#i laughed i cried a number of times i got shot i sweat i danced and i had many epiphanies

[atorionsbelt]

we all saw this…right…like it wasn’t a group hallucination .. or psychological harvard experiment. am i the only one that was convinced jamie was about to COME OUT to roy…… or KISS him or both….? we all saw the same thing………..did this really happen.

[falsenote]

#LOVEISLOVE

[stewy]

i laughed. i cried a number of times. i sweat i danced. i got shot. i ate and... i had many epiphanies

[dlsintegration]

Using @iwtvfanevents's a meal to remember event as an opportunity to celebrate some of the sickos beautiful authors in this fandom 🧡 here's a list of some of my favourite recommendations, all of them Louis-centric and/or involving louis in a major fashion.

I will also be adding a song that I associate to each of them!!

🐺Leslou🐑

canon/semi-canon compliant

Pour (E) by baberainbow / @baberainbowao3: Kicking this list off with one of my all times favorite, manages to capture their voices perfectly. You'll never go wrong with one of babe's fics, they're all canon in my head 🧡

song: holy terrain - fka twigs

Glass (E) by baberainbow / @baberainbowao3: Melting just thinking about this one. I can never be free of them.

Pieta (E) by baberainbow / @baberainbowao3: Gabrielle gives lestat something he needs and gives louis something he didnt know he needed 🧡 Gabrielle is so kind 🧡

song: let go - tinashe

song: mary magdalene - fka twigs

Tides (E) by @nlbv: Tides my best friend. had to stare at my ceiling for at least 10 minutes after that one and it doesn't lose its impact no matter how much I come back to it. Masterful grasp on both louis and lestat's characterization and the toxicity that permeates their relationship.

song: tear you apart - she wants revenge

Roadkill (E) by @baberainbowao3 and @nlbv: TELL THE AVENGERS TO PACK IT THE FUCK UP. This is the most ambitious crossover of our generation. Roadkill my wife my beloved my soulmate. Read it so many times i've managed to convince myself it was canon. and it is. What is a family meant for if not for going to the circus, commiting horrifying acts of violence and making plans for the future 🧡

song: savage good boy - japanese breakfast

someone buy me roses (E) by indigostohelit: Perfect dialogue, impeccably true to their characters, illustrates louis' religious hangups and repression in a subtle funny and intimate way.

song: save a prayer - duran duran

Amour Rouge (E) by revengefrnnk: Louis exploring femininity. Big big fan of putting that man in lingerie personally. 10/10 certified s1 deleted scene to me.

song: blood and butter - caroline polachek

AUs

Reformation (E) by verseau / @greedydemands (MODERN AU): The sacred texts. We all remember where we were. 10/10 will make you go through the full range of existing human emotions. I laughed. I cried, a number of times. I sweat, I danced. I got... a shot, I ate and... I had many epiphanies.

song: heaven - shygirl / be sweet - japanese breakfast

hold me tight, & fear me not (E) by boltcutters / @wordforworldisforest (TAM LIN AU): Me when I find a beautiful fairytale book in the evil yaoi section. Read if you love beautiful writing and if you want to find out what happens to lost little lambs that stray from the path.

song: i cant breathe - gwsn

Part of Your World (E) by weathermood / @weather-mood (LITTLE MERMAID AU): I never know where to start when praising POYW, from how real and alive the world feels to the sense of tragedy permeating Louis and Lestat's entire relationship, to how much it's made me miss the sea. Oh and also the monsterfucking ❤️

song: like real people do - hozier / sea, swallow me - cocteau twins

House of Gold (E) by dirtygoldensoul / @revolution-starter : I don't usually read A/B/O fics but I love this one so much, for many reasons, the main one being how bad the family dynamics get me... Can't recommend it enough 🧡

song: work song - hozier

Like a Heathen clung to the Homily (E) by @thelioncourts (SEX CLUB AU): One of my favorite insights into Louis' internality and his lingering religious trauma, and how it still affects him, chapter 4 almost made me cry... Can't wait to see where it goes next.

