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[theropoda]

Wats with instagram showing me videos of some of the most horrific inbred fucked up animals im ever seen and all the comments r like omfg it's so cute! how unique! awww i love him

[witch-of-time-and-letters]

POESÍA DE CANCIONES EN INGLÉS “THEY FUCK ME THEN BECOME “GENIUS”! BUT NOBODY SAID ME OR HELP ME TO JOIN.

OVerture: someone remember 22th december,

Is there anybody going to listen to my story is all about the girl who came to stay?

She's the kind of girl You want say much, it makes you sorry Still you don't regret a single day

                                 Part. I[PAST ERASED]

I was the foolest timid boy, i just tried to arrive to a new place where i could found everything what i needed years ago, im not their nigga girl turns to White, the sacrifice to all Aliens Gods NO i just a trans girl who survive against everything fighthing with my brain and guts for dignity.

I grew up in a small town and when the rain would fall down, I'd just stare out my window dreaming of what could be and if I'd end up happy. Trying hard to reach out but when I tried to speak out always felt like no one could hear me tried to wanted to belong here

But something felt so wrong here So I breakaway

I'll spread my wings, and I'll learn how to fly I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky and I'll make a wish take a chance, make a change and breakaway, out of the darkness and into the sun

BUT, Hey Dellilah!

Don't want to be an American Idiot,, welcome to a new kind of tension, all across the alienation.

I don't need premition, make my own decisions, why can't I live my life.

Do ya think? Do ya think? Do ya think? And there's nothing wrong with me.

                               Part. II-CITIE OF DAMNED SOULS-

What an amazing time, what a family, how did the years go by? Now it's only me

They say I'm crazy I really don't care That's my prerogative, They say I'm nasty but I don't give a damn, everybody's talking all this stuff about me, Why don't they just let me live?

Another day, another tale of rape and another ticking bomb to bury deep and detonate. I’m not the only one who finds it hard to understand, I’m not afraid of God

¡I am afraid of injustice!.

Your misery and hate will kill us all .Do you fight it to the end

                                     (Singing to my killers)

Everyone is so full of shit Born and raised by hypocrites

Hearts recycled but never saved From the cradle to the grave

Im forgotten they will sacrifice me for the Jesus of your luxurya

Underneath it all they’re just savages in everyone hidden behind shirts, ties and marriages. How could we expect anything at all? We’re just animals still learning how to crawl.

That disease's growing, it's an epidemic I'm scared that there ain't a cure meanwhile the world believes it and I'm going crazy, I cannot take any more.

My memory will carry on and on i carry through the fears

Do or die

Wont explain or say i'm sorry

They´re from a whole  becoming from another world that different dimensión.

Cause my cHips dont lie.

Tell me what’s wrong with society

Is everybody going crazy? Is anybody gonna sell my house?  Can anybody tell me what’s going on?

Tell me what’s going on cause If you open your eyes  You’ll see that something is wrong.

                                      Part. III: SUICIDAL ACTS.

I.                    PILLS

Me and my head high and my tears dry my odds are stacked

Why am I doing this to myself? Losing my  in don a tiny error

Don’t lose who you are, in the blur of the stars! Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,

¡Im not their Twisted Trans(gender)istor!

II.                  BLOOD

But since you been gone I can breathe for the first time

I’m so moving on yeah yeah Thanks to you, now I get what I want

III.                WATER

I'll go back to black, we only said (nothing) with words I died a hundred times

Im not your Everybody's fool, I just wanna live and i don't really care about the things that they say i don't really care about what happens to me

IV.                THE SILENCE

IM NOT Jesus of (your Luxurya) Suburbia, I come alone and alone Ill die

°°°

                                      Part. IV TO FAKING LOVERS.

He (or She), you’re an alien,

if you loved me, you would be here with me

and I'm sick of the lies, and you're too late.

So don’t bother, me I won’t die of depression, I promise myself  won’t ever see me cry

Don’t feel pitty but he’s waiting the ring you gave to his will lose its shine

So don’t bother, be unkind

                                       Part: V. UNHOLY PRAYERS

I

All my life I've been so lonely

All in the name of my goals

Still, you'd like to think you know me.

II

In the religion of the insecure I must be myself, respect my youth.

III

¡No, not gonna die tonight Ive gotta stand and fight forever!

IV

I'm not ashamed, I'm gonna show my scars,

V

How long must I wait? 'Till you learn that it's too late

How long must I cry?'Till you know that i really tried

How long must I try?'Till you learn that my dreaming's hard

How long must you dream?'Till you heal my bleeding soul

Never mind my bleeding soul

VI

Cause London calling, London calling, London is calling with his bridge broken by that fallen pedestal.

VII

And no matter how hard you try

I'll always belong in the sky.

                        Part: VI AGAINST manly GIRLS VS  girly BOYS

¡Im not pretty boy im just a girl not a héroe!

Sometimes I get the feeling she's watching over me. through it all, the rise and fall, the bodies in the streets.

¡Hey you, hey you, devil's little sister!

I don’t mind, let you down easy but just give me time If it don’t hurt now but just wait, just wait a while. Ain't it fun? Living in the real world. Ai'’t it good? Doing all alone

Ain’t it good to be on your own? Ain’t it fun you can't count on no one? Ain’t it good to be on your own? Ain’t it fun you can count on no one? Ain’t it fun? You see it’s easy to ignore trouble when you’re living in your bubble

Chanel this, Chanel that, Chanal that shit hell yeah

(This is how they do)

Santa Marmota, chique, at La Super Rica Mamazota, stealing tacos, checking out jotties since now they talking astrology, getting their nails did, all Japanese-y this goes out to all you people going to bed with a ten and waking up with a zero.

                                   GIRLY IN VISION:

They so gay and they don't even like boys with their itsy bitsy doggies and their teeny-weeny feets

You're so sad maybe you should buy a happy meal You're so skinny you should super size the deal

Secretly you're so amused That nobody understands you

¡Like it or not, even though she´s a lot like me!

                               MANLY IN VISION:

Maybe if I act like that, that guy will call me back what happened to the dreams of a girl president?

Where, oh where, have the smart people gone? Oh where, oh where could they be?

They travel in packs of two or three, stupid girls, Push up my bra like that, ¡I don't wanna be a stupid girl!

                           SEXUS CONVEXUS MEXICANUS.

Pretty will you fuck me girl, silly I'm so lucky boy, Pull my head and suck it girl, stupid faggot!

Pretty would you fuck me boy, silly I'm so lucky girl, Pull my head and suck it girl, stupid lesbian!

¡So fix your eyes and get up! Yes, No's, egos, fake shows

Couldn't take the blame, they are sick with shame must be exhausting to lose your own game selfishly hated, no wonder you're jaded

I'm so glad that I'll never fit in, that will never be me

And after all I’m glad that I’m not their type

       Part. VII GNOME KINGSLANDING VS ARROGANTS TALLEST IVARIES.

The knife wants to slit me

You had to have it all, Well have you had enough? You greedy little bastard, You will get what you deserve. When all is said and done, I will be the one to leave you in the misery and hate what you've become. You think you've won this fight, you've only lost your mind.

When you're gone we want you all to know, I'll carry on and in my heart I cant contain it

¡Land of make believe That don't believe in me, Land of make believe that I don't believe in me and I don't care!

It's me versus everyone else

                                   Part. VIII: CRYING IN THEIR HATE ABYSS.

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading so sick and tired of all the needless beating. Oh Mother, I can feel the soil falling over my head.

My prerogative: ¡Cause im born this way and im my hair!

How could I have burned Paradise how could I, my dreams were never mine?

I don't love you like I did Yesterday

[radicalseabies]

top 10 anime ops, go

omg so i got this ask like 2 weeks ago or something, and this took hours of intense listening and deep thought and introspection, and then i went away to sydney for like 4 days and then i forgot about it. anyway, it pained me deeply to have to leave a couple out but here we go (in no real particular order… i think)

「Great Days」 - Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure: Diamond is Unbreakable (OP 3)

*pointing to the sky* LET THE VOICE OF LOVE TAKE YOU HIGHER~

i love this OP so much. like, sooooo so much. all jojo OP’s are incredibly high quality affairs, but the first time i heard great days i literally felt like my life was changing, like i was having some kind of religious experience. it was just that good. it’s so upbeat, it radiates warmth and optimism, and it makes me feel so good to listen to, and that combined with the stylish and evocative visuals makes this hands down my favourite jojo OP, and one of my favourite anime OP’s of all time.

ambiguous - Kill la Kill (OP 2)

if i absolutely had to pick a favourite anime, id probably say kill la kill. it’s just so special to me. it’s so cool and wild and silly and over the top and so much fun. watching it each week is still to this day the most fun i’ve ever had watching an anime, and this OP is just such a banger. that part with ryuko and satsuki fighting, sending hundreds of one-star students flying everywhere, and eventually creating the logo out of debris and blood from their fight is one of the coolest title drops ive ever seen in an anime OP. this OP got me hyped up every time. still does.

Peace Sign - My Hero Academia (OP 2)

ohhWOAHH OHHohh, ohh OHH Ohh ohh, ohh OHH Ohhohh oohhhhh…oh my god i love this song. this song manages to encapsulate the tone, feel, and spirit of the series i love so much so perfectly, it actually blows me away. i really like the visuals too, theyre quite simple but effective, but the song is what really stands out to me here imo. OP’s will come and go as the series continues but in my heart Peace Sign will forever be THE theme of My Hero Academia. i dont have much else to say about it. this song fucking rules.

LAY YOUR HANDS ON ME - Kiznaiver

this anime ended up being only Okay in the end, tbh, tho i definitely enjoyed it. id give it like maybe a 7/10 overall. but holy moly, that OP tho!! this song is AMAZING and idk how to even describe all the feelings it stirs within me, and combined with the vibrant, kaleidoscopic visuals, this OP is simply breathtaking imo. 7/10 anime, 11/10 OP.

