#i do not know how anyone can take this guy seriously. he's like a 14 year old fr but hes like 24 i think

[jestroer]

Dream is a total wanker, and I don't even want to mention him on my blog really, but I honestly could never fucking forget the "WHY has GRIAN, who in my opinion is not great at PvP, killed me at least 8 times in PVP games, yet I have NEVER finished ahead of him in buildmart". Still the funniest fucking shit ever

[sturniolos-blog]

In trouble again? - Sturniolo little sister oneshot

warnings - swearing, fluff, arguing

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Quick backstory behind this oneshot:

When Y/n was 14, her 19 year old older triplet brothers moved to LA. Upsetting her for a while, hard not seeing them around the house.

But after a lot of convincing, when Y/n turned 15, Marylou and Jimmy agreed to let her move in with them.

Obviously, nick, chris, and matt were okay with it.

You may wonder how a girl fit in with three boys, well it was easy for her.

Nick was the one she’d go too for boys, about her period (since he bought her pads and what she needed when she was on it), she'd go to Nick about a breakup, literally about anything that Matt and Chris would freak out about if she told them.

Then Chris was the one she’d go to if she needed too laugh, needed a hug, (chris gives really good ones), He always found a way too make her laugh, even when she was crying. Although when y/n was crying chris usually got emotional with her, so they cried and laughed together.

Now Matt, matt was the one she’d go too for a lot of things. Anxiety was a big one, she had a lot, so she usually asked for tips and stuff. Y/n also gets frustrated, annoyed, anything negative really easily, (like matt) so she usually went to Matt to calm down and take a breath. Y/n also usually slept with Matt, much like chris she hated sleeping alone, so she usually slept with, matt, but occasionally with math and chris because chris was usually found in matt’s bed.

Y/n also gets in trouble at school a lot! (Bad y/n)

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2:03pm

I walked inside my house with yet another write up i got this week, it's only thursday and this is my third write up this week, (new record by the way) this time was for yelling at my math teacher how she didn't know how to teach. She seriously doesn't because if she did would not have a D- in her class right now.

"Is anyone home?" I yelled out, kicking my shoes off and throwing my bag down.

I see Nick walk downstairs, "Hey y/n!" He says cheerfully, "Matt and Chris went to return the jeans you didn't like and Chris wanted to go to get a new sweatshirt or something." Nick smiled before his eyes trail down to my hand. He let's out a sigh, "Y/n...Please tell me.." He trails off, his voice filled with disapointment.

I look down at the paper too, "Umm.." I clear my throat, "Sorry I thought they would've called or at least texted you guys already. My bad. Now can you please sign it before Matt gets home?" I pleaded, handing the paper to Nick for him to sign. Matt was the worst one for when i got in trouble, he changes a lot. He's like all sweet and then his face gets red with anger. It's scary.

Nick took the paper and grabbed a pen from the kitchen table, "I'll sign it, but they took Matt's number down. So there is no doubt he got that call or text." Nick says, signing the paper with his signature like it said too do. I let out a groan as nicks eyes glanced over the quick explanation of what happened.

"You went off on your math teacher?" Nick scoffed.

"I already told Ms.Reel I don't play! She kept testing me, literally and figuratively. She tried givin' me a pop quiz like I was 'bouta do all that. Yeah no thanks." I defended. Grabbing a water from the fridge and sitting down at the island.

"What exactly did you say, n/n?" Nick asked, giving me the now signed paper.

"All i said was, 'I'm not doing this.' and when she asked why I said 'because why would i take a pop quiz from a teacher that teaches like she graduated at the university of nowhere.' and when she told me to go to the office i said, 'gladly, i'd rather have 6 months of detention then ever come back too this bootlegged not teachin us nothin' classroom. And then i got kicked out." I explained.

Matt signed the one i got on monday for going off on a girl for making fun of my friend. He told me it was okay and that i was sticking up for somebody i cared about.

The one i got on tuesday was for walking out of the classroom when my science teacher didn’t let me go to the bathroom but let a boy out when he asked. Chris signed that one for me, Matt found out about it, i didn’t know they had his number, he was upset but he said as long as i didn’t get another one it’s fine.

So after this one i am definitely getting yelled at by Matt.

The front door opens and i hear muttering, sounding like bickering.

“Wait, i left my jacket in the car, can you go get it?” I hear Chris ask Matt.

I then hear Matt mutter something along the lines of, “You fucking idiot” before walking away.

Chris then speed walks into the kitchen, “Y/n, you seriously messed up. Matt was already in a bad mood since he woke up, and then at the mall workers were giving him shit for trying to return your jeans without the tags on them, and then he got a call about how you got in trouble. So you’re actually fucked.”

My eyes widened, “Um- yeah i’m just gonna go up-” I start to walk away but bump into Matt.

“Just the person i was looking for!” Matt says. sarcastically, his arms crossing as he stands in front of me.

“Go sit, now.” He demands. I rub my forehead and nod, sitting at the kitchen table.

Matt sits down next to me and grabs the write up slip, “Nick signed it already? That’s great.” Matt continues with the sarcasm.

“Don’t bring me into this!” Nick puts his hands up in defense as him and Chris are watching us.

Matt then gives nick and chris a look that makes them both go to their rooms.

Great.

I take a breath in before starting to talk as Matt reads the write up slip, “So on a scale of 1-10 how mad-”

“Don’t even finish that sentence, y/n.” He grits out.

I nod and bite my lip, i’m really fucking scared.

“You can’t- why would you- who even- where- what- the fuck!?” Matt stutters.

“I don’t even know what to say, y/n! This is the third one this week! It’s thursday! There are only five days in a school week! It shouldn’t be this hard to stay out of trouble!” Matt yells.

“I’m sorry i just-” I get cut off.

“No! You don’t just do anything, you can’t just do something like this and keep getting away with it. You don’t need to be acting like this.” Matt says, putting his head in his hands.

“I also don’t need your opinion, i mean why are you even getting so mad? Nick and Chris don’t care this much.” I say, nice going y/n.

Matt scoffs. “Go to your room.”

“But-”

“Now!” He yells.

“Whatever!” I scoff and get up, literally stomping to my room.

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10:16pm

It’s been 8 whole hours since i last talked to Matt.

Which was crazy, Nick and Chris came in to ask me how i was doing but i just shrugged, i got to keep my phone so i was doing alright.

I get another knock on my door, expecting it to be Matt, i quickly say, “Come in!” But it’s Chris. I love him but i lay back down, scrolling on my phone.

He walks up and sits on my bed, rubbing my shoulder.

“I think you should talk to Matt.” Chris says, his voice soft and welcoming.

“He doesn’t wanna talk to me. He’s made it clear, we haven’t talked since the argument.” I sniffle, i was so upset.

“He does wanna talk to you, but he’s stubborn also, so he is not gonna be the first one to say something. If you go and apologize, and really mean it, like not just go in there because i told you too, then he will appreciate it and say sorry too. I promise.” Chris says as i sit up.

I put my pinky out, “Pinky promise?” I whisper.

He interlocks our pinkies, “Pinky promise.” He confirms.

I nod as he leaves my room, about 5 minutes pass and i decide to get up too.

I knock on Matt’s door, I hear some shuffling before the door starts to open, “Nick how many times-” Matt starts but stops when he sees me.

“N/n.” He says, his voice was much softer.

“Matt- i’m so sorry for getting in trouble and i’m sorry for saying that you get too and and it’s just schools been really hard and i hate it and everyone’s annoying and i don’t know what to do and i-” I sob but get cut off when Matt pulls me in for a tight hug.

“Okay, calm down baby.” He whispers, his fingers going through my hair.

I sob into his chest, that’s all it was. Stress and being overwhelmed.

“Shh..” Matt hushed, bringing me into his room with his arms still wrapped around me, kicking the door shut with his foot and bringing me to sit down on his bed.

“Y/n, listen.” He pulls away from the hug.

“You’re right, i have been harsher than normal, but that’s only because i want you to succeed, you’re in highschool! You are growing up so fast and i want the best for you. And i’m sorry that i’m not the fun one all the time. I’ll try, but if i try you have to promise that you will too, and if you’re ever feeling upset or down that you’ll talk to me.” Matt comforts.

I nod and wipe my nose with my sleeve.

“Can i sleep in here tonight?” I ask.

Matt laughs, “Of course you can.”

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why is this literally the most basic thing i’ve ever written oh lord goodbye idk what happened with me today but im just gonna start dad matt tmr and it will either be done tmr or thursday (i pinky promise) hope yall enjoy this one!

[theerurishipper]

So, as a child abuse survivor and someone who has been sexually assaulted by men who think they're entitled to take what they want Adrien is canonically a god damned dick.

He sexually harrasses Ladybug. When told NO he once let 2.161 million people drown because he was busy throwing a tantrum

Being a victim of abuse does not excuse the abuse of others.

He might not mean any harm but you know who else doesn't mean any harm? Gabriel. My goddamned mother.

Not meaning harm- lacking malice- does not mean harm is not caused.

People are going on about him being a rich white guy because anyone else acting like that in public would be considered an antagonist (in fiction), in jail, or have an active warrant for their arrest. And that's assuming they aren't killed for it.

First off, I am truly very sorry for your experience. No one should have to go through that.

But I still do disagree.

Adrien's pushiness when it comes to expressing his affections for Ladybug are in the same boat as Marinette being a stalker or Chloe being pushy with Adrien: it's a joke. You may find it to be a poor one, certainly, but it's a joke nonetheless. Miraculous relies on this kind of humor, it's not meant to be taken seriously. You can have issues with it, but imho acting like it's any kind of legitimate criticism of his character probably makes people like me less inclined to listen to any actual criticisms you may have.

I don't say this to trivialize your experiences, and if the joke is hurtful to you, you are well within your rights to dislike it or talk about how it's in poor taste to make jokes about these things, but that's all it is, a joke. It's absurdist humor. It's not meant to be taken at face value. It would be creepy if Marinette seriously had Adrien's schedule mapped out, tried to break into his house, or stole his personal items, but it's not supposed to be that way because it's a joke.

And as for your complaint about Adrien leaving people to drown, you can go ahead and blame Master Fu for that one. It's stated quite clearly in the show that the heroes couldn't do anything because everything is underwater. And he's staying there because he's waiting for Ladybug. Making up imaginary civilians who are drowning now isn't a good criticism. Ladybug spends a good amount of time underwater, but there's no-one there. There's no civilian begging for Chat Noir's help as they drown while he ignores them, so suffice to say that we're supposed to assume everyone is safe and sound. This is a kids show, so unless we're shown that people are in danger, we aren't supposed to assume they are.

And then let's talk about Adrien almost quitting.

I'll say it straight: he has every right to quit. He's a 14-year-old kid. This isn't his job. He's well within his rights to quit if he feels like this is detrimental to him. And it isn't about Ladybug not returning his feelings like you seem to be implying. This is about Ladybug keeping secrets from him and leaving him in the dark even though he's supposedly her partner. It took a situation like this for Master Fu to pull his head out of his ass and come give Adrien the tools he needed to do the damn job you're accusing him of not doing. How is he supposed to do anything if he isn't given then necessary tools and knowledge to do it? Should he just accept that he's being ignored and left in the dark? Accept his new role as Ladybug's unquestioning lapdog?

This is not Ladybug salt btw, this is Master Fu salt only, in this house we don't like Master Fu.

Anyway.

Literally look at why he tries to quit.

Adrien:(grimly) If you don't tell me what Ladybug is hiding from me, I'm done! Plagg: You can't do that! Adrien:(bitterly) Why not? No one'll know if I quit. No one'll care!

He doesn't think he's needed. He doesn't think anyone would care if he quits.

This isn't because of any entitlement. It's because he's being cast aside and left in the dark. It's because his partner (it's not her fault either, to be clear, it's Master Fu's fault) is keeping secrets from him even in this time, so he assumes he isn't needed and decides to quit because he feels like he's unnecessary and unwanted, and that no one will care if he quits. Adrien already has very low self-worth, and this is just adding onto all that already. If it is detrimental to his mental health, then he definitely has the right to step aside and quit.

So yeah. If this ask was to get me to change my mind, I'm sorry, but it didn't. You're entitled to your opinion, of course, but I think I've made my opinion on the matter clear.

[elcpsstuff]

The Summer I Remembered You (C.F) (Part 18)

your words, baby, how they mean so little when your just a little to late.

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A/N: I’m sorry y’all… 🤞🏻😔

Synopsis: bunch of hurt feelings that no one can explain

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“Are they here yet?”

“shhh, be quiet.” I put my finger to my lips as Frankie rolls her eyes at me.

“Listen, I have to interject,” Taylor begins, “This is why Conrad is lame. You two need to stop fighting over him and let it go! He just strings people along. Let’s not act like his feelings for you are real, yn.”

I know she didn’t mean it in a mean way, but it hurt. Because no one actually believed Conrad felt that way about me, and I was starting to believe it to. What about all those stolen kisses? The cuddling at night and when he would mumble words into my ear so I would forget about the rain. Was it even real? That night?

I didn’t have time to respond to Taylor because Jeremiah is getting out of the car. “Oh my God, Belly are you okay?”

Frankie scoffs, “Yeah, we’re fine thanks for asking.” And I can’t help but laugh a little at Jeremiah’s blatant forgetfulness of anyone who wasn’t Belly.

Conrad trials behind Jeremiah and Taylor and Frankie pounce at the chance to question him, “What are you doing here?”

His adam’s apple bobs up and down before holding a bag in front of us, “Nicole.. she uh— gave me these.”

