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Found it. Not sure if you’ve seen this one, @stellerssong (not sure if the tag works).
That is very sparkly to me, despite not showing off the goods 🤣

sketch of Daniel from Sandman -art by Michael Zulli
#i find it strangely close to>>>#sparkle content#and will tag it the same way again because I know no shame
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setting pessimism aside to daydream about my ideal bucktommy makeup scenario and i just... keep oscillating between buck extending an olive branch and tommy reaching out first. there's merit in both. yes i'd love for buck to discard passivity and fight for this salvageable relationship — for buck to look tommy straight in the eyes and tell him that his sharp edges and his vulnerable insides don't make him any less deserving of love. that he's not blinded by the excitement of novelty or misguided admiration — even without the full picture, buck has seen enough pieces of the puzzle that makes up tommy's whole to know that he loves the entirety of him, unspoken faults and past sins included. that buck can't guarantee forever but he sure as hell can try to build the sturdy foundation of a shared life based on the hope for more. that sometimes you just luck out on the first draw and there's nothing wrong with good fortune.
but it would also be extremely healing if tommy knocked on buck's door to chase after his own second chance. to say "i want you more than i'm scared of hurting" when buck asks him what's changed in 4 months — because tommy would rather live with scars than be haunted by regrets and what-ifs. because buck is worth the risk of never recovering from having loved him
#bucktommy#the more i think about it the more partial i am to the second option. i need them to run into each other at a scene#working together is awkward and painful and there's simmering anger too behind the social niceties and necessary professionalism#but it eventually leads to a honest discussion during which explanations and due apologies are given#following their talk it seems like that chapter of buck's love life is forever closed. after all he now has something that resembles#closure. they part way with a bittersweet final-sounding see you around evan. i hope you find the happiness you deserve.#and buck is resigned. it's time to bid goodbye to the first man he loved#except there's a knock at buck's door later that night. and tommy's standing at the other side. he looks#anxious yet determined and it's such a strange expression on his face — uncharacteristically nervous and already braced for impact#a man walking towards a pointed knife hoping he's welcomed with absolution and not a stab#and we circle right back to the can we talk? question that started it all.#i would like to see it gif#rima.txt
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Canonically, Spock is drawn to small fuzzy creatures.
Jim is a Short King / small guy (in comparison to long tall Spock and his Vulcan bone density anyway).
Spock was in control of his emotionsTM about Jim until Jim grew out his chest and arm hair. Spock notices the change in Jim's body hair and before he knows it he finds himself doing Vulcan hand stuff sloppy style with fuzzy Jim right in front of Chapel and McCoy's salads in the sickbay
Coincidence? I think not.
#“Quite a lovely animal Captain. I find myself strangely drawn to it.” (the cat)#“Its trilling seems to have a tranquilizing effect on the human nervous system.” (the tribble)#“This simple feeling ...is beyond V'Ger's comprehension.” (Jim)#the simple feeling is that he wants to hold him close and squeeze him and pet him#and having him close somehow makes him feel calm and safe#(gene roddenberry you jerk for insisting on a hairless captain kirk in tos)#at least we'll always have the deep v shortsleeve white uniform from tmp#spirk#k/s#kirk/spock#the premise#spock#james t kirk#star trek tos#assignment earth#the trouble with tribbles#star trek tmp#star trek meta#scene analysis#sim speaks#my posts#sim goes nuts in the notes
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i didnt read the last chapters since i discovered it was the end (but i was spoiled by tumblr lol)... i didnt want to believe it... i want to still look forward to new chapters of No Home :(
For the last few years eunyung and haejoon have been my companions. I healed a little while following the story of eunyung, feeling like its ok to be angry and wanting revenge on your family and the society that continues to want to keep you in a "house" where you are mistreated. How the world isnt made for children at all, the absolute unfairness of it all. That you can choose to keep going, and if you do so its ok to keep your distance with what hurts you.
I healed too with haejoon, who came to terms with the fact that he will always be overcome with sadness and grief from time to time, and when that happens he can only let himself feel and wait for it to pass, and try to look forward to the next day.
