#i have to wake up at 6 am tomorrow too LMAO

[boneappletits]

AHA so these are not weed brownies

[danieyells]

@mayoigotokurousagi also asked for Sho, so here are my favorite of Sho's voicelines! He's a lil more chill--most of the excitement for him is because Leo's causing him trouble, so maybe there won't be as many since it's just him? (Spoiler: i still put nearly all of them, or it feels that way. . . .)

Also sorry this one took way longer haha i had to do some irl stuff and i was pretty tired too lol. . .may not get to the next ones for a few days since i have to wake up early tomorrow and i work double shifts all weekend. But i'll try and find time for it.

Hello: (the first time the game is opened after that character is set as home screen NPC. Only happens once per day, unless the character is switched out and back.)

"Hey,  good timing. You got a second?" お、センパイ。いいとこに来たわ。ちょっと付き合ってくんね？



You've Got Mail: (whenever there's something in the inbox, usually Arena rewards)

"You got a message. Gonna check it or what?" おい、なんか通知来てっけど。見なくていいのか？　それ



Default: (requires no affinity, has no time constraints)

"Here you go, Bonnie. Barbecue sandwiches, your favorite." ほら、食えよボニー。お前の好きなＢＢＱサンドだぜ



"Huh? Was that your stomach? You hungry?" ……？　なんだよ。もしかしてあんた、腹減ってんの？



"Pit's on again? I'm done with that already. They're all normies—what's the point?" あ？　また地下で騒いでんのか？ 俺はもうやんねぇよ……パンピー相手にしても仕方ねぇだろ

the word he uses for 'normie' here means 'commoner' lmao

"Yeah I got it, you want to train. You go ahead, I'll catch up." はいはい、トレーニングっすよね。もうちょいしたら行くんで



"Did you just see a creep in a black mask over there? ...Nah, never mind. I'm hallucinating." ……今、あそこに黒マスクした胡散臭ぇやつ歩いてなかったか？ ……いや、なんでもねぇ。幻覚だわ

SO THIS LINE CONFUSED ME AT FIRST because it's always referred to as a blindfold by everyone else? HE'S TALKING ABOUT HYDE HYDE IS JUST STALKING HIM LMAO

Affinity 1: (between 5am and 11am)

"Too early... What's Leo doing today? Guess I'll text him." ねっみ……玲音のやつ、今日はどうすんだ？ 一応Ｄチャしとくか……

if it's too early for you it's too early for Leo. But also I'm sure he's got something exciting or interesting planned. I like that we're immediately shown he wants to spend time with Leo even when he's tired haha

Affinity 2: (between 11am and 4pm)

"Freakin' sasquatch... Would it kill him to approve an R&R permit every once in a while?" ったく、あのデカブツ……外出許可くらい出せっつの

Affinity 3: (between 4pm and 8pm)

"Class? What's the point? It's all written in the textbooks—all you gotta do is memorize it." 授業？　あんなん出なくても全部教科書に書いてんだからよ。そのまま覚えりゃいいだけだろ？

Doesn't go to class because he's smart enough to memorize the contents of the textbook I guess! Plus he doesn't care as much about Real Missions so knowing how to do the hard stuff doesn't matter to him haha. . .plus first years probably don't learn as much that's not in the textbook too.

Affinity 4: (between 8pm and 5am)

"All right, time to go for a spin. C'mon, Bonnie." うし、軽く流してくっか。行こうぜ、ボニー

Affinity 5: (between 8pm and 5am)

"(yawn) What time is it? Seriously? Damn, overslept." ふぁあ…… 今何時だ……？ マジかよ、寝すぎたわ

Neither he nor Leo sleep at night lmao

Affinity 6: (between 4pm and 8pm)

"Huh, haven't ridden a skateboard since middle school but I guess I still have the muscle memory. Watch this, I'm gonna do a trick." 中坊ぶりにスケボー乗ったけど、意外と体が覚えてんだな。 トリック決めてやるよ、見ててみ？

Affinity 7: (between 11am and 4pm)

"Nice, got an order. More demand than I thought. Getting Leo to make this app was a good call." お、出前の予約が入ったわ……思ったより需要あってよ。 玲音に予約アプリ作らせたの正解だったな

Leo has a line that references this one!

Affinity 8: (between 4pm and 8pm)

"What's Mido texting me for? come tot hr epuit... Pfft. What the hell is this, some kinda secret code?" あ？　御堂センパイからＤチャ？『血か二個い』って…… ぷっ……なんだこれ、暗号かよ

Ksvdhdisn Alan is adorable. . .i love technologically incompetent characters. Poor bby can't even text. . . . .

Affinity 9: (between 8pm and 5am)

"Shit, my whole body's killing me... Sparring five sets of fifteen rounds, are you kidding me? Mido's insane..." クソ、筋肉痛がやべぇ…… 御堂センパイ、スパー１５ラウンド５セットとか正気じゃねぇよ……

Affinity 10: (between 10pm and midnight)

"What am I gonna do tomorrow... Got nothing on, guess I could go to class... That asshole's on the schedule. Pass." 明日どうすっかな……暇だし、たまには授業出とくか？ ……あいつのコマあるわ。やめとこ

Lmao 'i guess i could go to class--wait my brother's teaching one of them tomorrow? Fuck that then.'

Affinity 11: (between 5am and 11am)

"All right, that's the morning prep done. Guess I'll shower and go back to bed." うし、朝の仕込みはこんなもんか。後は……シャワー浴びて二度寝だな

Affinity 12: (between 11am and 4pm)

"This? It's a fishing rod. Sometimes I catch and filet the fish myself. It's pretty easy, and it saves cash." あ？　これか？　釣り竿だよ。たまに自分で魚釣ってさばくわけ。 簡単だし、コスパ良いだろ？

Fishing with Sho. . .sounds nice and chill. Also did the pc not recognize a fuckin fishing rod. . . .

Affinity 13: (between 4pm and 8pm)

"{PC}, there you are. I'm headed to the diner, could you come with and help me carry some stuff?" お、センパイ見っけた。俺、今からダイナー行くんだけどよ。ちょっと荷物持ち手伝ってくんね？

Affinity 14: (between 5am and 11am)

"You think I look grumpy? The stream for the finals started at 3 AM, what do you want me to do about that? (yawn)" ……あ？　機嫌が悪ぃって？ しょうがねぇだろ……決勝の中継、夜中の３時開始だぜ？ ふぁあ……

Staying up late to watch a basketball game, much like Leo he does not go to bed until the sun's up ordinarily lmao

Affinity 15: (between 5am and 11am)

"Hey... Pfft. What are you panicking for? You need to be somewhere? Hop on—I'll give you a ride." お、センパイじゃん。ぷっ……なんだよその余裕ねぇ顔。 急いでんなら、乗っけてってやろうか？

Affinity 16: (between 11am and 4pm)

"You hungry, {PC}? I made lunch, but Leo bailed on me, so I was just gonna eat it myself." センパイ、腹減ってねぇ？ 昼飯作ったんだけどよ。玲音のやつ来ねぇし、食っちまおうと思って

Sho: hey our boyfriend ditched me wanna have lunch with me

Affinity 17: (between 10pm and midnight)

"Last year I would've been in a club around this time. Leo was always getting in fights though, so we got banned from almost every joint in Shibuya." 昔はこの時間、毎日クラブいてよ。玲音がすぐ喧嘩すっから、渋谷の箱ほとんど出禁になっちまったけどな

Menace boyfriend Leo lmao

Affinity 18: (between 8pm and 5am)

"{PC}, black or white? I'm trying to choose some packaging for the food truck, what'd you think I meant? ...I'll keep it in mind, anyway." センパイさ、白と黒どっちが好き？ ……出前の容器の話なんだけどな。ま、一応覚えといてやるよ

Affinity 19: (between 10pm and midnight)

"Geez, it's pretty late. Wait there—I'll give you a ride back." もうこんな時間かよ…… 送ってくわ。そこで待ってろ

Affinity 20: (between 5am and 11am)

"Seriously, it's way too early for this... What? I'm going to class. You're the one who wouldn't shut up about it." はぁ……マジねみぃ…… あ？　今から授業行くんだよ。あんたが行けってうるせぇからだろ

Ordinarily doesn't go to class(a lot of them don't tbh, and Luca says the classes are elective so the ghouls probably don't have to) but will go if you want him to I guess! Leo's gonna call him whipped but Leo already knows he's whipped because he's the one who's been whipping him--

Affinity 21: (between 11am and 4pm)

"I've finally got the hang of running this food truck. I want to thank you for helping me out—think of something you want." キッチンカーも大分慣れてきたわ。手伝ってもらった礼もしてぇし、何か欲しいもの、考えといて

Affinity 22: (between 4pm and 8pm)

"Huh? No, I don't really need any help today... You don't have to make excuses to hang out with me, you know. Just ask." 手伝い？　今日は特にねぇけど…… センパイ、俺と一緒にいたいって、素直に言えば？

"senpai, why don't you just tell me honestly if you wanna be with me?" Is the Japanese here I think and. idk i love that. He's catching on and teasing you a little.

Affinity 23: (between 8pm and 5am)

"What time you planning on heading home, {PC}? Anytime's fine for me. You can stay over if you want." センパイ、今日何時に帰る予定？俺は別に、何時でも…… なんなら、泊まってってもいいぜ？

Affinity 24: (between 10pm and midnight)

"Can't sleep? Come over here—I'll warm you up. Pfft... I was kidding, don't get mad." なんだよ……寝れねぇのか？あっためてやるから、こっち来い。 ぷっ……冗談だって。怒んなよ

WERE YOU KIDDING THO. WERE YOU? KINDA HIGH AFFINITY TO JOKE LIKE THAT. AND YOU JUST SAID THEY COULD STAY OVER IF THEY WANTED. . .CHOOSE YOUR WORDS CAREFULLY SHOHEI

Affinity 25(max): (no time constraints)

"Here, this helmet's for you. I got some time today, so I'll take you somewhere. Anywhere you wanna go." はい、あんたのメット。今日は時間あっから、センパイの行きたいとこ連れてってやるよ

Spring: (March-May) (between 5am and 11am)

"Forget it, I can't keep my eyes open. Wake me when it's noon." 駄目だ。ねみぃ。���んなったら起こして

(between 11am and 4pm)

"Pretty warm out lately, huh? Bet it's already snorkeling season in Okinawa. I used to go pretty often." もう大分あったかくなってきたな。沖縄じゃ、シュノーケリングできる時期だぜ？　昔はよく行ってたわ

He plays basketball, he skateboards, he fishes, he snorkels, this bitch loves sports lol

(between 4pm and 8pm)

"This? It's chirashizushi. Cuts are pretty chic, right? The idea came to me when I was over in Hotarubi." これか？　ちらし寿司作ってんの、飾り切り渋ぃだろ。 ホタルビ行ったら、こんなイメージが湧いたからよ

Chirashizushi is sushi ingredients cut into small pieces and scattered over sushi rice! It comes in a lot of variation and isn't always made with raw fish like you might expect sushi to be.

(between 8pm and 5am)

"If I can get an R&R permit granted, I want to go for a solo ride. Haven't been for ages, and riding through the cherry blossoms this time of year feels awesome." 外出許可出たらよ、久々にひとりで走りてぇわ。この時期の桜坂辺り、最高に気持ちいんだよな……



Summer: (June-August) (between 5am and 11am)

"Damn, I'm melting here... I need a haircut. Nah I don't need a barber, I just do it myself. 'Course I'm serious." クソ暑ぃ……そろそろ髪切んねぇとな…… 美容院？　めんどくせぇから自分で切ってっけど。マジだぜ？

Sho really knows a little about everything huh. He cuts his own hair, he memorizes textbooks, he plays every sport, he can cook. . .is there anything Sho can't do? In his character story he even says he played guitar for a little while but hasn't done it lately, so music is probably within his wheelhouse too.

(between 11am and 4pm)

"Sweating my ass off over here... It's been like a year since I last played basketball. Mido's core's gotta be made of steel... Oh, is that water for me? Thanks." 暑ぃ！　バスケしたの１年ぶりか？御堂センパイ、体幹強すぎだろ…… お、水くれんの？　サンキュ

actually i'd like to see alan playing basketball too. . .it's nice to know he doesn't just work out by sparring and running, he'll play sports too.

(between 4pm and 8pm)

"Summer homework? Nah, haven't done it yet. Only takes a day, right? Pfft... You want me to help you?" 夏の課題？　まだやってねぇけど。あんなもん一日で終わるだろ？ ぷっ……センパイ手伝ってやろうか

(between 8pm and 5am)

"Leo won't shut up about wanting to let off fireworks, but no way am I doing that shit with him again. I'm sure you can guess why." 玲音が花火してぇってうるせぇんだけどよ、俺は二度とあいつとはやんねぇって決めてんの。わかんだろ？

wtf was Leo doing with the fireworks that Sho decided he's never settijng off fireworks with him again. . .was he just pointing them at him lmao. Leo also has a line referencing this!



Autumn: (September-November) (between 5am and 11am)

"Yesterday when I was fishing in the river I saw this guy who looked like one of the Frostheim ghouls out there. Can't have been though, right?" 昨日川釣り行ってきたんだけどよ、フロストハイムの奴に似てんのがいた気がすんだよな……人違いか？

which one. . .i mean if it was Luca he was probably training, but if it was Kaito. . .idk what Kaito would be doing out in the river by himself. . .I know it wasn't Jin but if it was Tohma maybe it was some official business. . .? Or, y'know, spy stuff. . . .

(between 11am and 4pm)

"Geez, don't pipe up outta the blue like that. ...What? You gotta a problem with me reading a book?" ビビった。いきなり声かけんなよ。 ……なんだよ、その顔。俺が本読んでちゃ悪ぃのか？　あ？

sho has been saying like this entire time 'yeah i read and memorize the textbooks instead of going to class' how is the pc so shocked to see him ACTUALLY READING. Then again, i also wouldn't think he's a hobby reader. . .on the other hand he's got like every hobby he can get his hands on, so it makes sense.

(between 4pm and 8pm)

"Pfft... Hey, {PC}. Come over here. Geez, what're you doing walking around with a leaf in your hair?" ぷっ……【名★前】センパイ、ちょっとこっち来い。 ったく、なんで髪に葉っぱ付けてんだよ……

(between 8pm and 5am)

"Scariest Ghost Videos to Fuel Your Nightmares... I asked a buddy for some good videos to kill the time, and he sent me this..." 『最恐の怨霊ビデオ集』…… ダチに暇つぶしになる動画教えろっつったら、これ送られてきたんだよ

it's hard to tell based on his expression how he feels about this lol

i wonder if he's not really into horror stuff or it makes him feel uneasy after the PC got attacked by Takeru?



