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piplupod · 3 months

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WIBTA if I said, word for word, "please do not comment on my body or the food that I am eating, it makes me very uncomfortable as someone with an eating disorder" when anyone makes any sort of remark on my metabolism, the health factor of my food, the calories I am taking in, or how skinny I am, even if their remark was meant in a positive way?

this is a genuine question ! i am just very tired of putting up with comments on all of this even if people mean it to be complimentary. hearing "wow you're lucky you have a fast metabolism" when I eat a cookie is actually really fucking upsetting for me for various reasons that I don't want to go into.

so I am trying to come up with a firm painfully clear response that isn't mean but will make people back the fuck off and hopefully think twice about commenting on stuff to me in the future. but I worry I'm going to become a jerk that nobody wants to be around :')

#i just need people to stop making remarks on other ppls bodies either directly or indirectly. it is so weird to me. why do they do that!#also on the food ppl are eating. mostly the negatives on the food. ''if u dont have anything nice to say then don't say anything at all!''#lets all go back to kindergarten and relearn manners please!#i just feel like im getting too uptight about this but i am genuinely struggling really badly with ED stuff lately #stuff that i never struggled with before fsdjkl its gotten ... much worse. mainly bc of my mother and the shit she says #but also bc it is summer so there is pressure to wear stuff i dont personally like wearing around others for a few reasons!#i dont want to be a lemonhead about all this stuff but i am just fsdfjkl starting to not want to leave the house bc of it #idk how to make peace w it bc i know if i just say the right words then they'll shut up about food and body image stuff to me #but i dont know what those words would be #and i feel like this reply i've come up with might be good but it also feels really mean dhsjkl i feel like im a huge jerk if i say this #but genuinely i just. really want ppl to shut uppp about my food and body. please. it shouldnt be so difficult to avoid it !!!#pippen needs 2nd breakfast #ed tw

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suckinitup · 22 days

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ik nilbog and the scarce resources is probably meant as like. loose reference to the entities and how their existence was dwindling or whagever but cmon man cmon. do none of these greatures understand farming. or the first law of thermodynamics 😔 did those creatures not shit. was there no waste product. WHERE did that energy go. was it into the weird world-transferring thing. why was that niche not filled by a weird lil guy. shakes worm the fundamentals of any environment are the weird little guys!!!

#w #worm spoilers #its interesting because this is a p glaring blind spot in a story that usually tries to think itself thru #but i respect the ‘dw about it just enjoy. no rly dont worry about it because im not’ approach to Any writing problem #so ill accept it #and dreamily think about weird little guys #nilbog couldve made solarpowered little freaks #cows. turn that grass and plant matter into more food #probably couldve found a way to make lil guys that ate dirt and transform that into food the otjers could eat #wind powered freaks…..#<- thays aweskme sctuslly i should think about that more #supposedly theres a salmon out tjere that just doesnt create atp #and gets enough from its prey that it forsnt need to worry???#i didnt end up gettijg the chance to look into it and if i do now i will go down a RABBIT HOLE #but tjats an option too. make lil freaks who are batteries and then feed them to other guys #use the byproduct to make more battery freaks #im just saying that taylor wouldnt have had those same problems okay #i believe in her figuring out weird ways to harness energy snd not stsrve to death if she had nilbogs powers #but nilbog would probably be like aw man :/ bugs. i can do anything w this shit

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halfbit · 3 months

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fun guessing game you get to have with your family when you're mixed: was the shit they pulled racially motivated or not

#they brought home a job app for me for a hibachi place #i am pretty happy with doing my cleaning + art tho and i don't really want to do anything culinary or food service related #i'd rather just get more hours again cleaning :/ idk i'll think about it but i don't handle time-pressure well #cleaning is good for me because as long as i accomplish the tasks i am okay and i can do them in any order i want #anyway i have to be careful though because if i go too long without 'working enough' for their tastes they start taking furniture out of #my room lol #thankfully i finally was able to buy most of my own furniture though during my job so the only things they could take now are like #the tv bookcase and fan #i guess they could take the computer too but they gave that to me years ago so it would be kinda weird if they did #i am a grown ass man but i'm probably not gonna be free from this shit until i can finally move out #gahhh it is what it is #i'm gonna text my boss on monday and see if there's any open buildings i could take for at least another day of work #if not then i'll pick up something random i guess #but i honestly like having more time/energy to work on my art even though being home more sometimes sucks #i might try to do longer days to make up for it?#idk. lots to think about.

