#i have an oppurtunity to CHANGE IT and i GOTTA TRY

[cowdragons]

i'm going to get better at talking to people!! i'm going to talk to people!!!! and message them! and maybe even hang out a little!!!

the only one who can improve my situation is me and im GONNA GET BETTER !!!!!!!!

[kiddokori]

but you're so right about everything with totk. you put it in words so well 😭 idk if you found memory 9, so i won't spoil anything, but it was SO GOOFY look up gmod smile after you watch it and explode instantly. loftwings would've made the game infinity better, like skeleehorses can go over gloom (such a silly name btw) and horses are always great, but there's nothing to ride in the sky??? missed oppurtunity imo. i basically play with no tech becuase i hate using it 😔 i have much to say on this game and sadly most of it around the plot isn't thatg nice

SKELEHORSES CAN GO OVER GLOOM??????

but no yeah i dont enjoy the tech lol. i think modern tech in fantasy is a slippery slope from “woah cool its so interesting how this fantastical society developed things we never couldve thought of” to “this isnt even fantasy its just sci-fi with medieval paint slapped over it” thats what botw vs. totk is to me. we went from giant magical mechs and tech that felt more like sentient creatures to a straight up four wheeler. also its just clunky. to me. vexes me.

i am playing it very slowly for several reasons so im not far im only two memories in (trying to do them in order) lol but im not impressed by the writing either again ive only beat the rito “dungeon” idk what to call it. it was fine. really felt like they just tried to replicate the divine beasts but it didnt work. the weird disembodied voice felt forced in totk its just this random exposition guy that felt like he was just there for the sake of mimicking the structure of the champions talking to you where in botw that makes sense because they’re important characters that you learn more about and play a role in the story and also they literally died and their souls were trapped in their beasts. and totk was like ah shit ah fuck we gotta have another disembodied voice throw this guy in there and have him lore drop on you. who is he. who cares.

and then the divine beasts were like interesting involved puzzles there was one i thiiiink the camel you literally had to turn entire parts of it to line up electrical signals to get places and unlock things it was a little frustrating but i had to think about it!! same with the elephant you had to control the entire mechanism to move things and you had to Think about it. the rito ship was just go find these things. ok the divine beasts were also that with the terminals but you had to work for it. totk really just went go walk around for awhile and find them. no real puzzle to it. there was a little bit with the doors/levers but it did not feel nearly as involved or thought through.

i will say i did like the boss fight the ice guy. cool guy. looked cool baller music neat new little thing you had to do to beat it i liked it. that was cool i will give them that they know how to get me pumped for a boss fight

ok but the cutscene with zelda near the beginning was goofy as hell. just straight up like woaaaahh she floated into the sky thats crazy!!! whaaat!!!!! felt extremely silly. i was sitting there like is this a gag is this supposed to be funny i cannot tell. very much threw me off. could not take seriously

also. fucking. got rid of her again. if they wanted to have the same success of botw maybe they should’ve gee idk changed the formula again and let zelda be with us. a two player zelda game would be so cool. even if it was still single player and we could just interact with her and have her with us im thinking kindof last of us/resident evil 4 style where she helps you do certain puzzles or helps you fight like other npcs. even if she just stayed at the base and helped purah with research and you could talk to her thatd be more interesting. GIVE HER TO ME!!

the intro really just felt like oh we have to get rid of zelda again because we need link to be alone so we can copy botw uhhhhh magic rock teleports her to the past yeah yeah that works. they decided they needed this to happen and then made a story to excuse those choices rather than actually construct something cohesive.

im not even halfway through the game so i dont wanna be tooo hard on it or form strong opinions but id rather be pleasantly surprised than disappointment after getting my hopes up. i havent been spoiled for anything but i have seen people complain in general so im kinda leaning towards disappointment lol. like its zelda im still having fun i just also am looking at it from a critcal point of view and i have plenty to say. i used this as an excuse to talk for a looong time anyways. im currently working on getting specific horse colors that i preplaned by looking at this horse chart to name after characters from a book i like ✌️ i didnt pay 70 dollars to not have any fun with this game so help me god i am going to enjoy Some of it

[wheezingghoulbois]

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[linkspooky]

Kunikida + Oda: Death of a Good Man

While Kunikida and Oda have never met in canon they are characters with a lot in common. They both essentially play the same role, as the moral center of their respective groups (particularly acting as a conscience for Dazai). They both share the same strengths and weaknesses. However, one lives and one dies. MORE UNDER THE CUT. 

1. Relationship with Dazai

Dazai is a character who has trouble seeing himself as a person. That is, he doesn’t see himself as the same as everyone else. (His ability is titled No Longer Human, surprise, surprise). Oda says as much to Dazai, that traditional values like good or evil don’t really mean that much to him. 

“Whether you’re on the side that takes lives, or the side that saves them nothing beyond your own expectations will happen. Nothing in this world can fill the hole that is your loneliness. You will wander for eternity.” 

...

“Be on the side that saves people. If both sides are the same, then choose to be a good person.” - Osamu Dazai and the Dark Era

It’s not that Dazai is a sociopath, or even unfeeling, it’s just that he is so distanced from his own humanity, and from other people. He genuinely believes he can’t feel the same way as they do. Dazai even described the way he saw himself to Fyodor. 

Dazai tells Fyodor that he feels like he’s sperate from everyone else. It’s like he’s the player, and everybody else is pieces on the game board. But, even though he might come up with strategies and move the pieces, he’s not really the one changing things, or affecting other people’s lives because he’s not right there in the middle of things he’s far away. 

Dazai even flashes back to Oda and Gide’s final showdown when trying to explain this feeling to Fyodor. Oda his closest and only friend at the time, who he could not reach out to and save. Dazai believes he can’t touch other people, he can’t reach out and save them, because he sees himself as lacking in feelings or a heart. Which is why, Dazai relies on the people around him. Dazai attached himself to Oda when he was in the Mafia, and then again to Kunikida when he was detective agency to essentially act as his heart, his external conscience for him. That’s the relationship he shares with both of them. It’s why the first two light novels are essentially about Dazai, but narrated from the point of view of his partner at the time. Light novel one is about his partnership with Kunikida, and Light Novel 2 is about his friendship with Oda back in the dark age. The connection between them is that both Oda, and Kunikida are good, just men who have tried to understand Dazai in one way or another. 

The events of both light novels even mirror each other to an extent. Entrance exam is about Dazai joining the agency, Dark Era is about Dazai leaving the mafia. Entrance exam is about Kunikida failing to understand Dazai, but learning to trust him anyway. Dark Era is about Oda being the only one who fully understands Dazai, but then not listening to him at the end of the story. They both end with a symbolic death, Oda commits double suicide with Gide, whereas Kunikida pretends to shoot Dazai in order to follow his plan. 

Dazai’s a master strategist, but he’s not a leader of men, nor does he have any particular ideals he stands for. Dazai was given a position of leadership within the port mafia, and not only did he spend the entire time tormenting his closest subordinate but he didn’t care about the lives of his subordinates the way Chuuya does. 

Dazai sees Kunikida as someone having the ideals he does not have, therefore doing what he cannot, and being what he cannot be to others. This is a role Oda used to serve as his one and only friend. However, while they occupy the same spot as Dazai’s most trusted person their relationships with him are very different.

Kunikida is very combative with Dazai and always fighting against him. He personally expects Dazai to be better in all aspects. He scolds him for being lazy and neglecting his work. When Dazai messes with other people or manipulates them, it’s Kunikida who is the first to get frustrated with him. Kunikida also, tends to lack a fundamental understanding of Dazai. It’s a running joke that he’s always a step behind him (he’s the last person to find out Dazai was a mafia member when everyone else already knew). The literal first thing established about their relationship in the first chapter, is that they are constantly fighting with each other. They barely make it through a dinner with Atsushi. 

However, Kunikida also listens to Dazai when it’s important. It’s the other way around with Oda, Oda is someone who does fundamentally understand who Dazai really is deep down. However, at the same time Oda doesn’t really try to exert any influence over Dazai until the very end of his life. Their relationship was defined by being distant to one another, and not asking questions.

The reason why Ango and I were able to be by his side was that we understood the solitude that surrounded him, and we never stepped inside it no matter how close we stood. 

But in that moment, I kind of regretted not stepping in and invading that solitude.

Dazai Osamu and the Dark Era. 

 Him, Ango and Dazai could only keep meeting as the Buraiha at the Lupin bar if they pretended to not know anything about what each other did outside of the bar. They’re different in one main aspect, Kunikida fights Dazai, and Oda doesn’t start fighting until it’s almost far too late. 

2. Living and Dying for One’s Ideals

One more direct parallel between the two is that Kunikida and Oda are both characters who strive to live up to the ideal they find in a book. Literally. Kunikida obsessively writes out his ideals in his notebook where he has his whole future planned out.

What are ideals? There are innumerable answers to that question. One could say it’s merely a term, or an idea, or perhaps even the soruce of all meaning. But if you ask me, the answer is obvious. It’s the word written on the cover of my notebook.  My notebook has all the answers. It is my creed, my master, and a prophet that guides me. At times, it can either be a weapon ro a solution. Ideals. Everything I am is written in this notebook which I always carry with me. My entire future lies within it - Osamu Dazai’s Entrance Exam

Oda picked up a book and loved it so much he wanted to write the ending for himself.

After worrying about it for so long, I came to one conclusion.  “Then you write what happens next.” I decided to write about it myself. I would become a novelist, and write a story about why the man stopped killing. But to become a novelist, I needed to sincerely know what it meant to live. So, I stopped killing. -   Osamu Dazai and the Dark Era. 

Kunikida and Oda are both characters who find their will to live for the future within the pages of a book. Which makes sense as both characters struggle with lofty ideals and a harsh reality. Oda and Kunikida are characters written about the struggle to be a good man, in a world that is not good. To hold ideals, in a world that is not ideal. This once again ties back to what Dazai said to Fyodor, God isn’t perfect harmony, he’s illogical and absurd.

