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silverskye13 · 8 months

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You know when I was an edgelord tween I used to think it would be really cool and spooky if I was Afflicted By Horrific Visions And Nightmares like an anime protag or a warrior cats OC or something, but now I'm an adult who reliably has nightmares and sleep paralysis when I sleep for 8-10hrs a night and I'd like to know what my younger self was smoking, actually.

#spazzcat barks #i feel like its worth mentioning: i dont skip sleep to negate nightmares #i just dont normally sleep much anyway #but when i do get two nights of good unmedicated sleep on my own #my brain comes at my subconscious with a knife #anyway if you ever want a good horror movie premise i have some good fugue dreams to pitch

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nonranghaes · 6 months

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"it's just me."

you barely get a chance to roll onto your back before soonyoung's already climbing onto the bed and somewhat on top of you and your blankets, and it's only seconds later that he crashes. it's far from the first time this has happened (soonyoung is clingy and cuddly, especially when he's sleepy), but he manages to knock the wind out of you nonetheless. he rests his head on your chest, and you wiggle an arm out to curl around him as best as you can in your semi-trapped position.

"soonyoung--"

"just go back to sleep," he murmurs. "everything's fine."

you stroke his hair, thumb dipping down to graze his cheek at one point. "soonie--"

"i mean it," he says, eyes peering up in the low light to see yours. "i'm fine. just need to nap." his hand finds yours, and he wraps your arm around him as he snuggles in. he plants a kiss against your chest before resting his head against it again, eyes fluttering shut. "you can rest a little longer, too."

you settle back down after a moment, arms wrapped around soonyoung as you shut your eyes again. sometimes you swear this tiger is a teddy bear, but regardless of which he is, he's yours.

#nonranghaes.thoughts #seventeen drabbles #seventeen fluff #seventeen x reader #hoshi x reader #hoshi fluff #kwon soonyoung x reader #kwon soonyoung fluff #nonranghaes.svt #hi sorry i just. needed to write something short n soft #tw for medical stuff in the tags but i need to call hospice abt a catheter bc shes... getting weaker ultimately #which. i dont know if i should be Worried or if this is normal for someone in her condition yknow?#we've started tracking how much she eats bc shes never rly ate much like. Ever. and its hard to know when shes fully pulling back from food #most of the time though its just... quiet. she just sleeps a lot. i dont know what to make of it...#anyway sorry for the small vent here im just... getting through it all ig #i need a soonyoung to cuddle with and to help me feel like i can make it through this

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cloudysarts · 5 months

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this show would be good if literally everything about it was different

#read these tags please(unless ur an HH fan in which case please ignore them) >>> I DO NOT LIKE THIS SHOW #i hate viv///ziepop so fucking much its actually unreal. every time i think about her i seethe #been hatewatching it ('legally') nd its awful. like i mean i knew it would be going into it but goddamn. so much worse than i expected #you may be like 'whyd you draw this then'. i wanted to make a finished piece with my redesigns #for funsies me and my boyf have been rewriting/redesigning the whole show . thats been our fun little craft #i feel similar about this that i do about fnaf and miraculous ladybug even tho this is objectively worse in every way #theres this eternal feeling of like. man. if the writers were competent then this concept would be interesting #but theyre not so. here we are #anyway. im gona try not to put hate in the tags lol #but i like how this turned out too much NOT to post it #anyways mutuals please dont unfollow me for this i promise im normal JDSFHJKDFHJDFKHJK #Hazbin Hotel Redesigns #Hazbin Hotel Critical #Angel Dust #Husk #Huskerdust #I guess.#genuinely a little scared to post this ones. im scared ill lose mutuals over this AND/OR fans will harass me for those tags JHKSDFHJKJK #im posting it and then immediately going to sleep. might delete later if even 1 thing goes wrong #EDIT RL QUICK i wanna add: i dont care if you like the show <33 good for you!!! i respect it!! i liked it when i was 14. i just dont now. <

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robinfollies · 2 months

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smth smth arthur gets sleepy when it’s cold…

#hi im CRAZY ABOUT THEM. BBU ART REQUEST STREAM TODAY I PAID 7 BUCKAROOS AND GOT AN ARTHURSTOTLE JUST FOR ME AND BESTIE TO MATCH WITH #they dropped the tidbit that arthur gets sleepy when it gets cold and i like #i grabbed that and i ran with it #came up with this while on a walk today and decided to scribble it out before i go to sleep #its literally spring. thr weather is warm IT WAS SO WARM TODAY. HELP #ROBIN NO DONT MAKE A COMIC ABOUT THE COLD IT WAS LIKE 20c TODAY ROBIN ROBIIIINNNN #anyways im so unbelievably normal about them can you tell #i love writing banter between them IT JUST COMES SO SO NATURALLY TO ME ITS SO MUCH FUN AUUGHHH #I CARE THEM SO BADLY. IM GOING TO THROW THEM INTO THE SUN #robin’s art #billie bust up #2024 art #bbu arthur #bbu aristotle #arthurstotle #comicfollies #<- new comic tag btw because i make quite a few of those apparently!! how silly #okay im tired goobmite!!! hearts hearts explosion