Winter: (December-February) (between 5am and 11am)

"I get more delivery orders on cold days... It's a pain in the ass, but I guess I'll just wear an extra layer..." 寒ぃ日ってさ、出前の注文やたら増えんだよな…… めんどくせぇけど今日は１枚多めに着とくか……

(between 11am and 4pm)

"Damn, I really wanna go snowboarding. I used to go every year before I ended up here... Think they got a good slope in Frostheim?" マジでスノボ行きてぇ……ここ来る前は、毎年必ず行ってたのによぉ。 フロストハイムで滑れねぇの？

I bet they do I mean rich people would wanna go skiing now and then right? It's just a matter of would they let a vagastromer use them. . .then again what're they gonna do, stop him?

(between 4pm and 8pm)

"Huh? I'm looking at a catalog. I could serve hot food if I had an electric pot. I'm thinking about it." ……あぁ？　カタログ見てんだよ。保温ジャーがありゃ、あったけぇメニュー出せんだろ？ 考え中

this makes it sound like his food isn't served hot lol to my understanding he does make everything in advance, not on the spot but i assume he means like. hot-hot. like soups for the winter kind of thing. he should do it! serve up some new england clam chowder.

(between 8pm and 5am)

"I'm freezing my ass off... I just saw Mido walk past in a T-shirt. Are his nerve endings dead?" クソ寒ぃ……さっき御堂センパイ、Ｔシャツ１枚で出てったんだけど。自律神経狂ってんじゃねぇ？

Apparently I'm Alan lmao i too experience less cold than other people



His birthday: (August 19th)

"What, you're gonna celebrate my birthday? What do I want for a present? Hmm... I'll take you. Just kidding." へぇ、俺の誕生日祝ってくれんの？プレゼント…… じゃあさ、あんたのことくれよ。 なんてな

Y'KNOW I'M SURE THEY WOULDN'T MIND IF YOU WEREN'T KIDDING THO YOU ARE VERY POPULAR then again based on his valentine's day dialogue he knows that lol



Your birthday:

"Know what this is, {PC}? Yep—an R&R permit. Today's your birthday, right? So, where are we going?" センパイ、これ何だと思う？　そ、外出許可書。 今日、誕生日だろ？どこ行きたいか考えとけよ

I'm beginning to suspect that he heavily values freedom and being able to go where he wants and do what he wants. That includes taking you wherever you wanna go. Even at max affinity he has the same response--'we're going somewhere, anywhere you want.' At max affinity he doesn't mention an R&R permit--which suggests he doesn't care if you get in trouble going out, as long as you actually get to go out. One of the first things we see him talking about relating to Darkwick is asking Leo if he regrets going--I think Sho regrets it. He can't leave whenever he wants, even though he's one of the top students as far as grades, he's more restricted in what he's allowed to do and when. . .so I think these offers to drive you anywhere in total freedom are his ways of showing you what means the most to him. Just. . .being able to do whatever, whenever. I think that's also part of why he likes Leo so much. Leo doesn't let himself be restricted either. Leo gets into fights and into trouble and Sho complains about it but he understands the liberation. Sho wants to see that unrestricted you, I think. Even if it isn't anything extreme, even if it isn't anything exciting. He wants to see what you're like out of Darkwick's cage. So he'll take you on little joyrides into freedom. Show him where you go and what you do when no one's there to stop you.

New Years: (January 1st)

"What'd I wish for at midnight? For this year to be peaceful... Not that any gods are listening out for us." 新年の願い事ねぇ……今年こそ、平穏無事に過ごせますように…… って、神様叶える気ねぇだろな

Well when you've been chosen by demons. . .yeah, you're probably not on the good side of many gods.



Valentine's Day: (February 14th)

"Yeah, these are all the chocolates I got. No idea how I'm gonna get through them all... So? You didn't get me anything?" ああ、これ全部もらったチョコ。これ食いきんのきちぃんだよな…… で、センパイは俺にくれねぇの？

I'm surprised Leo's wasn't similar to this tbh. Like, Leo's an influencer, why didn't he mention getting a metric fuckton of valentine's day chocolate? I'm happy Sho's loved by the students tho haha.



White Day: (March 13th)

"Baking sweets and cooking are totally different. It's not really in my wheelhouse, but... here. My firsts. Thanks for the chocolates." 菓子作りと料理は別もんだからよ、普段はやんねぇんだけど…… はい。俺の初焼き菓子、お返しにどうぞ

THE FIRST TIME HE EVER BAKED AND IT'S FOR YOU what a sweetheart. considering how good he is at just about everything i'm sure they came out just fine



April Fool's Day: (April 1st)

"Hey, it's snowing outside. Wait, guess that's not so unlikely in this place... I used to get duped by that one all the time when I was a kid." おい、外、雪降ってんぞ？ って、この学園じゃ嘘になんねぇか。ガキの頃、これ何回やられたことか……

we found the one thing he's not good at! pulling pranks!

Halloween: (October 31st)

"You really need an explanation? Leo made me wear it! Shit, why am I always the girl..." ああ？　言わなくてもわかんだろ。玲音に着せられたんだっつの！ クソ、なんで毎年女装なんだよ……

Your boyfriend best friend makes you crossdress for him on Halloween on a yearly basis. . .and you do it!!!



Christmas: (December 25th)

"Sorry for making you help me prep all these roast chicken orders... Wanna do something Christmassy together once we're done?" センパイ、チキンの注文さばくの手伝わせて悪ぃ…… 今日の分片付いたら、俺らもクリスマス楽しもうぜ

Christmas is often considered a holiday spent with a lover in Japan to my understanding. . .what are you suggesting Sho. . . .



Idle: (about 20 seconds without interacting with the game) (below 13 affinity)

"What're you looking at?" あぁ？　見てんじゃねぇよ

little peek at the delinquent thug vibe lol

(13 affinity and above)

"C'mon. Hurry up, or I'm gonna leave you behind." センパイ、そろそろ行くぞ。早くしねぇと置いてっちまうぜ？

Always on the go, always doing something, he doesn't wanna leave you behind but he won't wait too long so. . .come back already?

Absent: (logging in for the first time in 2 or more days?)

"What took you so long? Your food's cold. Go wash up." 遅ぇよ……あんたの飯、冷めちまっただろ。 さっさと手ぇ洗ってこい

Alright, mom.

I STILL FEEL LIKE I CHOSE A BUNCH THIS ONE IS ALSO ALL OF THEM NOW . . .Sho is pretty lowkey. But after rereading them all and giving it some thought, you can definitely get a feel for his character. He seems like he keeps busy a lot--he's always doing something. Cooking, playing sports, reading, memorizing his textbooks. . .he's confident and comfortable and sometimes he's a bit rough around the edges. And sometimes he's a little flirty too, if he likes you. But that's all part of how confident and self-assured he is--and he has plenty of reason to be when he's so smart and skilled at damn near everything he touches. He acts more like the senpai character here. He's a lot like Haku, except where Haku is a bit lazier and less motivated(although he still works hard) Sho is always on the go. Always up to something, always trying something. He likes to keep busy and doesn't like to sit still--to the point that he even considers going to class when he's got nothing to do during the day. He wakes up and has nothing to do? Let's call Leo, he's usually got something going on. He complains about Alan making him work out so much or go to the pit or play basketball real hard? He still goes and does it anyway. But it seems like he just. . .always wants to be busy. I can't really think of many points he just kinda had downtime. Yeah, he goes fishing and reads and watches basketball(?) but like. . .he's still occupied even then. Then again maybe that's because he's stuck in Darkwick. He'd rather be driving around somewhere or doing some sport but he can't do so much unless he can leave. . .he feels a little restless to me. But maybe that's just me haha.

[flcwermimi]

— VOID STATE PROGRESS CHART ❜

Hlo everyone so right now my Summer breaks are going on and I've decided to enter the void state because I can and this is my daily routine progress chart though I've decided to share this with you all yesterday but I was unable to post so I am sharing it right now

Ok my routine is simple and right now I am not doing anything in day ( like listening to subliminals or doing robotic affirmation) I am using deep trance hypnosis method which I got to know by @/gorgeouslypink when I came across one her of post she suggested this video and after that when I research a little bit on this topic I get to know that DEEP TRANCE : is altered states that are characterized by profound relaxation and loss of control over the body, as well as a subjective sense of floating or detachment from one's physical self

I kind of found deep trance similar to Void helpful for my brain because it doesn't question around when I am doing this method

So this all for this post right now I will be updating it after doing the method tonight bye luv you all🫶🤍

— 5/07/2024 : okay so update 😭this is hilarious lmao what happened actually is that I thought first I will do some breathing exercises for relaxation & for which I was listening to a video and I didn't knew that my mobile was charge was low on the top of that I fell asleep on my back lol but anyway I when I woke in up the morning I affirm that ' I can enter the void when I want ' I will update tomorrow luv y'all 😌

— 6/07/2024 : y'all probably thought I had give up but no I was in mobile area for few so days so there no internet connection and for update I had change the methods because the voice in hypnosis is too sweet to focus. everytime I found myself wandering in different things. So what I did in next two days was focusing on lucid dreaming

— 7/07/2024 : The whole day I listen to this subliminal ( probably one of the best subliminal I've ever found) while listening to subliminals I affirmed that ' I am always aware when I am dreaming & I lucid dream easily and effortlessly ' I kept doing reality check every hour like biting tounge counting fingers and pinching nose though in the night'I didn't dream😭lmao all I remember was a pitch black so belive I was in void but unaware and I also kept the subliminal on loop so that was the mistake I guess

— 8/07/2024 : Again I did the same routine which I did yesterday but this time I didn't kept the subliminals loop all night instead I started counting while affirming the same affirmation then I fall asleep again when I woke up in the morning I thought it again ended on the same page like yesterday but I was able to recall each and every single details of my dream & I am pretty sure I will Lucid dream tonight will update tomorrow and also I will be making a different post how to shift/tap into void through lucid dream that's all for today luv y'all 🫶🫡

— 9/07/2024 : update so yesterday I did the same routine though I just couldn't sleep on my back because I felt like someone was ripping my scalp out of my skull and I thought I will do that 4-6 hours method for Lucid dream but when alarm woke me up😭💀I was like it's just 4:30 why I am waking up so early?? I forgot what I was doing then fell asleep but anyway each and every step I take I am feeling I am very close to my goal I am very motivated any second you all can get my success story 🤭so hang on lmao will update luv y'all 🤍

— 10/07/2024 : update okay guys I seriously have no idea what happened yesterday's night cause i feel I did have multiple dreams I tired to connect the dot but it doesn't end up anywhere so that's it will update tomorrow 🤍

— 11/07/2024 : i feel like I am having iceberg it's frustrating but okay I didn't follow the routine yesterday cuz I was feeling very low but I will do it again today will update tomorrow 🤍

12/07/2024 : okay okay update I was lucid in my yesterday dream but all of sudden a spider was crawling in my hand💀 an I have Arachnophobia so I just couldn't control the dream and I woke up lmao I will try today not freak out with a spider okay bye will update tomorrow

13/07/2024 : update I just fall asleep normally because I feel I am having burn out so I will took break of three days where I am going for tracking and I will update after that 🤍

14/07/2024 : Break

15/07/2024 : Break

16/07/2024 : Break

17/07/2024 : 😂okay I forgot I was doing void routine but any way will update tomorrow 🤍🫶

18/07/2024 : okay I didn't follow any routine yesterday I did have plenty of works and after doing that I just fell asleep will update tomorrow 🤍

19/07/2024 : okay I didn't did anything different from yesterday I've been busy with the uni addmission process will update tomorrow

20/07/2024 : yesterday I didn't know how but from nowhere I did have alot of symptoms and I was so tired. In my mind I was convienced I am not gonna move but the symptoms were alot I couldn't focus so u gave up will update tomorrow

21/07/2024 : Yesterday I was in sleep paralysis but I heard smthing terrible sound in my earbud it was really terrifying I just can't describe here skskdkshkdsss will update tomorrow 🤍😐

22/07/2024 : I went for bonfire so i didn't did anything after that will update tomorrow

23/07/2024: 😭 seriously I forgot to update

24/07/2024 : Either I am dreaming about spider or someone chasing me with something axe on their hand yesterday I was lucid but I got freak and woke up will update tomorrow

25/07/2024 : 😭 update yesterday I was in hypnagogia state i also had that floating sensation ok ok will update tomorrow skskskssfkss

26/07/2024 : pulled allnight so didn't did anything will update tomorrow

27/07/2024 :

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29/07/2024 : hey y'all sorry I haven't updated it two days cause I've been sick it's some kind flu spreading in our area and I don't feel doing the routine so I will update when I get better and yes I will answer your DM thankyou 🤍

- sorry if there are errors I am improving my English

[cosmic-crybaby]

Blue Skies - Tommy Shelby

Chapter 6: ‘Stolen Moments’ 

Warnings in this chapter: mentions of abortion, light angst, Tommy meeting the kid's lmao

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The drive home was long, so you offered for him to stay. 

It was the first time he had come inside of your home, and you were a bit strung out. Apprehensive on is thoughts of your home since it was nowhere near as grand and luxurious as his mansion. 

You had walked ahead first, finding Esme sitting in the kitchen table, waiting for your return. 

“Esme, hi,” You said hushed, getting her attention. She quickly stood, a bright smile n her face as she grabs her shawl. 

“(Y/n), how’d it go?” She asked, wrapping it around her shoulders with a silent yawn. You point towards the entryway with your eyes and a mischievous smile. You put your finger up to your lips as she gasps. 

“He’s here?” She whispered. You nod in excitement as you both quietly giggle, grinning eagerly as you held her hands. 

“Are the kids asleep?” You asked. She nodded once again. 

“Been out since nine,” She noted. 

“Thank you so much...” You paused to hug her. “Come see me tomorrow so I can repay you,”

Without giving her a chance to object, you were already sneaking back to where Thomas was. Leading him up the flight of stairs into your bedroom. Esme had left herself out not long after your conversation with her had ended, she grinned to herself as she caught a glimpse of the gangster that followed behind you. 

The morning sun had woken you up. The bright rays burned your still sleepy eyes, as the birds chirped and sang it made you feel thankful that you weren’t anywhere near the loud city. But, it slowly dawned on you that you had slept in. You quickly sit up and check the mahogany clock on your nightstand. Scolding yourself as you forgot to set your alarm to wake up early enough to get Thomas out of the house before your kids woke up. 

‘Shit,’ You mumbled to yourself as you threw the covers off of your half-naked body. “Thomas,” You hear a sleepy groan in response. 

“Thomas, wake up...” You tied your silk robe on and clipped your hair out of your face. 

“Hm?” He hummed, his eyes still heavy from sleep as he saw your blurry figure rushing around the room to gather his things. 

“My kids...they’ll be up soon,” You told him quietly, speaking too soon as you had already heard their footsteps on the wooden floors, followed by child-like banter. 

