#i hope i didn’t get covided
Photo
A dude and his boyfriend 💕
#this was done very quick#caejose#Caesar Zeppeli#Joseph Joestar#i hope i didn’t get covided#looks like my dad is pretty sick so… 🙊#i feel tired + headache 🤒#These sketches could use a bit of refinement#i’ll do better next time 🙌#(Please apologize the messiness and clumsiness of this 🙏)#trans joseph joestar
354 notes
·
View notes
Text
positives:
last week i met maggie rogers twice (2nd time was just in passing) and she signed my record
got to see her at an intimate show at the house of blues
got to be a part of a special moment during don’t forget me where we all held up “we won’t forget you” signs which made her tear up
negatives:
had to spend five hours sitting on a bridge in the cold at 5:20am in order to get tickets
the concert was cut short bc like five people in a row passed out
i caught covid
#came back home and immediately got a jury duty summons tested postive for covid and received my dog’s ashes so. fun’s over lmao#anyway that line was crazyyyyy we were on all the news stations#getting there at 5am was NOT my initial plan but it became apparent that it was necessary if i wanted tickets#by 6:45 the line went from the venue down the bridge down the street and all the way down the other bridge across from me#did not expect to be watching the sun rise over the chicago river that morning lol#it was so so so cold and i was not dressed for it#the show was great tho she has such good energy and the new album is better live#sad we didn’t get to do most of the audience request songs but i hope all the people who passed out are ok…#also she was sweet when i met her but they rushed us through the line SO fast it was like 15 seconds
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
skipping class for the first time in my life bc my professor has covid and he sent out an email saying we’re having class and he’s asymptomatic and will wear a mask per cdc guidelines even tho he’s past the 5 day required isolation period. like. great whatevs but have you actually tested negative
update: the answer was no he had not
#stressed as FUCK#it’s fine we have a textbook and he doesn’t take roll#hoping he doesn’t do an extra credit activity but if i miss it for the sake of my health so be it#i have to go home afterwards anyway bc i have an appointment the next day with my thyroid dr#stressed abt that too bc my mum has dropped all precautions as if she isn’t in her 60s and didn’t lose her husband to covid#and idk what my sibling is doing but i know they’ve stopped masking at their practices and i wouldn’t be surprised if they stopped masking#all together. they also only wear cloth masks but at least it was something#idk i just feel like im the only one not ignoring it. like. when my dad got sick i asked him early on if he could smell and he was like#‘I’m just congested’ and my mum was like ‘no he’s just sick it’s not covid’ and then we waited until it was too late#like. i tell my mum that there’s nothing we could have done bc i don’t want her to feel guilty but like#idk. part of me thinks that if people had just listened to me and gotten him tested earlier and not lived in denial that maybe he’d still be#here. and my mum is pretty healthy but again she’s in her 60s. i don’t want to lose another parent to covid. or if she gets it and has it#bad or ends up with long covid then im gonna have to come home to take care of her or. idek. like i don’t live at home anymore so i can’t#pick up the slack if something happens to her. and my sibling definitely can’t#it’s so stressful. did we not watch the same process of my dad rapidly deteriorating. by the time we took him to the hospital he looked like#a corpse. he was completely grey and his eyes were glazed and he couldn’t even sit up or wave goodbye. has she just forgotten that happened#am i the only one who remembers watching my dad deteriorate in front of us#vent tw#covid tw
10 notes
·
View notes
Text
i so cannot breathe good god
#i didn’t think this was covid but now i’m scared#i have no tests so i wouldn’t know until i get home but. i sure hope not#i don’t think it is. it doesn’t feel the same i think it’s just a flu kicking my ass#but . scary. i’m scared#ted talks
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
i’m absolutely not complaining about ttpd as an album, i love it even more than i thought i would, but i do kind of wish she would’ve waited to release it until after the eras tour was over so it could’ve gotten its own tour :/ like the visuals and the stage design and the outfits are just sooo good and not only is it being cut down into only seven songs so it can fit into an already massive setlist, but everyone who went to the shows in the us, mexico, south america, asia, and australia — aka a huge portion of the tour dates — didn’t get to see any of it live. like it’s so impressive that taylor was able to add the ttpd section into the existing setlist but i can't help but feel disappointed bc this means we likely won't get a ttpd tour, which is something i would kill to see </3
