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ophelia-bloodletting · 3 months

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volivolition · 2 months

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✨ thinking of him thursdayyyy ✨ (<- said in a monotone deadpan with jazz hands)

#volition thoughts. as usual. (sorry im so fucking deadpan all of a sudden hello lmao? probably bc i need to sleep.)#hey. volition ship captain and echem as a siren. what then huh. he's already like an octopus AND its mermay.#(<- will not act on this thought in the slightest but know that i am thinking it in the back of my mind)#i think they're lost at sea and the sirens keep singing and volition's losing more and more crew but he's fuckin volition so of course he's #not falling for it. but its okay in the end the sirens are just leading them back to land because my god give them happy endings. please.#concept and suggest would also be sirens i think. ency and logic are navigators. volta do mar should be here because i say so.#volta and kinetic dressage are little fairies then that help volition with sanity/the ship. who can stop me im not even making this.#anyway VOLITION. i am totally normal about him and 95% of my brainspace is definitely not occupied by thinking about him.#jesus ive been so tired lately (its! the! ✨ chronic fatigue! ✨) i WANT TO DRAW but i am. too tired. writing is easier...#but i want to draw so many volition things. hmgbmbbb... i want him to be loved... which in retrospect is fucking silly he is a character.#okay vision's straight up going unfocused so we're done here goodnight. o7 #chemi chats

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thatoneluckybee · 4 months

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i need to draw the new strawberrry cake girl or im gonna d i e

#I am school i cannot :(#And i. Wouldn't even share it on tumblr cause i am so paranoid of having an irl find my blog #But i need to do this so much #fambles #im l osing it at 12:07pm on a tuesday #Update I am still eepy cause again i did not get to sleep much but hyperfixation hath awoken me >:3 i must THEORIZE AND PREDICT #And im not dying as much as I was this morning 👍 if im still like. Owowowooww by tomorrow or late tonight doctor but like its #Going away kinda.#I get strange health things often just wait it out :^#Rambles #SHE LOOKS SO DHEKNWHAJSJSJN #i am going to theatre kid cringe in the yttd fandom because guys guys the curtains and the stage match up she's dressed like a rich #Theatre goer or almost like she's a puppet or a marionette or the puppeteer #I'm gonna lose it i love her aesthetic and design and shhsbsjsjsnnsnansnnsnannbb #Two sides of my I LOVE THIS #dark purples and my edgy middle school phase #And pastel pink with her SKIRT AND FRILLS AND HER RIBBONS AND

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allbeendonebefore · 4 months

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i really really want to be home and sleep in my own bed and do my little edmonton things and stuff but also tabling for work is starting up again and im like myyyrrrhhgh the idea of going to the science centre for the adult night within a week of my return just makes me So Tired in my SOUL

#its on like The Science of Sex tm so like #im already tired based on it being late and people drinking and probably having to yell over music #and undoubtedly they always seem to schedule these things like #for the exact time of the month that my body is going to knock me out #also i know theres the oh Hahaha Pride is Every Month :)#but also pride is literally every month now it seems and im so tired #like march?? macewan has their pride week in march???#i get it because its during the semester but also the gays are sleeping ok #the gays need time to do this research first ok #also 2 ace 4 this im so eepy #personal hapo #hapo's workventures #i joke that oh haha im not a real adult but sometimes i really Do Not Vibe #Adult ALWAYS means drunk sexy people at these events and loud music and my bedtime is before 10 ok #i should respond to this email #ohhh hahaha its a little short notice for me i have to by groceries and eat them hahaaa

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sk3l3t0n444 · 8 months

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yk the depression is hitting hard when you dont even have the energy to watching you favorite movies :(

#i really need to stop venting in the tags of my posts but ykw who cares #but yk when you grow up and the holidays dont feel special anymore?#like i fucking love halloween but lately i havent had the motivation to care about anything really #like if im being honest i just wanna sleep through today because nothing fucking makes me happy anymore #i just want to feel joy again #like time keeps going to fast for me #cant time just fucking slow down #i fucking blink and boom its been 4 years #just can time please fucking stop #remember when you were young about you couldnt wait ti grow up and now adulthood is practically right around the corner and you wanna scream #ANYWAYS

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ilonacho · 8 months

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it hit me what makes me the most miserable abt my work week is how it’s just school all over again. just hanging in there until the weekend. repeat. repeat. repeat