“Fuck,” He sighed as he sat himself up and started getting dressed, pulling on his shirt first. 

“Mum!” Elizabeth shouted in a sing-song tone as she banged on the door with her palm, angrily. 

“H-Hold on, I’m getting dressed!” You called back as you held the door shut. 

“We need to start doing this is a more methodical way, eh (Y/n)?” He whispered groggily in an annoyed tone as he buttoned up his shirt. 

“Okay, yes we will I just-” 

“I just think it would be better if I met them before the baby was born,” He inquired sarcastically, making direct eye-contact with you for a brief moment before turning to grab his jacket from the armchair. You close your mouth, not wanting to argue against him. A small part of you knew he was right. 

“Mum!” Henry joined in, pestering you with their constant banging on the door and needy shouting.

“Kids, please!” You shouted in frustration. “Go to your room, I will be there in a moment!” You pleaded. Sighing as you turned towards Thomas again.

“Thomas…You will meet them, just when the time is right,”

“There’s a deadline, (Y/n),”

His words caused you to cross your arms over your chest and give him a stern look.

“I am not comfortable introducing you to my children right now,” Putting your foot down since he was being so persistent. He slips his shoes on and dusts off his coat.

“And I don’t commit to anything unless they can commit to me as well, you have just sixteen weeks-”

“Jesus Christ, Thomas we will talk about this another time, I promise…Just not now,” You whispered the last part. He blinks at you before turning his back to you once more.

“I will go into their room to get them ready, once you hear the door close please let yourself out,”

“Of course,” He turned to you again, a pistol in his hand that he shoved into the holster. You curse under your breath and roll your eyes in disdain.

“I can’t believe you,” You mutter, mostly to yourself, as you leave the bedroom. Closing the door behind you and walking into the children's shared room, preparing to get ready for their trip to go back to London after a week with you.

"Where is dad meeting us this time?” Elizabeth asked, you thought for a moment. Rushing to grab their bags. 

“Train station I believe-”

Henry's voice then rang a set of words you wish you didn’t have to hear that morning.

“Mum…There’s a man in our house,”

You turned to see your son looking up at Thomas, who in turn, glances at the boy then back at you with wide-eyes, while your eyes were dawned with aggravation with a deadly stare.

The four of you sat at the kitchen table, your kids looking at Thomas in uncertainty. And for the first time, Thomas only felt the slightest bit nervous.

“Um…” You cleared your throat. “This is Thomas Shelby…Thomas this is Elizabeth and Henry,” You told him as you pet your children's heads as they stared blankly at him. His icy stare would often inflict intimidation and fear into whomever was at the opposing end, but the nonchalant stare of your children was somehow just as unsettling. They didn’t crack, not one bit, and Thomas quirked a brow at this.

“It’s nice to meet you both,” He nodded once with a grunt as he cleared his dry throat, itching for a cigarette. The silence caused you to speak up first.

“Um…Elizabeth loves to dance, isn’t that right?” You asked, she nodded looking at you then back to Thomas.

“Ballet, I assume?” Thomas asked. She acknowledged him with a slight smile.

“She’s at the top of her class and she’s got a role in Swan Lake this year,”

“Yeah…Our performance is coming up soon,” She spoke softly.

“I would love to be there, if that’s okay with you,” He asked formally. She thought for a moment then shrugged with a nod. You and Thomas share a slight smile, feeling accomplished.

“What about you, Henry? What do you like to do?” Thomas asked as he turned to look at the younger boy.

"I play the violin, but I reckon I'm not very good," He shyly said, looking off to the side.

"Yet...With enough practice I'm sure you'll perfect it one day," Thomas' words caused your heart to melt just a bit. You now knew he did have a soft spot for children, maybe this could work out in the end.

"Mum...We have to go," Elizabeth whispered.

"Oh...Oh right! Sorry, I have to take them to the train station, but thank you so much, Thomas," You stood up.

"Of course, I'll see you very soon," He ghosted a smile before he stood up as well as to let himself out, you refrained from giving him a goodbye kiss so as to not show too much affection in front of your children.

"...or never," Elizabeth mumbled under her breath, causing you to scold her.

"Enough of that, be nice," You handed her the small suitcase.

After you had dropped them off at the train station, you hurried to work. It was around noon by the time you had arrived thanks to Thomas' mishap this morning. You prepared the bread and pastries right away but it wasn’t until later in the day that the bakery was fully open. The flood of customers coming in and out overwhelmed you, but thankfully Esme eventually came in and convinced you to close early and have some time to talk alone and catch up with her on how your night with Thomas went. The two of you sat on one of the tables, pouring yourselves some hot tea as you scooted the chair in close.

"It seems like he's passed the first test, aye?" She asked, smiling. You only shrugged and plopped two cubes of sugar in your cup.

"Hardly, I mean, they were both fond of him to say the least, but you know how kids are when it comes to new people," You blew on your steaming tea before taking the first sip. It was bitter to you, causing you to grimace and add some more sugar. Esme gave you a strange glance, noticing the abnormal amounts of sugar you were adding, since you usually were usually quite fond of the bitterness of your black tea.

"(Y/N), can I ask the obvious question?" She hesitantly asked, her brows quivering a bit in a soft expression. 'Yes of course, Esme,' You told her.

"Why...why are you so opposed to gettin’ an-"

"Getting rid of it?...I'm not opposed, really," You corrected her.

"Then...why aren't you even considering it? Thomas has got tons of money, he can take you to a proper doctor," She reached a hand out on top of yours. You set your tea down.

"I am considering it,"

"It really doesn't seem like it, love," Her tone was more harsh this time, and you took notice of it almost immediately.

"I am, I want to make sure I am certain...before I go," You pressed your lips in a thin line as she looked at you, a tilt of her head and a quirk of her brow led you to believe that she did not believe you, not one bit. 'mh-hmm,' she hummed.

"Esme, you know where I stand on this, a woman's body is her own and she is allowed to make her own choice," Your voice was stern as you told her this.

"It really doesn't seem like you are..." She shook her head. You scoffed and sighed heavily before running a hand over your face.

"I've had one before...it was when I was young before I got married...It was with a boy from school that I was interested in but he didn't want any children so I went to a doctor...it was no big deal," That last part was a lie. You were only fifteen at the time and after you had it, in hopes of you and the boy staying together, he left. Convinced you to have it then broke your heart the second you were off of the local drugs they gave you.

"I just think it's different now that I have my kids...especially when I had them with someone that I loved as much as he loved me at the time...So, knowing what I know now, it's just more complicated," You spoke, taking another anxious sip of your tea as Esme watched you with judgment.

"What do you know now, (Y/n)?" She asked. You blinked at her before your lips turned up slightly.

"Elizabeth and Henry...My amazing children," You told her. It was quiet after that. Esme left the bakery shortly after, not liking the tension she had created between you two.

You on the other hand closed up the shop, cleaned, counted the money, and went back to your empty home.

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[the-cult-of-russo]

Just Beneath The Flames (Part 8)

Pairing: Billy Russo x Reader

Warnings: cursing, smut at some point probably lmao, zombie shit, typical canon violence. You know the drill.

A/N: I’ve only just finished writing chapter 9 of this story and it’s been like pulling teeth with how unwell I am. B12 anemia is no joke lmao I’ll be posting it tomorrow obviously, but I’m not sure if chapter 10 will be done in time for the day after or not. It depends on how inspired I am and how I’m feeling. 

That being said, thank you to those that are still enjoying the story!

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The sun was only just rising and you pulled your jacket tighter around yourself as you leaned against a tree just outside of Frank’s camp. You weren’t sure if winter had started, and you hoped it hadn’t, or if you were on the cusp of it. Either way, it was starting to get a little too cold for your liking. The camp not too far away was silent and you knew they were asleep. If you had to hazard a guess, you thought it might be around 6 or 7 am, but you really had no idea. You knew not everyone in the camp would be asleep, they took watch shifts over the night to make sure they didn’t get caught with their pants down. That was one thing you missed about being in a group. There was a safety that came with knowing people were keeping an eye out when you slept. It was harder to get a good night's sleep when you were on high alert, having to be ready for anything with no one to watch your back. You waited for about five minutes before Billy sauntered through the trees. He looked a little more rumpled than usual, clearly not having time to style his hair. You’d mocked him once about him having perfect hair, even in the apocalypse and he’d given you a smirk and the line; ‘Hey, the world mighta gone to shit, but it don’t mean my looks have to’. You really hadn’t expected any different from him. This morning though he seemed to be up earlier so his hair was slightly disheveled. He had on a forest green sweater and a leather jacket pulled over it, his usual jeans and boots on. 

“Ready?” you asked, eyeing the bow in his hand. You’d left yours back at the treehouse and you felt like you’d left your pants at home or something, it was weird. You’d been using it a lot more recently, with all the hunting you’d been doing but you’d also been going on more runs with the guys. It had been a little over a week since the whole ‘almost getting set on fire’ fiasco with Karen and you’d been more than happy every time Billy asked you if you wanted to join him on a run as they stocked up for the colder months. Karen had even been on some too, Frank by her side of course, but even you could see a difference in her. She seemed so much lighter having more freedom like that, even if Frank hovered over her like a worried mother the entire time. And luckily, no one else had tried to kill you while you were out so you started to feel a little bit better about the whole thing. Billy nodded at you and you both started walking away from the camp.

“You’re sleepy today,” you mused with a teasing smile as you glanced at him. He wasn’t usually like this. You knew he could run on little sleep, he’d told you it was something he picked up in the Marines. 

“Had watch last night,” he murmured, blinking rapidly as if to wake himself up a little. You stopped walking and gave him a look.

“Billy…” you started with a firm tone and he tilted his head at you.

“Y/N…” he mimicked your tone, a sly smirk spreading on his lips that told you he might be waking up a little and you squinted at him.

“You didn’t tell me you had watch. You can’t hunt with no sleep,” you huffed. The day before you’d agreed to take him hunting, or more accurately, you’d agreed to show him where you’ve been finding the deer so he could hunt. But he hadn’t mentioned anything about having watch last night or you would have suggested tomorrow instead. Sleep was a precious commodity now and those who took the night shift, usually slept in the morning so they at least got some sleep. 

“Watch me,” was his defiant reply, smirk still in place before he continued walking. You rolled your eyes so hard you thought they might stay up there before catching up to him. 

You wound up in the general area you’d been finding deer and just hung back, letting Billy do the work. He’d not bagged a deer yet but you knew he really wanted to, hating every time you did like it was easy. You never really set out to find a deer though, it usually happened by luck. You had a feeling to Billy, this was more of a manly ego thing and he’d assured you in the past that he knew how to track so you wouldn't get in his way. It was odd to be the one tagging along for a change and not hunting. You had to admit that while you felt a pang of sadness every time you killed an animal, it did have a primal satisfying feeling to it, your animalistic human nature coming to the forefront. And it had only intensified since you no longer hunted just for yourself. It filled you with pride every time you were able to bring something good back to the camp and you guessed that was the feeling Billy was chasing. You stayed silent as he walked around, stopping and crouching to examine the tracks every now and again. You knew from looking yourself that a deer was recently here and you hoped he’d find one. The silence between you was kind of weird. Usually your time with Billy was full of chatter, small talk or banter. The man didn’t know how to shut up sometimes but you loved it. You’d been alone for so long and it had been an adjustment going back to having to interact with people and it made it easier when the other person initiated the conversations. But now, you were both silent as not to spook any deer that could be around. You trailed behind him, your footfalls soft and quiet when you heard a groan. Both you and Billy glanced back and you saw a roamer stumbling towards you and you heaved a sigh, annoyed that it might scare off the deer. You nodded to Billy to keep going before you walked over to the dead one, grabbing the front of its shirt to drag it closer before you rammed your knife into its eye. You pulled it back out with a sickly squelch and it fell limp on the floor. You really hoped there wouldn't be others around. You quickly turned around and moved to catch up with Billy, seeing him standing still between some trees with his bow poised. You stopped dead as you saw the deer, almost like a statue so you didn’t scare it away. You watched intently as Billy lined up his shot, blowing out a slow and steady breath before his arrow went soaring into the deer. He got a good kill shot and the deer only made it two steps before it died. You were glad and you were impressed. You knew he was good with his guns and knives but you’d never seen him use his bow before. You’d admit it was a little hot. 

He turned around, a wide and smug grin on his face as he looked at you with his dark eyes.

“Told you I could do it,” he smirked and you snorted, rolling your eyes. 

“I didn’t doubt you for a second,” you grinned cheekily at him, making him scoff with a smile. He looked radiant with his pride as he sauntered over to the deer and tied it up before hauling it over his shoulders and you started your trek back to your place where you’d prep it. 

“So… if I’m Artemis, who are you?” you asked half way through the walk, glancing to him.

“I’m Blackbird,” he snorted like it was obvious and you gave him a look.

“I’m talking about Greek Gods, dumbass,” you muttered and he gaped at you for a second before a laugh fell from his lips. 

“Oh, is that right, dumbass?” he asked with a playful look and you grinned.

“I think you’d be Ares,” you mused thoughtfully and his lips quirked up a little at your words.

“The God of war,” he murmured, shrugging a little.

“And courage,” you added, flashing him a smile when he looked at you. He smiled and it looked slightly bashful as he looked away.

“I can live with that,” he uttered, peering at you with a smile. When you got back to your tree, he plonked the deer on the floor under it where you usually prepped the meat. He sat down and you followed suit, sitting beside him as he started to prep it. You decided to sharpen your knife while he worked, not wanting to just sit there and do nothing. 

“You comin’ tomorrow?” he asked, looking at you curiously. 

“Yeah, I’ll be there. An extra pair of hands never hurt, right?” you asked ruefully and he grinned. Some of the guys would be going on another run the day after. They needed gas and Billy suggested the highway from hell where those assholes had taken the van. There seemed to be a lot of gas there and you remembered how many supplies you found in the cars and you’d barely even gone through any of them. It would be a good scavenge and with more of you going, it was less likely something bad would happen. You liked how Billy would always include you in on things, always invite you. He knew how restless you got and he was making sure you didn’t have to deal with it much. 

“Just make sure you get some sleep this time. You might be a good shot but I can’t imagine you’d be any good on two days of no sleep,” you murmured wryly and a smirk curled his lips.

“You’re real bossy, you know that?” he grinned and you huffed, glaring at him but with no real malice.

“I’m the bossy one? Really?” you asked plainly and it only made his grin widen. 

“And you’re a little mean too,” he muttered, faking a put out face. 

“Aw, you gonna go tell Frankie on me?” you asked mockingly. He gaped at you, a shocked smile playing on his lips.

“Nah, you know what? I’m gonna tell Karen,” he smirked mischievously.

"I always knew Karen was the one to be scared of,” you muttered and he snorted at you.

