#i juat find it amazing ok...

[thatquietkid108]

Humans can smell rain!

[depressedhatakekakashi]

I actually have a cute new AU in mind

Since Naruto had a pretty shitty childhood and all that at first he wants to be Hokabe because he wants to be recognized, but when he finally gets the recognition he quickly understands that people now like him only because he saved them and not because they know him, so he decides to let his Hokage dream go (and maybe we can have Hokage Sakura instead 🤭)

At first he doesn't know what to do, until he looks at Kakashi, who despite everything helped him get stronger and never really left him alone (despite Kakashi's depression, guilt and all that) and he immediately decides what he wants to do now

To become a jonin sensei

So he asks Kakashi to help him study to become first chunin and then jonin, to help him find a way for him to better understand everything that's behind the jonin work, and Kakashi looks at Naruto, this boy who has always rushed in every situation without thinking beforehand, and is proud to see that he finally grew up

Awww ok i Love this because Seeing Naruto actually getting to learn how to study and become a jonin would have been amazing.

Imagin Kakashi sitting there helping him learn ways to keep himself focused and retain information.

switching off with Iruka for study periods, and helping Naruto grow as a leader and tactical thinker. Someone who could think things through instead of just rushing in head first.

Naruto spending hours with home made fidget spinners that help him focus while giving him something else to do. Learning how to take notes that will help him remmember information.

Kakashi getting to see Naruto retake his chunin exams and get the promotion he deserves finally, alongside everyone else.

And the. shortly after taking his jonin exam after ridiculouse amounts of studying with Kakashi and Iruka’s help, and passing.

All of Naruto’s friends getting him gifts for his promotion and celebrating with him, and Naruto not wasting any time. Juat asking Kakashi to make him a Jonin sensei because he wants to help future generations become strong and find their own way in the world.

Imagin Naruto getting to be the Jonin sensei for Mirai, or perhaps Kakashi’s daughter Nakano (since there’s a theme of the kids training their sensei’s kids sometimes)

[depressedkakashihatake]

How dare you (that last post had me screaming)

I feel like this is just asking me to expand on that bit of Headcannon, and i am happy to do so 🤣🤣🤣

Before he took his life, Sakumo made sure to have everything in order. He gave a bunch of his stuff to friends that he had, or coworkers he knew, but the house he wanted to go to Kakashi so Kakashi always had it. Problem was, if he left the house to a 13 yr old the ministry would just reposses it because Kakashi was too young. So what he did was he left it to one Might Dai..someone he knew would allow Kakashi to stay in his own home and would take care of his son.

Of course, people tried to argue against this, the ministry included. No one wanted to leave a prostigous families house in the hands of a squib. Thankfully, Tsunade and Minato caught wind of the arguements over the house and showed up in may (this arguement took almost all year) to argue in Dai's favor. At the end of the day, they won because they're a scary duo and no one wants to piss both of them off.

Dai only got notice that he was given the house in June, so he didn't have much time to move all of his and Gai's stuff to the new, much larger house, before the boys were out of school and home for the summer.

Kakashi dreads going home. He has no idea what's going on with the house and is absulutly convince that as soon as he gets off of the hogwarts express he'll have someone from an orphanage waiting for him. He's practiclly begging the teachers not to send him home and it takes Minato sitting down with him and calmly explaining that he's not going to an orphamge, he will be fine and safe, for him to finally calm down. It gets so bad that his grades actually start taking a turn for the worst because he starts having panic attacks mid classes and even in the middle of his final exams. Tsunade has to help him through one panic attack in the middle of his charms exam, and he barly passes that one that year which sucks for Minato cuz he knows its not Kakashi's fault.

When Kakashi and Gai get off of the train together, they find Dai waiting for them with a soft smile on the other side. Dai of course checks in on Kakashj right away to make sure he's ok, and asks what's going on when he see's Kakashi looking around as if he's searching for someone. Kakashi ends up admitting he's looking for whoever was sent to pick him up, and Dai just smiles and says he's right in front of him. Both Kakashi and Gai are surprissed but suddenly all of that worey and fear washes away from Kakashi and he just collapses into Dai for a hug cuz he can't imagin a better scenario.