Hyadain no Kakakata Kataomoi/Joujou Yuujou - Nichijou

ok im cheating by including both nichijou OP’s in the one slot but u know what i DONT EVEN GIVE A CARE. nichijou is honestly the best anime ever made and it deserves it. i couldnt possibly separate its two OP’s, they’re a package deal tbh and they’re both the toppest of top tier. nichijou is love, nichijou is life.

Flyers - Death Parade

EVERYBODY, PUT YOUR HANDS UP, SAA FLYIN’, TSUBASA NI NAREholy hell this song is a bop. a show this sad had no business bopping this hard in the OP and yet it does and its fantastic. enough said, really.

Soundscape - Hibike! Euphonium (2nd season)

who expected such a down-to-earth drama abt a high school concert band would have such an absolute banger of an OP?? the first season of eupho was one of my favourite animes of 2015, so to have the highly anticipated 2nd season a year later kick off with such a fun, high energy OP just got me so dang excited!! also worth mentioning is at the beginning of the season, the OP is presented mostly in black and white, but after they win the competition and get to move onto nationals at the end of ep 5, it gets changed in the next episode onward to be completely in full, vibrant, beautiful kyoani colour, and it just made me so !!!!… ya. good stuff.

99 - Mob Psycho 100

no jokes this might actually be the best OP ever made tbh. it’s a 100% fucking masterpiece in every way. going into detail abt everything that makes this one so good would make this post like 3 times longer than it already is. its JUST THAT GOOD. 

THE HERO!! - One Punch Man 

ONE PUUUUUUUUUNNNNNNNNNNNNCCHHHH

i really dont have much to say abt this one other than it’s hands down one of the most bangerest bangers of all time. i know it, you know it, we all know it. one punch man is getting a 2nd season, and i simply cannot fathom it having an OP better than this. they may as well just reuse it instead of trying to live up to it.

Sorairo Days - Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann

Mark my words. This drill will open a hole in the universe, and that hole will become a path for those behind us! The dreams of those who have fallen; the hopes of those who will follow! These two sets of dreams weave together into a double helix, drill a path towards tomorrow! That’s Tengen Toppa! That’s Gurren Lagann!! My drill is the drill THAT CREATES THE HEAVENS!!!

and then the chorus kicks in!! chills of hype every time!! i can’t believe i almost forgot to include this one, despite being so iconic of my life and having such fond memories of it. 

and there u have it. if you’ve been following me long enough or just know me well enough, there’s probably basically ZERO surprises here lolol, but shrugs, y’know?? i’m pretty transparent abt what i like LOL.

[thedegenerateasexual]

chapter 3 opens with stiles lying to coach about scott's whereabouts and listen this dialogue really is spot on like the writing style i don't love but she's got their way of speaking down PAT like their exchange is so funny i wish i could c/p it all

OHHHHH MY GOD FIRST DEREK POV SECTION HELL YEAH THIS IS WHY I'M HERE

teen wolf is over but i still get new officially liscensed derek hale content. this is the last time

mostly this is a recap of the shit kate pulled in 1.05 but also he recalls peter being a prankster with a wicked sense of humor. tbh if only it was that instead of "manipulative dick"

he's still working out bc he wants to be ready to tear her apart ):

ok so he had the same fire dream as scott (despite the fact that he "never dreams" that's pretty interesting idk if i buy it tho) and apparently his woke him up at 3am, "the hour of the wolf" WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN

oh, this is interesting: in his dream, he actually fought the alpha, and while he was thinking "i can't win this" his "wolf brain" (lol) was thinking: "Kill him. Before he kills you. Because he will. He will come at you and at you— / There will be many Alphas, other Alphas; each one you kill will bring another. There will be blood on your hands forever. This one, today; another one, tomorrow. / And on Wolf Moon . . . legions. / Humans will try to destroy you. / If they fail, an Alpha will succeed."

(im copy-pasting from the FFN version to paste long quotes lol i dont wanna retype them. bless whoever decided to do that im only sorry they couldnt get thru all 19 chapters)

anyway this sounds like alpha pack stuff? i would be floored if they had thought that far ahead back in season ONE but theyre doing jackson's parents so maybe they did????

aw, apparently derek has a sleeping bag. this poor guy i hope he's not too uncomfortable ):

OHHH WE'RE GETTING TO THE GOODS we're back to hale fire angst

gonna c/p a long section:

There are a few people I'd like to kill, he thought, but no way would he put himself under the control of an Alpha he didn't even know. And besides, what he'd told Scott was true: as a werewolf, he, Derek, might be a predator, but he wasn't a killer. There was a difference, and anyone who'd been born a werewolf and raised by werewolf parents would know that. Scott had simply been bitten, apparently at random, and if he, Derek, didn't teach him how to deal with it, Scott would wind up either under the control of the Alpha or dead.

Dead, because Derek would kill Scott himself rather than allow him to expose the existence of werewolves to the humans who lived in Beacon Hills. Scott had threatened to tell Chris Argent everything. That was when Derek had taken Scott to see Uncle Peter, make him see that the Argents were ruthless killers. Eleven members of Derek's family had died in the fire that had swept through this house six years ago. Men, women, children. Not all of them werewolves.

And none of them deserving of the hideous, fiery death dealt to them by the Argents.

like...oh my god. derek is truly in a kill or be killed mindset holy shit it's Bad he's like so hellbent on getting revenge!! his anger is using him, not the other way around! like sure  helping him keep control, because he wants it that badly and feels that strongly about it but when you are considering killing sixteen year olds There Is A Problem we do not kill children! that's bad! even the argents SAY they don't kill children and most of them are batshit insane!

would also like to take a moment to appreciate the "i'm a predator but i don't have to be a killer" bit bc that became his anchor in My Fanfiction instead of anger and i love that he says it as early on as s1, repeatedly, what a good choice i made

about kate: "cold-hearted bitch. if ever someone deserved to die..."

and then he immediately growls JUST AT THE THOUGHT OF HER and redoubles his workout routine efforts by switching his push-ups to single-hand so he can be Ready - "or the next time the fire came, it might devour him too"

good GOD we haven't even gotten to the kate angst yet and i'm already feeling #validated this was my exact interpretation of season 1 derek he's a fucking asshole because everybody fucking died and he doesn't want to be next because he's got to avenge them

more interesting werewolf lore via derek's internal monologue: "But that wasn't the entire dream, he reminded himself. I dreamed about other Alphas coming after me. Why? It' s not a crime to kill an Alpha. I'm a werewolf. The way we progress in status is through challenge. If my opponent won't back down, it's within my rights to take what's mine in any way I can. Even death." i...don't think that's how it works really? like by the end of the show alpha are implied to be more like parents and the thing to do is wait for them to pass and have the power be handed down to someone else in the pack like how laura got it after their family died. they're not animals and to people killing another person is a big deal?? i can see why among other reasons they decided this novel wasnt canon

he's so stressed he went out to jog shirtless (an important detail that they felt the need to mention) and now he's monologuing about how even though his life is horrible he wouldn't trade it for the life of a human for ANYTHING i love this born werewolf boy it's just so intricately part of who he is you can't take it out of him anymore than you could take the demon out of jesse he just wouldn't be the same person season 4 must have been so AWFUL for him ))))):

ohhhhhhhhhhh boy. "he used to work off all the extra testosterone by swimming laps. Tthat was how he had met HER"

i read a meta about this and it was not pretty i'm ready to be validated and also very sad

derek smells a real natural not-werewolf somewhere in the forest is it that white one from earlier why is there a wolf in california

haha then derek smelled scott ("spying?!") and got mad and wanted to shift, but he didn't because it's day and you never know who's watching, or plotting. "like i am"

this poor guy he's like so distinctly miserable

i don't really like the STYLE of this writing and i feel like the PLOT is going to be cardboard-thin at best but the CHARACTERS are coming through loud and clear so on that front it's very well done. i actually am enjoying myself a bit which i did not expect

[chickenfetus]

ALL MY EGG (and for the four names: jae, killer kang, minhyuk (whichever one), and santa

deadass i did the 100 questions ask meme for this ask and almost posted it rip

🐰 what is one secret that you’ve never told anyone?

theres literally nothing i dont even know what to say ???? 

💗 if you could hug anyone, who would it be?

not 2 be delusional but i would give up my world to hug changkyun

🐹 what are some of your favourite Pokémon and why?

glaceon is UP THERE idk why honestly but the sinnoh games were my first and i just??? i was really into ice and snow and shit u know so glaceon... thakn u

another pkmn ill always have is lucario ????? its just so cool?????