The world isn’t ideal and orderly. It’s extremely, extremely messy. Kunikida and Oda are both characters who strive to be better, and want the world to be better and because of that they fall into conflict. However, Oda lost his fight, and Kunikida is still fighting. Part of why Dazai got so attached to Kunikida is also because he saw Oda’s ideals within Kunikida, and knew that carrying those ideals could crush him so easily. 

“Justice is a weapon. It can be used to harm, but it cannot protect and save others.”  -Osamu Dazai’s Entrance Exams

The meanings of Dazai’s words are clear when you look at them in the context of what he learned after losing Oda. Oda decided to throw his life away to avenge the children after Gide. He achieved justice then. However, nobody was saved. The children were already dead. Oda himself wasn’t saved. Dazai lost his only friend. 

“Something?” I looked at Dazai. “There isn’t anything, Dazai. It’s all over. Everything. Whatever else happens now is meaningless - just like I’m about to do. AM I wrong?”  “Odasaku...” Dazai said softly. “Forgive me for the absurd wording but - don’t go. Find something to rely on. Expect good things to happen from here on out. There’s gotta be soemthing...”

[...]

Oda’s march against Gide isn’t just tragic, it’s a deliberate choice. It was a suiide. He’s given several oppurtunities to just walk away, or wait for something else to give him a reason to live and he doesn’t. His final actions hurt more than they helped. Yes, he did save Dazai in a way by throwing his life away, but Dazai also lost the person who could understand him. Oda could have lived. He could have done more if he had lived. Dazai even says so in dead apple, saving people is the more beautiful path, but you have to be alive to see that beauty. 

This is also why Kunikida and Oda have such a connection to Dazai. Underneath their struggles to be a good man they are both constantly dealing with suicidal feelings. 

Kunikida is far more fragile than he lets on. Part of the reason he attaches himself to ideals rather than people, is because caring about people hurts, and he is so afraid of failing the people in his life (the same way Oda eventually failed to protect the children) that he can’t admit the depth to which he cares about them.

Kunikida struggles to save everyone in front of him, but that’s also because Kunikida is internally someone who is very fragile. He can’t handle the loss, especially losing those he is close to. When Atsushi is hospitalized after his first fight with Akutagawa, he pretends to be unconcerned. When Atsushi wants to save Kyoka, Kunikida tries to persuade him to not save her. Oda and Kunikida are both avoidant characters, Oda avoided ever stepping inside of Dazai’s loneliness, and Kunikida avoids getting close to others because they fear the people they cannot save. Kunikida cares so much and so deeply, that he’s completely shattered when he fails someone. 

Every strategy by the detective agency’s enemies relies on crushing Kunikida because he’s the easiest target. When he fails like this he wants to give up. Kunikida and Oda have this dark underside to their actions where they’re fighting continually to be better, but when they fail, they long to throw their lives away and give up the struggle. 

Part of the reason they’re attracted to Dazai is deep down Kunikida and Oda both have the same suicidal feelings. Kunikida knows that his ideals will never live up to the reality. 

However, secretly he longs to fail so he won’t have to struggle against it anymore. 

“I let go of Dazai. I understand what he’s aying. Perhaps righteousness isn’t something you seek in others, but something you search for inside of yourself. Even then... Miss Sasaki is dead, and so is Rokuzo.  All I’ve found in my search for righteousness within myself is a sense of hopelessness.”

Osamu Dazai’s Entrance Exam

The question is can you continue to live? Even if you fail over and over again to do better. Even if the things you try to protect all die. Kunikida’s arc so far mirrors Oda’s. The things he told himself he would protect, he failed to. The promises he made, he breaks. He said he was never going to watch a child die in front of him, and then it happens. 

He said he was never going to fail to protect the agency again, but then the agency became the victims of the hunting dogs, and Kunikida had to go completely on the run. He said he was going to throw himself away in a big bang against the hunting dogs to show his ideals would never fail, and instead.

He even loses his ideals and his ability to write in the notebook. So, what is the difference between Kunikida and Oda that allows Kunikida to keep struggling where Oda did not. I think it’s not really a difference between them, so much as it’s a difference between Dazai. Dazai’s grown since then and realized his mistakes with Oda, and because of that doesn’t stay at a comfortable distance from Kunikida.

Dazai has grown enough between then and now he’s able to reach people who feel similiarly to him. He understood the suicidal feelings of both Kunikida, and Oda, but he didn’t reach out to Oda until it was too late. However, Dazai has grown to the point where he not only understands Kunikida’s struggle and sympathizes with him, but he’s also able to say the words he couldn’t say to Oda until it was too late. 

There’s no such thing as a point of no return. There is no point where everything is already over. Even if you fail to protect someone, even if you fail to protect everyone. 

"Anything I would never want to lose will be lost. It is given that everything that is worth wanting will be lost the moment I obtain it. There's nothing worth pursuing at the cost of prolonging life of suffering."

Dazai is still the same person that said this. Deep down that’s what Kunikida and Oda both fear, that after Oda failed the orphans, that after Kunikida could not save an innocent child in front of them, that no matter how hard they fought all of their attempts to protect someone would fail that way. At which point their fighting seemed to become meaningless.

Dazai knowing those feelings has moved past that lament. He still believes that the struggle may be meaningless, but he reassures them that they can keep fighting anyway. 

If there’s no great glorious ideal to live for, if nothing we do matters, than all that matters is what we do. The world isn’t good, the world will never be as good as we want it to be, yet Kunikida can still strive to be good in the face of that.

[silverisbestboy]

Sonic Boom x Reader

Requested by @blackace1993: Conversation was accidentally deleted but from what I remeber of it, they wanted hc for the Sonic Boom characters who has a partner who frequently gets into trouble and/or captured by Eggman. They didn't specify which character they wanted so I just did all of them minus Tails. Hope you enjoy!

Sonic:

There's no denying it

Sonic was smitten

The moment you set foot on the island Sonic was taken aback by you

To him, you were drop dead gorgeous with a great personality so I guess you could say it was love at first sight for him

This boy is a fool for you

It's actually quite funny watching him zip across the island at the slightest remark that you need something

"Man, you what? I'm feeling kind of hungry"

"Say no more!" He'll say as he zooms away and reappears seconds later with a chili dog in hand

"Uhhhh"

But, unfortunately for you, being in any sort of relationship with Sonic is not wothout complication

Eggman sees you as a new oppurtunity to best Sonic and ends up taking you hostage on a regular basis

The first time it happens, Sonic all but destroys Eggman's fortress looking for you

But after it continuously happening, it starts getting kinda old

"Greeting Sonic! I see you've come to rescue your little girlfriend"

"Yeah, yeah. Can we just we just get to the part where I clobber you?"

It gets to the point where Sonic starts teaching you how to defend yourself so you can hold your own against Eggman

Not that he doesn't mind rescuing, it's just he can't always be there to protect

With the amount of times they've had to save you, the team are already very familiar with you and consider you apart of their friend group

But as you get better is self-defence, Sonic officially announces you as part of the team and you start joining them on missions

While Sonic does tend to stick to your side more than his other teammates during battle, he's glad to have you fighting alongside them

After all, he's happy to spend as much time with you as possible, even if that means having to bash Eggman's robots to do so

Knuckles:

You're not a bad person

So what if you have anger issues

So what if you get into fights from time to time

So what if you've been in trouble with the cops before

Doesn't mean you're a bad person, it just means you've.... got some issues

One day you're not in the best mood and have already had a pretty shitty day, and you're just a ticking time bomb waiting to explode

So it's no wonder that when a big guy bumps into you and causes you to drop the tray of food you're holding, you go off on him

Unfortunately for you, this guy is huge, a tall red echidna with bulking arms that looks like he could punch you into next week

But you're not one to back down from a fight, you've beaten up guys twice your size before and you're not afraid to do it again

"Woah, hey, sorry about that, didn't see you there."

What, is he dense?! Who does this guy think he is barrelling into anyone he pleases just because he's big? You bet he was just gonna walk off without even helping you. Well, you'd show him!

Without warning, you lunged at the echidna with the intent of knocking him over the same way he almost did to you

But you underestimated his initial strength and reflexes and he caught you midair with your legs kicking and your hands clawing for his face

"Woah, dude chill! I said I was sorry!"

He just kinda holds you up in air at arms length with you kicking and screaming until you eventually tire yourself out

The echidna stares at you cautiously

"Are you good now?"

After a moment, you reluctantly nod, and he gently sets you back on your feet

He then carefully leans down without takong his eyes off you and grabs your burger which is still wrapped in foil and reaches it out to you

"How about we start over? I'm Knuckles."

You thought after that encounter, that was the last you'd see of him

But one day, you've gotten yourself into another fight, and to say you're losing would be an understatement

It's once again, a guy twice your size and he's absolutely beating the crap out of you

But by some miracle, Knuckles happens to be walking by and immediately notices you

He steps in to save you, and the guy you're fighting knows about Knuckles being part of Sonic's team and doesn't even bother attempting to fight him

Knuckles takes your half conscious body to Tails's work shop where they fix you up

After that, Knuckles refuses to leave you alone

Even if you try to leave, he always ends finding you to make sure you don't get into more trouble

He helps you find outlets for your anger by sparring and working out with him

You grow a soft spot for Knuckles that you'd never thought you'd have for anyone

He's your big goofball that somehow always manages to calm you down and get you out of whatever trouble your in

Though it's beyond you why anyone would want to put up with you, eespecially a lovable ray of sunshine like Knuckles, you're so grateful that you have someone like himin your life to keep you in check

A/N: Might make more hcs for that because I absolutely love the idea of big, strong goofball Knuckles having a little ball of pure rage as a partner.

