#i hate being itchy

[my-dark-happy-place]

Usually I really want to be liked but wow do I wish mosquitoes liked me less.

[primrosebitch]

my allergist highly suspects i have a condition called mcas (mast cell activation syndrome) and i agree with her cause the symptoms match and antihistamines (which is commonly used to treat mcas) work to lessen the frequency and severity of my symptoms, the reason i don't have a diagnosis of it though is because not only is it extremely difficult to definitively diagnose but a significant number of the symptoms do also overlap with a few of my other conditions (which funnily the conditions i have that overlap with mcas are nearly all also comorbidities with mcas)

And dear god is mcas annoying, if you haven't heard of it basically when you have mcas your body just randomly decides to have an allergic reaction to whatever the fuck it wants with no consistency. I am lucky enough to have it somewhat mildly (though it can and likely will get worse over time) but some people who have mcas can get anaphylaxis because of it, which is fucking terrifying, like nearly anything has a possibility of triggering anaphylaxis and you have no way to know what

anyway some of my mcas symptoms include being itchy nearly all of the time, brittle nail and longitudinal ridging on my nails (which i had no idea was abnormal till i looked it up cause i didn't know what it meant), chronic congestion, tinnitus, chronic build up of fluid in my ears, throat irritation, chronic post nasal drip, frequent headaches, tics, difficulty recovering from infection (it usually takes me around 2 weeks to recover from a minor virus but on one memorable occasion i was sick for 3 entire months), tremors, i get eye irritation that feels basically identical to when you cut onions, and the only cool symptom dermatographia aka skin writing

Now of course those are only the symptoms i get that aren't also symptoms of my other conditions, i could go on forever if we include the symptoms that overlap

[green-fuzzy-moss]

When your skin is so itchy and you scratch so hard that you break it and you are bleeding all over now all over but it's still itchy scratch scratch scratch more blood still itchy gotta scratch more so itchy so fucking itchy scratch scratch scratch so fucking itchy too much blood too much blood but it's still. Fucking. Itchy.

[deansbipanic]

i would be more inclined to let mosquitoes drink my blood if they didn’t also make me itchy

[transmechanicus]

Not shaving regularly is such a subconscious toxin for me, as soon as the facial hair starts coming back on day 2 it’s all downhill from there.

[icewindandboringhorror]

sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:

thing that I already do

thing I have tried 10 times

thing I already do

thing that I don't have the money to do

thing I already do

thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail

thing that is impossible given my situation

thing that doesn't apply to me

thing that I already do

thing I have already tried

hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently

thing I have already done

[allamericanb-tch]

what.

[gayforminatozaki]

STOP TREATING YOUR TODDLER DAUGHTERS LIKE ACCESSORIES!!!!! THEY DONT WANNA WEAR SUNGLASSES AND HAVE MINI DESIGNER BAGS THEY WANNA RUN AROUND AND HAVE FUN!!!

[s0fter-sin]

i’m so sick of fucking rashes, what the hell kind of symptom even is this just, “hey, we’re going to make you itchy fucking everywhere for no reason and you can throw as many creams as you like at them but they’re not going to do shit 😜”

[proxythe]

i cant lie one of my toxic traits might just be that i ignore anything (mostly fanon) about akihiko that makes him seem overtly stupid as fuck. i accept and welcome him being a bit clueless, self destructive, or slightly out of touch when it comes to certain things ofc, but when there’s anything that makes it seem as if he genuinely lacks common sense or acts a way that he needs to be babysat about, i straight up ignore it. breaking my silence im sorry

[onemossygoblin]

Can we PLEASE get back to #freethenipple? Cause like… sitting in bed without a shirt on because i’m itchy makes me feel powerful.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

I'm walking. Fast. The world is tilted. There's green peaking up from flat gray. Short, stubby moss. Like an ooze. Like the sidewalk is compressing it sideways. Persistent even in a concrete jungle. This little thing. This tiny thing. Reaching up toward the sun from under trampling feet. Toward a distant star. And I'm walking, but I'm light through a prism. Splitting seven different directions. A billion and a billion and a billion years brought this tiny crumpled organism to the crushing weight of my foot. And I want to scream and I want to run and I want to cry. Because it's beautiful and I'm worried I'm the only one who sees it. I'm worried it'll burn through me. I'm worried that when I walk this path for my hundred thousandth time, I won't see it like I did this first time. That my world will fall to ash again and I won't see the moss growing up between the seams in the sidewalk.

[ellalalala]

I ran out of my allergy meds about 3 days ago and decided not to buy them right away because "maybe my allergies won't be so bad anyway!" well. I'm dealing with withdrawals now

[piplupod]

pretty sure i just got a spider bite while trying to fall asleep 🧍

[reductionisms]

in the case that I accidentally eat a carrot and it gives me anaphylaxis again i bequeath all the horrible shit in my drafts to you guys please enjoy.

[temeraire]

every time i see a mosquito near me i remember that "i hope nobody kills me for the crime of being small" tweet and usually feel too guilty to squash it but then it inevitably tries to bite me and im like Alright cunt now im killing you for a different unrelated thing