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#i keep thinking im some flat 2d boring default personality
kkoct-ik
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7 months
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why am i so many people
#kostik speaks
#1am thoughts ignore and shoot me
#i keep thinking im some flat 2d boring default personality
#i kinda dont like myself for that. i feel like i just take things and dont respond and keep a dead face and nothing to love
#but alongside processing one thing i realised that i am so many people. even on my own i am so many people
#i keep forgetting that. i overlook it because i dont like myself and i prefer to see myself as having the depth of a piece of paper
#but im so many people. im the product of so many lives and dreams and joys
#lots of love went into me
#the love of all my weird stupid components who loved and healed
#i keep forgetting that. why do i hate myself so much actually
#i feel like im blocking myself off from everything im made of
#theres so much to love in me. so many people who love each other in me. im being built and have been built
#there are so many people in me
#im just digesting that. i think ive been ignoring that fact for a while now
#i dont like myself because im shallow and have nothing in me but im not .?
#i think im too used to disconnecting from myself
#even this far into healing i ignore what im made of because im more comfortable being nothing
#i dont want to be anything and i dont want to be my everything because there is so much in me
#and yet i love me. i love every single me. i try to
#why do i hate myself so much when all of me is so loved. i want happiness for all of me
#and yet it feels impossible to love me. its confusing. i forgot how many people i actually am. i forgot how many of them i loved
#no wonder i feel such a loss for the mes i loved. i know theyre deeper and more loved than i thought i ever could be
#but i am
#theyre me?
#its just. if theyre me. then i am deep and lovable and everything else
#and that betrays everything i knew about myself
#why are they me. i loved them so much. how do i reconcile the fact that im not lovable and yet i loved me
#head on the table. groan to scream
#hi i promise im not losing it. keep scrolling
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