song: after dark - mister kitty

🥀Loumand🎭

canon/semi-canon compliant

dirges (E) by boltcutters / @wordforworldisforest: Can't make my way into loumand territory without mentioning my beautiful wife dirges. Ziska if you read this know that you will be dealt with shortly. Loumand bed death allegation hours: CLOSED FOREVER.

song: posing in bondage - japanese breakfast

Alluvium (E) by serpenstkirts / @knifeeater: The best way I can describe Laïs' fics and how they make me feel would be to liken the experience to drowning into a lake and being grateful for the dark water filling your lungs. This fic is about eroticized latex gloves and finger sucking btw.

song: only seeing god when i come - sega bodega

vanishing point (E) by serpentskirts / @knifeeater: Motorcycle sex as religious experience. Day 67 of my campaign to get Laïs in that writing room.

song: sunset - caroline polachek / nascar - stella smyth

Selfsame (E) by @vampdf: 70s LOUMAND CRUISING ERA MY BELOVED. Number 1 on the list of the crimes Eli has to answer for. 1000/10. Died five separate times reading this. Rolin look at me. Rolin dont listen to AMC. You need this in s2. It is crucial that we get this. Louis deserves it.

song: a pill to crush - evelyn / sulk - tr/st

Prey Drive (E) by The_Lame_Goat / @iwtvdramacd18: Speaking of loumand's 70s insane bdsm practices 💔💔💔 s2 script just leaked. Is your eternal vampire marriage hitting a rough spot? Try our newest predator/prey large-scale roleplay!

song: lullaby - the cure / on the run - kelela

Mark Deep (E) by The_Lame_Goat / @iwtvdramacd18: Goat you have my blood on your hands. No added commentary needed actually. The damage this fic has done to me is irreversible. Read if you want some more quality t4t loumand insanity.

song: pang - caroline polachek

Rumpelstiltskin (E) by weathermood / @weather-mood: Most normal loumand roleplay night. Louis wakes up in a tower. I literally refuse to say anything else until you all read it for yourself and go through the sheer range of emotions I've went through when first reading it. #Their princess/captor slay is real and alive and thriving. This fic is also part of the NMHMRGPINE (No Matter How Much Rashid Gets Paid It's Not Enough) verse btw.

who is she ? - i monster / big bad wolf - shakey graves

AUs

the night island (E) by @vampdf (MAFIA AU): I don't know much but I know Armand was made to be a mob boss and Louis was made to be a mob wife. One of the most insanity-inducing byproducts of the career dom s2 teaser Armand scene(tm).

song: bitch bites dog - cecile believe

🚬Armand/Louis/Daniel📚

thy fearful symmetry (E) by mothmaiden: 70s era. One of the flrst iwtv fics I ever read. Never left my mind since. Delicious dynamics between the three of them, got me gasping and covering my mouth many times. Can't recommend enough.

song: soul control - jessie ware

Little Kidnaps in the Dark (E) by @gayvampiredivorce : The damage little kidnaps has wrought on my crops, my mental health, my friends and family can NOT be overstated. Masterful interpretation of the evolution of their relationship and dynamics through the haze of vampiric existence. Anne could never have done this.

song: when the sun hits - slowdive

Lethe series (T/E) by serpentskirts / @knifeeater: Quite simply one of my favorite series not only in that tag but in general. Every sentence Laïs writes pulls me into a dark void that I hope I'm never getting out of.

song: hopedrunk everasking - caroline polachek

🖤Lestat/Louis/Armand/Daniel💀

Good to Love / Ruthless in Love (M) by themasterletters / @brightfelon (MODERN AU): Reading Toni's fics makes me feel like im a teen again, waiting anxiously for updates and calling up all my friends to scream and , am in love with all of Toni's readings of the characters but his Louis truly gets me. That fic doesn't only live rent free in my head it's also led me places I wouldnt go to with a gun. I have seen the best minds of my generation led to madness by toni's loumand. btw.