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suncaptor · 4 months

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yeah this cannot go on i need to take something like my chest is exploding i can't calm down it's 7am i feel insane insane insaneeeee

#though I HAVE successfully testing that ldn gives me an insane amount of (anxious) energy when i'm on a 3-4mg dose but then i get foggy and #empty at 4-5mg i think #i'm not sure if i should go down to like 2 or try to find the window between #i wish i just had like. a year to get meds right and heallllll so badly #but i can't afford going all the way down and having more relapses #i feel like i'm having aheart attack rn it's so bad it's so acutely painful #and it's so weird bc it's so empty #too like last month i was so full of everything and especially uh attachment fear but now it's just like pain empty screaming pain #i think it's the not eating food enough thing #i mean I DID eat MANY crackers today. rolls eyes #not enough hhh #i know theres so much i have to get done but like ic annot do anything i can't even message anyone i can't i need to get sedated #i don't know if i should try having MORE ldn or ritalin (probably not bc it doesn't sedate me like adderall)#or just hydroxyzine or muscle relaxers #hydroxyzine is looking like the most likely option #bc i still associate muscle relaxers too much with trauma i can't take them they scare me #i feel like i'm dying #i don't think you guys get how fast i'm typing rn like i am going fucking insane if i die of a heart attack for real it would suck huh #no i KNOW this is panic i KNOWWWW i'm panicking but i also feel like i'm going to throw up and die forever it's so bad i feel so so bad lik #i don't think people get how bad everything is i need it to all calm down and stop i need it to get better i am not okay holy shit #you know what everything in my life might not feel fixable and i am letting all my professors down but I can probably take incompletes wors #comes to worst i need to take hydroxzyine sleep and then cave and buy some food tomorrow #like what's happening now i #there FEELS like there's a SHAARP HOOOK in my CHEST IMAPLING ME #if i sedate myself enough i might be able to communicate with people for real instead of burrowing my head into the ground forever and ever #yeah okay i'm taking hydroxzyine #i feel like the problem with antihistamines now after last year is [redcated]#trying to convinc emyself this is not a suicide attempt or self harm i just need to calm down hahahahafih;aeifahe;wifahewifae #that's what they're PRESCRIBED for #i think i want benadryl instead though bc it's shorter and it also makes me head clearer i wonder if i have any i think it's not here thoug

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iwritenarrativesandstuff · 4 months

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hate it when I say I'm allergic to a certain food and people go "so you've never had ___? I feel sooo sorry for you" thanks literally did not ask 👍

#people get. so weird about food. so weird.#i do understand where people are coming from when they say this i think??? but after hearing this my whole life.#it gets old guys. can we change the script.#i think this is a big reason why i almost never judge people's food choices. do you have access to good food? are you getting nutrients?#then i literally do not care if you have the blandest or weirdest preferences or that your presentation is shit or whatever. bon appetit #eat well please that's all i want for you. literally could not care less otherwise #now leave me alone too #storyrambles

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taylor · 7 days

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still reeling over the fact that almost 2 months ago the guy i was talking to (not dating, but definitely 'seeing') took another girl TO MY AND MY ROOMMATE'S APARTMENT to FUCK HER ON OUR AIR MATTRESS while i was ON VACATION THOUSANDS OF MILES AWAY

honestly. how do i get myself into these situations

#followed by him being blackout drunk sleeping on our DOORSTEP the very next day #he said he thought it was weird i said i liked him so soon into meeting him #but he would constantly say shit like 'falling for you more now' and 'my friend told my sister i have a new gf now'#like OKAY HOMEBOY #so dude it's so fucked i'll give more details in these tags in case anyone cares for a lil more context #before my trip back to california for sdcc i talked to him #said hey i know we're not dating but while im gone for almost 2 weeks are we gonna mess around with other people? like where is ur head #he said 'you can sleep with other people because you have a higher sex drive than me but i won't be doing that but you go ahead'#and im like okay weird response but okay cool #before i ended up leaving actually i did end up hooking up w someone and when i came back to my apartment he said 'looks like someone had a #'fun night' but he said it like....in a salty fucking way and i was like ur not allowed to be mad bc you refuse to be in a relationship wit #me despite me LETTING YOU LIVE WITH ME AND MY BFF FOR THE LAST ALMOST MONTH #oh yeah that part too #he was evicted and was staying with us for a few nights that turned into almost a month #NO he did not pay rent YES he did eat all our food #YES im an idiot for not seeing his red flags sooner but i was infatuated #so anyway my friend goes 'he's salty you fucked another dude' and im like excuse me how the fuck is he gonna be mad when WE TALKED ABOUT TH #*THIS #now granted it was a day before my trip so it wasn't ON my trip that i slept with someone else #but im like. how are u gonna be mad im gonna go enjoy myself when you've made it painfully clear you want me but want 0 strings #so anyway while im in california my bff calls me like hey dude john is on our air mattress naked with another girl #i was like excusethefuckME #because 1. he wasn't supposed to be at our apartment anymore so i was surprised he was there at ALL #and 2. how are u gonna ever be living RENT FREE with someone and INVITE SOMEONE ELSE OVER TO FUCK IN THEIR PLACE #i could honestly go on but i doubt anyone read this far as it is #this situation has fucked me up #first red flag should've been his name being JOHN