#5 outta 7 days im at work. 2 days of freedom #2 days to do chores n run errands n relax n sleep n draw n catch up w/ friends n go places #and if u gotta reschedule itll be weeks before ur available again #like for months now ive tried to get together w/ friends but our days off dont match n shit keeps coming up #not to mention im fucking tired! im exhausted! i want to sleep in and then draw the rest of the day!#i think the worst part is that back in school.. at least it didnt matter as much? because it all led to an end aka graduation?#like i didnt mind the wait for next weekend as much cuz it was temporary #like eventually ill graduate and then ill have freedom! (i thought? for some reason??)#but now its like.. the weeks are going by so fast this year is already almost over i turn 26 in 2 weeks #and this is.. the rest of my life? like youre kidding right? this cant be it?#i get off work n then i have to take care of the cats n chores n then eat dinner n then shower n then its late and i gotta sleep #before work the next day. i dont have time nor energy to rly do anything #and ill get that feeling of like. oh well at least it brings me closer to the next ‘weekend’#but i dont wanna live weekend to weekend #i mean im thankful to have a job n coworkers i love like i truly hate it there sometimes but i also am happy and thankful for it #but yknow.. it shouldnt have to be like this #i worded this so much better in the shower but im tired of feeling like school part 2 like what the fuck man #ive had work every single day since we came back from our trip n i just dont have time/energy for anything #i need to open commissions back up but i havent even gotten around to starting one a friend asked for #not to mention this years christmas card ive barely got the sketch done for #and again. my favourite holiday. halloween is on tuesday and while we did plan halloweeny stuff it just has not felt like halloween #i havent had any ideas/energy/time for any halloweeny art #+chores n errands etc lmao we havent even been to the grocery store yet (calling us out here)#it just. suuuuucks aaaaaass man the world is so beautiful life is a gift i dont wanna spend it like this

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robocops-a-christ-allegory · 5 months

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Somebodys gonna have to tell professors you cant actually be like pro mental health for students and then dock peoples grades for not showing up to class.

#Its a hard pill to swallow but a student struggling with mental health does often look identical to someone that 'just doesnt care'#I looked fucking BAD in my last year of college. Like most of my professors probably thought #I was a fucking loser because I was literally falling apart and like #skipping class all the time and always leaving early always coming in late #because I like. Couldnt go to sleep earlier then 5am and had morning classes #Because I was fucking falling apart #I dunno I think about it alot. Im still pretty glad I dropped out.#At least I dont have people grading me telling me they understand how it feels to be depressed but I need to just try a little harder

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cwarscars · 1 year

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(( i’ve seen a lot of people lately on my dash going through rough times - i don’t entirely know the extent of each one, how you’re feeling or dealing with the situation. i haven’t reached out because of a combination of being ill lately (i’m feeling better now) and the grief still being pretty raw but,

i want you to know that my askbox / ims / discord ( hanʕ ᵒ ᴥ ᵒʔ#3428 ) is always available should you need to chat. whether it’s screaming into the void, throwing a bunch of thoughts together, venting or just being distracted - you are absolutely and entirely welcome to come and talk to me. i will lend you an ear, i will try and offer advice (if wanted), i will lend you my virtual shoulder.

lately, i know how it’s felt to grieve & i’ve come to realise that it’s a unique sort of sadness (different to depression but also...really similar) - i know it can feel like you look at your friends, family, online buddies, everyone & you might think ‘i don’t know /who/ i can speak to’ - well, as said, this is my post offering you that outlet. even if you want to write me an anonymous message unloading your thoughts, you can. i wont post or reply to it, i’ll save it or delete it if you want me to. just, i want you all to know that there’s a place here for you.

and for the peeps who aren’t going through anything right now, who are having the times of their lives or are getting good news. good. don’t feel guilty posting or gushing about it. don’t feel you can’t celebrate your accomplishments or good times because others aren’t doing too hot. it’s alright, we understand. we’re your mates or partners and all we want is for each to be content and be happy.

so yeah, just keep it in mind. i might suck at replying to memes, general messages & plotting but if somebody needs to talk / vent / be upset / happy or anything else, i will absolutely listen to you & do my best to be there for you.

i’m sorry from the bottom of my heart that so many of my mutuals are suffering lately. my thoughts are absolutely with you all. ))

