#i just gotta vent somewhere yk

[biitchcakes]

whoever invented the ball closure piercing is a god damn sadist i just know it

[kozykricket]

yknow, confession time

i have a Canada Dry Ginger Ale quite literally every day

semi related venting ahead, food/drink cw (seriously dont feel the need to read this i just wanted to get this out somewhere)

its the small cans but still. cant be that good for me… esp in future…

but my parents kind of uh, only ever said oh yeah its fine its totally healthy and fine to have. internet doesnt say so

i was reminded of this when today i was extremely sleepy when i woke up and i was like. so tired. and yet out of instinct (its just habit, i do anything if its part of a consistent habit) i grabbed one. and drank it. and damn it made my EYES water when i took a sip. since i was so ready to sleep

but yk, gotta get going somewhere early

and i was reminded “riiight this likely is not good for me. probably does bad shit to my body”

[mlmxreader]

Hiya!!!!! How is my treasured writer doing?

Okay first, I read your update.... that sounds super overwhelming and I'm sending nothing but love and positive vibes your way, my friend. Glad to see some improvement in your living situation and I sincerely hope that everything will end up working out and that you continue to remain safe 🖤.

Secondly.... I'm mad at you!!! WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME THAT YOU TOO HAVE BEEN THIRSTING OVER MR. JAMES KEZIAH FUCKING DELANEY?!?! Goodness me he and fucking Alfie will literally send me to an early grave. And can we expect the brooding man to be added to the list 👀👀👀? Because if so.... hehe... you will definitely be seeing the man in the next round.

Third, NEVER apologize for not being able to get to the requests! As I've said, take all the time in the world, I'm not going anywhere 🖤.

Finally, life is happening and it may be a little bit before you hear from me again. It's going to be super chaotic for the next few weeks and I don't know how much free time I'll really have so if you don't hear from me, that's why. But it's a good chaotic, stressful, anxiety inducing but still good.

Always keeping you in my thoughts, stay safe, as well as you can be and I'll talk to you later, my friend!

🖤🖤🖤

🐍anon

good afternoon!!!! I'm okay, very tired and my feet hurt bc my morning shift went over massively 🫠 but I'll live lmfao I've got a few days off coming up soon and although I'd like the money, I do need to rest. my psychiatrist has sorted it so that I can get some stuff at the food bank when needed, so at least food security isn't something I need to worry about as much!

okay, first: thank you. it's still a massive struggle atm, but at least there's a roof over my head for now and my animals are safe. hopefully he'll see sense at some point and he'll let me stay until I can get the money to leave and find somewhere permanent, but that's still in the air atm, unfortunately.

second: I DID MAKE 2 POSTS ABOUT IT!!! I DID!!! but yeah, the anti-capitalist, anti-colonial, anti-imperial Delaney......... commie daddy 2.0. but uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhh you uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhh may wanna check the list again 👀 yk.... for science reasons.

third: thank you. it just sucks atm that I can't bc I WANT to, but I'm so fucking tired and exhausted from work that it's even gotten to the point where my feet are hurting and my shoulders ache. I'm being put through the fucking wars atm, like, I've lost count of the bruises I've gotten and the blisters and callouses and the fucking grazes. hopefully tho, I can write on my days off and when I'm only doing 1 shift! I just gotta get the copy of September's rota and find out.

finally: that's absolutely okay!!! I hope you can find respite and some calm amongst the chaos and that, above all else, you remember to look after yourself - even if that means just getting a cheap, greasy takeaway to settle down after a hard week. especially if it means getting that bc a cheap, greasy takeaway is the fucking best. I'm glad it'll be good, but if it ever gets to the point where you gotta vent about something, you can always hmu here or on discord! if I don't answer, it's usually bc I'm either working or I'm doing something w intensive labour lmfao

we'll talk soon, remember to look after yourself and remember to never justify getting something to treat yourself with !!