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monty-glasses-roxy · 8 days

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Been thinking about the several Zombie AUs I've had over time and listen. Roxy and Cassie both being canines and Chica having to deal with them both giving her puppy dog eyes for food. Both of them looking up at her from the couch with just the biggest, saddest eyes you've ever seen while she eats something she made before they got there.

Chica's wife came back from the zombie war with a little sister and now there's two soppy idiots begging her for food all the time.

#lmao I love them I think they'd have fun doing this shit #roxy has had cassie for three months and they're already taking after each other like they've been sisters their whole lives #it's weird cause I feel like Chica would take a parental role pretty easily but I feel like while Roxy COULD she just sorta wouldn't #one of those family dynamics that makes sense to them and no one else. as it should be really #the other zombie au with the train has them doing this too but it's monty instead of chica #and sometimes monty does the big eyes with cassie to convince roxy to share her copious amounts of sugary food #honestly those two found sugar ONCE and now if they ever run out of it monty SWEARS roxy's never gonna stop crying about it lmao #should be the same for peanut butter honestly cause she's a canine #LISTEN IF THE COOKBOOK IS SO GOOD WHY DOESN'T THE DOG HAVE PEANUT BUTTER HUH???? WHY NOT????#<- tortured by every single fucking book in this fucking series #fnaf security breach #roxanne wolf #fnaf cassie #because this works for every anthro au really lmao #fnaf zombie au #don't remember my tags for this at all my bad

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starlooove · 2 months

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If ur just now seeing talking or caring about genshins racism I don’t like u lmao

#i stopped playing the game at that quest with jet and her dad and the archaeologist #i was NAWT playing a game that’d let racist shit slide in dialogue that I can’t do anything about sorry #anyways this has been a problem since Xinyan and kaeya getting whitewashed in all official art #and Uhm i didn’t wanna say this bc ppl will argue the way a character is written is set in stone yadda yadda #but Y’know it’s fucking weird they made Xinyans food fried chicken #and the sexualization and exoticizing of kaeya is weird as hell too #not even from the game from fans which is why I can’t take y’all srs rn suddenly caring about it #they only got to this point bc they’re emboldened by yall who didn’t care #‘how could mihoyo do this!’ uhm y’all let them and gaslit black ppl when we talked about it #the way blk ppl got exhausted out of the fandom needs to be studied #well it doesn’t it’s just racism like always everytime in every fandom #anywayyys yeah these issues have been around since Liyue at least but whatever we’re crazy

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istherewifiinhell · 2 years

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Hey...

ID from alt: 1. Cake batter in a bundt pan, it's spilt into quarters in different colours. Blue, red, purple and orange. 2. Same cake but cooked

but whats this...

[ID from alt: Glass bowl of bright green glaze icing, with a whisk in it. END ID]

: } oozes ur cake

[ID from alt: 1. The cake on a blue plate, a hand holding the icing bowl over tilted towards the camera. 2. Cake now glazed, you can see the cracks in the cake where the colours meet. 3. Two slices on two plates, one blue one red. END ID]

idk happy trailer... 4... day.. iversary?

#some shit #turbles...#tmnt #[waves] i only make weird fan works...#went into this so joyful and so confident. and i am still so joyful and so happy with it.#but have to laugh.... im the person who didnt check to see if the orange and red would be too similar on camera #they do look more diff in person.#small slices cause. its late. were old. but yeah :thumbs up:. my fav colour bias beat out my turtle bias. i love blue food.

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genderdog · 5 months

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every time i listen to ugly death no redemption i go fucking insane about ice the last generation again

