I’m a pwASPD who used to harm animals as a kid, I don’t feel remorse for it because I just can’t. If I was able to, I would and even without remorse I wish I wouldn’t have done it because logically I shouldn’t have.
I have only mentioned this to very few people that I trust to be understanding and not hold my actions as a child against me now as an adult. I’m good with animals now, I’ve rescued small wild animals quite a few times. But I’m afraid that won’t matter to anyone if they find out how I was with animals as a child and think I shouldn’t be around animals at all.
I don’t like that I used to fit this stereotype but there’s nothing I can do except treat animals the best I can now going forward.
If no one else gets it - and I'm sure they will at least from the community here - I want you to know that I see you and I know it was symptoms and not a reflection on you. While I managed control over these urges as a child, I found myself fighting and sometimes having to entirely avoid certain animals so that I didn't engage in that behavior. It was hard. I'm glad you've learned how to avoid those urges, and I think the animals in question would forgive you if they understood the circumstances. Reminder that there are disorders that can cause animals who wouldn't otherwise act out violently to do so too. And remorse is not required for you to be doing the right thing. It wasn't this fun thing you did and don't feel bad about bc you want to continue doing it or anything - it is a symptom of your disorder and you are already are by choosing to do better. The animals you help now are aware of the good you've done for them, and that's enough, at least in my opinion./gen
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If no one else gets it - and I'm sure they will at least from the community here - I want you to know that I see you and I know it was symptoms and not a reflection on you. While I managed control over these urges as a child, I found myself fighting and sometimes having to entirely avoid certain animals so that I didn't engage in that behavior. It was hard. I'm glad you've learned how to avoid those urges, and I think the animals in question would forgive you if they understood the circumstances. Reminder that there are disorders that can cause animals who wouldn't otherwise act out violently to do so too. And remorse is not required for you to be doing the right thing. It wasn't this fun thing you did and don't feel bad about bc you want to continue doing it or anything - it is a symptom of your disorder and you are already are by choosing to do better. The animals you help now are aware of the good you've done for them, and that's enough, at least in my opinion./gen
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parts from the camelot revival cast recording that make me smile, act 2
not comprehensive. might be in an order. featuring 20% more jordan donica.
ENTR'ACTE. we've got the true theatre experience guys (minus the exit music.)
jordan donica's perfect french during the madrigal
the hazy, in-the-other-room feel of the madrigal strings at the beginning of "if ever i would leave you"
jordan donica's perfect vowels.
the dreamy strings when lance comes back in after the instrumental interlude
"it's not the earth the meek inherit, it's the dirt." / again with lerner's lyrics, but taylor trensch does a such good job making them come alive.
"...and fidelity is only for your mate!" / shouted towards the direction where arthur disappeared. have to say, i do love mordred's fierce loyalty to his mother even if he is a toad.
[guenevere, whistling terribly] "stop! you are terrible at whistling!"
"i'm a beginner! i just need practice and encouragement!" / "the very last thing you should have is encouragement." / WHAT are the implications of that statement, arthur???
"my father used to say i sang like an angel who'd been blessed with a particularly pretty singing voice." / this joke has no right being so good.
"what do simple folk do... to forget?" / love that this line could be played ironically or straight.
"what else do the simple folk--" / sighing: "genny." / when i tell you that i almost melted when i heard this on the cast recording
that verse in "fie on goodness" that's just about scotland, and then: "fie on scotland, fie!!!"
the entire ensemble during "guenevere"
trumpet fanfare/snare hit after arthur says "those guards are going to die tonight"!
the slow dirge of winds and percussion at the end of "guenevere"
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Re: Hunting for Sport Poll though, I do want to add (separately) that you don't have to feel bad about not knowing the history of every place on Earth, even the famous bits. The world is very large and history is very long and there is no way you'll ever know even a basic outline of everyone's national histories unless you spend all day every day doing nothing else. Think of how much time you spent in school in a history class and it's no longer quite so shocking that you don't know even quite major things from the history of wherever you live.
So, like. Don't beat yourself up over things you didn't know because nobody ever taught them to you. And hey, you know now!
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Awww I feel the same way about Joel! You can tell this band means the world to him and it's endearing 🥺 I also love how he doesn't always say/do the right socially acceptable things and I relate a lot to that 😅
yeeeeessss he wears his heart on his sleeve and doesn't sugarcoat his words 😅💞 actually that's what I love about the whole band; they are just so genuine and...real? What you see is exactly what you get 🥰
I can still remember the exact moment I totally fell for Joel for good, which also happened to be the moment I decided I need to see them live, even though I was super nervous about going to my first ever BC concert. In August 2021, Niko and Joel were being interviewed live on TV (on Viiden jälkeen) and they were asked if they have someone who's in charge of their social media (i.e. a professional), and Joel answered that they had actually been offered a person to do all that but that they want to do it themselves, because they want it to be 100% authentic. I nearly started crying on the spot, because how many bands/singers DO that?! Most of them are HAPPY to have someone else handle all that for them, but no, not Blind Channel 🥺
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