#(psa)#(ooc)#this has been hard lately #because while it's been four weeks now since my dad's passing im still in a rut #and ive been sleeping a lot and crashing and logging on and seeing others going through the same - fuck #ive felt such a mix of emotions lately and it's been incredibly raw so i want you to know like i /KNOW/ how you feel #i get it so hard and it hurts a lot #but you're not alone not for a second #and in terms of whether its grief or just a bad time or mental health or bad news #its all valid - you're allowed to be upset and you're allowed to scream about it #i always say 'rp is just a hobby' which it is but the people behind the screen?#real humans who need love and care #im with you guys

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mylas-stash · 9 months

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OK BUT SERIOUSLY. I REALLY APPRECIATE THE PEOPLE WHO REBLOG MY ART WITH FUNNY TAGS AND/OR JUST TAG THEM AS #FAV/#INSPO

It's really hard to explain because my grammar is such shit right now but.

Thank you guys?? You silly people on my phone never fail to make me so happy and jump across the room whenever I get a notification like that because it motivates me to keep on posting art and keep on posting here on tumblr in general

what tumblr does to a self-taught artist fr.../Positive

#felt like i had to say rhis just in case #Im worried i might come off as insincere when reallt im just happy when it comes to stuff like this #Hell. even likes on my posts make my day #focusing on reblogs specifically though because its fun seeing what people have to say if they do lol #amywaysy see you guys in a couple more hours because im tired of posting rn #i probably eont have to make a post like this in the future though because. i just said what i needed to say right here right now #but. just to let you guys know how i feel #its getting late so im going to go sleep right now #see ya'll tommorow ^_^#not art

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sonknuxadow · 9 months

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not gonna lie it is kinda bugging me not knowing When the sonic frontiers update is going to happen. because i wanna play it as soon as possible. but i dont know when that is

#i remember for both sonic prime episode drops i stayed up until 2am to watch them as soon as they were available #and i have absolutely nothing to do on thursday or friday so im perfectly willing to do that again #idk if im gonna need those full 2 days though im assuming that the dlc is gonna be a lot shorter than the full game #considering. it starts near the end of the original story #but anyways i WILL ruin my sleep schedule for sonic #but i dont wanna stay up that late just for the update to not happen at that time . you know #if its coming out the next morning id rather just go to sleep early and then wake up early for it #and also if its coming out in the like midnight to 2am time range id like to move my switch dock to my room #but. if it comes out later in the day id rather just leave it. because the living room tv is bigger #handheld mode is not an option i said this before but one of my joycons is messed up and nothing im doing is fixing it #so im basically stuck in tv or tabletop mode forever and ever because i dont feel like buying another pair #when the whole reason i have this pair is because my old pair had really bad drift #ive literally never had this much trouble with controllers on any console before. its just the switch that keeps doing this. hello

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boomingsmile · 1 year

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who gave sharp the audacity to be so kind, loving, sweetest person. D:< no amount of words i can put up will ever be able to contain the vibe he has; i desperately need a drink with him and i dont even drink and he doesn't even exist!

#smiletalks #ipeak #that man...............#that man instantly turns any of my ideas into a therapy session; hang on i wrote a fic in tags again #im working on a fic and it has 4.4k words chap where it's just him and mc talking through some ministry related topics #she s been down lately because interrogations took a toll on her despite not leaving a slightest shadow on her marks #sharp isnt pleased she used studying as a method for coping with everything #and it didnt escape him mc didnt want to think farther than her owls or rather the day she will leave the school for the summer break #WHICH HAD CAULDRON OF THE PROBLEMS POTION OF ITS OWN #tldr; mc is an incredibility tough for her age but crucially inexperienced to hold up the pressure put on her #and the amount of decision making #gurl is tired #let her sleep bring back the happy-go-lucky kid she used to be #WRITING FICS IN THE TAGS AGAIN.#idc ill keep on so sharp is wlling to save the day #“She might have grown up faster than her peers -- which shouldn't at all matter for her inner child still enjoys pumpkin fizz and snidgets”#“Although her penchant for brandy worries me. Why would a 16 years old young witch need so much?.. DOES SHE SMUGGLE UNDER MY WATCH. PEEVES?#“nvm turned out she has a granian somewhere; evidently it was stolen by poachers and kept in misery until taken into her care.”#“Also the reason her shoulder was dislocated a couple of weeks ago; *dares not mention he needed its hair; gets it for birthday as a gift*”#*doesnt know what to do absolutely flustered and loosing it but thanking mc she sent a package rather than handed it after class*#*or hed refused it or talked a way out of such a convenience*#*FAVORS MUST REPAY*#*his turn of not accepting refusals now*#“Always a pleasure to have students with high standards for discipline. Although. In her case -- someone needs to keep an eye on her.”#“We had a talk. Talks. We needed to be sure we'd pestered each other enough with 'silly questions for obvious answers' as she had put it.”#“I am up for the responsibility; her inverted sense of danger makes her jump at your presence Matilda I am so sorry I couldn't fix it in --#“-- in a few months. I truly mean an apology but neither of us should worry atm as her summer has been delegated to Mrs Sweeting.”#“I won 30 btw. Oh. Ask Dinah. Or Mirabel. I'm not disclosing until you know full details but I do wonder what were your suggestions.”#“........Thinking on it now how miserable I'd become should she chosen your nephew. Seeing is believing; she put up quite a play.”#“Until she blew everything up like an erumpent but I wouldn't say more. So.”