Honestly this manwha was the best ever. I couldnt read this manhwa as a form of escapism because it was too real. It pulled strings in my heart i didnt know i had, made me question a lot of things about myself, about others, about my relationship with others. It made me have painful discussion with a few people. Following this manhwa, most of the time, was really unpleasant lol. I hated then loved eunyoung, I liked and then disliked haejoon (yeah sorry haejoon, i think you can be really cruel and stupid and i wanted to strangle you a few times in the last arcs (i would NOT be friend with that guy lol) -thats why this character is so amazing). But i felt so much while reading it i wouldnt trade it for anything. It was funny, it was dumb, it was deep, it was enraging and healing, but most of all it was sincere. The most sincere depiction of what being a person in a deeply flawed society is, and how there's happiness even while surviving.
It was so frustrating to see the manhwa go in a direction i didnt want it to go ! I wanted it to become my cozy refuge, where every problems are magically solved, where haejoon and eunyung ends up understanding and loving each other in a cliché way, where theres a new home with my *fave charas* and its a series of feel-good interactions. Instead the problems kept pilling up, most of them didnt have a satisfactory conclusion, eunyung and haejoon kept hurting each other and distancing themselves. Haejoon just cut contact with his father without knowing what were his nefarious motives or without this guy facing any consequences, we dont know if eunyung's parents will keep bothering eunyung unchecked, we dont know if they're going to be happy and rich, or if, realistically, as orphans without generational wealth and deep traumas, they're going to end up in a shitty life situation.
And i couldnt thank wanan enough for this. They didnt take the easy way, the feel-good way, the way that would have given them a probably bigger fandom so a bigger source of money. I'm amazed by how they managed to hold this whole story so perfectly. Not a single misstep. Everything they draw was where it should have been, every action from the characters were understandable (and frustrating lol), the fucking subtlety of the developing relationships, no deus ex machina and no miserabilism. I didnt always agree with wanan's ethic or what i perceived of it (i think stealing or being violent is ok depending on the context, i dont think working hard to earn money is a virtue) but i respect how they choose to present it. I didnt talk about the other characters because honestly they didnt move me as much (except marie), but i love them so much too. I felt sad that eunyung and haejoon didnt become best friend 5ever (or even lovers hehe) but honestly, understandable lol. If i was one of them i WOULDNT become close with the other at all, so its kinda amazing they could still find this level of mutual understanding.
In short, wanan is an amazing story teller.
And an amazing image-composist (have no idea how to say this in english). The artstyle doesnt look like much, but this gave wanan a wide graphic range to convey emotions that wouldnt have been possible with a more sophisticated style i think -how will i forget the red swirlings mixing with eunyung skin ? The expressions, the choice of colors, the choice in showing something in particular without giving a clear explanation on why (often haejoon's surprised or contemplative face, which made me re-read chapters a few times to try to understand what was happening in his big head). It didnt feel like wanan thought their readers were stupid, nor did they play the fake-deep style. It was perfectly balanced.
And so even if i didnt read it, i have no doubt the end will be the same. Im so sad they decided to end this manhwa, but i know prolonging it would have been greedy and that ultimately, the manhwa would have suffer for it. Some authors do that : they have a popular series going on, and for whatever reason they keep writing new chapters without a clear goal and so the story becomes diluted, messy, useless. I love when they do this, because i can say goodbye to a story progressively as my interest in it wans, without feeling sadness or loss. But it makes me not think of the story at all in the future, since everything that was good about it became buried in new shitty chapters. Because wanan didnt do that, i know that i would think of no home for a long while, maybe forever,
,like i really lost companions when no home ended actually. Because it really, really hurts, knowing i wont be seeing new faces of the no home characters anymore. I know it sounds probably stupid ; i feel genuine grief here lol. I want to know what will happen to them, if they are alright, if they found a place in the world... if there is something to look forward after all, and i really dread not having answers every monday anymore. and the fandom is so small i cant comfort myself by re-entering the no home world every week or whatever... does anyone else feel this way ToT ? maybe i should participate myself but well,, i wouldnt know where to begin...
