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thetinyjimmy · 3 months ago

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psst…

tiny jimmy, we’ve never properly spoken i realize, and im sorry to under these circumstances, but nevertheless, it’s a pleasure.

i hope you’re doing alright. though you are somehow attached to big jimmy in your injuries… kinda, i hope you know you are nothing like him. maybe you represent curly’s emotional state in regards to him? his perception of him is damaged right now, but i have hopes that upon returning to earth, he can get better, and in turn, you can you!

also you’re adorable. i want to make a little fairy house for you or some shit.

🖤

I recognize you from the captain's mind... Good finally meet you...

I've heard so many theories on what and why and how I am... I'm not really sure what to think about it all, to be honest... Thanks, though, I suppose...

A fairy house sounds cozy... I'm not really a fairy though...

#hello!!! <3 #dont listen to him #hes a beautiful fairy #tiny jimmy #mouthwashing #jimmy mouthwashing #he also doesn't know how to interact with people for shit #totally not making excuses because im socially awkward and bad at convercing #idk man im trying my best lmao #i have anxiety ^w^ </3 #*dies*

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nova-rpv · 10 months ago

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a redraw of the first drawing i posted here to celebrate the fact that ive been in tumblr for more than a whole year posting my shit and havent deleted my blog in panic yippee \:D/ (mushy rant in tags)

#i realised too late that it has been more than a fuking year (august 9)#and for context: ive had 3 different intagram art accounts and i deleted all 3 of them a few months before creating them. anxiety amiright #here it has been so different bc people are so nice??? it has been a pretty plesant experience here w all of u really #im so glad to have found myself in such a wonderful part of the fandom and amazing mutuals that i never talk to bc im shit w texting #the atention has been overwhelming ngl. i have over 2000 followers which. holy fuck???#it doesnt feel like a real number and for my own sake im nnot gonna treat it as one #like i apreciate the support and ppl liking what i do but im not here to make number go big yk? im here to connect w other humans #and yall have been amazing humans ^^ thank u for all the wonderful tags and comments and the support overall #it has been so cool sharing my art and finding other artist whom i respect oh so very much. some of them even follow me back wtf #i hope to continue being here for as long as i can and keep growing as an artist and sharing that process with other without fear #also my amy redesign actually goes so hard idk why i forgot about it nxnfbcncb #sth #sonic fanart #sonic #amy rose #nov.aart #nov.junk

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r-aindr0p · 2 months ago

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The only time I can't escape interactions w/ kids are family visiting and they always get curious about all the weeb charms I have dangling on my stuff

So yeah, kid saw the twst faves on my phone (I have them w/ me 24/7 that way) and asked if Rollo was evil because "she looks evil" (answered "kind of") then asked if Rook was evil (answered "not really") and it got to that question :')

Rollo got probably she'd because of the robes, he could be my queen too tbh, slay, love him in every way shape and form 🙏

#Twst #mindless rambling #It's always fun when clueless kids are trying to figure out characters #Too bad I'm socially incompetent and couldn't really give an answer #I swear I'm bad at talking with around ppl my age and up I don't know much but it's worse w/ kids #and if you hide in your room from guests grown ups will leave you but the kid will rush up the stairs to find you (sobbing)#I know I have a problem I just have no idea what :))) social anxiety probably #I apprehend calling for a doc appointment though- L for me #Oh I don't think I've ever drawn regular rollorook #Might doodle that soon but they have a 3rd boyfred #not quite the 3 musketeers sadly I don't have a 4th french to add to this triangle

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azrail-has-a-vendetta · 1 month ago

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I’ve had this idea for a week. Now here it is. I have been looking at it too long so I have no idea if it’s any good but here goes nothing ig.

@walmart-the-official harbinger of the 10k curse (design vaguely based on Walmart’s pfp):

#If this is the second time you’re seeing this no it’s not shhhhh #let me know if you want a better quality w/o all the grain and stuff :3 #first time giving art to my friends kinda nervous #art #my art #digital art #Also my first time drawing wings— how’d I do?#My anxiety is anxieting what if I just deleted this—#This is the issue with having friends in completely different time zones #Idk what time zone you are in but you are very rarely active when I am so I just have to sit here thinking like will they like it?#I won’t know until I wake up tomorrow ;-;

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tottymatsuno · 2 months ago

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Working on my robot au and i decided ichimatsu would be the brother that would be extremely popular bc hes marketed as a domestic companion. There'd be someone in a civil rights legal battle with the supreme court to actually allow ai-human marriages to be legally recognized, with an ichibot.