#sucks bc it’s one of my favorite albums lmao #for those who don’t know. ice is a really shitty post apocalyptic yuri ova #it’s made by the creator of the zeta gundam not like tomino but the mech designer #it’s also really anti men like there’s no men they all died and it’s between the two factions of like militant science and fuck it we ball #and the fuck it we ball people just have gay sex and do drugs #the militant one also has gay sex but only the leader and she has like slaves for it????#also the leader of the fuck it we ball one is part jellyfish bc her mom did genetic experiments on her to figure out how to make children #without cock #that’s one of my favorite parts of it the one scene where that’s discussed is really cool #there’s a weird age gap between the two love interests though i think they’re both adults????#but one of them was like at least in her twenties when the other one was being born??????#it makes me really uncomfortable which is why i haven’t gotten super into it otherwise i think i would go insane #also there’s some weird time travel esque stuff at the end and i think it might be implied that the love interest gave birth to her partner #through virgin birth like jesus style #before any of the plot even happened #or maybe the love interest is just there when she’s giving birth???? she dies in the main timeline and then her object that she gave her #partner is in the hospital room (in the past)#but also the person giving birth is technically different than the love interest bc all we know is that she has been hallucinating this lady #bc she hasn’t slept in literal years #and that’s the lady giving birth in the past and she might be the love interest and she might be giving birth to her partner #fucking insane shit there are parts that really interest me and i want to take for my own projects and stuff #do not recommend it at all but also i kinda do but like dont go into it seriously go into it to see a weird as fuck shit show #anyways ugly death no redemption uses a lot of samples from it!!!!!!#oh yeah humans have also evolved to only be able to eat processed foods and if animals eat it they turn into flowers that’s a cool scene too

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thethingything · 6 months

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I'm fatigued, my back hurts, I accidentally spent like 3 hours sat downstairs in a chair that made our back feel worse because our executive dysfunction prevented me getting up and going back upstairs even though I only went down there to get one thing, and now I really need to lay down but if I accidentally fall asleep again I feel like I'll wake up, realise I fell asleep and also that I feel like I wasted a big chunk of the day, and I'll end up feeling even worse again

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #posts made on pain meds #I went downstairs to get food but ended up having to wait longer than anticipated which is whatever #but then that meant I ended up sitting down and once we sit down it's like our brain stops being able to process that we can leave #I'll sit there the whole time going ''I need to get up and go back upstairs. I don't want to be sat here'' and just can't get up #I hate that this happens because while I know our executive dysfunction isn't our fault #and it's the exact same issue that stops us eating or drinking or going to the toilet or whatever when we need to #I still feel like I should be able to just get up and do the thing and just leave if I'm in a situation that I don't want to be in #and it's so hard to get other people to understand that I can't ''just leave'' because my brain just won't let that happen #like I want to but my brain won't register it as an actual thing I can do and it feels more like a weird abstract concept #than a thing I could actually do. it's like my brain can't connect the concept of the action to the act of doing it #and then I get frustrated because why can't I just do the thing that I know I should be able to do #and then I've spent hours not doing anything I meant to and mostly just feel like shit because of it and it keeps happening #and now I need to lay down and I know what's likely to happen if I do that #but I do need to listen to my body especially after getting stuck in a situation that makes our pain and fatigue worse #also we had to take pain meds earlier and that's definitely not helping with us feeling shit emotionally about all this #I hate having to navigate our brain and body just not functioning properly #I feel like we've had so little energy lately and it's reminding me too much of this time last year when we had that blood infection #I'm terrified of that happening again because we almost didn't get treatment because we started to assume it was just our new baseline #hmm apparently within like 5 minutes we've gone from ''ugh I wasted 3 hours'' to almost crying over medical trauma #I probably need to try and do something to calm us down but also I'm too tired to really do anything #which brings me right back to the issue that triggered this whole rant and me getting upset in the first place

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piplupod · 7 months

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the fact that having trouble sleeping causes sleep avoidance for me is so stupid fhsdgjkl

"oh no i'm having especially vivid nightmares and waking up every hour or two and im so exhausted i can barely get thru the day without having a breakdown. hm i think the solution to this is to become afraid of and avoidant of sleep :)"

#YOU FOOL !!! YOU ABSOLUTE DILLWEED !!!#on that same note the sleep deprivation hallucinations are stupid too #''oh u havent been sleeping well? okay well lets just make u see scary things like spiders and weird dripping from surfaces etc''#WHY WOULD THAT BE A THING THAT HAPPENS !!! its so goofy 😭😭#the brain truly does work against me in many creative ways. i cannot help but be awed by how determined it seems to make things worse #perhaps i should be kinder to myself and let myself take it easy during the day but. i have things i want to get done !!#both in terms of cleaning and also like. social connection stuff. unfortunately the cleaning has been taking precedence #cleaning and food are whats been the priority and everything else falls to the wayside but im so frustrated w myself for that dsjkfl #scuttling around just trying to get shit done while i dread sleep and then occasionally making silly posts #but then never interacting w anyone else properly and wanting desperately to do so. rrhghghgh #i just hope my sleep somehow fixes itself soon dsgjkl #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

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impossible-rat-babies · 4 months

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at this point I’m doing DT prep for two people 🧍‍♂️