song: career boy - dorian electra / genghis khan - miike snow

Lestat/Louis/Armand

A Potentiality for Corruption (E) by @vampdf: The thing is. I can't talk about Eli's fics without talking about Potentiality. However. Talking about Potentiality also happens to send me into a state of delirious hysterics. Daphne Du Maurier found dead in a ditch. Charlotte Brontë shaking and crying. Guillermo Del Toro found jobless. There's a new Gothic classic in town.

song: ptolemaea - ethel cain

[euphorial-docx]

just watch tlou’s left behind episode… i laughed. i cried, a number of times. i sweat, i danced. i got... a shot, i ate and... i had many epiphanies.

[kenmahive]

i literally just finished orv as i speak and i feel like that one gwyneth paltrow reaction video where she says i laughed, i cried a number of times, i sweat, i danced i got shot, i ate and i had many epiphanies.

i need 7 business days to process all of this and what im feeling

[omegasweetener]

that intro scene before the battle in chapter five with all my guys together as one big happy family : i laughed. i cried, a number of times. i sweat, i danced. i got... a shot, i ate and... i had many epiphanies.

[lasshoe]

leaving the theater for marcel the shell with shoes on

[murphycooper]

SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP

[eventually--darling]

2nite sure has been something :/

[allyouzombies]

Me, learning that some states are considering obesity a high-risk condition for covid vaccine purposes:

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[zwouq]

finished watching parasite mood

[falsenote]

not to make a comparison post about two biographies that are not even available in english translation and also barely have anything in common besides the fact that i've read and enjoyed them and are about actors i like but. it's just so interesting how the 2018 volonté bio by mirko capozzoli and the 1991 romy bio by michael jürgs both foreground the cultural and sociopolitical contexts of the 60s-80s while approaching these filmographies and life stories because it not only makes time period so much easier to grasp but also deconstructs these mythical images of the actors in question in some ways

they differ in format because the romy book is very anecdotal, it constanty jumps back and forth in time, so much so that while reading i literally thought to myself that this is exactly like listening to someone tell stories at a bar or something because the way it's written it's like following someone's train of thought, how telling a story reminds them of another story from a completely different time and so it goes on for hours which makes it a messy but very enjoyable read on one hand, and on the other it's literally has the same dynamic energy as the movie 3 Days in Quiberon. which is a fun reconstruction of romy's stay at this french spa resort rehab place and most importantly her series of interviews with two journalists, one of them being michael jürgs, who in real life wrote the biography in question, heavily based on the interviews recorded during this time. and this is where i had some problems with the film because i didn't understand the need to make him into this misogynistic caricature, like i don't know much about nor care particularly for jürgs himself, so it might be that i missed out on some actual drama regarding this issue but this portrayal was very strange to me because surprisingly i felt while reading that considering how sensationalist biographies can get he was being respectul and even affectionate towards romy and her films. related to this, and which bothered me more, is that in one scene romy's friend says to him something dismissive about him writing about politics and i just didn't get the point of that, like insult self-important leftist men all you want (a topic also relevant to the volonté book. there it works!) but to me one of the most interesting parts of the bio were when jürgs was making these observations about post-war germany/austria and their relation to how the public opinion related to romy's roles and she herself (and how at that era [or maybe ever since?] clearly the two were seen as one). there is much to say about this public image, political situation issue (very vague terms i know but i will elaborate in a bit), so i just don't understand what's the problem with discussing this in particular. but in any case