I say this for several reasons, but mostly bc i can see yall doing that.

Osomatsu would be the cheapest to buy secondhand bc he keeps accidentally gaining real sentience and uses it immediately to gamble, commit crimes, fuck around and over all do osomatsu related bullshit. But he can drive! Thats his special feature!

I have ideas ofc for the other ones but lol ive been thinking "and osomatsu can drive too please stop returning him you cab use him as a taxi driver and make money off of him you just have to be okay with the fact he might hit on your customers or crash your car, or steal your money to gamble pleeaaaseee we're trying to fix this in Series 4!"

#open_mouth.exe #see the issue is that oso should be a big brother unit and theyre robbing him of hos true purpose #suematsu would ofc be social units. they would be purely companions with jyushi specifically being therapeutic #he'd be frequently seen in hospitals as a form of durable medical equipment or youd find him in schools as a coach or chaperone #there would be a few professional leagues made of jyushi custom configurations in the same way you see robot fighting #and theyd be use for multiple sports including mma and wrestling. and baseball ofc and stuff. jyushi is a companion tho but his uses are #medical and sport. hes a team member.#todo for the most part multipurpose but he does best as a companion. he's typically be used for lonely people who want to chat. lgbts. and #customer facing jobs. he'd be use anywhere from client relations. call centers. some restaurant chains would have one as a gen manager #he's priced out for the most part from the average population bc he has the most complex scripts so finding one secondhand would be rare #bc like jes highly sought after. many people WANT to buy him as a life partner after interacting w him in a csr context #but see his literal 22.5k price tag new and go thats the price of a new car..#osomatsu on the otherhand theyre tryong to give away at the door. current gen 3 brand new osos are less than 3k. they desperately want to #keep him in circulation bc hes a literal scientific marvel like they finally made the first artificial deadbeat loser #he tends to get bought by ppl who want a boyfriend or a friend but typically ends up as a bad influence so ppl return him #i got stuff about kara and choro but i haven't thought about it too deeply. i feel like both of them would be used for unintended purposes #Karamatsu for instance feels like he would be designed for people with social anxiety or for creative fields #but i feel like people would end up having an entire mod scene specifically for sexing him up in various ways like ppl woild become #programmrrs to fuck him. Kara can also drive but its not important bc oso comes with an internal gps and he doesnt #choro feels like he'd be designed as an elderly caretaker and companion but would end up somewhere else. i think #people would use his predisposition for entertainment and idols as like a utau and would have him either produce or sing music #like choro units would end up in so many bands

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javierduffy · 2 months ago

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went back to comfort zone and ... got stuck there

#i will not be tagging this LOL only #for y'all ❤️ a treat from me ... something no one asked for nor wanted ❤️#just went back to my furries to comfort myself because i am incredibly unwell <3 i've been throwing up from stress among other things 💔#just quit my job so i'll probably. maybe. be drawing more. also my first appointment with my new psychiatrist is to #morrow ... so everyone please cross your fingers for me that i get to feeling a little better soon :)#thank you everyone as always for your constant patience :') i really want to get to asks soon ! i want to answer them so bad but i get so #overwhelmed trying to answer them that i kinda just ... shut down :'/ and i do that a lot just. in life. and it makes me kinda miserable #that i can't share joy with people who go out of their way to share it with ME so hopefully i can get my anxiety under control so that i can #be more active :') and my brain fog too ... even if i wanted to post i usually can't because i genuinely have no thoughts in my head ever.#(terrifyingly). so overall i hope everyone's patience with me will all be worth it soon :') please wish me the best !#anyway. lore dump out of the way. these are my furries of them that i have owned for like 4/5 years now because i used to not be able (or #want to) draw humans AT ALL and i was very very heavily involved in the furry and oc communities so i would just make everyone furries :)#it was very very comforting for me and sometimes it still is so i wanted to revisit them a little bit because they make me happy and i rly #need that boost today :')#i'm soooo rusty w furries. so. don't look too close.#i'll tag this as #rdr2 #and for organization purposes #but nothing else because ... weh. it's not really ... Content ....#i will however make a new tag for these furries (and maybe other things) jic i get in the habit of drawing them again #hero's shameless self indulgence #hero draws sometimes #image #art

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chasedeys · 1 month ago

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missed you cleo <3 always exciting when you stop in during a Certified Bengals Moment. hope your stressful real life stuff is going as well as possible!

carmen!!!!!!! hello!!!!!!!!!!!! i missed youuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i adore you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

always Excited to pop by and scroll through all the tags (especialllyyyy yours!!) and go holy shit because truly every Certified Bengals Moment is just. holy shit. they do keep me sane and happy i can't lie <3 (studiously not looking at contract issues)

and thank youuu i too hope youuu are doing great and stress-free!!!!!