Taylor takes it quickly, “You better tell her to watch her back.” Me and the rest of the girls get in a line and Jeremiah and Conrad awkwardly hold the towel up after a couple of seconds. They better not look.

Belly shakes her head, “Hey uh, do you guys mind if I go with Jeremiah?”

“Yes, 1000% yes.” Taylor adds quickly.

“So we have to go with Conrad?” Frankie breathes the words out like there’s no tomorrow. Truthfully, I don’t want to go with Conrad either but what choice do we have since Belly and Jeremiah want to get down at 11 at night.

“Seriously?” I say but it comes out like more a whisper.

“You’ll be fine, yn. Nothing you haven’t done before.” The words come out sharp like knives to my heart. Thought me and Belly were over that but we might need to talk more.

“Ignore her, yn.” Frankie whispers in my ear and we all finish changing. Jeremiah throws the covers to the side and Belly awkwardly shuffled towards Jeremiah. He puts a hand on her back as they walk to his car.

Conrad grabs his shoulder and rubs it, but the rubbing became more aggressive the more nervous he got. “So, you guys all coming with me?”

“Sadly.” Frankie whips out.

“Let’s not make this a thing.” Taylor adds and for the first time her and Frankie start laughing. With each other and before I can question them they’re getting into the back seats.

I sigh and get into the passenger side and like always Conrad’s staring at me. I’m over it at this point.

“Crazy night guys..” Those words, they make we want to slap him. Over and over again. Does he even realize what he’s done? We were naked because of him. That’s the second time he’s the cause for me being naked. Shamefully.

“It didn’t have to be like that, if you would just stop texting yn and pretending to like her.” Taylor shoots the words right at Conrad’s throat and I can almost see the stab mark in my head.

“Taylor—”

“No, i’m serious. Maybe if you actually liked her this wouldn’t be a problem. But you don’t. So let’s just.. go.”

I can’t look anywhere else besides the window because I know if I face Conrad my heart will break into a million pieces. All the i love you’s and the promises will be broken. Our friendship lost in the cracks as well.

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Age 14, Summer

“Jere, please?”

“Mom, I promised Belly I would take her to the boardwalk, I can’t stay with yn.”

There was one thing that was worse than leaving the summer house. That was getting a cold during the summer. Right now, that was me. Poor yn, stuck inside away from the daylight like Susannah claimed.

Their voices chirped in the background which I faintly heard, but my ears were way to clogged to fully understand.

“Why can’t Connie stay home with her? He’s obsessed with her.”

“Jere, Connie is practicing for a sailing competition, ie would you please—”

After minutes of bickering it was clear Jeremiah was not going to stay inside for me, but it was nothing personal. Even if he had decided to give in I would have felt guilty for prying him away from Belly.

Susannah came over to hand me a glass of water when Conrad walked in the room, surfboard in hand ready to catch some waves. His face went from excited to worried within milliseconds.

“What’s wrong with yn?” He looks at Susannah and I suddenly feel like a child. Like i’m not even here. I certainly look like one though in my shorts and sweatshirt. My hair was up in a high bun and sweat was dripping off my face.

Susannah’s eyes light up and I know now i’m going to have to sit through another 10 minutes of a fisher brother rejecting care to me. I would get up but I feel to sick to do anything.

“Oh, poor yn, has a summer cold. Threw up this morning.” Susannah runs a hand through my hair and another horrible, burning sneeze comes from my mouth. I can see Susannah wince.

“Oh.” Conrad whispers and I know he’s contemplating it. I don’t want him to though, he deserves the right to go outside and have fun, do whatever he wants. I’m not worth the time.

“Connie, could you, maybe—”

“I’ll stay with her. You can go to the store and run some errands mom.”

That feeling, that the girls say they feel in fairytales, I think I just got that. Leave it to Conrad Fisher to make a girl feel like the only fucking girl in the world.

“Don’t you have to surf?” I say and after I realize how desperate I sound, it’s sad. Almost like i’m begging him to go the ocean and forget about me. For now.

Instead of the response I thought he was going to give, he waves his hand and shakes his head, “It’s okay, I’ll go change.”

Before I can protest, Conrad’s up the stairs in a heartbeat.

“See,” Susannah begins, “He’d do anything for you.”

I laugh, a little too hard which results in me coughing and Susannah hands me my glass of water. “That’s funny.” I say once my voice clears.

“It’s true, yn. You’re his weakness.” The words came off Susannah’s tongue like a prayer, a promise. A promise in my heart that maybe one day, I would believe her.

Minutes later, Conrad came downstairs in shorts and a sweatshirt. He had also brought down with him and extra pair of sweats and an ice pack.

“uhm- i brought you these.” He motions and Susannah looks at me through a grin, “I’ll be back in a couple of hours.” And with that, she’s off the couch and I swore I heard her whisper something to Conrad. Maybe I was so sick I was hallucinating. All of this.

Conrad sits down next to me and I felt guilty. Nobody should have to be by me right now. Not even Conrad who was my best friend, my other half.

He noticed my shift and tapped my arm, “Hey, how about you put these on?”

“You can go, Conrad.” My voice is barely above a whisper but his face conveys pure confusion. “Please. I’ll tell Susannah you stayed.”

“Woah woah yn—”

“Just go.” I shake my head and cough into my hands, feeling it cut into my throat. I groan at the pain.

“I’m not going anywhere, yn. Don’t be a dummy. I didn’t do this for my mom.”

Me. Your his weakness.

“But surfing?—” I go to question but he puts a hand to my lips.

“Surfing could wait, this can’t. Your a mess, yn. I’m not just gonna watch while my girl coughs her lungs up out her body.”

My girl? I think I might die, all for him to bring me back to life. He had that sorta effect on me. All these years I had been obsessed with someone noticing me, maybe Jeremiah. I thought one day he might, but not Conrad. We were best friends, but I never thought he saw me that way. If I had known sooner, maybe things could have been easier.

Instead of saying what I want to, I nod and grab the sweatpants from him, throwing them over my body. For some reason, I still felt cold as hell.

“Here, come on..” Conrad opens his arms for me and the only thing I wanted to do was hug him for eternity. Instead, I stupidly say: “You know you’ll get sick?”

He smirks, “Shut up, Conklin. It’s not my fault if you decline my warm chest.” And that was it. I caved. I wrapped my arms around his torso and nuzzled my head into his shoulder. My body still twitched from the aching and cold, but Conrad knew all the right things to do.

“Shhh, it’s okay. Relax.”

“Kinda hard to do that.”

Conrad stroked the hairs on my head, and I couldn’t help but blush. He was so tender, so kind, and all I wanted to do now was be sick forever, as long as he was here.

“Your very warm.” I mumble against his chest.

“I know.” He says and by the tone of his voice I know he’s smiling.

For the rest of the day we stayed inside watching shows and I never let go of Conrad besides when he got up to get me more medicine and water. As soon as he sat back down my arms were around him. I even felt him kiss my forehead once.

My eyes were sagging, and sleep was about to take over me. The last thing I heard was a soft voice whisper to me.

“It’s you, yn. I wish you could see that.”

I didn’t respond, because he probably thought I was sleeping. Honestly, i’m beginning to wonder If i was.

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Present Day:

The eerie noises of the night kept me up, not allowing me to fall into a deep sleep I needed.

After the most awkward ride with Conrad and the girls, we all went to our separate rooms. Frankie was already fast asleep and I couldn’t blame her after the events that occurred today. It’s not everyday you get stranded naked by rich kids.

Just as my thoughts began to wind down, my phone buzzed a couple of times and I instantly grabbed it, with every bone in my body telling me not to i still did.

Conrad: u up? come down please?

I tell myself this is it, the last thing I do for Conrad Fisher. I’ll walk downstairs and tell him this is the end, of everything. Not just this love and fling he’s strung in my face all these years. This friendship. This pure friendship that got caught between the lies of our real feelings.

My feet tread across the wooden floor and lightly make my way downstairs. Conrad is by the docks. Hesitantly, I slip out the back door praying I don’t wake anyone. When i’m certain I don’t, I head for the docks.

He looks at me for the first time with an expression I can’t seem to recognize: Hurt, anger, love? I cant tell.

We’re inches apart as I stand at the dock where our childhood memories once lingered, and I think they still do.

“You came.”

I scoff, “You texted me.” I wave my phone in the air motioning at him, “can you please stop doing that?”

He’s taken aback by the harshness in my tone, “I’m sorry, stop texting you?”

“Yeah. I- I think so.” No. I don’t think so.

He reads right through me and grabs my hand, lacing our fingers together. At this rate i’ll break in a couple of minutes if he doesn’t stop this, touching.

“Conrad.”

“I don’t believe you, you know.” His free hand trails up my arm and slowly grazes my neck. “When you say that type of stuff.”

I wanna hate him so bad, but I can’t find it in me to do so. Every fiber in my body is telling me to walk away, and never look back, but I can’t. My eyes are glued to Conrad Fisher, and my heart belongs to him.

“Conrad, please.” He grazes my jaw and that’s when i’ve lost. Lost this battle between us. If he wanted me in this moment, I think I would’ve let him take me. It was bad, but so true.

“It’s selfish, what i’m doing.” He whispers against me. “Because I haven’t been fair. You know it.” My head is against his chest now and I feel his every breath. I have to stay strong, remember that this is it.

Why can’t the words come out of my mouth?

“This was the last thing I wanted. I never wanted you to regret what we did.”

That’s when I pulled my head out of his chest and shook my head, “What? Who said I regretted it?”

Conrad let go of me and ran a hand through his hair, “I- i don’t know.. I just like thought maybe.. you didn’t—”

He would never get it. If anything, this summer should be an indication to him that you very much did not regret what you two did, in fact you wanted more. I suddenly fell out of the trance Conrad had placed me in.

“This is it Conrad. You don’t get to have me anymore.”

To my surprise, he nods his head, “I know.”

Wasn’t this what you wanted? For him to let you go?

So why do I feel like my heart is ripping out? Why do I want him to fight for something that’s already gone?

“Bad things happen, when we try and… fix whatever this is. We were just two friends- best friends who got tangled into each other. It’s not like it was real.” The words burn my throat and tear at Conrad’s heart as I see them. It wasn’t true, I wanted to tell him.

“I.. yeah.” Conrad trails off.

“So please, let it go. Let me go. It’s too painful.”

Conrad only nods and pulls out a black little bag from his pocket. I already know what it is, and my heart throbs at the thought. “This was yours.”

“No, Conrad—”

“It’s for you. I can’t just give it to someone else. Throw it away, burn it, just.. I cant keep this. It’s a memory of you. You know that.”

“Conrad i’m—”

“Like you said, it wasn’t real, right?” His words sting me even though I had told him it wasn’t real. But it was, to me it was.

“Night, Conrad.” I place the little velvet bag back in his hands before turning to walk away. I even think I heard a faint ‘wait’ before leaving, but I was too dazed to tell.

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Frankie and Taylor both left the next day. After our little wood’s experience, they had seemed to go from hating each other to tolerating each other. They even agreed on some things.

Susannah was in full deb mode. Since I had no date, my last resort was to text the one and only Josh. Of course, I had thought about asking Conrad but after our talk from the previous night I doubted he wanted to talk to me.

Luckily, Josh said he would be happy to take me, as a friend, which made me chuckle a little bit.

I walked into the living room mid afternoon, scrambling about things that needed to be done. Josh was a late entry, and I couldn’t exactly talk to Nicole about that considering she left me naked in the woods the previous night. Susannah told me she would go to the club and get it sorted though.

“What’s up with you?” I hear a voice and turn around only to be met with Belly. She’s sitting at the counter, looking more solemn than ever.

“I should be asking you that.” I pour some orange juice into my cup before placing it back in the fridge.

Belly shrugs, “I’m just thinking, I guess.” I nod and we stay silent for a little while before Belly plunges my heart a little more, “Why didn’t you tell me, about Conrad?”

I shake my head, “It’s over now, in the—”

“No. Before. When you liked him. All those years that I did?” I swallowed bile that was sticking to my throat and the walls felt like closing in. I knew why I didn’t tell her. If I did, it would ruin that perfect older sister image I wanted her to have of me.

“Did you always like him?” She asks, and her tone suggests she almost doesn’t wanna know the answer.

“I think.. yeah. The first time I felt it was when I was 11 years old. I tried to cover it up by saying I liked Jeremiah, but that wasn’t true. I just.. how could I say a thing? Not when you were—”

“Desperately in love with him? Yeah.”

I shake my head, “No. Not that. I should’ve told you.”

She nods, “You should’ve.” There was a slight pause and I wondered for a moment if this was it, I had already lost Conrad. What’s one more to add to this shit show of a summer?

“But I mean.. I guess I always knew. It was always there in the back of my head, you and Conrad. I could always see it in the way he looked at you.”

“Belly—”

“I just- always wanted that chance with him, you know? It was selfish, but sometimes I wished you weren’t here. You weren’t supposed to be. I don’t think that now though, you know I wouldn’t.”

Those words coming out of Belly’s mouth made me want to throw up but this is the closest we’ve been in a year so I can’t take this for granted. I lean over and squeeze her hand, “Belly, I’m sorry about this year. I wanna be close again, and Conrad never should’ve gotten in the way.”

“I guess I wouldn’t really wanna tell you if I had sex with him, so I get it.” I couldn’t tell if she was taking shots at me anymore or being nice but I smiled anyways. This was a new start, me and Belly. Boys or not, it was me and her through the long hall.

After we let go, the question that had been burning my body to ask finally arose, “So, Jeremiah?”