Amy Rose:

Some would say you're a pacifist

Some would say you care too much

Some would say you're too nice

But you like to think that you're just trying to do good in the world

You're definitely the type of person that hates conflict and wants everyone to get along, and you're more often than not a bit of a pushover

You like to give people benefit of the doubt and prefer to see the good in people, although sometimes, this affects you negatively

A kindly looking (or at least in your opinion) wolf with a showman's top hat and a certain glint his eyes one day stops you in your tracks and asks you ever so politely if you would kindly lend him some money to help feed his family

Of course, you're quick to help, but little do you know that this is none other than T.W. Barker himself, and he's been watching you carefully for some time

He notices the way you jump at the oppurtunity to help someone in need, and he being a con man at heart, decides to take advantage of that

But before you can lend the man all the money you have in your pocket, a certain pink hedgehog decides to interfere

"Hey, you leave her alone Barker! Go find your own ATM machine!"

Amy Rose herself stands not far behind you, hammer in hand and ready for trouble

"N-now, now, let's not be too hasty. I was simply accepting a generous donation from this unsuspecting-- I mean self-less young lady."

"Yeah right. Beat it before I hammer you into next Tuesday, punk!"

You're in utter shock as the seeming wolf in sheep's clothing (pun intended) makes his escape

"Gotta look out for scumbags. Seems this village is getting more and more of them everyday. Anyways, I'm Amy, what's your name?"

Since then, Amy keeps a close eye on you to make sure you don't become prey to anymore scam artists

Now Amy will never admit she has anger issues, but she does get... irritated from time to time

On more than one occasion, you're there to help her calm down and have a sleepover planned or a spa day for when things get particularly rough for her

Whenever she needs help choosing which paint to redo her wall with, or which dress she should wear to a party, she calls you up, because no matter what you're interests are or how inconvenient the timing might seem, you're ready to help a friend, even with mundane things

Amy has you become a part of the Sonic family, and while you never do join them in battles, you help keep the peace between the team whenever there's an argument

And Amy always makes sure your overly caring attitude isn't being taken advantage of

No matter the time or the place, Amy knows she can always count on you, and you know she's always got your back

Sticks:

Well this is quite the predicament you've gotten yourself into

A lot of people would descibe you as clumsy, but you knew you just bad luck

And to prove just that, here you were dangling upside from a rope trap after deciding to take a liesure stroll through the forest

What are we, nomads? Who sets out traps in the middle of the woods anymore?!

After about 20 minutes, the blood is rushing to your head and you're starting to feel faint

But just as you think that your bad luck will finally be the end of you, figure bursts from the bushes with a fierce battle cry

It's a badger girl with a boomerang clutched in her paw, ready for a fight

But after a moment she realizes just who's gotten caught up in her trap

"Hey, what's the big idea?! Why're you in my snare?"

"Why am I in your snare? Why did you put out a snare you loon?!"

After about 5 minutes of arguing, Sticks reluctantly cuts you down, begrudgingly explaining that she set out a trap for any woodland monsters

You run into her again on another walk, crossing a small stream before tripping on one of the stepping stones and almost falling in before a furry arm wraps around your waist

"You outta be more careful out here. The wilderness is no place to be a klutz."

"Hey, I'm not a klutz. I just have bad luck is all."

And what more to gain the attention of a superstitious badger than the possibility of supernatural forces at play

"You could've been hexed by a witch. Or worse, there could be a vengeful spirit after you! We gotta get you an exorcist!"

"I'm fine, I'm just unlucky. Always have been always will be."

"We should still burn some sage in your home just to be sure."

You let Sticks do what she wants with you, after all, her superstitious perspective is a nice change from everyone just thinking your clumsy

You think her attempts to "cleanse" you are endearing, she tries something new everyday, and you end up learning a thing or two about survival and the corruptedness of politics from her

Weeks later, her attempts slowly dwindle down, and she just comes to accept she's just gonna have to keep an extra close eye on you, especially when she sets out booby traps

The time y'all have spent together, although it was somewhat motivated by Sticks not wanting to get whatever curse you exposed her to, lead to y'all having a close bond

Everyone has their quirks, she's paranoid and you're clumsy, but you two always manage to work things out

And that's the beauty of a relationship

A/N: Sorry I haven't been that active lately, so take this as an apology. Four hcs for the price of one!

[hantuyangsepertiburung714]

Got more lore for my AU

Since Sparky's a prince in this AU, obviously he's gotta need some guards to his castle, the guards in here are Police Officer and Safebuster Guard (pretty obvious why i picked both of them)

I will design them later but I think they would be some sort of, "planty"? i guess? they're look like plants they have vine patterns all over and yeah. Imma design it later

Although in this AU, Sparky's still not the mean kind of royalty. Since he's the only one in the castle as a prince and there's no king and queen, he's an independent type of prince and is very kind to his only two guards. Giving them a hug whenever he needs to go somewhere outside his castle, letting them in to look at the sky when he thinks is pretty, and those other stuff you can think of. He pretty much treats them like family

When Manhole decided to become a serial killer, the guards knew that there's something suspicious with everyone one-by-one dissappearing suddenly, so they started to get even more serious about their guarding. Each time Manhole decides to visit Sparky in the day when her killer phase isn't there, the guards are really suspicious about him and most of the time wouldn't let them in at all due to the faded halo she has, but Sparky would always beg to let the guards bring Manhole in because of course he's his partner, why wouldn't he? (ps, he doesn't know what the faded halo meant since everytime he tries to ask, manhole keeps silent and says that it's a secret even sparky can't know about. he understands and thinks of it as a secret only the holy virtues can know about, but he still feels a bit suspicious since whenever she says that, his halo fades by 1%)

The plan to get Sparky is to kill the guards first so that no one is there to take them away or even kill them. One day, Manhole grabbed a dark colored cloak from the Deadly Sins floor without asking and wore it to hide their identity, and snuck into Sparky's castle to bring him to somewhere private. Like the forest near the castle

Sparky kept thinking that was someone trying to kidnap him and tried to scream but their hand was on his little spitball *pleh* mouth thing and he couldn't make a sound. When they're at the middle of the forest, Manhole left Sparky there without speaking a word to him and ran back to the castle.

The guards heard Sparky mumbling when he was being taken out of the castle and ran inside to check all of the rooms there, this was Manhole's oppurtunity to kill them both without Sparky catching her. One guard was in Sparky's bedroom and was checking it when Manhole sneaked from behind with an axe but the guard suspected someone behind him and squared up towards behind him. He tried to scream "Come back up, I got the killer" but before he could even stab him, Manhole sliced up his torso and head until it sliced through his suit. The second guard came up to Sparky's bedroom as fast as they could and saw the first guard on the floor, dead, with the cloaked figure. They immediately striked the figure to kill it, but they picked up their axe and attacked him in the face. Cracking their guard suit open and busting out their brain (quite literally) until they drop to the ground. After that, Manhole picked up both of the guards' bodies and bought them to the garden outside to bury them underground. After that, they took off their dark cloak and put it in their hand to burn it later. Went back to the castle, cleaned up all of the evidence and changed the bedsheets because they were bloody. No fingerprints are around anymore except for the bedsheet, and she was good to go

While all of that happened, Sparky was too scared in the forest alone at night and didn't know what to do. All he did was wander around the forest looking for a way out while trying to be quiet as possible. Any small sound such as a leaf moving around can cause him to run away. He didn't know who the person even is so he's afraid he couldn't tell who exactly it is to his guards

Manhole rushed back to the Deadly Sins Floor and asked Fireman 1 (lust) to burn the cloak because she trusted him to use his fire powers for once. Fireman 1 accepted it and burnt the cloak while Manhole ran back to the woods to pretend that they heard from the guards that Sparky was lost and they couldn't find him anywhere. Sparky said that someone had grabbed him, put him in the forest and left him there. Manhole pretended to feel bad for him even tho they know they did it, and bought him back to his castle. Once they reached the castle, Sparky didn't see his guards in the front of the castle and thought they were inside. He said goodbye and thank you to Manhole, and went inside the castle

"I'm back!!" Sparky said in a excited tone, but no one responded. "Weird, maybe they're in the garden" and he went to the garden but didn't see anyone there. He began to be scared again and searched the entire castle for them two, under the beds, in the cabinets, even in the top of the trees, but they weren't there at all. They couldn't have went to the forest because he remembered that Manhole only went here when they noticed he was gone and also he didn't want to get lost again. So Sparky got ready for bed, then slept

Manhole went back to the Holy Virtues Floor with a clean axe and no jars full of Candyblood since they were really suspicious of her and weren't his friends. But they're still glad they killed them, now they just gotta kill the rest so they could save Sparky for last

[the-bejeesus]

Why Super Mario Party is (Almost) My Favorite Mario Party

       Any Mario Party fan will tell you that shit hit the fan when Mario Party games were no longer being made by Hudson Soft and instead by Nd Cube. Mario Party 9 and 10 were in a car which completely defeats the purpose of the board, Island Tour was at least a board game but it sure as hell wasn’t a Mario Party board game, and the Top 100 was too little to call a game.

      Super Mario Party was Nd Cube’s way of saying “Fine! We’ll make Mario Party the Hudson way” and while many people congratulated it as “A step in the right direction”, the compliments stop there. You hear things like “only 4 boards?!” “Sure it’s fine, but it doesn’t even compare to the Gamecube Mario Parties” and “Come on? Just Mariothon for Online?” Now I’m not so infatuated with this game that I can’t see its flaws, I will talk about the flaws, but I think there’s a lot more steps in the right direction than just “going back to the regular boards” that Super Mario Party doesn’t get enough credit for.