And saying that ! I'm almost never on this blog, i dont really have socmed accounts, i dont participate in fandoms at all. But I spent a looot of time reading and watching people who does -without being connected or interacting with posts or fanfics at all. AND i really want to thank you all for giving me so much material to chew, posts that made me think, fics that made me smile, drawings that inspired me, witnessing interactions that made me laugh. I was and i probably will continue to be a ghost on socmed, but i really want you to know that you had an impact on me and i was looking forward to your new posts (and will continue to!).
the "every no home chapter is a test of my willingness to Not blow my own brains out" and explosion eunhae monday of @skiptoyuri
the regular nohome posters which makes me happy to check tumblr regularly @shimamitsulover @lesbianpegbar @luckyswamps @tomoyoo @cloudbends @t0a2ter @solcarow @dragon-of-timeless-blue
the awesome artists who keep producing bangers nohome art @gohaejoon @maxsolosur @jjd5426 @bnnuycafe @ct-bunny @lentl-soup @fartaycat @jjd5426 @prokkoli @moxymaxing @ginangtan
the nohome posters that i enjoyed running into @pleuvoire @homolobotomized @podoro-vines @fmet @welpuu @revertrate @obstinaterixatrix @kulluto
the artists that made me interested in checking no home @cienfll @craysmo @ant-eaters @idledee @fruiitlins @froqpi-art @201918b @tinfishmeal @ohrsoh @30mingirlfriend
thanks @ditherslam for the awesome fanfics, obviously i read them all and they're some of my favourites. youre an amazing writer and i cant wait for the next chap of "your atoms"!!
thanks @homeless202 for being an insatiable nohome poster for a while (and @grannykombucha !)
im forgetting a lot of others but i really wanted to thank you all for your time, energy, work. i never interacted with your posts or with you but i really want to convey how cool it is that you all contribute to make no home a more well-known manhwa and the fandom alive
thank youuuu (hope the @ are ok tell me if its bothersome ill delete it)
and really, really, thank you wanan ! waaaa i want to cry
#no home wanan#no home#no home manhwa#kind of strange wanan wil never know how muvh their story mean to me and probably lot of others they'll never meet#im really rambling but it felt strange to not post anything while ive been luring in this fandom for so many years#and thought about no home a few hours every day at least#it feels like a goodbye letter but i really know ill still think about no home for years to come lol#i kinda want wanan to make omake with the chara being silly and happy...#i want to know if eunyung and haejoon stay close T.T#please dont let time and distance make you apathetic#will eunyung inherit his father debts??#i have no idea how it works in south korea#i hope he finds a way to really have no ties with bis family anymore#and so nothing will come bite him in the ass in the future#haejoon being a model student and what is expected of society and having his uncle i guess hes one step ahead#well#except the mental illnesses#but eunyung i worry so much about him#please be happy in the future T.T#ah i should made another post its too much tags
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Harry Truman: THAT'S IT, ALBERT!😡😡😡😡😡😡😡 speak ill of the twin peaks' sheriff's department ONCE MORE, and I will give you another black eye!!😡😡😡
Audrey Horne at One Eyed Jack's:
#does this even make sense#twin peaks#it's not about audrey literally being in a setting like that but rather the subtle horror of a teenage girl being sexually exploited#in a system that is owned by her own father and realizing the realities of him to the extent even she has never before seen#in order to find answers about the tragic death of a girl she wasn't friends with but felt a strange closeness to nonetheless#and to please an older man that maybe is her only friend by helping him in his investigations#whatever. i love audrey horne#audrey horne
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under a night sky, in a field of flowers
#horizon forbidden west#hfw#aloy#charger#hfw out of bounds#out of bounds exploration#modified the quote slightly because this sky was strangely monochrome#like i didn't edit it that way - that's how it was in the game#this spot was less obvious to find out of bounds but i got there#(the dream field of flowers - the tree is behind me in this shot)#the first time i tried i guess my camera was a liiiiiitle too close to the ground#and i teleported myself to a falling death under the map lmao#hfw pc#(remove reload boundary mod)
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Could I maybe request a Dias and/or Moses?