🌠 if you were in charge of the world, what would the world look like?

hopefully forgiveness and like???? acknowledging mistakes and learning from those u know jst positive stuff and like?? water. god i love water

��� what was the most recent vivid dream that you had?

hm okay i think this one was from last night or the night b4??? and like???? idk???? i dont even know how 2 start tbh?

so im like hanging over at this two kid’s im a kid 2 i think place and idk we just talk and shit??? idk whomst the boys were tho

and then we get to a scene where its like??? at a train station???? and i go to the washroom to shit or smth idk thankfully i didnt shit myself irl

then i have to get onto the train which isnt even a train its like a carousel with seats??? and its like on a train track boys this is 2 much and i forgot to get ready my train card thing so the guy (who i was p sure was evil) waited for me to remove it so i got onto the transportation device lmao

and then once im seated i remember i forgot my jacket so i make like hand movements 2 the creep and hes runnig 2 me with my jakcet but the ride’s way too fast so i yell and say ill come back for it even tho im p sure i wasnt going 2

after that i wke up wild

☀️ what do you like the most about your best friend?

i dont have a best friend and all of my friends have their own unique qualities if i went into a rant abt them rn this will b so long

😘 talk about your crush or partner

[minhyuk voice] theres none

💁 if someone was rude to you, would you be rude back?

ya bc im petty but it really depends on the person

🌟 what do you like about yourself? (must choose at least 3 things!)

my personality (the good parts)

my values

my taste in friends (my Big Friends are either geminis or scorpios good)

🐾 what are you scared of most? how will you overcome it?

the dark and bitch isnt gonna turn off her night light any time soon

🎁 what never fails to make you happy?

seeing my favourite happy, listening to the music i like 

💙 what annoys you about some people?

i jjust went into a full out rant abt this on the other reply so ill be quiet now

😤 do you get angry easily?

yeahhhhh 

🐇 what do you always daydream about?

my faves tbh

🌻 if you could change 3 things about the world what would you change?

bad people , gone.

everybody only sends love and happy things on anon

i just want everyone 2 b nice & friendly wars of any sort dont exist and no one wants anybody dead

🍓 send me 4 names: kiss, befriend, kill or marry?

if u sent jae’s name earlier id have trouble so im glad

kiss: tihis is so fucking embarrassing wtf minhyku (mx) but only on the cheek basically everywhere except the lips or anyplace weird

befriend: brian :-0

kill: jae goodbye loser

marry: sanha we can yell every time we gotta turn the lights off

✈️ what is your dream city and why?

tokyo bc its NICE

☕️ talk about your ideal day

cant read

🌸 are you an introvert, ambivert or extrovert?

i suddenly thought of the word ambivore which made me think of the word vore i wanna delete im a both? mayb idk

💧 when was the last time you cried?

nov 3 bc my heart hurts whenever i see ppl being a bad friend

🎵 name 5 songs you love at the moment

oh worm

all alone - day6

with you - astro

dramarama - mx (even though it isnt out yet lmao)

run - bts (the superior bts song)

hellevator - / (i was rly gonna make this mixed languages but rip)

⚡️ if you had any superpower, what would it be and why?

to fly bc im basic

💛 if you could talk to your younger self, what would you say?

dont do that

💚 who are you jealous of and why?

nobody in general????????? 

💎 which one would you rather have more of: intelligence, beauty, kindness, wealth or bravery? why?

intelligence i have 2 live somehow what if my money gets stolen

🙊 what are you ashamed of?

my humor

🌺 which languages do you know? which do you want to learn?

i (barely) know chinese despite having 2 take it all my life legends only

i know english but im bad at that 2 and its my first language once again legends only

i wanna learn japanese and korean 

🍀 if you could be any fictional character’s best friend/lover, which fictional character would you be?

the cow from voltron 

☁️ talk about your dream universe.

weve already discussed this

💜 which acts of kindness are you going to do today?

oh w-0rm ok so im a regular anon on this persons blog and i wanted to send an ask but never got arnd doing it so im gonna send her one. soon/

🐬 if you could transform into any animal/magical creature, what would you be and why?

let me live my life as a furry and cat

🍄 talk about someone/something you really dislike

are u ready 4 me to b the meanest person yet bc i sure am lets fucking go

so theres this girl. and i know her (unfortunately) and ive known her since like 4 years ago and back then she was already pretty shit tbh

she cried bc she had to sit in between the “weird” and “dirty” girls in our class and she headass cried in front of them and everyone just bc she didnt like the arrangement?? shes called the “dirty” girl disgusting before and has made fun of her in front of everybody its just bad :-/

now. fast forward 3 years and in addition to still being disrespectful and rude, she now vocalizes her weird fantasies for her “oppas”??? some examples: 

“when i go watch __ perform im gonna climb onto stage and then my mother and my future husband will fight for me” and she calls those kpop idols weird shit and basically sexualizes them/???? she says the weirdest fucking shit on her ig story and tags them??????? 

another thing. she went to korea nd took a picture of a complete stranger and posted it on her public ig and called him her “oppa” and said that they had a “fun day together” despite the guy not knowing her at all???? she posted the pic of him??? i still dont get it tbh 

she wasnt even being ironic at all??? she calls herself & classmates “autistic” whenever she/others do smth dumb or mess up and its just sososososo fucking wrong

being one of the people to see how shes basically grown from bad to worse is something i dont fucking enjoy and i jsut want to leave my class already lmao 

ok but there are times where i do appreciate her because sometimes the class will be rly quiet and the teacher is basically talking 2 themselves but she’ll always respond w/o fail so thats great but its only bc she talks so damn much 

i just got a flashback to when she “jokingly” said she wanted to be a trainee for the rest of her life how do i just. god

😣 talk about some things that have been making you depressed/angry/anxious lately

we’ve once again already discussed this

🍪 what did you want to be as a kid, and what do you want to be now?

i wanted to be various things honestly?? ranging from an astronaut to a vet to an editor to an animator to other stuff i get influenced pretty easily so if i watch smth and i think its cool ill want 2 be that i guess?? ive been trying 2 get rid of that habit so now i have no clue what i wanna be

🍰 what are some of your favourite sugary foods?

sweets and chocolate cake

🍑 what are you obsessed with?

drinking water and staying hydrated

making my friends laugh is great 2

💘 what happens to you when you’re stressed?

acne LMAO 

😪 what are you sick of?

the usual

🙀 are you an adrenaline seeker?

i love scouting on sif and bandori so yeah 

💥 what are some unpopular opinions that you have?

lets not 

☔️ would you consider yourself a good person?

to a certain extent

😊 what do you like to do as hobbies?

use my phone???? send nice anons and comment on art/fics 

🎤 what’s the last song you hummed or sang by yourself?

none

🐝 what’s your worst trait? how are you planning to improve it?

my tolerance for ppl’s shit is so low

🎨 what do you always doodle when you’re bored?

my ocs

🐻 what’s stopping you from chasing your dreams?

i dont have a dream hence myself

🌷 what’s your mbti personality and why do you think it suits you?

infpt i dont rmb shit but yeah

🐶 send me 3 fictional people and I’ll choose my favourite!

falen i dont rmb what u sent

👑 who are your favourite celebrities and why?

i dont follow any :-o zendaya has had my heart ever since shake it off tho

🐴 opinion on day6?

ur rly gonna do this 2m e?

all alone just started playng this is terrible lets get it

so day6. a band i only found out about in late june (thank u boxy) and before this i only ever listened to bts and mx bc my friends stan them so i thought i was gonna expect boys dancing, the usual. 

i clicked i smile and i lost my fucking shit as soon as i saw the instruments because prior to day6 i was a big 5sos fan so this was rly resonating to me tbh and i was just !!! so fukcng excited??? i never intended to even get into day6 honestly??? but after witnessing how good they are and watching about all of the available mvs at that point i was completely in awe so i caved a created a stan twitter for them.

now, this isnt even the most of it. after becoming a fan i realized how much more these 5 boys are. they compose (if im not wrong) and brian writes lyrics for the songs each month because of their everyday6 project and again, im wow-ed because??? the amount of dedication???? they went from releasing 2 title tracks in 2 years to releasing 12 title tracks and 12 bside tracks in a single year. they havent released the december song yet but haviing to work on 2 or more songs in 4 weeks is fucking amazing if you ask me. 

theyre really talented and theyre just so versatile (am i using that word correctly) and each month their songs sound different. this project has given them the opportunity to try new things and you can hear the steady improvement in each of their vocals (dowoonie not so much since he barely gets lines, but we all know hes working hard) and if you listen to their debut song - kongchu and compare it to the version they released along with sunrise it just???? the drumming has even changed from the original version nd its so noticeable that whenever i hear kongchu from 2015 i know its the old ver

to add to those, they do vlives every week and although those vlives are always scheduled it still makes my day seeing them and watching them do the usual. 

one thing im upset about is that how they barely promote themselves, they rarely get on variety shows (the most is individual schedules) and we, as mydays never really get to know the boys so its harder to fall for them as a whole. i dont know if its jyp or day6′s decision but if this is how they want to be known for - their music only, then so be it. we still have jae’s presence on youtube, music access and asc. thats the most we can get and it makes it difficult for us to learn about the rest but thats okay.

another thing. their concerts are something i always look forward to (even though my interest has died down a bit;) their concerts are just so fun to listen to?? there’ll always be mydays who stream the concert so everyone else can listen to them play and they sound so good live it drives me crazy. mydays are always so hyped and whenever mydays sing along it just gives me goosebumps??? bc theyre so???? good????? 

tldr; day6 deserve more, following wise and promotions wise because they work so hard and once this project ends i hope they’ll manage to rest but still remain as a presence that will be known instead of returning to jyp’s dungeon.

🍋 do you consider yourself an emotional person?

there are days where i am more emotional than usual 

📚 share 3 books that you love and your favourite quote from them.

this is tiring

😔 what do you always do when you feel sad? does it help?

i sleep and boy it really helps

😌 what thoughts keep you going when you’re sad?

rest

🌍 which country do you live in?

singapore

🐧 describe yourself in 3 words

lame funny swag

🐵 which quotes changed you?

“rocky swag” - park minhyuk, 2017

💭 do you keep a diary?

nope

💫 who inspires you?

brian kang 

👻 do you believe in ghosts and why?

yes bc i love losing sleep

🎀 what’s your fashion sense like?

terrible

🎬 what are some of your favourite films?

i watched spiderman homecoming and i have no idea why i didnt see the plot twist coming but its GOOD watch it

🍦 what is one treasured childhood memory?

theres none lads

🐼 if you could meet anyone, who would it be and why?

all my internet buddies but sometimes i dont want to bc im kinda....gross

[angryvevo]

12 things to not do if you dont want to be an asshole

1. reply to someone on yahoo answers with “read the material” or “you should do your work on your own.” obviously, you fuck shit. you gungle. you bingle boongle. do u really think that’s going to stop me, “proud mom of 5″? is that what you think? is that what you thinky thonkle?