       One of Mario Party’s weaknesses that it has to worry about every entry is that it’s for parties, for four people. When you’re by yourself, what reason is there to play? For most, the answer is unlockables. You grind to get that new character, that new taunt, or that new board so that the party has more to offer next time your friends come. But the problem is that there is always a definitive way to grind. When I played Mario Party 6 for example, I didn’t touch the Mic mode or the Mini game modes at all. I just grinded in Solo Mode for a few hours because you could so many stars per game. Super Mario Party fixes this. Why? Because there is no shop. I mean there is a shop, but it’s just for stickers and advice. There is no shop for unlocking Diddy Kong, or unlocking Master difficulty, or unlocking 30 turns. It just kind of happens. So what you have to do is just keep trying different things until you get Diddy Kong. Now I’m sure there’s probably a wiki out there that tells you exactly what you have to do to unlock each thing, but that defeats the fun for me. It’s like unlocking stuff in Smash Bros., it’s so fun when you’re just grinding aimlessly in limbo.

      The other thing I like is that practice mode and the instructions page are one of the same. In the other Mario Parties they were seperate, and it felt so inefficient because there was usually a clip or image of the mini game playing in the corner. Now for most people this might be minor, but as someone who’s playing with a 4 and 5 year old niece and nephew, it’s a life saver. When we play Mario Party 6, somebody always presses start before we’ve practiced, or stops practice before anything’s happened, or starts while someone else is in the bathroom. But now, everyone practices as long as they need to, and nobody can start before everyone else is ready because everyone has to press sl/sr. To go on about other things that are life savers when you’re playing with toddlers: high fiving after team mini games is an intuitive positive force that prevents tantrums. The fact that almost every 4-player mini game has a 2nd-3rd-4th ranking prevents sore losers, smaller boards are easier for them to understand, the list goes on. It feels like Nintendo received tons of letters from Karens complaining about their kid rage quitting Mario Party and punching their friend, and Nintendo tried to respond to as many as they could.

       I love the new dice. I love how in general, picking a character matters. Maybe I should pick Goomba in case a mini game like Gridiron Gauntlet happens and size matters. Or maybe I should pick Boo because I like his dice. Or maybe I should pick Donkey Kong to play risky. And that’s not even mentioning the Allies. It’s so cool. I only wish 50 turns was a possibility so that you could accrew a massive amount and things go crazy. It would be totally within the realm of possibility that everyone gets 4 allies, or one person gets 13 allies and everyone else has 1. On the note of characters, one complaint might be that almost half the character select is dedicated to enemies that aren’t even really characters, at the sacrifice of classics like Birdo, Toad, and Toadette. I agreed with that notion at first, but then found myself very often picking characters like Monty Mole, Koopa Troopa, and Goomba. I couldn’t tell you why exactly, but it guess it feels really good to play the little when you’re up against these legends like Mario, Donkey Kong, and Bowser.

      Sure, there’s only 4 boards. But this completely ignores the fact that Team Party changes the rules entirely. It makes the board essentially an Island Tour board. And sure, I may have said Island Tour was a bad game, but it was because that type of board was the main course. Having it as the Team Party mode makes it the perfect dessert. And I would compliment the mini-games, but I feel like it’s a rarity for the mini-games to ever be bad. Even when you’re playing the runts of the litter like Mario Party 9, it’s hard to call the mini-games bad. It’s honestly just hard to mess up. However I do like that there’s pretty much no 100% chance mini-games, and in the 4-player ones everything has ranks. It really makes skill a much bigger factor. For example, if someone is close to the star but a few coins short, I can’t stump them by beating them in the mini-game, 2nd or 3rd place might still be enough.

        The raft mode was extremely fun, but I feel like it would be a little more fun with 4 players. No matter what difficulty the CPUs were on, I felt like they always messed up. However, that’s mostly a me problem. I really loved the Challenge road and how it had 8 worlds almost like a Mario platformer. The master goals were really challenging! (people who beat Pull It Together on master difficulty ftw ✊😤) Unfortunately I didn’t have any oppurtunities to beat the games where you put two Switches together like the banana one, but I would’ve loved something like this to do in the school cafeteria back when I was in high school. The puzzles and tanks were fun too.

      Now, I said I’d mention what I don’t like. Single joycons is bs, there was no situation where a pro controller couldn’t have done what the single joycons do. I’m guessing there’s coding where they’d have to do things a second time to accomade for dual joycons and pro controllers and they just didn’t want to do it. And indeed, online would be a lot cooler with a full party mode, but I was still stoked just to have online at all. It’s a real shame 50 turns isn’t a thing, I feel like things don’t get really chaotic till after 30 turns. I feel like the items were lacking if you don’t count allies and team party mode-exclusive items.

       There’s a lot of things I enjoy about the game. There’s at least 50 things where I’m like “man, if Mario Party 6 had this thing, it would be the best Mario Party ever.” I really hope Nintendo doesn’t shy away from a Super Mario Party 2 just because of the negative reception. I think Nd Cube is really experimental and says “hey, I like Mario Party as much as the next guy, but why were four virtually identical Mario Parties made for the GameCube? There’s gotta be something new we can bring to the table after so many years.” and even though they’ve had a few fumbles, I still have mad respect for that.

[maxhoemo]

Chicago - 1923 

It was a cold, crisp evening in February. The snow blew in the harsh wind, cutting the skin like a knife. Women struggled to trudge up the sidewalk, turning up the collars of their fur coats over their eyes. 

Ian Carter, from the comfort of his automobile, laughed as he lit up a cigar. “Ya’ imagine walkin’ in this, Chet?” he asked one of his goons.

“Ech. No way...” The sleazy right-hand shook his head. 

“Come on boss,” said his driver. “Don’t ya’ feel a little sorry for em’?”

“I aint got no sympathy for a dame in a mink coat. She can afford not to walk, she’s just too stupid. Or proud... I’ll tell ya’ who I feel sorry for... Them,” He pointed out the window. A handful of people stood at the corner. This particular corner was well known to a certain segment of society. “Hookers and Gunsels... Them’s the ones with no choice.”

“Ya’ got a big heart, boss.”

“I do. Don’t I?” Ian agreed, leaning back in his seat. “Speaking of my big heart, after dinner I’ve got a certain act of, uhh, charity... I wanna conduct over on 11th. If you know what I mean.”

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“Don’t I know you from somewhere?”

“I’m sure you don’t....” Max answered, a little more snippy then he intended. He hated cleaning up after these drunks! But he knew he had to help with the family business... And earn money other ways... Prohibition had not been kind to his family. His grandfather’s Australian style pub had been a huge hit when he’d first come over, but the outlawing of alcohol had nearly sent them all to the poor house. Max had been wearing the same stained old work shirt for a year now. Maybe longer. And those thugs... Those thugs who sold his father hooch at jacked up prices and threatened him and skimmed his earnings...! Those dogs got to live the high life! It made Max’s blood boil! He didn’t even notice how rough he was suddenly scrubbing the table. Shaking his head, he threw the rag back into the bucket and went to get some clean water.

As he was filling his bucket, he heard a sudden commotion. He raced out from the back. It was those goons! Coming to threaten his father again. “Hey!” Max called. “Leave him alone!” He tried pulling his dad back, out of their grip but it was no use.

“Max, please, stay out of this...” His father begged. 

“No! I’m not gonna let them hurt you again!” 

“Ya’ think yer tough, daffy boy?” One goon asks. Max was about to make a smart remark when he found his face inches away from the end of a switchblade. 

“Don’t!” His father cried.

Max was just frozen in place.

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“Oh Man! That was some good corn!”

“Right here,” Ian instructed his driver. “I want this place for myself...” He adjusted his jacket before stepping inside. His chest puffed out and his men on either side of him. He didn’t expect to step into the middle of a commotion.

“Hey!” he shouted. His loud booming voice enough to intimidate the two goons.

“Shit...” One mumbled.

“Hey...” The other spoke up. “This place is Vinny’s territory.”

“Not anymore it aint. Now make tracks. Unless the two of you want a couple of Chicago overcoats, huh?”

“Vinny’ll hear about this...” One threatened as they left.

“Yeah. Tell him all about it...” Ian turned back to the owner. “You okay?”

The younger one, he just shook his head and looked down. 

“What kid, no thank you?” Ian teased. But the boy turned around and walked away. 

Max just wanted all of these types of people out of his life. Though he knew that was impossible as long as his family was on the wrong side of the law. He sat down at an empty table. Running his hands through his hair, he let out a deep exhale. He took a cigarette from his pocket and placed it between his lips. But as luck would have it, he was out of matches.

“Need a light?”

Max looked up. It was him. “Go away.”

Ian didn’t respond. As usual, Ian did what he pleased. Taking a seat beside Max he lit his cigarette for him with his lighter.

Max took a puff, raising an irritated eyebrow at the man. The smoke billowing around his delicate features. 

“Look,” Ian said. “I just wanna talk to you.”

“Well, I don’t wanna talk to you.”

“Don’t I know you from somewhere?”

Max’s face fell. “No,” he hissed in a stern voice.

“Sure I do,” Ian went on. Flashing his famous smile. “Up on the street corner. I wouldn’t forget a pretty face like yours.”

Max clenched his teeth, narrowing his eyes at Ian. “You’re making fun of me!?” He slammed his hand down on the table. “That how rich cunts get their kicks?”

“No, no. You’ve got me all wrong.” Ian placed his hand over Max’s. “It’s not like that. I just mean, you work so hard. For your family. I wanna help you.”

“Help me? I don’t...”

“Look. I know Vinny cut your pops a bad deal. Sendin’ his chopper squad around here. And, well... I just can’t stand to see human suffering.”

Max rolled his eyes. “Sure...”

“What do you charge up there? 25? 30 cents a go?”

“Kick off...!” Max pulled his hand away, his voice cracking.

Shit... Ian wasn’t trying to upset the little daisy.... “Hey, hey. Shh.. Shh...” He grabbed the spindle of Max’s chair with one hand and pulled it closer. Their two seats now practically touching. “I’m just saying, you shouldn’t have to do that.”

“Why the hell would you care!?” Max shouted in a whisper. Obviously this was not the kind of conversation he wanted anyone to overhear.