You both sat there playfully bantering with one another until the deer was prepped and you helped him salt it and put it into bags. Since you rarely had dinner by yourself these days, you didn’t bother taking any of the meat he offered you. It felt pointless as you both knew you’d be eating with his camp. He seemed to have a pep in his step as you both walked back and the closer he got, the shit eating smile on his face only seemed to widen. You knew exactly how this was going to go and Billy proved you right the second he walked into camp.

“Guess who bagged a deer, assholes!” he called out gleefully, all eyes turning to him. Leo covered her mouth with a smile at his cursing as Sarah gave him a look.

“You did?” Zach asked with a smile.

“You bet I did,” Billy smirked and Zach came over to him,

“Uncle Billy is so cool!” he gushed, looking like he was facing his hero and it made you smile a bit. 

“Damn right I am, little man,” Billy grinned, high fiving him. 

“Wow, you’re so smug about it,” Karen murmured with an amused look on her face and Billy turned to her with a raised brow.

“Why wouldn’t I be? Can’t a man be proud he bagged a deer. Don’t you know what it means in this economy?” he asked with a patronizing smile and Frank snorted. 

“Yeah… you finally got a deer after how long of tryin'? I mean, Y/N bagged two deers before you and she probably woulda got that one too but she let you have it. It’s a pity deer,” Frank said mockingly and Billy looked like someone just smacked him in the face, his jaw hanging open as his dark eyes bore into Frank who was grinning. 

“A pity deer?” Billy asked slowly, eyes narrowing to slits. 

“Woah, man. He’s calling your manliness into question,” Foggy commented but it was clear his tone was teasing yet Billy’s jaw tightened a little. You found the whole thing amusing. 

“You think I can’t get a deer on my own?” he asked accusingly and Frank was still grinning at him and you guessed he loved to push Billy’s buttons as much as you did.

“Well… you had to have Y/N show you where they were so…” he trailed off and you bit your lip to stifle your laugh as Billy’s right eye twitched. 

“The last time we had a fight, I put you on your ass in two seconds,” he commented condescendingly.

“I was already injured, man. Wasn’t a fair fight,” Frank shrugged. Billy glared at him before taking a deep inhale through his nose and shaking his head.

“You know what, no deer for you,” he said with a raised brow, pointing at his friend. 

“I think Y/N should get a say in that since it was technically her deer that she gave you,” Frank smirked and Billy looked ready to strangle him. Frank turned to you then and your lips curved into a smile.

“What you think, Y/N?” Frank asked, mischief twinking behind his eyes.

“Well… Honestly, I think you’re being really mean to Billy so I have to agree with him. He’s a very manly man and it’s unfair to try and say otherwise,” you teasing words made Frank bark out a laugh, yet despite your obvious playfulness, Billy grinned widely, throwing an arm around your shoulder and pulling you to his side as he gave Frank a smug look.

“See, no deer for you,” he smirked. He didn’t mean it obviously and Frank got his deer just like everyone else after Karen cooked you all dinner. She was the one who cooked the most and you’d offered to help but not only was it not really a hard job, but she hated people trying to get involved and getting in her way. 

That night, you lay under your pile of blankets as you struggled to get to sleep. You thought that with you being so busy and going out to burn off your restless energy that you’d sleep better but for some reason, you’d been having trouble. You were fully clothed, even down to your boots, a habit you’d picked up when you were out on the road traveling by yourself so you could get out of situations easily without having to take the time to get dressed. You hadn’t been able to shake it, even with the safety of your treehouse. You wondered what it was that was keeping you awake, there were so many things it could be. Maybe it was a combination of all of them. You were worried about Sarah. She seemed fine enough right now and she wasn’t exactly new to being pregnant. You were concerned about the birth mostly though. Curtis would be the one to deliver the baby and he’d asked you if you’d help. You were a vet and sure you’d helped animals give birth before if they needed it, but this was different. Your worry about needing a c-section or her having a more complicated birth was only exacerbated with the knowledge that her previous kids had been born via c-section. The whole thing was stressing you out because no amount of preparing and getting supplies in would help if something unexpected got thrown yours and Curtis’ way since you weren’t obstetricians. There was also the added stress of the newborn phase and you weren’t quite sure what you were all supposed to do when the baby cried all the damn time to avoid the dead coming at you in swarms. You knew they had everything they needed, you and Karen had taken care of that and all the items were now safely locked away on the back of the black van as they weren’t needed just yet. You were still dealing with those confusing mixed feelings of being part of a group somewhat, having moments of blind panic when you realized how attached you were getting to people and the very real possibility they might die like everyone else you knew. Life was a lot easier for you when you had nothing to lose. So much stress came along with caring about people in a group. Another thing that had been playing on your mind was your brother Sam. You knew he would have loved Frank’s camp, he would have loved all of them. He’d probably have gotten on well with Micro as Sam was a computer nerd too. It made your chest ache to think about him and a bitterness flowed through your veins at the thought. It wasn’t fair that he wasn't here. Why did you get out alive and he didn’t? Why wasn’t he the one here right now, meeting Frank and Billy and everyone else? It felt wrong. The last thing keeping you awake was Billy. The more time you spent with him, the more you realized that your attachment to him was a lot different to the others. You found yourself watching him when he wasn't looking, admiring him no matter what he was doing. You’d smile to yourself if he was happy and smiling, finding a warmth blooming in your chest that you hadn’t felt since the old world. The idea of getting actual feelings for someone in this world was terrifying and you’d been trying to ignore acknowledging it like the plague because it wouldn’t do anyone any good. It was hard enough caring about people as friends without deeper feelings being involved and you knew you were being stupid. You weren’t quite sure just what it was about Billy that lured you in like a moth to a flame. Sure, he was attractive, stupidly ridiculously attractive, easily the most handsome man you’d ever laid eyes on. You knew it wasn’t just that though. You could deal with it if it was just a surface level crush, you wouldn't worry so much about him and that's what was bothering you. The worrying, the caring, the potential to be devastated if he died. Somewhere along the way, you’d bonded with him deeper than you’d bonded with the others and your brain had decided that meant you needed to catch feelings for him. You hated it and you hoped it would go away. 

You lay under your mountain of blankets, your eyes drifting to your backpack that was near the open doorway as you considered doing a crossword to pass the time. You’d found a crossword book on one of the runs you’d been on with the others and it had been useful to pass time when your mind wanted to wander down a dark park. But as you considered if you were too lazy to get up and get your bag, you heard a weird thumping noise and you tensed up. You wondered if it was the wind since it had been picking up in the night recently, maybe a branch was hitting the treehouse. But then movement at one of the open windows at the other end of the treehouse drew your eyes to it through the black darkness. You made out a silhouette climbing through the window and your whole body seized up. Maybe it was Billy paying you a visit, he’d never done it at night but it wasn’t like he could climb up the ladder since you always pulled it up when you were up here. But you knew you were being hopeful and stupid because Billy wouldn’t just turn up unannounced in the middle of the night and climb into your treehouse like this. And you knew you were right as you carefully looked at the shadow of a man who was shorter and wider than Billy. You didn’t move, not wanting them to know you were awake and your eyes darted to the knife you’d set over near your bag. You didn’t think you’d need to sleep with it strapped to you anymore but the false security of the treehouse had fooled you. The man crept towards your ‘bed’ and you could hear your heartbeat whooshing in your ears, but then it felt like it stopped all together when you saw the gun in his hand catch the moonlight. You jumped up, tackling him and catching him off guard. You pushed his arm up and the gun went off, the bullet going right through the roof as you tried to fight with him. He was bigger and stronger than you though and he tossed you to the floor across the treehouse and you groaned, refusing to go out without a fight. 

“Don’t make this harder than it needs to be,” the man growled as he grabbed you by your shirt and yanked you up like a ragdoll.

“Fuck you,” you bit out ferociously as you kneed him in the nuts. He cried out with a curse and let you go as he cradled himself and dropped his gun. You swiped the knife from the floor, the pair of you near the doorway and he grabbed your shoulder, whirling you around. You used the momentum to swing your arm and your knife buried itself under his jaw and right through his head. His eyes went wide as he blinked at you, his mouth opening but nothing came out other than a garbled wet noise. You yanked your knife back out as you glared at him and blood poured from the wound. As he went limp, he fell out of the doorway, but as he’d been tangled with you, you ended up going with him, your boot catching the strap of your backpack. Your stomach flipped around like you were on a rollercoaster as you plummeted to the floor. The man landed with a thud, you landed on top of him and while it softened the blow, you heard a sickening crack come from your ribs. You gasped, pain radiating from your ribs outwards and you rolled off the now dead man onto your back. Each breath hurt and your eyes welled with pained tears. You were pretty sure you just cracked or broke a rib or two and your head hurt like a bitch after cracking into him with the fall. The pain made you feel dizzy and you struggled to get to your feet, knowing you had to get out of there. The last thing you expected was for someone to turn up where you slept to try and kill you and through the shock, you felt the bitter sting of stupidity eat at you. You were a fool to feel so safe, to think things would be okay. You’d let your guard down and now you were paying for it. You got to your feet, swaying as a hand cradled your beat up ribs. You saw your backpack, the only silver lining in the fucked up situation as your ladder was still up there and there as no way you could climb with the pain you were in. 

You looked at the man, blinking through tearful eyes as you noticed he was wearing a coat with an eye painted on it like a logo. You remembered Billy and Frank talking about the guy from the store that day who held Billy at gunpoint and how he wore the same. They mused it was something to do with Rawlins so this didn’t fill you with hope that you’d gone under the radar. You’d tried to reason with yourself that the fire thing had been to get at Karen since Frank loved her and you’d just been collateral. But now they were targeting you all alone and it worried you. Anxiety stabbed you then as you thought of the others. What if the men had gone after them too? You slowly bent down to get your bag, idly thinking of the gunshot and how it might attract the dead here. You snatched your walkie, stepping backwards a little away from the man. You heard the metal bang before you felt the pain but then a fiery hot pain burst through your right leg and the loudest anguished yell tumbled from your lips before you were able to stop it. You blinkled down at your leg to see it caught in a small bear trap that you knew for sure hadn’t been there before. You really couldnt believe what the fuck was happening to you and you realized these guys really liked to have plan B’s in case the plan A fucked up. The pain was immense and worse than your ribs, the spikes from the trap deep into the flesh of your calf and blood was oozing around them. You wobbled on your feet, your injuries and pain making you feel like you were about to pass out and you fell on your ass, crying out as it tugged the bear trap as it fell to its side along with you. You felt like you couldn't breathe and tears streamed down your face in rivulets. You tried to ignore the pain in your ribs as you leaned over, trying with all your might to get the bear trap off you but it wasn’t like you’d ever had to do this before. You didn’t know how to disarm a bear trap. You cried softly, sniffling in anger as you tried and failed a few times. You fell back onto your back, wincing with every heaving breath you took and your vision danced around you. Was this how you’d die? Out here in the woods alone, caught in a trap as you waited for one of the dead to find you? You refused to die like this, this wasn’t how you wanted to go out. You looked over at the walkie and strained to reach it, making your ribs feel like they were on fire as you did. You finally managed to get it and relief flooded your system as your head spun.

“Anyone here?... It’s Artemis,” you mumbled down the walkie, voice slightly slurred. You felt like you were on a merry go round at a rapid rate that wouldn’t stop.

“Blackbird here. What’s up?” Billy asked, a note of concern in his voice. You’d never reached out at night before. You felt more relief at hearing his voice. This could very well be the last you heard him if your body decided it was done before he got here. Or maybe the dead would find you first. You felt so tired, you didn’t think you could fight them off.

“Is everyone okay?” you asked worriedly. 

“Yeah… we’re good… Y/N, what’s wrong?” he asked warily and you felt some relief that they were unharmed. 

“I need help,” you muttered, taking a slow and shaky breath as you squeezed your eyes shut.

“What is it? What happened?” he asked instantly, his concern shooting up to panic. 

“I’m hurt… just come to the treehouse please, I’ll tell you when you get here,” you pleaded through your tears, voice trembling. 

“I’ll be right there,” he said quickly and you sighed in relief, hoping he’d get here in time and not find you being eaten by the dead ones. 

“Watch out for bear traps,” you murmured tiredly, your eyes fluttering shut again. He didn’t answer and you hoped he’d got the message as you lay there, fighting with your body so you didn’t pass out. It didn’t take too long before Billy sprinted through the trees with a frantic look on his face. He stopped dead, his eyes first landing on the dead man before his eyes found you laying on the floor with your leg caught in a bear trap. 

“What the fuck?” he muttered, rushing over to you and falling to his knees. His dark eyes roamed over the bear trap as he looked like he was trying to think, his hands hovering uncertainly. 

“This is gonna hurt, alright?” he gave you a pointed look and you nodded, eyes half lidded as you looked at him. He looked guilty and unsure but then he disarmed the trap, pushing on the springs carefully and pulling it open. You cried out as the spikes left your flesh and you felt the blood starting to pour out of the wounds. 

“Shit…” Billy bit out, quickly shrugging his sweater off and then his t-shirt. He wrapped the t-shirt around your leg into a makeshift bandage, a deep frown marring his face as he tried to tie it around your leg to slow the bleeding down.

“What happened?” he asked. His voice was low and tight, his eyes not looking at you.

“He climbed up into the treehouse… tried to kill me. I stabbed him but he fell… I fell with him… then this happened,” you muttered sleepily, the darkness behind your eyes tugging at you. You felt a cold hand on your face and your eyes opened, seeing Billy’s face hovering over you.

“Stay with me, sweetheart, alright?” he asked, sounding worried as his dark eyes scanned your face. 

“I think my ribs are cracked,” you mumbled, blinking slowly at him. His frown deepened, eyes flitting to your torso before back at your face.

“We need to get you back to camp, get Curt to look at you,” he insisted as he moved to help you sit up. You cried softly at the pain as he held you and he looked so sad at your pitiful noises as he tried to get you to your feet. You couldn't put weight on your leg and when you glanced down, his gray t-shirt was already blood soaked and you wondered how much blood you were losing. Ideally, you didn’t want to remove something that was impaling you as it would stop the blood flowing too quickly, but it wasn’t like he could take you back to camp with a bear trap attached to you. You wobbled, his arm around you as you tried to hobble forward, but it only made another pained noise leave your lips. You’d felt pain a few times, having your throat slit had topped the list quite a bit. This was something else though. The pain in your ribs was intense and it seemed to fade into every part of your body. Your leg felt like it was being roasted over a fire, throbbing intensely. 

“‘M tired… why’s it so cold?” you asked in a whisper, head lolling a little bit and making Billy look panicked and wide eyed. 

“I’m gonna carry you, okay? It’s gonna hurt a bit but I’ll be as careful as I can,” he murmured, giving you a pained look as you nodded. You just wanted the pain to stop. He scooped you up bridal style and you hissed at how it jostled your ribs, making him apologize profusely to you. Once in his arms, he hurriedly walked back, trying his hardest not to hurt you too much. You snuggled against him, his bare skin touching you since he was still shirtless, his sweater left discarded on the floor. Your face was in the crook of his neck as you took a small inhale and let it soothe you. 