[elysianslove]

Hewwooo! This ask just came into my mind and I wanted to share. So Yuuji has a girlfriend that is a civilian and at first Sukuna is annoyed by her but as time passed he starts to take a like on her since she's always so nice to him despite him being a curse. And he's just so confused about his feelings because him being the king of curses falling for a weakling? Ridiculous. I want to read your interpretation of this idc if its hcs or scenario. Do whatever you like❤

hi my love!! i really hope you like this!! i made it into headcanons so i can go over a larger span of time more smoothly, so i hope that’s okay!

i’m getting so many sukuna requests hell yes 🏃🏻‍♀️🏃🏻‍♀️🏃🏻‍♀️

okay so let’s make it that you’re yuuji’s gf from before he ate sukuna’s finger ( yeah btw wtf is up with your bf ??? )

he called you as soon as they’d announced the death of his grandpa, because it had felt like you were the last family he had left. seriously you’re his whole world

you’re there when megumi starts explaining stuff about how this finger’s super dangerous and people will die you and yuuji are like 😃✋🏼 wha 

but also so unbothered bc he can’t be serious

turns out he is serious laugh out loud

yuuji makes you go home as you’re at the school gate and you’re like mf what??? no???? i’m not leaving you?? 

he ends up making you wait and then he just never comes back

megumi explains everything to you 

but again you’re like 😃✋🏼 pause wtf 

you keep texting him and calling him and he’s not responding you’d be angry at him if you weren’t so fucking worried 

and so eventually he finds you again 

after eating sukuna’s second finger (again, what the fuck sir) 

now megumi had told you he was now like ? possessed ? by a curse? it sounded like gibberish to you tbh and it was the last thing you were thinking about when you finally saw him again

all that mattered was that he was okay and alive and in your arms 

you’ve never hugged him tighter tbh 

so anyways ! yuuji does not want you to meet sukuna 

like ever 

but when he meets you one day really frustrated from a mission, you ask him about it, and he just vents out everything to you. he tells you how the responsibility can be so overwhelming sometimes, and how sukuna can be so infuriating and you can’t imagine what it must be like having this guy in your head 

and then you just go 

“can i meet him?” 

at first he’s like absolutely not ma’am are u insane 

but then you convince him, telling him you trust him and reminding him he has control 

so he shifts 

you really were expecting something horrendous like seriously you were anticipating fainting from fear 

he’s just your bf 

with a rougher edge 

you like instantly relax 

even if this guy’s expressions are nothing like yuuji’s, you remind yourself that it’s still yuuji inside, no matter what 

“i like your — tats?” 

what do you even say to a curse??? 

he’s scowling at you so much you might piss yourself but you just repeat constantly that he can’t hurt you 

“you disgust me,” he spits out

yuuji shifts back so quick, and just groups you on his arms 

“that wasn’t me, i swear,” he says to you and you have to calm him down and tell him it’s okay !!  it’s not his fault the guy’s an ass 

now! yuuji’s pretty comfortable with your level of physical affection 

in fact, he loves it so much. it’s one of his favorite things about you. 

so he’s always welcoming an embrace from his favorite person in the world, but it’s so hard to ignore sukuna’s words in his mind repeatedly saying how this is so revolting 

he tries his best to pay him no attention 

sometimes y’all will be cuddling and a mouth appear somewhere on yuuji’s body and it’ll say “get ur hands off my vessel human!” and ngl

it always makes you laugh

like how comical is that

eventually, over time, the hugs are 

kinda nice, sukuna realizes 

like he’s a thousand year old cursed spirit

he’s not really gotten any affection yk 

like ever 

and it’s not that he ever wanted it

but being with you

or well, him possessing yuuji and yuuji being with you and you being with him through transitive property (thank you grade 7 math)  

it really like softens him

kinda 

a little bit 

like the tiniest bit 

some part of him, he probably thinks it’s yuuji and not even him and that he’s just confused but really some part of him grows to anticipate the hugs 

and when you kiss yuuji 

god

your mouth feels so good he wants to feel it for himself 

it’s like angering him how you’re growing onto him, so he asks yuuji to shift them 

and they do shift

you’re a little surprised bc yuuji gave u like a 3 sec warning before those familiar markings appeared on his skin

“i never thought i’d see you again,” you admit. 

and he just kisses you 

like full on the mouth 

no warning

you pull him back in shock, and rest a hand on his shoulder to keep a distance between you two

“i don’t know where this is coming from but it doesn’t feel right, sukuna.” 

and you’re just

you’re just so nice

why are you so nice???