“Because...” Ian’s eyes shifted back and forth. He looked around the room before leaning in closer. His own voice dropping to a whisper as well. “What’s your name?”

“Max...” he whispered back. Still annoyed, but confused on top of it.

“Max...” Ian leaned in closer. Whispering softly into Max’s ear. “You’re hiding something... Well, so am I...” He ran his hand up Max’s thigh, causing him to jump. He squeezed it, less than an inch away from touching his crotch. Max’s breath hitched in his throat. “More than just how you bring in the dough... Am I onto something...?”

Max didn’t answer.

“You got thoughts in your head. And feelings. And you try and hide em’. But it’s hard, aint it Max?” Ian’s soft whisper. His breath against his ear. It made the hair on the back of his neck stand up. He bit down on his lip. “I’m the same way...” Max’s dick twitched. He cursed himself silently. Crossing his legs, Ian retracted his hand. 

“W-what are you going on about....?”

“I want to make you an offer.”

“What...?” He turned to look at him.

“How would you like to never work again? What if you could have everything you ever wanted? Just come home with me. You’ll have everything you could ever need.”

Max’s eyes studied Ian for a moment, before he pursed his lips and leaned away. “I am not interested in being your sex slave.”

“No,” Ian laughed. “Dollface. Ya’ got it all wrong. You don’t gotta do anything. You don’t even have to touch me.”

Max raised an eyebrow. He couldn’t make sense of this guy. Nothing in this world was for free. Max had learned that long ago.

“I just want someone around. Someone I can relate to. To talk to... To... Look at... To...” He struggled to articulate it. “...Keep me company.”

“That’s really all you want...?”

“Swear to God.”

Max was silent for a moment. He seriously considered the man’s offer. Who didn’t want to live the high life? Be one of the lucky ones? Of course it was tempting... But these were thugs. They were dangerous. And if Max had learned anything it was that they were not to be trusted. And besides... “My family needs me.”

“You’re family’ll be safer than they ever were before.”

“How so?”

“Look. That’s what I came here for in the first place. This speakeasy here. This is valuable territory to me. I want it. And that’s all I want. Me and my boys will protect your family. And we’ll give em’ a fair price on the merchandise. And I don’t need no cut.”

“Well, I find that all a little hard to believe.”

“Max. All I’m interested in is taking this place out of the control of that putz. That’s my only motivation.”

“Oh really? It seemed more like you were here to chat me up.”

“You? Nah. You’re just a little bonus,” Ian flashed him that smile of his again. “You in or...”

“Well... I...”

“You look awful hungry. You know I just had this real nice steak and toast. But hell... I could eat again...”

Max frowned. What a sleeze-ball. Max lived entirely off of soup. And even that had been tight lately.... This guy was using everything he could against him. But... What an offer... He could only imagine the way these guys ate. And did he really mean that? He wouldn’t have to touch him? Not do anything at all? It didn’t make any sense. He couldn’t really just be lonely. What if this was all some kind of trick? What if they killed him? Max couldn’t really think of any reason they would have to do that. But these were thugs. Maybe they just got their jollies off that way. But then again... Ian hadn’t hurt anyone... He hadn’t threatened anyone. Maybe Max had them pegged all wrong. After all, he and his family made their money illegally too... Besides. Going home to a leftover pot of broth was not appealing. He couldn’t live in regret over such an oppurtunity. Even if Ian was a phoney, he could at least see for himself. “Umm... Well... Maybe I’ll give it a go. A small go. But if I change my mind... You’ve gotta bring me right back home. As soon as I ask, got it?”

“Of course. You’re a free bird, Max.”

“Well then, I suppose I accept your offer. For now.”

Ian grinned and held out his hand, which Max shook. Was he making a huge mistake...?

[nighttimescribbles]

ahh 🍬 nonnie here !! that recipe you provided looks amazing. and i love that i'll be giving carrot cakes another go. seeing that i've been slightly allergic to (raw) carrots, i always assumed i wouldn't enjoy carrot muffins or carrot infused desserts until my mum made some for work and let me try a piece. my world quite literally changed from then and it's been a few years since i've last been able to eat said dessert 🤭

anywho, i think i'll be able to make it this weekend so i'm looking forward to it. i'll update you when i inevitably find myself enjoying the recipe. i just know i will :)

also from foodie to foodie, i hope we'll be able to trade more recipes in the future. the lockdown was the perfect oppurtunity for me to experiment and master the basics of cooking. it's the one big thing that's changed me during that two-year period.

p.p.s. it's only fair that i give you the recipe i used for my muffins so here it is :) another coworker who tried it said it would taste better with nuts in it so i would suggest adding as much of your favourite kind as you desire 🤭

yeeeesssss!!!!!! i hate carrots but carrot cake is a whole other entity. it disposes of the vegetable-ness of the carrot and turns it into pure goodness. ❤️ it also reminds me of one of my fave snoopy comic strips 😂:

PLEASE do let me know how your muffins turn out this weekend! i hope they come out fab and bring all the boys to your yard - especially That One Boy *winkwinkwink*

always down to trade recipes! i think you've inspired me to start a new tag: kitchen adventures. it's really more proper to call it (mis)adventures, but i don't want to jinx my efforts 😂 i only started enjoying cooking during the lockdown too (omg there had to be at least one cooking/baking reference in the a/n's of bp 😂) but unlike you, i didn't bother to master it. i really only follow recipes when baking. the rest of the time, i just throw stuff in (and sometimes substitute stuff!) without measuring in typical asian cooking fashion.

BUUUUUUT i will definitely follow the recipe for your muffins! i might have all the ingredients on hand (not sure about the cocoa powder. gotta dig in the pantry for that!) so I'm suuuuuper excited to try it! hope i'm able to make time in the next couple of days for it ❤️

thank you for sharinggggg!!! sending you an advance 🧁 with a 😘

edit for p.s. some people add pineapple shreds to carrot cake! i don't know why and i don't know what it does, but one of my most fave versions of carrot cake is from a local chef who does just that! and tops if off with a tangy cream cheese frosting. delight in a bite, i tell you. 🤤

[bopeepwritingsheep]

Combining I think Mother Mother is a good band with a nice variety of Songs for TAZ inspiration and I know listening to a new band's discography is a pain in the butt with out a goal--Describe your OCs with a Mother Mother song???

Important headsup though for folks interested, there are quite a few songs by this band that discuss ED’s and I looked up the band first so I was prepared and I wanna give other folks the oppurtunity to be prepared too BUT ON WITH THE REQUEST–

Listen you can’t send me good bands like this and not expect me to literally listen to ALL of the discography and list off every single song that catches my eye as fitting one of my TAZ ocs. I just GOTTA so I hope you weren’t just asking for a SINGLE song for each. Technically, there are spoilers in this but like??? None of the fics these folks go in really have linear storylines that spoilers matter so much.

I’m gonna be real, just with the general tone of this band and the fact that they’re who I’m currently writing Johnny and Jane, the newest members of my ‘TAZ OC’s No One Asked For’ crew they get A LOT of songs but that also works out in a funny way because I’m pretty sure I added at least 5 Mother Mother songs to my Hunger Playlist on spotify and maybe 3 to my Johnchurch one just from this band.

Brenda

Dirty Town

O My Heart

Body of Years

Chasing it Down

Alone & Sublime

Free

Missus Aurix

Train of Thought

Little Hands

Try to Change

Get Up

Agnes

Body

Far in Time

Shout If You Know

Everything Is Happening

Family

Biting On A Rose

Johnny

Angry Sea

Love & Truth

Burning Pile

Body

Wrecking Ball

Original Spin

Getaway

Get Out The Way

Cut The String

It’s Alright

Jane

Tic Toc

Wisdom

Born in a Flash

Omen

Dread In My Heart

No One To Nothing

Empty Hands

Dance and Cry

So Down

Keep

[trouvvaille]

Clams; Talk to your moirail.

