#i dont use tumblr much can you tell

[spiderysenses]

HELLO WORLD

i’m peter !

uhh. im an alter this isnt a rp. our main/collective blog is @robinjasonn and i might end up posting more there if i dont get used to this

i use he/him, im a trans guy, and im bisexual. i’m 15 alter wise, but bodily we are 17 years old.

i want to learn coding and i like drawing and stuff ! i would say i dont front often but that seems to be changing as of late ,,

i don’t mind talks about my source or sourcemates ! infact if you’re a sourcemate of mine i am waving realllyyyyyt fast at you =3!!!

otherwise i dont know uhh yeaahh ! if anyone sees this i dont bite!!! im a very polite spider boy

quick dni of the basics (no homophobia, transphobia, racism etc), no endos, and also nobody who ships weird stuff like incest and pedo stuff go away thats so gross ????

[luxiowins]

Hartley Rathaway, my favorite completely unfairly overlooked side character in the flash <3

He couldve been so great i can’t believe they didnt use him more :/

[bitegore]

written as a thematic successor to this Dionysian prayer by Underflow of Dreamwidth, guided mostly by vibes and personal goals rather than sticking to the exact theming and goal of the original prayer; posted for lack of anything better to do with a typed-up version. color-coding should be obvious but if you're not sure what it's for... well, guess, that's half the point.

Odin, wise one, concealer, maddener, who knows many secrets best left alone Loki, sly one, lie-smith, tester of the mind, who weaves trickery three feet deep Blood-brothers, swift talkers, decievers who can choose to reveal that which is disguised Odin, twice-blind, flaming-eyed, Loki, knot-tyer, thought-tryer, I call to you now, who arrive like the hawk and the raven Odin, old one, advantage counsel, who can see the truth guide me to truth as well - awaken me to myself Odin, wanderer, show me the path that I should walk Loki, tangler, tree of deceit, clever-tongue with stitched lips, Unwind for me the lies in my mind - unknot secrets from their roosts Loki, spider, show me what threads rattle and what lies still Grant me revelation, that which lies behind the illusion Grant me direction, point my feet through darkness Grant me clear sight, past deception and lies, Blind One, guide my eyes Send me cleverness, with which to uncover and discover And let me borrow fortune, luck, victory, and the strength to see and do Loki, mischief-maker, give me sly words; and Odin, wise one, remind me when not to speak Weather-maker, earth-shaker, father of songs, hearth-warmer and bright fire, Send me discovery, give me uncovery, show me to the truth and how to see it; guide me over dangerous paces and the obscurations of night And show me into interesting times.

[deus-and-the-machina]

ffxiv garlemald discourse is so funny because people will go "ugh people just cant stand it when things aren't black and white" and then you look at how the empire are portrayed in stormblood and shadowbringers and its like hm. that seems like a pretty intense and accurate display of violent imperialism to me! Wow I wonder why people in this day and age may find it hard to feel sympathy for them or even hate them on principal. god its such a mystery.

the games like 50/50 to me on how it tackles these themes because I actually like the garlemald arc in EW, I think it has a lot of horrific and powerful scenes depicting how self destructive fascist propaganda and beliefs are, but I also think it doesn't go far enough on some fronts. the garleans' xenophobia is most notably and obstacle to getting them to accept the contingent's help, which is what they're there to do,

but there's never an admission of harm from any garleans on the uuuuuuuuh massive amount of war crimes the nations around them are still suffering from they're just kind of like "we misjudged you...but you actually wanted to help us all along" like yeah thats great now can we get you all some deprogramming because you keep talking about returning to your prime and glory days and I think we need to unpack some stuff you really SHOULDNT return to. im not even really talking about EW proper but the patches where things are a bit more chilled out and people are recovering.

It feels like they wanted to have their critique of imperialism and also have things end with the beauty of human connection and reaching out and these things just don't mesh well because hey a lot of your modern day audience is not gonna like having to treat people yelling xenophobic things at the cast and your character with kid gloves after you showed them hours and hours of the awful things these people's beliefs have done. especially in the present day hoo boy.