When they get to the house Kakashi is aort of relived and sort of scared to see that Dai hasn't changed anything. The only things gone are things he knows his father likely gave away to others. It takes him a few weeks into summer, but ultimatly he does approach Dai and ask if there's anything that he brought that they can decorate the house with so it feels less empty. Kakashi helps Dai and Gai add all of their own pictures to the wall and even makes sure that a picture they have of them together goes up beside a picture of him and his father.

Kakashi cannot enter the kitchen at all that summer. He absolutly refuses to and whenever he makes the mistake of almost doing so he see's flashes of his dad's body on the floor and books it. Dai ends up building a bench outside for them to eat at in sunny days, and on less enjoyable weather day's they eat in the living room together.

Gai gets his own room in the house which Kakashi helps him set up, and Kakashi even buys him things for the room with some.money that his father left in his account. Of course, Dai refuses to let Kakashi pay for much, saying that it's his responsibility to take care of the boys, but Kakashi still adds in money once in a while for food and cloths (he even gets Gai brand new cloths cuz he hasn't had new cloths since first year and they're really too small for him now)

Dai ends up giving Sakumo's room to Kakashi because he feels wrong sleeping in his friends room. He thinks Kakashi will change it up and make it to suit himself more, but Kakashi leaves everything as it is and just sleeps in the room. When Dai asks him about it he says sometimes it feels like his dad is still there with him in that room, and he doesn't want to lose that.

Of course some of Sakumo's old 'friends' still visit to check in on kakashi, which is hard on him cuz he knows what they said about his dad before he took his life. He gets really annoyed with one of them one day when they snidly ask 'what are you going to do with such a big house when you're old enough to claim it as yours and you're all alone' and responds 'i won't be alone. This is Dai and Gai's home to now!' To which the jerk has nothing to say and Dai just smiles warmly because he knows Kakashi's being honest and it feels nice to have someone say that they have a home with them.

Dai struggles to get to his muggle job from the house and actually debates keeping his old home, but then he'd need someone to take care of the kids on mights he has to go to work the next morning. Minato takes care of that swiftly when hogwarts caretaker retires that summer and swiftly suggests Dai for the job. Of course Dai gets it and he's super extatic because juat being at hogwarts at all is amazing and now he can help around the place even though he's a squib (and he's a MUCH better caretaker than filch XD)

Kakashi finds his fathers wand tucked away in his nightstand one day while he's looking for something else. With it, he finds a note from his father to him. Gai shows up 5 hours later to find Kakashi rereading the note with tears on his face and his fathers wand clenched in his hand. He bolts to Kakashi's side and pulls him into his arms for a hug and they just sit there for hours while Kakashi cries.

When they get their hogwarts letters for the next year, Kakashi is surprissed to find the quidditch Captain's badge in his. Usually you have to be 5th year or above to be a quidditch captain. After getting his congradulations from Gai and Dai, he picks up the badge and heads out into the backyard where he had buried his father the year before. He spends the rest of the day by his dad's grave telling him about the badge he got in his letter and how this year is going to be better. This year he won't 'let his dad down' and he'll get top marks again and win the quidditch cup.

[macpreg]

ok so like I wish my friends followed this blog so I could vague post and they'd reach out and start a conversation or check up on me bc I feel like messaging them and saying I'm sad is just needy and kinda pathetic and they won't care (they absolutely will bc they're fucking amazing but still,,,, anxiety y'know???). however I know they don't have tungle /and/ don't give a shit about any of the shit I post (not that one of my friends who does follow me cares about DW or basically any of my other lesser SpIns but still she my bby (ily thot)) but I just feel really weird about juat messaging them and saying “hello I am unmedicated and subsequently sobbing like a little bitch bc I'm autistic and therefore unlovable” (jshsjs I just reread this and want to let y'all know that all of my friends are autistic and I love them like family. also to all my autistics you are so dearly loved don't ever think you arent) it's just??? I find it hard to initiate conversation at the best of times let alone when I'm being a whiny bitch lmaooooo

[hand-painted-5tars]

exo 🤗

Bias: jongdae!!!!!

Bias wrecker: Chanyeol and Ksoo

Ah.... i will make the music part a bit too long because i really love exo's music and i like talking about the aspects i like or find interesting in their music.

Fave Title track: oh this is a very hard one... I have a tie between Power and Tempo. I like how fun power is and light and i consider tempo is a very dynamic song, the amount of highlights and different /irony/ tempos of the song makes it jumpy and cool.

