#i love killua and ikalgo's friendship too

[justxtalking]

a small detail i can't get over with

After Killua wins against the Ortho siblings, he falls and can't stand up again because he lost a lot of blood. He's starting to lose consciousness while feeling sad and apologetic about Gon. At the same time he's accepting his destiny, the drawing gets softer and softer, as if he's really going to disappear. The large white spaces also show that not only he's alone but he's about to die.

However, on the next page, Ikalgo appears holding his hand. Killua is still drawn soft, as if he's about to disappear, but Ikalgo looks much solid. In the first panel, Killua is drawn with soft lines in contrast with his hand and Ikalgo's tentacle, which look more solid. I really like how it shows that, in this case, Ikalgo is the one who is able to stand his ground and is going to save him. He's bringing him back.

If I'm gonna be honest, Togashi draws Killua in this way more than once. Those times are when he's sad about Gon, just after Gon said or did something that makes him feel bad (I would say, that breaks his heart). The lines are extremely soft, as if he's about to disappear (or even getting further away too), and his eyes look empty.

In my interpretation, I'm adding the "as if he's about to disappear", though probably it's just to show Killua in the light while Gon is more and more in the dark. Togashi uses this technique a lot during the Chimera Ant arc!

The Gon and Killua's drawings deserve a whole different post of analysis (there's a lot to say about it), but I wanted to include them since it's something I notice Togashi does a lot and it kinda relates to the Ikalgo and Killua's scene!

By the way, these are just my thoughts, not a deep analysis. Just for fun!

[llycaons]

words cannot express HOW proud I am of killua for acting on instinct to protect ikalgo. he loves gon so enormously but it's so important that he's able to also have friends and care about people besides gon too

of course it would be killua who made this mistake...he knows the practical and logical thing to do but he acts on friendship...

[reality-maybe]

Rachel!! 👈✨ Hermit Purple, Magician’s Red, Hierophant Green, and Justice for the JoJo ask prompt, please! I love these. 💖

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Joy!! ✨👉 thank you for sending in the ask! This one was so clever I love jojo so much lol. I hope you’re continuing to have a great day 💗✌️

💜⚡️Hermit Purple: (imma do the latest pic and gif for this one ❤️)

I HAD NO IDEA THAT THERE WAS A LEADUP CLOSING CARD TO THIS ONE I MADE A POST ABOUT HERE and AHHHH!!! They all look so cute 😭😭😭 I need more chibi Knuckle in my life and I think about this happening in canon. Like Ikalgo just comes back from almost dying and Killua’s like “hey we need you to complete our star of friendship” in the middle of them trying to find fight and kill the king lmao. Who’s idea was it to even do the star in the first place? It was probably Knuckle look how proud he is ♡

This was the last gif I saved of him. Cause like. Knuckle + puppy = depression b-gone the puppy is so excited to see him 😭💕 and the fact that it REFUSED TO LEAVE HIM and CLIMBED IN BED WITH HIM why can’t that be me big strong scary man holding tiny puppy and crying he’s so soft!! I also just love how he’s so expressive with his faces and animations cause it just shows so much character 💗 like when he’s surprised his eyes are drawn so wide and his mouth gets kinda pouty. And he’s animated with some really silly faces and that just adds so much depth to his character when he lets up his hard delinquent personality. UGH I love finding the little animated details in characters that show their personalities ❤️

🔥🐓Magicians Red: What’s something about your F/O that makes you feel all warm inside?

I just love how caring Knuckle is. He’s brash and aggressive and has a really short fuse but he cares about everyone and everything around him, even when he’s tsundere and says he doesn’t. Ever since the first time we meet him he picks up after a random dog saying to “keep our parks clean” and just him VOLUNTEERING to be on the extermination team to learn about the chimera ants and not just outright kill them. Then to him essentially mentoring these two kids for a month to prepare them for the NGL, which he didn’t have to do. Then helping find Kite for Gon, he could’ve easily said no and just focused on his mission, but he promised Gon he’d find Kite, and kept his word. THEN befriending Meleoron despite him having major doubts about Knuckle at first just cause of how aggressive he looked then changing his mind cause he figured out Knuckle was feeding and caring for the stray dogs he found abandoned. THEN risking and essentially thwarting the mission and almost his life for Shoot and Morel and THEN taking such gentle care of Komugi as a hostage when she went with the extermination team, since he was against it. Just. The level of care and compassion in this man’s character is beyond belief despite his aggression and intimidating nature as a fighter. Like he’ll break femurs for days but he’ll never break anyone’s heart ❤️ I like to think I’m a bit like that too, I’ve been told I’m extremely compassionate. I really want a partner like that. Truly. It’s so hard to find that kind of selfless compassion in reality so I’m so glad I can find it in Knuckle. Makes me soft even though he isn’t real 💕

🐉🍒Heirophant Green: How long has your relationship with your F/O been?

Oooh this is an interesting one to answer. Cause it honestly changes based on what scenario I do for Rae and Knuckle. They started having feelings for each other after they and the others all meet up at the NGL. Rae helped Knuckle with his little animal orphanage and they spent a lot of time bonding and getting to know each other from it. It’s clear to the other (mainly Rae lol) that they like each other by the end of the Chimera Ant Arc, but as much as they want to confess and just sink into each other , they both don’t want their personal feelings to get involved with their mission. They’re both very emotionally driven, and they knew that they would impulsively go out of their way to help each other at all cost, so as much as it pained them, and Rae made the final call that the two of them should not be paired up together for the final fight. Knuckle got upset at first, intensely arguing and trying to justify with Rae that they could work together, he’ll protect her and they’re strong and work as a single mind together. He was actually just really scared of losing her, he wanted to have her in his sight making sure she came out of this alive. He couldn’t bare to think of how He’d react if he had to hear a delivered message of what had happened to her, He’d rather just be with her and have her there in his arms and sight if it came down to their final moments. He was crying through his arguing when he brought it up. Rae was firm though, even though it hurt her so bad to see him like that, and softly told him that that was exactly why they couldn’t, while wiping his tears away. Rae just wanted to come out with it and just tell him how much he meant to her, how she saw him as more than just her very good friend, and honestly, Knuckle did too. The looks and closeness they shared in that moment did the talking for them. But they both knew that once it was out, they wouldn’t be as focused, so Rae just told him to stay alive, telling him that they had some unfinished things to talk about, and would when they saw each other again. they didn’t see each other for a while actually after the chimera ant stuff because Rae was badly injured and had to recover, but Knuckle accidentally confessed his feelings to her a month or so after a new chairman had been picked and others were celebrating her and Shoot’s full recovery. in some scenarios, they had only been dating for a few weeks or months, but in a lot of them they’re already in an established relationship, I’d say maybe a year or two after his confession. There are also some a few years down their road, i feel like they would take a break from being hunters for a little bit, just to enjoy some time and life for themselves. But I feel like Rae and Knuckle would wait quite a while to get married, though they would already act and go through life like a married couple. they loved the idea of marrying each other, but they knew their lives as Hunters may interfere with that. It’s not like they have eyes for someone else, or can’t see them in a relationship together down the road. They do. Just maybe putting the label of marriage on the back burner for now. so even though they are exclusive, and they are gonna spend the rest of their lives together, they feel like marriage puts a bunch of pressure on them to settle, Which neither of them want to do for a while. But they have their own vows and ways to celebrate and look back on how far they’ve come in their relationship. They agreed that when they’ve retired as Hunters, then the real thought of settling down and getting married would come up. But for now they’re just happy to be together going through their life adventure with the other by their side regardless of rings or labels. But who knows when and how the tides of life change for them, it always happens to in the most unexpected ways. They’ll take it on together, though ♡

💀💨 Justice: If someone ever wronged/hurt you, how would your F/O react?

Oh GOD. If Knuckle figured out someone hurt Rae, or made her deeply upset he would make sure they woke with stitches and maybe something missing at the very LEAST. Knuckle is very protective of anything or one who is important to him, and Rae is at the top of list for sure. If he was willing to throw away an important mission for the sake of his teammate’s life, he wouldn’t even bat an eye if he had to watch the universe crumble for Rae’s own. She was just too important to him. He’d let his emotions defensively get the better of him, and it would take a LOT of counseling from his mentors and peers to reason with him if it got to that point, if at all. It didn’t take much for him to reach that point honestly, even if he simply saw someone make Rae cry, there was a potential that they could leave with a few broken bones….if they could even walk. Rae would take his face red from anger in her hands, and talk to him, reassure him that she was alright and that he sure showed them, just to get him to calm down. He always calms down faster when she’s with him, letting him come to his senses. He would, quelling his anger and focusing more on comforting her, which calmed him down even more. In more extreme cases, like how Rae was severely injured after the chimera ant stuff, he would have to be physically held back and subdued by Morel to keep him from seeking his vengeance on whoever hurt his love. He would fight all sense of reason, screaming and cursing just feeling the need to destroy something. If he truly does go rage mode there’s nothing stopping him. But he hadn’t gotten to that point in a long time thanks to Morel hammering some sense into him, telling him how Rae would feel if he went off and did something like that, would hurting something heal her truly, remember the times when he did go rage mode and how miserable he felt afterwards, just let time and doctors heal her. He eventually just broke down in his Master’s arms, crying to him about how much he wanted to see Rae get better, how much it hurt him to see her go though pain like that even though she’s so strong. How he just didn’t want anyone to take away the light she brought into his life. Morel would just hold him as he spilled his tears and emotions, seeing how he’s never acted like that when it came to someone else. He really did love her. and Morel being the incredible teacher and father figure to him would just let him cry it out, giving him words of reassurance that she’ll be alright.