#i know so many people demand new content from her constantly but with everything she’s been doing we didn’t NEED this album so soon yk#i personally would’ve been fine waiting another year or even longer if it meant ttpd could get its own era#bc it’s kind of impossible for it to fully have that when she’s already a year into this huge tour#she’s already had to cut so many songs to fit everything (not even everything bc there’s no debut set)#with lover/folklore/evermore not getting their own tours bc of covid it makes sense why she did the eras tour instead of a midnights tour#but now that touring is an option again it would’ve been nice for her to slow down her releases a bit to really focus on new albums more#idk maybe this is a hot take bc ofc the eras tour is incredible and i do feel so lucky to have gotten to go at all#but i just really wish i could see ttpd songs live and it seems like i won’t get that chance until the next tour#which will likely be years from now and who knows how many albums she’ll have put out by then#rn all i can do is hope that she’ll add another us leg or something so i can see eras again with the new setlist#but that’s very unlikely since she’s already added shows in miami/indy/etc none of which i can afford travel for let alone resale tickets#no one’s gonna even see this but if anyone does i hope it’s not taken the wrong way bc she’s given us so much in the past few years#sorry for the essay i just love ttpd and i want to see it live </3#lj speaks now
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
Fanny, my sweet, beautiful girl
17.11.2012 – 14.04.2019
#my art#artists on tumblr#I cannot accept that it has been 5 years already#I know covid messed with everyone’s sense of time but it simultaneously feels so much longer and so much shorter than that#exactly five years ago I was holding onto my mom for dear life and sobbing as we watched lilo and stitch together#not the best movie to watch when you’ve just lost your first ever pet you know#and then I cried myself to sleep at the next morning we never mentioned her again#I know it’s because it was way too painful for everyone involved. but I do wish I was allowed to process that grief properly#instead of bottling it up and pretending everything was okay until I was reminded of her#feeling like my heart was being shattered over and over again every single time#well anyway. enough of that. I’ve allowed myself a nice long cry today and got most of it out of my system#and once I was feeling okay I decided to draw her#and I can count the number of times I’ve drawn animals on one hand so.. I’m not too sure about the result#but it felt like to commemorate her in some way.#so yeah. here she is. my dear girl. the best dog in existence. she was always so affectionate and kind#which I didn’t always appreciate bc of how young I was. when you’re a kid it feels like pets will live forever#never barked. never bit anyone. her only crime was chewing on my mlp and lps toys that I left out on the floor#but I’m grateful she did that. it taught me not to leave my toys lying around and to clean up after myself#she really was taken from me way too soon. ideally she could still be alive right now. but I’ve been down the road of guilt and regret#there was nothing I could do. I was a child. I can only hope that she knew she was loved right until the very end#even if I didn’t know how to show it properly. and great. now I’m tearing up again#I suppose it’s unavoidable. April 12th will always be a melancholy day. and maybe that’s not such a bad thing#it’s good to have a day when I can freely remember her and cry if I need to. it’s healthy. it’s better than crying every day#she never liked it much when I cried. always tried to comfort me. that’s the kind of dog she was. I miss her so much#when I move apartments and get a dog of my own I’m getting a spaniel. just like she was#well. maybe a different colour so I don’t end up sobbing every time I look at it. but spaniels really are the perfect breed#I mean. cavaliers especially were bred for love and warmth. that’s just what I need. it will be nice to have someone waiting for me at home#and while I don’t necessarily believe in the afterlife… I do hope that Fanny’s watching over me#spiritually comforting me when I feel all alone in the world. it’s a nice thought for sure#and hopefully she won’t mind me getting another spaniel too much. it will be done in her honour after all. to make up for my past mistakes
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
fuck it’s 3am and I can’t get my wheezing under control and I’m tempted to use my nebulizer but it’s loud af 🙃 I’m tempted to wait until my mom leaves for work but that’s in like 3 and a half hours