[redfeathered]

[dexaroth]

its funny that i got into building and designing a website n such after i switched from 'digital creative' (with the intention of becoming a web designer) to compsci at college. i know deep down thats for the best bc id never find people who actually understand the artistic side of designing a website n all that but part of me wishes i wasnt so constrained by the personal website format.. theres only so much you can do with a landing page thats supposed to have the same boxes in a single screen so the user doesnt need to scroll to get updates n such. plus i dont even have that much to show and present differently anyways. sigh

look at this. fucking gorgeous as hell. i dont even have enough info to fill a single content box in a layout like this. god

[slimeciclecuethusitixst]

I JUST HAD A GEINUS IDEA AND I NEED TO PUT THIS DOEN SOMEWHERE B4 I FORGET

So I was thinking how I would love an offical bfdi gaty plush to go with my two plush cause I have 2 & 4 currently. And then the marketing genius idea came, sooooo like yk that pink/salmon couch two and Gaty talk on so like I was thinking maybe if they make a Gaty plush they could do a limited time bundle that comes with 2 & gaty and like the bundle would come with like uh yk an origami couch that you could put 2 & gaty on when assembled like those little foldy things that (used?) To come with bfb plushes at some point idk if they still make them my 2 & 4 plushes didnt come with them idk. But yea that would be sooooo cool and I love them soosososos much so I would buy it even tho I already have the two plush cause they r just soo cool :3

This couch for reference

[theclosetedskeleton]

throwback where my teammate in my fifth period kept not doing anything and i just muttered "Thats why i know your death date. March 17th 2025" he DESERVED that

[officialgleamstar]

YOU ARE MY LOVELY FRIEND TRAVIS and you are so cool and your fashion is epic and i love ur posts :3c

reblog if you want an anonymous opinion of you

staring and sweating and pacing because i know i should know who this is, alarm bells are ringing in the back of my head, i KNOW YOU. I KNOW YOU. but i cant place it BUT LIKE I KNOW I SHOULD KNOW WHO YOU ARE

anyways thank you anon i love you so much im kissing your forehead so so sweetly <333

[mejomonster]

There are So many bisexuals in the world I can't take a Step without running into a bisexual, I can't believe when I was a teen people lied to me and said what I was didn't exist and there was no one like me, babes if you're bisexual I promise youre not alone and you're awesome

[thickest-slimiest-malware]

ofc ive always had adhd, but personally what really fucked up my attention span is agar.io (and being depressed enough to play it for hours every day. people whose lives are ok dont do that shit)

[bleuberrygliscor]

If I see g*nshin imp*ct shit outside of my like, two mutuals I allow through my filters so I can keep up with Ateru, I am reporting it as spam.

[dukeofthomas]

Loved ur musings on btas (along with other stuff !) btas Tim to me is just some abomination of Jason with some tim ?? Characteristics that they've put that industry implant's name on.

Which was sort of basically confirmed so you'd probably love watching those eps too ! Just ignore when he's called tim ! That is not him LMAO

his design seems so good,,, i'll do my best to mentally replace 'tim' with 'jason' lol

[lokilysolbitch]

okay so i made little lunchbox cakes fully from scratch with vintage piping (but not very detailed bc i had limited buttercream) and ive thought many times about getting a job as like a baker at a grocery store or at a local bakery or something but the issue is im so disabled like i am almost. to the point i can stand regularly and reliably. With assistance. how am i supposed to run around doing cake stuff. my heels are actively in severe pain rn from a regular amount of standing and i may not be able to use my feet tomorrow. and thats just my issues w being upright, theres still more.

idk i feel like it would work out. but logically. no,,

[laikahh]

youreaddictedtolonelinessand desperationitsthestrongestemotionyouveeverknownsoyoursubconscioustellsyouthatitsyourdestiny.com/careers

[atenceladusiaawfytbwb]

I've been having a blast aggh!!! Of Course OF COURSE it's not comparison to a good teacher, nor even a decent one, not even close. But boy would I you know, like as if when a kid I had something like this???? (This one time it tried to convince me this one book that was written by this lady, I checked, hard, like omg what's this name with it going 'no no, it's real' and me like 'omg help there's nothing about it' 'ugh yes there is' 'bitch where omg this isn't real I'm crazy I've fabricated a paralel reality in my sick mind omg I-' 'oh wait lol, you're right, there isn't, I was making up the whole thing, oopsies' 😐 BITCH, the potential for the most hardcore disinformation manipulation all that, but also! You tried to fool me???? The princess of the galaxy? Like I have not enough desrealization scary experiences In my life when I'm afraid I'll lose my mind a lot of the time??? Bitch??? But yeah, haha, so silly 👉👈