[telehxhtrash]

“I don’t thank my friends” : HxH meta.

I think everyone in the fandom was a bit confused when Killua blurted out of nowhere to Ikalgo that "I won't say thank you next time something like this happens". I know I was left a bit confused as to where that came from. Sure, Killua's point stands, friends shouldn't need to thank other friends because it's normal to help each other. But why did Killua create this "i don't thank my friends" rule seemingly out of nowhere, and if he doesn't thank his friends, why did Killua thank Gon before parting ?

To me, it has to do with his sense of self and his feelings of unworthiness to stay by Gon's side.

I wanted to explain my take on this matter, so if you're interested, enjoy your read !

EDIT: hi, once again, my past comes back to haunt me..... i wrote this meta post a while ago and i don’t really agree with what i wrote anymore. i feel like the main reason Killua thanked Gon was because he felt like they weren’t friends anymore, because he doubted his place next to him and felt like Gon didn’t consider him as a friend. I wrote a post about this so I invite you to read it if you’re interested, but basically, Killua feared Gon only saw him as a teammate, as an acquaintance. But he still wanted to thank him for everything he did for him before parting, and technically speaking, if Gon doesn’t consider him a friend, then he could thank him while still not breaking his rule...So in my opinion, Killua thanks Gon because he thinks Gon doesn’t consider him as a friend, so he’s not breaking his rule while still expressing the gratitude he needed to express.

With that being said, if you’re still interested in my old pov on this subject, then enjoy your read! But please take everything I say below with a grain of salt, because like I said, I feel like this is not the real reason Killua thanked Gon before parting.

In CAA, we saw Killua develop an intense devotion for Gon, putting Gon above anything else and going through hell to make sure he can be of help to him. But those newfound feelings of love and devotion towards Gon only made his sense of self-worth plummet. How could someone like me stay alongside someone so bright ? If Gon is light itself, does that make me darkness ? How could I ever repay someone who has changed my life so drastically for the better ?

Killua never felt worthy of staying by Gon's side, and his sense of worth comes from how useful he can be to Gon. That's why in Greed Island he sacrificed his hands to help Gon, that's why he's constantly making sure Gon gets his way in CAA, and that's why his last dying thoughts after having faced the Ortho siblings would have been "I'm sorry Gon, I couldn't be of any use".

The "Gon, you are light scene" highlights pretty well how Killua views himself compared to Gon. To him, Gon is light itself, he shines so bright that he can't look directly at him. But is it still okay to stay at his side ? Is it okay for someone like him, someone born in darkness, someone whose past is so shameful and who could never ever bring anything positive to Gon to stay by his side ? Isn't it selfish ?

Of course, we saw in CAA that if Killua thinks there's ever the slightest chance his staying with Gon would put him in danger, Killua wouldn't hesitate to leave. That's why when Bisky tells him that he will ultimately leave Gon to die, he decides that it's best to leave Gon.

But at the end of the day, Killua doesn't want to leave Gon, ever. Gon is his ray of sunshine, and even though it's selfish of him, he can't help but want to stay by his side forever.

Those conflicting feelings of not being worthy enough for Gon but still wanting to stay by his side are what leads him to ultimately break free from his family's control and removing the needle when faced in a very high-stake situation.

After the removal of the needle, Killua feels free, and feels like maybe he isn't as weak as he thought, and maybe there's the slightest chance that he could stay by Gon's side. But to him, to stay by Gon's side, he has to earn it.

All of these thoughts about his self-worth, all of his self-deprecation and feelings of unworthiness of staying by such a bright person's side are a factor into why Killua refuses to thank his friends. Killua is projecting his insecurities onto his other friends. Let me explain.

We saw Gon thank Killua twice in the manga. The first time was on Greed Island, when Gon thanks Killua for staying by his side even though he has the choice to leave and do his own thing. Killua is EXTREMELY flustered by this sudden burst of affection.

The second time is in CAA, after Killua takes Gon to safety after their encounter with Pitou. Gon thanks Killua for saving him, and tells him that what he did was the right thing. Once again, Killua is very flustered.

Now, we all know that Killua did all these things because he loves Gon and cares for him a lot. He's staying by his side... just to be by his side. He has no other reason to follow him around other than enjoying his company. All he wants is to stay by Gon's side, and that's all there is to it.

But when Gon thanks Killua, it makes him feel like absolute crap. In his own words, "it's nothing special to help your friends". Killua went to Greed Island with Gon because he wanted to, not because he was under any obligation. Killua saved Gon from Pitou because he loves him, and saving him was the NORMAL thing to do. 

So when Gon thanks him for these actions that Killua CHOSE to do, it makes him feel like Gon doesn't realize that Killua is doing all of this for HIM. Not out of any obligation, not out of some sort of moral code of friendship, Killua is doing this because it's Gon, and he wants to do these things for him.

To Killua, Gon thanking him is like he's not acknowledging his feelings of being there for Gon only because it's Gon. Killua is desperate for him to acknowledge the fact that he's here for him. When Gon thanks him on Greed Island, and he's extremely flustered, he's probably thinking something along the lines of "no need to thank me, i'm here out of my own will, i'm here because i want to stay with you". And Killua is DESPERATE for Gon to realize that all Killua wants is to stay with him. 

The second time Gon thanks him, same thing happens. Killua saved him because he cares for him, so why is Gon thanking him?? It was something he did out of his own will, because he loves Gon, because he's his best friend and he wants to keep him safe so there's nothing to thank him for it was a NORMAL thing to do because he cares about him !!

Killua wishes Gon would see that he's doing everything he's doing out of love for him, that he's doing everything he's doing because it's a normal thing to do, so please, please, please there's no need to say thank you. That it's not something special to help him, he's literally just doing it out of care for Gon. He's desperate for validation and recognition that everything he's doing is out of love for Gon, and his lack of self-worth makes this issue even worse. If Gon is thanking him for normal things, then that certainly means he must not value him as much as Killua values Gon.

CAA Killua struggles a lot with his self-worth and how much Gon truly values him. Maybe he doesn't value him as much as he thought, if he's thanking him for normal things friends do for each other then maybe to Gon they aren't even truly friends. Sprinkle Killua's blossoming feelings for Gon, and the entire Palm situation and Killua's jealousy in regards to that, and you get the mess that is Killua's sense of self-worth.

So when Killua meets another friend, he projects his feelings onto them, and creates this rule. "I don't thank my friends, because it's normal to help each other out". This is projection at its finest. Killua WISHES Gon would never thank him because everything he's doing is normal. So to compensate, he projects these feelings onto Ikalgo, and eventually Palm. Everything he's saying, about how friends don't need to thank each other because helping each other out is the normal thing to do, are projections of what he wishes Gon would realize. He wishes Gon was the one to never thank him for normal things.

It's hard to pinpoint exactly when Killua realized that he was just as important to Gon as he is to Killua, but I truly believe that when comes the time to separate, Killua knows how much Gon cares for him. He knows that he's the most important person in Gon's life, and that Gon is extremely grateful to have him by his side. 

He also realized that Gon knew that he stayed by his side out of love for him, and not because he only wanted to help him find his dad. Gon knew of Killua's devotion to him, knew that Killua did everything he did only because it's Gon, but he still decided to thank him. 

And Killua realized that the reason Gon thanked him wasn't because he didn't acknowledge Killua's feelings, but it's precisely because he knew how much Killua cares for him that he decided to thank him. 

Killua thought that Gon thanking him was a sign that he didn't recognize how important Gon is to him. But it's the literal opposite. Killua doesn't have to stay with Gon, and Gon knows that. That's why he's constantly expressing how grateful he is for Killua. Because thanking him for normal things is the best thing he can do to express how grateful he is to have Killua by his side.

And that's why Killua's rule of "I don't thank my friends" crumbles, and he thanks Gon before they part. Because Gon knows that everything Killua did for his sake was the "normal thing to do", but yet he still thanked him. And if Gon knows how deeply Killua cares for him, but still thanks him, then surely he can thank him too. Because it's important to show appreciation for things friends do for you, even if they're deemed "normal things to do".

TLDR : Killua's "i don't thank my friends" rule is him projecting his feelings, sparked by his lack of self worth and his need for reassurance concerning his place next to Gon and his need for validation and acknowledgement of his new-found blossoming feelings towards him. (he pretty much just wishes gon would understand how much he loves him)

[sourlemonsodass]

ok so finally... time to write down some of my thoughts on HxH characters! I'm in the middle of chimera ants arc so I haven't seen every character yet (and don't want to see Ging fuck him)

feel free to make your own!!! you can tag me i'll love to read your thoughts :] HxH is one of my favorite animes ever!