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bambiraptorx · 4 months

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sometimes i forget that being depressed isn't normal honestly

#bambi's rambling #i mean like it's normal for me and has been for years #possibly always #like i remember crying myself to sleep and thinking no one loved me at like age five #i just didn't really understand the concept until like. fifteen or sixteen i think #at one point i looked up an online 'are you depressed' quiz #even before my mom put me in therapy cause she was concerned #but it said i had 'mild depression' so i was like oh well that doesn't really count obviously #(the ironic part was that it was the same test that the therapist used to see if i was depressed. so apparently it was legitimate)#but like i dont know how not to be depressed #i know its getting worse lately but like. what do i do about that #i'm so horrendously uncomfortable talking about this kind of thing even in online settings #like there's a 50/50 change imma delete this instead of posting it it's that bad #prolly gonna delete this even if i do post it #how am i supposed to get help when i can't even ask for it. that kinda thing #not like it matters all that much anyway lmao #it's just my brain being stupid like normal #vent #tw vent #tw depression #tw mental illness #cw depression #cw mental health

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bunnihearted · 4 months

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#so like late last night i started to get rlly panicky nd upset #bc it's v much looking like im gnna fail my english class. i need to be done next wednesday which means i need to work rlly hard #nd go to school extra to have a presentation nd do tests etc etc #nd im still in pain after surgery nd im rlly depressed bc of my physical health so i just dont think i can be strong nd make it this time #in my almost breakdown i wrote a self referral to the clinic/psych department for personality disorders....#it usually takes them around 2 days to answer you but this time at like 8am they sent me a message AND called me #(i think. im not certain it's them bc i havent checked the voice message or the reply lmaooo. but it should be them)#the thing abt having avpd is now im immediately stressed af nd i regret sending it. i donr wanna check their reply #also it might be bc i wrote a lot abt killing myseld etc etc nd now im worried theyre gnna be like girlie get checked in!!!! lol T-T #i just needed to be very clear nd act frsutrted nd desperate bc i have never gotten treatment in 10yrs nd im TIRED!!!!#my initial reaction is to avoid at all costs nd just pull my covers above my head nd pretend like i dont have to check their reply lol #i dont wannaaaaaa. i take it back i dont want help!!! its fine i dont wanna try or work hard let me rot #why did i do this!!!!! fml. anyway... i'll check later today bc since its early i can still use the excuse of sleepinf thru the days #many ppl working w mentally ill ppl understand that it's normal actually to switch the day around nd sleep during the days sksksk #but also i have no idea how many typos r in here bc im not wearing my glasses whoopsie #yeah.. anyway im gonna try to go back to sleep nd not think abt it #hopefully it wasnt even them calling 🤡 i know i HAVE to check later but not now i can take a few hours #then today i need to figure out if im gnna make one last attempt w my eng class or give up idk what to do

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opens-up-4-nobody · 8 months

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#its crazy how much easier it is to do things when youre not completely miserable lol #this past week has been weird bc ive felt really really good and like normal in a way thats kinds unfathomable #im hoping its the medication but my mood was already on an upward tilt and i was told it would take like 6 weeks for the meds to work #property but like ive been sleeping way more than usual. and by that i literally just mean 8hrs a night lol which is weird for me #like that never ever ever happens multiple days in a row. so idk. when i feel better it makes the 0cd way easier to manage as well #and im just generally not as anxious. on the more worrisome side i kinda just give less of a fuck so like i have an exam im not ready for #Tuesday and im just kinda like hm fuck that lol. ill go thru lil fluctuations of having a lot of energy too #like: i could run around in circles rn. i dont have to but i could. like yesterday i was out with friends and i was like bouncing up and #down while standing and rocking from side to side while sitting. which i kinda do anyway while in crowds but it was more to expend energy #last night i also got like 5hrs of sleep. so like maaaaybe ive been on the bleeding edge of mood elevation but for the most part it just #feels good and not destructive. like if i felt like this all the time that would b fantastic. its like oh so this is y ppl dont long to b #put out of their misery lol. depression? who? i dont kno her. sounds fake. but as soon as i fucking say that ill b fucking slapped back #down to earth. ugh. annoying. no emotional object permanence. i hope its the meds. if this is the person i am under layers of misery then #that is fucking so insane. we shall see. im curious to hear what the psychiatrist thinks of my brain when i follow up with her #i gave her my full dys1exia assessment which gives a pretty good picture of how my head functions. oh fuck i bet i would do waaaayyy better #on thise test if i took it in this state of mind. but anyway she has that on top of like 3 assessment sheets i filled out #dispite everything i still want someone to categorize me into a discreet box. tell me doc. am i really bip0lar? really really?#ur sure??? like 1000% sure bc my brain wont let me accept that unless its beyond a reasonable doubt. i just doesn't seem that serious.#i mean. it is but like ya kno. its not that bad. ay. this glob of mush behind my eyes runs me in circles #but for now thats ok bc i feel like i could run up a mountain or punch someone in the face lol #unrelated