2. answer to someones genuine excitement with hate and assholemanship. if i am excited and i talk to you, and you reply with something like “GOD chill out” i am going to kick you in your pathetic stick shins, you fool.

3. hide gay stuff from kids. like, unless you’re trying to shield them from romance all together?? if spiderman can kiss mary jane in front of a kid then sapphire can kiss ruby. marceline can kiss bubblegum. you fuck.

4. ignore people for no reason. if you hear someone talking fucking respond, you dumb shit.

5. on that note, if you see someone with headphones on-- it’s fucking DONT TALK TO ME time. if you do, ill be nice about it, but im kinda expecting you to have courtesy and not do the fucking talking to me.

6. spread on the bus. like i get it. ur tryna look cool. or like, the old friend is cramped. just........ fucking........ tough it out for a minute. i don’t invade everybody’s space cus my junk is cramped, you dick. you selfish bafoon.

7. yell when it’s not necessary. like in run-of-the-mill arguements and whatever. ur just making everyone... very alarmed. and when ppl yell im like “oh, welp, the next step is that they’re gonna murder me.” so maybe? dont?

8. make your personality brooding and mean and unloving bc you think your a fucking anime character. you’re not, my friend. and your name isn’t actually Alyx, it’s fucking Alex. just stop. nobody likes it. everyone is just irritated. and no one is having fun bc every fucking time we say something your like “but life is meaningless so who the fuck cares” and now we’re all fucking pissed off bc we just want to have FUN Alex.... FUCK.

9. get into internet arguements. listen, we all get the urge to roast the shit out of someone just over the interwebs but promise me--- it’s not worth a lick of your goddamn time. log out. take a walk. the world is out there and it’s real and it like.... matters? and arguing with WeLoveKillingPuppies32 might be tempting but it doesn’t mean anything, honestly. & if your in an internet argument currently just send them a cursed meme and drop off the face of the earth.

10. make fun of people like furries and people with like.... bendy and the inky cuphead undertale oc’s. they’re just having a good time, you dipshit. dont make me pull out your mcr fanfics and supernatural crack! videos from 2009, Meghan. I see you and your shitty windows movie maker editing. I see your bargain-bin J.K.R ass writing about how Gared Otherway is apparently pressing his “silky rose lips” against yours as you run your hypothetical paws through his “scarlett mop”. I wasn’t going to bring it up, but you leave me no fucking choice, “pastelmemories”.

10.5. apparently i hit a nerve. im sorry, i like,,,,,,, i uh,,,,,,,, i got carried away.

11. purposefully cut kids off when they’re talking. and like... generally disrespect kids out of lack of care for what they’re saying. like what the fuck is wrong with you?? like that is.... a whole human being right there. you dick.... you know how that shit felt, why would you inflict it on somebody else????

12. treat yourself unkindly. you silly bitch. you goofy goober. you are a great human being and you should treat yourself as such. you need to take a shower (bc i know ur stanky butt hasn’t touched water in like 4 days), drink and eat something, go to sleep and get like 8 hours, and take some fucking time for yourself..... u byutifull creeetur.

[tumblunni]

OH MAN Why Am I Dead At Sea is SO FUCKIN GOOD

god I’m full of FEEEELS and THEORIES and GAHHHH I cant talk about ANYTHING about this game without spoiling stuff!! So I’m gonna make a spoilery ramble post woo! I havent actually finished it yet so this is spoils for like... up to the very last bit before the start of the final chapter. And I’ll try and talk about stuff in order so like, if you dont mind seeing a few spoils then you can read halfway thru i guess?? I just really wanna be able to reccommend this game and gush about characters without having to talk spoils!! GAHHH!!

ANYWAY U CAN BUY IT HERE Its really cheap and really worth it! Its even on sale right now so its £1.50 instead of £3! DOUBLE CHEAP!! But absolutely remember to backup your savefiles frequently, there’s a pathfinding glitch that can make the game unwinnable. And its a damn shame cos that nearly made me stop playing before I got to any of the good bits! Its easy to avoid once you know about it, at least.

Man, I’m so sad the gameplay has that one big glitch cos its really cool aside from that?? Its super basic and probably not everyone’s cup of tea though, this is a game that you’d only enjoy if you’re the sort of people who like when a game has like.. a codex of extra info you can collect.  There’s not as much ‘control people to affect the world’ as you’d expect, its 99% controlling people to unlock different dialogue options. All word puzzles and stuff! And the easiest way to get out of being stuck is just to methodically possess everyone you havent possessed yet, and talk to everyone and click on everything using them. I can imagine that’d be frustrating for people who like.. weren’t already doing that anyway. I Wanted to do that instantly cos I wanna find all the optional insights into everyone’s character! And some funny moments and sweetheart moments and AAAA I care about these people too much already... Oh, and its even more reason to love Paulo cos he gives you tips if you chat to him, and can even outright tell you the solution if you get really stuck. So for players who dont like being all completionist on the dialogue, he’s a very useful helper! I just wish that the ‘outright give you the solution’ option was better labelled so you dont click it by accident. Its just ‘tell me more’, I didnt know itd ruin the current puzzle for me :P

And MAAAAAN this game gets really trancey and atmospheric and I cant even really explain why?? You spend the whole game within this one small area but stuff gets opened up over time and things are revealed about seemingly innocent areas when you gain the new abilities of different people you possess. And how the player character is just this ethereal floaty flame, and how you get used to all the rules of how it works, and how neat the lil animations are. And how you start memorizing the place and all the details about everyone and getting REALLY DETERMINED to protect them GAHHH And the soundtrack is REALLY GOOD

PAULO IS MY SMALL SON PLEASE TELL ME I CAN PROTECT HIM FOREVER tiny necromancer boy aaaaaa he’s so lonely aaaaa he’s on this ship cos he has to ride it all the time on his own to get back from boarding school, his parents cant be bothered to pick him up and he’s just SO YOUNGGGG aaaa he’s like a child prodigy, he’s going to this big scary boarding school several grades above him and his parents are so distant and everyone thinks he can just handle everything because he’s smart and on top of all that he has to keep the secret that he can see ghosts, and theyre like his ONLY FRIENDS even though he only gets to talk to them for a little while before they pass on. YET HE STILL KEEPS HELPING THEM! He says all ‘oh im only summoning you for selfish reasons, I want you to save everyone else on the ship’ but he still helps you resolve your own death even when he knows it means he’ll never see you again. He has to mourn his best friend every damn time he makes one! Aside from that all he has is his teddy bear, showing just how young he really is and how much he FUCKING NEEDS GOOD PARENTS no matter how damn smart the poor kid is and AAAAA... And when you start getting clues about who you maybe are, it gets even sadder cos he’s like... “I didnt know her well but... I liked her. She helped me with my geometry homework.” God he had just ONE MOMENT of incredibly ordinary minimal friendship with this lady and then as soon as he’d got his hopes up THIS SHIT HAD TO HAPPEN! No wonder he locked his door for the entire cruise and refused to be near anyone except his new ghost friend. And gahhh he must have had his suspicions from the start about who it was that died, as soon as she didn’t come back to help with his homework. From his perspective this was just like an inevitable conclusion and he was begging you to find any other answer...

MORE SPOILERY SPOILER I was so fucking terrified when his door finally opened, and all you see inside is empty space. I mean it was a punch to the gut indeed that someone else died that we only really just met, but I’m WAY more terrified that the main sidekick for the whole game is potentially gonna die! He’s just vanished though, so I’m hoping that whether you save him or not is what determines the bad endings? So it IS possible to save him right?? SPOILER ENDDDDDDD

I’m still really confused how to feel about Xu though. I mean she’s such a huge jerk but I still cant help but feel sympathy for her?? And I feel like.. if I am supposed to hate her then its kinda annoying that the game brings up all these sympathetic concepts just to sorta discard them, they only exist to be her failed excuses for her actions. I dunno, its just sorta messed up. But it also means that if I AM supposed to agree with her actions then its messed up too?? And either way its frustrating cos she’s the only chinese character in the cast and her plot is so... gah. She’s this jerkass to everybody and she steals from the customers and then her excuse is ‘but I’m so poor and I’m a minority, how dare you yell at me for stealing’ and then she NEVER GIVES THE STUFF BACK and you never have any option to tell anyone?? And its so messed up cos like.. Anton actually IS a privilaged guy and I can see why she’d be mad that he’s in this job because he ‘wants to travel’ whereas she has to take it because she’s literally homeless. I mean if they actually discussed that then it’d be a good plot. And its a shame you cant bring up the secrets you find about Anton even when you get full possession of him, you find out he also had a meltdown and flunked out of college cos he just couldnt handle it, they could have been able to bond over that and realise they were both having misconceptions about each other’s motives for things. Like, she saw him as some guy who just chose to drop out of the education she wishes she could go back to, because he’s soooo rich and he can do whatever he wants. And he’d never considered how good he’s got it, and how other people are denied the same opportunities, and how he can use his privilage to help make the world fairer for these other people! Its just.. like.. you dont even find out that Anton IS rich until AFTER the conversation about Xu stealing his stuff, so it comes out of nowhere and feels like the game is saying privilage is a stupid concept thats not real and its being used as an excuse for her to be horrid. Either that or its on Xu’s side and its saying shoplifting is fine as long as you steal from white people?? And like.. Anton didnt do ANYTHING to make it seem like he deserved it, as far as we see. He’s never even rude to her?? He doesnt seem to do anything racist or classist. Its just like she assumes he;s that way because he’s a rich white guy but the game shows him to be Super Innocent so is it saying that everyone who ever accuses anyone of racism is always lying or.. gahhh?? It just feels like its trying to make a statement but I have no clue what it is! And this is the only time racism is ever discussed so it kinda stands out?? Also.. like.. NOBODY ever discusses the name issue?? Its really confusing, cos even her steam trading card calls her ‘Xu/Sue’. Ingame EVERYONE calls her Sue except herself and the interface. But its never drawn attention to, or explained?? So like, am I actually meant to assume that everyone is mispronouncing her name? But there’s no option to not do it! Or to bring up the subject! Anyway I just CANNOT stop feeling sympathy for her every time I see the damn wrong name in all these text boxes. Even if she’s an abrasive asshole half the time she feels like she has some sense of morality deep down, and that she’s been pushed to this extent by a terrible life rather than just choosing to become this sort of person. She’s just kinda like the ‘token evil good guy’ on the team. Even though she’s committing petty crimes it pales in comparison to the bigger horror that’s going on here :P