as opposed to the dynamic flow of the romy book, the volonté bio is strictly structured, linear, so thouroughly researched that it's insane and not only that but everything is cited which i loved because often times with biographies it's hard to distinguish between the writer talking about some factual events and hypothesizing. but capozzoli's book is made up mostly of cultural and political contexts to volonté's filmography with some anecdotes inserted that range from terribly sad to amusing in a surreal way (large percentage of which is shared by his girlfriends over the years because. women's stories matter!!!) and some words on the films themselves which are funnily enough the weakest part of the book for me (and in the romy book too if i'm honest. strange). but to get closer to what i'm trying to say with all this, both the extensive amount of context and various anecdotes serve as counterpoints to previous overviews about him i think, and the book outright reflects on this general perception. and by general perception i'm referring to such eye roll inducing content as the documentary Un Attore Contro (2004) which is not only uncomfortably horrible on a technical level (every single person that talks in it gets cut off mid-sentence i'm not making this up. and they literally dragged half of europe out for this so just imagine) but even more worrying because the makers of the documentary try, with their poor editing skills, to force a very simplified interpretation of his film career and his life as a whole even. it's basically the usual tortured artist narrative that he was this misunderstood political revolutionary whom the film industry disappointed so much that it made him lose all hope ending with his death. and it's exactly this intense focus on tragic deaths of actors that i just find so tiring, it's always so sentimental (as in: untrue). i feel the same way about this issue when it's about romy too of course.

and to finally arive to what i could've said at the beginning both jürgs' romy book and capozzoli's volonté book provide this broader view of the times and cinema at the time and what made it all very enjoyable is that the writers are able to step over the usual clichés of the biography and while they naturally show a great appreciation for these actors, at the end of the day these people are the products of their time and that is exactly why they are interesting and uninteresting. by interesting i mean that of course these life stories, many parts of which widely known in details because of their public image, capture a portrait of the times very well, because they reflect the age. and by uninteresting i mean that at the same time, the mystification and idealization of the actor / artist is pointless because regardless public recognition, it doesn't make much sense to reduce them to a comfortable narrative because they naturally will contradict that image.

that is why it was refreshing to read jürgs' hazy recollection of romy and her growing into her political ideas, taking more self-confident roles moving away from but constantly criticized by post-war germany public opinion. and that is also why it was interesting to read capozzoli's recollection of italy at the time in the context of volonté's career and life throughout the memories of people who worked in the film industry during those years, giving the whole thing a collective, historical document feel.

also i left this thought to the end bc i'm kind of hoping no one will get this far into reading this post but another thing that is very amusing when comparing these things is that romy obviously had at the time and still has i suppose this very feminine, diva image, widely reported love affairs w some men etc etc and while this is of course part of the vibe, the bio kind of deconstructs this too with mentioning many traits that go against this like her masculine walk for example (which i've also noticed in many of her movies before it's very cute) also quite a few of her boyfriends were younger and less successful so she provided the main source of income, not to mention the alleged bisexuality... and w the volonté bio too it's a little bit similar like there you have this revolutionary political activist image but when you read the book this is counterpointed with the aforementioned testimonials from his girlfriends who are fairly critical of him putting those progressive political stances into practice (meaning that i've made a few additions to my gian maria misogyny moments folder). but on that same note no one ever mentions anywhere else that he was directed by his girlfriend armenia balducci in a movie. lost media people need to get on this because then it would finally be time for me to make a gian maria feminism moments folder. sweet dreams. but the biography dedicates an entire chapter to the movie despite it being lost so women's rights are partially restored.

and after all the romy book ends with a quote about how the journey to your own self and to others takes light years and the volonté book with the acknowledgement that all these anecdotes and memories are limited because they don't give across the complexity of these experiences. which is kind of sweet

[dlsintegration]

i laughed i cried a number of times i danced i sweat i got a shot i ate and i had many epiphanies .

[euphorial-docx]

just watched this tnt interview… i laughed, i cried a number of times, i sweat, i danced, i got a shot, i ate, and i had many epiphanies

[gnomedotedu]

anyway. im a pathologic blog from now on, no other piece of art/media exists actually