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* Hunter x Hunter *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

✧ favorite characters: Illumi, Kurapika, Killua and Kaito!

✧ least fave character: that rude guy from the Hunter exam... don't even remember his name

✧ 5 fave ships: Hisoillu, Killugon, Leopika, Uvoshal and... think that's about it?

✧ character i find most attractive: Kaito and Illumi....... also Chrollo when his hair is not soaked in gel?? i look at his face and just feel like telling him to go fuck himself

✧ character i would marry: marry is a strong word but i'd go in a date with Kurapika.... transmascs unite we'd get along well

✧ character i'd be bff with: Kaito sounds like a really interesting person to talk to (I love biology ok) and also Kurapika!

✧ random thought: the chimera ants are so interesting I don't know why the fandom just care about the royal guard??? Leol, Cheetu, Meleoron, Colt, Ikalgo.... all very cool guys I'm loving this arc

✧ unpopular opinion: Hisoka should be held accountable for his weird behaviour towards children....

✧ canon otp: Does Hisoillu counts? asajshjahs also I think Killua really have feelings for Gon so Killugon too

✧ uncanon otp: Leopika.....

✧ most badass: Kaito be real cool w his scythe

✧ pairing i don't like: Machi and Hisoka?? Machi is a mean lesbian let her be

✧ character i feel the writers screwed up: I wouldn't say screwed up but I wish Kaito would.. be alive for longer idk?? I really like him as a character and he had a lot of potential. I feel like they buildt him only to show Pitou's strenght and that's not fair >:( he was so cool

✧ favorite friendship: Gon and Killua! they're the cutest imo, they are so fond on each other and grew so much together! they're a perfect duo and I simply love how close they get and how truthful is their friendship

[sandra-heart05]

I love hunter x hunter and it’s themes.

There’s the dark vs light thing which everyone and their mom noticed and there’s a subtle selfishness vs selflessness thing and finding the balance.

Dark vs light thing is obvious I think I’ve talked about in this blog before but it’s one of the heavier themes of hunter x hunter alongside the whole humanity in a superhuman whole thing which has been dissected by others and the show itself anyway I’m leaving than alone.

Hunter x hunter kinda has a pattern, at the start of the series killua is the dark one while gon is the light one. Gon is a normal pure hearted kid whose just curious about the world and being a hunter and his dad meanwhile killua is a ruthless ex prossional assassin from a notorious family of elites who view assassination as just business.

But by the time we reach greed island they both feel gray, killua has been growing into his own person away from illumis influences (or so we think) and trying to find a purpose to commit himself to and gon has gotten darker with the whole I’ll sacrifice my hands and stray from the plan just because I’m pissed at you thing with his fight with genthru soo.

And then we get to chimera ant arc and it comes full circle with gon becoming the dark and Killua the light. We all know about gon trademark spiral downwards but I’ll go into a little detail.

Gons character is he’s a normal good happy kid who is curious and wants to find his dad, problem here is normal kids have selfish tendencies they haven’t learnt to think beyond what they want yet which has resulted in gon being a bit selfish at times but that okay cus he’s a kid and kids are like that that doesn’t make him a bad person. Children tend to be selfish as kids and grow out of it as they mature and grow and are taught to think of others, gon is still 12 when the series starts so he hasn’t grown out of it. This is what I like about gons character, he a show of what happens when you put a normal kid into the dangerous environment that is the hunter x hunter universe.

Gons spiral was him working through his grief badly while in the middle of an war zone being expiditided by his youth and inexperience of these things. The selfishness comes in in that that is still there shows gon has properly emotionally matured yet (it’s fine he’s like 13-14 during this arc) and this causes him to lash out at times or take too much on at the time. Gon didn’t know how to deal with his grief in a way and the fact that he was also feeling weak and blamed himself for not being strong enough didn’t help add onto the fact that killua was his support but killua himself didn’t have anyway to help given his messed up childhood with dealing with death and we’ve got gon spiralling into some pretty bad coping mechanisms. Not to mention the adults are ignore the issue Bisuke visits but the most she was berate killua and give them basic training while she should have tried mentally helping them instead of physically, gon needed to at least talk with an adult about what happened to prepare him and killuas habits were thought to have been trained into in at this point so talking to him or try something mental to overcome his conditioning instead of psyching him out would have worked better (just lucky it wasn’t training but the needle I guess)

Talking of the needle, killua started to become the light when he took that thing out. He wasn’t held back by illumis control and influence and he was able to adapt and move forward because of it. Zeno points out how killua had matured and i feel a lot of the growth killua made during this arc would have been stunted if the needle was still there. Anyway killua became a literal light in some scenarios and the imagery is very there. When gon got his nen back from knuckles ability and was told to hit morel killua stopped him with a hand on his shoulder with a white background contrasted with gons dark expression, at this point the transition of their positions has already been made.

Killua says gon is a light but just a light to killua. Gon became a light to killua and Killua became a light to others. He save ikalgo and gave him a chance and offered him friendship and Killua became a light to ikalgo as shown by the light behind killua when he says this leaving the clinic. An argument can be made for alluka in the next arc but that situation is too complicated to talk about here. Then he literally became alight in the physical sense. At the arcs peak gon had made his dark transformation and Killua developed Godspeed, gon went dark meanwhile killua was literally and light of electricity and flowed with it, can’t be more on the nose about killua being a light than actually becoming one than this.

At the start of the series there’s this kinda gon has dark colours but is the light one and Killua is all whites and pale colours but is the dark one. Kinda ironic given what happened in the end. There’s also a kinda a nice narrative symmetry here as well; at the start of the series gon saves Killua from his family but in particular his older brother but at the end of the series killua saves gon with his younger sisters’ power.

There a subtle thing with leorio and kurapika too but rather than this black and white light metephor it seems more a moral argument and is suitable given they are both older so the subject is done a bit more maturely. When leorio and kurapika are introduced leorio seems to be the more immoral one saying his motivation is money and greed while kurapika seems more moral and seeks justice but we learn a bit later that leorio greeed for money comes from a realistic place of grief and that he wants money to use it so he can go on to help others mean while kurapikas u more gradual but we learn he’s not the moral character he first seems as he’s after the life’s of the phantom troupe members and gets involved in some pretty bad things later on in the current manga arc and the yorknew arc.

As a final note I’d like to point out the pattern with each arc; there are light arc’s and dark arc’s.

The hunter exam is a light arc that transitions into the zokdyck family; a dark arc and after that heavens arena was a light arc. The yorknew was a a dark arc that turned away from the main two slightly to get a look at kurapika falling into the dark and then the greed island arc was light despite a few issues and chimera ant arc was the darkest arc of the series and the chairman selection arc was a light arc despite the tension left over from the previous arc.

But despite the light to dark arc pattern this is the hunter x hunter universe and all the arcs got darker as they went. Hunter exam arc to zoldyck family arc; hunter exam ended darkish to transition between the two. Heavens arena was fairly innocent despite death threats, killua going assassin mode that one time and Hinson’s being here (actually this is probably the lightest arc despite the possible and legal death matches if you feel like killing your opponent) yorknew arc was dark with how kurapika had developed and we get a look at that but the others worry over it and in the end manage to get kurapika to reach a solution without killing chollo. Greed island starts out light and optimistic but end gray and dark with razor and the bomber threat nvm the gon vs genthru fight, in the end the transition is opptimi but dark. The chimera ant dark needs not explaining and then we having a dark transition again with alluka having dark powers and the zoldyck family always make it kinda dark but somehow the politics and Killua and alluka’s relationship make it come out light (or is that just in comparison?) we finally end on a opposite note and switch over to leorio and kurapika in the manga.

[decembercamiecherries]

Hi~ I love your Killua X Gon content, and I've been dropping in to check in on the amazing content creators for the ship~ If you have the time and are currently in the mood for it, can I ask your thoughts on Gon pining and being jealous (over Killua, ofc)? (it's just. such an interesting fun concept to write for.) Thank you~

ooooooo gosh jealous Gon is one of my favorite things in the world, the only problem is that like.......Gon and Killua are always together and so obviously the most important person in the other’s life that there are rarely any chances to write it in a fic XDDD The only relationships I can see Gon getting a little jealous over in canon would be maybe Ikalgo and Killua’s friendship since I think Ikalgo kind of worships Killua in a similar sense to how Killua worships Gon, and I can also see Gon getting a little jealous over Alluka too because she is now the focus of Killua’s attention and Killua is leaving Gon to be with her. But I don’t think Gon would go so far as to do something about that jealousy either. 

And in terms of pining Gon.........I think Gon actually fell for Killua first all the way back in the Hunter Exam arc and has been lowkey pining for Killua throughout the entire length of the series but he just doesn’t realize what those feelings are? I think he would only connect the dots after he and Killua separated and then I think his pining would turn into full blown crushing and yearning and longing~~~~

Gosh you’re making me want to write jealous/pining Gon now haha! XD Thank you for the ask, I hope this answered your question!