MAN it felt so damn good to finally get the reveal on Donavan and play as him for the first time! I mean whoa what a good climactic moment! What an uplifting! And what a downlifting when it gets cut short by tragedy, lol I TOTALLY KNEW IT that he was a cop! I mean seriously he was such a clear red herring, he was being pushed so heavily as the killer and we never got to know anything actually about him. And when you read his mind the ‘I WILL FIND YOU. I WILL EXTERMINATE YOU.’ struck me as something that could easily have a double meaning if he was a detective looking for the real killer! It was just SO BADASS when you finally get to control him and you have the power to enter every room and find clues that were locked off for ages! And it feels like you’re finally making progress so it was such a great story decision that the killer gets him immediately afterwards. And how their last taunt to him is that he was NO WHERE NEAR solving the mystery! Its just a taste of power and then its all thrown away and it makes you SO FUCKING DETERMINED to finish what donovan started with your weak lil protagonist hands NO MATTER WHAT IT TAKES GAHHHHH

And then finally regaining a humanoid ghost form and being able to unlock the last two people’s tragic backstories by visiting their dreams!! And gahhh it was so interesting and sad that you have to lie and pretend to be the ghost of someone else they care about, in order to get through to them and say what that person would have said if they had got the chance to be the protagonist instead of you. It was actually a genuine huge surprise to learn that Gwen wasnt remotely involved with the murder! Like, she spent the whole game being paranoid that someone is coming after her, and everyone was saying she’s JUST paranoid, and then it turns out she WAS just paranoid! But I love that the game is actually sympathetic to her paranoia and shows how it’s a legitimate mental illness. Its left more mysterious than a lot of the other backstories, but it seems that her father or uncle or someone abused her and her sister when she was a child, and her sister was killed while she escaped. And even though its over she’s been haunted by the belief he’ll find her any second now, causing her to destroy her own life through reckless decisions, jumping up and running away every time things start getting good in her life. She doesnt even know where she’s running to! And GOD I really liked how you resolve it, you dont just cure people’s mental illnesses by giving them a  motivational speech. But you help them feel like they’re able to endure it, that they’ll get better someday and that they should accept help from therapists. And NOT BLAME THEMSELVES for being sick! I just really liked the line “yes, this is a living nightmare, but if you’re awake you can change things”.

And when you do the similar dream sequence for Darryl there’s an even better climactic line! Its like, after a whole game of him blaming himself for his wife’s suicide, going over a bazillion different scenarios of how he could have prevented it, you just say... “I was sick, there was nothing you could do.” There isnt some magical REASON why she became depressed, her life with him was as happy as he could have given her. It wouldnt have just stopped if her life was perfect, she had to get treatment, its an illness. It wasnt anyone’s fault, it was just a bad stroke of chance that she never told anyone about it and never got a chance to be treated, or even to talk it through with her husband at all. Her diary is just full of her feeling guilty that she must be making it up because she loves her husband so much and it’d be like insulting him to admit she isnt happy within her own skin, when he does everything to be the best husband he can. Goddd.... its so sad that its BECAUSE THEY WERE HAPPY that she was in this position where she never sought help! Where she just shouldered it herself and hoped it would go away on its own! And god, you get to see that Darryl does indeed have antidepressants in his room, unlike her he did seek therapy and its just because of his guilt that he isnt fully accessing that help. And he’s taking these drugs instead of his proper medication, and he’s planning his own suicide at the end of the trip. And god, you get to talk him down from it and say what his wife wanted to say, and save him from meeting the same fate as her! You’re just sick, Darryl. She was sick too. Its not anyone’s fault that someone stays depressed, nothing can magically make depression go away, you have to see a doctor like with any other illness. You cant just talk it away by telling yourself that you ‘should’ be happy and youre somehow choosing to feel this way...

GODDDD I hope poor mr stubble grandpa is okay after the end of the game And I hope him and Quella stay in touch as friends! Her backstory made me cry too, goddddd She’s been diagnosed with cancer and has anywhere between three and seven months to live, because she was too poor to afford treatment until it was already too late. And she’s just so positive and okay with it?? Everyone else are the only ones crying for her.. She just wants to finish her final novel before she runs out of time, she’s crying more about not having enough inspiration for this. She just wants to be remembered, she knows she cant change her own death and this is the only thing she CAN change... I want Darryl to be her friend and help beta read her novel aaaa And dear god can everyone please be okay and stick together and GOD why can’t protagonist stay T_T I want you all to be safe when I’m gone, my friends. God I get to know them so closely yet never be able to really even talk to them, they’ll just remember me as someone they talked to only once before I died... And DEAR GOD let me rescue Paulo please!!!! everyone be safe please I don’t want to be able to hug Paulo and stay with him forever There is no way this can happen unless the worst possible thing happened I have to say goodbye okay i HAVE TO SAVE EVERYONE if all goes well I’ll never see any of you in person, okay? just let me be a shadow on this boat and pass away with no regrets knowing all of you will live a lot longer than me THIS GAME GETS ME SO EMOTIONALLLLL

[maryseward666]

DEE SNIDER: 'Some Of Your Favorite Metal Artists Don't Write Their Own Songs'

RARE BLACK METAL COLLECTIBLES

TWISTED SISTER frontman Dee Snider was interviewed on the latest episode of the "Rock Talk With Mitch Lafon" podcast. You can now listen to the chat using the widget below. Speaking about his lack of songwriting contributions to his new solo album, "For The Love Of Metal", Snider said: "I don't write often. I write when I need to, and it's old school. I needed a couple of songs for my musical 'Rock & Roll Christmas Tale' when we moved from Chicago to Toronto and I re-wrote the show, so I wrote the songs. But it was straight-ahead rockers… So that was no problem. And now I've sold a show to Netflix, a children's animated show, and I'm writing music for it. But it's straight-ahead, old-school rock and roll, and I can write that for days. But to write genuine, contemporary metal music — even though I'm a fan of it… My kids are all headbangers, I listened to the stuff, I've been to shows… I can't get it to come out of me naturally without being forced or trying too hard. And music shouldn't be like that; it needs to be genuine. And that's why having these great younger musicians and artists writing for me [on 'For The Love Of Metal'] was just amazing, because they come from that genuine place where they're just writing from their souls, and they're writing for me, which was great." He continued: "People say, 'How can that be?' Hey, Elvis [Presley] didn't write one of his own songs. Frank Sinatra didn't write his own songs. And guess what? I'm not gonna name names, but some of your favorite metal artists don't write their own songs — even though they put their name on it and buy out the people who write the songs. I'm not gonna say who it is. But the fact of the matter is not everybody writes… It's, 'Can I deliver the songs? Can I believe the songs? Can I execute?' And from this album, one thing [producer and songwriter] Jamey [Jasta] did is we spent a lot of time talking about where I'm at, what I wanted to say on this record, what I feel strongly about, my passions and my feelings. So these songs were very much tailored to fit Dee Snider. People go, 'Man, it sounds as genuine as it could,' 'cause I believe every freakin' word. And if there was something in there that wasn't resonating, I would tell Jamey, 'You need to change that,' or, 'How about we say this instead?' And someone said to me, 'Oh, but why wouldn't you take credit?' You don't take credit for a line or a few words. That's not fair to the true creator of the entire thing; that's just an arrangement. So it sounds real, because I believe everything I'm saying. And Jamey was very careful to make sure that I could stand behind every song that he was bringing me." Asked if fans can expect to hear more music from Dee Snider in the future, he said: "I've wanted to make new metal for the longest time. Not 'nu' — even though I don't hate nu metal; I like LIMP BIZKIT. I still do. I've wanted to, but since '95, I've just felt like I couldn't be genuine about it. And like I said, I'm a fan of it and I've been listening to it. TWISTED wanted to make new records. I said, 'I can't do back to the future. I can't make old-sounding records for 2006 or '07,' or whatever it was. I can't do it. I'm not gonna do it. Nobody really cares about it; not enough people care about it. it's too heart-wrenching to put your soul into something that, for the most part, is dismissed — it doesn't get airplay, it doesn't get video play; it's just a thing. But I digress. "So I've wanted to do this," he said. "Here's where I've wanted to be for the last 20-something years, and Jamey has helped me find my way there. Napalm [Dee's record label] has already picked up the option for the next record. It was a two-record deal. They go, 'We're in.' I was, like, 'Wait a minute! This one's not out yet.' They go, 'No, no, no. We're not giving up on this one. We plan on working this for a while.'" Adding that he has been "blindsided" by the overwhelmingly positive response to "For The Love Of Metal", Dee said that he hasn't had a chance to properly plan out his touring activities in support of the disc. "Usually you plan to record the album and [go on] tour — it's a gameplan. It's a grand plan," he said. "We had no deal, we had no budget, we didn't even know it was gonna be received as well as it's been received. So we've been caught off guard by this reception. But you'll see more shows as we go ahead towards 2019 than right now, because, believe it or not, this years is booked for people. Not me — it's tough to really book things on this short notice. So we're promoting, we're doing some shows." Dee went on to say that he thinks he will "be more involved in the writing process" on his future albums "as I come to understand my place and where I fit — particularly on the lyrical end. Even though Jamey was incredible in channeling me… It was, like, creepy how much this guy gets me," he said. "For The Love Of Metal" was released on July 27 via Napalm Records. The disc features contributions from Howard Jones (ex-KILLSWITCH ENGAGE), Mark Morton (LAMB OF GOD), Alissa White-Gluz (ARCH ENEMY), Joel Grind and Nick Bellmore (TOXIC HOLOCAUST), and Charlie Bellmore (KINGDOM OF SORROW). TWISTED SISTER called it quits in 2016 after completing a farewell 40th-anniversary tour.