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I mean I'm sure dirk takes god care of them i just uh Need them So Yeah brackishBarracuda- Today at 2-56 AM i can bring em back to visit clams but look i know its quiet and it fucking sucks and i miss them too i still dont feel like theyre safe here love and no dirk dont do shit dave keeps em have you seen dirk with a kid its hilarious lonelySeahorse- Today at 6-41 AM I mean pike I dont doubt it but i wwant to see em Wwho are wwe hiding from noww I thought condy wwas not an issue anymore or somethin Is it sal brackishBarracuda- Today at 6-51 AM no shes still a fucking thing there were two problems but the orginal ones still there lonelySeahorse- Today at 6-51 AM godamnit howw about if wwe just movve not forevver brackishBarracuda- Today at 6-51 AM thats lonelySeahorse- Today at 6-51 AM but pike to loz's brackishBarracuda- Today at 6-52 AM love thats not the problem lonelySeahorse- Today at 6-52 AM or i knoww brackishBarracuda- Today at 6-52 AM she doesnt know where we are its me wanting to give fel and her fam someplace to go lonelySeahorse- Today at 6-52 AM i just wwant to put up solutions and feel like im helpin ZZ3B( brackishBarracuda- Today at 6-52 AM i could kiss you you know i kno its naut been easy bein with me lately or ever lonelySeahorse- Today at 6-53 AM some nights are easier than others <> the 24 hours after u cut off chos arm noww that was rough shit evverything else compared to that is pike cuttin through a cloud its just the fuckin brackishBarracuda- Today at 6-54 AM im sorry lonelySeahorse- Today at 6-54 AM its gamzee all the fuck ovver again u knoww what they say third times the charm brackishBarracuda- Today at 6-54 AM 3B( lonelySeahorse- Today at 6-54 AM ZZ3B* just kinda fuckin i unno i almost got enough of ur biolum for u to bathe in ivve started movvin them to one a the tanks ur gonna have to pike... sleep in it or just sit in there ww ur palmhusk and blog for hours ill uh join u if u wwant i dunno if the tank'd hold tho but i can put them in the big one if i take archie out lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-03 AM you uh you'll be okay u knoww its hard but you'll pull through it wwasn't ur fault you knoww that right i think i think u should spend some tide with kad u knoww they'll help u feel better brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-13 AM how the fuck wasnt it my fault clams i love you but the knife was in my hand lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-13 AM kads alwways good for a pickmeup did you knoww the knife wwas in ur hand brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-15 AM i remember picking it up lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-15 AM wwe are not responsible for our instincts they wwere responsible for aya and they hurt her and you hurt them in turn both of these wwere wwrong but neither more than the other both of them wwill scar and both of them are traumatized you wwere angry brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-18 AM stop making excuses for me lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-18 AM im not makin excuses for you it was everyones fault thats wwhat im tryin to get at cho was responsible for ayas wwellbein an they should not havve had her in the same room as a psion wwho couldn't control their powwers and you wwere supposed to do the right thing but you didn't you cut off their arm and ran awway and that is your fuckin fault but im not makin excuses for you because fuckin honestly at this point wwhat good is that shit going to do anyone you wwant to talk to them again? talk to vvis? sal? then you gotta fuckin accept that it wwas an accident and evvery single one a you wwas at fault, evven sal, evven vvis three fuckin adults in that house and not one a them coulda been wwatchin her wwith cho? bullshit its your fault but it ain't entirely yours either you knoww i havve nightmares about it and i wwasn't evven fuckin there howws that brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-22 AM what what are they about lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-22 AM that doesn't matter read wwhat i said abovve brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-22 AM it does i read it lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-22 AM yeah why brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-22 AM this matters lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-23 AM whys it matter to you so you can beat yourself up more aboat it? brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-23 AM whys it matter to me clams i am your fucking moirail it matters please lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-32 AM and as your owwn moirail i don't think you should beat yourself up ovver nightmares i havve caused by things that wwere your fault because i knoww you wwill and i don't wwant that y you got enough on your plate brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-33 AM baby please lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-33 AM tell me wwhy you're insecure then i wwill brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-33 AM which part lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-33 AM in general wwhy are you so insecure about yourself you hurt someone big fuckin wwhoop you bleww up your planet and you didn't really care about cho anywway you tried to i knoww but you didn't is it just because you lost sal? because you think you'vve lost vvis? brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-35 AM i am trying to be better clams and yes its because of that lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-35 AM once upon a time you told me u lovved me just as i am hemoism and all brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-35 AM i dont loose people well lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-35 AM and im here to tell you the same fuckin thing i dont care if u cut off my owwn fuckin arm i wwill lovve you until the day my essence dissolvves into nothing and i cease to havve the capacity to hold lovve in my soul i lovve you regardless of wwhat you do wwhose arm you chop off wwho you lose or wwhy you lose them i lovve you meen not wwhat you do or wwhat you say but because of wwho you fuckin are a free thinker wwho doesn't hold back, wwho wwould dance in the moonlight wwith her girlfriends, wwho tells people they're pretty af and means it wwithout it bein empty. ur home to me evven if you become someone you dislike you don't need to change and be "better" for me to like u i already like you vis already likes you sal liked you and so did chosis yes there are things you can improvve yes there are things you can't improvve but here and noww wwith all your insecurities and wwhen you falter, wwhen ur candle is loww, i am still here for you and don't u fuckin forget it i am your moirail and eridan fuckin ampora aight and i am right fuckin pale for the roughest, prettiest diamond i'vve evver fuckin seen brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-40 AM i love you lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-42 AM noww about those nightmares its really quite simple vvis has nightmares if wwe're sleepin at the same time wwe share em thats it thats the wwhole explanation brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-43 AM do you know what those are about or look i just want to know where hes viewin himself in relation okay is just me being dangerous is it him just watchin is it him eelin like he could have stopped me and cant like i dont care what it is i just want to know lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-44 AM hes conflicted because he lovves both of you and he thinks you hold animosity towwards him if he showws too much support for chosis and not for you thats wwhat i can glean the recurrin theme is the classic "choice" dream u knoww u can only Savve One an all that chos his kurloz, lovve, pike i don't know if you get it more wwhen i put it that wway or its pike if i personally chopped off loz's arm wwhile you wwatched thats just howw he feels an it's basically just that he doesn't fuckin knoww howw to feel i think he just needs time but thats my fuckin answer to evverythin brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-47 AM fuck lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-47 AM does that put it into more perspectivve or brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-48 AM yeah actually i fuck lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-48 AM yeah yeah im glad that helps brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-50 AM clams what have i fucking done lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-53 AM you chopped off the arm of your inclade, your moirails matesprit, wwho he has twwo eggs wwith and plans to swwap rings wwith, in defense of said matesprit's negligance towwards your owwn child wwith your dead matesprit, wwhich resulted in possibly lifelong scarrin and trauma due to their said negligance defense? offense somethin pike that you uh also faught ur best friend and bloodied him up a bit and noww he doesn't wwant to speak wwith you i guess thats wworth mentionin i mean if u ask me sal and u needed a break anywway brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-55 AM i dont like breaks clams i like fixing shit or getting it over with i like shit in the air not festering i like honest real fucking answers and not hiding behind shit and lying to yourself and im fucked lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-56 AM okay so u knoww howw i compared chosis to kurloz there right, for vvis noww i need you to think a me or actually think a kad if u cut off kads arm and lil sal wwas there wwatchin an the twwo a you fought brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-57 AM i wouldnt be alive clams lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-57 AM see to me that says sal still fuckin lovves you brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-58 AM he shouldnt lonelySeahorse- Today at 7-58 AM no he shouldn't but he does evven if he aint realize it yet he just needs time maybe you could send him a couple of anon asks to see howw he feels about it evveryonce in a wwhile brackishBarracuda- Today at 7-59 AM he doesnt deserve the shit i bring to his doorstep clams he deserves people who are gonna make him happy and that aint been me for a while lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-01 AM then i guess u got an oppurtunity here but u gotta ask urself howw happy is he gonna be wwith you gone howw happy are you gonna be wwith him gone the twwo a you are older than me and you you do fuckin realize that right pike you'vve been together since before u evven met me hell probs before rez or fangs or around that time he's the only one left besides cro and tuna wwho knowws You so if you wwant to leavve him thats up to you he's already made his choice but i fuckin promise you in twwo months he's gonna be wwaitin to see if you'll try to get back in his life and fuckin honestly i'd be disappointed if you didn't an he wwould be too and you fuckin knoww it don't kid urself howw many times has he hurt us howw many fuckin times has he hurt me put vvis through a wwall broke my nose gavve you scars but howw many times did he come back, huh or helped you evven if u twwo wwere havvin trouble you think a that brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-06 AM i miss him i miss who we were lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-06 AM wwhen did it change wwhat happened wwhy brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-06 AM i dont know i dont fucking know lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-07 AM i do you wwant to knoww? brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-07 AM why naut lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-07 AM wwhen he finally stopped puttin you up on that pedestal wwhen he finally had to come to grips wwith the fact u wweren't and are not perfect wwhen he finally had to fuckin realize that you are not his rescuer but his friend he put u up on a throne and u didn't wwant it and he couldn't see that and evvery single fuckin time you twwo fought it wwas because u didn't see eye to eye because you wwere still twwenty feet abovve him, to him cho thought it too wwe wwere talkin they said sal wwas upset because "he lost his rock" an i said buddy if u think meenah wwas his rock ur wwrong" because u wweren't and if u think that you're wwrong a rope throwwn to him maybe givven him hope givven him a friend but somethin to hold onto wwhen the lights go out nah u wwere his lighthouse like u are mine you light the wway but he doesn't cling to u wwith his problems he clings to cho and YOU fuckin knoww that and you need to stop thinkin that cho isn't fuckin wworthy or somethin of bein sals moirail an also simultaneously thinkin that u gotta measure up to chosis wwith sal are you pale for salinx? no? then you ain't gotta brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-12 AM i was once i know you remember lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-12 AM yeah and i wwas flushed for u once too its hard to stop those feelins but u just gotta grit ur teeth and go at it brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-13 AM i mean im naut anymore but yeah lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-14 AM just in case, i gotta say it stop bein fuckin envious of wwhat they got an the fact that sal is tellin cho evverythin an not u brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-15 AM i fucking hate myself for it but i cant even tell you youre fucking wrong lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-19 AM i knoww just you knoww stop it nerd <> brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-19 AM look they werent fucking worthy when i met them just to be straight with you lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-19 AM but you aint givven them the chance since u think i dont knoww that they bruised me, pushed me ovver brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-20 AM im naut done lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-20 AM aight im wwaitin tho brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-22 AM chosis wasnt shit when i met them but if i can stand back away from my own shit for two seconds theyve grown a hell of a lot they grew into it which idk is probably the point or something just cause i couldnt sea it and i can admit that to you but trying to say that to anybody else pisses me off ive got problems the point im making is that they arent a bad kid and clearly they take decent fuckin care a sally an sal them i was just idk i reely dont like thinking aboat this lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-26 AM yeah wwhale suck it up and talk to me about it ZZ3B\ brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-27 AM ive p much made my point theyre betta than they were and im recognizing that ive known that for a while lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-27 AM but u still assumed they wwere the one wwho hurt aya brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-28 AM when i got there there was all of two people and i knew it was sal i jumped to a conclusion an it was the wrong one lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-29 AM yeah but u wwere alwwavves more heart than head brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-30 AM yeah for betta oar worse lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-31 AM this just happens to be one a the wworse ... you'll be okay and so wwill sal, and so wwill cho, and so wwill vvis, and aya too it just takes time an lovve an determination don't givve up on them aight? lovve u <> brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-32 AM i love you too <> just so fucking much clams lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-32 AM ZZ3B* brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-33 AM i couldnt tell you if i tried you are my rock you know no pedestal no rope no lighthouse lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-37 AM yeah i do brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-37 AM youre my rock lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-37 AM ur my rock and my lighthouse brackishBarracuda- Today at 8-37 AM where i build home lonelySeahorse- Today at 8-37 AM ur my evverythin ... what are u gonna do brackishBarracuda - Today at 8:41 AM whatever i have to lonelySeahorse- Today at 8:42 AM yeah? brackishBarracuda - Today at 8:46 AM as fuckin always lonelySeahorse - Today at 8:47 AM come on more than that brackishBarracuda- Today at 8:49 AM i dont know clams but im naut givin up lonelySeahorse- Today at 8:49 AM good <> brackishBarracuda - Today at 8:50 AM <>