“i love yuuji, so much, and even though you’re sharing a body you’re still a whole other person. it feels wrong.” 

god why are you so good? it’s infuriating???? 

yuuji shifts back, starts apologizing again like the first time

“you have to stop apologizing for something someone else did, babe.” 

when he’s alone with sukuna that night he’s like dude, dude, bro, my man — we gotta talk boundaries bc wtf

sukuna just goes “not fair u get to kiss her” 

like yeah??? she’s my girlfriend tf ???? 

so sukuna resorts to watching (or feeling) from the sidelines again

as he grows more and more affectionate towards you 

until he’s just as protective over you as yuuji is

until he realizes that 

what yhe fuck

maybe he has feelings for you because, one of the main things about you is that the two times you’ve encountered him, you’ve never treated him like a curse. even if being treated human was once considered belittling to him, having you dote on him like that, speak to him as softly

it made his brain go brrrr 

so he asks yuuji one day, “can i kiss your gf” 

like that’s something you just casually ask

took a lotta convincing but eventually yuuji says “if she says yes then okay” 

it takes like 

90 minutes for both you and yuuji to decide that you’re okay with it. sukuna’s like fuck it ion wanna anymore lmfao

but anyways 

yuuji shifts into him 

and 

he doesn’t even wait the impatient mf 

he just kisses you so suddenly, cupping your neck and tugging at your hair like damn how long has he been wanting to do this

clearly way longer than even he thought 

after that yuuji doesn’t exactly share you, but yeah he’ll let sukuna kiss you every now and then

sukuna’s still not fully accepting of his feelings towards you, but he learns to appreciate you

especially your kindness towards him and yuuji, and the tenderness of your touch 

he never would’ve seen it coming when he awoke in this teenage boy’s body, but he can admit that you’re definitely an added benefit

[osdd-1bitch]

// partly a vent? but also if you have any type of advice as to what i can do pls say,, gotta be honest im still INSANELY fucked on if im a system or not :( for a while i was dead set on it but i ended up just not saying anything to my therapist and fell back into that "ok no thats not me, im just a really vivid daydreamer" mindset.

then your blog auto-popped up as i was typing and i clicked it and im back to that "maybe" thing. im just so conflicted rn ughhh goddamnit :( ive been having an extremely stressful past few weeks (no specifics but alot of my trauma resurfaced, alot of shit triggered me, similar traumatic situations etc) and i missed both of my therapy sessions the past 2 weeks, so ive kinda reverted back to being dependant on alters who im not even sure are alters or not. and even THEN im not sure how to bring up to my therapist that i think i may have OSDD or DID?? like idk how im gonna come back after 2 weeks and say "hey btw all this traumatic shit came back up and i think i might be a system bc i talk to people in my head who arent me lol but anyways can i use ur fidget cube?" ??? SO much has happened and im really debating on just pushing down that it might be osdd/did and pretending nothing is wrong for the sake of keeping myself mentally stable yk ?? gotta say i just dont know what to do at all. lets also not forget im 13 and shouldnt even have to deal w this much stress EVER but dfghgtf. im just really struggling to tell if this is my maladaptive daydreaming or DID man :(