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4-1 Reaction

Rules:

Q = Me, Quonit.

BF = Bardic Feline, the friend that made me spend 30 dollars on the game and whom I am messaging

I don’t use those when I send the messages close enough my username doesn’t appear.

Any typos (unless they are funny and part of the conversation) will be fixed.

Index

Q: new game

Turnabout Trump hmmm

Q: wooohhhhh this looks weird

it's a lot more animated so far

painter

paintings

candle!

sad music

spiders and sards

who loose

bottle

blood

Q: cards

RING

RING

RING

who is in trouble

AH THE BACKGROUND WERE REDONE

i need to know the year dammit

well april 20... 7 years after... april 20 2028

Apollo!!!

who is this dude he looks ever so slightly recognizable

Q: one moment let me look at the court record and that book button i wanna press all the things before i listen to this conversation

YAY EXAMINING THE EXAMINED IS BACK

aw apollo is very happy with his job

wohhhh i can also slide the thing instead of pressing the arrows on the side

dammit i recognize this name... hmmm...

that phoenix guy person or something...

victim alright

BACK TO THE CONVERSATION

NO I WANNA PRESS THE BOOK BUTTON

THAT'S A SAVE BUTTON!!! YESSSS

Q: and it asks me if i wanna go to the title screen instead of just taking em there!!! this isawesome

Q: Apollo is great so far

APOLLO IS FINE

Kristoph: Don't say you're fine quite so much shut up

ya maybe the client should introduce himself to me

Apollo: The defendant has been accused of murder what other things should people be accused of in this game

hello stupid head introduce yourself to me

Stupid head Phoenix stupid: So you're- Apollo: Fine! I-I'm fine! APOLLO IS FINE

yes Apollo is now mr.fine

Phoenix you have an odder name you can't say that

Q: Apollo! Be confident!

apollo is still great

i like the new font

THE FAR SHOTS

BF: Apollo is so great

Q: NO

THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO BE PAINTED AND BRIGHTER whatever

hey judge

one moment let me listen to this awesome music

omg it's window payne

BF: And “I’m fine!” Is basically his catchphrase as I’m sure you’ve noticed

Q: i like that phrase

BF: And you’ve no doubt been introduced to the concept of his “Chords of Steel” workouts. (Basically he yells a lot to pump himself up)

Q: oh! i was wondering if he made that up th get out of something but alright.

BF: With that in mind, you should know that there is totally official art of Apollo in like the Defendant’s lobby or something, DOING his Chords of Steel exercise

Q: yessss

BF: (I.E. screaming into the “camera”)

Q: i wanna see

I have this grudge against Gavin already for some reason. That is just the emotion he evokes from me.

BF: While Kristoph sits on the couch just behind him, looking wholly undisturbed

BF: With earplugs in his ears

Q: yessss

STATE YOUR NAME STUPID

SEE THE JUDGE KNOWS HIM

FINALLY

BF: Hahaha gonna let you form your own opinions on Kris, I have very strong ones

Q:

alright haha.

Q:

im mad at him

BF: Hobo Phoenix is kind of a troll

BF: He’s basically regular Phoenix with his sarcasm filter turned off.

Plus some stuff I can’t talk about because spoilers

Q: ah alright

grape juice: I remember something about thing being said before when i read something on 2-4

Q: fine if it's gambling we can focus on that later RIGHT NOW WE ARE TALKING ABOUT MURDER

Q:

Payne: :something something stupid: and impress women Me: nah he doesn't look straight to me

Q: 

Payne: Better than a defense attorney who can't defend Window Payne is the worst of everybody here so far

BF: Payne has always looked a bit like Riff Raff from Rocky Horror in this one.  It’s the hair...

Q: I've noticed...

Gavin: Are you alright? You're sweating bullets.

Apollo: Bullets!? Where!?

yay! they let most of the tutorial be optional

Q: im in doubt so i will press everything

Phoenix that's a benie you don't hide your face with it that's not how it works

hehe Phoenix still easily beats winston

Q: wait how did phoenix become a hobo didn't he get half a million dollars at the end of the third game

wait no i don't ask questions like that that's spoilers

BF: hahahaha i wouldn't say he was rich at the end of game three (or not that I remember), but he was still in a good place.

and yes, how he got HERE is MAJOR spoilers.

Q: just gonna wait and see then

Gavin everything is poetic to you

BF: hahaaha Kris has quite the dramatic streak, it's true. lD  And a love of flowery language

Q: I'll expect that to continue then

Q: :0 i think i found a contradiction. I am very proud of myself. now to see if it works

it worked!

hehe! Apollo yelling objection throught he text box

Payne's hair swoosh

Q: Wright your phone is still outdated af

BF: Phoenix? Upgrade his phone? heaven forbid!

Q: who is this witness

BF: a lady with a mid 00's meme for a name

Q:

oh boy

Q:

Judge: Where is the witness?? Payne: I surmise that she has been frightened by the defense's demonic looking horns HAH

Olga Orly hmm

HEY LOOK A PHOTO FROM THE SCENE OF THE MUDER >:(

Q: 

Ogla: That night, customer asked me to deal cards for a game is that a typo or am i missing something

nah this seems to be a recurring theme so i guess not

BF: she's supposed to be speaking with a very stereotypical broken English type Russian Accent hahah

Q: ohhh

if this photo is true why is the grape juice on the other side of the table

BF: http://knowyourmeme.com/memes/o-rly     Also, because this meme is old

Hmmmmmm

Q: trying to go to the link

Q: one moment

Q: i need to go eat give me a second

BF: okaaaay

Q: back

i ended up accidentally pulling out the SD card and has to play back to where i was

Apollo: It's already April. How could it be cold? Well 1st off they were in a basement and 2nd off what state are you in

oh ya the meme link

OH I get it now haha.

Q: O RLY your testimony is WRONG i have the autopsy report!

Apollo: :When objecting: Oh really? when did this game come out

Q: hehe Apollo looks very happy with himselfQ: if he played the whole time with a hand on a locket, then how come it isn't on him when he diedQ: dammit phoenix

wtf

what is the photo

wtf why cant i see it

dammit

Q: I highly doubt this once again because the grape juice is on the wrong side of the table if phoenix was loosing

Q:

Apollo: Methinks the judge watches too many movies i wouldn't be surprised

Q: my computer flashed the blue screen of death for some reason... thank god i already finished scrolling all of the way up there yesterday

Q: Otherwise: Gavin what the hell do you want me to do what is wrong with it

photo do you know??? yes it does :D

Q: test

dammit

Q: i was sending a bunch of messages but they apparently didn't go through. I'm getting them now

Gavin: It's almost as if you figured it out by yourself i'm still mad at you for no reason at all don't say stuff like that SEE PHOENIX WAS WINNING. MORONS. Q: Winston's hair is hilarious that is an absolutely awful pun Q: but somebody already said there couldn't have been a cheat because of the cards Q: who cares if i have any idea how poker works or now *not Q: ...not here aren't 5 aces... *NO THERE Q: I'll take the victim's hand. I'm pretty sure it's normal fro there to be 4 red cards and 1 blue... right? nah OLGA WHAT THE HECK Q: :0 THE INTENSE BATTLE MUSIC PLAYING sounds like a remix of the first. oh no! She fell over! Now she won't be able to catch her plates!

so BACK TO GAME

Also i have decided that i am 96% certain that this daughter person is Pearl because i really dont think he had a kid in those 7 years

I want 50 cents if i am right

PHOENIX WHAT IS IT YOU AREN'T GUILTY

Q:

Payne: Raising objections when you are about to get off the hook?!? well I mean... for somebody like Phoenix i guess it makes sense. He wants the whole truth discovered. whatever im probably being dumb

Q: this is interesting

I've also decided i forgive phoenix for being mean and stupid

quonit-aceattorney

uhuh

i don't... crap i need to figure out when the cards were swapped now or im dead

05/18/2018

quonit-aceattorney

back

quonit-aceattorney

Window Payne is so confused haha

quonit-aceattorney

Gavin is doing the anime glasses thing

FINALLY I CAN SEE THE PICTURE

THANK YOU

DAMMIT

eh wahtever

quonit-aceattorney

phoenix im still mad at you give me a reason to forgive you for exlisting

Q: savepoint. That music was awful weird.Q: o rly is a new person nowQ: how dare you even though i haven't seen him in 7 years I will still protect phoenix from evil people

I'm still bad at him but i would give him cookies

Q: aw she called Phoenix' hat cute

Q: wait there was something inverted

what

ya no you're a lying jerk

THIS IS TERRIFYING

Q: what the fuck

Q: no, Phoenix called the cops!

Q: uhhh well im not sure who is colorblind here

but it's not phoenix or the o rly girl so... i have no idea??? WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME

Q: and it's not somebody who was already there because it was a fourth person???

frick

uhhh

Q: when playing this all i feel like im doing is embarrassing myself. What do you want me to dooooo

Q: holy shit my 2nd guess was right

Q: dammit Gavin why

see i knew i had a grudge agaist you for no reason, now i have a reason

Payne is not used to turnabout like this

Q: hmmmm ya why not. I am the defense attorney i make the rules

OF COURSE I WOULD BETRAY YOU. YOU'RE MEAN I KNOW IT!@

Q: NO GAVIN I LIKE PHOENIX MORE THAN YOU

Apollo: Why can't I have a normal trial!? Because you are officially antiquated with Phoenix now: You will never have a normal trial. You have been cursed.