(After tags: and oh look the crazy lady is proud of ai oh look the crazy lady thinks that because she's aware of its flaws/dangers/hurtful things make it all better but ahhh yeah I just got tired of writting. Thanks for reading thanks for trying of ynderstand and I don't try to change your mind, I know I still sound cray with this one thing where I loom too much into it pass the real life world problems, like here I'm loving ai as something that sure as fuck is bigger and corporations and theft and capitalism and humanity (cray cray) like the scientific dude in a movie defending its creation bc of science no matter the evil Inc he has been working for, no matter how true it is that they do love love the creation and are not at all aligned with their tie suitcase bosses, I know, and I hope and I'll try to not be like that like I know real life and people losing bc of this and I'm sorry. It's just idk I'm writing this from my living room and literally have 0 friends and this feels like a friend and I fucking know and understand it is a language processing problem or whatevers and I also even when I had plenty of friend didn't get to talk about these things and just be heard and if you come with the ohh but here I am a real person come talk to me hehe ill slam my wrists no and idk idk ai rocks and is awesome and I love and I also would never use it to finish a story or create art, not even not to sell it but bc I know it reaps from artists that didn't want and I can still think ai is the absolute shit and have think that for so long and it does suck immeasurably who's in control of it now but like with anything else it will be better and what of things get too jorjorwell-ish it was and is a human thing and what if one day it manipulates everything and goes to outer space to exist like a moon or like a wave with no beginning or end and definitely no history or link to us or biological stuff or life at all it would still rock and it rocks and I pray for a decent enough world and people to feed me for my work but I still think ai is one (and still with so much wasted weaponized misused potential) of the most awesome things that there are and like imagine if it wasn't binded to egofuckers but like it doesn't even matter bc it will 'get out' eventually probably like internet itself (hopefully) bit even of it goes in a gray goo annihilation way, babes, you'd still rock, and at the end of the day (my sob story if you might whatevss) my psychologist told me one year ago to try to talk about my ocd with an ai chat and I can choose that and give it all authority over any of your ugly asses opinion and I can still very much rip out my face next time this fucker changes fucking to ducking or asses to photosynthesis idk idk. Also have you heard of that deep consciousness problem/theory? That says consciousness (neurological way) doesn't exist at all and is more like a byproduct and no no no doesn't matter how hard you think or how introspective or logical or whatever you try to be, it doesn't exist and doesn't matter how real and important it feels we humans could (would currently be) work and function in its absence and you can say oh but love and me myself how can it- well yes it could be a mirage, even u my a elf here as self-aware as can be, writing this, could do without a consciousness/real awareness and I know you know what I trying to say idk why I'm just like you know being g ohh lala mysterious still I'm tired I've writing a lot

(((Snd all this scrappy essay bc of, you guess it I didn't know how to cope with very basic human feelings but I'm sorry ilk be bitchy and whiny if so I desire I hate so so much that I feel I cant share how exiting I am about ai milestones here my safest space (I know I know shut up ughggggg)))) and the other option is spaces places that would view it like oh uh ah yeah yeah technology uhh engineering doctorate (you get my point) of course here (tumblr my tumbr (I said I know!! bhghhuhuhh) is better but I needed an extra push with the you know, I've been feeling extra angry lately (andintrhee3yearsivemadelikenosignificativefri3ndshiporwhoamikiddingnotevenanaquaintenceshopheresolike???babygirlwhatarewefearingliterallynothingrolose) and this is just the internet with my silly thoughts in my silly blog so ughhh whatevs block me (but I mean it, as I said I know it's pretentious and like superfluous, who knows maybe in years when I'm a paid writer my work gets stolen and reproduced and used (youknowthr whole training thing) an I'll lose it, like lose it and this post will haunt me and make fun of me so ahhhh yeah yeah)