Belly’s cheeks turn a crimson red before stuffing her face with a muffin. “I don’t know, he’s.. it’s different. Conrad didn’t feel real, you know? But Jere is real, and it’s scary.”

To me, it was the exact opposite. Conrad felt very real, so real that my brain wants to explode when i’m next to him. He makes me forget everything and everyone and it’s just us in a world of bliss.

I pinch my arm, coming back to reality. I really have to stop thinking about Conrad.

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Tarot of Destiny / Chapter 14 - Happier Than Anyone Else

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Hanamaru: “Aight, then. Finally, just the 2 of us, huh… Let's get along as fellow grim reapers, my lord.”

> “Yours is reversed though…”

Hanamaru: “Yeah. As said before, my ‘Death’ card is in the ‘reversed position'... It seems to mean things like… ‘retry’ or ‘restart’.

Well, leaving aside whether this tarot fortune-telling is accurate or not, if it's to save you, my lord... I'll do whatever it takes. Hmm… look back at myself through this card and convey the feelings that arise from it to the lord, huh… 'Retry'... 'restart'....

Hmmm… Well, some parts of it might really apply to me.”

> “Apply to you?”

Hanamaru: “Ah, it might get a tiny bit serious, but... I had a rough life, much worse than now.”

Then Hanamaru calmly talked about his past. He lived as a bounty hunter in the eastern lands, angered a corrupt authority figure, and his hometown was burned.  It was the first time he talked about what happened before he came to the church orphanage.

> “That sounds tough…”

Hanamaru: “Well, you know how it went afterward, my lord.  I've always... wanted revenge against the angels. The ones who killed those kids five years ago... I wanted to avenge them so badly. 

Of course, I didn't let on how messed up I felt about it to the kids who survived.  I was seriously regretting it, like it was eating me up inside… I was so angry, I felt like dying.  But now, meeting you, becoming a devil butler and all, I've finally got the power to take on those angels.

It's something to be happy about, but sometimes I think... if you weren't in this world, my lord... I might have died trying to avenge them without releasing the devil's power.  I couldn't exact revenge without it.

So when I think about it... I'm glad you're here. Thanks to you, I can continue avenging the kids without being killed by angels. Wait…  Saying it like this makes it sound like you're just a tool for revenge. My bad. 

I didn't mean to hurt you… but frankly, before meeting you... I only thought about using you for revenge. Because back then... I had no idea what kinda person you were.

Remember?  When we first wore tailcoats and went to show ourselves to you... You were like... ‘I want you guys to be happy.’ You know… I'm pretty good at identifying scammers. So when I heard that, I became convinced and was like, ‘Ah, this person is really good.’

Of course, being adored by the butlers helps, huh? Yo! Look at this charmer right here! So, just like everyone else, I fell for you, my lord. I want to stay by your side forever... 

I thought my life would be just about hunting angels, a grim existence... But It turned out to be a pretty enjoyable life. Thanks, my lord.  And, let's continue to get along from now on. I hope we can be together for a long time.

So... Don't worry about the tarot's result. You could even turn it into tissue paper and throw it away.”

> “Y-you're right…” > “Can I, really…?”

Hanamaru: “Oops. That wasn't very butler-like. Oh well. I guess I really am unrefined.”

~ A little while later ~

Having received the feelings of all 17 butlers, I decided to think again about what Ms. Elvira had said about ’the way to be saved from an ominous fate.’

Teddy: “So, my lord... Have you come up with anything?”

Yuhan: “Lady Elvira mentioned, ’You have experienced the answer firsthand.' Is it possible that the answer lies in our shared experiences?”

> “I'm not quite sure yet…”

Hanamaru: “Well, let's take it easy. It's just a talk about fortune-telling anyway. Some fortune tellers even intentionally sell ‘comfort goods’ together with ‘anxiety-inducing predictions.’  It might be a loss to take it too seriously.”

Teddy: “But, both Mr. Berrien and Mr. Haures said that Lady Elvira's fortune-telling is accurate... I want to be optimistic, but I can't help worrying.”

Hanamaru: “Oh, right. How about this, then?  If the upright Death card is making you uneasy... Then, my lord, you can do a ‘handstand'.”

> “Handstand...?”

Hanamaru: “Yeah. If you do that, you'll become the Death card reversed, just like me. If we're both in the reversed position, you should feel reassured, right?”

Yuhan: “Mr. Hanamaru…  Please think more seriously about this.”

Hanamaru: “Haha, sorry, sorry. But don't you want to see the lord doing a handstand too?”

Yuhan: “Sigh... I definitely can't let my lord do a handstand, but for my lord's sake... Perhaps we should try anything. Well then, Mr. Hanamaru, please try doing a handstand.”

Hanamaru: “......Huh? Me?”

Yuhan: “Yes. If Mr. Hanamaru does a handstand, the tarot will change from the reversed position to an upright position, right...  That is to say, if there's a change in Mr. Hanamaru's fate, it means that handstands have an effect.”

Hanamaru: “......Yuhan, you…… ...You want to use me as a guinea pig?”

Yuhan: “Oh? Who was it that wanted to experiment with my lord?”

Hanamaru: “......Hey~ Teddy. Help me out here~.”

Teddy: “Huh? Oh, okay... Then... I'll grab your legs as you do a handstand to help you, Mr. Hanamaru. Alright, go ahead!”

Hanamaru: “Hey! That's not what I meant…”

I couldn't help but smile at the playful exchange between the three. It lightened my uneasiness about the ominous fate, and I started feeling a bit relieved.

Hanamaru: “Ohh. Seems like my lord is feeling a bit better now.”

Teddy: “That's right! Even if we don't find the answer now, there's no need to hurry!”

Yuhan: “Yes. We will protect my lord no matter what happens. You are an irreplaceable presence to us…”

Hanamaru: “Yeah. And of course not just because ‘you can release the power of devil butlers.’ You've brought us many other, more precious things.”

Teddy: “For us, my lord is more precious than life itself! Please don't forget that. From now on, we will protect you and live by your side, my lord. So... There's nothing to worry about.”

> “Thank you, guys”

All the butlers were trying to make me feel less anxious, promising to protect me no matter what. Their powerful words… little by little, made me feel at ease.

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Imperial-Topaz ranks SWTOR Romances

To mark my return, I decided to do a SWTOR ranking, this time with the romances. I'm gonna stick with just vanilla ones for now, and do expansions at a later time. Also, I'm not doing any of the 'one-shot' romances, or I'll be here till the next century. Again, this is just my opinion, let me know what you think on these romances in the comments or reblogs. Anyway, this is gonna be a chonkey one, so let's get into it.

19. Kaylio Djannis

What a surprise. Anyway, she's down here for one reason in particular. She's literally the only romance option that fucking cucks you.

Yup. Honestly, Kaliyo is such an unlikable piece of shit. She trash talks you even if you're flirting with her and probably doesn't see you as anything more than a one night stand. I don't wanna look at this bitch no more. Next! 18. Doc

Yeah, you know how I feel about Doc already. The walking sexual harassment lawsuit who can't take 'no' for an answer. If you're a female knight who doesn't want to romance him (or at least wants to take things easy and not rush), you're in for an uncomfortable time. But what if you're into his flirts and return them? Is the relationship a bit healthier? I suppose, but his attitude makes it hard for me to take his commitment seriously. I just have this feeling that he'll run off to bang a hotter chick if given the opportunity. I mean, he already fled a wedding once.

So yeah, fuck Doc and his ugly ass crowbar mustache. 17. Nadia Grell

Before you crucify me, I like Nadia, okay? She's a great character. Her romance on the other hand is...eugh. There is a lot of unfortunate implications. You guys already know I'm not a big fan of Padawan and Apprentice relationships, it's just creepy for me. Also, you start romance literally after her father dies. I'm serious, it almost plays into the Sex for Solace trope. Also, the Consular is coded to be an older person, while Nadia is really young. I mean, ngl, I don't mind age difference as long as both parties are the age of majority (which, to give credit, they are) but still. Honestly, I just like Nadia better as a surrogate daughter/little sister to the Consular.

16. Corso Riggs

Yeah, Corso is...not the best in my opinion. I'll give him credit, he's got good looks and plenty of gentlemanly charm if you're into that sorta thing. But then again, his romance setup pretty much forces you to take advantage of him while he's drunk. Already that bumps him down a few spots for me. Personality wise, I find his whole 'don't hurt woman at all' shtick to get really old, especially when he does it towards women who are actively trying to kill him and the Smuggler. Buddy, you can defend yourself and still be a Gentleman at the same time. His jealousy also kinda gets on my nerves. Not my cup of tea, but I won't judge anyone who picks him.

15. Jaesa Willsaam (Dark side)

Some may not like that I put her this high, but the reason Dark!Jaesa is above the last four for me is simple: the entertainment value. Honestly, her romance is also roughly how I feel about her character: not actually 'good' per say, but so hilariously over-the-top and edgy, that I can't help but laugh. A perfect fit for a chaotic dark side Sith Warrior. However, as a genuine love interest? Not the best. There's better options you can pick for that. Also, I'm not discussing in this list Light!Jaesa, since I believe that's an expansion-only romance.

14. Raina Temple

Alright, done with the bad, now we can move onto the good, starting with Raina. She's alright in my opinion. I don't have much to say, honestly. I like her whole everywoman theme, she's cute, she's got some complexity to her, and she's not Kaliyo. Not an absolute fav, but she's good in my book.

13. Andronikos Revel

Again, not much to say. Revel's got a good arc to him: starts off casual and laid-back, but once you get to know eachother, he opens up and it becomes more serious. I also like how he's flirtatious and not an absolute creep about it...unlike a certain someone... So yeah, simple and sweet. 12. Risha Drayen

Don't have much to say for Risha, either. I like her, but I'm not crazy for her. I will admit, I do have a soft spot for the whole princess x rogue type of romance, and she is a pretty likable and personable character. I just prefer the other romance option for smugglers, but we'll get to that in a bit. 11. Felix Iresso

Someone give this man a hug, a blanket, and some snacks. He did not deserve any of the shit he went through. Hurt/comfort aside, I like Felix. He's calm, mature, friendly, and straight-forward in a good way. I know I sound like a broken record, but honestly, I am having trouble of what to say. Moving on! 10. Ashara Zavros

The one thing holding Ashara back for me is the master/apprentice dynamic. That's really the only problem I have with her romance. I just find it creepy. That aside, Ashara's pretty good. I love her character arc of her realizing the conflict between Jedi and Sith isn't as Black and White as she initially thought it was, and how it ties into her romance. I especially like romancing her with a Light Sided Inquisitor. It's just so sweet.

P.S. They did her dirty in KOTFE 9. Vector Hyllus

I know how beloved Vector is and some people are really not gonna like me not putting him the top 5. That's only because I only did his romance once. However, I did enjoy that playthrough. Vector is a very wholesome and quirky character with some interesting romantic themes. I'll have to play through him again someday. 8. Akaavi Spar

Man, I love warrior women. Especially ones who soften up over time, just like Akaavi here. I honestly have a soft spot for characters who completely wall themselves off from everyone else, but slowly begin to let other people into their boundaries as they open up. I know some people might not like me putting her over Risha, but I can't help it. Akaavi is just great.

7. Torian Cadera

Once more, not a whole lot to say, but I do enjoy Torian. His loyalty and courage are always endearing. One of my favorite moments in this game is reciting Mandalorian wedding vows with him. IDK why, but it's just so adorable for me. He, the Hunter, and Mako are an OT3 of mine. 6. Elara Dorne

Elara's romance is pretty adorable. She slowly begins to fall for you, spends time trying to adjust to a more casual relationship, and even goes out of her way to fill out heaps of paperwork and bypass regulations just so she can be with you. I love it. The one downside for me is the fact that you're her CO and she's technically sleeping with the boss. I don't hate it as much as the master/apprentice thing, but it does come a bit close. Other than that, she's great.

5. Malavai Quinn

Kicking off my top 5 is Quinn. The reason he's not number 1 is because I have a few issues with his romance. For one, you can turn the relationship very possessive and abusive as a dark side character. It's pretty scummy that the game lets you do that, and there is a sadly not insignificant amount of people who like to take that route. I won't call names, but still, it can get a bit iffy. On the other hand, if you're passive with him and respect his boundaries, his romance is considerably sweeter. It's really rewarding to see him show his undying loyalty and affection for you if you're not aggressively demanding it from him, and I love how you can rebuild your relationship after the Quincident. Really wish more people would go down that route. 4. Mako

Honestly, Mako has one of my favorite companion dynamics in the whole game, romance or not. She's charismatic and quirky gal to contrast to the generally gruff and straightforward bounty hunter, but still badass enough to keep up with them. And the romance, again, is pretty wholesome...and I'll leave it at that. Just plain cute and heartwarming. 3. Vette

Vette's dynamic with the Warrior is pretty much about the same as Mako's with the hunter. Which is why I really like her. I'm a big sucker for noble x commoner type relationships. Also in comparison to Malavai's, I like to take things slow with her, too. Instead of pushing every flirt button, it's wholesome to see her slowly come to a decision on her own and profess her love to the Warrior. NGL, though, I absolutely love how she literally jumps with joy upon being proposed to. Oh, and BioWare, how dare you make me choose between Torian and her! 2. Aric Jorgan

It's grumpy cat time. Another trope I have a soft spot for is the Defrosting Ice Queen (or King in this scenario). I love it when characters don't initially hit it off at first, but eventually warms up to eachother. Sure, when rushed, it comes off as contrived and unbelievable, but when done right, it's just amazing.

