8am. when i have told him that. MULTIPLE TIMES.#WHY DO THEY HAVE TO BE LIKE THISSSS THEYRE THE MOST IMMATURE ADULTS IVE EVER MET AND THATS IMPRESSIVE!!!#IVE KNOWN PEOPLE WHO PAY THEIR RENT IN COKE OR WHO ARE ESSENTIALLY PROFESSIONAL PARTIERS. AND *THEYRE* MORE RESPONSIBLE AND MATURE THAN MY #PARENTS. SO WHAT GIVES.#also theyre 50 like cmon yall. youre not even 20 or 30. i think you should know how to not like. get your job shut down or die of lack #of medication.#did i tell yall one of the times a few months ago i was nagging dad abt getting his insurance #his response was literally. no exxageration.#he was like oughhh i dont wanna see doctors because then theyll find out somethings wrong with me #and ill have to go on a bunch of medication.#and then he actually for real. said.#“being on too many medications killed my grandma”#even mom was like cmon man. thats not even true. they misdiagnosed her and put her on WRONG meds. she wasnt even on that many.

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mieczyhale · 2 months

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texted josh yesterday about the tuna convo on my dash and how it was making me crave these little snack pack things walmart sells that are crackers and little cans of tuna (and them tiny little flat spoon things) and he picked some up for me before coming home

he's gone as of this morning for a weekend canoe trip w/ mike so i will be having Weird Anxious Emo Tuna Time while deciding what to do with my day

he did get the bookcase inside but i'm not up for dealing with any of that rn

#i went to bed early and thus didnt take my meds #thats happened like.. twice in the last week i think #bitch seriously. seriously. bitch.#the vibes today are.. odd #could you tell??#maison speaks

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sodrippy · 2 months

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fahk keep telling myself ill do everything tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow GIRL YOU ARE RUNNING OUT OF TOMORROWS. BADLY.

#ill um. ill do it tomorrow. i didnt take my meds today thats why. thats all.#the prospect of three weeks driving and hiking in 50C weather is actually. surprisingly. not super awesome rn...hm #im so tired and im SO sick of having to do everything alone. ugh

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glass-clown · 9 months

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ik whenever i reblog jerma stuff that usually means i didnt take my meds but i swear i did today

#i just remembered he existed so i wanted to see posts of him #i did take my meds i prommy #i didnt yesterday bc i slept all day BUT i did today like a good boy :]#honk.sfx

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