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ineed-to-sleep · 6 months

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Blacked out in front of my tablet and woke up with sketches of my Touchstarved mc + Kuras my beloved. woops

#I found out dr. kuras is 6'6 I said hold on lemme get a stool so I can climb this man #touchstarved #touchstarved game #touchstarved kuras #kuras #sleepyscribble #oc.emma #my mc is meant to be a self insert but also like. I wanted to come up w a design and character arc and everything jkvkvk #so I ended up basing her on my personality/looks but taking her into a direction that would fit the game #she's like. me but 'characterized' and a bit exaggerated for the sake of being a character yk #the way she turned out is that she's basically a friendly happy go lucky mage who laughs at her own misery but hides #a deep layer of self loathing underneath all that bc of her curse #having been cursed all her life she believes she's a monster and the sunny personality is a way for her to 'make up for it'#but at the same time she feels like a farse. like she's only luring ppl in to an inevitable demise #and she thinks she's selfish bc despite knowing the danger she poses she still goes out there and puts herself among ppl #bc she craves human connection. even tho she feels guilty for 'indulging' in it #anyway I love the cursed mc concept in this game <3 it's been really interesting to think abt how that would affect someone #also I kept her physical features looking pretty much like mine #bc I wanted to draw myself in a cute way. teehee #but the clothing I was basically thinking like. early game simple clothing that she didn't rlly pick for herself #and maybe later I can have an updated design w something she would actually pick for herself

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puppyeared · 3 months

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(guy who has never played cotl) haha au time

#this started as a design exercise bc i couldnt get sphinx/devon rex narinder out of my head #but the whole time i was thinking man imagine if the lamb brings him in as a follower but nobody knows he was actually. you know #and the followers are like haha wow our leader channels the power and wisdom of the one who waits almost as if they were them #would that be cool or what. anyway heres narinder reassuming his pre-bishop form and everything his flesh remembers before godhood #ok now im gonna ramble abt design notes #the singe marks were inspired by fallen angels like how some ppl say they burned while falling from heaven. i wanted smth like that when #the lamb is resurrected by nari.. their outfit is inspired by papal cloaks while narinders is based on crusader armor #the lambs name 'bellwether' is also a term used for sheep that wear a bell and lead the flock and i thought that was cool #idk what the thuribles do yet but i do have smth in mind where theyre linked together. and ofc the lamb has a shepherds staff #very proud of nari's little devil tail!! and it was hard to see bc its so dark but he has wrinkles around his forehead to conceal his #third eye. even he isnt aware of it (for now)#idk where im going with this au i just have a bunch of ideas?? basically the lamb is keeping nari's identity a secret from him so he doesnt #go down that path of powerhungry destruction. smth like trying to lead him down a better path but feels guilty lying to do that #also theyre in love with each other and theyre stupid pining idiots abt it. mwah #cult of the lamb #cotl #cotl lamb #cotl narinder #the one who waits #cotl the one who waits #narilamb #art #au #myart #my art #character design #cotl au #false prophet! au

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scrimblyscrorblo · 30 days

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nerdyfins · 2 months

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do you fw alphacest…

who wouldn’t?

#i mean specifically who wouldn’t if d is a guilty soppy shameful man #and he crushes dirk’s expectations of him and he knows it #and he can feel his disdain for him in his posture #and he hates himself for doing this to him #and he does it anyway #because he’s so pathetic he can’t even help himself #yeah #ask #anonymous #alphacest #dirk strider #d strider #fishy.arts #alpha dave strider #stridercest

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donutdrawsthings · 11 days

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People say cottagecore is dead because of tradwives infiltrating the aesthetic... Well, I live under a wet rock among pillbugs, slugs and centipedes so online discourse can't reach me while I'm having fun

#talkies #cottagecore #if terfs and tradwives reblog this I'm going to laugh so hard like I'm sorry king but you would not like me #i just like cottagecore :o) especially with autumn on the way!#i like decorating my room all old-like.. wrapping things in cloth for keepsake.. and enjoying nature outside the cities... while being trans #lol #it's such a basic thing to like I don't think anyone should let themselves feel sad or guilty for liking it #bc transphobic racists like it also... transphobic racists also like dogs man! and fruit loops! dont ever let them take from you whatyoulove #cosy aesthetic #autumn #fall

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demento-mori · 2 months

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One thing I never mentioned during the liveblog that is mildy humerous in hindsight is that theres a tescos near my old flat, and i always liked to stop by there on my way home and get a croissant from the bakery section for lunch.

