#i love being NORMAL

[real10jay]

college kid jj

[angelswim64]

irreplaceable

[orpheuslament]

one thing about me is i will overthink every single interaction ive ever had until i make myself feel physically sick

[widevibratobitch]

dunno if ive mentioned before but there is literally nothing in this world that i wouldn't sacrifice to hear just one more Mozart opera composed after Clemenza

[drakonovisny]

i suddenly crave the taste and the mouthfeel of chewing on a wet sponge 👁️👁️

[billowingangel]

My favorite song as a kid was 'Somebody's Watching Me'. Should've been a sign of what my mental state would be like because an 8 year old singing that song daily may not have been a good sign.

Anyway just came on the radio <3 Still love that song

"Whose watching me now?"

"Who?"

"The IRS?!"

[shiranaia]

anyways

[absolutehumandisaster]

Gotta love the title of MAG 97. “We All Ignore The Pit” boy you sure do, points for accuracy

[candythemew]

YOU

[dappledpaintbrush]

I’m over here spending every day researching the difference between a hyperfixation and a special interest when

Me about rdr2: This became my entire fucking life for a good couple of months. I would play it for 7 hours straight without getting up because I would forget I needed basic things like food and water. I researched all the lore three times over and I would become so overwhelmed at how good this game was that I would randomly want to cry. It made me so so excited every single day and gave me so much happiness and then. It stopped??? It was as if not long after I learned everything, the extreme obsession over it died. Something I felt like I couldn’t live without is now something I CAN. I don’t feel the need to engage in anymore. Like at all. I still love the game and I will always cherish it but. It’s not the same as it was before.

me about spm: if this didn’t exist I wouldn’t know who I am (it’s been ten years)

[hazardsoflove]

:)

[valueinn]

@joysmileyay eat my entire ass

[nostalgiabones]

my 5sos fixation/daydreaming has ramped up x10000 since that festival last week but now they have nothing that we know of until september so like. what am I meant to do in the meantime 🫶🏼 asking for a friend 🫶🏼

[luckyguyy]

my partner hates reading but agreed to rewatch ATLA once I finish the Kyoshi books so I’m making them a powerpoint presentation to summarize all the interesting things I want us both to keep in mind as we rewatch

[villanevehaus]

this is kind of random but this has been nagging at me for a little while and i havent been able to format it into like a question?? like i dont even know what my own question about it is but i know theres an answer you know?? but i was wondering if you had thoughts on the last names in sharp objects?? i always thought it was interesting that camille was the only preaker left that wasnt dead, and adora treats her like a stranger even though marian was also a preaker.

[contd] maybe im crazy. but i always thought adoras adherence to the realistic but unrealistic and kind of eerie social construct that literally drowns every woman in wind gap was an integral part in her character that i couldnt quite piece together in a way that clicked. like camilles identity as a preaker vs her mothers as a crellin but also most importantly as something other than a preaker is just hmmmm and i wondered if u noticed that too and/or had thoughts on it ?? - letterboxdanon

OGH yeas i have sooooo many thoughts as you are about to see by the length of this response because camille IS the only preaker!!! alan is both marian and amma's father, but he's just camille's step-father. preaker is adora's maiden name and since she had camille out of wedlock as a 17(18?)yo kid, it's not even the last name of camille's father- but then adora left all that embarrassment behind by marrying alan (still in her teens, also!!! alan sucks!!!) and having marian a few years later. adora cut herself from the preaker name through marriage, a normal thing that often changes women's names, had a child with that new name, and gained a cleaner social standing from doing both. idk why they didn't just erase the preaker name entirely by making camille a crellin but i think alan is so old fashioned that he'd be against giving a child that's not His his last name. maybe it just made it that much easier to hate camille, who knows.

iirc also adoras parents were sooooo pissed about her getting knocked up by some dude as a teen they both died within like a year of camille being born as well?? so adora really did a speedrun from child to mother to orphan to wife to mother of two, and i think for her having a new name and a new child with that new name was a good way to reinvent herself and her image- and isnt windgap aaallllllllllllll about image? changing her name while also continuing to reap the benefits of Preaker Hog Farm TM also means that she gets to almost fossilize?? the name and her family's empire/fortune, bc she still gets money from that.

so like! she treats camille as a stain on the preaker name/line because she literally is one in adora's eyes: she was a mistake, she killed the only other living preakers while retaining the legacy connected to the name- undeservedly- she doesn't adhere to windgap rules (or adora's rules, which are the same honestly), she mourns her sister too loudly, and then she leaves. but its fine, thank god she left, bc now adora gets to continue to reinvent herself and her image with amma and anne nash and natalie keene: adora crellin, that fine woman with her beautiful house and her beautiful roses and her beautiful daughter- bless her heart for helping those girls, especially after losing her first.

and then, camille shows up.

camille is a walking talking violation of adora's reinventation- she's a reminder to adora of her accidental pregnancy, camille's father, the deaths of her parents, the loss of marian- but she's also a reminder to the entire town of wind gap that adora used to be a preaker, too.

[absentmoon]

rewatchiyn sunset blvd i forgot joe wears a whole ass skimpy bathrobe in the first scene