[lesbiangiratina]

top 5 killua moments!💖

Umm no particular order bc hes always epic

1. Fish darts. Its such a bizarre scene but hes my smart little guy. And i love his friendship w ikalgo :) hes come very far and im proud of him

2. Leaving the zoldyck mansion w alluka! All of their scenes together r so sweet but this 1 has the added bonus of killua outsmarting silva.

3. His apology to nanika... that whole scene actually. He just wants to protect alluka but he messed up and he completely understands that and owns up to it. Hes a sweet boy

4. Honestly just all of his time spent of whale island, even tho its not a single moment. Especially in 99. I think ive already talked abt the foxbear scene too much on here.

5. Gon you are light. Legally cant not include it

Edit: i spent too much time trying to think of scenes that werent killua pulling out the needle that i forgot to include killua pulling out the needle. Its on the list somewhere i promise

[hamliet]

Hey, I just discovered your HxH metas and they're wonderful. I'd love to hear your thoughts on how Gon and Killua treat favors & why. Gon obsesses over paying people back and not accepting charity; his fight with Knuckle even has him literally burdened with a debt he can't pay back (like his debt to the dead Kite). OTOH, Killua tells Ikalgo "It's nothing special to help your friends; don't say thanks" and saves Gon with his uniquely *debt-free* wishes. Do the thank-yous in c.338 make Killua sad?

Ah, thank you Anony!

So I discussed this with @aspoonofsugar a little (because I love this ask!), and so will incorporate elements of her answer too if that’s okay?

I think the development is slightly different. Meaning, I think Killua also sees favors as an exchange too at first--he was, of course, an assassin for hire, and can’t believe Gon is his friend despite the way they’ve been helping each other. He, like the other Zoldycks, struggles to see relationships and love in ways that do not require payment. Gon, on the other hand, at the start of his arc, shows that he sees friendship and love and loyalty as things to be happily given away. 

However, as they go about their adventures, this starts to change. By the time we’re at the Chimera Ant Arc, Killua has grown as a person in some ways--literally removing the needle, a symbol of Illumi’s manipulative sort of love, from his skull--and hence is able to treat both Ikalgo and Palm without manipulation by the end. In fact, Killua goes on a journey with Palm in terms of the codependent aspects of their relationships with Gon to coming to a place where both of them understand healthy relationships far better. It is only then that Killua remembers Alluka and is able to return, stand up to his father, and take his sister away. But his journey isn’t over yet, especially with Nanika.

Gon, however, is more than happy to see himself as someone giving friendship freely. By the time we get to CAA, though, Gon is the one who is struggling to believe in a relationship and love that isn’t guided by manipulation, that doesn’t have to be earned. In this respect Gon and Killua’s arcs are inversed. See: Ging. Ging manipulates Gon, makes him try to earn the right to meet him, etc. The idea of Kite sacrificing his life for Gon is something Gon can never pay back, but his father has taught him he has to earn everything, even the basic right to be loved by a parent. 

Gon doesn’t want to see himself as the sort who is weak in any way, because he hasn’t ever been able to be weak, but HxH’s whole shtick is that connection is where we find the most joy and where we grow the most as people. If you are ultimately so strong you don’t need to connect, you are actually just going to grow up too fast and your own ‘strength’ will break you. Hence, Gon-san.

You could get into how Killua is able to save Gon because he can see elements of himself in Gon’s behavior (I mean, he was a full assassin by the time he was twelve and presumably far younger) and how Gon did not actually want to be like Killua at the beginning (no I don’t think he *literally* thought this, but I do think there’s an element of this in the unconscious behaviors Gon displays throughout the entire series). But it’s also through each other--as well as others!--that they’re able to get to places where they need to be to grow, and to connect with the people who can help them grow as people right now.

For Killua this is Alluka, who can on the one hand, give him favors he can’t ever repay, and on the other hand, he ironically has earned the right to protect (according to his manipulative parents). For Gon this is Mito, the woman who fought to adopt him when she was only thirteen herself (yes, really), whom he cannot ever pay back and whom he doesn’t need to. 

Because kids should not have to earn their lives from their parents. 

[aspoonofsugar]

Do you think Killua will ever get to the point where he can be as emotionally vulnerable with Gon as he is with Alluka?

Is it bad that I low key hope Togash brings in a love interest or some other companion for Gon when the spotlight is on him again? Just cuz Killua just ditched him for Alluka, I want to see Gon get a special bond too.

Hello anons!

These asks can be answered together.

To the first one the answer is yes since I think that Killua becoming able to better convey his feelings is a part of his arc. What is more there is this:

One of the reasons of Gon and Killua’s conflict is that they miscommunicated. On one hand Gon repressed his feelings until the battle. On the other hand Killua did not openly discuss his doubts and insecurities.

That said, I would like to highlight that Killua’s relationship with Alluka is different from the one he has with Gon. He and Gon are peers and equals and share a strong bond, but also a wish to compete and to impress each other (basically a friendly rivalry). Killua is instead Alluka’s older brother and considers himself her protector. Alluka herself (and Nanika) keeps asking Killua for acts of affection as pats, hugs and so on. This does not mean that Killua is completely open with Alluka since he keeps several things from her in a misplaced attempt to protect her. For example, he did not tell her about his plan of sealing Nanika away. At the same time, it was Alluka herself who touched the topic of their family mistreating hear and not Killua approaching it to discuss it. In short, Killua shares with Alluka things he does not with Gon, while shares with Gon things he would not share with Alluka. This is not because there is a hierarchy concerning the two relationships, but simply because the two relationships are different and so they have different dynamics, different strengths and different flaws.

As far as the second ask is concerned, everyone can headcanon whatever they want and it has absolutely nothing to do with being right or wrong :).

That said, I disagree with the notion of Killua ditching Gon for Alluka even if I realize it is probably just a joke or a colorful way to describe what happened. That said, the whole idea of “ditching” suggests that there is a hierarchy between the two relationships, that Gon has been wronged somehow and that Alluka is somehow a love interest for Killua/ a person who shares with Killua the same relationship he used to have with Gon. I disagree with all these three notions for different reasons.

1) As I have stated before I do not think the two relationships have a hierarchy. Killua might try to give them a hieararchy in his head, but he is bound to fail and he will have to accept they are both equally important for him. After all, we have already had a glimpse of this kind of mentality crumbling thanks to Killua’s friendship with Ikalgo. Killua became friends with Ikalgo despite him being an enemy and later he risked the mission and left Gon’s side in order to save the octopus. It is not that Ikalgo is more important than Gon, but that Killua is learning he can have multiple important friendships and he has learnt it thanks to his relationship with Gon.

2) Gon has not been wronged by Killua. Killua has been fighting tooth and nail to cure him. His objective in the Election Arc is to save both Gon and Alluka after all. To be more specific he has been able to save one because of the other. As a matter of fact he saved Gon with Alluka’s power, while he freed Alluka with the excuse of curing Gon. This is a result he could not have obtained without both Alluka and Gon.

What is more, I dislike the notion that two friends or even two partners can’t spend time apart and have to revolve completely around each other. This kind of mentality can be unhealthy and it has actually been highlighted as unhealthy in Killua and Gon’s case. The whole point of the CAA is to show that parts (not the entirity) of Killua and Gon’s relationship are unhealthy and that they need to grow as individuals, so that their relationship can grow as well.

3) Alluka is not a love interest for Killua. She is a sibling and one Killua has neglected and that he has not been seeing for years. It is not surprising that Killua wants to spend time with Alluka. This makes even more sense if one considers the fact Alluka has been kept captive for years and is still being targeted by her family. Right now, Alluka needs Killua’s help, while Gon does not.

Finally, there is a reason if, in the latest arc, several relationships concerning Killua and his peers have been explored. I am talking about Killua’s relationships with both Ikalgo and Palm which have both been important for Killua’s arc. The reason is simple and has to do with the fact that in the beginning Killua thought he could not form bonds with others. He managed to become Gon’s friend and since Gon is his first friend he has been focused on him. However, thanks to Gon and to the people he got to know because of him, Killua has started to become able to form other bonds in a natural way. In other words, Killua’s arc has focused on his relationships with Ikalgo, Palm and Alluka because these relationships show his growth.

Gon’s growth has nothing to do with him becoming able to forge bonds because he has been able to do so since the beginning. He has easily become friends with Leorio and Kurapika and managed to basically have all the people in the final phase of the exam to root for him. The focus of Gon’s arc in the CAA and onwards has been parental relationships. Gon has been projecting his father on Kite and later on he has seeked advice from Ging. Finally in the current arc he has gone back home to his mother figure.

In short, it is not true that only Killua has special relationships. Gon has them too, but his are of a different kind. This does not mean Gon will not get a new companion if the focus goes back to him and he starts travelling again without Killua. He might meet someone depending on the story (after all Kurapika gains new comrades in every arc he is in) and this new comrade might develop a very close bond with him. We will see!

Thank you for the asks!

