#i fucking forgor my writing tag LMAO

[butchniqabi]

lotr has me thinking about the wasted potential of orc deserters 🚬✌🏽😔

[brainworms-all-night-long]

New and all inclusive intro to the hellspace that's my brain and this blog!! Do not attempt to find any parallels in my blorbos to my behavior and desires I promise it says nothing about the very core of me as a living being haha

Every silly appearing above lives fulltime in my brain and refuses to pay the mortgage, in fact, is very adamant they will never do so. Henceforth, I yap about them sometimes!! Some more than others *coughNinecough* but they are always present

>Now to the tags I actively use!!

sonic prime / sonic the hedgehog / miles nine prower – The most of thoughts at the actual documented begining of life for this blog, and I like Nine!! A lot!! A character made specifically for me I think....

murder drones / arcane / nimona 2023 / dreamtale (UTMV) – Other stuff besides Sonic that I draw and yap about, although this is still mainly a Sonic blog

me does arts / littol doodl / actually finished doodl – My art tags!! I've been drawing the same character for over a year and a half now help :D Have no idea why I decided to split them into three separate categories but I belive the names are pretty self explanatory

me when I finish writing – I do a drabble or two sometimes as well just, don't expect for me to actually finish anything I start writing even though I say I will, that tag name is a lie

the silly text box – answered asks whenever I rember to use the tag lmao

silly brainwors – my yappings, Nine character analyses and headcannons!!

There's no talk tag, if you see my random unrelated thoughts, it was destined and once in a lifetime event

>I also have a few AUs but only of the "What if crossover variety

Prime bros – a more or less non commited collaborative effort of random.headcannons and drabbles between me and Marie and anyone else who has thoughts and wants to join in on the fun on the idea of having the Shatterverse foxes (Nine, Sails, Mangey and Tails) living together in green hill and causing mayhem because the way the show left them was bulshit and unsatisfying!!

The same but different is my own personal version of the prime bros universe than I'm.fighting tooth and nail to write and constantly failing gdhsg

Over the hills – is a Dreamtale and Sonic crossover brough on by The Nine-tailed travel guide through the multiverse event conceived by Donelywell and mashed with my long time held dreamswap au idea of Dream taking Night and running away from the village (I will...write the second chapter....eventually.......)

running from a Nightmare – another Dreamtale au, this time about corrupted Nightmare being set loose on the Sonic world by none other than Eggman and the suffering that comes with it (also fighting nose and finger to get it written, you see a pattern here?)

prime arcane – as seen above, I like arcane!! Jinx and Nine are eerily similar, I put them together, boom an Au :D other characters are there too but I need to get around actually designing them....

the n 'n n's (read as m&m's) – unserious crossover where I put Nine Night and Nimona together and have them be silly (perhaps Nuzi will tag along some day too...)

>This will most likely get updated in case I get possessed by something new or remeber a tag I forgor

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Hey you scrolled this far might as well put some more random trivia abt me here :D

>paleontology and zoology nerd, but only as an avid listener to four hour documentaries, I don't actually know shit- (Miniminuteman, casual geo and Lydnsey Nikole hyper carry this special interest)

>Obviously a followup to previous point needed, favorite dinosaur is the Archeopterix and the animal ever is the Blunt Headed Tree Snake

>I have a pet snake, her name is Ebi and is a black head spider python!!

>Fourth (and last, pray for me please) year of studying Mechanical engineering, I also have no fucking clue what I'm doing, I don't know a lick of math :DD

>Favorite color is pink!! (In case you couldn't tell by my art and this whole post lmao) I went through a goddamn hero's journey to learn to love it alright you can pry the seven plain hot pink shirts from my cold dead hands

>I'm Slovak!! *zahučanie sokola a zvučka fujary*

>undiagnosed but there's something...

>I could recite the story of the ugly duckling backwards as a kid (unrelated to previous point)

[d3ad-h4nd]

DEAD HAND

An intro post for yours truly, the one and only! Me! :3

Call me dead! Or hand! It's whatever idrc. Is it a name? Is it not? You don't get to know that. Valence also works! (Or ▽4↳∋πϽ⋿)

I'm immature and I know it and I rock it. How old am I? Who give a shit! (24)

I'm not putting my interests and skills on a platter for you. You gotta figure that out yourself! Also I forgor.

I bite! Violently!

I'M NOT JOINING YOUR ONLINE FAMILY FUCK OFF.

I died but I got better.