#ask #i get Moved to come here when i scroll through tiktok to chill and decompress and then just.#get slapped in the face and just HAVE to come here and yap and ????? nice to see people being soooo normal abt things like i am lmao #my people <3 #also sorry #my inability to interact w anybody is bc i have shit stamina and possibly unchecked anxiety tbh so pls lookk awayy at times 😭

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xiii-e · 5 months ago

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[ OOC: hiii it's Moss again, hello folks o7 just wanted to give a general heads up that unfortunately the brain funk has Not meaningfully lifted yet and I'm having kind of a hard time managing plotlines atm, so while I'm still going to be active and trying to throw bits and pieces out, I'm not likely to be doing any big plots or character development for a while. I'm more likely to get some of my standalone writing worked on since there's no time pressure there though!! So if you see the Turtleshell fic series or a fun secret Khione project rocking up in the following weeks amidsts otherwise radio silence, that'll be why :3 ]

#//ooc it's nothing serious I don't think dw!! just your standard I have several disorders that fuck w/ dopamine production #//ooc and also several that make regulating your emotions hard and also anxiety so I am very tired #//ooc I'll be fine eventually I've managed this far :3 but I am going to be So Tired for a while so I'm giving the heads up #//ooc unfortunately when I start losing processing capacity to the Fog my ability to focus is the first thing to go wahh

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donaviolet · 10 months ago

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Friendship is the most special thing in the world because no award could be give me bigger happiness than jumping around in my room and smiling because my pookie asked me if I wanted to match pfps

#SHES AMAZING I LOVE HER AHHHHH #I hope we manage to find a cute bsd pfp it would be literally my dream #little vent tw!!#it's been so long since I matched pfps last time was with my ex who started being wayyyyy too weird..#and the other time was with a friend who started ghosting me some months later just because I didnt give her enough adopt me pets or smth 💔#and like. her stopping talking to be literally broke me as a person. it was devastanting for like 13yo me #woahhh thank you k. now I have social anxiety and keep dobting whether people really want me there or not #I still have a sort of love hate relationship w her but like its been over 2 years maybe 3 why do I still care abt it sm :<#especially since our other bestie is wayy more affectionate w k than w me it just makes me feel so weird like im sort of a 3rd wheel #but at least the friend im gonna match with is the sweetest person ever and we can be silly together :333 #unfortunately we only know eachother from a course so we always have to wait 2 weeks to see eachother #and even tho i still see k almost every day shes pretty different now #but ive been feeling so so happy the last few days since school started and im afraid I might go back to being how I was when she returns #because. I bet my two friends will keep being silly together and ill have to sit w my ex again cuz hes still part of our friend group #I mean hes a nice and funny guy but I figured that a relationship wont work with us. I tried it and I just wanna be friends #I have a lot of fun w him but like in a platonic way #and im afraid he still thinks we should be together #meanwhile my besties keep flirting w eachother like??#I mean its pretty funny as a joke but I cant help but feeling kinda jealous especially because I used to have a huge crush in one of them #talked a bit too much ooopssss #Im just trying to move on but I hope k coming back doesnt start everything over again #anyways!! I love my bestie from the course smmmmmm Im still so so happy :D wish we could see eachother more #random stuff #chaos #friendship #violet rambles

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dollypopup · 2 years ago

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sometimes it's super sad going into the polin tag and seeing all the 'Pen is gonna be THE debutante next season' or 'Pen is gonna be the Diamond of S3' or 'Pen about to get ALLLLL the attention' and like

penelope was supposed to be for the wallflowers. the quiet girls. the ones who aren't the center of attention. penelope was never meant to be the heart of the party or the big draw or the one everyone drooled over. penelope was meant to be the character representing all the peeps who stood off to the side and, in many cases, preferred it that way.

give me Penelope going through all these lessons to be more 'appealing' and all the sparkly dresses and going 'actually? i kind of hate this'. give me Penelope dancing the night away with stranger after stranger and cringing about it the whole time. give me Penelope who just wants to go back to her hobbies and her friends and her comfy corner and is tired of pretending. give me Penelope who goes through the tedious introductions and the 'what's your name? number of siblings? favorite color? great. . .' first dates of it all and hating it. give me a Penelope who empathizes like hell with Eloise because she understands now how stressful it is to always be looked at and watched. give me a Penelope who has extra appreciation for Colin for looking to understand her when she was 'invisible' in ways no one else tried to. give me Penelope who gets a taste of being The Star and spits it right out

you don't have to be the sparkling gem of a party to be worth love and care. some of us don't want the Diamond moment. we deserve our flowers, too.