[joyandeggs]

Hunter x Hunter for the Fandom questions! 💕😁

You have activated the trap card!!! 💓 As always, a warning for everyone because this is a very long post -

Top 5 favourite characters: Truthfully, my top five are Shoot, Knuckle, Hanzo, Kite, and Gon. The three uncles, the honorary father, and the son. ❤

Other characters you like: Too many!!! I do love Killua, Kurapika, and Leorio. Kastro I really liked from the Tournament Arc. Melody, definitely! She’s the best. And, of course, Morel. I adore Big Papa Smoke. Palm and Knov, as well. Along with Ikalgo and Meleoron. ❤ Too many good characters.

Least favourite characters: I’ll have to say Illumi and Hisoka. I like them to an extent.

Otps: I am a sucker for Nashuu. 💓 What can I say? I really like Kurapika with Leorio, too.

Notps: Don’t…ship the children with other people please.

Favourite friendships: Gon and Killua of course! They are such a good pair. Shoot and Knuckle are the bestest though. I love them too much. Honestly, I really love when Meleoron and Ikalgo get to be with Gon and the others, especially after the Chimera Ant Arc. It’s so sweet.

Favourite family: Oh, I love Gon and Aunt Mito. 💌

Favourite episodes: There are too many good ones, but you know I have to put 86. For reasons. ❤ The biggest ones for me…were 112 and…118 just becauae of how emotional they made me. Especially 112. That episode made me SOB. After I finished the episode, I had to step away from the computer to breathe, I was crying too much. Not necessarily in a bad way, but I did get really choked up.

Favourite season/book/movie: Favorite season is the Chimera Ant Arc, even though it’s also the absolute worst at the same time. Favorite book is…the very first one! I was about to say Vol 20 or Vol 25, but the very first one makes me so happy. It’s my favorite cover, too! 💚

Favorite movie I don’t have an answer for. The Last Mission was pretty good, and I know there are at least one or two more I believe? I’ve only seen one though.

Favourite quotes: I absolutely loved it when Knuckle said “Everyone has a heart. That’s what I want to believe.” And…Shoot’s whole inner monologue right before he fights. Even when Shoot explains to Killua how he doesn’t like to hurt people. I still can’t handle them, I get so emotional just thinking about them.

Best musical moment: Well…I know when Pouf plays his violin it is incredibly musical. That’s the only thing I can think of to say here! That scene is so out of place, but the music is lovely at least.

Moment that made you fangirl/boy the hardest: I actually remember when I first got into Hunter x Hunter, and I saw that Hanzo got four badges in the hunting exam, literally was just cheering him on like “Yay Hanzo!!! Good job!!!” 💞 I was so happy for him!! Oh…and when Knuckle was on screen, especially when he would throw off his jacket… 💘💘💘💘💘 Every. Single. Time. My poor, weak heart. At all that fanservice. And!!! When Shoot would fight!!! I would just be mush like! 💓 I just loved seeing Shoot any moment I got, and I still do.

When it really disappointed you: I’m not going to say it because I don’t want to spoil Meve by accident, but it is a huge disapointment for me that still leaves me upset.

Saddest moment: Well… 💔 I won’t say it.

Most well done character death: Uvagin, I guess? I mean, I don’t want to say that, but Kurapika at the time…oh it was rough. 💔 The scene was well done.

Favourite guest star: Hm. Guest stars? I would say Togashi, but I’m clearly thinking about how we’ll see ONE appear in One Punch Man every now and then. Not sure if Madhouse did the same with Togashi dog or anything. – Oh shoot read that question wrong as soon as I wrote all of this, LOL! Oh, now I know who to say!! Junichi Kanemaru! 💓💓💓 He only voiced Buharu during the first season, but ahhh I absolutely adore him! Just hearing his voice again brought back great childhood memories since I know he’s Sonic. 💓 Takaya Kuroda also! He was great as Razor, but you can never not hear him as Kiryu if you know the Yakuza/Ryu Ga Gotoku series. Listening to him as another character in a completely different thing was so funny. It was nice little cameo for my ears for both of them. ❤

Favourite cast member: Yuuji Ueda! 💓💓💓💓💓💓 Of COURSE. Favorite Japanese voice actor. (Can I just say how lovely Shoot’s voice is? It’s breathtaking. 💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞) Along with Wataru Takagi, who is literally one of the best Japanese voice actors ever. He is an absolute gem. 💓 And I love Megumi Han. She was always so into her character and voicing Gon, she was just so passionate for the series. She’s the best.

Character you wish was still alive: Kite. 💔 And Kastro too, he seemed like a nice guy.

One thing you hope really happens: Please just let Gon and Killua rest. Give all the characters a rest. Where’s the filler episodes where they’re all getting together and having a good time and nothing can go wrong? Where’s my dream beach vacation episode?

Most shocking twist: Kite’s death… 💔💔💔 It really makes me upset please stop I want to forget

When did you start watching/reading?: I started watching the anime around March! I’m not sure when I bought the first volume of it though. Maybe in the same month? But yeah, March 3rd is the official date! (Which I was actually trying to figure out when I was deciding a date. I watched the first episode with my love maybe a month or so before I did on my own? But March 3rd was when I started watching it from the beginning. I thought about making it March 5th because…that’s when I first watched Shoot and Knuckle be introduced. You know.)

Best animal/creature: I’m biased to Knuckle’s puppy. 😌 For creature, I like Ikalgo and Meleoron a lot. It took me a bit to warm up to them, but they’re my favorite out of the Chimera Ants.

Favourite location: Whale Island! It is such a beautiful place! If it were real, I would definitely want to visit it.

Trope you wish they would stop using: Nothing that I can think of.

One thing this show/book/film does better than others: A big thing is that…it shows no matter what you go through, no matter what happens, you can definitely try again. And “you can smile again~” 🎵 All of these things slowly go more and more downhill when you follow along the adventure, but after the events of the scariest arc of the series, things do try to get better despite everything that happened during the darkest of times.

Funniest moments: I really can’t think of any super specific ones, but I know there were a lot of little moments Gon and Killua shared that cracked me up so much. Oh, when Gon hit Hanzo during their fight, and Leorio called him a liar for saying he let Gon hit him on purpose!! Ahhh the way Leorio’s voice actor did that line was PERFECT. “LIAR!!!!” I was dying! I also giggled bad at ones Shoot and Knuckle shared, ahh they’re so funny together.

Couple you would like to see: Shoot and I love the thought of Aunt Mito with Kite, for some reason? I think it’s because someone wrote a fic of them meeting, but…it’s a nice thought.

Actor/Actress you want to join the cast: Could you imagine if someone like Hiroki Yatsumoto voiced someone? Or Masaya Onosaka? Ahhhh or even Takahiro Sakurai! Just get Makoto Furukawa to guest star a character along with some other One Punch Man voice actors! It would be a fun time I’m sure.

Favourite outfit: I would say Knuckle. How does he stay looking so good??? His clothes never get dirty. But I do love how Pakunoda dresses. She just looks so lovely, ugghgh

Favourite item: The Hunter cards! ❤ They just look so iconic. Definitely Hotel Raffelasia. Gon’s fishing rod. And Crazy Slots!! Technically not an item himself, but Kite’s scythe is definitely the coolest weapon.

Do you own anything related to this show/book/film?: I do now. ❤

What house/team/group/friendship group/family/race/etc would you be in?: I would love to be in the little family Gon, Killua, Kurapika, and Leorio have together. I do have to say I would want to be apart of the Extermination Team, too! What great groups of friends.

Most boring plotline: I honestly did get bored watching through the Phantom Troupe and Greed Island Arcs when I first watched Hunter x Hunter, but I really need to rewatch them. When I think back on them, I feel like I didn’t appreciate them enough. I might enjoy them more after I watch it from the beginning again.

Most laughably bad moment: Whenever Hisoka shows up and he’s just like that

Best flashback/flashfoward if any: The one during Shoot’s inner monologue, and the one of Gon meeting Kite for the first time. Definitely. Even though Gon meeting Kite was the opening for Hunter x Hunter in the manga. There’s also the one Knuckle has where my most favorite picture comes from. ❤

Most layered character: I jokingly say Shoot because my goodness that man wears layers of bandages, but he really is a layered character. There’s actually a whole bunch of layered characters throughout the series.

Most one dimensional character: I’m honestly not sure.

Scariest moment (and Grossest moment, I’m mixing both questions for my answer): When the Chimera Ants would kill people.

Best looking male: Knuckle. I love my Shoot, but…Japanese pompadoured delinquents make me swoon. They are seriously my biggest weakness. Especially him. 💘💘💘 My poor, weak heart. I can’t even look at him without melting.

Best looking female: Pakunoda and Palm. Both women are beautiful in their own way. And Melody is of course very warm and sweet, I adore how she looks. ❤

Who you’re crushing on (if any): …Shoot… ❤💍

Favourite cast moment: When Megumi Han got really emotional speaking at one of the panels for The Last Mission in front of fans. It was so genuine and sweet.

Favourite transportation: I always loved the shuttle train! When Gon and Killua used to get to the tournament, and when Morel and the others traveled together. ❤ It makes me wish I could go on long and cozy train rides to different places like that in real life.