something is wrong with both of them
#what a strange situationship#ty for the req anon o7#distortion detective#moses distortion detective#dias distortion detective#project moon#art i made#request#theres like one bajillion wips i have for both of them .... im never finishing those i dont think.#ok i think im done with reqs for today#if anyone else wants to send in any ill be closing them tmrw#so like. send it now or NEVAAHRR#ill probably open them again someday but commissions come first id like to save up money for better mobility aids and#id love to buy a tattoo machine that isnt the cheapest shittiest one i can find. itd be nice. i cant handpoke anymore from nerve pain#which was the original plan but alas! my body has other ideas#ok thats enough ranting in tags.... ill get to the other requests from tmrw on i need a break
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// personal
how strange it is to observe yourself changing
#not snz#delete later#another suddencolds yap post 😭 i apologize#i have been trying to draft a post like this for awhile now... i suppose this is a subset of the many thoughts i've had lately#this year has been so strange??! i joked in january about taking a leave to metamorphose into someone more tolerable but#honestly i am not sure if i am more tolerable now... though i do feel like i've changed. :')#for the better? for the worse? unsure... i feel like i am finding out more and more that#my social battery is unfortunately finite 😭 and that i must be more selective in how i choose to spend my time 🙇♀️#i think all throughout uni the majority of my substantial social interactions happened#over text/online? irl i made a lot of acquaintances via classes and student organizations... but the number of#close friends i had and actively met up with irl was pretty low 😭 and that embarrassed me!! like#how can one 🫵🏼 be surrounded by so many smart people her age and come away with so few in-person friends?? ☹️ skill issue truly!!! 🙄👎#even now i sometimes feel like the need to defend myself from that uncharitable perception of me? as though the idea that#there is/was something wrong with me is something i need to actively disprove 🥲#taken objectively i feel like i'm doing okay socially 😭 i have a decent handful of irl friends that#i meet with pretty regularly and people do seek out my company... but there's this feeling at the back of my mind that#no one will believe me when i say it. perhaps because i am so deeply used to seeing myself as undesirable :')#(^ i think this was all more painful than i am getting across in writing and i am summarizing it all from a point of relative detachment 😶)#but anyways! i am older now and it feels like things are shifting... or that i'm being forced to acknowledge that i have limits socially#in terms of energy rather than capability. which is new :') and i've also been thinking about the feeling of closeness (or lack thereof)#that i feel when it comes to the various friendships in my life. i think i am really fully vulnerable like#kind of seldom actually... but on the rare occasion that i feel sufficiently attached i worry i come across as a little intense 😭#(if i have embarrassed myself in front of you i am very sorry 😭😭 i'm still figuring things out)#(not sure if anyone is still reading this but) these tags are getting long enough 🏃♀️
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Overhead, the stars shone clear and bright, and though Mala had only once appeared to him at dawn, on the foothills across this very city, though she might be little more than a strange, mighty being from another world, he offered up a prayer anyway.
Then, he had begged Mala to protect Aelin from Maeve when they entered Doranelle, to give her strength and guidance, and to let her walk out alive. Then, he had begged Mala to let him remain with Aelin, the woman he loved. The goddess had been little more than a sunbeam in the rising dawn, and yet he had felt her smile at him.
Tonight, with only the cold fire of the stars for company, he begged her once more.
A curl of wind sent his prayer drifting to those stars, to the waxing moon silvering the camp, the river, the mountains.
He had killed his way across the world; he had gone to war and back more times than he cared to remember. And despite it all, despite the rage and despair and ice he'd wrapped around his heart, he'd still found Aelin. Every horizon he'd gazed toward, unable and unwilling to rest during those centuries, every mountain and ocean he'd seen and wondered what lay beyond... It had been her. It had been Aelin, the silent call of the mating bond driving him, even when he could not feel it.
They'd walked this dark path together back to the light. He would not let the road end here.
#Chapter 23#Kingdom of Ash#Sarah J. Maas#Rowan Whitethorn#Rowaelin#Essar#Mala#more starry quotes#lord of the north#I will find you#no spoilers pls 1st read to read along with me pt 4 of 4 perspectives more notes/quotes/reacts in tags; spoilers in both post & tags#They would not all go in all go out. — he won’t leave without Aelin… and probably Cairn dead#Ready to unleash hell when he sent a flare of his magic diverting soldiers to their side while Rowan made his run for Aelin.#She'd protested but even Gavriel had told her that she was mortal. Untrained. And what she'd done today… Rowan didn’t have the words#thank you for Elide appreciation day#He trusted Essar. She'd never liked Maeve had outright said she did not serve her with any willingness or pride.#But these last few hours before dawn when so many things could go wrong...#the full circle of him praying to Mala in HoF and then mentioning it in QoS and EoS and now here in KoA😭#She had to be there. Aelin had to be there.#If they had come so close but wound up being the very thing that had caused Maeve to take Aelin away AGAIN#The bond within him lay dark and slumbering. No indication of her proximity. — Maeve doing that too AGH I HATE HER SO MUCH#Essar had no idea that Aelin was being kept here until Elide informed her. How many others hadn't known? How well had Maeve hidden her?#— maybe that means there’s some good face on their side who might help if they know or learn?#ah rowaelins love language of revenge and compartmentalizing#Overhead the stars shone clear and bright and though Mala had only once appeared to him at dawn on the foothills across this very city#though she might be little more than a strange mighty being from another world he offered up a prayer anyway.#his magic sending a prayer to the northern stars for dawn to stay with the woman he loves — even back then😭#Tonight with only the cold fire of the stars for company he begged her once more.#HE SAYS COLD FIRE BECAUSE ITS NOT HIS FIREHEART😭 and the the darkness back to the light — IT WILL NOT END HERE WE WONT LET IT HE WONT LET IT#and the fact he knew he loved her back then😭 and all those centuries before when he didn’t know why😭😭😭
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the amazing, showstopping, incredible @musicallisto enables me daily <3333
for your consideration <3; you may now rest soundly in the knowledge that i am, in all things, correct.