#polin #penelope featherington #bridgerton season 3 #bridgerton #bridgerton s3 #'oh but dolly pen's gonna dance w/ all those new guys and everyone's gonna look at her when she walks down the stairs'#'she'll have the Daphne moment where everyone stares at her and she'll put on the performance and *sparkle*'#what about this woman makes you think that is ANYTHING but a recipe for anxiety?#i would rather die #'dolly it's the fantasy of desire'#maybe her fantasy isn't to be desired by 75 different people on a surface level who don't know her and don't really care to #maybe her fantasy is to be desired by one specific person who recognizes her for all she is (spoiler: it is)#like i get it nicola is gorgeous but pen's not meant to be a knockout in the series

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twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat · 1 year ago

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me when i can’t decide between writing a fluffy achey teen satoru drabble or a kinda angsty hurt/comfort cult leader geto drabble or a sickeningly fluffy hurt/comfort stsg fic ……….. 😔😔😔

#h …. help……..#T_T #i . think. maybe i’ll focus on satoru for now….#but i wanna write the stsg one so bad too!!! :(( cuz its been so long since i wrote for them together…..#the cult leader geto one is a tiny part of a whole sequel i had planned for ”there was no place in nature we could meet”#so it’s very precious to me :’3 #just cult geto trying to help his very unwilling mean little reader w their anxiety..#they’re very damaged and very upset and push him away so desperately even though they just want him to stay…..#hhhh i love them sm T_T i need to write the prequel piece i had planned for them too…#….. honestly though i have . a Lot of different cult geto aus where his reader is prickly and mean to him 💀#i just think he’d be worryingly into it #when it comes to suguru i think he pairs best with silly readers or bratty readers #but w cult leader geto in particular. mean readers are always the best pick :3 he loves them.#and i love him #AHHHH WAIT I ALSO HAVE MY FLUFFY CULT GETO FIC TO WRITE 😭😭😭😭#it never ends ….#ari noises ✩

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catboy-jupiter · 6 months ago

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i'll be like "i'm a god of writing" and then an hour passes after i post or submit something and i'll be like "i'm so dumb there's so much i could've done better if only i'd waited a bit and looked at it with fresh eyes i would've noticed how much it sucks & what i could've improved that looks so much like first draft material there's so many revisions i could make why i am i so impulsive and overconfident" and then i'll start writing something else and be like "i'm a god of writing" again

#the woes of having both a superiority and inferiority complex #also i think this might be similar to how i only get performance anxiety AFTER the performance is done. i'm always like this #i'll be super chill before a play & during it but then the play ends and i'm like “fuck they must've hated my acting” or whatever #or i'll be super chill while singing but then it ends and i go “man i sung way too quietly & i think i was out of pitch i suck”#and once again as soon as i go back to doing it again i go “wow im super great at this im amazing”#on related news i applied to a zine with 2 out of 3 snippets being ones i started writing as soon as i decided i was actually gonna apply #& i decided i wanted to apply 5hrs before i sent the application #so uh. i wrote ~2.7k words within 5 hrs & didnt give myself time to edit it bc im a dumbass w/ no concept of time #(“the applications close jan 2nd so i need to get this done asap” dude there's like a week til then why the rush- oh youve already sent it)#tbf they're more like 2nd drafts? one is a scene i'd kind of written b4 but w/ the intent of no one seeing it so i completely rewrote it #& the other is a very VERY loose eng translation of like the first quarter of one of my one-shots. when u compare its more of a rewrite rly #but still i'm looking at them now & im getting 2nd thoughts i shouldve waited eughhh #if you're a mod of that zine pls look away hahahaha.....#unless you liked those last 2 snippets & r impressed with the fact they were rushed. if so then yea im a god of writing ik ik #but to be fr tho i actually think snippet 2 is pretty strong but i think the 3rd one is... very weak. there's not much cohesion #like i def could've added more connective tissue. i was just a bit over half the wc limit so that was def smth i couldve done. ugh