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k0kichiimagines · 2 years

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saerans "i get to be a father ill be a father who'll love his wife" ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️❤️❤️❤️

#no because i grew up listening to my parents fight in case i needed to go and protect my mum when i tell you that call made me sob #a father who loves his wife :((( <333 #its so sweet he'd be such a good parent he's an amazing s/o already #i love when men love their gfs / wives i hate the i hate my wife jokes i love men like saeran who love their wives #i can picture just lying in his arms with your small child flopped out on both of you #or the baby sleeping on him ☹️❤️#he has big hands too they'd look so tiny #imagine having a baby and seeing they have saerans smile waa #him teaching them how to bake cookies #him listening to their every word while they tell him all about their toys for the thirtieth time #he'd be so good when they're having a tantrum too i feel like while some days he may find it harder to deal with and ask you most of the #time he's able to calm them down so quickly #hes rlly good at reading emotions #i think he'd be able to be protective and yk like tell them not to do things firmly but also be so sweet #it's like with you hes so weak to the both of you but in a lighthearted way #i hope the babyd first word is baba or similar because could you imagine his eyes lighting up at hearing it #it makes my heart feel so full i love dad saeran #hes young too i think you and him would spend a few yesrs travelling and doing this and that and then have a child / children #like look you could spend a decade / almost a decade together if you wanted and then have children saeran would only be in late twenties

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possiblytracker · 2 years

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I should just sit down and get some of my commissions out the way this morning so I don't rapidly contract in on myself and implode anticlimatically before my copy of scarlet delivers

#hello its 8am i am up because my house doesn't have a safe place for parcels and if i miss the delivery and they take it back to the depot #i think i will lose it just a little bit #it is very cold now but im still not turning the heating on i don't want to pay for that shit. thinking abt investing in a heating pad #but that's smth to save up for so i don't burn the house down with a shit one #idk whether i will get much done of comms but i will try. tired as hell and ive been artblock ish lately #im working on it but it's smth i need to slowly coax my way out of by just chipping away at it i think #i have a bunch of comms *started* i just paused on all of them halfway thru the lineart for some reason. like 3 of them #so i need to just force myself to sit down and finish some of those #also trade. i have one old trade that's been on the backburner too long im sorRY i still haven't forgotten #gwuh this is a hell of a post but my meds haven't kicked in yet dbfSD im used to just going back to sleep after until they do but not today

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devotedlystrangewizard · 1 year

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as im getting closer & closer to the day that i will officially leave my hometown & go live with my dad i am starting to understand my ocs more