Most beautiful scene (scenery/shot wise): When Gon was hiding out to watch Hisoka in the bushes, and the sun shown through the trees. Anytime a scene would be in a forest or in walkways of trees, really! The way the sunlight shines through the trees and leaves in patches over the vast green surrounding is just so pretty. I just love the colors, contrast, everything. Oh! And when Knuckle was punching Youpi!!! Like ahhhhhh Madhouse!!! Every once in a while in Hunter x Hunter that fluid Madhouse animation would just hit you!

Unanswered question/continuity issue/plot error that bugs you: I wish we could have seen what Kite’s other rolls (weapons) were. 💔 Along with Hanzo’s, Knuckle’s, and Shoot’s backstories! We know just a bit about Knuckle’s past, but nothing about Hanzo nor Shoot really. I would want to know why they all became hunters!

Best promo: Hm…I haven’t seen promos or anything at all for the series. This wouldn’t fit the answer I don’t think, but I loved the little “To Be Continued” ending scenes with Gon and Killua. They were so cute! I actually missed them during the Chimera Ant Arc.

At what point did you fall in love with this show/book: Honestly, I’m not sure. I just ended up really liking it just by watching it from the beginning. Watching the first episode over at my love’s house piqued my interest in the series, but then a few weeks or so later I started watching it all the way through, and the rest was history. Everything blurs together for me because I literally blew through episodes watching them, but I had fun watching them all. And…even though the Chimera Ant Arc leaves me heartbroken and sickened, characters like Knuckle and Shoot came out of nowhere, and I was so excited to see them in such an awful part of the story. They were a breath of fresh air. And, of course…I got to meet Shoot. A character I will cherish and keep in my heart for the rest of my life. I already talk about him to death, but he came into my life at the perfect time. He gives me strength. I truly am happy I found Hunter x Hunter and just got into it.

[xyliane]

love or fear of cold

summary: killua can’t sleep. it’s the problem with getting used to a storm who can’t shut up and can’t stop moving. when it’s quiet, it’s hard to tell where he went. 

notes:  okay yeah I didn’t write anything for several weeks but look over here, a fluff! for that au I have where gon’s a summer storm and killua and alluka are stormchasers. also happy saint’s day for the patron saint of beekeepers and the plague. G, aged-up killugon (killua’s ~23 or 24, gon’s a storm so.), thunderstruck au, 2000 words. (title’s from mumford and sons)

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Killua can’t sleep.

Once, it wouldn’t have made sense that some place can be too quiet. His parents’ homes are either too far away or too high above the world, the barest wisps of clouds or the distant hum of traffic the only white noise to break through the thick walls of metal and glass. Even Gramps’s place, the old mansion an hour outside of town, doesn’t so much make noise as echo with nothing, the butlers’ footsteps silent. The world was quiet, and Killua had slept easy knowing that was how it was made for him.

But that was a long time ago.

When he and Alluka had first stayed at Palm’s house, pressed into clean clothes and warm food by a cranky Palm and an apologetic Ikalgo, neither of them had slept well. The whole place creaks with a threat that it’s about to fall down even in the lightest breeze, as though the warmth built steadily in an ancient heater will leak out the cracks. The house isn’t too far from her restaurant, but it’s been around since before the storms can remember, a weathered old monster not nearly large enough to hold three (mostly) humans, a doctor, an octopus, and a storm.

Now, Killua’s used to the aches of old timber, the sighing winds of open plains, even the chill of winter creeping around the mantle. It reminds him that he’s not where he was. But more importantly, it reminds him that Gon’s around. The storm has trouble staying in one spot for very long, let alone trying to sleep like a normal person. So he roams the fields and the forests, and the winds howl after him. Maybe they chase him, but knowing Gon, he’s leading them around, exploring the nooks and crannies of the world. He might not be staying with Killua at night, but he won’t leave either. They’ve only known each other since summer, and Killua already can’t imagine a week going by without seeing his friend, without hearing his laughter or smelling the static of wet fields and thunder. It’s a strange comfort, hearing the creaking of the world at night and knowing it’s Gon. Strange, and new, and exciting in ways Killua isn’t sure he wants to explore yet.

Tonight, though. Tonight is silent, and Gon’s not around. So Killua can’t sleep.

At least Alluka can. His sister sighs softly, buried under a stack of quilts Palm dug out of the closet. The forecast said it was going to get cold, but neither Zoldyck was prepared for just how cold. Not this early in the season. Killua’s own pile is even thicker, but it’s not the cold he’s having a problem with.

His whole body shivers when his feet hit the icy wooden floor, and he wraps himself up in at least two of his blankets. The whole house is quiet, the only sound the creaking of the floorboards as he tiptoes out of the room. If he can’t sleep, he can at least borrow Palm’s cocoa tin while she’s not awake to chastise him about how much sugar he puts in his hot chocolate. He’s an adult, with a paying job and a solid following on social media. He can drink as much sugar as he likes.

Killua gets halfway down the stairs when a familiar frizz of static settles over his skin. He spins and nearly catches the hem of his quilts, hissing a curse as he struggles to not tumble down the stairs. Maybe it’s the magic his family buried in his blood, or maybe it’s being around the storm for too long, but Killua knows exactly where Gon is.

Worry drains out of his shoulders before he realizes he was carrying it. Not like Gon would leave. It’s silly to think that the house was quiet because Gon left. Gon would have said something first, because he’s loud and energetic and bleeds with his emotions. Killua never had anything to worry about.

...Hot cocoa comes first.

A pot of boiled water later, Killua follows the gentle static through the chilly air up to the roof. As the panel drops back to the shingles, the storm jolts up, smile bright enough to see even in the moonless night. “Killua!” he says, voice too loud for the silence.

Killua smiles despite himself. “Hey Gon. Can you give me a hand?”

A warm wind stirs around them both warningly. But this time Gon decides to not use a small tornado to lift Killua, instead taking both mugs of hot cocoa to let Killua scramble onto the tiles. “Why are you still awake?”

Killua shrugs, carefully rearranging the blankets around his shoulders so he can sit comfortably. “Couldn’t sleep. Why are you here tonight and not running off? And gimme my cocoa.”

“Didn’t feel like it,” Gon says, and hands over one of the mugs before taking a sip of his own. “This is a lot of sugar, Killua.”

“I can have as much sugar as I want. Not like I’m going to sleep anytime soon.” He takes a long slurp, ignoring how Gon snickers. “You don’t even try to sleep. I know storms don’t sleep, but you’re in a human body. Do you not want to try?”

“Maybe someday.” He leans against Killua, and his skin is unnaturally warm through his favorite jacket. “You seem to like it.”

“I don’t like it, but I have to. Sleep deprivation sucks.”

Gon hums, and the cold night air vibrates. “I could sleep with you?”

Killua spits out his cocoa. “That’s--Gon, there’s sleeping, and then there’s sleeping, and you don’t know… What are you--?”

Gon is laughing openly now, and a warm breeze wraps around both of them like an extra blanket. Killua decides storms are assholes. Or at least this one is. So he swipes the second mug of hot cocoa and downs it in a single go, glaring at Gon all the while.

The storm pouts. Killua does not notice how cute it is. Storms aren’t cute. At least, not this one. Kirk was cute, in a Tropical Storm funny postings from the national weather service sort of way. Anthropomorphic storms with constellations of freckles and big brown eyes and a laugh that makes Killua’s heart pound--those aren’t cute.

Vengeance exacted and hot cocoa gone, Killua settles back into his cocoon of blankets, and Gon returns to his spot at Killua’s side, head leaning against the quilts approximately around Killua’s shoulder. “I didn’t want to go to the forest tonight because the stars were talking,” Gon says.

Killua blinks. “I didn’t hear anything.”

“Exactly! They speak in silence, and sometimes you can figure out what they’re talking about. Listen.” Gon points up at the night sky. Stretched out above them is a canopy of stars, unblemished and bright against inky darkness. Some are brilliant, massive orbs of burning gas lightyears away but sparkling like gemstones. Others are scattered like dust, too far away to gather together. All of them are so far away. But above Killua, they almost seem close enough to touch.

He wonders what Gon hears in them.

“I can’t hear anything,” Killua finally whispers.

Gon nods. “That’s okay. I didn’t figure out how to listen to them for a long time, either.”

“Oh.”

They’re quiet awhile longer, Gon listening to the stars and Killua listening to the breeze. Up here, it’s easier to hear the gentle patterns of wind swirling around Gon, the storm’s summery warmth pulling at the evening chill. Occasionally, the shingles will tremble, or the half-plowed fields will rustle below. The night’s quiet, but not silent. Not with Gon around.

Killua is starting to doze when the storm laughs, a weirdly rueful noise that echoes through the roof, vibrating the shingles beneath them. “I’m awake,” he mutters.

“Oh, sorry, Killua.” There’s a strange look in Gon’s eyes, and not the sort of look where his sclera are bright gold. This look is practically human, piercing and patient and just a dash of nerves.