#We’ve also got so many dishes and I gotta do at least some of it 😭#I’ve literally been wearing a mask to sleep hoping to reduce how much dust and hair I’m breathing in#But I didn’t hydrate well enough today and my nebulizer session today felt like it was wearing off quicker than usual#I really need to see someone…#We’re working on getting me disability so I can be on my mom’s insurance#Covid has genuinely ruined my life even before I caught it earlier this year#And now it’s seemingly destroyed my lungs#I had agoraphobia like 2 years before Covid and I started getting it under control in early 2020#Now I have agoraphobia because im terrified of unnecessarily risking illness#That was before my lungs got so fucked up now I’m scared a second infection will actually kill me#I keep thinking of how much I let my guard down at that small NYE party/wedding party at my cousin’s house why did I not keep my mask on?#The pressure of social a situation that I felt wrong footed in might literally kill me great 🙃#What’s so fucked up is the fiancée literally was going to have heart surgery soon and I have no clue if he got Covid#I’m convinced I got it from the bride’s relative who I literally had never met before#But who I felt socially pressured to hug for NY I just hate it I feel so stupid
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
I’ve had covid for the last week and I’ve gotta go back to work tomorrow. At the start I joked that I would get so much drawing done, and all I’ve done is this Jasper doing an incorrectly drawn navy salute
#baby’s first covid#the rest of these tags are just gonna be me venting#y’all would not believe how much of a fuck around it was to get my 5 days of isolation#I’ve said this a lot over the last 6 days but you’d think they wouldn’t want someone with covid cleaning an eating area. which is my job#and guess who covered half my shifts? the other worker who tested positive the same day I did#I have such an issue with my new supervisor and how my workplace is run. I’m 🤏 close to quitting (alas#the plan is to get top surgery and then dip)#but yeah. anyway. wish me luck and let’s hope I’m not still contagious (I always wear a mask and sanitise anyway)#if any of the customers or workers ask where I’ve been or why I’m working slow. I’ll be 100% honest and say I’m recovering from covid#‘’yeah I may still be infectious I don’t know‘’#I tried to get Monday/tuesday off on Saturday and was ignored for 27 hours and the answer was ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ill give you a call at 8#didn’t get the call so I called at 8:20 and was like ‘I’m not feeling great’ and the supervisor said she would cover my shift but didn’t#I never got told if I had Monday off. so I assumed I did. then today (Tuesday) got laughed at when I said if no one can cover I’ll go#so I got today off too. but I was asked if I could work Thursday which was the day after I tested positive.#I had Thursday off for my top surgery consultation. which had to get rescheduled. I didn’t even think I had covid 😭 I just wanted to be#responsible and test myself before an appointment. then I had a fever that afternoon. wild ride#anyways. I’m gonna try sleep.
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
SOMEONE KILL ME IM TESTING POSITIVE FOR COVID AGAIN 😭😭😭 and I’ve had my symptoms return these past couple of days…. What did I do to deserve this 😭😭😭
#I googled and apparently you can get a COVID rebound after Paxlovid??? kill Me!!!!!#I was directly exposed tested positive on the 31st#took Paxlovid. tested negative last Thursday#started feeling shitty again yesterday and this AM so I took a test#and got a stronger positive than I did before#I hope I didn’t initially have a false p and now I’m positive#either way I’m sick of being sick :(
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
Ahhhh the job I thought i didn’t get bc they never got back to me after my interview (which I thought went really well) just reached out to me bc apparently the person they tried to hire backed out.,.. and now its gonna be like another month of wondering if I’m gonna have to decide if I want to move to another state where I don’t know anyone. And i was kind of relieved when i never heard back bc I’m really happy here with my family and gf and friends but the fact is my job here is a contract with very slim hopes of developing into a real job with benefits and i live with my parents bc i love them and our house and our town but i know i have to seriously consider this opportunity bc it would be a good career move and i want to live a rich and interesting life. But I don’t want to talk about it with anyone irl because my dad has covid which has been my number 1 fear since the start of the pandemic (he’s 71 and immunocompromised but he’s doing well and not needed the hospital) and I just want to be able to only worry about that I can’t even talk about the job thing which i drove myself and everyone around me crazy with already back in October. Which is why I’m just posting it vjfdhk I’m being tormented by forces beyond my control i feel like this is the sort of thing it would be really helpful to believe in God about