OOC: ehehehe. silly general purpose fandom oc self insert thingy... Interactions open to anyone as long as they aren't a bigot. If I don't like your vibes for any reason I will just block you lmao. If anything I do bothers you please tell me incredibly bluntly. Also, if something bothers me OOC, I will stop and tell you. This is important to remember because Handy has... Issues. My name is Sigil by the way!! he/him it/its.

Please assume that any post without a [Title] is a blog post, and not in-person. I may ignore you if you decide to turn a blog post into an in-person out of nowhere- but if you want to do something in-person, please just ask?

In-person posts are going to have the start/first response from me tagged as against the skin (in person tag)

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If you have questions or comments OOC, please feel free to dm me i LOVE attention lol.

Matching/connected to @t4ct1c4l-fluk3

Follow/like from @land-upon-the-moon-and-weep

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To elaborate slightly on Handy's issues. Jealousy - Handy gets jealous very easily. Absolutely a fatal flaw. Isolated - Handy hasn't been the most included or liked throughout his life. Hope Crushed Romantic - Handy has never had a stable romantic relationship, and all of his past ones have ended badly. He no longer holds any hope of finding a stable one, and may try to avoid commitment. Mania - Handy's villain arc was a manic episode. He may or may not have more of those. They will all be exaggerated, because I think it's fun to write. Delusion - Also in his villain arc, Handy did end up getting a bit delusional. Not tiktok delusional (don't use the word like that this is a serious mental issue?), for real actually delusional. [NOTE! I do not experience delusions. I am trying my best to depict them with respect, while also having fun with it. I don't know how I keep ending up making my OCs delusional but this has happened twice so far. Please let me know if something's offensive or off, because I am running on good intentions, shitty medical articles, and a PDF of the DSM-5.] Attention - Handy wants to feel paid attention to. He wants to feel like he matters. He wants to feel cared about. ~ Handy is also autistic, ADHD, and he probably has Histrionic personality disorder, along with Borderline. I'm not a psych person though. i just have a PDF of the DSM-5. [Note: I am actually borderline, I'm just both very mild and learning to cope and regulate myself.]

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Drawings of Hand (chronological order): Finga Guns Fallin' Valence's Introduction (villain arc) D3AD M4N'5 H4ND (death and resurrection)

Hand's voiceclaim - Sarah Rose (from band Sarah and the Safe Word)

Gravestone

[justkillingthyme]

Ok I’m reposting this bc I’m a dumdum and forgor to tag it

Pretty much I’m writing an Akbadain fix-it and I posted another poll about how to hurt Hershel

I love him so much I want to give him a smooch

the general was for light stabbing,

So the question now is when does he get stabbed?

Cause for me it seemed like his top priority in the ruins was to make sure that Randall was safe, then that Randall was happy. All over his own health and happiness, (though he did end up enjoying himself to a certain point)

I can totally see himself getting hurt and then being like ‘I can’t ruin this for him :(‘ so he doesn’t tell anyone, or prioritizing Randall’s safety over his own (cause they promised Angela that he’d be safe)

In the big circle room with puzzle 100 and the little gay fencers it would be harder to hide an injury because of the proximity but Hershel is very clearly looking out for Randall’s safety (also just in general, not only bc of Angela) but I feel like Hershel could pull it off.

It would be easier to hide it if he got stabbed after they got separated (for obvious reasons)

I do remember that when they reconnected he asked Randall if he was hurt, Randall said that he was fine and then asked him the same.

If I’m remembering right he gave a noncommittal answer (like ‘I’m alive 🤷‍♂️’ or something like that in the EU version) and than Randall was like ‘great we both aren’t injured :D’ even though Hersh didn’t really answer him?

So…

The fix-it would come when Randall finds out

Sure, he might have some crippling failure and disappointment issues, but he wouldn’t sacrifice his best friend for it

This could go multiple ways but I’m more inclined for it to go something like this

Hershel is like ‘oh fuck I’m in so much pain buts it’s fine lmao’ and Randall’s like “my man are you even listening like are you good” and then he like actually takes a good look at him cause they’re in the final room.

Randall goes “Hershel. Move your fucking hands.” And Hershel goes ‘😨’ but he does and Randall moves aside his little vest and there’s a huge ass bloodstain and Randall has to decide between the life of his best friend and his life’s work, aspiration, and proof that he’s good enough.

And he chooses to leave with Hershel, but he’s like “You can’t do that it’s too important. I’m fine let’s go man :)” and Randall goes “😨 HERSHEL YOUR FUCKING DYING??? WERE GOING HOME GIRL WTF YOU REALLY RHOUGHT ID CHOOSE SOME STUPID ASS RUINS OVER YOU??” And then they kiss homosexually so then they go home

So that’s how Hershel saved Randall’s life 👍

[thoughts-of-a-trying-tree]

I posted 163 times in 2022

That's 151 more posts than 2021!