#not kpop#.jpeg#'olive wtf why are you posting f1 here on your kpop account don't you have a sideblog specifically for this?'#and what if i want to merge my two (2) personality traits and what if i think it vital the kpop girlies know i beef with random famous men?#my beef with george russell continues to go on strong and largely unexplained#obviously lance stroll and i don't fuck with each other.#and moving up the tiers; if i knew estie bestie irl and we were in competition i would tear his throat out and thrive off of his failboy#moments. but because he's only on my silly little screen i can also find him funny on occasion#lando is here for reasons more complicated.#that whole row of 'they're here i guess' is very self explanatory#i put valterri there because i didn't know where else to put him but also i find his occasionally Strange behavior fun. weird uncle core.#and if i'm a checo apologist? what then??#fernando is an icon yes yes but very little brainspace is dedicated to him.#max verstappen deserves a category of his own where in i can go: love hate relationship (pos) i see too much of myself in you to hate but#also when i put aside your loser cringe content and your champion energy i feel like we wouldn't be particuarly close if we were to exist i#the same space at the same time#and then the rest of that row is beloved <333 darling <333 zhou can sweetcorn post more that's all i want from you tbh#and top row makes sense i fear? oscar has been promoted whoop whoop.#if i could isolate his personality and put it in a petri dish that would be a wonderful exercise in personality formation thanks
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Commission for my friend !!!
#commission#commissions are closed as of posting this. finishing up some stuff then I’ll be able to open em again lol#digital painting#art#digital art#digital artwork#procreate#anatomical heart#fantasy#art commissions#artwork#artist#artists on tumblr#oc art#not my oc#it was SO SO fun drawing this#I played around with some fun whispy brushes :333#most of them are from thedawner#go get them NEEOOWWWW they r such a great investment once u find a set u like#art more like fart#also oc by Avianly/Aviary/A Very Strange Person#idk they have a lot of usernames
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my rook is so funny. extremely boring normal ex criminal who joined the wardens in his 30s to avoid going to prison. feels no alliance to his faction at all but is a little freak who enjoys taking orders so he does well. meets varric who instantly projects act 1 marcus onto him for no real reason other than they're both kind of assertive guys he has to work with and wants to fuck. has no idea who marcus is and assumes "hawke" is a recent ex varric isn't over. enters a weird situationship with him because hooking up with a weird older dwarf is more fun than being a warden. suddenly finds himself in charge at the lighthouse and starts acting like an old grizzled commander even though he and neve are like the same age. kind of wants to die so he doesn't care about anything that's happening but he'll see it through until the end because that's his Job.
#veilguard spoilers#minor. but i dont want to get yelled at.#the choices theyve made for a lot of rook's characterisation is wild so he HAS to be a freak#he and harding must be close in age. why did her personal quest feel like he was a middle aged dad chaperoning a#teenager from life is strange#to be clear he and varric didnt fuck. varric got scared.#he gave him a MIRROR? . extremely funny with the trans option bc in my head it went down like. varric has recently#Found out marcus is trans and was struggling with it a lot when they first met (which is why he was Like That a lot) and has a million#terrible flashbacks to all the jokes he made when they were bantering that were actually probably really hurtful#(marcus doesnt remember or care)#so when he finds out rook is trans and struggling with it which is why he's Like That he panics and gives him a gay ass mirror#and is like 'to remind you of who you are :) a man in the maker's eyes' and rook is like (looking at varric's tits) “😐👍🏻 okay.”