#like people who say He has a plan which i guess is comforting but his plans are so inscrutable they may as well be random. but some people#think he wants the best for us??? which seems so unlikely to me I can’t even try to believe it#anyways i think my dad willbe fine but I’m worried about long term health issues which would make it really really hard to move away bc my#mom is already basically disabled. and i want the house I want it so bad but I can’t afford to buy it from them bc our neighborhood has#gotten sooo much more expensive then it was when they moved here in the 80s and i know they’re planning on selling it to fund their#retirement. but i love it here so much I want to live here forever and die here but its not realistic and maybe it would be easier if i#moved away and put down roots somewhere else and then it will be less painful when they sell the house and less painful when they die#i just want things ro stay likethis forever I’ve#spent so much time these past few years walking around this neighborhood its like the veins in my arms i can live other places i have for#years but they never get this deep im so scared for the futuy#future but there’s absolutely nothing i can do to stop it. except kill myself i guess but it’s#not nearly at that point yet ckgdf it would make a lot of people very upset. it is sort of comforting to remember though i have that option.#god i hope they don’t offer me the job I’m a wreck just thinking about it#i really haven’t made any special efforts to reach out to them or anything. obv I wasn’t their first choice i have no idea if I’m their#second. i think they really liked me but I’m guessing im younger and less experienced than other candidates#hi if ur reading this btw its me a stranger on the internet and you know something my closest friends and family don’t know. congrats#I’ll talk to someone in a few days when my dad is feeling better. really hope my mom doesn’t get sick too she’s been coughing a bit but#testing negative. idc if i get covid i actually hope i get it bc that will prove I didn’t give it to my dad asymptotically#that’s not a secret i toldmy mom she was like jesus Christ don’t think like that
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
“hey so there’s been a bunch of exposures recently but we’re gonna have the volunteer party this week bc it’s outdoors so we’ll be fine. yeah it’s a bunch of people all talking maskless face to face in relatively close proximity but we’re outside so any transmission would of course be impossible” be so fucking for real
#i love this place i love volunteering there. they have air purifiers around the center and tell people in no other words that if they’re#feeling unwell in the slightest they shouldn’t come in. they’re offering free tests to anyone exposed. they’re doing so much more than so#many other places and a lot of times it’s a place im able to relax a bit#but im just. exhausted. a week from tomorrow will be the three year anniversary of my dad dying from covid so im already in a bad place#plus covid in general is a trigger for me because. yknow. i watched it slowly strangle the life from my father until he was a grey#breathless husk who couldn’t walk three steps or say three words without panting. and that was when we made him go to the hospital#and then the next time he came home it was just his ashes in a bag#but it’s been four years. five if you count the early cases that popped up in 2019. and we’re still dealing with this shit#im just tired of it. im too exhausted to have a full sobbing shaking breakdown so ive gone to the other end of the spectrum and just feel#heavy and hollow. i should probably have a big cry but i don’t have the tears or energy#vent tw#im just hoping my n95 and the air purifiers were enough to keep me from contracting it at all. the worry is the n95 could’ve been loose and#sometimes the metal on the nose loosens slightly but the mask was pretty new overall so im hoping it worked to its full capacity and kept#out any covid molecules so that i didn’t contract any#only time will tell i suppose. in the mean time#im just praying a lot bc that’s the only control i have. i will be saying the shema whenever i get too stressed about it
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
Missed you today, friend! How's everything going for you?
#not to state the obvious#but COVID sucks#it's milder than when I first had it for sure#but hoo boy am I tired#and bummed to be missing out on friends and church#my husband has it rough this time too#but my daughter is a champ about it#we really wore masks everywhere while we were out#but the baby can't and my in laws didn’t and we have no way of knowing where it even came from#i'm not a huge fan of our thanksgiving trips since our relationships with that side of the family are kinda shallow#(it's for the best really - they are not people we could be intimately close to)#but i hope your holdiay was spent with at least some people you enjoy deeply#on my end-if nothing else-COVID isolation means i get to see my husband more#i'll see what i can write you in the two weeks before we play again#it's a busy time of year so maybe not much but hopefully at least something#:)
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
.