MaDD and plurality are weird to work w, especially since MaDD can and often is be caused by trauma and there are some expressions of MaDD that one could put on the plural spectrum. Its mucky either way and can suck to deal with

before i continue, id like to say our experience on therapy has...not been great so ill refrain from giving therapy specific advice for fear of our past experiences clouding our judgement, but you can share the trauma bits and get some help without talking about plurality. the rings system did some videos that might help about talking to a therapist,red flags ect, lovely folks, you should give em a watch if you havent. either way id say you prolly shouldnt bring this up yet, but info is also good in general

and also, some personal advice, be very very careful on the internet, especially social medias at your age. we were in your shoes once and it did fck us up quite a bit

either way, i seriously doubt youll be taken seriously, not in a bad way, full grown adults struggle to get help. and stressing about specifics can just lead to, you guessed it! more stress. its totally fine to drop all lables and just exist for a while and try and do whatever, talking w sysmates or daydreaming whatever, you dont have to name these experiences for now, just live them. doubt is weird, and youll almost def be wout dxing for a few years either way.

just live your life, try not to bring up trauma wout professionals, and be very safe on the internet, and preferably get off tumblr and move somewhere safer, its really not a place for people your age. i know you probably wont listen to that bit much, but at least be extra super safe.

self dxing can take years btw. its not really a matter of weeks, lived experience and analyzing yourself and just questioning takes a lot of time. take it slow

and its totally fine if its not did. or madd. or either. dont stress, dont try and conform yourself to dxes and stuff rn, especially since you are both v young and just started questioning. im not saying your age means you shouldnt, if you have did you have it rn, but things can take time to come to light. just b honest w yourself and open to the options, mkay? self dxing is a lot of research on top of the work. if you started questiong round now tbh many systems if they questions at your age would get a dx or self dx at like 15,16,17 ect ect, and thats if they question. do what helps you and talk to your therapist, you dont have to mention did but talk about questioning disorders and junk.

this sorta age is when figuring yourself out rlly starts to happen yknow? that doesnt mean you should be cornered off n stuff, n kept away from dxes, but it also means you should be very careful n research a ton. if you find smth you resonate w it, keeping it in the maybe pile for a year or two can seem like its a long time, but will help a ton in the end, if its true or not. if its stressing you out a ton, its okay to not think about it for a bit, you have time.

and again, please please please try and get off social medias they can mess w your head a lot, and try not to share your age online again. im torn abt publishing this n may delete this ask n repost the response, but im not sure

tldr:

i dont wanna tell you to not question or identify symptoms, but things change a lot n you are just dipping your toes into life. take things slow and sit on them, thats the best advice given to us at your age. you could be absolutely right, you could be confused, you could be dead wrong, and all of these are okay. just keep yourself open, research and rlly think abt it (like months of thinking abt it) before it can age properly in the maybe bin. and also be safe online, dont share your age and stuff n keep off toxic n inapropriate sites like this best you can. options are open and symptoms can change over time. just exist and take note of things. dont stress over lables, n self dx should stay in the possibly-maybe bin for now, itll be worth the wait

[eminems-skittles]

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getting rly stressed rn bc i’m hanging out w friends tonight and no one can tell me the plan and i’m a person who likes to have a plan for hangouts like 3 days in advanced so i’m not having a fun time

also hi to my friends bc 2 of them follow me so if u see this hi i just needed to vent for a bit; nothing against u guys at all love u sm <3

plus i am gonna need to get dinner when we r out bc my fam doesn’t eat til late and my friends r making it feel so awkward to get food bc they all don’t wanna eat when we r out it seems but i gotta so idek what’s happening there

idk it’s making me not wanna go since i don’t know the plan idk when we r meeting up and i don’t wanna force everyone to go somewhere to get food yk?

[345pm]

I did, it y’all! I fucking asked him out & guess what he said? “I’ll think about it.” JDSKSKSK. Okay, lemme start from the beginning.

So, I listened to my friends & decided that I would ask him out when I saw him. Usually, he’s @ work a lot earlier than me, but I didn’t see him for most of the day so I just thought he wasn’t coming in. I was in the back where he works so I was talking to a woman when he walked past me & I was like “omf” & the woman looked @ me. Y’all, my heart was beating so fast & my hands were literally shaking. I could still breathe, but my breathing was off af. This other woman was standing with me & told me to take deep breaths to calm me down lol. I deadass vented to two strangers bc I was that shook. Lol!