12 posts created (7%)

151 posts reblogged (93%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@sarah-sandwich

@the-gayest-tree-you-ever-did-see

@shipskicksandgiggles

@thoughts-of-a-trying-tree

@innovationoftransspider-man

I tagged 103 of my posts in 2022

Only 37% of my posts had no tags

#fic rec - 36 posts

#parkner - 25 posts

#omelet fic - 16 posts

#the tree speaks - 15 posts

#marvel - 11 posts

#transferred tags → - 8 posts

#spiderman - 7 posts

#spiderlad - 5 posts

#harley keener - 3 posts

#peter parker - 3 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#omg.............. i will write these................... i will........................... number six will make me scream i will write these

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

commitment to a fic is when you change your emoji colors for the characters and forget to change them back

3 notes - Posted February 21, 2022

#4

lmao okay this is such a me thing to do but anyway

remember the announcement i was talking about? yk, the one i never spoke of again? yeah so..... i have an ao3 account!! super exciting, i can leave kudos twice (more if i try hard enough) and its been lovely overall, but ive moved all the fics that i like there (a grand total of four out of... more than four) and from here on out, all my fics will be published there a little earlier than theyre posted here, which some of yall may already know bc i linked it on marry me (teehee check it out lolsies) and its in my bio but!! i fuckin forgor!!! to announce the announcement!!

toodloo, i just wanted to make sure everyone knew!

3 notes - Posted January 5, 2022

#3

writing is just ooh a new fic idea ooh a new fic idea ooh a new fic idea ooh a new fic idea ooh a new fic idea ooh a new fic idea ooh a new fic idea ooh a new fic idea ooh a new fic idea ooh a new fic idea ooh a new-

8 notes - Posted January 18, 2022

#2

liability

word count: 836

warning(s): lots of angst, hurt with comfort, relationship issues, cursing, an argument

Read on AO3

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Songs were something that could get caught in Harley's head easily, but conversations never stayed. They were too fleeting, too quick, and he was too spontaneous for them to ever even make sense, much less be remembered.

When he and Peter started dating, he tried desperately to hoard every word, to keep every cadence in his mind, because one thing he could remember were the lessons he learned and one he could never forget was that everyone left. He didn't want Peter to leave but that wasn't something he could control, so at the very least, he could make the memories stay.

And then Peter started leaving and leaving and leaving and coming back and leaving and every time he did, he would always remember another lesson he learned too young, the lesson that you have to leave before you get left.

It's like a song, that one cynical dance of words playing in his mind over and over, a background track to an argument he should've seen coming.

What the fuck are you doing to yourself? Can't you stop? For me?

It's not that easy.

You don't have to do everything you can do just because you can! Take a goddamn break, won't you?

I can't take a goddamn break, Jesus. Do you even hear yourself?

I don't think I'm asking for too much here. Oh, but he was, he was, he was.

You have to leave before you get left.

No, of course you don't.

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29 notes - Posted February 28, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

marry me

word count: 2712

warning(s): references to fics i've never written, cursing, dialogue heavy, and my brand of self-indulgence (also the word uwu is said. im so sorry)

Read on AO3

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"Peach, toss me the wrench, would you?" Clang! "Thanks, and also the—" Clang! "Oh, yep, that's better actually." Bzzzzzzzt. "Perfect, marry me." Thwack! "I meant thank you!"

'*'*'*'

"Harleyyyy! HAAARLEEEEEYYYY!"

"What? Where's the invasion?" Slap!

"Pick your stupid fuckin' socks up! Tits and their respective gods, I have to do everything around here and there ain't no pay in New York Cit-ay."

"You could always marry me for tax benefits if you're that worried—"

"And pick your stuff up for the rest of my life? I would rather eat my shirt. Better not see anything in the lab!"

"Mhm."

"..."

"…"

Wham! "Harley Fuckin' Keener, why did you leave YOUR socks on MY stuff? Stop laughing!"

'*'*'*'

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62 notes - Posted January 4, 2022

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[chronicallycrow]

You Wanted to Hate Him.

Fandom: DSMP

Relationship(s): Dream/Reader

Word Count: 634

CW: Derealization, Depersonalization, internal battle(?), Possibly more??

Notes: I wrote this as a vent. It started out as just a thing of "I need to write", and then Dream just kinda. Showed up. I mean, at least it made me feel better?? I dunno. I'm just really tired and going through a shit mental health time.