This means that, for a non-insignificant stretch of my playthrough, I was often times eating a croissant whilst playing the game.

.............sorry siffrin

#after the croissant backstory reveal i gradually started feeling more and more guilty for it lmao #there was one time (end of act 2/start of act 3 i think?) where i felt so bad i opted for a pain au chocolat instead #i was literally like “man. siffrin doesnt need this right now :/”#isat #in stars and time #isat spoilers #for? croissant backstory ig??

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ef-1 · 12 days

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🍷<3

#when i got hashtag sick i was in hospital and i was doing my regularly scheduled call with my dad #and i really had no plans of telling him bc ive done that before and its not like he can scare the MS away or anything #i dont know what happened. maybe because it was such a fucking bad episode. maybe because i was so tired. maybe it was a secret 3rd thing #but one minute was like fine then i just burst into tears and i was crying so hard which is MEGA EW BC IM NOT A CRIER LIKE THAT #and my dad freaked out and he was like whats wrong and i didnt wanna tell him but I also sounded insane bc i spontaneously started sobbing #and he was getting more alarmed and i was upset that id upset him and so i just spat it out i was like 'listen king'#'its no biggie but my body is trying to kill me again and im just a little sad atm' and he replied 'baba why wouldnt you tell me?'#and this man who has a very big serious job literally dropped everything and took a 20 hr flight over #and he genuinely just grabbed one of his work suitcase because he showed up with nothing but dress shirts and his laptop #and i think maybe it healed me a little. i mean it def also made me sad too but mostly healed me #and he'd been here for a couple of weeks and he left today and i feel shit about being sad about it #again because he has a very big and very serious job and i genuinely dont understand how he even just showed up like that #so I felt guilty throughout #anyway i dont think he drinks anymore but i was like king have a sip of wine with me and he did and it was lovely #and I hope I become my fathers daughter and not my mother's child. praying to both our gods #heres to healing ❤️‍🩹

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cyellolemon · 2 months

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A comic about Olive, and his meeting with the guy who could have ruined his life if it wasn't already so fucked up

#like. it's not a cute happy end #Ambrose is not a good person and is not doing any good in Olive's life #and Ambrose himself knows #but Olive happened to not care because in all cases he just wanted to end it all before meeting him #Ambrose would be like. the worst partner for everyone else but Olive..#and Olive wouldn't be a good one either #at the end they're happy together so whatever.. good for them i guess #Ambrose still feels guilty because Olive is not a lost case like him and could have healed #if he just had met a normal guy to love him #But things are just like that #anyway. the comic is also a bit personal lol Olive isn't the most self insert oc ever for nothing #for the first part at least #i will wait for my big tiddy fucked up man to show so i can start to think that surviving was worth it pff #suicide cw #cw suicide #dysphoria cw #cw dysphoria #my art #oc art #digital art #comic #comic art #trans artwork #mlm art #Olive #Ambrose

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ghostlywhiskey · 11 months

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I saw Barry’s insta stories and my first thought was “omg Nicole needs to see this!” You’re the certified Price girly™️ and we love you for it!

im literally giggling!! i love that.

and let the record show - i very much saw it. and screamed.

are we JOKING?