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mayplantstarrwaters · 1 year

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So I made a shitty King Crimson (Wetton/Bruford era with a bit of their late 60s era) meme edit with my one of my most favorite vid of all times. Just gonna leave this here with no further elaboration, enjoy

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nyupuun · 6 months

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Its one of those nights were you have to listen to Yugioh 5Ds OST and let all of your neurons activate at once

#its 4am rn and im sobbing over hopeless battle they put autism in that song #and looming threat def one of the osts ever #ough i love yugioh 5ds (said in a normal and allistic way)#i should sleep i have to celebrate christmas later (at 8pm so its okay)#anyways this is a #yugioh 5ds #music appreciation post (2 tracksL #but i could gush HOURS ABOUT how much they add to the duels specifically (and i know thats what ost is supposed to do)#(and i know its probably just yugioh being my sp/in cause otherwise i dont listen to music much)#but #oooooo my god guys.#its so oved for me #random ramble #twt heard me talk about this already but i needed to get it out again.#ah so sorry

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jorvikzelda · 2 months

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me to one of my friends: yeah i told my two main professors atm about my migraines because it felt important that they knew, and they were both really understanding and apparently both had migraines in the past!

her: wow yea thats so nice!

me: yea :)

her: so nice to know it can get better!

me, before processing: yea it really is nice that theyre so understanding and willing to accommodate me!

me, now having processed: wait what

#i am So in the moment that i dont even really consider things like. long term #which i think is a fair outlook right now. but my friend does also have a really good point #however. it is also So painfully obviously the perspective of someone whos never faced chronic illness #very kind and I like her very much. But also #Person who goes 😟😟😟😟😟😟 when youre casually like yeah ive been tired for five years and have a headache 24/7 #She was like. I have a headache when I’m doing REALLY BADLY and even then it’s just like a little bit #And I was like. ??????? That’s the normal??#And then ofc i remember my life before i got migraines and its like. Yeah #I’m a weird one I got those late onset migraines #didnt have them before high school really #Which checks out because theyre REALLY energy related and thats when i started sleeping too little and doing too much #and then theyve only gotten progressively worse!#anyway. i shoud Eep #z talks

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intertexts · 4 months

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hm.

#how do i tell my sister that while i appreciate the thought it is in fact not nicer if she takes the couch occasionally and lets me have my #room sometimes. first of all i HATE disruptions like this it's kind of even more distressing 2 be able 2 sleep in #my own room for one night and then i can't again!!! that sucks net zero!!! second of all She Has My Quilt.... trying very hard 2 be normal #and chill about this and not like it's one of the few things i really really really hate other people using & causes me distress etc.#also like i explicitly said 'hey haha don't do this please' & then she did anyway. which she does!!! i forgot about that!!!#also like man i dont fucking want to sleep on someone's used sheets & blankets that's gross. so im arguably less cosy than i would be. gggh #this all seems like.... very minor and stupid im sure however man im like constantly in a state of middling to severe distress over this #shit. because i in fact also hate people going through my shit or being in my room and also having no privacy however #im very good with suppressing and or masking how much i hate it usually!!!!! but dude she fucking hung her laundry & underclothes #to dry or air on top of my fucking books on my shelves. like. ghghhh hate it hate it cant SAY i hate it because of the everything!!!#ok. sorry. minor pressure cooker escape valve complaining over now im gonna go sleep awkwardly on top of the blankets on my own bed with #some throw blankets. leaving my door open for the beafts if she closes it in the morning bc she thinks she knows what i want ill scream.#txt #neg #this is like private kvetching btw ok i love her dearly it's just unbelievably frustrating.

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midwestblue · 1 year

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I think (as much as I annoyingly complain and whine about not having a partner) being single this long has been good for me. I'm learning a lot about myself and I'm learning why I was a shit person, and through finding the root of the problem I can kind of... start to heal. I can be nicer to myself so I can grow and get better. Because TBH.. being mean and cruel to yourself doesn't make you become a better person. It just makes you believe that thats what you /are,/ and thats what you /always will be,/ as opposed to realizing that you are a product of your circumstances but that does not mean you can't get better and become a better person. Accepting help and trying to get better so you can eventually love yourself – even if no one else does – is the greatest and loveliest thing you can do for yourself. You deserve that love, you exist and you live and you feel and that is a truly beautiful gift.