(and because im cheating and not counting christmas albums. My fav christmas title track Universe very very close to Sing for you. But Universe wins because it's meaningful for me)

Fave- Non title track. No

Ok :"( its very hard white noise, gravity and what is love.

White Noise its grounding to me, the beat is consistent in the background just like static and easy to follow, just like white noise. And the voices blend perfectly to it so the song is very fluid and in some part they have highlights but they have a controlled weight that is similar to the music in the arrangements it flows in a way its easy to listen like /white noise/ yet this followable despite carries this slight hollowness, emptyness which is reinforced in the lyrics that talk about missing someone and feeling lost yet their worry is if this person is alright. "I just have to find you amongst all the noise in the world" "just hearing your laughter will let me know that you are alright" this message that is sad yet a bit soft but also a bit carries this feeling of emptyness. Like walking in white fog looking for something you cant remember. Its a song that i find grounding when i am having bad thoughts, the beat is grounding and the lost hollow feeling seems to match my feelings at those moments so its comforting to me, it helps me feel again.

oh my god i made a WHOLE BIBLE ON WHITE NOISE IM SORRY

Ill keep it short for gravity: sounds like an space videogame, the fading effects and the synth are so cool. I can imagine an space mv where they are racing on spaceships and cool stuff in a videogame!!! Its juat like a VIDEOGAME like a trip to space exciting and with many cool effects.

What is love... Just amazing, wow, very cool the voices, bang!!!

For christmas album is been through!!... I love the lyrics and the music its a bit darkish but it makes me feel like in a storm staring at the scarce stars in the night sky. Its meaningful because this entire album was like a lifeline to me when it came out.

Now that i made it cheesy i have spent all day thinking abot how beautiful universe is. The lines

"You have my world, You are my small Universe"

Are so pretty, they feel so delicate like made of crystal, if you say "you are my universe" it feels inmense, huge a big thing. But for akme reason if you say it as "you are my small Universe" it doesnt feel inmense it seems intimate and familiar, like a secret, like something that is tiny yet so meaningful its huge, its also familiar and it talks about knowing you well, its like grabbing someones hands in yours and placing a kiss on their knuckles because you must be really close to someone to do this...

It carries so much love and power in such a phrase. Maybe in a way

Oh my GOSH IM SO CHEESY ATM TT end meee its 2am forgive me

Fave MV. Power its trippy and fun... And Universe.

[purgatoryfallenangel]

Do all the odd questions for the ask~

Ok here we go. Hopefully I went to the right ask cus I think I’ve reblogges more than one but I went to the most recent one lol. Also on mobile so I wrote down the questions in short form to respond too so. Yeh lol

1. Scars - I do have a few scars. One on my upper lip, ran straight off a freshly built porch and smacked my face right on the corner lol (was just learning to walk. Needed one stitch); chunk out of my knee from tripping on a tree root having a watergun fight when I was 8; and few little indents from when I had the chicken pox (was like. 12?)

3. Crush - yes there is a current crush lol. Well. Kinda crush kinda not it’s complicated (well not really but it’s a strange string if events lol).

5. Coke or Pepsi- fucking Pepsi all the way lol. I can drink coke too it’s not bad but I prefer Pepsi. If there’s no Pepsi then coke is my second option.

7. Best friends. Well. As for longest friends would be Rachael for sure. Though we haven’t talked much recently. And one I’ve known same about of time is kerestyn. Been some life issues that have caused some distance. For other good friends though that I’m still in contact with, well mainly my friends Imani (who changed her Tumblr and I can’t find her blog to @ her lol. And Harold. Who has a Tumblr he never uses lmao. As well as my friend Aleister. Who also has a Tumblr he doesn’t use… lmao

9. Dream job - honestly would be, plants I think. If I could work with plants and learn more and juat overall be the plant lady and tend to massive gardens that would be great.

11. Last time you cried - oh jeeze… I wanna say like. A month ago? Was stressed put about moving issuea. But think it was actually more like. A week and a half ago honestly. Wasn’t so much just, general stress, moatly some period hormones and thinking too hard about things that literally happened years ago…

13. Height - I feel short but in reality I’m adverage height for a girl in my area. I’m 5'3.5" (yea that half an inch counts I’m literally right smack on the half inch mark I swear lol.