And Jorgan is just that, his friendship/romance evolution with the Trooper is a bit slow, but also believable. By the end of the story, he ends up straight up dedicated towards you. I also love how flustered he can get in romantic situations. Now if only BioWare made him bisexual... 1. Kira Carsen

@swtorpadawan and @magicallulu7 are gonna like this. Anyway, Kira might just be my favorite vanilla SWTOR companion. Playful, snarky, but still goodhearted and brave. And throughout the years, she'd still remained a favorite, both character and romance wise. I know, master/apprentice stuff, but I never see the Knight as her master. I see them more as Jedi partners (and perhaps more) if anything. I really like how you do help her overcome her past trauma and develop into a more responsible figure. Honestly, making her Bisexual in Onslaught was a chad move...if only BioWare did that for other companions. Conclusion

Holy fuck, that was a lot! Either way, I hope you guys enjoyed this ranking. If you disagree, please don't flame me for my opinions, or else I will cry. instead, tell me how you'd change the rankings and what your favorites are.

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120 misc ship questions | shaymien edition

buckle the fuck up guys /pos

1. who rushes to open doors for the other?

damien

2. who drives more often?

either

3. who is more eager to jump in the shower with the other?

damien

4. who takes self care more seriously?

both but probably damien

5. what’s a song that reminds you of them?

starlight - muse / rather be - clean bandit / everywhere - fleetwood mac / j’s lullaby - delaney bailey + every song i’ve used to make an edit of them with (everything i know about love - laufey, end of beginning - djo, you & me song - the wannadies)

6. what’s another couple / duo (real or fictional) that reminds you of them?

ian and anthony tbh (also dan and phil but i don’t think anyone cares about my explanation)

7. which one keeps more things because they’re sentimental?

shayne

8. which one tells their parents about their partner first? how does it happen?

damien i feel like would be so excited bc he’s so fond of shayne that it would just accidentally slip

9. whose family are they more likely to stay with during holidays?

shayne’s maybe? bc az is closer?

10. whose parents are / were stricter?

shayne’s

11. who uses more emojis?

damien but like ironically

12. where was their first date?

so random soundstage /j uh idk maybe something casual so it wouldn’t feel do heavy at first. a restaurant they both enjoy or smthn

13. what’s their favorite game to play together (any kind)?

nidhogg

14. which one spams posts / links to the other?

damien “this reminded me of you” haas

15. who is the black cat and who is the golden retriever?

obviously damien black cat shayne golden retriever i mean come oN

16. what mythical creature / monster would they each be? (vampire, werewolf, dragon, fairy, etc.)

damien - vampire, shayne - something with lots of wisdom like druid idk

17. who urges the other to go sing a karaoke duet with them?

damien

18. what is their karaoke song?

rather be or an emo one like panic or fob losers (me hitting my 10th year as an emo mark)

19. who is more likely to serenade the other at random moments?

damien

20. who stares at the other from across the room?

damien

21. who brings a shopping haul of clothes home and who watches their fashion show?

both

22. who insists on paying when they go out to eat?

damien

23. who is more impulsive?

damien

24. who is ‘everything’ and who is ‘just ken’? /ref

damien is everything, shayne is just ken (sorry bud)

25. whose main goal its it to make the other blush?

damien

26. who is first to know about a new trend, meme, slang, etc.?

damien

27. who gets up early to make the other breakfast?

shayne

28. who insists they are their pets’ parents?

damien

29. do they have pets together? what kind, what names, etc.

mildy canon /s freyja and zelda

30. who is more of an animal whisperer / befriends wild animals?

damien

31. who has more patience?

shayne

32. who insists on fixing something themselves, and who would rather call a repair service?

damien wants to fix himself, shayne wants to call service

33. who turns something into an innuendo first?

damien

34. who takes longer to understand a joke or reference?

neither

35. who hides in the other’s arms during a horror movie?

shayne

36. who is more jumpy / scared easily?

shayne

37. who makes more movie references?

shayne

38. who thinks die hard is a christmas movie, and who doesn’t?

damien thinks it is, shayne thinks it isn’t (idk for sure though this can probably be fact checked)

39. who talks more during a movie?

damien

40. who carries the other bridal style?

damien

41. what are their thoughts on marriage?

hmmm idk. hesitant but open?

42. what’s the last name situation when / if they get married? (who’s last name do they take, do they keep theirs, do they hyphenate)

haa stopp (like haha, stop) i’m so funny guys (haas-topp or topp-haas idfk)

43. who wants the less traditional wedding?

damien

44. where do they get married, and where do they honeymoon?

probably in a more secluded pretty place in california, and they honeymoon in japan

45. where is their favorite place to travel?

japan

46. what do they do on vacation?

do all the touristy things, shop at nerdy places for magazines and trinkets, get lost

47. which one overpacks and which one underpacks?

both overpack?

48. who is the yapper and who is the napper?

it depends on the topic, if it’s about sports then shayne is the yapper and damien is the napper, if it’s maybe voice acting roles or something damien is the yapper and shayne is the napper

49. which one is a lighter sleeper?

damien

50. who is the moon and who is the sun?

damien moon shayne sun

51. who collects more? (figurines, pokemon cards, etc)

damien

52. who is more excited to decorate for the next holiday / event?

damien

53. who stopped believing in santa later than the other?

shayne

54. do they want kids together? give me all the details - names, what traits they inherit, etc.

in parent au i would think they maybe have 2 girls and 1 boy? alice, cheyenne, and ??? (on my sims they have 2 kids so far, klaus and alice)

55. who is a stricter parent and who is more lenient?

shayne maybe slightly stricter than damien

56. who reads a book, and who reads over the other’s shoulder while cuddling?

shayne reads, damien cuddles

57. which is booba and which is kiki? /ref

damien is booba, shayne is kiki

58. who believes in soulmates and who doesn’t?

neither but damien slightly believes more

59. who gets nostalgic more easily?

damien

60. who is more of a perfectionist?

damien

61. who hosts more parties?

neither

62. who makes handmade gifts more often for the other?

both!!! (damien’s little wooden board for him, shayne maybe mini paintings or origami 🥺)

63. which one is more formal when answering emails?

shayne

64. who prefers skinny jeans and who prefers baggy jeans?

damien - skinny jeans, shayne - baggy jeans

65. who’s better at roasting the other?

damien

66. who initiates more pda?

damien

67. which one is better at censoring their language, and which has less of a filter?

damien can censor better (twitch) shayne just isn’t as used to it

68. who insists on being player one?

shayne

69. which one snores like “honk shoo” and which snores like “hoooonk mimimi”?

damien honk shoo, shayne hoooonk mimimi

70. who gives more forehead kisses to the other?

damien

71. what does their future look like?

happy, content, open communication, side by side coexisting, love, support

72. which one believes in astrology more?

damien

73. what was their first kiss like?

with both consent and surprise

74. who steals the other’s clothes more often?

shayne

75. who steals the other’s food more often?

damien

76. do they believe in ‘celebrity hall passes’? if so, which celebrities are theirs?

damien maybe fictional characters, shayne pretty demispec so he doesn’t really have anyone to feel that way towards

77. what matching couples costumes do they wear?

something nerdy as fuckkkkkk from an anime or video game probably

78. who is naturally more cold / more hot?

shayne maybe cold for snuggles, damien for cute sleepy frustration of kicking the sheets off

79. which is more extroverted?

damien

80. how do they celebrate valentine’s day?

maybe a small outing but mostly at home together enjoying company, touch, and sappy sex hehe

81. what’s a holiday tradition they have? (ex. presents before breakfast on christmas)

insisting they don’t need to splurge on each other’s presents but they each give at least one that’s pricey but thoughtful

82. what niche pet names do they have for each other?

for damien from shayne - slaymien yaas, deem beem, damienuhhh

for shayne from damien - baby bird, my guy, bitch

83. who hates small talk and would rather have deep conversations?

shayne

84. what’s their icebreaker / olive branch after a disagreement?

“i brought home food from canes for us”

85. what kind of food or restaurant is their favorite to get together?

^

86. who believes in conspiracies more?

damien

87. which had their friends tries to set them up?

sorry matthew scott you will always be the wingman if it’s during so random days. if it’s during smosh days it’s courtney.

88. think of your favorite movie, then incorporate your pairing into it somehow and talk about it.

damien being jack skellington, shayne being sally née finklestein

89. when they’re separated in public, what do they yell out to find each other?

“SHAWNYAY” “DAMIENHAASEN”

90. professors!au. what subjects would they teach?

damien - linguistics or history, shayne - psychology or botany

91. ghostmates!au. who is the ghost that haunts the other?

damien

92. soulmates!au. how are they connected? do they have matching tattoos, names written on them, etc.

i haven’t finished my soulmates au fic but i did the stereotypical purple/black moon, yellow/blue sun

93. punk x pastel!au. which is which?

punk damien pastel shayne. this is canon

94. historical!au. what time period are they in? what are they up to?

probably victorian vampires like iwtv (gaaay)

95. hospital!au. who’s the doctor, who’s the patient, and how did they get in that situation?

shayne broke his ankle and doctor damien is confused how he got in that mess. or damien is a hypochondriac and doctor shayne is trying and failing to reassure him he is fine

96. massage parlor!au. who is the masseuse, who is getting the massage?

damien giver shayne receiver ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

97. angel x demon!au. who is the angel and who is the demon?

angel shayne demon damien

98. gender swap!au. what are their names? (ex. anthony is antoinette)

demia and shaniya?

99. superpowers!au. are they hero and sidekick? mortal enemies? villain duo? what powers do they have?

i love enemies to lovers villain damien hero shayne for some reason

100. timeloop!au. who is stuck and who helps them out of it?

shayne is stuck damien helps him out (read this fic now)

101. royalty!au. who is the royal and who is the knight / guard / maid etc.?

shayne is royal damien is the knight (read this fic now)

102. magic!au. what kind of magic do they use?

damien i can see either being a healer or persuasion. shayne again with wisdom like vast knowledge or nature powers idk

nsfw / suggestive ⚠️

you didn’t see me fill out any of this btw

1. what’s their favorite position?

missionary so they can keep taunting each other. or riding. or any way damien can touch shayne the most. or anywhere

2. who uses their mouth/teeth/tongue more?

damien

3. who uses their hands/nails more?

damien

4. who is a bit more adventurous?

hmmm. shayne?

5. who is more willing to go to a sex shop in person, and who is more embarrassed?

damien can wear a mask and somehow convince himself that he’s extroverted enough to small talk. shayne tried to just get him to order online

6. who is more into dirty talk?

damien

7. who is more into eye contact?

damien

8. what was their most risky / adventurous experience?

across the bed instead of up and down ? smoffice ? in the car in an empty parking lot ? idk

9. who likes to bite, and who likes to be bitten?

damien likes to bite. a lot. we have been over this (i was the one who made this question list)

10. what is their favorite sexual activity to do together / to the other?

damien marking shayne up, dirty talk, biting ^ shayne roleplay, appealing to senses, sense of mystery

11. which is more dominant / which is more submissive?

the d in damien stands for dominant and the s in shayne stands for submissive

12. what was their first time like?

very loving and gay and beautiful and sweet and sloppy

13. who likes to be spanked more?

shayne

14. who sends dirty texts more often?

damien

15. mile high club? yes or no?

too sleepy or anxious so no

16. what’s something they reserve for special occasions?

toys

17. how long into their relationship did it take for them to have sex?

i love the trope for them of like friends to lovers, so as soon as like, they decided they were gonna be more than platonic, it was pretty quick after. damien’s playful touches turned sensual very quickly

18. how often do they have sex?

pretty often bc damien’s pent up-ness will spill into other aspects (like being ‘horny’ in videos), and shayne just gets a lil irritable / attention seeking

[castleofcuntdracula]

So I've been watching The Great (shout-out to @just-a-silly-little-guy for dragging me into it!) And watching hoult playing a guy obsessed with his baby is making me really want postcanon Renbecca babies. Not to be comphet about this but I DO love fankids and babies ever after... and I think it would be something he'd genuinely want? There's happy families on his vision board, and we know how much he regrets his failure as a father. Ramblings under the cut.

I think it would be a big step forward in his recovery, too- being stable enough, financially and mentally, to even consider having another kid. And I think Rebecca has considered it before, but never seriously- she doesn't have a mom, so it would probably be difficult for her to picture being one.

Once they're committed and have their shit a bit more together, I think she'd agree to it- and then they'd be on WILDLY different pages for a hot sec, because "starting a family" for Rebecca means 2.5 kids and a dog, and for Robert it means "I sure do miss hanging out with my sister and her THREE BACK TO BACK SETS OF TWINS". It's hilarious to me. She'd ask how many he's thinking about and he's like "Well, I know birthrates have fallen significantly since I was last married 🤔 so probably not more than five?"

They agree to one-maybe-two. The first pregnancy absolutely blows his mind because the sheer amount of progress that's been made in prenatal care. He'd 100% cry his eyes out at the first sonogram because he's just awed that you can SEE into the womb. He'd be taking this blurry incomprehensible black and white picture everywhere, showing it to everyone he knows like "🥹 that's our baby..." and his friends are like "that's great man, it looks like a bean."

It would also basically give him another anxiety disorder. There's been a lot of advances in maternal health since the 1920s, and his ex wife probably smoked a pack a day and drank while pregnant, because nobody knew that you shouldn't do that yet! Rebecca has to confiscate his phone so he doesn't go on Instagram and get himself hysterical over her eating pepperoni on pizza or candies with food dye. On the plus side, she will DEFINITELY have prenatal vitamins just completely on. Lock. (He brings them to her on a little china plate). The fretfulness would definitely bother her- it's not like she's suddenly made of glass! But he'd make up for it by being equally indulgent of her the entire time.