“How do you smell so nice?... It’s the end of the world,” you slurred into his neck.

“You know me, I’m just perfect,” his teasing didn't have the same effect when his voice had a distressed undertone to it but you smiled anyway. You felt the darkness tugging at you again, luring you in as you closed your eyes and enjoyed the comfort of skin to skin contact coming from Billy. 

“Stay with me, Y/N. You gotta stay awake for me,” he insisted, glancing down at you as his pace picked up. You could hear his heart thumping away at a rapid rate. 

“I’m just so tired, Billy,” you whispered, not opening your eyes. 

“Come on, Sweetheart, stay with me. You’re not gonna leave me like this, alright? I’m not losin’ anyone else,” he pleaded desperately but it fell on deaf ears as you passed out in his arms. 

You were in and out of it when you got to the camp. You’d come to, hearing everyone rushing around and talking frantically before you passed back out. You woke up briefly a few times when Curtis was working on your leg, pained groans leaving your lips before your eyes would roll back and you’d be out like a light once again. When you woke up properly, you were in the tent you knew the children used. You felt weak, your head fuzzy and your mouth felt dry. You blinked tiredly at the ceiling of the tent before you glanced to your side. Billy was sitting next to you, his head in his hands.

“Billy…” you croaked out, frowned at the lack of moisture in your mouth. He sat up quickly, head snapping to you as relief seemed to hit him like a train. He had circles around his eyes and he looked paler than he usually did. 

“Y/N… are you… you feel okay?” he asked hesitantly, scooting closer to you as his eyes darted all over your face. It was a hard question to answer. You were still in a lot of pain and you felt a little out of it, but you were alive and that was what really mattered. You nodded, blinking tiredly at him as he watched you.

“You don’t look so great,” you blurted, your head feeling too fuzzy to really think about insulting him like that. He didn’t look offended though, he frowned softly, his hand darting out and snatching your own as he held it tightly. 

“You lost a lotta blood. I’m a universal donor so… Curt rigged somethin’ up to give you a transfusion,” he explained and it took your disorientated brain a long moment to digest his words. 

“You gave me your blood?” you asked quietly, making him nod. You wondered how much you needed with how ill he looked. 

“Thank you,” you murmured, trying to muster up a smile for him. He looked away quickly, blinking his glassy eyes rapidly. 

“You gotta stop doin’ this shit. I’m gonna wind up havin’ a heart attack if you keep almost dyin’ on me like this,” he smirked, but it was weak and felt forced. 

“What can I say? I love danger,” you drawled with a tired smile, echoing words he’d once said to you. He smiled then, a wistful and slightly more genuine one but then his face turned somber again, his hand squeezing yours. 

“I… I just…” he trailed off and your hazy brain took in his anguished face and it made your chest ache, your brows creasing. 

“I care about you… I can’t lose you,” he murmured, his shiny almost black eyes meeting yours once more. Your chest filled with warmth that wasn’t coming from the pain in your ribs and you smiled at him, your thumb rubbing his hand. 

“I’m not doing it on purpose, I’m starting to think I’m in Final Destination,” you smirked and his lips quirked up a little. 

“I need to just lock you away or some shit. You’re like a danger magnet,” he said wryly. You opened your mouth to reply but Curtis came into the tent. He looked surprised to see you awake but then he smiled.

“It’s nice to see you again, Y/N. We were all pretty worried for a second,” he grinned and you smiled at him. You moved to try and sit up, not liking being laid flat like you were but Billy stopped you.

“Gotta rest for a bit, not move so much,” he instructed as he grabbed a spare blanket and balled it up, putting it under your top half like a big pillow to prop you up a little. You give him a grateful smile, feeling better that you weren’t lying flat anymore. 

“So… how bad is it?” you asked Curtis warily. Your brain still felt a little fuzzy around the edges but you were starting to feel a little more awake. The downside to it being the pain seemed to get worse. Curtis glanced at your leg, a slight wince before he looked at your face.

“Your boot saved your foot, it took the brunt of the worst of it. You almost ended up in the one legged club,” he said with a wry smile but his eyes shone with concern.

“I stitched you up the best I could and I gave you some of Billy’s blood. I’m not sure if your leg’s broken or not with no x-ray. If it is, it's not a full fracture, no bone sticking out or anything. Still might be a hairline fracture though. You need to keep off it for a bit and Matt and Foggy are trying to make a splint for you. Your ribs are cracked, I don’t think they’re broken,” he explained sympathetically.

“Thanks,” you nodded, feeling despondent at the knowledge you'd be out of commission for a while. Laying here doing nothing really didn’t sound appealing. 

“I’ll go and see if they’re done with the splint so we can get it on you,” Curtis smiled before he shared a look with Billy and then left the tent. 

“You’re gonna be stayin’ with us and you’re not gonna argue with me about it,” Billy said firmly, his face telling you he really wasn’t going to have an argument about it. You didn’t want to argue though. You loved your treehouse but you didn’t feel safe there now. It was tainted. This whole ordeal had shown you that you were also a target now and isolating yourself like you had been was dangerous. You were easier to pick off that way.

“Okay,” you nodded and he looked shocked for a moment that you hadn’t argued with him about it. 

“Good,” he said, sniffing as he rolled his shoulder. 

“Thank you for coming to help me… for the blood and everything,” you murmured after a moment of silence. He didn’t have to come and help you, didn’t need to answer the walkie at all and he certainly didn’t need to offer up his blood. His eyes pinned you in place, watching you for a moment. 

“You don’t need to thank me, you know I got your back,” he said easily and it made you smile as your chest tightened. 

“I forgot how nice it was to have people looking out for me,” you admitted and he smiled softly. 

“Been tellin’ you this whole time to just give in and join us,” he pointed out, raising his brow. 

“Yeah, well… you know how stubborn I am,” you snorted and his lips curled into a grin. 

“I know, it’s a pain in my ass,” he huffed, amusement shining in his eyes. You’d been resisting joining the group, only to be forced into it anyway. Maybe it wasn’t such a bad thing though. Billy had really come through for you, as did the others from the snippets you remembered of getting to the camp. It showed you they really did care and while it was scary, it felt nice. The world had a lot less people on it now, most of them turning as feral as the dead. It was hard to come by good people, people who would look out for you, care for you when you were at your most vulnerable. You’d had that once, forming a bond like family with your old group. You never thought you’d find that again after everything, didn’t think it would be possible, nor did you want it. But now as you looked at Billy with his soft brown eyes as he looked down at you, you knew you wanted to be here. You wanted to be part of something more than yourself. To have people to watch out for you and for you to watch out for them. To have a purpose, a reason to keep going, to keep fighting. You’d lost that along the way but now you knew you’d found it again and you were looking right at it. 

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[makoodles]

OK OK GUYS

I OPENED TUMBLR AND DAMN ALL THE POSTS APPEARED, IM GONNA RESPOND AND GIVE AN UPDATE.

1) no, is not a Wattpad story. I have no idea how is not, am i y/n or something? am i the main character? TELL ME GUYS

2)i don't know what happened (i know how it happened...bad joke i know), it just happen, if it can help you guys my ex is practically the horniness made man.

3) Ex loves foreplay, he calls it "the teasing before heaven" (i do not know why too, the first time he said it i was "uh? the what?"), but in that moment i "brutally" interrupted him. So he abandoned foreplay for that moment. Also he prefers spit because he finds it hotter, but i find it dirty and unigenetic. But bf loves it apparently so ex used spit on bf, and lube on me.

4)they didn't know eachother, and this makes it even more confusing for me, because i was away for 5-7 minutes so HOW?! for contex; ex is bisexual, bf said he was straight but apparently he is not (this was not his first time, when he was in college he had a 1 year sex buddy for experiment).

the convo this morning after ex got out of the shower, was me and him laying in bed talking meanwhile bf is sleeping.

we talked about things in life and bla bla bla, he confessed to still love me and i (some time ago not now) realized it too, but like i told him that even tho my feeling for him were equals as his, i also loved bf.

Mf woke up bf and it went like this.

ex: ouu mf wake up

sleepy bf: w-WHAT?!

ex: wanna go on a date the three of us this night?

sleepy bf: yea sure ok.

and then he went to sleep again.

i.was.full.mouth.open.

he then made me rest a little too meanwhile he cleaned home (he decided this on his mind, but like better for bf he hates cleaning (he is a stay home boyfriend)).

5) ex before i passed out explained it to me.

meanwhile, i was upstairs, and he realized how cute bf is (like no way sir do you think i would go with someone who's ugly??)

so he successfully rizzed him up with a few sentences and touched (like do you go to the gym? and then touching his biceps, which made bf happy and excited)

i have to confess that both of them have a high sex drive, so in moments they were both hard.

and this all in the first 2 minutes,

then ex kissed him and bf being the good boy he is melted in the kiss.

then bf put his hand in bf pants and made him leans against the counter of his kitchen.

they go with a few minutes before i interrupt "brutally"

(btw he honestly said that he thought bf wouldn't be on it lol.)

so now i have to prepare for a date that will probably end up in sex for all night,

we are going out to the restaurant ex own (is a family restaurant) and he closed it only for us this night (aww).

so yeah, for this night that it girls (and guys) i update tomorrow if i wake up after that much dick.

( btw ex is 20 cm 7 inches, and bf is 17 cm 6 inches)

(they are ok for me to say it)

bro i'm fr more bewildered then ever 😭 i'm glad it worked out and you're all happy lmao

[brainrot-yumm]

kay liveposting (and probably some inevitable sleepposting) bout batman again yaaaaaaaaaaaay I like batman even though I really don't know much about it, I don't like the pointlessly edgy variants but I do like the extremely expressive ones like this and wow do I need to watch the animated series

kay already this writing is so utterly charming. Meeting the various townspeople to show how expressive they are is already my favorite trope but the reactions of the reporter are really killing it for me. "you've got shmuck kid, you've got a gun pointed at me" I love him

god the first arrivals of Batman are always the silliest things taken so dramatically. Actual child (or child lookalike) robbing a news reporter. Random teen about to be hazed by new gang. Like this man deals with actual terrorists on the reg and he's transitioning from a fight scene to the main theme of the show. Come on. Do better. Batman, not the show. Batman do better.

wouldn't calling Catwoman "Catbitch" be an oxymoron or something of the equivalent?

fyuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck Im too tired to live post Im sorry. Its 3 am I gotta be up at 7 I havent even planned for tomorrow. I left my flash drives in class yesterday because I was too tired to remember and genuinally didn't realize I lost it until midnight. Yesterday morning. I was procrastinating taking a shower and accidentally was stuck in a half doze half wake multiple sessions until 6 am, so that really wasn't healing slepe. gnight

the narrator sounds like Beau Handsome

THE MAYOR POURING HIMSELF A DRINK AFTER TELLING THE NEWS THAT BATMAN IS ON THE POLICE FORCE

THE NARRATOR IS THE GUY FROM WORDGIRL

alfred has beef with a computer lmao

this is so fun I love how everyone's a little nutty to be living in Gotham and it shows through such rich flavor. The cat sanctuary who is delighted partners with Catwoman? The singer who accidentally signed his life away with Penguin? The expansion of the little league criminals? The concept that all the villains truly were just normal people and that any guy in Gotham could be disfigured and turned insane any day? Fucking. Tasty good shit.

I love the mayor's performance but wow is that a shitty dude.

the fact that he's willing to do everything except adopt a rescue cat lmao

I'm sorry, they just pronounced "Gala" as GAY-la and I think I'm gonna have to pronounce it that way for the rest of my life now

[throwaway-yandere]

Happy new year everyone!!! Admittedly I suck at expressing myself so you'll have to forgive me if this comes across as a raw and chaotic mess lol. I'm not tagging the names either cause I'm a coward

It was incredibly fun running this blog!!! I never thought it last this long– and if probably wouldn't have it weren't for leftdestiny-post/shiro commenting on a fic haha (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠). Then I met some wonderful people, starting with like crying anon and their beloved elf darling, poptartthings, thatanonthatabsolutelyroastedtighnari, 😋 anon, veni, 🐠 anon, my mom exiled and hoo my brain is seriously a mess rn i can't type properly but i swear yall mean everything to me it's just that my aunts and uncles are all using the karaoke rn I can't hear my own thoughts but I need to write these all down before i pass out hAHAHHA (⁠ꏿ⁠﹏⁠ꏿ⁠;⁠) they're singing victims of love rn, idk if it's my heartbeat or the speaker anymore send help–

each of yall make me always look forward to waking up the next morning! Ranging from Assistant ✾ & esther anon trying to survive, brosch and their wonderful designs (i often imagine brosch and capitano just drawing designs in silent honestly, couple goals), bakery wondering how to calm dottore, 🐠 and mochi's drawings– you're all wonderful people!! Seriously still can't believe I got noticed my romanticaa and zhongrin what. I still get so nervous when interacting with both help hAHAHAH.

2022 did not feel real for many reasons, pretty sure I'm already dead and Faceless!Ayato buried me somewhere. Y'all are fun af. 🌠 anon idk how you're doing, but shoutout to you too for somehow reading my first diluc fic and going "yeah might as well see where this writer's career will lead". I wonder how many of yall are in the same position as them cause wtf man how are tall tolerating my idiotic writings hAHAHAHHA

((Just wanna shoutout poptart again cause mom idk what I'm gonna do with that 4 dollar tip 😭))

🐠, exiled and veni were my real highlight for OCMC. The alhaitham slanders– the betrayal– lmao i was just cackling like the gremlin that i am when I read exiled's ask after the last chapter I uploaded lmao. And signora-fanboy's reblog tags were funny too lol

It was fun cooping with exiled!!! It was fun reblogging jokes with zhongrin (and making me brainrot mafia!dain dhshdjwj)!!! I was so happy T^T!!!

And this december i get to talk to riabef and watatsumii too and they're both wholesome and lowkey/highkey chaotic i love you both! Where the heck am I even going with this message my braincells are not working BUT yeah my point is that it's so awesome that even as the year's about to end I still end up meeting new blessings in life 😭😭😭

I'll just shorten this part: I used to be a major loner. It's just that since my elementary days I've just come to expect a pattern that I'm friends with someone for a year until they move out of the country. It's like I was cursed with that happening every time until I just always expect people to have an expiration date lmao. Hence, I just wanna thank my irl friends Purple and Orange Friend/a-dose-of-phitre for being my longest best friends. They gave me confidence and no I'm not crying rn shut up. Idk why yall stuck with me. Wait no I do know the answer it's cause you both want someone to bully 😭 but to bully me for 6 and now going 7 years??? Aren't you both tired???