#avani most notably rn. bc shes actually my age and leaves behind everyone and everything she knows #having to grow up the rest of the way in an entirely different situation #because even if the situation youve been in for all your teen years has sucked ass the entire time its still.#its familiar? like. yk. familiar suffering is better than the unknown #personal #ive lived in that house my entire life. ive been with my dad for long stretches of time (all of summer break for instance) and it was fine #i KNOW i cant stay there. my mom's partner has actually physically hurt me and theyre both awful to me #and i also know that the only reason why its been somewhat good there lately is because i rarely speak to them anymore #that is not a house to live in! and i fucking love my dad. my stepsiblings. my stepmom!!#and its not even just the fact that im moving. right. i could probably handle that were it not for me also finishing high school.#i got financial support as a student whos 18+ while i was in high school. now its.#i need to get an income. in a region i barely know. being both physically & mentally disabled.#but not so disabled that im *incapable* of work!! which the law here asks for!!#(or i am and i just dont realize it because ive been working past my limits for so long ive forgotten what they are el em ay oh)#also ill miss my cat so fucking much #i love my dad's cats but shes special man #i miss her rn actually but im going back for the last time in a few days so #i was like. tearing up bc of the anxiety but then i remembered my cat and now im actively trying not to cry loudly #bc its. yk. almost 6 am and its almost waking up time for everyone here except me because. my school ended last month #its bedtime for me actually but i couldnt sleep because i was too busy crying over the fact that i am never going to get that room back #i miss being a child #at least back then it wasnt that complicated! i didnt know i was being mistreated when i was 11!#all of this doesnt even matter that much im just really bad with transitions. which is ironic. im transgender #though granted ive put off getting on that list for that exact reason. im scared of transitioning #like the moment im comfortably settled here and have a job and/or disability benefits. all of this will just be embarrassing #something to look back on and laugh. and then cry because i still miss my cat.

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livvyofthelake · 2 years

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i’ve seen enough rug cleaning videos to know what i’m talking about so i can say this knowledgeably. at what point is it like. not worth it. at what point are you just wasting water and your time and my time. at what point do you accept that the rug is never going to be completely clean. i hate it when they pull out like. a shower rug that’s just plain blue and they go over it like five times with the soap machine thingy and they hose it down ten times and there’s always more dirt because idk they pulled this out of a dump for tiktok views and it’s like. give it up bro no one likes this no one cares about that rug not you not the people that threw it out not the person that’s going to buy it from whatever thrift store you donate it to once you’ve filmed your video. certainly your viewers don’t like these tiny boring ass rugs. like wow the original color is beige. groundbreaking. you’re making these videos for hate views and we all know it just leave the rugs in the garbage oh my god. do better. sorry that your rug cleaning business needs to be financially supported with youtube and tiktok money but this isn’t the way…

#ok i need to go to sleep. also need to email my professor that this thing is gonna be turned in late because girl i did not type anything.#why is the deadline 8pm on a saturday anyway. girl i’ve got stuff to do #it’s whatever she seems chill as long as you get it in by sunday #also. i’ve done every other assignment for this woman on time and showed up to every class. so like. come on #and i have two classes with her. and i have done everything for both i have never missed a class i have never turned anything in late to her #she like. legally can’t be a dick about this right #also not to be a bitch but my second draft is going to be better than kevin’s. (her favorite). so.#have i complained about kevin here. his screenplay is not good. i hate it. i mean it’s good in the way that it’s not bad. but i hate it #it’s like a terrible la la land imitation and his protagonist fucking sucks #he wants me to think the protagonist is like passionate about his dream but everything he does comes off as like. he doesn’t have what it #takes and he’s pretending not to know it. because like he doesn’t have another plan outside of things just Working Out #he’s so average white guy its unreal. well. kevin is also an average white guy so.#but he’s our professor’s favorite little average white guy. apparently #like he seems like he should be better at this stuff and it really bothers me that his screenplay is so bad. man you actually make movies #you should be good at this? why aren’t you good at this? why is this an annoying la la land imitation?? what are you DOING #its masturbatory is what it is. actually. like i can’t SAY that to him in class but i’ve been thinking it the whole time. sorry man.#beth.txt #anyway. goodnight laptop goodnight unfinished work goodnight email i’m about to schedule for tomorrow at 12:27.

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stedesdimple · 2 years

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american insurance is just as evil as this country is

#cw eating #finding the very thin balance of eating very little to avoid pain and eating enough to avoid a migraine #if i don't eat for too long i get a killer migraine every time #but if i eat too much or stuff with too much fiber than i'm insanely bloated and in unimaginable pain #my balance is currently one mid-sized meal a day at around 11 am and then i'm ok #but i don't know what i'm going to do for work next week #its 8-4 and if i eat breakfast or lunch i'll be in pain #so i just need to make sure i eat RIGHT when i get home and then the worst of the pain will just be while i'm sleeping #all of this because of my fucking insurance #and crohn's disease but BECAUSE of my insurance i'm a month late for my infusion #if it weren't for migraines i'd just fucking never eat again

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