[ts-seychelles]

EP. 13 - “The Last Check Mark I Need” - NICOLE

IDK WHATS GOING ON. But I don't trust Jared and nicole or Johnny. I think im going I don't wanna wrongly play. But them.not knowing the vote count is sketchy

This entire past tribal went horrible - Vilma went home and she was a huge ally who was very involved in my game, but I found out a few things of her not trusting me so BITCH BYE (jk ilysm) - Regan exploited our alliance that we had between me, her, Augusto, which was SO pointless on top of ALL OF THE REASONS where regan pissed me off today, but honestly, I don't feel the need to go into it again bc just lol at this point she's honestly fucking insane (sorry ily but you're fucking nuts) - Nicole just failed to understand why I voted for her, and I feel so bad about things, especially considering we hungout irl a few days ago, and I told her I wouldn't vote for her.. I also feel bad that Jared has turned into a lowkey sociopath this game and nicole is getting wreckt for it - This BAD PUBLICITY over this reward challenge when people dont want me going to ghost so they can kill me instead - Dan is PISSED at me for all of these chats getting exploited, being left out of the nicole vote and just the consistent lying to him. Jared played so many FUCKING games today that threw him, Dan and I under the bus, and it was just nuts, and he blew up both of our games in a way that wasn't necessary..... and there were just other ways to plan it out What I WILL say is that I'm turning Asya into like.... one of my closest allies bc I think she's fucking awesome, and I think we're in the same boat, and if it's up to me, I don't want her going anywhere.. I'm plenty okay voting out anyone who isnt augusto asya roxy at this point..... everyone else can probably burn? I'll see how long I can keep Jared around. Eventually, enough is enough and I may just have to throw in the towel and vote for Jared, but I'm going to try to not think about that bc my intentions are to still stay pure to Jared so GOSH lord help my soul

https://youtu.be/12RpRL81wjc

Lots to explain, let’s start off with the most obviously trivial. Regan talks about herself...a lot. Like, a lot. Regan is most definitely the most self centered person I’ve ever met. She knows it so like, it’s not mean that I’m stating it. But anyway every day in the tribe chat she goes on for sooooo long about herself and so I made a fun little game where when she sends a rant about her life I say “Merry Christmas Everyone”. It started on Christmas, so it wasn’t that funny BUT every day since it’s gotten progressively funnier and funnier. Ricky and Alex chimed in a few times and then I got Johnny in on it. It’s becoming such a moment every time it happens and the farther away from Christmas we get, the more ridiculous Regans responses get to it. Now, back to business. Last night I almost got voted out. I am BEYOND thankful that when I went to Ghost Island I was able to get the Sapphire Idol and will it to Jared during the second or third round. We have been trying to hold on it for so long in order to use it correctly to save both of us and tonight was the PERFECT oppurtunity. We not only did THAT but we flushed two idols since Regan used hers for no reason and Vilma left with hers. (I feel so bad I wish she would have used it and rocked out Johnny). Today I’ve made substantial progress with Asya and Dan but I really don’t think it’s enough. Which makes me nervous. I feel like going going home these next two rounds is going to be so sad for me. I have the fucking legacy advantage and having to give it away before I even can use it would kill me. Regan better calm herself with her agenda to get me out because if she doesn’t fucking relax I will 100% get her out with the legacy advantage just for fun. Finding a fourth to vote with us is going to be actually terrible. I’m hoping I can be immune so that the tables are forced to turn. I really don’t want to go. Maybe Jared will find something at ghost island to shake things up. I feel like crap about this game because Asya has painted a picture of how I COULD win. But that makes me feel like nobody will let me get that far. I just want to win so badly this is like the last check mark I need in order to feel successful in this community (as cheesy as it sounds).

So I’m really boo boo the damn fool huh. Vilma leaving last night was literally heart wrenching. After hosting her in Cayman Islands, she was probably one of the most deserving of the unfinished business casting. She’s an amazing person, friend, and ally. I really am gonna miss her a lot in this game. As it stands rn, everyone is being shady. Especially Johnny, but honestly, we been knew. Regan leaving the chat is fucking annoying. She’s unwilling to vote anyone but Nicole. I promised Nicole I wouldn’t write her name down this game, And I intend to make that happen. I wish there was a way that me and Nicole could lowkey get the votes split 3-3-1 on us this week to force a rock pull, but there’s literally no way. When I think about it, splitting up Nicole and Jared is smart, however, in my opinion the wrong person is on Ghost Island rn. I’d much rather vote out Jared than Nicole and that’s just that on that. I may honestly just throw a vote or self vote this round bc I literally can’t bring myself to vote out Nicole. If Nicole wins immunity, I am a little worried for my ass soooooo. Idk what’s best rn.

https://youtu.be/OSPsCvp7lmM

https://youtu.be/dLh35zpslXU

OKAY LISTEN..... I'm proud of myself bc I've gotten to that point of ORGs where I feel I'm done doing 800 long ass confessionals every round, but nonetheless, I've gotta do one each round, and I'm trying to make it good, so here's the content from my host chat about why im considering what im considering today: I am hoping that the Regan/Nicole thing continues until right before the vote, and this round is going to be everyone depending on my vote because I'm the swing, and I'm hoping people are going to be patient with what my decision is, because I'm likely not going to make it until right before tribal...... jk im voting for regan, but they dont need to know that ;) i know by voting out regan, im making it harder for myself to get to the end, but I'm REALLY trying to surround myself with threats so I can get to the end. I was the first person this season to make an "out there" game move, by playing my idol and taking out Ricky, and since them, i am trying my damnedest to just hold back my threat level, so people just let me go further and further. I don't have MANY options beyond that at this point Oop apparently regan is voting for me.. that's a mood Now here's me ranting about taking out Dan vs Regan: Regan is more easily controlled, and she has been working closer to me this entire game.. She is a goat and likely won't win at the end, but she's a very likely candidate to get to the end at this point just because she's such a goat Dan, on the other hand, has been a strong ally, but he voted for me once, and has been wishy washy with his allegiances since he voted for me the first time (when I used my idol), and promised us so many things, but Dan has pretty good relationships and is unpredictable, but he's sworn up down left and right that he wants finals with Augusto and I. The BIG reason for keeping Dan is that Roxy and Augusto, who are probably two of my top three closest, and most trusted allies, are going to be more reliant on me next round for numbers, and even more when it gets closer to the finals, they may feel more compelled to take me to the end because there are too many big threats left in the game but if i vote for regan then i might be jeopardizing my specific spot in the game, and I'd have the potential of my allies turning on me

(A LITTLE LATER)

So I guess here's an ACTUAL confessional since I haven't really planned on making anything else, but I feel bad Regan fucked my entire game up because she thought she was being cute after last tribal. Everyone was on a call during that reward challenge (not getting into it... literally fuck the hosts bc that changed the entire game, moving on), and they were all spilling shit because Nicole got mad that four people voted for her, and then Nicole and Dan both started making this game feel really personal, and honestly, it just felt icky to me that they were bringing it to a personal level when it was a game move. I understand what Nicole is going through bc (T B H Jared) Jared is a sociopath in games, and he really just doesn't have a chill switch sometimes, especially when dealing with nicole, so like..... idk, people started feeling bad for nicole bc jared YELLED at nicole after tribal on that call apparently, and ig it had to do with me, and more of an exposing me party YAY, but idk.. so I feel bad for her too I deem literally everyone in this cast currently a close friend, so this is never ever going to be an easy decision from here on out. Every decision is going to be painful. My entire plan for the day was to pretend to be indecisive about how I wanted to vote, when in reality all day, my intentions were to vote for Regan, however, things have changed sadly............... I'm voting for Dan tonight, and I don't see myself changing my mind before tribal for many of many reasons. I mostly just feel that if Dan stays, I could POTENTIALLY not have numbers next round since Dan is consistently playing double agent, and jared nicole and asya could come together and vote out either roxy or augusto, and then i'd be fucked, especially considering those are probably the two people im trying to get to the end with (without screwing over jared and losing his jury vote uwu) Also, the biggest reason I've gotta do this is to just not upset the people who've been the best to me since we've merged. Augusto and Roxy have been nothing but helpful to my game, and Dan was the FIRST of my allies to turn on me, and that still hasn't been sitting well with me since it's happened. I'm moreso doing this for my allies than anyone else, and knowing that Roxy, Augusto, Regan and I are likely not going to break until we get to the end ish? (But also Asya queen is getting to the finals if it's the last thing I do. Regan can LEAVE before Asya does, but that's besides the point hmmmmmm) My other big fear with voting out dan is that im voting out such a meat shield.. going into the f5 with any combination of asya augusto roxy regan puts me in a lot of trouble to get 5th or 4th, and I'm foreseeing a world now where I get 5th or 4th because those are the people I chose to go down the stretch with, but we'll see... I think I can maybe have a few tricks up my sleeves to attempt to get me there? oops?