With that in mind– i SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW WHY YOU GUYS ARE SO NICE TO ME 😭😭😭I PROBABLY MENTIONED THAT A LOT BUT WHY ARE YOU GUYS NICE??? I DON'T DESERVE THAT WHEN I'M WRITING YOU ANONS TO SUFFER– IDK HOW TO PAY THOSE KINDNESS BACK YALL DON'T MAKE ANOTHER "gatorade milo rice discourse" SCENARIO 😭

Man i need to stop typing my body's last hurrah is fast approaching. Can't wait to read this tomorrow and go "there are so many grammar mistakes here not even grammarly would make an attempt to understand this mess" hAHAHAHAH

Okay, okay, yeahhh

Happy new year everyone!!! I'm gonna wait like 21 more minutes and wait till the world does a factory reset for 2023. Hope yall have a wonderful year!!! Enjoy the fireworks!!! Yoimiya worked hard for those 😤

[foreverinthepagesofhistory]

Hey! here is the Coronation timetable converted into Eastern time:

-The guests arrive at: 2:15 am & will be seated at: 4am

-The Royal family, European royals & heads of state arrive between: 4:30-5:45am

-The King & Queen travel from Buckingham palace to Westminster abbey in the state coach at: 5:20am

-The main event at Westminster abbey begins at: 6:00am & the King will be crowned at: 7:00am

-The coronation procession begins at: 8:00am

-The fly past on the balcony is at: 9:15am

Enjoy👑🍿

Ok phew!!! I will definitely be waking up early tomorrow!!! But that is good because then i won’t miss my competition and i will still have time to see the coronation!

Thank you @leonisandmurex for being a literal savior from heaven above and doing that math for me because i am too lazy lmao

[megan-loves-surveys]

#45.

It's under the read more cos the formatting is being a fucking pain in the ass LOL.

Who is your least favourite character from your favourite book? (no villains/bad guys allowed) Kevin, probably. He gets better over time but generally he's still super annoying. Do people tell you you have cold hands? Yes. When was the last time you held an umbrella? A few weeks ago. It was a mistake, it was far too windy and it broke lmao. Do you still listen to any disbanded bands? Loads! What colour is the last coat you wore? I don't own a coat, so it's been years. It was likely black? Do you feel that the shape of the pasta alters the taste? Sure haha. How often do you listen to rock music? It depends. When were you last in a classroom? Years ago. In games, do you like to roleplay as good or bad? Depends on the game. What was your favourite colour when you were 10? Blue. When were you last in a hospital? I got hit by a car and broke my shoulder, and was having surgery. Is there an instrument you don't like the sound of? Anything super screechy. When was the last time you had a lava lamp in your room? Never. What was the last frozen food you ate? Some chips/fries lol. What is the shortest haircut you have had? Just below my ears. How many letters are in the author's name of the last book you read? I can't be bothered to check the author's name lol. How are you currently holding your device? I'm not, I'm on my laptop. Have you ever sponsored an animal? No. Would you rather be a kangaroo or a sea turtle? Kangaroo. Do you like to get ready in the bathroom or the bedroom? Bedroom. What's your favourite Coldplay song? None. What do you think about turbulence on a flight? Doesn't really bother me unless it's like SUPER bad. Normally, do you sleep too many hours or not enough? I average about 6 - 7 so prob a bit less than I should. How many keyboards/languages do you have on your phone? 1. Do you have a favourite insect? Butterflies prob. Have you ever worn coloured contacts for Halloween? - How often do you wear heels? I wear them to work, so at least two or three times a week. Do you have a favourite episode of your favourite show? No. What was your first teacher's first name? Don't remember. What colour are your toothbrush's bristles? White. Were you a dog, how long would your snoot be? Haha no idea, depends what breed I am, no? Have you ever gone ice skating alone? No. Can you hear a clock ticking now? Not currently cos I have music on, but if I paused it, I could. How about birds tweeting? Not that I can hear. How long would your ideal magic wand be? No idea xD What colour is your ceiling? Grey. Do you own a scooter? No. Which pastel colour is the nicest? Purple. How many hours until you have to get up next? It's mid afternoon, so it's a long time. I have work tomorrow so I'm waking up at 7am, it's 4pm right now so... 15 hours? When did you last play a Mario game? Years ago. Ever owned an actual piggy bank? Yes. How many words of Spanish do you reckon you know? A few. How many rugs/mats/carpets are in your house? 5 or 6? When did you last swing on a swing-set? Oh ages ago. Do you have a favourite Haribo shape? Just the bears. How would you describe your favourite singer's voice in 2 words? Powerful and stunning. Do you study any subjects in your free time? Not study seriously lol. Any interesting or unusual facts about your house? Not really, but since we live on the very end house of 11, we have an extra window on the side of our house that only we and the house on the other end have. Would you rather become fluent in 3 European languages or 3 Asian languages? Depends on the language. Are your bedroom curtains long or short? Neither, they're just the right length.

Are you currently wearing socks? If so, describe them: Yes, I'm wearing big fluffy winter socks, they're grey and white.

Have you ever been zip-lining? No.

Name three pet peeves: When my internet is randomly slow, headaches that are too strong for painkillers but not strong enough for my migraine meds and hypocrites.

Did you carve a pumpkin this past year? I've never done that.

Have you volunteered in the past 6 months? I have actually, earlier this year, at work the entire office did some volunteering - we helped out with packing food parcels for a charity. It was actually quite fun.

Have you ever hosted a holiday party? No.

Your age plus the number of boyfriends/girlfriends you have had equals: Um... 50 something lol.

French fries or onion rings? Fries, I absolutely despise onions.

Why do you take surveys? Cos I'm bored and like answering questions.

Do you suffer from anxiety? Yes.

Did you ever taken a swimming class? No, but I probably should.

Favorite healthy snack? Pea crisps or popcorn.

Do you have an Amazon Prime account? No.

Favorite Disney movie? Dunno.

What color are your bed sheets? Right now, blue.

Do you consider yourself an artist? Not in drawing and that, but I do write.

How well can you bake a cake? Not well.

Have you ever tasted banana milk? I think so.

Your favorite local pub? None.

Last time you did a push-up? A long time ago, my shoulder is too fucked to do any.

Do you wear glasses? Yes.

How many pairs of skinny jeans do you think you own? Like 10.

Do you own a pair of Converse sneakers? I own 22 pairs, lol. I bought a green pair yesterday actually!

Do you wear jewelry on the regular? Yes.

Have you ever seen the movie; Pretty Woman? Thoughts? Probably.

If you see a bee in your house.. are you going to kill it? No, I'd try to get it out a window.

Do you normally take a shower in the morning or at night? Morning.

Favorite candle scent? Citrus.

I’m ordering chinese food; what do you want? My treat! Hmm.

Do you have a cat? I wish.

01:What are you wearing? Purple yoga pants, a blue and white stripey sweater, grey and white fluffy winter socks and ugg boots. 02:Ever been in love? Yes. 03:Ever had a terrible breakup? Define 'terrible' lol. 04:How tall are you? 5'3". 05:How much do you weigh? None of yo business. 06:Any tattoos do you want? No. 07:Any piercings that you want? No. 08:OTP? Mox/Seth. 09:Favorite Show? WWE Raw. 10:Favorite bands/artists? Blue, Five, Little Mix, Girls Aloud etc. 11:Something you miss? Hanging out with my friends everyday. 12:Favorite song? Crowded House - Don't Dream It's Over 13:How old are you? 37. 14:Zodiac sign? Cancer. 15:Hair Color? Naturally blonde. Currently blue & purple. 16:Favorite Quote? Loads. 17:Favorite singer? Ayumi Hamasaki, Taylor Swift, Madison Beer, Adam Lambert etc. 18:Favorite color? Purple. 19:Loud music or soft? Both. 20:Where do you go when you’re sad? My room. 21:How long does it take you to shower? Depends, if I have to shave, then it takes longer. About 15 mins usually. 22:How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? Maybe 20 mins. 23:Ever been in a physical fight? No. 24:Turn on? Loads. 25:Turn off? Loads. 26:The reason I joined Tumblr? Originally it was to post about WWE, but now I just take surveys lol. 27:Fears? Spiders, ladders, deep water, fire etc. 28:Last thing that made you cry? Something I was reading. 29:Last time you cried? Yesterday. 30:Meaning behind your url It's pretty obvious lol. 31:Last book you read? Reach For The Stars. 32:Last song you listened to? Blue - I Can 33:Last show you watched? Shortland St. 34:Last person you talked to? My Mum, she saw me getting an iceblock and asked me to bring her one, lol. 35:The relationship between you and the person you last texted? She's my best friend. 36:Favorite food? Mac & cheese. 37:Place you want to visit? Japan? 38:Last place you were? Work. 39:Do you have a crush? Sure. 40:Last time you kissed someone? This afternoon. 41:Last time you were insulted and what was it? Dunno. 42:What color underwear are you wearing? Blue. 43:What color shirt are you wearing? Blue and white striped. 44:What color bottoms are you wearing? Purple. 45:Wearing any bracelets? No. 46:Last sport you played? Hahah, funny. 47:Last song you sang? Blue - I Can 48:Last prank call you remember doing? No idea. 49:Last time you hung out with anyone? Saturday. 50:Favorite movie? Dunno.

[survivor-marieta-islands]

Episode 13: "SHITTING MY PANTS HAS NEVER EVER BEEN SO SEXYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY"—Jinx

Brandi

I think we can go ahead and end the season here- hairie wins

Trinica

Well, despite Jinx lowkey ruining the illusion that she's not working with Hairie by telling the rest of OS that they were voting for Hairie instead of for Arvin, the plan last night worked. OS is super suspicious of Jinx, and probably a little of me, too, but I think I've played it off well enough that I didn't know Hairie had an idol.

I feel SO UNBEARABLY GUILTY about lying to Brandi, though. I considered coming clean today but I think she would be really upset with me for conspiring to get Amy out (especially over Hairie). But I had to do it! Hairie NEEDED to play his idol if we were going to have any chance of getting him out later. And after last night, he does need to go soon. Especially considering that mysterious legacy advantage we have. Hairie has just played too flashy and high-profile of a game to stay.

HOWEVER, once Hairie is gone, people WILL start looking at me next I think (along with Raffy perhaps). So I'm walking a tightrope, bless up Janelle Monae. We're at 8 now, and I think I'm a swing vote, though I can't quite logic out in what direction yet.

Raffy

Hairie better not pull out another idol at this tribal council. Also, I don't trust Jinx or Zo at this point as I think they were being shady by not voting for Arvin like the plan was.

Jinx

SHITTING MY PANTS HAS NEVER EVER BEEN SO SEXYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Hairie

A friend today, may not be a friend tomorrow.

So we're down to 8. The challenge was a lot. Didn't want to sacrifice life too much just to go ham and win it. Raffy using an item to not let me get any ADV applied is so wild lmao.

As it stands, the rest thinks Trinica and Jinx are against me which is good. As for the votes go, they're 6 vs me and Arvin (2).

I suggested to Trinica some possible options:

- 4 vs 4 votes and force a rock draw - Or get the 6 to split 3 on me and 3 on Arvin while me and Arvin place 2 votes on someone. But in reality Jinx and Trinica will vote with me and Arvin making it a 4-2-2 split. This will draw lines

Zo is the highlight here and wants to make a move. Definitely scoop me up here Zo. Capitalising on the duo of Zo and Colin.

I broke it down:

- Raffy Brandi Trinica are a 3 - Zo and Colin a duo - Jinx is in the middle - Arvin and me are interchangeable

When me and Arvin are gone, at 6 who's at the bottom? Ya'll gonna play FRIENDVIVOR? Someone is gonna get upset for being the bottom and not realising it and too late for making moves. Why not use me and Arvin while we're still here?

Zo wants to get a Colin, Zo, Jinx, Hairie and Arvin voting bloc to make a move. I admitted to Zo that if there was no plans, I'm writing Colin but if you're wanting to make a move, I can respect your duo and ride with you. So I'm pushing it to Brandi. Sorry Brandi (if you're reading it) It's all game.

I want to protect Trinica a little here but not too much because we're sticking to the narrative of it being Trinica is not with me.

Zo is gonna run by Jinx to see what they're thinking.

On the other hand, Trinica is telling me Zo hasn't be truthful to her and also mentioned wanting me gone quote "Can we take Hairie out next?!" almost after last tribal.

One can hope that this plan works. There's like 3 plans so let's see which one works.

I wasted my extra vote using it last round as a safety net but it's okay.

Now these group want to take out Raffy as soon as he doesn't win immunity. I guess I'm hopping on that train.

I hope Raffy calling me all these superlatives is just part of the game and can understand my game at the end of the day.

Meanwhile in terms of idol hunting, I've just been exploring the ship and opening more paths and shopping list.

Going to sleep now and wake up at 6p EST for a call with Zo to see iron out the plan.

Raffy

I am starting to get suspicious of Zo and Jinx. I don't think they want Hairie out, but I do. So, Colin, Trinica, Brandi, and I agreed to all four vote Hairie and tell them that we are voting for Arvin. If Jinx will be mad at me, let them because I've already lied to them multiple times. I just don't think I can trust Jinx to want to vote my way either through their own volition or through me trying to convince them.

Colin

everything has changed a million times this round.

like I think it's finally time for Hairie to go but idk.

i've been trying SO hard to make things work with Zo and Jinx but I think i'm getting played hard by them. Trinica told me that they've been throwing my name under the bus and that Zo has been secretly in COHOOTS with hairie.

idk if I really believe it but I don't not believe it. like it all makes sense. I just don't know who to continue with rn. Raffy and Trinica will beat me in the end, and I don't know if i can trust the people i actually wanna go with

it feels really rough because i've invested my entire game into Zo and now it feels like Zo is going to be blowing my game up

Brandi

5:41 PM est I am scared

Jinx

WHEN I GET THRU THESE VOTES I WILL HAVE BROKEN THE MID GAME CURSE!!!! did it in north sea and we gotta do it AGAIN!!! im so sorry for the lack of confessionals usually i’m talking way too much and even started strong but i’ve been trying to play the game more 🫶🏽 missing JG and Maddison (sexy as hell) rn and forever

Trinica

I'm struggling tn!!! Colin admitted he doesn't vibe with me and Raffy like he does with Zo, and Raffy admitted Amy was his F2, so the villain f3 alliance was a lie on all 3 sides lmao. Brandi doesn't seem to realize (or perhaps just has other plans idk about) that if hairie or Arvin goes tonight, it's us next. The smart move would be to get zo out tonight. But we don't have numbers for it, and it's starting to feel like we'll NEVER have numbers for it. I'm planting seeds with Colin but if they don't "vibe" with me then why believe me? Zo may win this game if we don't get her out tonight akfjsjajjfjs

Anyway, played myself into a corner has been my theme this entire game. IF I COULD TUUUURN BACK TIIIIME I'd work with zee and adeline smdh

Zo

THIS TRIBE IS SO MESSY AND YET NOT AT ALL WHY DOES NOBODY WANT TO PLAY SPICY

Arvin

I'm so happy I made it this far, my first season I was 9th place, I'm so proud of myself.