15. Eye colour - I’ve got Hazel eyes. An olive kinda green around the outside with a lighter brown around the pupil. Swear they were more brown when I waa younger (like my mother and gransmother) but they’ve gone more green as I aged. So now I have my grandfather’s eyes (like my aunt. Who I look very very similar too already lol)

17. What do you love. Poutin, the paranormal and my cat. Not nesicarily in that order. Lol… could add more but I’ll leave that surprise till a later question lol.

19. If I had one wish what would it be - I’d juat wish that everything would be ok. Not even just for me but in general. Things don’t have to be perfect and amazing and fairytale perfect. Juat ok.

21. Kiss or hug - depends on the person. Close family is a kiss and a hug, not so much for kissing friends. Obviously if I’m dating someone it’s both. And then some.

23. Favorite song - as of late. Think it’s still this one here https://youtu.be/gJeh_dLjPN4. Closely followed by this one https://youtu.be/BI_0HIz_4JY

25. Worst thing to ever happen to me - honestly I wouldnt say anything all that awful has happened. Only one thing really but. I don’t really remember much and I’d rather not put out what I do remember on the internet.

27. Something I would change about myself - if I could get rid of my adhd think I would… Kinda been what’s fucked up my life until this point. Then again I wouldnt be me if I didn’t have it. So getting rid of it might not go well…

29. Worst mistake - holding onto people for far longer than I should have. I knew I should have just gone but I couldn’t let go and it fucked both sides up more than what waa needed. Well, I’d think it would anyway.

31. Heartbreak - yes I’ve gone through the heart break a few times. Once with my first long term boyfriend and the other time with a friend I was in love with. Me and the boyfriend broke up cus we couldn’t talk shit out without arguing and upsetting eachother.. And the friend was made uncomfortable because he’s a good few years older than me (7 years) and I was. I think, maybe 18. Possibly almost 19 when I told him but he met me when I was 15 so he was, creeped out a bit. Been years since I talked to either of them. Most recent was my, second long term boyfriend… that’s a mess I won’t get into. If only because one thing that caused the break up was him complaining to everyone but me, about me. And plastering his beef with me all over social media. As well as, images of things caused by my own issues and mental illness. So. I’m gonna leave the rest of that out… Though I’m more numb than anything when it comes to him…

33. Best day if my life - I’m not sure honestly. I’ve had a good few really nice days I don’t think I could pick a specific one lol.

35. Ever wish I could start over - honestly. No… because the shit that’s happened to me happened for a reason. If it hadn’t happened I wouldnt be where I am now or who I am now. Have to struggle to learn. Plus I’m actually happy now. Why would I want to give that up?

37. Near death experience - nah nothing like that. Unless I somehow didn’t notice I’ve never really had anything like that happen.

39. Lost a loved one - thankfully nobody I’ve been extremely close to has died recently. Family member I was closest too that had died waa my aunt Karen. But that was in. 2005? Maybe. God. Idk. I barely remember I wasn’t very old. I know it’s been at least 10 years but probably more than that honestly.

41. Someone you hate dislike - I really don’t hate anybody, and not normally for long if it does stick around… currently not to happy with my ex but. Again that’s more frustration. And some shit went down I have good reason to be angry about.

43. Relationship status - I am currently in a relationship. A very new one but. Was a long time coming lol.

Ok that’s a lot but here ya go. Enjoy this hot mess wasn’t really proof read but. Well it’s 230am so enjoy that lol

[thelostboo-blog]