IDK THE TEA IS THAT im voting johnny with nicole and dan and idk if i can pull this off

Nicole and I decided this plan to get it to be 3-2-2 and I’m so nervous it’s gonna fall through. I’m shaking in hangout rn omfg this is so stressful

[thelonewriter1998-blog]

Love at First Bite

Summary:Families come in all forms. The most important thing is that they love each other. Jason and Vlad have been together for a VERY LONG time. You'd be hard pressed to find a couple that was more in love and two more kinder caring people. Except they're not people exactly. They're vampires. What happens when their friend Brenda needs them to babysit an abandoned human baby until she can find it a new home? These bloodsuckers have their hearts stolen and must now navigate parenthood.

"Come on babe we have to go meet Brenda before the sun comes up," Jason sighed as Vlad took his time getting ready.

"I just need to finish putting on my eyeliner and we can go."

Jason was in awe even 194 years of being married to the guy at how he managed to have such flawless makeup without being able to use a mirror.

"You're so high maitenance."

"And you've loved me for two hundred years nonetheless."

"Yeah. You might be a ding bat but you're my ding bat."

After about ten more minutes Vlad was finally ready to go. He looked good tonight, well Jason thought he looked good every night but that was besides the point. They got in thir car it was a beat up old black pick-up truck that blended in well at night. They pulled out of the driveway carefully as to not make any of their neighbors suspicous. Most of their neighbors were fine with them being gay but they doubted the whole vampire thing would go over so well.

"Let's turn on some tunes!" Vlad shouting reaching for the dial on the radio.

He flicked through the channels until he heard a Katy Perry song. Both of them sang along loudly and just a but off-key.  Jason stopped the car as they arrived at the hospital. They parked in the back where they always met Brenda and got out of the car.

Brenda was standing by the lightpost in her plain black scrubs holding one of those insulated lunchboxes and something else. As they got closer they could see it was a baby.

"Hey boys I've got the goods per usual. This batch was set to expire in a couple days so I'd drink as much of it as possible as soon as you get home."

"Thanks Brenda you're a literal lifesaver!" Vlad exclaimed being as dramtic as ever.

"Can one of you hold this," She asked extending the baby away from her "I really need a cigarette."

Jason had never held a baby before and was kind of nervous but hesitantly took the small creature into his arms anyways.

"Not like that. You gotta cradle the head," she said the cigarette dangling out of her mouth as she lit it.

Jason shifted the baby in his arms. He had to admit human babies were quite adorable. The baby woke up from the movement and started to cry loudly. Vlad could see the panic in his husband's eyes and moved to assist him. He moved his huband's arms so he was rocking the baby and sang it an old Romanian lullaby he'd heard growing up Transylvania. It didn't take long for the baby to get back to sleep.

"You two are pretty good with him," Brenda commented letting out a final puff of smoke and then putting the cigarette out with her shoe. "I need you to do me a favor."

"What is it? You do so much for us we'd  love to repay you."

"That little guy's mother died during the delivery and we don't know who the father is. Dr. Davis wanted to call CPS but I just can't do that to him. I grew up in the orphanage with no chance of a real home. I had to live there with no family until my 18th birthday and I don't want the same for him. Dr. Davis gave me three days to find him a home before he calls the authorities to take him away. I need you to look after him for the rest of the night for me. I can come get him when my shift is over at six."

Brenda noticed the weird look they were giving her and expecting rejection added,"Please it'll be for just a few hours."

"Sure why not? It's not like we've got any plans tonight anyways," Vlad says after a while.

"Really? Thanks guys. My break is almost over so let me get you his carseat."

Brenda took off leaving them with the baby.

"Are we really doing this?" Jason asked.

"Brenda has been stealing blood for us for 10 years. She constantly risks her job to help us out. The least we can do is babysit for a night," Vlad scolded.

"I guess you're right."

Brenda returned with the car seat and walked them to their car. Jason placed the baby in the car seat gently and was fumbling with the seat belt. He couldn't figure out which piece was supposed to fit in where. Brenda got impatient and shoved him out of the way clicking it together easily. With the baby fastened in they said their goodbyes.

"Do you think he has a name?" Vlad asked out of nowhere.

"Probably not that's the kind of paper work the mother fills out after the delivery."

"He looks like a Todd."

"I guess calling him Todd is a good alternative to 'the baby'."

They arrived home Vlad carrying Todd's carseat with Todd still sound asleep inside and Jason carrying the blood. Vlad set Todd's carseat down on the living room floor and followed his husband to the kitchen.

"Want to put it in some tomato saice and make Spaghetti?" Jason asked.

They didn't gain any nutrition from the human food but it tasted better than the blood alone and cooking was fun.

"Whatever you want babe."

The bloody pasta sauce mixed with the meat Jason was stirring smelled so good. Vlad's mouth watered a little as he stirred the boiling noodles and ocasionally stole kisses from his husband.

Vlad set the table while Jason poured the sauce over the noodles. They talked and laughed while they ate completely forgetting about Todd. They were doing the dishes when they heard crying from the other room.

Both if them went running to his carseat. Vlad picked him up feeling that he was wet. He was probably hungry too.

"We need to go to the store. He's going to need diapers and formula."

They lived in a small town where the only Walmart was 20 miles away.  The only thing they could get to easily that was open at 4 in the morning was the 7/11. Jason had a hard time with the car seat's seatbelt again because even though he knew how the pieces fit togther now he was having a hard time clicking them shut with his long claw like fingernails. Vlad wasn't having much more luck until finly they go it. Todd was still crying through all of this. On the way to the store they tried singing to him again but it was futile. He cried the whole way there.

Jason stayed in the car with Todd not wanting to take a crying baby inside the store while Vlad went in to get the stuff. He returned to the car a few minutes later with small packages of diapers and wipes, a cylinder of formula and a baby bottle that seemed to be made of very cheap plastic but they had to deal with whatever they could find this late at night. Todd cried the whole way home too and it was excruciatingly loud due to vampires having more sensitive hearing than humans.

When they got home Jason heated the formula while Vlad changed him having to be careful with his nails that were just as long as his husband's. Vlad couldn't help but think about what a great team he and his husband made. He almost wished they could have a child of their own but vampires couldn't reproduce due to the whole being dead thing and children usually never survived being bitten so there were no vampire children for them to adopt. But what if-? It was crazy and Jason might not go for it but he had to try. He picked up Todd and carried him to the kitchen giving Jason a quick peck on the cheek once he got there. Jason was squeezing a little bit of milk out of the bottle onto his wrist to make sure it wasn't too hot. It was the pefect temperature. Todd finally stopped crying as soon as he had his bottle.

"You gotta admit he's pretty cute huh?" Jason said.

Vlad was surprised at the statement but decided to take the oppurtunity to tell Jason his  idea nonetheless.

"Yeah. We make a pretty good team taking care of him. Don't you just wish that we could have a child?"

"Well yeah. Nothing would make me happier than raising a baby with you. But vampires can't have kids."

"Brenda said she needed to find a home for Todd. What if- what if we keep him?"

"I don't know Vlad. I mean we're not human. He needs very different things than we do."

"Yeah but we used to be human. We can handle this."

"We haven't been human for 300 years. I wish we could keep him too but I'm just afriad we wouldn't make very good parents for him."

Vlad set the sleeping Todd back in his car seat taking Jason to the living room with him. He sat down on the couch next to him cupping his chin.

"Listen to me Dragul meu. I want to start a new chapter of my life with you if you want to as well. I would share the adventure of parenthood with no one else but you. I know that we can do this. I believe in you and I believe in us." Vlad finished his speech taking Jason's hands and placing a soft kiss on them.

Jason smiled a little teary eyed. Vlad always knew what to say to make him feel better. They could do this. They could raise a baby and human or not they'd love him with all their unbeating hearts. They heard a knock on the door as they sat in each others embrace. Vlad went to go get the door knowing it was Brenda. He couldn't wait to tell her the good news.

"There's something we need to talk to you about. He's still sleeping so we have to be kind of quiet." Jason said just above a whisper.

Brenda had only seen this serious of a look on the two men's faces twice since she'd known them. The first time was when they told her they were gay which she already knew because anyone with eyes could see the way those two looked at each other. The other time that had been a bit more shocking to her was when they revealed to her that they were vampires. It took her a minute to get over the initial shock but they were  her best friends and she cared about them no matter what.  Right now though she was worried about what they might have to say.

"What is it?"

Vlad took a deep breath. "I'm just gonna come right out and say it. We want to adopt Todd."

"Who's Todd?"

"The baby."

"You named him?"

"Yeah. He looks like a Todd doesn't he?"

"I guess so. You want to adopt him? That's great!"

"You mean we can keep him?"

"Of course. You two would make amazing parents."

Brenda was really tired after her shift so they let her stay the night. The next afternoon Vlad and Jason applied lots and lots of sunblock and they all went down to the courthouse to start the adoption process.  A few months later Todd was all theirs. They threw a big adoption party inviting some of their neighbors and of course Brenda. They were the happiest they'd ever been in their lives,apart from their wedding, as they held their son Todd.

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im sad pt.1

man i just wanna cry i feel so sad and depressed not playing basketball obviously is a big part of the reason but i hate when someone means so much to me (for no fkn reason like theyre from no where i didnt even meet in person wtf) and like this is kinda my fualt i say dumb shi.. i mess stuff up.. i messed stuff up.. then i complain so i kinda had it coming but i kinda wish it could go back to before or i could forget about it and i could feel better... maybe go back before i met her so i could jus bitch bout not having anyone that had to feel better for sure bro i need a diffefrent outlook i need to stop waiting for people and trying to create oppurtunities to meet people like it sucks i have to do that shi dont be pathetic my nigga jus do what u have to do and idk what else to do i swear ive done everything but keep ur head up lol fuCJDXCFshd sfgdhujfhdfdffdhufg jgd OKAY nigga realize that ur not very high up on her priority and shes high on urs so shes not gonna fw u so u gottta change that up go out and do sum else LIKE IDK HOW BUH U GOTTA DO IT like thats how life is not everything is gonna be in your favor u gus gotta take what life throws at you and switch it up in your favor!!