I think he'd be incredibly happy to have kids in the modern world, too- there's so much less they have to worry about in terms of disease and dangers, and they'll get to go to school all the way to 18, no matter what! If they have another daughter, she'll be able to do anything- she could be a doctor or an astronaut or even the president! Can her nursery be space or medicine or government themed?

All of his ideas for baby names are horribly outdated and all of Rebecca's are from a list she made when she was 14 and daydreaming about marrying one of the boys from supernatural, so they're out of luck there for a while- she doesn't want to name her baby Agatha or Eustace, but she also doesn't want to explain why they can't name it "Castiel".

I also don't think Rebecca would like being pregnant much- she likes that you get a baby at the end, and it's an exciting time for anyone, but that's hard to keep in mind when the little snot is kickboxing your organs all night. And she really wouldn't enjoy the way it alters/reduces her mobility, especially in the second half- she's pretty much five foot nothing and the average newborn is a third of that, let alone Renny's NBA all stars "one week old in 3mo clothes" sproglets. At one of the scans, the ultrasound tech says their baby "looks like they're gonna be tall! :)" and Rebecca just GLARES at him because she has to haul the kid around for another few months still.

They have a little girl and are both instantly besotted. Never shut up about her, total first time (for Rebecca at least) parent madness where the baby blinks in a new way and they both burst into tears of joy and grab the cameras. Robert having been on the night shift for a century means he's very useful in the newborn phase- he's sleep deprived anyway, waking up every two hours for feeds is nothing compared to a week stalking the streets all night for victims.

He'd probably be the stay at home parent, given that he doesn't legally exist- he's the absolute talk of the town at daycare dropoff and has to go full wife guy to defend his honour. This means that everyone at baby sensory and what have you had a fantastic impression of Rebecca before they meet her, because he can't stop gushing about how cool she is after he's started.

Rebecca is more neurotic than she'd expected about babies, and it causes her a lot of stress at first- she's the youngest sibling, so she has very little experience with them, and her daughter is so tiny and fragile and squishy! She gets better about it once baby is a bit less wispy looking and newborn-lanky, which I think would happen by 2-3 months. Kiddo has a lot of growing to do, and consequently gets delightfully chubby before shooting up like a weed as a toddler. Neither of them want to put her down EVER, to the point where she takes a little longer than average to be crawling and walking because she can only make it a few feet before someone scoops her up and transports her expeditiously to her destination.

Baby two is a couple years after the first, once they're confident that they can get a kid to running-around age without completely fucking up. Her older sister, thanks to the accidental attachment parenting from the sheer amount of snuggling and carrying, would be confident to the point of being slightly feral. By the time baby 2 is old enough to play with her the dynamic is very much as so:

They're smart on their own, but get them both in a room at the same time and their collective IQ is halved and someone ends up with their arm jammed to the elbow in the VCR tape slot.

Despite this, Robert manages to beg and plead his way into one (1) more, just one, this is the last one he P R O M I S E S, three is lots!

They have twins.

[churchofthecomet]

I haven't watched Leverage in a while, see my last complaint post about their Stuxnet episode. But in the meantime I've been consuming other media, and it just struck me how equal the dynamic is between all of the Leverage characters.

Every character in this show is competent. They each have Their Thing that They Do, and if one of them is absent for an episode, the rest of the team suffers until they get back. I complain about them short-changing Hardison by making the tech stuff unrealistic and incomprehensible (so you can't get a feel for how good he is at it, like you can with Eliot punching people -- although if I knew more about fighting I'm sure I'd be complaining about Eliot's scenes too). But at least within the narrative he is really good at his job, and the other team members know it. Likewise for Eliot, Parker, Nate, and Sophie -- they're each at the top of their respective classes. They have separate specialties and they're amazing at those specialties.

And what's more, the interpersonal dynamics reflect this. Nate is an asshole to the rest of them, but there are FOUR OF THEM so it balances him out -- they can commiserate with each other, sit him down and have a talk with him, threaten to strike, whatever, and their side of the relationship is treated with importance because the team couldn't function without them.

Hardison and Eliot's sniping is just friendly banter, and they know it. Everyone is so supportive of Parker's social problems. Sophie is the one with the most traditionally-feminine skillset, something which might be demeaned in another show (and I have some complaints with Leverage's treatment of her), but she's taken seriously both in-universe and by the show itself. They all work wonderfully together. They balance each other out, and they become more than the sum of their parts.

Contrast this with the dynamics in a bunch of other modern media. Let's grab my favorite punching bag of late, BBC Sherlock. Sherlock is far and away the more useful member of the Sherlock-and-John team. The narrative places incredible weight on his intelligence, and John is stuck in a support role. Sherlock is also mean to John, and since John is one person (without much of a spine for standing up to Sherlock!) it feels utterly abusive. The "friendly banter" isn't banter. The "aww look they really DO care about each other" moments were enough for me when I was 13 or 14, but now it just feels like a cycle of abuse. The dynamic is fundamentally not equal. If I'm watching a TV show and I start to think "man character A really needs like 6 months of therapy to stop hating themself and they NEED to leave character B," when the show's message is "character A and character B are a match made in heaven you guys," the show has failed.

See also Our Flag Means Death season 2 with the relationship between... honestly Ed and the rest of the crew, but mostly Ed and Stede. Ed is the best pirate anyone's ever seen -- the rest of them are pretty good but no match for him. The one guy who had a chance of standing up to Ed and equalizing things got killed off at the end of the season, and Stede (as we've seen) lacks a spine to stand up to Ed. Controversial take but Good Omens might be heading in this direction? They defanged Aziraphale and made him into way more of a softie than the book or Season 1 imply. Meanwhile Crowley is Competent and Right About Everything by comparison. The general pattern here is that couples (or whatever the fuck was going on with BBC Sherlock and John) are worse off. I don't know if it's lasting heteronormativity or "two-person dynamics are hard," but the urge to make sunshine-and-stormcloud pairings where the stormcloud acts like shit towards the sunshine is just... too strong.

Leverage is this rare show that refuses to shit on any of its protagonists. Everyone's in the loop, everyone sees some character development, and it fucking RULES. I wish they could make more TV shows like this in 2024.

[hawkfawun]

choose violence: 3, 19, 24, 25

This one is so salty. I'm sorry. I don't know how to make it less salty.

3. Screenshot or description of the worst take you’ve seen on tumblr

bad take. SPEEDRUN!!!! (mostly) Griffith addition.

1- "Gennon is the victim and not Griffith in their encounter. Griffith is cruel for killing him." I get that you don't like Griffith, that's fine. You are saying the pedophile who took advantage of him when he was 12-14 is in the right though?? Also when he killed him the guy was actively trying to kidnap him to be a sex slave.

2- It is "disrespectful to Miura" to ship griffguts. Miura has expressed interest in queer themes and basically said Griffith is gay before. I don't think the man was a pearl clutcher.

3- "Guts should have just killed Griffith when he was disabled." Guts would NOT have done that.

4- Age gap discourse. All the main adult characters are supposed to be roughly the same age. I have no interest in debating if adults fighting the horrors are allowed to have 3 year age gaps lol.

5. "Griffith is Jeff Bezos" ?? Ah yes free education and housing. What Jeff is commonly known for. Not that I love calling him a communist either. I could write a lot on this but. Eh.

19. You’re mad/ashamed/horrified you actually kind of like...

WELL. I am pretty damn shameless on here. A lot of people don't like my ships and thats fine. Best to block me though.

I'm not mad exactly but I do think it is surprising I ship Judau/Casca a bit! Normally dislike that kind of ship but I think there's a lot of room for it to be done in a compelling way. The way his insecurities play out is super realistic and interesting to me. I do think he seriously puts Casca above himself and loves her for who she is not who he wants her to be. Also, I just want nice things for them both. ^^

24. topic that brings up the most rancid discourse?

Casca. Literally anything about Casca. You can be like "Wouldn't it be fun to draw an apostle casca" and people will act like you committed a real actual murder. Never mind if you have some criticism of the eclipse rape or Elaine.

I STILL get asks. btw- if you make sock puppets to harass people for being "too sensitive about rape" that makes you look like a creep fullstop.

Also anything with Griffith but that's a given.

25. Common fandom complaint you are sick of hearing.

Hmmm... anytime anyone has an even mild critique of berserk everyone complains you are literally "spitting on a dead man's grave." It is rare fans complain about the manga itself.

Also rare they complain about Miura. Berserk fans would rather send death threats to fans posting interviews than believe their made-up image of him is wrong.

for the record, I obviously love berserk and think very highly of Miura in a lot of ways. I get why people are defensive of it but phew. Berserk fandom is a little too defensive!

thanks for the questions!

Choosing violence ask meme

[frogmanfae]

Newsies as Things I Heard This Week Part 2

(2 weeks late because I had to figure out how to divide it, a lot of things were said during week 2. 14 pages in my notes app to be exact)

Medda: When I see you shlep your way down- it's a word yeah and you shouldn't be doing it

Medda, teaching an orchestra class: You're using your middle finger which I know we don't always use- and you shouldn't

Race and Romeo: *SIDE EYE*

Davey: Yes, you can take all the blood and puke- that- that is all you, my friend. Go for it I... It is no longer my responsibility I don't want it

Medda, still in the context of a string orchestra class: I notice that some of you aren't always rosining your bows before we play, we should be doing that every time we play. I haven't been holding you accountable lately but I'm going to be a Rosin nazi this year

Davey: Wh- huh?? A what??

Jack: *trying (and failing) to not snort laugh*

Race, a self acclaimed fashion expert: What the hell are you wearing?

Romeo: A T-shirt

Race: But what is on it

Romeo: An axolotl

Race: A fuckin-

Romeo: It says you axolotl questions!

Race: ...

Romeo: Like- like you ask a lot of-

Race: No I get it I'm just trying to remember why I hang out with you

Race: He's like my favorite kid

Race: He wants to be a professional soccer player but he also likes marine biology

Davey: Oh and you also like both of those things

Race: Right exactly

Race, to Albert: Okay so Goldie Locks's parents were kidnapped by the bear mafia and then she broke into that house because she wanted to find her parents but she got sidetracked by food and comfy places to sit and nap because she's a kid

Spot, just walking in: What the fu-

Albert: *laughing hysterically*

Spot: No. No seriously what did I just walk into? What is this? What about Goldie Locks? Bear Mafia?? Huh???

Race: Does anyone wanna go to my locker with me so I can take Advil? I don't wanna go alone :(

Davey: *big sigh* I'll go

Sarah: Why are you walking like you just got ate out so good you can't-

Davey: wh- Do you have experience with that??

Sarah: ...

Sarah: Listen-

Davey: OH MY FUCKING GOD I WAS KIDDING WHAT-

Crutchie: So it's basically icy hot but for horses-

Davey: You should absolutely not be using anything meant for horses

Crutchie: But like it's stronger-

Davey: Which is why you shouldn't use it

Crutchie: But it works better because its stronger

Davey: ... No

Albert: *big wheeze of despair*

Race: ... Girl are you okay?

Albert, not even looking up at being called girl: I just dropped my croutons everywhere!! I'm gonna fucking- where's the nearest window?

Race: buddy we're on the first floor

Albert: FUCK

Davey, who gets chronic migraines: Ugh I'm in pain

Sarah: *holds up the L for Loser on her forehead*

Davey: Ah!

Davey: :0

Davey: You're!

Davey: a lesbian!

Sarah, as if she's never heard this information: :00

Race: I go through that shit like that one senior guy goes through the freshmen before he turns 18

Davey: HELP OH MY GOD STOP WHAT THE-

Race: *shrugs and continues on* It got my point across

Race, who will play sports but not watch them: Do you ever notice how people watch professional sports and after the final call they're like "we won!!!"

Albert, an avid sportsball watcher: Uh yeah?

Race: Like, dude. You sat on the couch and ate Doritos for 2 hours. There is no *we* here.

Oscar: *cleaning sports equipment in the distance*

Elmer, giggling from across the room: What is he-

Buttons, also giggling: He is just- He is stroking those balls like... Like his life depends on it damn-

Elmer: *giggles worse* he just loves stroking tgose- oh shit he spotted us- go!! Go go go go gogogogogogog-

Spot: The only tenor in my choir class is-

Race: Your brother! And your boyfrienddd! And brother...

Albert: ... Same person?

Race, sadly: ... Yeah...

Jack: *the person in question, neither Spot's brother nor his boyfriend*

Spot: Oh my god stop posting on my private story!

Race: It's funny-

Spot: No it's not and I want you dead !!!

Crutchie: Ugh I wanna chop off my body

Jack: like

Jack: the whole thing?

Crutchie: yeah the whole thing. Ill find a way to make it possible

Spot (trans): let me know when you do

Crutchie: *shakes his hand* will do my guy

Race: I wanna go hooommmmeee!

Spot: No one cares

Race: :0 you're so mean!!!

Davey: it's okay Race

Davey: I care

Race: Davey I love you

Davey: There's a cafe named after John Snow, the scientist not the game of thrones guy, and it has a water pump sorta monument outside because he was the one to say that the cholera outbreak was caused by bacteria not air-

Race: Do the food options have punny names?

Jack: Like- like what?