I kept trying to talk to him but he was working. Lots of customers were around me & my supervisor decided to stand in front of me & fucking watch me interact with customers for like 5 minutes. Loooool. So, then, he was behind me stocking the freezer cooler, & I was about to get off the floor. I wanted to break the ice a little bit so it wouldn’t be so awkward. Haha. I asked if he was closing again & he said yeah. We laughed about something he said & he got back to work. He finished & he was about to walk off, but I was like “bitch, it’s now or never! Go ask your mans out!”

I started off by asking if he was single. He said yeah so I asked if he wanted to go out sometime, like get something to eat or something? He said he’d think about it. Now, we all know what 9/10 when someone says they’ll think about it, it’s a no. JDSKSKSK. I thought he was just trying to let me down easily, so I was like, “it’s okay if you want to say no. I’ll understand if you don’t want to. It’s cool,” His responds with, “no, no, it’s not a no. I just have to think about it. I’m nervous & shy. I wasn’t expecting this & you made my day,” Lemme tell y’all, a bitch was shooooook. I was like “awwwwwwh.” I felt stupid after saying that. Lmaooooo. I told him how I was nervous af too & that I wasn’t trying to stare @ him like a weirdo, but I thought he was really cute & decided to shoot my shot. We laughed @ that part, but idk if he knew what that meant. Lmfaoo. I told him “okay. I’m always in here,” I think he got what I meant though.

How about I was so nervous that I forgot to tell him my name! I don’t think he knows it @ all. Loooool. I realized that after I had walked off @ I felt like an idiot af. We had already parted ways so after I finished cleaning, I go the fuck up out of dodge, bitch. Lmfaoooooo. I skedaddled my black ass out of there so fast bc I was embarrassed. Of course I didn’t leave before telling my friend the teaaaa. Okurrrrrr!

She was so happy for me. Lmao. We got some advice from a woman that’s a little older than us, but she’s engaged. Told her everything that happened & she thinks that he’s probably just really shy. Probably wants to talk to someone like his mom, friend, or someone about what he should do. Makes sense to me bc I had to go to my friends before making the choice to shoot my shot. Lol.

I can’t believe I manned up & asked his fine ass out. Neverrrrrr in my life been that bold before. I mean, it was a big step for me bc I’ve never asked a guy out never. Never had a boyfriend, sex, first kiss, or anything.

I was even thinking about buying a new outfit for our “date” if he says yes. I have no idea where we’d eat though lol. I thought maybe Outback Steakhouse, but idk if he’s vegan or vegetarian, yk? Or somewhere we both haven’t been before?

I’ve been smiling since I got home from work lol. Another friend of mine thinks I came on too strong & fast. She says that I should’ve waited before asking him out. Tried to start friendly convos first. I said fuck thaaaaaat. Maybe she was right or maybe she wasn’t. Sometimes, you gotta be up front & say what’s really on yah mind. Nah mean? I don’t regret my choice. Lol. I’m glad I asked him out & hopefully, he’ll say yes. He’s white btw & I’m black. I hope he actually likes black girls. JDSKSKS. He didn’t look disgusted when I asked tho but I guess that doesn’t mean anything?

I’m off for the next 2 days, so maybe he’ll have an answer by then. I wanted to ask for his number, but I felt like he’d flat out say no to that. I didn’t want to put too much on him, yk? Me asking him out was already a lot for him. Lmaoooo. Shit, it was a lot for the both of us. Can’t give mans a heart attack. Lol.

Well, I’m schleepy & imma take a shower. Probably not going to sleep, but idk. Big day tomorroooooow. G’night yall (: wish me luuuuuuuck! Imma let y’all know what he says. Let’s hope it’s a yes. Lol.