#nic responses #i love him so much #i will refer to barry as price because i feel less guilty barking after a video game character than a married man

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seaofadventure-a · 2 years

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Its just the way that Roger found Rayleigh and immediately called their meeting fate and the way they were captian and first mate for over thirty years and the way they were Gol D and Silvers and the way they called each other partners and the way Roger told Rayleigh he would never die and the way Rayleigh was crying but let his captain go because he knew that was what Roger wanted and needed and the way Roger lived his last year without his partner and the way Rayleigh didn't go to Roger's execution and how it was the day he laughed and cried the most and the way Rayleigh lived!! For so long!! Without Roger and just waiting for Joyboy's prophecy to pass and the way—

#one piece #gol d roger #silvers rayleigh #rogerray #rye rambles #i am so so so normal ab one dead guy and his first mate i prommy <3 i am so normal come closer—#gjskgkd slams fist on floor #they were soulmates!!!#literally fate #i have So many thoughts ab them that i Usually toss at rp blog but i havent been writting much lately so i feel guilty so here they go gjdg #platonic romantic something else or all of the above they were soulmates and they loved each other #and my mind cannot be changed #i think ab roger pirates a normal amount gjskgdk #just man..... they......#the forbidden lore #me rotating the old gen in head like microwave

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thechibilitwick · 7 months

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hehehe

#milgram #project sekai #kazui mukuhara #shidou kirisaki #mizuki akiyama #0507 #kazushidou #me when the heavily queer coded character is also cat :3 themed #actually i've also drawn rui in kazui's suit too cuz he's :3 too #also obligatory old man yaoi i love them so much have i said that already #basically the scenario i imagined was shidou talking himself down or feeling guilty for still being alive/wanting to live #and then kazui just grabs him and is like “shut up don't say that you matter and i llllllike you. like. platonic. totally"#shidou is like :‚‚^(#but also a part of him probably feels nice to have someone care that much about him #anwyays i hate side profiles vomits everywhere #chibi's art/rkgk

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funkinmadnesss · 11 months

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you know what? Fuck it *posts these doodles of my Mysterio and vanishes*

I was lowkey waiting till I had more official art pieces of him and my other sinister six before posting anything about him but I’m impatient and really like how these look <3

#Spider man #Spiderman #mysterio #quentin beck #rufioarts #rufioocs #maybe.?? He is for my spidersona’s universe so KSMSH #Anyways I do technically have ‘full refs’ for all but one of my six but like #their draw overs of official TSSM art and like. Idk I’d feel #guilty?? Weird?? For my first posts about them to not be fully handrawn art #I’m def just overthinking it but such is life #Y’all will see my sinister six eventually <333 prommy #Also ignore now inconsistent my style can be sometimes LMAO DKDMDH #Earth-4918: Humming-Spider

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y-rhywbeth2 · 8 months

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Astarion: "Do you have a moment? I think we need to talk." PC: "Are you all right?" Astarion: "Oh yes, I'm fine. I just-... feel awful."

Ah. This part of the playthrough. Whenever I get to this conversation I always have to wonder what it's been like inside Astarion's head building up to this conversation? How to secure your safety in three easy steps, according to Astarion Ancunín:

Manipulate a person into a fake relationship with you .

Feel really guilty about it because it turns out you genuinely like this idiot. You didn't even know you could feel guilt anymore. What the fuck.

Confess to them, obviously not far from the verge of tears sounding like you're not far off from a nervous breakdown because you have no idea what the fuck to do, but you can't keep doing this because, as per the quote, you feel awful.

#“I have a cunning plan!”#The man cannot plan for shit but it usually works out for him in ways he didn't expect at least #He doesn't need to feel so guilty in this case because this relationship was built on extremely similar manipulation going both ways #Both these idiots caught feelings #Vel was more passive though. Astarion came in with blatant manipulation attempts and Vel rolled with it because it was *something* he-#-could use to hold the guy's “loyalty”#It's about to get much better for Astarion and much worse for Vel #babbling #playthrough shenanigans #/astarion #petty murder boyfriends

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kevindavidday · 1 month

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devastated myself by associating green by cavetown with kevjean. have truly never felt worse in my life. wow. what the fuck.