Race: I dunno- cholera flower? (Cauliflower)

Albert: STOPP THAT'S SO GROSS BUT SO FUNNY I'M GONNA THROW UP

Katherine: You're thinking way too futuristic. We didn't have that kind of understanding of the infectious agent during this outbreak, it was in the early 1800s. You have to think like we're in the early 1800s-

Jack: *joking* Then you shouldn't be talking

Katherine: :0

Jack: You shouldn't even be in this class! It's science!

Katherine: :00

Jack: Woman!

Katherine: :000

Race: I am about to mangle your face and your body here

Spot: Thanks for the heads up

Davey: I LOST MY FUCKING WORDLE STREAK ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME WHAT THE FUCK

Race: Oh my god calm down it is not that big of a deal-

Davey: IT WAS A 218 DAY STREAK

Race: NEVER MIND THAT'S TRAGIC WHAT THE FUCK

Davey: I KNOW

Romeo: I have 3 study halls this year it's glorious

Specs: You are not going to have enough credits to graduate

Romeo: That's a later me problem

Specs: You're a junior, you don't want to spend your senior cramming credi-

Romeo: Shhhh future problem

Specs: *long blink*

[ja-mi-sa]

Mikey is not a villain.

I noticed that lately there are a lot of people who believe that all the troubles that occur in the plot are caused by Mikey. There are even those who wish him dead. Therefore, I decided to make my own mini-analysis of Mikey's character, refuting such statements.

It will consist of two parts:

1. A good guy worth saving (Reviewing Mikey as a person)

2. The useless king of the criminal world. (Reviewing him as "King")

1 part. A good guy worth saving.

From love to hate one step. That's how you can describe Manjiro Sano's situation. The former favorite of most readers, began to be seriously persecuted by his "fans". He is called a villain, unworthy of salvation. But is he really worse than the rest of the characters? Is he unworthy?

For me, the answer is “No” and here’s why:

Manjiro Sano, also known as "Mikey", is a man who, despite all the difficulties of life, tries to be a protection for those who are dear to him. This is his family, friends and Toman, they are all in Mikey's heart and are his treasure. As a leader, brother and friend, he tries to take responsibility for others, even if it will harm him.

Initially, when we and Takemichi meet Mikey, he seems like a selfish guy who only cares about himself. But the fight against Moebius completely refutes this.

During the fight between Pa and Osanai, Takemichi and I might have thought that Mikey was just bullying Pa, and after a couple of pages it becomes clear that Mikey was worried about him the most. He sincerely wanted to believe in his victory and give him a chance to take revenge. Then came Peyan's forgiveness, despite the fact that he could make the biggest mistake of his life and take away the “heart” (Draken) from Mikey.

I think that although the conflict with Mobius did not have any serious consequences at first glance (! I mean, no one died, but this was the beginning of Mikey's further actions that led us to the current story arc!), it finally showed us that Mikey is a good guy.

Bloody Halloween. The event where we and Takemichi realize that Maika has a dark side. The part that makes him dangerous. But even so, thanks to our hero, Mikey did not commit a crime that could destroy him (in the timeline where he still killed Kazutora, Mikey eventually separates from his friends and does not appear in the world for many years. Knowing the nature of Mikey, I think he already then tried to protect Toman from himself). The event ends with Baji's death and Kazutora's forgiveness.

By the way, Mikey is a liar, he told Tora that he planned to kill him but changed his mind because of Baji. But Mikey never hated Tohru. In the first book of characters, he did not have anyone listed in the “hates” column, at the same time, Kazutora was listed in Draken. In addition, Mikey, in principle, is not the kind of person who will take revenge on others. And the fact that he still tried to do this is caused by the death of Baji.

Black Dragon Arc, strange thing. It's kind of important, but kind of not. The conflict in the Shiba family affected so many people that in the end Mikey expelled Kisaki, but at the same time replacing their family showdown with something else, nothing would have changed for the current arc (for me, this arc itself and its role in the plot are not clear). That Christmas night, we realized how vulnerable Mikey was. He misses a Taiju punch to punish himself. Says strange things about Baji and Sheen. We realize that even then he needed help.

Incident in Kanto. February 22, 2006, an event in which we lost 4 important characters. Emma Sano, a 14-year-old girl who had a simple dream of becoming a bride.

Kurokawa Izana, a guy who suffered from loneliness. Kisaki Tetta, a genius who directed his mind to bad deeds. And Mikey, because it was on that day that he lost Emma, ​​for whom he became "Mikey" (he just has a dead look).

And this guy is a villain? Even if we consider all versions of the future, we cannot say that he was a truly bad guy. At the time of the first timelines, many people did not see Mikey for many years, and Kisaki took over the power in Toman. With Manila! Mikey, everything is not clear. I never believed that he killed all his friends. Then I came across this theory:

I also want to note that all the murders are not Mikey's style. Draken was killed by a katana, in order to kill a person with this weapon, you need to be able to use it. Either you will simply inflict severe wounds with your inability, or it will be a painful death. Mikey is a character who didn’t even hold a knife for all the chapters, not to mention the katana (the only one who was shown with a katana was Sanzu). The Hakkai was burned alive, one of the most painful ways to kill. Mikey is not a sadist and why Hakkai? This murder is more like revenge. Mitsuya was killed at the police station, behind closed doors. 1. How could Mikey get there; 2. I'm pretty sure if Mikey was choking someone, then with the strength of his hands, he would break the person's neck faster. He could have killed Chifuyu, but I doubt he did it.

(Bonten! Mikey will be in part 2.)

Every time Mikey "kills", his victims have every chance of surviving if they are given medical attention. In the case of Kazutora and South, we cannot say whether they died immediately after the beating or whether they were still alive but unconscious. But no one checked their condition, so maybe Mikey just beat them up and left them, and general inaction killed them.

Even when Bonten!Maiki fired at Takemichi, Takemichi was able to stand up and walk some distance. So perhaps his wounds, although they were terrible, but not very fatal (provided that medical care was provided on time).

Or the recent chapter where Mikey lost control of himself. He was under the influence of the Black Impulse and beat up Kanto members Manji and Toman, but didn't kill anyone. Most likely, in this state, his goal is not to kill a person, but to remove the irritant that caused a surge of emotions. And that happened to Kazutora, South and Takemichi. They aroused his anger and he wished they would shut up.

He did bad things, but also good things. Became a brother for Emma, ​​which one could only dream of. Were a leader you can rely on. For some, it was even a lifesaver. At the start of the story, Mikey frees Takemichi from Kiyomasa's influence, and Michi can finally be herself. Now Michi is trying to free Mikey from the Black Impulse and save him.

He has the right to salvation, because in his soul he longs for salvation from darkness. A person who wants help should get it.

[residents-of-spookys-mansion]

Specimen 9 and 5 origins or general headcanons please

Specimen 9 and backstory stuff:

Ok let’s start off with some canon. So what we already know is that the Taker was a survivor of Unit 731 and seems to be made of a clay like substance. I believe that substance is a dense flesh like matter made from the bodies of anyone he collects.

The taker doesn’t just take from his victims but from any dead person he finds. Like a scavenger of sorts. The more he collects, the stronger he gets. He got taken apart since he was deemed too dangerous and at the end of the game we see him get put together.

-Ok so hc time; this is post bad-ending. During his fight with 14, he got damaged so badly he was in pieces again. Spooky had to manually piece him together again, it was that bad. That’s also why 14 is this red, black color now. It’s just the dried clay like blood of the Taker. Thats how violent he was during the battle.

-So once the Taker got himself back together again, he was immediately given the devastating news that the guy he got killed to is now a permanent resident. He was so upset he stayed in his area and didn’t talk to spooky for a while. Eventually he got over it, but he watched his step now.

-The other specimens view the Taker as a second leader of sorts. Spooky may be in charge but most don’t take her seriously. So spooky enlist the help of the Taker to get them to listen since he’s very powerful. Specimen 8 and 5 are his closest “friends.” -They all have mutual respect for each other and their leader ship skills. They talk to each other in a very diplomatic way.

-The taker kinda talks pretty proper most of the times and spends his time finding any books lying around and reading them. He enjoys literature a lot and he’s knowledgeable in about 4-5 languages, ranging from human to even demonic languages. But for the most part, he remains in a dormant state until someone arrives at the mansion where he starts to follow them. If they destroy items or stand around too long he’ll kill them. He hates loiters.

-Most specimens, monsters, etc are either scared of him or respect him. The Taker also enjoys feeding specimen 3 sometimes too. He also can speak backwards to the Beef demon and they enjoy eating and chatting together

-He is pretty tired a lot of the time and prefers to be left alone in silence.

Specimen 5 time! Back story first

-Specimen 5 was the mother of a cult. She got summoned to the world and was worshipped for being this powerful demon. Bab initially wanted to kill the cult that summoned her but decided to take advantage of them instead, so she made them her followers. Since bab was specific requirements for sacrifices so she could get the cult to do all the work of getting a perfect sacrifice for her. These sacrifices also made her stronger.

-Bab would also get these followers to do her bidding and kill anyone who opposed her and summon more demonic things for her to use. The stronger she got the more her power to manipulate the minds of people grew more effective. She’d use this to keep her followers in line.

-But once they started fucking up her sacrifices she got so pissed she killed them all. This lead to rumor of a church being where people got massacred which got the attention of the GL labs people. Catching Bab was actually kinda easy and she wasn’t happy about that L

Time for the current Hc’s!

-Bab actually enjoys the specimens she’s stuck with and gets along with mostly all of them. Ben, Taker, Deer lord, Tirsiak, Frenzy, and specimen 4 are her closest friends.

-Bab is quite serious and motherly in nature and often gives advice to the others. Her illusions don’t work on the specimens however.

-When Bab “sleeps” she quite literally becomes an inanimate mannequin and sleeps standing up. Like you could knock her over and she’d fall and an inanimate object.

-Bab doesn’t eat or drink and she can’t either. To waste time she either talks to her friends or cares for the womb room. Since bab also has a motherly attitude to her, she also cares for the dolls with frenzy. Since many of them are children, they view Bab and Frenzy as their moms. The hooked doll and Wormy also view Bab in this way.

-Bab can sense other demonic presences and can speak a multitude of demon languages and knows many different rituals by heart

-Bab is the mom of the Mansion and is tired of everyone’s bs

-her sword is kinda melded to her hand which makes sense cause she doesn’t have hands. This is also kinda how she picks stuff up, by melding her arm to it then unmelding it to release it.

[a-mag-a-day]

MAG 22 (my beloved!) - still dying my hair

I was immediately "Oh, Martin sounds so nice! The voice fits so well!"

We now know again, where in the timeline we're at! 12th of March 2016! Which was, btw, a Saturday, lol! Yeah yeah, I know, it's a different universe, maybe they started their calendars a day off XD And I don't think, there is any way to tell, how many statements per month or something Jon got through. I really don't think that there was like a pile and every 10th statement is a real one. Sometimes he may have gotten through 2 a week and then 3 weeks nothing. I don't think there is any pattern or regularity to it. Not at this point at least. I can get behind that for S4 maybe…

"and you can vouch for the soundness of my mind, can’t you?" [beat] "That is beside the point." - Jon, you fucking asshole xD

"I like spiders." - Of course you do^^

"with a faint cracking sound, like stepping on an eggshell" - vs. a quote from MAG 6 "The closest I could come would be to say it sounded like… an egg being dropped onto a stone floor"

"I’m not exactly the smallest guy in the world, I know" - and I wanna concentrate on the "I know", he sounds so self-aware of this body type there but so dismissive at the same time. Like enough people already have pointed it out to him and he so fed up about it by now… God, I can imagine! I would very much like to use this bullet point to remind people that there is no one-single-absolute way to be fat and if you don't like someone's style then pls just block the user and move on.

"I swear the edges seemed to move. It was like a… like a, like an undulation, like, like they were being shifted by something." - Shifted by wriggling worms?

"I was heading home when I got to thinking, and I was worried I hadn’t really done enough investigation for you" - This is so painful. To think that Martin probably heard what Jon said about him in MAG 14 (like Jon won't want anyone get chopped up but he didn't care enough for Martin if it were to happened to him… And "useless ass") and then Martin also probably felt bad for declining to research anything on the Laura Popham, MAG 15, case… He's probably just going through the motions of wanting to prove himself (thanks Martin's mother!) and he really wanted to prove himself to Jon there (and he probably also didn't want to get fired) with the Vittery case and paid a very high price for that.

"I just wanted to take a picture of the thing. To prove to you that it happened – you’re always so quick to dismiss these statements and I wanted proof for you." - Awwww…

"That thing jumped literally 6 feet through the air at my face." - I know a lot of people use this when wanting to find out how tall Martin is, but I don't think that word can be taken so seriously. We don't know anything about by what measurements he goes. Does he mean the literal diagonal leap? But we don't now how far he was from the worm? Does he just mean the horizontal distance that lay between him and the worm? Or does he mean the vertical, like how high the worm had do jump to reach his face. Would you, when describing the vertical, just say your height as in top of your head or would you cut down a few centimeters to your face? Would you use the lowest point of your face then, so your chin, or the middle, like your nose, or…?

What is it with canned peaches and podcasts?

"I… like my job. Most of the time." - I already said that I had a boss like Jon for about 6 years and I feel this statement right there very much… I like my job. I just don't like having a target painted on my back for every shit my boss could possibly throw at me.

Jon is still so hard to read for me at this point. He obviously does care here but he remains so composed, he doesn't drop his facade of poshness, not even for a moment. But given his history with Mr. Spider, he feel probably a lot of that guilt bubbling up.