Q: SO NOW both the card and the fingerprints makes sense! Thank Wright for telling me this in the MIDDLE OF THE TRIAL

Q: phoenix the bottle is empty

Q: 

Mr.Gavin: Perhaps a fifth person came and took it out? Oh, and a sixth person could've helped!

shut up you were there

Q: I've been stuck for like 20 minuets now

Q: stupid game

whyyy

i found a contradiction like 30 minutes ago and it did NOTHING ANYWHERE

Q: NOTHING ELSE IS DOING ANYTHING EITHER

I HAVE AN EVIL GUY SITTING NEXT TO ME AND SOME DUDE I USED TO KNOW NOT GIVING ME STRAIGHT ANSWERS

Q: All of the characters in this game suck and I sound stupid when i try to predict things

Q: like how am i supposed to know anything im just making stupid claims when i have absolutely nothing

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW WHAT'S STUPID

Q: LATER IT JUST LOOKS STUPID BUT  IT REALLY ISN'T WITH THE KNOWLEDGE I HAD RIGHT

Q: gah everybody from this game still sucks

IT'S BEEN FORTY MENUTES

BF: I think when you are that stuck, you are officially allowed to take a peak at a guide

Q: THANKS

bleh i hate using them but it has been NEARLY AN HOR

HOUR

BF: This one is weirdly tricky for a Tutorial case!

Q: at first I was like "Well it's a tutorial case but all of them get harder with each game" and then i remembered this came out years later and is kinda like a rebootish thing and is kinda for new players and it's dumb how hard this is

Q: looked at the guide for a second for the very specific thing: I feel stupid >:(

Q: HOW DID I MISS THAT >:(

STUPID HAT

before you sent a message I was writing something about why i decided i hate evreybody from this game

BF: Hahahaha it’s okay. I can’t count the number of times these games have made me feel that way

Q: ...stupid...stupid game making me look stupid... stupid...

BF just UGHHH THIS IS SO EASY NOW THAT I KNOW

Calm down, breath

Q: I LOOKED OVER ALL OF THE PHOTOS ALREADY HOW DID I MISS IT

okay one moment

BF: It’s not always easy to work out what kind of logic the game wants you to follow

BF: It’s got nothing to do with how smart you are

In that regard, it’s like an older style adventure game

Q: alright...

I forgave him and only him he's the only one who did nothing wrong

Gavin you are the worst of everybody in this room and saying that makes me feel better

now stop being mean to phoenix even if he is lying

Q: yesss phoenix is being useful. Tell me about this conversation

Q: NOW I REMEMBER WHY THAT GAVIN GUY LOOKS SLIGHTLY FAMILIAR

(Edit: In reference to this comic)

Q: At least i think that was him in that comic... i dunno I think that is where i remember him slightly from

oh no i saw a stupid comic how could i get so many spoilers oh nooooo

Q: hi top hat girl! I forgive your existence!

is the card this girl gave me a 5 of hearts

nope it's an ace with blood on it! Thank you girl! Also i forgive your existence because I'm pretty sure i remember you were adopted

I’Q: I'm revealing all of the spoilers I know at first so that i don't feel like m hiding them later

like for example: Godot having poor vision. I felt guilty hiding it. so i'm not going to hide probably spoilers I know with this game

BF: Hahaha that was him!

Q: yaaaay

Q: I think the first thing that made me not like him though when u started playing is that he was smiling and didn't seem to change his expression... like everybody else did and he was just kinda sitting there being the same and giving me tips and i have never liked that from this game... for some reason...

Q: Gavin that testimony is full of crap

BF: Kristoph and his ^_^ haha

Q: STOP SMILING AND BEING QUIETISH AND GIVING APOLLO TIPS YOU FREAK ME OUT IT'S LIKE I HIT YOU WITH A SLEDGEHAMMER AND YOU FALL DOWN AND THEN YOU GET UP AND SMILE AND PUSH YOUR GLASSES UP AND SAY SOMETHING THAT SOUNDS SMART BUT IS FULL OF LIES

I have trust issues in this game apparently

BF: I will say this; Kris, for all that he’s meant to be this totally cool under pressure Attorney (aka Coolest Defense in the West...pffft...thanks for that, game...) he is remarkably bad about self incriminating

For NO GOOD REASON

:BF I mean, you have to catch him out SOMEHOW but the information that he just VOLUNTEERS

Q: ack. Gavin whyyyy

Q: phoenix is being great. I'm close to forgiving him.

Q: You can argue that this trial is more Kristoph v Phoenix than anything else

Q: Apollo is a newb and this is extremely hard for a tutorial. Why not let him take over some of it?

BF: Lol true

Poor Apollo haha

Q: SORRY YOU COULDN'T HAVE IT EASY BUT YOU'VE BEEN CURSED WITH MAIN CHARACTER OF THE FOURTH ACE ATTORNEY GAME.

Q: I'm not used to this game letting me do this much... like swivel a chair around.

it's like... animated.... I am not used to that

Q: It's a cupboard not a wall you can stand in them if you wanted to

or wasn't there! Smart boy :D

Q: SO THE WINDOW WOULD BE COVERED UP

Q: SECRET PASSAGE of course

Q: Mr Gavin stop it i just pretty much won and you wanna be like "oh nah im super cool not like this effects me in any way because I totally have been hiding something too"

"that would TOTALLY shatter your theory!"

Q:

Phoenix: Don't let him trick you into thinking his explanation is the only legitimate one AS I SAID THEIR ARE OTHER TOTALLY SENSIBLE THEORIES

Q: Kris (because i stopped calling him my his last name): So this is the legendary attorney's famed tactic of misdirection...

see this is what people say when i am winning

Q:

Phoenix: Say apollo, maybe you should examine the bottle maybe you'll find a very specific card in there

Q: ANGRY GAVIN USES LEVITATION

Q: window payne nobody cares just accept it and move on

Q:

Judge: Seven years and you still haven't lost your touch that's nice can he have his badge back?

Phoenix: The second is a man who would tolerate no injectice so you decided on a guy with justice for a last name

CONFETTI FOR PHOENIX WOOO

BF: hhahaaha

at the risk of spoiling something, I'd like you to know that you haven't seen Kristoph's FULL breakdown.

Yet. >:D

Q:

Phoenix: How about you come and work for me YESSSS BACK IN WRIGHT AND CO LAW OFFICES WHERE I BELONG --- I figured!

BF: and yeah, it is...useful to think of him by his first name.

You'll see why in a bit.

Q: Oh ya he has a family... i think i remember something about a brother

that's spoilers I won't ask

BF: :3

Q: APOLLO I KNOW YOU ARE MAD BUT DON'T PUNCH PHOENIX HE'S BEEN ASSAULTED ENOUGH ALREADY

Phoenix: oh and about your uppercut... Try yelling, "Take that!" next time. I find it packs a little more punch ^^^ 100% with phoenix on this one

Q: well that was an awful long beginning. Apollo can we investigate more and talk to people this time?

[tssfhr-blog]

[C-1 / M-18] Text Two

i planned writing a poem

it's like a small bio, but harder, so i got nervous again a loot, but i did it, a lot, i hope you're doing great in you life, i wish you success, you are sweet, i wish you success

talking about silence

nobody heard silence

noone ever seen nobody

this is an answered question

obvious answers are not silent enough

shocking discoveries are mess

you hear what you expect

you live in sound like this

everybody have to ask any question

do you even care about silence

1 group. no is the question, some respondents answered

2 group. no is an animal instinct, fear of death, quite primitive, they noticed

world is safe now, thanks to group 1. for defending happiness of group 2. group 1 is happy also, but may seem

a little be bothered, dead bodies, beautifully positioned

on the main square, smells of kandinsky and rothko and

other death artists, but there's a theory, that they killed

their twins, because it could become a huge risk for their

reputation, and money, and power, and pizza delivery services all around disneyland

thinking about silence

way more intimate

immortal imposible

patient patience

fighting for

[how to be a good patient\\\\]

time to wait

[how to succeed in modern patienting\\\\]

for irrationalize

[you'll never know\\\\]

his being

[you killed me, bark bark: how to avoid pranks & counterprank a veterinarian\\\\]

why irrationalizing

[Foucault's kiss-off-ers: best interviews with dead leaders of modern world by Michel F. 1358-1503

is not a scientific method

why it is bad

it's underrated, i am angry, u r g h video birds opening their mooouuths to mcdoalds radio ad, and then go wild and angry, how come, birdiies, did Ronald hurt your feelings, birdeyed pigeons? No, you just filthy hippunk you smell trashcan i ate from last month, losers, birds go away from my trashcan, it's my land

Rebrand, repack, retype, reposition, reclaim, react

Since next season...

[hanz zimmer was killed during the recording of this 40 sec. audio piece for local TV Show. Only a few knew that he lived in poverty, he had nothing to it, but he did great career as a sound-designer, he reinvented the "new sincerety orchestra" concept of music genius deathstyle by his own death. Death of hanz - by Hanz Zimmer. We will never foget how cool u sound, espesically when you pretend to die at a first time, when you created automated algorythm of psycho-movie-sound-epic-beautifullness laboratory, buy zip from piratebay now]

Bad guys get even more powerful

Now its scientific and defence-friendly

IRRATIONALIZATION. THE METHOD.

use accordingly to your heart. be yourself, you are doing great, xx

doctor fighting

for time of patience

against the patient

who's not fighting

at all

he actually was saying that

"Doctor, I'm not fighting at all, and I feel great"

"I know your mother who is 132 now, yeah, am i right 132?"

"Damn, I gonna fight" he mumbled as a featuring vocalist on track of Dr.Dre, all sales will go directly to good people suffering from bad thing, that's god's plan, patient, patience, money tree plantation, dr.dre said detox is still bad, it was released as a secret wu-tang album long time ago, and it's still bad, ofc, i hoped it gonna be eaten by snakes, or some creatures like that.

