Y’all ever just come to the sudden realization of - oh shit the depression has hit
Like, I’ve added about 5 new songs to my playlist recently and almost all of them could easily have animatics or something made to them but every time I try my brain just goes No? I’m tired??? Why be creative rn when you could just do the bare minimum of listen
It’s so frustrating because I can *feel* the idea nugget trying to form but I don’t have the juices to make it into a full fledged idea rn - Same with writing. I’ve just been staring at it all week instead of writing
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sure i find you in my hair and under my pillow and in the car. but i know in my heart you are picking me out of your teeth. i know i am burning through your sundays, sticking to your ceiling.
i hope i'm in every bitter cup of coffee and every candle wick and every bath. i hope my shadow flickers under your door so the empty hallway i have left behind is a swift dart of nothing more. i hope you find me in notebooks and stop signs and fleetwood mac - like i am marginalia on your life, i want my fingerprints burned into your days like acid.
i loved you, and you know i loved you, and for the rest of your life i will be the person you broke. for the rest of your life i hope the shame of that runs like a cattle dog, bites at your heels. i hope every time your cup is full or the moon is a toenail or a cat is purring or a laugh is in your belly or the sky turns pink while the sun is setting - i hope you remember that someone loved you, and you crushed them in your palms. you extinguished every future i lit. i hope that haunts you.
i hope you never fucking forget it.
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I have so many worlds that I've created in my head but i can never put them on paper
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Tumblr hive mind! I have a very odd kind of art block, and I want to break it :<
TL;DR - I am too disabled to work, and feel incredibly guilty about spending time not earning a living. I just want to be creative for fun again.
Full explanation under the cut, but any suggestions from all y'all beautifully creative people on how to break that guilt cycle and art block greatfully recieved in Comments or Asks <3
As I said, I am too disabled to work. I have tried so many times to work and it always ends up not only terrible for me but terrible for everyone as it puts me in a worse state than neccesary.
I am very lucky to live in a country that has sickness and disability pay, so I am not destitue. The problem is I also feel incredibly guilty about not working when most other people have to to survive. I try to tell myself I would tell anyone else with the problems I have that it's absolutely fine not to work, but it is still difficult for me to swallow.
The saddest part is it's making it pretty much impossible to any enjoy hobbies, but especially being creative.
Drawing something - you should make it good enough to sell it as a print
Reading a comic - make your own damn comics
Playing video games - you should be streaming this and making money on Twitch
Not only and these really hard to make money at obviously, it means I just can't get a break. I have always loved being creative, drawing, messing about creating art just for me. I even made it through an art degree before everything got too much to manage.
I just want to lose the guilt, be able to relax with hobbies and make some art again.
Art is the Weapon after all <3
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hey how the fuck do u stop hating ur art and actually do drawings all the time please. i want to cry.
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