So my thought to this episode in general was: Finally shit's going doooooown!!!

This was the episode that did it for me. After that I couldn't stop thinking about TMA and really genuinely wanted to know what happens next. I really like Prentiss, I also really liked MAG 6, so it's no wonder that the next episode that was about the worms got me hooked. I guess you could say, they were… hookworms!!! (Also Martin, Martin is best! I was on Martin's side from the start. Always have been.)

Stuff is happening in the archives now!

[lt-wolfpack]

70 things ALL Police rookies should know...

1. Out here, everybody lies.

2. They lied to you during training.

3. Never take the word of a drunk person over that of a sober person.

4. Civilian ride alongs are not your friends.

5. Sit back and listen to the veterans.

6. Some night, someone will try to kill you. You do not know when, who or where. Therefore, consider everyone with whom you come in contact to be a potential threat.

7. If you need help, ask for it.

8. NEVER, EVER lie.

9. Have fun with the job and don't take yourself too seriously.

10. If you think someone is watching you....they are

11. Go Home At The End Of Your Shift

12. Pick A Secret Mentor

13. Develop A "Hand Fetish"- Watch everybody's hands

14. Report Writing IS "Officer Survival"

15. Wash Your Hands!

16. Wear That Geeky Traffic Vest

17. Have A Life Outside The Job

18. Trust Your Instincts

19. Handcuff EVERYBODY / "Search For The BB"

20. Be Professional And Courteous, But Never Forget The Next Person you Meet You May Have To Kill.

21. Trust Your Instincts

22. You've got 30 years to be the Police (depending on your state)...don't try to do everything the first year.

23. Know where the hell you are in your town/city

24. Don't let the bastards get you down...the department is probably full of people that like to complain.

25. When it comes time to lay hands on somebody (and that time WILL come), let your violence be swift and merciless.

26. Don't talk bad about other officers EVER.

27. Listen up to the radio and know where the other officers are.

28. When everyone else in the jurisdiction is shagging paperwork calls, DO NOT stop the car with a out tag light that is being driven by a 60 year old woman who has never ever been stopped by the police before just because you are a little bored.

29. Murphy was a cop and he likes to do ride-a-longs. If it can go wrong it will.

30. NEVER eat where you can't see your food being prepared.

31. Don't hold your flashlight in your weapon hand.

32. Don't ever tell back-up there not needed even if there from another agency.

33. Look Good/sharp in uniform

34. Attitude is everything-

35. I highly recommend not purchasing expensive writing utensils for patrol work. You will eventually lose them.

36. You must be alert.

37. Never let anyone you are questioning or about to stop get in a better position than you and your vehicle.

38. Is your firearm clean? Will it fire? How about the ammo? When did you last fire so that you can hit a target in combat conditions? What's the sense of carrying any firearm that may not work?

39. Remember to look up when your out on patrol

40. Have a SPARE key for every car you THINK you might drive...and keep it ON YOUR PERSON.

41. Sometimes the bad guy will get away. Sometimes you just can't connect him to the crime. Sometimes he will be out on the street before you report for your next shift. Sometimes prosecution will be declined. RELAX, THERE WILL BE A NEXT TIME.

42. Think about worst case scenarios, then have a plan to respond. Have a backup plan in case the first one fails. Always leave yourself a way out. There is no such thing as retreat. However, there is nothing wrong with fighting in the opposite direction.

43. Be nice to everyone you meet. Have a plan to kill everyone you meet

44. Pay special attention to people who don't want to make eye contact. The ones who give you the "fuck you" looks are the ones who probably don't have anything going right then.

45. Learn to look around at everything quickly and not staring in one place hoping something happens there.

46. Get out on foot and walk. Perps expect us to be lazy. They never expect us on foot.

47. When asking for consent to search, watch their eyes. If they have something, the eyes will automatically look at it before they respond.

48. Be nice to your dispatcher!

49. NEVER walk up to a vehicle on a traffic stop with a ticket book in your hand. I don't care what your FTO says.

50. THE PEOPLE THAT YOU GO OUT OF YOUR WAY TO "CUT A BREAK" ARE ALWAYS THE ONES WHO COMPLAIN.

51. THE GUY YOU KNOW PERSONALLY, EXPECTS FAVORS.

52. Stay in shape.

53. Keep learning/going to schools/college.

54. MAKE AND KEEP GOOD RELATIONS WITH OTHER LEO'S. YOU WILL NEED THEM AND THEY WILL NEED YOU. COMMUNICATION BETWEEN AGENCIES IS CRITICAL.

55. Buy a bag of chewy dog treats in the resalable bag. Great for coaxing a pitbull out of the house you need to get into.

56. Check the backseat of your squad before you leave the station, and every time you take someone out. You'll be surprised how much dope you find.

57. Pretty girls have gotten breaks all their lives, so stroke 'em.

58.Wear your body armor every single day. No matter what, no matter how hot or uncomfortable it gets, or if the other guys tease you. The day you don't wear it could be the day you need it.

59. Never, never, ever trust ANY member of the news media if you want to stay out of the trick bag.

60. When on the radio always use your normal tone in your speech! It helps when you call out on traffic or anything and your fellow officers can tell that there is a concerned/excited tone in your voice they will know that something may be up and can start your way.

61. Personal hygiene is a must. First, you're dealing with the public and they don't need to smell your stinky ass.

62. Remember, two is one and one is none. Always have at least two flashlights, two pairs of cuffs, two radio batteries because when you need that particular piece of equipment most, it will crap out on you.

63. Practice, practice, practice. Because the bad guys sure are. They study your holsters and probably know how to get your firearm out quicker than you do.

64. When you make a traffic stop, don't just give a tag number thinking your dispatcher will get all the pertinent info. from the return. Give a vehicle description. What if that tag doesn't belong on that car? When the driver gets though shooting you, I'd like to be able to at least be looking for the right type of vehicle.

65. For the love of God, please take all the crap that jingles out of your pockets. I don't want to clear a building with a guy that has $15.00 worth of pennies in his pocket and something resembling a janitor's key ring hanging off his belt.

66. If you find one weapon always assume there is another

67. Remember that this is people business. The more details you can recall about people, their families, what they drive, where they work, who they hang with, where they hang, will be so vital in your every day contacts.

68. Don't let the prospect of a citizen complaint keep you from doing your job. If you're right, don't worry. Some people just love to complain.

69. Take a bathroom break whenever you can...you never know when that long drawn out call or arrest is going to prevent you from going.

70. NEVER trust anyone from Internal Affairs

[coffeeheartaddict2]

Begin Again

Book: Open heart (book 2 rewrite)

Pairing: Ethan Ramsey x F!MC Casey Valentine

Warnings: sexual content 18+, some fluff, swearing.

Rating: Mature

Word Count: 4529

Summary: Ethan and Casey reveal to each other how they truly feel about each other. Edenbrook partially reopens and Leland starts to set his agenda.

Disclaimer: Characters, dialogue actual and paraphrased belong to Pixelberry

Authors note: Well, here we are at the end of my rewrite of my book 2 ch 14-20 rewrite. You will note this chapter does not have too much from canon. Part 1 of When Egos Collide will follow on from the end of this. For those who have read and commented, thank you for reading and if there is anyone out there who has read both the original and the updated, I hope you have enjoyed the update.

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Ethan is alone in his apartment, enjoying a scotch, wishing that Casey was with him. It had been a roller coaster of a day. The prospect of Edenbrook being saved, seeing Casey and then seeing his mum for their combined therapy session. Louise appeared to be well and really appreciated the photo that he gave her. She was struggling with a heap of emotions and if he was being honest so was he. The therapy was helping him understand parts of himself better,however the more he learnt about his mum, the more disquieted he felt. He saw so much of his personality traits in her. The restlessness, the running away when things got too hard, the denial of emotions. Then he realised the main difference. And it all tied back to her, to Casey. She was someone whom he let in at a fairly tumultuous time. Casey who he trusted, professionally but also personally, she respected him, was patient, stuck by him when he pushed or ran away. She showed him what it was like to love and to be loved. He was still scared of Love but he knew he needed to tell her. He was about to pick up his phone to call her when there was a knock at his door. He was not expecting anyone. He got up and looked out the peep hole to see Casey standing there. He opens the door. “Come in Casey, I was not expecting you but happy to see you regardless.”

Ethan offers her a drink and they move to the balcony. Casey starts telling him about her day.

“After coffee I realised something. What had been bothering me with Leland was why me, after all this is a guy who just calls up hospital boards to get a diagnosis of his condition. Then it occurred to me. What if he was testing me. So I went to his mansion and told him I figured it out. He was always going to buy Edenbrook, he just wanted to see if he would have someone on the inside.”

Ethan asked, “What did you do with the cheque?”

“I handed it back to him. I told him I admired his vision and I was happy to work with him but I was not going to be a yes person, if there was something I disagree with he would know.”

“I am proud of you rookie.” He squeezes her hand. Casey squeezes his hand back and laces her fingers in between his.

“I suppose time will tell if I did the right thing with Leland.”

“It will but on the upside, if you don’t like where it is going, it will be the last year of your residency and you can do whatever you want.”

“This is true but The situation with Leland is not my main reason for coming over.” Casey lets go of Ethan’s hand and stands up. She walks to the railing and takes a deep breath.

“The main reason I came was to talk about us.” Ethan takes a breath, all of a sudden he is feeling nervous.

“Your confession a few days ago about your professional and non professional feelings being intertwined as they are threw me a bit and made me think through some stuff. And what I realised too, that my feelings are very similar. When I thought back on much of our pre Miami interactions it was the work that helped form us. The first day on the team after the first meeting where I was seriously questioning should I even be there, you were there for me, you helped me remember my passion because my passion was reflected in you. I don’t want to fight the inevitable anymore Ethan. If our out of work interactions have been anything to go by, you and me, Us, it is inevitable. Casey by this point had turned around to look out at the Boston skyline as she could feel tears welling up in her eyes.

Ethan sits in thought and it was his turn to be thrown. He knew he had an impact on her professionally but did not realise the depth.

“As you know, I was always finding excuses to not be with you, I have had feelings for you for a long time. I suppose Miami was the first time I acted upon them and despite doing everything to push you away you were still there for me. That night of the assassination attempt was quite literally the worst night of my life. And here we are several months later and I have still managed to push you away countless times and I regret that, especially when I managed to screw things up when they were going well. As you know I don’t easily open up to people, finding it easier to close them off but you were different and if I am being honest, the feelings I developed and have for you terrify me.” Ethan stands up and walks over to Casey and stands beside her.

“You see Casey, the feelings I have for you terrify me because I love you.”

Casey puts her hand over Ethan’s.

“I love you too, Ethan. I don’t think I have loved anyone as much as I love you. I don’t think I ever could.”

Casey turns to look at Ethan. A tear is running down his cheek and Casey wipes it away with her thumb. Casey gently kisses Ethan on the lips. Ethan returns the kiss and deepens it. Casey then cuddles into his chest. “I have missed this.” Ethan kisses the top of her head. “I have missed you too.”

Casey kisses Ethan again, with longing and Ethan responds in kind. Ethan then turns her around and starts kissing her neck and the sensitive spot behind her ear. Ethan then rests his chin on the top of her head and Casey sighs contentedly. They stand there, with no concept of time. The only thing that matters is that they are there together and they truly know how they feel about each other.

They eventually move inside to Ethan’s bedroom. Casey sits down on Ethan’s bed and he joins her. Ethan kisses her, with longing. Casey’s hand slips underneath his shirt and runs it up and down his back. Ethan starts kissing down the side of her neck. Casey lets out a quiet moan. Casey kisses Ethan on the lips again. Ethan finds the zipper of her dress and fiddles with it. Casey whispers in Ethan’s ear “I am all your’s” and kisses him with passionate longing. Ethan unzips Casey’s dress and removes it. Ethan traces his hand up and down her arm and her shoulder blade, mesmerised by the woman in front of him.

“What did I do to still have you here with me” he whispers before kissing down Casey’s neck and collarbone.

“I don’t know but I am more than happy to be yours to have”

A low growl leaves Ethan’s throat and he kisses her hungrily. Casey takes his shirt off and starts to undo his jeans. Whilst getting his jeans off she brushes her hand down the front and feels how hard he is for her and her alone. She frees Ethan of his underwear and strokes his length. Casey kisses down his neck and down his chest. Ethan lays down enjoying the sensation. Casey then teases his tip with her tongue. A moan escapes his mouth. Casey slowly takes his length in her mouth, her tongue playing with the shaft as she moves her head up and down.

“Oh god Casey” says Ethan breathlessly. Eventually Casey’s hand joins her mouth. “Fucking hell rookie that’s...” Ethan is getting close to his climax, so close that he can not complete the sentence. Casey sensing that he is close picks up the intensity again. Ethan’s movements and breathing become very erratic. He can not hold back any more. His climax racks his body. Casey is takes the load in her mouth and swallows. Ethan eventually regains his breath. “That was amazing rookie.” She says whilst stroking her hair. Ethan sits up and kisses her down the column of the neck, his hands caressing her breast through her bra. He removes her bra and massages her breast then gently pinching her nipple. He lays Casey down and starts to tease her nipple, whilst massaging her other breast. Ethan starts kissing her collarbone and his hand moves down to between her legs. She still has her underwear on but he can feel how how wet she is. He knows she is wet for him and him alone. Ethaan... she moans. Ethan eases her underwear off. He then moves his hand between her legs and teases her clit. He is eager to reciprocate but Casey moves on top of him and straddles him in such away that his penis is teasing her entrance. She kisses his lips with a passion and longing that Ethan was not expecting. He sits up and rests his head on her forehead.