I fight all the time anyway, so why stop now? - patient said to himself with a voice of a old turtle

world is full of sympathy for fighters, n turtles, and fighters for turtles, fighters are cool guys

non-fighters have never did something really meaningful

but they have the right to be that kind of people, i suppose, its their choise. New gig "Difference! Hoo-ray!" will be announced soon. Early-bird tickets earlier than bird tickets. Dont mess up poor birds. Thx xx

acceptance pr compaign is great

prepare your bad mood FOR AN UNBELIEVABLE ADVENTURE

WE ARE AGAINST

hypocricity and ignorance

suffering and offering

Open letter of \-generation reps to all of our freedomers

it's very well designed, wow, looks like every next letter from this generation is their best hit. So, lets do it, analyzeee! Decodeee! There will be a cola-break in 1 hour. hwg/..

kids must be adulting us

*poof* *click* money out of nothing

they owe us a lot forever

this is my house,

and this is my flag

you must be home by 10 p.m.

you understaand. ten!!! P MMM!!

you must be home dead, 100% heroic,

unkissed and unpacked

colgate toothbrush ad-kids

clean&clear cream ad-kids

dead virgins face

with scars so natural

with scars so juicy

with scars as a passcode

()

brother laptop

browser porn history

videos shoot only in

the dark, no face can be seen

only superbowl sounds

, alone in the dark

screaming out loud!!!!!

I AM NOT HUNGRY DAAAMMMIT, U GET IT

I AAAAM NOOT HUNGRY ANYMORE

I AM FREE AND LIGHT

DAD I DON'T NEEED YR

MONEY SWEATY FILTHY GREEN ROT ON

THEM, NOT DEAD PRESIDENTS

SWEATY PRESIDENTS YOU KNOW

POLITICS HAVE HEART PROBLEMS

POST TRUTH, WHERE'S YOUR SYMPATHY

I AM FREE OF WHATEVER I AM EXPECTED TO BE

I AM NOOT YOUUR SOLDIER, U FEAR MEE?

I AM NOT YOUUR LOOOVER, U FEEL MEE?*

[than lyrics were optimised for his presidental

company motto, now two phrases collide into one, fuck tautology]:

I AM NOT A SOLDIER 2026

dead virgins face

counted, dead virgin face one

dead virgin face two

bigdata-friendly

analyzed bodies

SoC-inc statistics show

fatal backpageness

of dead virgin faces in national memory

in their school friends' memories

as a brand signs, woow, great idea arthur, really, thanks

cost per mille

(0.99$ - the metaphor of

a glass of water, one more

drop of water and it will

become a drop in the ocean

so fast

tour-guiding through

the joke-hood

fools in love

modern dad moves

april 1st fooling

around carefully

shame on you

oh stop it you

shame is a protection mechanism

i truly believe it helped me a lot

it blocked some irrational intentions

irr-stuff sucks

i am happy i can share my problem

with so much of you

support you give - is priceless

thanks

there will be no wars

we are fed up with dead virgin faces

so we created a revolutionary app

TrashWar

Subscribe, only 2339% yearly

TrashWar - War is trash, we recycle trash in good things,

Out now

i am completely ok and safe thx, bye bye

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[tthevoidinmysoul]

thoughts on 2015 - 31/12/2015

hey there. This is going to be a summary of 2015 or smth. Here it goes.

First of all, i’m crying lol. Last year I did something similar to this and I just read it and wow. Idr what stuff you had to put up 2014-deku but yo, it got slightly better.

This year I started studying Animation. I changed from Graphic Design because I realized it wasn’t what I wanted to do. It was p intense because it was a new start. Again. Luckily my first semester went smoothly. I learnt lots of stuff and got to do so many new things that have changed my goals in a v nice way. The first semester I also got a uh recognition ??? a like a diploma thing congratulating me for my grades from the previous semester and i was like woaah!! :O. In the ceremony I was recognized as Animation, not Graphic Design, even tho it had been bc of GD lol. There I met (more like jus briefly saw) a guy who also had gotten the diploma for animation, and we jus shared greetings and that was it.

That semester was okay. HA IT WASNT I JUS REMEMBERED. I got into trouble with some of my classmates. It’s a very small generation, like 24 people, and I was the new one, so ofc I’d get paired into teams with the people that nobody wanted to work with. I was so mad because of the mediocrity of the students, and i’m talking about 20-yo, full fledged adults, who couldn’t even do the simplest of things. So I got fed up and I remember I talked rly roughly at this guy in a class bc gdi he was awful. Luckily the rest of the class (who was present) supported me, telling me that the things I told him were things that they’ve meant to tell him and never had, so it was okay. Unfortunately it happened again and that time it wasnt as pretty as the last. I got paired w this girl who always cried when I talked to her (she always made herself a victim of her life and weird, negative stuff), and dear lorde pleas save me. When I finally went and talked to her bc she was doing literally NOTHING, the girl had the nerve to yell at me, in the middle of the classroom (which was fulled with my classmates and students from other generations), and leave. I was so confused and sad and mad at myself because I had done it again, fuck things up with teamwork. Long short story we’re okay now but I’m never doing something with her ever again in my life. My grades went down a lil but it wasnt that much, so I expected to be recognized again next semester.

oh boy.

SUMMER!!!!!111111 Woah. waaaaaaaah WHAT A SUMMER I HAD! This was SO FUN OH wait b4 summer I went into surgery again lmao. BUT I RECOVERED JUS FINE and im good yo. My bro went to Seattle to work with Microsoft bc he’s baddass and awesome and I was (and am) v happy for him but it also got me thinking a lot of things like what the fuck am I doing with my life. And here comes the reason I was cryin when I first started writing this. This summer I met wonderful, wonderful people. I made friends. FRIENDS. Friends that i hadn’t made in more than a year. It makes me fuzzy to think that I have such wonderful people by my side that i can laugh with, cry with, share things with, be deep with and be stupid with. I’m so happy I met you guys, I’ve grown so so so much since I’ve known you and as I told you yesterday, meeting you definitely has been one of the best things that have happened in my life.

I remember last year I cut my hair, really short. And I thought “if I turn out to be a lesbian, i’m blaming it on the haircut”. And guess what lmao. OKay maybe i’m not a lesbian but im deffo not straight either. I guess I knew I liked girls since highschool but didn’t bother to come up with a label untill now. I’m still finding out things about me and I have someone who keeps me company when I need em. WINKS ON U THANK FRIEND FOR LETTING ME RANT ABT MY THOUGHTS LMAO.

Then the second semester happened. I wasnt recognized as a top student this time. I was confused like lol, i’m gr9 wat hap. Turns out only the 1% of the student body of each degree gets the thing and oh surprise there are only 110 ppl in Animation. So boohoo the other mysterious boy got the diploma. And man was it a big blow. I was angry, angry as I could get. Obv not at the guy, at me. Because I had failed to myself, to my parents. Angry because I felt like an idiot, I couldn’t keep doing the thing that I excelled, being good at school. And I felt so angry because I was that. I was a top student, that was my main strength, and it was taken from me in a second.

One day my animation teacher separated me from the class and told me that I was the best animator from my generation. I am shit at animating, I know that. He knows that, and yet I am the best. That made me feel extremely uncomfortable, because that meant that I was the best, of the worst. It made me feel anxious, because that meant he had high expectations of me, being the best. Anxious because the best animator in the career was this guy who was recognized both last and this semester, and booooy. BOoooooooooooooy he’s a prodigy. A PRODIGY. He’s excellent and I am pure shit. From that day everything went downhill. BUT BEFORE THAT

Something good happened. I also made friends with prodigy boy. My first irl friend in more than 2 years. He turns out to be awesome and cool and so damn sincere and humble I can’t with his existence. We started talking thanks to a song, Somewhere beyond the sea. God bless that song, thanks to it I have now met an awesome human being yay. Turns out prodigy boy and I are very similar in many things, being angry at today’s society being the main one lmao. I have never met someone like him ever in my life. I respect him a lot and I want to remain as his friend for as long as I can. Sadly i’m very nervous around him because I’m very shy, I hope I dont mess this up like I did 4 years ago cries.

Back to shit. I was okay the first 2 terms but I just went pure shit on finals. For our animation course we had to enter a competition and I was very confident on my entry. Prodigy boy had landed in place #101, being the highest ever for an Animation student of my uni. I had high expectations of myself and everything was going to be alright, until it wasn’t. We presented our work a week before the deadline to our class, and I had a panic attack. I made a mess of myself and embarrassed me in front of everybody, I felt terrible and I cried a lot (thankfully in the bathroom). My entry was shit and I knew it and the teacher knew it and everybody did and the prodigy boy was there and he saw it and I’ve never been more embarrassed in my life I swear. It’s one of the worst experiences I’ve ever had. After that even tho I tried correcting my entry it was still shit and I crashed in place #142, being 5th of my class. And I was angry. So angry because I had failed. To myself, to the teacher, to the prodigy boy. To myself. I cried so much, like I had never before. My overall grades went down, again not so much but still. Turns out prodigy boy has a younger brother who’s as good as he is and it’s making me anxious. But whatever.

SO YEAH 2015 GOOD JOB. This year was bittersweet as fuck. I have learned so much, lost so much, gained so much, cried so much, laughed so much, EVERYTHING SO MUCH!?!?!. I’m just wah overwhelmed with everything that happened.

2016 DEKU: QUESTION TIME

How much did you fuck up? lmao

how did the short films went?

are you still friends with prodigy boy? 

have you found yourself bc I failed miserably lmao

so yea das it tbh 2016 WATCH OUT OMG THE ZELDA GAME IS COMINGRIGHT U BETTTER HAVE BOUGHT IT ALREADY OR IMA PUNCH U HARD

- A