The beginning

So I don't really know what my first blog was about, maybe just trying to find my feet on this unknown site. So let me tell you about me and why I am where I am. So I had a pretty normal happy childhood well fairly normal my dad was alot older than my mum, he suffered with psychosis. I had no clue when I was younger, i juat saw my dad old and ill I thought we were a normal family. I was about 5 years ago when my mum left him at that age it seemed out of the blue that this had happened. But I was a quiet timid little girl who just accept what was going on around me. I will never forget that day l went to school like normal most of the day had passed, one of the teachers had come to take me out of class I grabbed my stuff and followed. we walked all the way though the school and I saw my uncle at the end of the hallway, as i got closer he bent down to hug me as he always did but this time felt different. I asked why he was there he explained I need to go to my nans to see my mum, being so young and not really understanding I didn't really question it. We go to my nans, my mum was curled up on the sofa i walked over and she grabbed me and hugged me really tight. At the age I am now I couldn't tell you what was said or is she said it but she told me she had left my dad. This man that had been around my whole life was at my nans, his name was Kevin he had strawberry blonde hair, he was tall and he's build was like them men you see that work out loads. He used to come round my dad's all the time, he was that person as a kid I was always excited to see as he would show me magic tricks, tickle me and tell me jokes. Kevin is my eyes was this amazing man who was like a dad (because my dad was always ill) so lovely, so kind. He was stood in my nans living room he had helped my mum leave my dad. We stayed at my nans for about 3months apparently, being 5 it felt more like years. Kevin took my mum away and they would go out for drinks and meals. I was always left with my nan and auntie (who also lived with my nan) i had made friends with other children on my nans estate. I thought we would live there forever! One day In the summer mum and Kevin had decided to take me out with them on a pub lunch. They had both had a few to drink and some hours had passed when my mum came out to the pub garden to get me, she looked quite scared but she had been drinking so I didn't really pay attention to it until we got in the car. I was in the back Kevin was driving and mum was in the passengers seat, you could smell the alcohol I had this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach I felt sick and my heart was racing I was struggling to calm my breath. At the time I didn't know this was obviously some form of anxiety. We drove away from the pub quite quickly, Kevin had started shouting at my mum I could work out what was going on my mum was crying. We got out side my nans when Kevin looked at me and said get out I was stocked this perfect person had changed, he's body language the look of hatred in his eyes I couldn't understand. I opened the car door and walked into my nans you could hear the muffled shouting, my nan just looked at my smiled and said it's ok darling go out a play. When I came back after about an hour of being out playing, my mum and my nan were sitting in my nans room. As I got closer I could hear my nan telling mum she was stupid I didn't understand and the conversation ended as quick as I walked in, my mum was sat on the bed with her back to me crying and my nan was stood at the end of the bed looking quite annoyed. My nan looked at me smiled and left the room I walked around the bed to hug my mum, she hugged me back and told me to go eat my dinner and get ready for bed so I did. It must have been really early in the morning maybe like 2am when I heard banging on the door to the flats my nan lived in, I could hear someone screaming my mum's name. I sat up in bed still quite sleepy pulled back the blind as my bed was under the window, I couldn't quite see so I opened the window to have a look down as I did i was struck with sickening fear as I my name was called by Kevin who was kicking the door. As I looked once he had screamed my name he shouted open the fucking door! Get your fucking mother to open this fucking door!. At that point I felt so sick and so scared I just let go of the blind and let it fall back into place. My bedroom door flew open I don't think I have every jumped so much in my whole life, stood in the door way looking as scared as I was, was my mum she look white as a goast she said to my with a shakey voice do not leave this bedroom no matter what you hear! Do you understand me? I just nodded my head. She stepped back and slamed the door. I don't know how long I was in that bedroom for, 30 minutes, an hour maybe more. there was so much shouting and screaming, people's names being called. At one point i looked out the window to see my nan and auntie running up the road. I felt helpless and lost, I didn't know if it was every going to end. Suddenly it went dead silent no movement, no shouting, no noise whatsoever! It felt silent for so long. Then there was movement foot steps coming towards my room I started to shake, I pull the duvet up to just under my eyes I watched the bottom of the door where the light was coming though, I could hear heavy breathing, I saw the shadow of feet though the gap at the bottom of the door there was a moment of pause before the handle moved and the door started to open. Tears started feeling my eyes as I looked I horror I saw my mum stood there covered in blood, swollen face and tears streaming. I jumped out of bed and ran to her because in that moment of silents and the fear I felt I honestly didn't think she would still be alive after what I heard. I looked at her and she looked down at me with my hands around her legs she softly stroked my hair and said we need to leave. I put my shoes and coat on still in my pjs and told my mum I needed to toilet, we walked into the bathroom as mum put the light on I couldn't believe what I was looking at. The bathroom was red with blood it was everywhere I couldn't believe that someone walked out of there alive, I started sobbing and mum looked at me and said it's ok just don't look around as she was wiping the blood from the toilet seat. So that's the beginning of my story, my actual life story not made up, not my imagination my life. This is the start of my world falling apart. Feel free to comment or ask questions. Maybe even your beginning!