[baekhvuns]

Am I Y/N now? 😭 Idk if I should feel honoured or worried

We definitely should know less about each other it's aimed at Harry and lots of others who overshare lmao. Uhmmm, but would Meghan be with someone bigoted and racist in the first place? Let's hope not. Calm down, mate. We get it, she changed you alright

Heeeey I was about 6 or 7 years old when that accident happend and my grandma was next to us chatting with a friend 😭 there's another story with me and that friend, always me who had to fight for her life tho. So we had impromptu football goals at our playground, basically just 4 tall stakes. But they were placed in an inconvenient place, so my friend and I decided to move them... we were 7-8. I was holding the bottom, but my friend accidentally let go of the stake so it crushed my finger and it started bleeding 😭 gross but the nail came off 💀

SM I'M AT YOUR DOOR WTF LEE SOOMAN OPEN UP BITCH. They're gonna ruin SuperM now?! Seriously the backlash will be strong so wtf. And why didn't he come back with WayV then?

I saw bits and pieces of LSF at GDA and some of it was live, like No Celestial! They did well overall, they're fun to watch

Me getting mesmerised by Hwa's vocals unknowingly, sounds about right 🥰 his vocals is really flexible, I love it

Yeah unfortunately idols/trainees parents are also to blame, they're greedy or don't care enough. My friend's sister wanted to become a trainee at 12 and their parents were on board, cause they knew nothing about kpop, but my friend and the rest of the family was like??? That's not happening

Yeosang is joining NCT didn't you know?

Yes his name is Baek Dohwa when I saw it I wheezed and then someone called him Hwa once and I??? Yes it's the eyes, the black haired guy Eunhyuk has Tae's eyes and fluffy hair.

Wet shirt 👀 I think that's the other guy, or maybe I'm forgetting something, but things are escalating there too

But listen this and this. And

I once heard a remix of The Boys and I am the best and ascended 😵 can't find it now, but goddddd I think that person also mixed 4Minute's Crazy and f(x)'s Electric Shock

Why are these men exposed?! They need this

They're probably having fan calls in their car like 💀 I just saw a video from yesterday from a person who's already had over 15 fan calls already tell Hwa "see you tomorrow" seriously and I thought me winning 4 calls last year was too much 🤡

Sometimes I have a thing for Rob, sometimes I don't, Damiano is cool and hot, young Keanu, so beautiful 🥰 I suddenly don't know any white men, pls 😬 I'll have to think harder. Probably some British white actors........ I had a Tom Hardy phase when I was 17-18

The collabs for that show are so random, but if they somehow come true I'll be levitating. Suga and Taeyeon?! I'm sorry, but HOW

I'm stealing that choker wtf Park Seonghwa hand it over! What a neck it's definitely necking ☺

Devastation...

Uhm anyways. I'm looking disrespectfully

Ahhhh finally the first episode is out! (Seonghwa coded) - DV 💖

hi hello!!

Am I Y/N now? 😭 Idk if I should feel honoured or worried /// We definitely should know less about each other it's aimed at Harry and lots of others who overshare lmao. Uhmmm, but would Meghan be with someone bigoted and racist in the first place? Let's hope not. Calm down, mate. We get it, she changed you alright!

bestie first off what did we wake up too, bale and lloris retirement, zidane disrespected, barca back, mourinho brazil, busquets with alnassr, martinez porto’s coach ????

ur the yn! the one who’s always HURT 🔫 u best believe that the pairing with this yn would carry all sorts of bandages in case <33 yEAAAHH i keep seeing his # on twt and theres somethings he’s said that are on point but and time i click it i just never wanna see anyTHING again, the contradictions, getting diana’s spirit to come????? the hair loss reactions 😭😭😭 let’s hope tf not but he is royalty, 2 sides to every story i guess! the palace clearly isn’t in the position to say anything so we only know harry’s side! i doubt they’d say anything too, tho i think that’s good bc once ur in front of the camera its hard to get away from it fbfb i wish the obsession with them is gone atp but this is so funny 😭😭

Heeeey I was about 6 or 7 years old when that accident happend and my grandma was next to us chatting with a friend 😭 there's another story with me and that friend, always me who had to fight for her life tho. So we had impromptu football goals at our playground, basically just 4 tall stakes. But they were placed in an inconvenient place, so my friend and I decided to move them... we were 7-8. I was holding the bottom, but my friend accidentally let go of the stake so it crushed my finger and it started bleeding 😭 gross but the nail came off 💀

i am sorry but what the fuck

anon, u need a supervisor 24/7 i AM DBWKDHWK tell us more

SM I'M AT YOUR DOOR WTF LEE SOOMAN OPEN UP BITCH. They're gonna ruin SuperM now?! Seriously the backlash will be strong so wtf. And why didn't he come back with WayV then?

NO SRS IM SORRY BUT what did he contribute, bro has 3 lines in a song 😭😭😭 the backlash will be crazy but a lot of ppl are begging for his return,,, makes me wonder if anything about his scandal was even true with the way twt’s acting! him not being in it would only save his face tbh 😭😭

I saw bits and pieces of LSF at GDA and some of it was live, like No Celestial! They did well overall, they're fun to watch //// Me getting mesmerised by Hwa's vocals unknowingly, sounds about right 🥰 his vocals is really flexible, I love it

tbh lsf’s performance make me forget about the fact theres even lipsync or not going on BC THEIR PERFORMANCES EAT EVERY TIME!!!!! theres this hunger to perform on stage and it SHOWS,, need them to have a concert bc im ready to anti ti ti fragile, wait have u seen this lsf performance?? this is better than any group out there tbh <3 his vocals are so flexible, he fits in every vocal range!

Yeah unfortunately idols/trainees parents are also to blame, they're greedy or don't care enough. My friend's sister wanted to become a trainee at 12 and their parents were on board, cause they knew nothing about kpop, but my friend and the rest of the family was like??? That's not happening //// Yeosang is joining NCT didn't you know?

ayo???? AS THE FAMILY SHOULD!! no bc i see like those singing shows whenever it’s on and it’s like catered to younger contestants (7-17 type) and during auditions they be sending 3yo’s???? they haven’t even started talking and they sent them out for singing 😭😭😭😭 YEOSANG IS THE NEW NCT HOLLYWOOD MEMBER??? iM SO SURPRISED! MORE PROMOS FOR HIM! AND TEASERS LIKE THIS

Yes his name is Baek Dohwa when I saw it I wheezed and then someone called him Hwa once and I??? Yes it's the eyes, the black haired guy Eunhyuk has Tae's eyes and fluffy hair. ///// Wet shirt 👀 I think that's the other guy, or maybe I'm forgetting something, but things are escalating there too

But listen this and this. And

i was about to answer the above paragraph and my finger slipped to the atrocity u linked there. the way i froze, anon. what IS GOING ON WHAT ARE U DOING ! ON A MONDAY !!!! UR SENDING THIS AND EXPECT ME TO NOT SCREAM BC THAT IS LITERALLY PARK SEONGGWA DVWNDHWKDHWK IM DBQKHDWKHDWKHDKW

wet shirt. seongjun. and u never told me tHIS WAS HAPPENING IN THE WEBTOON FOR FREE

I once heard a remix of The Boys and I am the best and ascended 😵 can't find it now, but goddddd I think that person also mixed 4Minute's Crazy and f(x)'s Electric Shock

ARE U TALKING ABOUT THIS

omg did u hear all the the boys remix’s 😮‍💨🤲🏻 the t r x sends a nostalgia 🤌🏻🤌🏻 CRAZY AND ELECTRIC SHOCK??? do u rmr this remix and the twiceblackvelvet remix that broke everyone WAIT HOLDON HAVE U WATCHED THOSE MULTIFANDOM EDITS this one 🤚🏻 what an era tbh

Why are these men exposed?! They need this

They're probably having fan calls in their car like 💀 I just saw a video from yesterday from a person who's already had over 15 fan calls already tell Hwa "see you tomorrow" seriously and I thought me winning 4 calls last year was too much 🤡

YEAH COVER THEM UP !!!!! COVER THEM UP RN 🔫🔫🔫 at least we get moments like this 😭😭 bro is tIRED,, 😭😭😭 i wish they’d do this once in a while, i want hwa to do this so bad

Sometimes I have a thing for Rob, sometimes I don't, Damiano is cool and hot, young Keanu, so beautiful 🥰 I suddenly don't know any white men, pls 😬 I'll have to think harder. Probably some British white actors........ I had a Tom Hardy phase when I was 17-18

i watched harry potter again and mr pattinson had me BY THE NECK !!!! damiano is so very attractive, he sometimes looks like princess diana 😭😭😭 i would’ve thought that tom hiddleston would have been in ur list for sure BUT TOM HARDY?? THATS A NEW 👀👀 i would add the chat noir from miraculous ladybug too tbh <3

The collabs for that show are so random, but if they somehow come true I'll be levitating. Suga and Taeyeon?! I'm sorry, but HOW

no ur right, it’s so random,, but pairing taeyeon and suga would probably be a another iu and suga type of music tbh fbwnfh

I'm stealing that choker wtf Park Seonghwa hand it over! What a neck it's definitely necking ☺ /// Devastation... /// Uhm anyways. I'm looking disrespectfully /// Ahhhh finally the first episode is out! (Seonghwa coded) - DV 💖

HE IS SO PRETTY IN THAT NECKLACE bro is so fine, the blond, the blue outfit and the sparkly necklace 😩😩😩 my new religion

this man is crazy and i would like every inch of him and this is the same guy

STOP THE FIRST EP LOOKS SO GOOD STOP IT SHKWFHWKHDKW

i also want to say what us wRONG WITH AUSTRALIA????? I WAS SENT A VIDEO OF A SNAKE, BLACK SKINNY SNAKE IN MY FAMILYS HOUSE AND THEYRE NOT EVEN PANICKING????? FHWKHDKW HOW IS UR FRIEND LIVING THERE????????????£|€\¥|!£]

anon, what the hell

[depresseddepot]

does it count as an all nighter if you're technically up for 24 hours?

[juicyjunhui]

I have SO much to do it's ridiculous

Chemistry assignment

Photography assignment

Photography portfolio

Makeup portfolio

Organisation of a big ass event I could be hosting

Genetics assignment

Keep my room clean and organised so I can find stuff despite having no free time

Kill me

[lvlyhao]

『ice cream with enhypen』

scenario; ENHYPEN

A/N: these are some simple scenarios of what i imagine going out for ice cream with enha would be like. also my first time writing a full length fic for them so aksjhaksja

𝓖𝓮𝓷𝓻𝓮𝓼: fluff (♡), comedy (☼)

𝓦𝓪𝓻𝓷𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓼: mentions of food (and I don’t think I swore but welp it’s me so always worth saying—)

word count: 2.7K

pairing: enhypen members x reader ( includes heeseung, jay, sunghoon, jake, sunoo, jungwon, ni-ki)

disclaimer: the characters in the story below do not reflect real people or present real facts. this is purely fictional, and you may not copy, change, translate or repost my work in any way. all rights reserved © cherry-hyejin 2021.

*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:

Heeseung

going out for ice cream with Heeseung would look like 6 pm: the perfect end to a lovely and loving day

I picture this happening on a Friday when the week already feels like it ended as in:

there would be nothing left to do regarding work, studies, chores, or if there is, you just postpone it because you know you need rest

Heeseung would love to take you somewhere not too distant from the rest of the city, so you don’t feel out of place, but not too crowded either

the sky would be a wonderful watercolour work of corals and oranges, with white, wispy clouds and static air

the weather wouldn’t be too cold nor too hot, so you two could still relish sitting under a tree at any nearby park to people-watch

not many people would pass by, mainly teenagers younger than you both, and you’d try and guess what each of them wanted for their future

Heeseung took it much more seriously than you, always suggesting things he found interesting himself like astronomy, gastronomy and even auditioning for a big entertainment company like HYBE (“maybe they’ll be our next dongsaeng?”)

you, though, were way too high on cloud 9 to think of anything complex, so you just said anything that came to mind

(it is worth saying Hee wouldn’t mind it at all; you looked adorable with that dreamy cast on your eyes)

he would be holding your hand all the time, stroking your knuckles but being mindful not to let his ice cream drip down…

...but would 10/10 laugh a bit if yours did

and then probably be the one to clean it up

you both would head home much, much later in the evening, after the sun was set and the stars were out

because then he’d like to watch them, mustering the courage to tell you that yes, they were beautiful, but they could never compare to you

<sigh>

one song: Fairy of Shampoo by Tomorrow X Together

one ice cream flavour: pistachio

Jay

going out for ice cream with jay would look like 2 am: a haphazard idea to escape an insanely busy week

Jay would text you out of nowhere and possibly wake you up; not that it bothered you too much

it would be one of those times when you just gotta do something spontaneous, otherwise it suddenly feels like wasted time

(talk about craving adrenaline lmao)

so the conversation you two would have basically goes like

“ice cream?”