#meg talks#god i am so fucking tired lately sksbdjjccj#came home from work today and made myself a quick dinner and after eating i immediately passed out for like an hour 💀#there’s so much i gotta do in terms of cooking/chores but my body is just so worn out#which is why im late answering messages and stuff lately btw sjsbdjdb im not trying to ignore ppl#just. spoons in the negative. i can drop by and post my gay little thoughts every now and then but conversations i have to take slow#but yeah i am in dire need of a vacation skshdjdj ill have to put in a time off request soon…#just gotta decide how much time i wanna take off and when…#im just like god i hope i don’t have another medical emergency of some kind and regret not saving my pto 💀#but i need REAL time off u know… time to relax instead of recovering/nursing ppl#at my first job i didn’t take a proper vacation for like two years and whew. there were Mental Consequences#now it’s been a year and a half at this job and the Consequences are hot on my tail#it’s just sad bc of covid u know. i can’t go anywhere nor host any friends for a visit#so ill just spend the whole time at home wishing i could be w my friends and family… 😔#well. anyway. ill figure smth out#for now i just gotta get into a routine w the chores so im not dying sjbsdjhd#and also go talk to my fibro specialist abt adjusting my treatment to accommodate for lifestyle changes…#third floor apartment and walking to work and etc etc#sigh. im just tired man
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
.
#rant in tags#my dumbass antivaxer cousin#stayed with us for two nights#and she was coughing and sick the whole time#didn’t get a covid test ofc#it’s so selfish really because my parents are on the older side of things??#AND she was visiting my gran#who is very old#anyway I woke up with a scratchy throat this morning#and I HOPING it’s just my normal hayfever nonsense#but it still makes me mad that people can be so selfish#and so stupid
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
now why do i get 10x more advertising emails when im waiting for an important one
#like. im waiting to hear from an old prof re: being an academic reference so i can finally get my grad school application going#and im also waiting to hear about a dance company audition#every time i have an unread email i get my hopes up that it’ll be one of those#and then it’s like. from lululemon or etsy or something#also im SOL if this prof doesn’t reply… academia ppl is it bad if i have to use an extra personal reference bc i can’t find an academic one#covid put my classes online for 2 full years so i rlly didn’t connect w my profs and finding one for a reference is turning out to be tricky#and ive been out of school for almost a year which is so not helpful
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
had the date today & i was like ok he talks a LOT which is DOPE bc i was so fucking high & was very entertained but .. he’s unvaccinated 😭 by CHOICE 😭😭
#stream#like#i didn’t kiss him for this reason omg i was playing it hard to get#he was like ‘can i have a kiss’ then i just scratched his chin (bearded) like if u know u know u be stroking a beard they’re hot but i’m#like yea no i can’t kiss him not knowing if he’s positive or negative for covid lol#i said ‘hmm … i think i’ll make u work for it’ then bopped his nose LOL#i hope i don’t have covid#i’m going to be so mad#also i think he’s upset bc i might’ve ‘emasculated’ him bc i payed & then also as i was leaving - we were chatting in his truck where i#found out he’s unvaccinated AFTER THE DATE & as i was leaving i was like ‘text me when u get home safe’ before he could say it like idk#that’s just polite & he was 😭😭😭 ALSKALSKALSKALSKLAKSLAKSL#it makes me laugh so hard#bc i’m so queeny#but also he’s 42 & im half#less than#but still#he’s so hot but i just can’t#like & it’s not that he CANT like he even admitted it like ‘i can see both sides’ like ok bestie u do u#im not going to tell u what to do w ur body but my body can’t handle that risk 😭😭😭
2 notes
·
View notes
Last Seen Blogs
teedalee
bada bing badaboom
wendalynwolf
Wendalyn Wolf
coldresolve
holy or inane
jojopanels
JoJo Panels I Like