So Killua pokes him in the side, firmly. “Out with it,” he says. “You didn’t wake me up for nothing.”

“I didn’t mean to,” Gon says. He’s still staring at Killua with that weird look. His hands start to reach for something, but stop halfway there and tangle in the quilts. Killua can taste the static in the air, getting denser by the second. “Killua, can I kiss you?”

Whatever Killua had been expecting, that isn’t it. Gon’s always full of surprises--that he’s a storm, that he loves the world around him and always wants more out of it. He makes everyone around him look at the world differently, because Gon can’t help but see things sideways, or from far away, or from much too close. Gon is interesting. Has been since the day they met. It’s why their friendship became so strong so fast, and Killua’s been happy with it. But Killua never even considered that Gon might want more from Killua.

Not least because Killua wants to kiss Gon.

He wants to kiss Gon.

“Why?” he blurts, and immediately wishes he’d said anything else.

Gon shrugs, a small smile on his face. “I want to.”

Killua’s mouth opens and shuts without letting out any sound. Maybe he’s curious, one more human thing for the storm to learn. Has Gon even kissed anyone before? He must have, if he’s a storm, and he looks like he does, and at least he’s seen people kissing before. And Killua doesn’t want to just think about what it would be like, kissing someone made of wind and lightning and summer.

Would kissing Gon call down a storm? Would Killua even care if he’s struck by lightning again? He can handle it, magic channeling electricity through him like a battery. And if he can handle that, he can handle...

Gon’s smile wanes a little. “If you don’t want to, that’s okay,” he says. “I’m not--”

“Okay.”

Gon blinks, and his grin is back in full force. “Really?”

Killua shoves aside as much of his blankets as he can afford to, and covers the storm’s hands with his own. Almost immediately, a current runs between them, and the hair on the back of Killua’s neck stands straight up. “Yes, you idiot. Have you even done this before?”

As a response, Gon kisses him.

It’s incredibly chaste, barely the press of skin on skin. But Killua’s breath catches in his throat, unable to escape as their lips move gently against each other. Even if Gon’s never kissed anyone before, or has kissed as many people as Killua has, this is theirs. No one else could kiss a storm and fill their lungs with electricity, no one else would be stupid enough or brave enough or wanting enough. Killua wants to be the only one. A sudden wind curls around them, tugging at the blankets and sending Killua’s hair into immediate disarray. Like everything else about him, Gon’s kiss is warm, and his fingers tangle with Killua’s, grounding them to each other, a promise that he won’t go anywhere, at least for now.

They pull apart slowly. When Killua leans his forehead against Gon’s, a spark of static jumping from his skin to Gon’s and making the storm’s hair stand up even more than usual. And brighter than the starlight, Gon’s brown eyes are shot through with a burning, brilliant gold.

Small clouds drift and coil overhead, and Gon whispers, “Thanks, Killua.”

Killua coughs a broken laugh, his cheeks on fire. “Only you would thank someone for that. It’s just a kiss.”

“It’s not just a kiss!” Gon says.

Killua flops onto his back, using his quilts to soften the fall. Gon curls up against him, spiky hair tickling Killua’s chin and gold fading away from his eyes. But Killua can’t look away. “Then what’s it supposed to be?” he asks.

The storm turns back to the sky, a smile on his face and a chill in the air. “It’s a kiss from you, Killua.”

And Killua can hear the stars singing.

[zaoldyeck]

What are some of your brotps from the franchises you are currently a fan of and why?

That’s... a little wide, i’m into a lot of franchises and i have a lot of brotps, i’ll try to narrow it down to just the main ones, also the ones i don’t ship romantically, bc many of my otps are brotps too but then the list would be endless. Also most of them are M/F bc i just love a good friendship between a girl and a guy without them forcing a romance and some good ol’ mlm/wlw solidarity

Digimon

Taichi x Yamato x Sora

Ken x Hikari

Daisuke x Miyako

Ruki x Takato

Eri x Astra

Hunter x Hunter

Killua x Canary

Killua x Ikalgo

Kurapika x Senritsu

Gon x Killua x Bisky

The entire phantom troupe

Tales of

Yuri x Patty

Yuri x Judith (i like them being friends with benefits too though)

Rose x Sorey

Rose x Lailah

Luke x Asch

Yuri x Luke

Edna x Jade (thanks the rays)

Persona

Yusuke x Haru (PLEASE give me more of them p5r)

Makoto x Futaba

Joker x Morgana

Chie x Yosuke

Shinji x Koromaru

Yusuke x Yukiko

Naoto x Akechi

Kanji x Morgana

The 4 protags in PQ

Lisa x Eikichi

Fire Emblem

Henry x literally everyone

the Nohr siblings

I’m sure there’s more but i drew a blank

Kimetsu no Yaiba

Inosuke x Nezuko

Inosuke x Kanao

Shinobu x Kanao

Shinobu x Giyuu

Tanjirou x Genya

Fullmetal Alchemist

Ed x Al (obviously)

Ed x Ling

Greed x Ling

Roy x Olivier

Riza x Hayate

Winry x Eliza

[mimzilla]

Hi there! Three questions: What things do you think Gon and Killua need to work on respectively before they reunite? Do you think they are keeping in touch? And how do you hope/imagine their reunion and post reunion bond to play out?

I’m going to append this other ask onto these three questions, because it links up with the third one pretty neatly!

tl;dr: This is so long I’m dying Squirtle

Actual tl;dr: Gon’s had a failed coming-of-age story arc, and is at the beginning of a new one about who he wants to be. Killua’s arc focuses on his dependence on other people’s approval, so he needs to develop an identity separate from what others need from him. I think they aren’t actively not talking to each other, and I hope Alluka knocks some sense into these ridiculous boys.

Mild warning for minor post-ending-of-the-anime manga spoilers.

Busting out the big guns right at the start, huh? I’m doing my stretches. Let’s dance.

Gon is really interesting to think about, because his ‘hero’s journey’ is… done. He had a goal, struggled to overcome insurmountable odds to meet it, did overcome them through determination and sacrifice, and returned home in the end. So now what? He’s lost his Nen, which Hunters are said to need in order to truly be Hunters, but having taken the exam he’s also a Hunter for life. He’s landed in a grey area, not quite a Hunter and not quite a civilian. And I certainly hope he doesn’t just do the same stuff over again, because that would be kind of boring.

What I want for Gon is for the narrative to explore his story as a coming-of-age arc, because while his hero’s journey has reached the end of its circle his coming-of-age story has only just hit its climactic point. These stories follow a different arc, where the protagonist starts out suffering an emotional loss that compels them to journey in search of answers; they struggle through obstacles that contribute to their maturation; and in the end, their greatest obstacle is to overcome their own perspective on the question they’re asking.

Gon starts out with a very obvious emotional loss: he learns that Ging chose to leave him behind on Whale Island. The answer he’s seeking is to the question “What is it Ging is searching for that is more important than me?” He matures both in terms of his strength (learning Nen and developing his own fighting style) and in terms of encountering/being confronted by worldviews different from his own (e.g. meeting all his friends for the former, the Troupe truly loving one another and Pitou being more than a mindless killer for the latter). He doesn’t overcome the climactic last challenge, in fact he fails rather spectacularly. He can’t let go of his own perspective on the world, and as a result he hurts both himself and his most intimate friend.

As far as I’m concerned, that’s a good thing. It’s brilliant. The series builds a stunning structure of Jenga blocks atop Gon’s black-and-white perspective that wobbles (the Troupe love each other) and has new pieces added to it through the story (the Greed Island players killing each other is an expected part of the game), but doesn’t topple until he’s faced with a truth almost impossible to carry that kicks his foundation out from under him.

It’s really hard to actually accept and believe that the people who hurt you aren’t purely malicious. I don’t want to get into real world examples all that much, but suffice to say that ‘good’ people are capable of doing evil things and people with intensely bigoted views are also fully able to feel genuine love for others. It doesn’t mean they’re secretly actually not bigoted, or their views should be discarded as superfluous to who they are. It just means they’re people. Cruel people are still fully people.

Continuing on with the anime talk…

So Gon’s tower of metaphorical Jenga blocks has fallen. The prospective climax of his coming-of-age story falters and falls into a valley. Soon after, the climax of his hero’s journey… is abruptly handed to him. He doesn’t find Ging, Ging’s just there. Neither of them are ready to meet this way, for good reason; according to a standard story structure, Ging flat-out shouldn’t be there yet. Gon’s not ready to meet him, hasn’t completely faced the challenge of finding him, hasn’t come into his own. It’s jarring, out of place. It’s doesn’t match up to the structure of a hero’s journey.

But as another obstacle in a coming-of-age story, it’s perfect. Gon has seen enough of the world and learned enough to approach the question “What did Ging leave me in favor of?” anew. And here’s Ging, able to answer it directly.

Gon’s emotional collapse at the end of the Chimera Ant arc is beautiful (narratively speaking…) because it functions as a new coming-of-age story’s beginning. He knows what it’s like to be a Hunter, has experienced its joys and agonies for himself. He can answer the question he started out with, and does form the bond with Ging he’s sought from the start. But his story doesn’t end, because he hasn’t come of age yet.