“when”

“in 15”

“k”

and that was... it

Jay would take you to a random, small convenience store a few blocks away from your house

the weather would be cool—winter was nearing—and the sky would be pitch black, with no stars or the moon out

you would both be buried in gigantic hoodies, but Jay would refuse to place the hand that wasn’t holding the cheap ice cream on his pocket

cus then he wouldn’t be able to play with your hair as you found your way to a bench, resting your head on his lap and talking softly

the stillness of the night felt weird when you knew these same streets would be so noisy during the day

you stayed pressed close to each other all the while you were there, somehow afraid of disrupting this quietness

Jay would go back and forth between casual, existential-crisis-sparking questions (“why do you think we met?”, “isn’t it crazy that every single thing about this day could have been different if I had picked another shirt?”) and dipping down to kiss you, trying to get a taste of your ice cream

the time you'd spend there wouldn't be like any date you had been in—you normally enjoy a good movie together or cook—but it somehow felt nostalgic in a way you can’t explain

he’d take you home and stay over until dawn, playing songs on his phone to divert you both from the urge to sleep so you could keep talking and cuddling

<deeper sigh>

one song: Another Day by Stray Kids

one ice cream flavour: Neapolitan

Sunghoon

going out for ice cream with Sunghoon would look like 9 am: Christmas is just around the corner

he would surprise you by knocking on your door on an early morning, wearing nothing too fancy but with hopes for a pleasant day

neither of you would know what got into him—he is not usually the one to suggest such a silly adventure—but he'd tell you he’s seriously craving something cold

so out you would go, with a grey sky that starts to flicker with the pale sun of the winter

the chilling wind would bite the skin of your face, but you barely feel it when you watch Hoon, red from the tips of his ears to the bridge of his nose

(adorable)

if the wind started blowing stronger, you can bet he’d make you dash to the nearest ice cream shop and then take a moment to catch your breaths inside

you would both really indulge in like, 4 flavours each?? today’s energy is chaotic, and you’re here for it bby

if there is one problem in your plan of getting the ice cream and going back to your place, is that neither of you even considered not choosing cones

which means you have to walk VERY slowly not to drop any of the colourful balls and toppings on the frosty sidewalk

when you do manage to get back home, though, I can not begin to describe how soft of a day this would be

you and Sunghoon would lay out every single blanket you own on the living room couch, getting ready for a marathon of cheesy Christmas movies Hoonie pretends to hate

key-word: pretends

you two would have the time of your lives and probably skip lunch to have more cosy treats like hot chocolate (pLEASE, the temperature shock, kids don’t do this)

Sunghoon would hug you snug against his chest while you eat, saying that for some reason your house is freezing, but that’s okay, we know the truth

boy wants cuddles

one song: Christmassy by THE BOYZ

one ice cream flavour: peppermint

Jake

going out for ice cream with Jake would look like 4 pm: you had just packed your things to leave the picnic jake had planned

it all went faultlessly, with a flower bouquet, a charming checkered towel, tiny food, forehead kisses, you get the image

(yes, this absolutely is my ‘Jake is the perfect boyfriend’ agenda, and y'all are gonna have to follow it)

and I know this is very specific, but do you know how sometimes we just miss summer and kinda wanna re-live it, even if it’s not even close to being summer?

yeah, this is what would hit you and Jake—because you share 2.5 brain cells

the weather would be clean, and the grass under your feet crisp, with cherry blossoms adorning every corner of the park

clouds would graze through the blue skies leisurely, and it'd be at that same pace you two would find a tiny ice cream cart

you'd get your ice creams and, even though there were many empty tables to sit at, something in you would simply want to sit on the grass again and

really enjoy the moment?? you know what i mean??

so that’s what you do

you would be in the cool shade under one of the tallest cherry trees at the park, and Jake’s ice cream would melt into a puddle because of the sheer amount of fun he was having, placing the fallen petals on your head

his words, not mine, but they made you look like an actual fairy

and then you would probably regret having taken them off

he would take you to the dorms as the sun started to set, after many needed hours of breezy snickers and gentle kisses

you would either spend the night or leave much after dinner because, with Jake, dates are supposed to last an entire day, so buckle up

one song: Lillac by IU

one ice cream flavour: chocolate & orange blossom

Sunoo

going out for ice cream with Sunoo would look like 2 pm: under the scorching sun on your beach trip

when the first signs of summer appeared, Sunoo would start to plan a beach trip for you two—well, he would try his best, but Heeseung and Jay would definitely help too

so there you would be, hearing the crashes of the waves and taking in the heat on your skin

Sunoo would be glowing, I am telling you

there is just something very hopeful and candid about the summer at his age, so I think this is when and where his beautiful personality would shine the brightest

he would be SO thrilled to get ice cream you would probably do it twice the same day, going for different places and flavours each time to really savour the experience

Sunoo would interlace your fingers tightly despite the heat and then run with you to the ice cream place he would have looked up, telling you all about their remarkable flavours

he would enjoy it the most if you could share a banana split or milkshake instead of getting your own cones because it just adds to the feeling of proximity he loves so much

so yes, you’re gonna share a banana split with him

you’d eat, feed each other spoonfuls of different flavours, and then chill for a while, talking about how nice the whole trip has been before you go out again to the second shop

this one would be one of those retro, adorable places, you know? with all the neon signs, the checked floor and "hopelessly devoted to you" playing somewhere in the background

I think here neither of you would mind what ice creams you get because it’s all about the atmosphere; it feels so much like a movie it almost bursts his heart fdjfhkdj

I’m gonna end this by saying you did really try to take ice cream back to the boys when the sun started to set, but, oops, it was too hot for that

one song: Higher by Blanks

one ice cream flavour: bubblegum

Jungwon

going out for ice cream with Jungwon would look like noon: a local carnival, a few towns over from where you live

you two would be enjoying a sunny day, shielding from the heat time or another when you would stop at rides and games

I’ve never been to a carnival before because of where I live, but I can guess you could get sandwiches or fries for lunch??

honestly, Jungwon would insist on getting lunch because he’s kind of a responsible person and would bribe you to eat your food using ice cream

he’s that kind of boyfriend

anyway, the sky would be immaculate, no clouds on sight as you wander through the booths and look for the perfect ice cream place

you end up getting shaved ice because there is just something magical about having it at a carnival

no explanations needed

you two would switch who’s holding the cones while you stroll around lazily, choosing which games you wanted to play

he would win you an orange cat plushie after about 5 attempts at a dart game and beg you to name him yang and—who are we kidding? his name is yang now

(and Sunghoon will laugh about that later because only Jungwon could name a cat ‘sheep’)

after the ice cones are gone, I have a feeling you would either go on the maddest roller coaster you can find, for a once-in-a-lifetime kind of a thing, or take it easy and head to the merry-go-round

I feel like writing about the merry-go-round, so here we go: Jungwon would love to go just by your side so you could hold hands while going up and down, laughing until your cheeks hurt and trying to take pictures of each other

the pictures would come out blurrier than anything you’ve ever seen, but when it’s nighttime and you’re already home, they’d bring back the spark of undescribable love you had felt

one song: Youth by ONEUS

one ice cream flavour: raspberry

Ni-ki

going out for ice cream with Riki would feel like 3 pm on a Sunday: the autumn winds don’t seem to blow hard enough to alleviate your monotony

this would be an ordinary day for both you and him—too typical for your taste

no schedules, no homework left, no one doing anything interesting...

you know those days where nothing is objectively wrong, you feel like doing something… but then don’t have much energy to put into it?

yes, this is it

Riki would call you over a bit after lunch to hang out, play some video games and hopefully get some quality time together before his life turns chaotic again

cus then you could go for weeks barely seeing each other

:((

I imagine the other boys would probably be around you a lot that day as well, so it’s just some family bonding time 

until a manager arrives with ice cream

cus then it’s war

I can’t explain why but for some reason, I think Sunghoon and Jay would be willing to actually fight for the flavours they want??

so you and Riki just

back away slowly—cus you’re NOT doing this today—

get one popsicle each, totally random, and then a bunch of other snacks he probably has hidden somewhere in his room

(scratch the “probably”, he totally does have a secret chest filled to the brim with everything a convenience store has to sell)

and go set up a Halloween movie the others were not excited at all to watch—don’t worry though, after some arguing you end up with hocus pocus

so, here’s the bottom line: a cuddle pile. everyone’s hugging everyone (Riki’s squished between you and Hee), throwing caramel popcorn around whenever someone wheezes too loudly and having the best day ever

you would totally stay over for more movies along the night

for as long as Riki and the maknae line are allowed to stay up, anyway, lol

one song: ANL by NCT Dream

one ice cream flavour: dark chocolate

[vicea]

dream merch discord recap (june 12, 2021) - disclaimer: i may have missed some things or mistakenly heard other things, apologies in advanced for that!

he has not played the new minecraft update

dream “knows” the date george is coming to florida but he’s not saying it :p

dream doesn’t have anyone muted on twitter

dream guesses his favorite disney princess is belle

sapnap has seen dream’s feet before

he’s not actually connor’s dad in the dsmp lore

dreamnap do not have nicknames for each other D:

dream likes olives but especially black olives

his mother makes homemade pickles

he doesn’t have a phone case

he has dropped his phone from his ear onto concrete in the parking lot before and the screen didn’t crack

dream has six fingers /j

he pours cereal first not milk when making cereal

dream calls sapnap nick most of the time :D

what’s your dream car? “idk the one that gets me to point A to point B consistently”

he finally fixed his sleep schedule, woke up at 8 am today

mrbeast owes dream a tesla because he never sent dream the audio file

dream is a very analytical person - he thinks with numbers/data

creativity is one his strengths that he is the most proud of

3 to 4 years ago, dream used to say george looks like shawn mendes a lot, now he doesn’t resemble him as much

patches is currently sleeping <3

swimming is very relaxing to dream, he swam the other day!

many houses in florida have pools than other places, even the cheapest houses in orlando have pools

dream has merchendise defects (misprints on merch) + milestone merch and he wants to give them away to those who live in orlando (probably to anyone but the event will be held in orlando) though he doesn’t want it to be a covid super-spreader thing so once you pick up your item you gotta dip. just all an idea though

he has been donating them to charity too though :)

dream has likely read Heroes of Olympus before a long time ago

he says that he’ll do a give away of his childhood books with his signature on it

he was obsessed with the series (Percy Jackson) 

he really liked the Alex Rider series

has all of Maximum Ride books, 39 clues books

has read the legend series, the twilight series, and the maze runner

has all/read of the harry potter books, divergent, eragon

he would read all the time, to the point he would read more than one book a day (a book worm he says)

dream had a goal to read 200 books in a year and he wind up reading about 150

he doesn’t want to call it a library but- growing up he had something like that that had 600 or 700 or more books in it (privileged he admits it)

he has not read a book since he started youtube (about 2 years)

dream has a folder called Book that has his own writing in it

word count: 76000 words for one of his stories 

another one he wrote 5 chapters of

he sounds very excited/embarrassed talking about the stories he wrote he’s so endearing

the very first paragraph of one of his stories (he was young when he wrote this) “What exactly is darkness? is it the lack of light? is it a pit of nothingness? ... your mind is full of darkness...” then he couldn’t continue.

the story is about a kid who wakes up in a cell and has no idea where he is with other people who are in the same situation

dream has a world building document

he has a sequel to the first book he has ever written

he found a query letter that he wrote because he wanted to get his book published- he finds it very funny

he’s calling himself a nerd but idk it’s kind of endearing

“as you can tell i’ve always been incredibly cool and not a nerd at all! ever.”

he cringes at his own old videos

dream took a lot of inspiration from witches and wizards by james patterson for writing

the story is written in a way where the main character is actually writing the story so you’re getting input from the main character during it. there’s a lot of sarcasm in it and it’s making dream laugh

very first person narrator

he feels like it’d be very cool if he were to publish his works he wrote when he was 16 on amazon or something but he probably never would because he’d have to read through all of it and it’s just embarrassing for him

dream used to video call sapnap fairly frequently- even before youtube

he strictly remembers, a very long time (at least 7 to 9 years) ago he was at his old childhood house he video called sapnap. he was wearing a (technically) suit and he remembers specifically that he was giving sap a tour... 

“snazzy in a suit”

he had no reason to put on the suit (wow time is a flat circle huh)

drista is pretty close to sapnap’s height, she’s like 5′7″ but sap is still taller than her

dream filmed the whole thing when he and sapnap met but... it’s... gone because when he was clipping that one clip for twitter... it edited the whole video

he’s sure when they meet up with george they will film that too :D

DREAM IS PRETTY SURE THAT HE AND GEORGE WILL MEET THIS YEAR-- HE SAYS A 95% CERTAINTITY the five percent is like either restrictions or visa issues

dream does not play any instruments but he had a guitar hanging on his wall when he was younger...

dream is convinced they’re the same height but also sapnap is probably taller??

they had george compare his height to a door frame and dreamnap were googling for any doorframes to find any possible chance that george is taller than 5′8″ ... nothing came up

there’s a chance they’re both lying about being 5′8″

sap and george will literally just show up in stilts to prove they’re taller than each other /j

dream without shoes is between 6′2″ and 6′3″ with shoes he’s 6′3.5″

dream is talking about awesamdude’s fake height arc again LOL

dreamnap are very private people so they don’t bother each other but george doesn’t care and would just barge into their rooms and start bothering them- they were all joking about that over a voice call

he will visit europe

he thinks that greece would be a cool place to visit because sapnap’s family is from there :) so it’ll be like a nice “treat” to go back with sap :D

dream isn’t entirely sure that the dream team meet up will happen this year but he’s working out the details because he wants to make sure it’s safe

he’s talking to youtube about his face reveal

it’s up to george if he wants to eat healthy when they finally move in

dream just has a lot of meat and vegetables in his house

spinach with chicken is good

not much fruit (only apples and tomatoes)

“DRISTA IS 5″ is trending on twitter LOL (her height got cut off)

dream doesn’t want people flying to different places because he doesn’t want to encourage travel so he wants to do all of the meet ups with a two day heads up at most

he thinks that it’s awesome that ranboo and tubbo are meeting soon !! :D

it’s very cool to dream to see how far everyone’s has come since the beginning of the dsmp. everyone has done so much

dream finalized his youtube plan a couple weeks before he uploaded his video and he was talking to drista about how he was gonna be a big youtuber in a parking lot :”)

she was the first person he really ever talked to about it

dream would love to teach george how to drive it’d be really funny :D (a very good video or a livestream idea) 

dream knows how to ride a bike, he used to have to bike to school

he can’t explain dnf.gay he has no clue he is not responsible. sapnap was the one who found it LOL. he is adamantly exclaiming that it was not him

dream doesn’t worry about views/likes/dislikes a lot- mainly views but that’s for the new uploads

he hasn’t uploaded in like a month and a half (*cries*)

he wants to stream at some point but he doesn’t know when 

he wants to play geoguessr but not now... he doesn’t want to alt stream rn- maybe tomorrow!

he is insisting that the splash text on his minecraft home screen is by callahan

he asked callahan to send him bunch of text files that are dream team related so that the splash can rotate through it but callahan thought it was funny (it is) to put only dreamnotfound <3 so it doesn’t ever change at all and dream doesn’t even know how to change and he has asked callahan to change it but he said no (even though dream pays him LMAO)

the video referenced in the padilla’s video is still in the works, it might be handed over to sapnap though !

he has no idea if he will be in MCC pride yet

padilla got dream’s input for the video, dream found him to be a very nice guy ! :) it’s the first interview that dream did that wasn’t by a person with a negative opinion of dream

dream felt relaxed doing the interview with padilla 

?????? he’s blaming callahan for his “dnfisreal” nickname in bedwars 

he’s blaming callahan for a lot of dnf-related stuff

callahan runs the dream fanart account thus the liking of dnf content

he’s so insistent that it was callahan

dream admits that he was lying about the twitter and other stuff but for sure callahan did code the splash text in LOL

dream liking that tweet “the chances of george doing a hot tub stream is the same of dnf dating” was “funny” he wasnt trying to do any commentary...

the inside joke of “oh it’s all just a joke to you” originates from george and sapnap actually always fighting (like them yelling and shouting at each other) and george said something really mean and sapnap was hurt then geroge said “it was just a joke” and sapnap replied with that line and ever since then it’s been a meme LOL

he says that everyone does the hand-on-the-passenger-seat-while-reversing thing

dream is offline raiding with his chat with 6k people

dream appreciates us and will talk to us soon!