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astranauticus · 2 years ago

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in light of the new episode this joke i made once is feeling a lot more relevant

#rwd #asto speaks #rolling with difficulty #fuck it yeah i'll tag this i feel like at least some people will find this funny #it's the moment when noir said 'if you want VR-LA to understand what you want you have to tell him *verbatim*' that just #got me?? for some reason??#my irl insight is genuinely so bad i need people to tell me what their deal is or else i just have no clue #this joke has been simmering since like i got to season 3 this ep just had a lot of very raw heart to hearts so i was feeling it extra hard #also the whole VR-LA just needs a 'dani are you mad at me' sign but that might just be an anxiety thing #no the thing that always gets to me is that i never *registered* the autism of it all surrounding VR-LA until like #after i started engaging w the fan space and saw everyone talking about it #and i was like?? really?? gosh i never noticed #so yknow. that probably says something

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britneyshakespeare · 7 months ago

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do you ever feel like an absolute creep just for looking at somebody's social media profile and not interacting at all and it's like you feel like they can see you scrolling and reading and thinking and if you make one wrong move they know everything

#my social anxiety is insane. im literally looking at a web page #tales from diana #what if they get notified that someone looked at their publicly available posts #often enough when i do this. i just block the person. lolllll #but then i worry what if they somehow know that i blocked them 👁#and it's like. well. i know twitter is shit nowadays and musk changed a buncha things (allegedly. idk i havent tweeted since late '21)#but i bet they still don't notify someone when someone just looks at their tweets and leaves and blocks #and it's so ridiculous bc my account is private. has like 30 followers. hasn't been active in over 3 years #algorithmically it's completely hidden as far as anythign goes. i ONLY use it to lurk since u cant look at tweets wo logging in anymore #but i'm like what if i show up in this guy from high school's recommended. yeah as if lol #but i have to be so honest w you... the guy from high school... was really funny i love reading his tweets lol

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spaciebabie · 1 year ago

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does any other demiromantic (or arosepc doesnt rlly matter) feel like. extremely awful when they experience romantic attraction or is that just me.

#spacie spoinks #bruh #like. while im experiencing it i wish so badly that i wasnt 😭#i feel disgusted. is this what romantic repulsion is???#cuz like ill be experiencing all the lovey dovey stuff yk #''ooohb i wanna kiss dem oooh what if we help hands'' romantic crap but its like. anxiety inducing #like it feels awful??? is this normally how it feels?? i dont like it.#it like. doesnt feel right or natural and im assuming its b/c i just like?? barely feel it ever?? and thats why???#strange as hell.#i recently felt romantic attraction 2 someone (it has been 2 or 3 years since i last felt it) and it came on really strong for like #a week and that was like the worst week of my life #i couldnt think abt anything else but them like it wasnt even like. fantasies or anything just like.#the concept of them. my brain would just be like ''hey remember this guy''#I LIKE COULDNT SLEEP #HOW DO YOU PPL ENJOY THIS????#me; clutching my head for ~a week: AUUUGH!! THE PERSON!!! THE PERSON!!!!!#im so serious this is how it feels w/springtrap. hes like a blight on my psyche #the feelings have faded mostly i think. i think im normal abt them again (thank god)#its so strange. i think a romantic relationship would be fun but then i start feeling the feelings and its. awful.#so horrid #also like. im considering that maybe the relationship i would like some day isnt romantic but a qpr #idk. ive never been in any kind of serious relationship (never wanted 2 and have never been approached for it)#sometjing 2 think abt i guess?#anybeans. i tire.#hope i never experience that again #ik that like in 2-3 years ill be like: ''man. idk what past spacie was talking abt. would be nice 2 feel romantic attraction again''#NO SPACIE IT WONT!!! REMEMBER!!!!!! REMEMBER WHAT YOU WENT THRU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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morganpdf · 1 year ago

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(me watching a video abt how women get misdiagnosed consistently bc the doctors are always like Umm its just anxiety) haha yeah thats so true!! That's why i transitioned!! now they blame it on my hormones just trying to level out 🥰🥰🥰

#morgan.pdf #its like my anxiety stopped being the scapegoat lmaooooo #me when my 'trans friendly' doctor fail to tell me i have POTS & instead tells me that i'll feel better when i adjust to the hrt<3 #(i had been on hrt w consistent levels for years at that point . lmaooo)

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