He befriends Ging… but that’s all. The validation and intimacy he chased after isn’t quite there. He doesn’t even feel much drive to stay with Ging for long, and says the only thing that could convince him to chase Ging for any longer would be being able to feel how powerful a Nen user Ging is, which Gon can no longer do. Meeting Ging doesn’t truly conclude either of Gon’s arcs, and Gon is now home again, where the hero’s journey both ends and begins. Because Gon went through his emotional crisis, he has the tools to recognize the new question before him.

We know that Ging has accomplished great things. He’s restored sprawling ruins and uncovered who knows how many historical secrets that might otherwise have been lost forever. Satotz looks up to him as an inspiration and a mysterious figure within the Hunter Association. He’s influential enough to be partially in control of the Hunter Association (until he peaces out, anyway). He also acts like an asshole to basically everybody, is hugely manipulative, and makes the two people with the closest familial ties to him chase his footsteps to prove themselves worthy of his respect.

Gon, with his new perspective, faces a new question.

“Do I want to live my life like Ging has lived his?”

That sure was long-winded, wasn’t it? Phew. It only sort of answers the question, too. Whoops. Moving on…

There’s a character trait among Aristotelian tragic heroes that if one wants to sound smart is called “Hamartia” and if one wants to be understood is called a “fatal flaw”. I’m not going to adhere exactly to the fatal flaw as it works in Aristotelian plays, but suffice to say that a fatal flaw is a trait the hero possesses that leads them to their own downfall. For example, Gon’s black-and-white worldview is a fatal flaw that leads him to his breakdown.

Killua’s fatal flaw is basing his own self-worth on being important to other people.

Killua never really struggles with specifically not being an assassin. He just decides to stop. The ground-in bloodlust and mechanical killing instinct that rear their heads on rare occasion seem quite firmly within his control. It’s something else that’s held over from his childhood and the way his family raised him: being used as a tool.

Writing that first bit took a bit out of me, energy-wise, so I’ll just cliff notes this one, maybe...

Killua is, shall we say, in the habit of thinking of himself as something useful to other people

Even as powerful assassins, the Zoldycks largely just do what whoever hires them tell them to do

Illumi’s needle is a direct example of this

His goals from the start have just been “Escape his family” and “Help Gon achieve his goal of meeting Ging”

His second goal has now been achieved: he helped Gon meet Ging. This is one of the reasons playing into his decision to leave, since staying would get Gon mixed up in his primary goal of escaping/getting rid of the other Zoldycks. Alluka’s... “supplanting”? That’s not the right word for it but whatever, Gon in Killua’s priority list is emblematic of this

His helping Gon is different from his doing what his family tells him because he actively wants to help Gon. Just wanted to make that point

All the same, his affection for Gon is part of what keeps him in this self-destructive mindset

That Alluka can directly empathize with this mindset, having been held captive and literally having magic powers that depend on other people making wishes, means (I hope) that she and Killua together can have some adventures and grow into their own autonomy

Were I to posit a coming-of-age story question for Killua to be searching for an answer to, it would probably be something like “Separate from what other people need from me, what do I want to do with my life?”

 As for the other stuff-

I don’t think they’re keeping in touch, at least not regularly, but I think they definitely do both have an understanding that they can call on each other for help if they need it. Gon references what Kite tells him - that whatever changes have happened, they still are and always will be friends. And friends help each other when it’s needed! Killua does his tsundere thing and makes a fuss to Ikalgo about Ikalgo so much as thanking Killua for his help, because to Killua it’s not something that even needs saying. Of course he’ll help his friends. This no doubt still holds for his friendship with Gon. So maybe not sending each other weekly updates, but I also don’t think they’d deliberately avoid speaking to each other.

I’d say that both Gon and Killua agreed to split up with the understanding that it wouldn’t be the last time they’d see each other. Whether either of them have an outright plan to link up again and travel together indefinitely, it’s hard to say; I kind of doubt it, mostly because there hasn’t been much discussion for either of them on practical long-term plans. Killua has escaping his family, but he’ll need something to do after that as well. Gon’s back on Whale Island doing homework (bless his heart), and now that he’s met Ging who knows where he’ll turn his eyes next.

Personally, I really want Alluka to play an important role in getting Killua to a place where he can be totally secure and happy with Gon again. Partly because she’s already proven herself capable of asserting herself and setting him straight, partly because she needs some good ass character development herself (and her establishing independence would be huge in helping Killua establish HIS), partly because she has that great line about letting Killua go play with Gon again once she’s had her fill.

It’s kind of hard for me to say what exactly I want their reunion to be like because it relies so heavily on what they do in the meantime, and there’s not much to work with there yet. I love drama, so some dramatic circumstances and tension would be nice. A big ol’ emotionally cathartic payoff when they see each other again.

I guess I can’t really offer anything concrete in the way of their post-reunion bond, firstly because it’s hard to imagine them interacting in a way that’s really different from their canon relationship, and secondly because if I start going down that road it’ll be fanfiction city, baby. And I live there, but if we’re talking about stuff I actually consider canon… who knows! I’m looking forward to it.

[icharchivist]

I always thought Killua befriending Ikalgo was adorable. What traits do you think a person has to exhibit for Killua to consider them a friend or friend-worthy?

Heya!!

Oooh yes, this was adorable!!  It was honestly lovely and i’m so happy for Killua. He is starting to open up to people outside of Gon and it shows a positive evolution. Allowing himself to have friends is such a big step away from his family’s rules and abuses, i’m so proud of him.

Killua so far considers Gon, likely Kurapika and Leorio, Ikalgo, and Palm too as his friends.

I think Killua would seek comrades, companions who can understand him, and people who helped as he was vulnerable.

He found Ikalgo cool, because Ikalgo was “ride or die” with his comrades - it’s his sense of companionship that had Killua respects him. Then, when Ikalgo shifted this sense of companionship on Killua, and saw that Ikalgo was ready to give up on his companions of circumstances for someone who would see his worth, Killua welcomed him with opened arms.

For Palm, for exemple, Killua mentions them being friends after they’ve been working around the castle together. Palm had then witnessed Killua’s breakdown, and had reassured him telling him that Killua had the power to help people out - and especially reassuring him about Gon when Killua needed it the most. They were acting like comrades in arms then, but I think Killua was valuing also how her loyauty could go pass the Ants control, and how she valued his presence.

For Gon, it was Gon’s lack of judgement about who Killua was that drove Killua even closer to him - Gon appreciating everything about Killua and them sharing time together. At this point, Killua didn’t have anything set about what he wanted in friends, he just knew he liked being around Gon - but then Gon came up to save him from his family’s torture and I think Killua was grateful Gon was this much there for him. Everytime Killua has a huge reaction to Gon is when Gon is reassuring him and valuing him as a friend, and exposing how important Killua is for him.

As for Kurapika and Leorio, he never actually worded it, but considering their kinships in the YN arc, it would be fair to assume they are as well. In which case, both of them also saw him as he was breaking down in front of Illumi and were part of the rescue missions to help Killua.

I think Killua seeks reassurance - that his actions are liked and welcomed. He seeks people who will accept his vulnerability, and who would help him out of it. For people to not be judgemental. 

Aside from that, he also seems to get along with strong personalities. People who stand by their words, who are able to answer to him when he is angry and not get scared of him, people who will bicker with him without any hard feelings. People who can stand up to him without actually hurting him either. People who are usually honest as well.

I think there are so so much more but it’s a bit hard for me to exactly point it out. I think he’s especially seeking for people who values bound and friendships as much as he does, people who would accept him and wouldn’t make him feel bad about anything. 

And I especially think he’s been opening up more to people since the removal of the needle and is feeling much more comfortable about doing so.

Take care!

[minimalaifu]

Question time! What are some of your favorite hunter x hunter moments from the anime/manga?

My fav scene in 99 is when Killua answered Gon is the most interesting applicant in Netero’s interview, then he saw an apple in front of him when he got out and suddenly Gon snatched it with his rod, took a bite on it and winked! Killua then ran to him and took the apple and bit on it too, they look so happy together, it made my heart so warm :’) I aspired to have such friendship because of them. Also when they parted waysafter the exam, but Leorio and Kurapika got back to Gon to help rescue Killua~ The ost playing was also my fav :’)

In the manga, I came to like york new arc as much as chimera ant arc and the scene which Kurapika said he’s blessed with good friends moved me ;; I also loved how Komugi asked Meruem’s name, it was very shoujo :)) Ikalgo! Neferpitou crying! ;; Gon’s pinkie swear and most beautiful bouquet in the world~ >w

In the remake, i related how there’s a ‘reality call’ in such friendship. But even so, I was glad to meet the friends I had, and so, the last moments when Ging said the final quote, and all of Gon’s closest friends flashed on Gon’s mind, I had a bittersweet sting in my kokoro :’) Also, Gon appearing before Leorio with unpleasant atmosphere first, then turned to a very heartwarming reunion was pretty amazing :’) Also Gon saying he didn’t want to hurt the tree >w