You're not fully awake, but you're not sleep yet, either. The time reads 22:30. Nothing feels real. You close your eyes, rub them, pray things will feel real again. They don't.

The room is unnaturally dark. Too cold. The window is open. You don't want to close it. It's too quite. Everything falls silent. It's so loud.

You close your eyes, take a breath in. There's a knocking at the door. You bite your lip. You get up, not on your own accord. Your legs bring you to the door. You look up at him. He puts a hand on your cheek, rubbing circles into it. The other wraps around your waist, pulling you near.

He doesn't feel real. You close your eyes, breath in his scent. His hand rubs circles on your lower back, other shifting to hold between your shoulders. You take a breath in. The breath doesn't feel real, either.

You glance up. You see part of his hair. Blonde as always. You push yourself into him, body pressed close. You want to merge yourself with him, become one, and then never meet your own body again. He lets you. He doesn't stop running your back. He's a convicted felon, he's a murderer, he was created in the image of the God few have seen.

He lets go of you, hand moving from pressing on you. You move back. He looks at you, gently brushing your hair out of the way. He's horrible. He's horrible and terrible and you want him - Need him - Here. You glance over the scars on his face, down his neck, the burnt mark of a smile, the burnt mark of an 'XD'. You're reminded again of how he's terrible. You're reminded of how you've been branded, too. Your hand goes to your lower neck. You feel over the scar. You hate the way the skin feels - You hate more that you don't want the mark to ever go away.

He moves past you and sits on the bed. You let yourself sink beside him. He moves an arm around you again. Part of you screams to push him away and leave. You lean into him and close your eyes. You ignore the voice yelling. You lay your head on his shoulder. He pulls you closer. You want to merge with him again. Be one. He gives your side a gentle squeeze. You let out a huff, gently pushing your elbow into his stomach. It doesn't do much. He lays his head on yours. You want to hate him. You close your eyes and let out a sigh. The room doesn't feel as silent anymore.

At some point, he'd pulled you onto his lap and fallen back against the bed. You were still awake then. You let your head burry itself in his chest. He held you close. Maybe this is how you left your body. One of your hands made it's way to run its fingers through his hair. They got caught on tangles, caught on dirt, caught on things you didn't want to think about. He let out a content sigh. You swore at yourself for sinking into him more when you did.

You let yourself begin to fall asleep in his grip. You let yourself be completely vanurable. You missed these moments. He was a murderer, an abuser, twisted and traumatized and tortured and hated. Before you fully let sleep grasp you, you leaned up and gave the side of his chin a kiss. You laid your head back down and let sleep fully engulf you. You didn't dream. Things didn't feel as quiet or dark anymore. You cursed at yourself, at the irony of a horrible, horrible man making the room feel lighter. You wanted to hate him. He wouldn't let you.

[organized-chaotic-disaster]

I was tagged by the lovely @lesbiantabes, thank you so much for the tag!! This was really fun ;v; 💕

favorite color: blue, but not a specific shade of blue. Like. I’m indecisive as fuck, and I’ve decided, I guess blue is my favourite colour bc I don’t dislike any shade of blue, but I dislike some shades of other colours 😅 though my favourite colours are pastels!!!! Overall, my top colours are blue, purple, and pink 💕

currently reading: nothing tbh, I’ve been working on my current fic (which is my first multi-chapter fic since high school) o: usually I read on my breaks at work, but I’ve been writing instead LOL, tho the next thing I’ll probably read is Youngbloods, the latest (and I think last?) book in Scott Westerfeld’s Impostors series, which itself is a sequel to the Uglies series!! Uglies is probably my favourite book series, so it’s been really cool to see a sequel series for it ;v;

last song: "FREAK" from Demi Lovato's new album HOLY FVCK. Please listen to it if you haven't already, this album is so good holy FUCK (pun slightly intended)

last series: okay so. This is REALLY embarrassing but. Basically I was recommended a video on YouTube about a theory for Total Drama Island and I started watching it (didn’t finish, it’s a long video lmao) and it had me thinking about the series, I used to love it as a kid, so I rewatched it 😅 it’s obviously far from perfect and has some pretty harmful stereotypes (particularly regarding how they characterized most of their black characters and one of their fat characters... the other fat/plus size character being a black woman so...) but I’ve just been watching it like “junk food” media 😅

last movie: bruh I. I forgor 💀 haven’t had the energy or attention span for movies lately lol, maybe Turning Red??

currently working on: nothing at the current moment, but like I've mentioned already, I've been working on a multi-chapter fic o:

tag 9 people: I'm not actually comfortable with tagging people 😅 but if anyone sees this and wants to do it, go ahead and say I tagged you!! 💕