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what they dont tell you about being incredibly introspective is that you'll think you're done making realizations and then you'll just make more realizations always all the time forever
#dude. guess who just found out the reason he's incapable of imagining himself in a good relationship#is bc he's never witnessed any growing up.#my parents dont have a relationship i would want#only one of my siblings is married and her husband sucks. other has never dated while ive been alive (im much younger)#+ my other sibling had. a strange relationship i wont mention details of but this was also like 5 yrs ago and he hasnt dated since#i have very few close friends and none of them dated as we grew up either#or even with some its like. i wldnt want your relationship lol...#the only Good relationships i see are online from ppl i follow. and then i cant trust em bc we only see the Good Parts#so like. do they even exist... i dont think so....#if i wasnt starved for physical touch id consider throwing in the towel permanently#but idk maybe ill buy one of those pillows with the arms that wrap around you#and a few more **** and try and cope with it in kenland or al's farm forever#talkys#im still 100% serious about ppl who have good relationships being lucky bc i feel like#the chances of finding someone you mesh with and are attracted to and can communicate with. are so slim.#i can barely ever find someone meeting one of many requirements. i can barely make friends. etc
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Hi everybody, I just want to remind you that this is, and has always been, an adult blog for adults to talk or give submissions about vore. This is not, was not, and never will be, a safe space for children, and it is also not a space for adults who talk to children about vore or any other fetishes/dicey interests like vore. (So no tickling blogs, feet, whatever who talk to kids.)
We allow and heavily encourage nonsexual content, but suggestive content is also OK as long as it does not trend to outright explicit sexual territory. Suggestive and sexual blogs are also fine to interact with this blog, as long as it isn't outright problematic blogs (proship, especially if they feature incest/pedophelia/bestiality/necrophelia) or ones that feature irl porn.
#v0re#soft vore#18+ mdni#button mod#safe vore#And I mean.. yes I am anti-“sfw” vore. I don't think adults and children should discuss these things together.#It's not an inherently sfw topic. Nonsexual? It can be. But it's much too intimate for something like children or#people who talk about “familial” vore. I think that shit is really strange and disturbing that adults seek out to do something intimate lik#that with kids#Or with family members. Especially parent/child pairings.#It's like cuddling/snuggling/being in extremely close contact with someone.#Should adults find children online to do that with? If it's weird for you to think about adults#finding children to “extreme cuddle” with#especially STRANGERS#To be clear I think irl families are fine with normal family stuff that involves actual normal cuddling.#Just finding children online to do that with as an adult is disturbing.
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#not to be a bummer dude but like#gen z really is the lonliest generation and we're so screwed#it's so hard to meet people that want to make friends & people are judgemental but at the same time everyone is lonely it's so strange#any time there's an event people flake & like. genuine closeness in friendships is rare#i feel like all i do is listen to my friends or my sister and try to help but the second i talk about myself no one cares#i feel like it'll be hard to find people (or god forbid a partner) who genuinely like me because i'm so...out of place#i've always felt that way my whole life. too 'weird' for normal people & too 'normal' for weird people & generally a piece that doesn't fit#people would look at my insta like 'oh why do you only have 10 follwers' & it's like. sure you might have hundreds but do you talk to them?#do you know them?#i feel like even close friends these days hang out like once a month/every other month#i feel like. idk i want deeper friendships and relationships but everyone around me wants to drink and smoke and fuck and flake#my deepest hope is that it's an early 20s thing and not my generation's thing but knowing me we're just fucked#also there are the online friendships which i really appreciate but there's always gonna be that question of like#do you like me because i make the content you like? would you hate me if you met me irl?#and like. no one is under any obligation to like me or cater to me but i dunno. it's just kind of a bummer#post ovulation clarity goes crazy i hate it here#rose.txt#tw vent
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#hmmmmmmm#funny sounds alone in the building again and they didn't start until it was pitch black outside#I heard what sounded like doors closing down the hall and assumed security was here for their checks and came in a side door with their key#and maybe were just in an area my shitty camera angles don't catch#but 45mins later no security guard surfaced and I went outside for a smoke and only my car is here so they were never here#every door but the auto doors near my desk are locked and under active surveillance there's no way someone else is in the building#we have no guests today I've been alone since my shift started and not one strange noise until it was dark#I so wish I could find an explanation for this shit it's weirding me out#I'm trying to find rational explanations first obvs but can't find any???? I've walked the halls I've catalogued what the normal sounds are#I'm very much at a loss... I'm not scared per se but I'd sure like an explanation#p
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