“I love you Casey.”

“I love you too Ethan” Casey kisses him and moves slightly to allow him to enter. She rocks her hips getting into a rhythm. Ethan holds on to her waist to help maintain it. He thrusts his hips up to gain a deeper penetration and Casey lets out a half moan and scream. Ethan kisses her just below her ear, “Ethaaannn” she moans. She hungrily kisses him on the lips as they pick up more speed with his thrusts going deeper. Ethan’s hand moves away from her waist to her centre where is thumb teases her clit. “Fucking hell...” she screams, unable to finish the sentence as her climax is not far off. Ethan is equally as close so she squeezes tighter while he thrusts deeper. Ethan can not form words, he just moans as the sensation brings him to the precipice of another climax. He thrusts in deep again “oh god Casey” as he reaches his climax. His climax triggers hers and all she can do is scream. She collapses on top of him. Again, neither of them have no concept of time. Casey eventually slides off Ethan, ready to fall asleep.

“Good night Ethan” she whispers.

“Good night rookie” he says kissing the top of her head.

Casey drifts off into a deep sleep. Ethan sits up for a bit just looking at her, ever so thankful that he did not completely fuck everything up. She still wanted him, she loved him. He went to sleep in the knowledge that he was the luckiest man alive.

His body clock woke him early and he had to pinch himself to make sure the night before was not a dream. He gently got out of bed and proceeded to the kitchen to cook breakfast. He made bacon and eggs and he had some croissants as well. He made their coffee. He brought a tray into his room so they could have breakfast in bed. On her tray was the key that he was going to give Casey on the night of the fight.

Casey stirred and opened her eyes. “Good morning beautiful.” He said and kissed her. “Good morning handsome” she said. She sat up and looked at the tray. Looks delicious she said, then she noticed the box.

“What’s this?” she asked curiously.

She opened it to find a key attached to a chain with a big C on it.

“It is a key to this unit, Casey. This way if you want to come here and I am not here you will have a way in. I was going to give it to you the night we fought, I know we only full reconciled last night but I still want you to have a key. If you want to have some of your stuff here too that will be fine too and please tell me to shut up if you think I am moving too fast...”

Casey cuts him off with a kiss.

“We may have only being official for a short amount of time Ethan but I think we had fallen pretty far before we both admitted that we should give it shot so it is not too fast at all, especially since we will be working again soon, together because even though I have no idea what Edenbrook will look like under Leland, I know it is where I want to be because you will be there. And don’t worry, you always pushed me, even when you were in denial about your true feelings.” Casey kisses Ethan and they eat their breakfast.

Later that day Casey returns home and tells her roomies about her meeting with Leland and what she did with the cheque. On one level they are all relieved that we get to kick ass as 3rd year residents together but like Casey, were somewhat apprehensive about what a hospital under a Leland Bloom management would look like. Even Elijah, who entered medicine in the first place to be on the forefront of groundbreaking research was apprehensive. “This is why I gave back the cheque, he needs to be held to account and I refuse to be a yes person, he also needs to know medical breakthroughs take time also.” All of Casey’s friends agree that she did the right thing with the cheque.

Jackie then asks, “where were you last night anyways?”

“Ummm...yeah, Umm” Casey says nervously.

“So were you with a certain person last night?” Elijah Asks playfully

Casey remains silent, she knew her roomies meant well but was not ready to share everything just yet. Casey decided she would go to her room to get changed.

Casey was in the middle of changing when there was a knock at the door. It was Sienna. Casey let Sienna in.

“So Dr Ramsey last night?” Asked Sienna.

“That obvious huh” replies Casey.

“Yeah well for someone who is apprehensive about the return of Edenbrook you do seem rather calm, have you sorted stuff out?”

“Three words, eight letters Si, yeah we sorted our shit out.”

Sienna looked excited.

“Calm down Si” says Casey.

Sienna gives Casey a hug. Casey shows Sienna what Ethan gave her, a key to his unit. Sienna’s eyes went wide. “Omg!!!!!! Are you for real right now?”

“Yes, for real, he was going to give this to me the night we had our chat/fight. He decided to give it to me despite the break. It feels good that he trusts me fully. Office coffee machine was one thing but this is his space.”

“Well I am so happy for you both.”

“Thanks Si,“ says Casey giving her a hug.

A few days later, Casey receives an email. The email is advising that Edenbrook has been purchased by Leland Bloom. A job offer is also enclosed. Casey reads the document attached. Sure enough, Third year resident, junior fellow Diagnostics team. She is excited that the team is back, and hopefully June was not enticed back but she was apprehensive. Her and Ethan were public now and despite the lack of drama post gala, she could not help but feel worried. When their relationship was the primary source of gossip it nearly ended them with all the insinuations that Casey did not earn her spot on the team fairly. Sienna and Aurora then came out of their rooms, excited too. Then there was a knock at the door. Aurora opens it. Aurora lets in Ethan. Ethan makes his way to Casey. “I see you received official notification of the buyout and your offers.”

“So, I guess the team is back together again?” Asks Casey.

“So far, just you, me and Baz.” Replies Ethan. Casey is relieved that there is no June and asks about a fourth member. Ethan stated that they would be recruiting a fourth in due course. Casey quietly hopes that June is not on their radar. Ethan puts his arm around Casey and she rests his head on his shoulder.

“You too are so cute,” Sienna calls out from the kitchen, “would you like some coffee Dr Ramsey?”

“Ethan is fine out of the hospital Sienna and coffee would be wonderful.”

“Make that two” says Casey.

Sienna brings out the coffee. Ethan tells them about the proposals Leland is wanting to do with all the renovations and so forth. We are all excited but all share the same apprehension as Edenbrook as we all knew it was not going to be there anymore. Sienna and Aurora made their way back to their rooms.

Casey gives Ethan a kiss and asks. “Is the universe wanting to force us to have another what are we discussion?” While showing Ethan her screen of her job offer.

“One of two reasons I came over Rookie, one was to take you to lunch, I was thinking a picnic in Boston Common and two, to advise you that We have a meeting on Friday with the board and HR. I think we have had enough what are we discussions on what we are to last awhile.”

They go to have their picnic while Ethan explains what will happen and what evidence he has compiled. Ethan states he is cautiously optimistic.

“And if it is denied, what then?”

“We will figure it out, wherever you go, I go too.” Ethan kisses Casey.

“I love you- still feels surreal saying it.”

“I love you too Casey and yes it still feels surreal but also so right.”

Friday comes around and Casey and Ethan have their meeting with the board. Leland and Caroline are now on the board and much of the previous members are there too, even Naveen was enticed out of retirement to continue on as Chief of Medicine. Ethan and Casey advised of their relationship but after that part Casey leaves much of the talking to Ethan.

Ethan details the results of the work that Casey did within the diagnostics team last year, even during the times that they were together, he also reiterates along with input from Naveen that despite the competition ending early and Casey being installed on the team straight after the ethics hearing was the wish of Dr Banerji and that Ethan had no input. Ethan also reiterated how well Casey works with Baz Mirani.

One of the board members asked Casey how they planned to deal with any personal conflicts and work. Casey stated that whilst at work herself and Ethan had always put work and their patients first and would continue to do so.

Leland finally speaks. “I personally have no issues with a relationship between Dr Ramsey and Valentine. I have seen them work in close quarters on two occasions, once when I was gravely ill and most recently with Caroline. I was not aware of any personal relationship between the two, especially more recently and they worked well together. I know your HR policies have rules in regards to this but I have no qualms that what they are designed to prevent will occur.”

None of the other board members have any concerns either or if they do they choose to keep quiet about it so they were able to keep Ethan as her direct supervisor. The meeting then ends.

“How the hell did we get away with that?” Asks Casey “don’t get me wrong I am beyond relieved but how.”

“The main reason I was cautiously optimistic was because of Leland and Caroline and well your record on the team especially when we were not so great outside of work.”

“Well I am glad it was successful” Casey said whilst squeezing Ethan’s hand.

“Me too Rookie, me too. I was starting to get sick of hiding our relationship.”

“Wait... what now?”

“Ever since I kissed you at the gala, I have felt this massive relief at not being in hiding. I know we were all too busy with the clinic but it was as if no one finally gave a damn.”

“Do you think if we were more open earlier, do you think the gossip after Dagger Mountain would have had less of an impact on our relationship than it did?”

“Honestly... I don’t know rookie, I guess there were always going to be those who assumed what they vocalized and what June did gave them the freedom, I guess we never really knew how many people really felt that way and I suppose there will be those that feel that way but at the end of the day it is not their business.” Ethan squeezes her hand as the approach his car.

“Well it will be good to be back at work.”

“Agreed.”

A few weeks later it is the day of the reopening of Edenbrook or Bloom Edenbrook as it was going to be known as. Despite a massive renovation schedule, the hospital was going to be opened partially so that they could care for patients. There would be a period of complete shut down for the more extensive renovations to occur. Casey hung out with her friends and Kyra was looking really happy.

“Good news Kyra?”

“Yes indeed, as of my appointment yesterday I am Cancer free”

“Oh my gosh that is fantastic!!!!!!!”

Everyone joins Kyra in a massive group hug. Kyra states that she will not be working here, despite enjoying the work, she has has enough of hospitals to last her two mu lifetimes. I am going to travel a bit and then work but it feels good to be free and for that I will always be thankful for this place.”

The speeches start, Leland is the first to speak, there is a section of the atrium set aside for the ceremonial first dig of the new Bloom Edenbrook, but in true Leland style he makes his way to the glass door and smashes it. “Well of this is anything to go by then things will be in some way unconventional.” The speeches part soon wraps up and everyone starts to mingle. Ethan comes up to Casey and asks her to dance.

“Why so formal?” Casey asks.

“Well the invite did state it was a formal occasion.Casey and Ethan danced, eventually his hand moved to cup her cheek, his eyes dark with longing. He leans in and kisses her. Casey moves one of her hands around his neck to deepen the kiss. A few doctors nearby look at their direction but Casey and Ethan for once don’t care. Ethan whispers in her ear “let’s get out of here.”

Casey and Ethan make their way to his apartment. As soon as they enter his lips are hers with a deep hunger. Casey kisses back and his tongue desperately seeks entry to her mouth. Casey lets it in and she moans into his mouth. Finally Casey pulls away slightly out of necessity to breathe. Ethan has a mischievous glimmer in his eye, window or bedroom he asks. Since becoming official, many more surfaces of his apartment had been christened but tonight Casey felt like the bedroom. The multiple rounds were physically and emotionally intense. The sex had always been great but since saying I love you it had been better. Neither knew why but neither were complaining. “I love you Ethan” said Casey sleepily.

“I love you too, Casey.” Said Ethan has he kissed the top of her head and drifted off into a relaxed sleep.

The next day comes and it is back to work. Casey heads off to the ward to do morning rounds. While she makes her way she is flagged down my Ines.

“Hey Casey, can you please do the stitches for one of the residents, they cut their hand in one of the construction areas.”

“Sure thing Ines”

Casey is shocked when she is face to face with Dr Ortega.

“What are you doing here?”

“Yeah, well the DA did not end up dropping the charges, I am guessing they were afraid of losing in court and eventually myself and the Coates family managed to ditch our respective lawyers and have a chat and lo and behold no more law suit.”

“And the hospital just gave you your old job back?”

“Yep, and now I know who I can and can not trust .”

Casey finishes the stitches and states that there will be a scar and also adds that she can be trusted.”

“Yeah, I don't think so.”

Casey hopes against all hope that Esme does not cause too much drama but she suspects that it will not happen.

Casey is wandering the halls and she spots Ethan. “Good morning Dr Ramsey.”

“Good morning Dr. Valentine.”

Just then Leland calls Ethan into a meeting. Leland is wanting to find a fourth member the team and by the looks on Ethan’s face, he is not liking Leland's suggestions.

She catches up with Ethan later and he declines to talk about his meeting but Ethan states that he is trying to hold off on recruitment until the hospital is complete.

Meanwhile, Leland is wanting the fourth spot and filled fast. He knows the type of Doctor he wants. Frustratingly Ethan was not on board but Leland did not care. He prepares an offer for Dr Terrence Mendoza, hopeful that his visions will come to fruition.

The end of second year is fast approaching and Casey and her friends make arrangements to bring in their third year at Donahue’s. So much has changed for Casey this year, if you told her a year ago that she would be dating Ethan Ramsey exclusively she would have laughed at you but here we are and Casey could not be happier. Ethan was happy that Casey had her friends and was adamant that she bring in the new year with her friends. Ethan also reminded her that they could celebrate themselves in private. Casey finally makes it to Donahue’s for the end of year celebrations and Casey meets the gang in the beer garden. Casey takes her drink and they count down the seconds to midnight. They toast to kicking ass as third year residents. They are all excited for what is to come. They reflect on the year that has been and share their hopes.Bryce is jealous as his residency is four years. Reggie calls last call. Casey separates from her friends and joins Ethan. They head back to his apartment.

“I can not believe it has been a year since we stayed back past last call and I kissed you.”

“A lot has certainly changed and for the better. As it turns out there were some things that even I could not control.”

Casey laces her fingers between his and smiles.

“Could not be controlled for better I am sure. I love you Ethan Ramsey.”

“I love you too Casey Valentine.” Ethan still felt like the luckiest man alive and he hoped that this year would hurry up and end for he was already looking forward to this night in 12 months from now and he was hopeful that Casey would once again make him the happiest he has been.

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