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What if...? Duskwood Chapter 37

Chapter 36 ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

*Macie POV*

I feel like a fool for getting so angry and nervous. But at the same time, the guilt of not having been paying attention drags me down. The more I talked to Thomas, the more I calmed down. He loves Hannah very much and fears that she is dead. Like Richy. He's freaking out every time we find out something else, powerless not to do something. I read the chat I've had with him.

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Thomas Hanna is dead. And so is Richy The others are just trying to ignore all the facts. And I’ve really tried But I can’t I just can’t do it anymore

Macie Thomas, listen to me Amy was found, but Hannah wasn’t This is a relatively good sign ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I try to believe the words I have sent him. I want to believe that Hannah is alive because of Jake and Lilly. Everything else doesn't matter to me. The matter with Jennifer has nothing to do with what I'm investigating, that's what the police will take care of when this is all over.

Thomas hates being in the house hiding and not being able to do anything. I know. I understand. I hated that I couldn't do anything for Jake when he wasn't around, and even though the I Am Jake article and photo worked, I felt like I didn't really do anything. Just hide behind words. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Thomas Macie? If you were Hannah If you had done something so horrible in your past Would you have told your partner? ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I keep reading the question. I don't think I've ever done anything wrong… I think… I don't want to blame myself for that. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Macie Yes I think I would And I would expect the same from my partner ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I watch Jake fixing access to the phone. He told me the truth. He told me that the government is persecuting him for getting into things where he shouldn't. Since then, I think that confidence in both has been improving.

I put my hand to my neck, but this time I don't think about the kidnapper, but about Jake, at bath time. Little by little we are getting closer, but... It seems that fate always interrupts us when we are about to get closer or I get nervous when he jokes. Will we ever break that barrier? "You are more calm?" He asks me from the computer. "Yes... I'm better... Sorry..." “Do not apologize, Macie” I hear him sigh “, I know I pushed you pressure on the phone, I am sorry." Well, at least he always ends up apologizing when he knows he makes mistakes. But I also know that this phone is important to communicate with the kidnapper. Without him, I cannot write to him. It is the only way to try to reason.

I get a message from the group and smile. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Cleo Right Dan and I are finally arrive

Macie Then you’re all there no

Cleo Yes 🙂

Dan What’s the stich? You got a free in bed or something?

Macie Haven't you been in bed long enough?

Dan I’ll give you that one ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Before arriving, they had taken a detour at the accident area. Dan's idea. The poor thing for having been in bed all this time that he had not been able to help us much. I can partly understand it, it's a bit boring to do nothing and be wanting.

Cleo has told me that she suspect that they have not kicked him out of the hospital already, but that he has left on his own and it would not surprise me at all, knowing how I have known Dan, I see him very capable of having done it. He would have to be doing rehabilitation to walk again. He's going to give me a nervous breakdown with this whole group at this rate.

I sit up in bed and look out the window. Night is starting to fall. The sun is already hiding. I let out a long, exaggerated melodramatic sigh. "It's been a long day, right?" I tell Jake. “I agree with you” he admits without looking up “even though it is ranked number two on the long-day list." "So there's a first." “Depending on how it ends, it will still be number two." He sounds very tired… I wish I could do something for him. I'm going to the forum again. I don't know how many posts I've read and commented on today but I think I've broken my record to my teenager ages. "Macie?" I look up when I hear him call me "I have done it" I get up from the bed, approaching him ". We have access to Hannah's cell phone again." “Good, that means I don't have to strangle Thomas.” I say as I hug him from behind, stroking his hair lovingly. "No, I suppose you can spare his life." he answers with a laugh. I roll my eyes, laughing too. I get a text and see it's Lilly. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Lilly Hi Macie I saw you were online I'm not interrupting you two anyway, am I?

Macie Mmm… I don't know I don't know….😜

Lilly 🤭

Macie No, don’t worry

Lilly I don't want to keep you But we’ve just lit the fire and Thomas just went to get his guitar So I wanted to give you two a heads-op so that you’ll be on your phone 🙂

Macie Thanks for letting us know, Lilly. That’s something we are not going to miss for the world 😁

Lilly Haha, right 🙂 I thought you two could do a with a bit of a distraction, too Like all of us Ok. I'll call you 🤭 ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

“I just read through Hannah's browsing history.” He moves to invite me to sit down and I do. Can I say without a doubt that I never need another seat in my entire life? Sitting on top of him is enough for me. "I already did that too." I smiled at him, wrapping my arms around his neck. He smiles proudly at me. Ah… It's good that it is for me… “One of the last pages Hannah visited was that of the Pine Glade festival.” He brings up the website, and I pay attention "Michael Hanson mentioned it in connection with his daughter disappearance." "Yes, I remember" I answered, remembering the audio with Alan "The Aurora was packed because of the festival, that’s why he had no time for Jennifer…” I drawl out slowly, until I remember why I was really here. Because of work. For the article. But not only that. It was something more important "Jake, that festival is tomorrow!" I see you frown, thinking. “I think you should ask the others about the Pine Glade festival” he commands me with a new task ", and the one ten years ago, to be exact." "Nobody will remember" I commented a little doubtfully ". Who knows how everyone was that day ten years ago..." "I sincerely hope not, but for trying" He brushes my hair back from my face, stroking me carefully ", and even if they remember only fragments, we must understand how this accident came to pass, and I believe that Hannah was probably at the festival with one of your friends." "Yeah, I think so too..." Lilly's video call interrupts us and I look at Jake, smiling. "Access my phone from the computer." I tell him excitedly. "Why?" What is happening? "Just do it, I promise to watch from my phone so they don't see you." He looks at me a little doubtfully, but he does. I accept the video call and the first thing I see is Thomas playing the guitar. The fire from the bonfire is like going through the screen, I can feel the heat. I smile when I see the quiet group and my gaze accidentally drifts to the computer, to see it much better. Jessy seems intent on listening to the guitar music, her eyes closed. Cleo seems to be thinking, surely Hannah and her mother, she had to leave Duskwood to protect herself. Then there's Dan, in his wheelchair drinking whiskey. I have to have a serious talk with him when I can, I'm quite worried about his health. But there they are all together... Protected... Calm...

I sigh when Thomas finishes and the video call hangs up. “Well then.” I hear Jake say. "Well, I like it." I commented, placing my head on his chest. I look up and see that he smiles. It's finally a relaxed moment for us too. "Let's give them a little more time to rest" I commented, not wanting to rush them by still asking about the festival "Just a little bit…" "Alright." “Which means” I rise from him, grinning “we deserve it too." He looks at me without much desire. "Come on Jake, you've been busy getting Hannah's phone back and I almost killed Thomas" he laughs and I continues "so we're going to have our own proper break, too." "Alright" I see that he puts on an interested look "And what is your plan?" “Let's dance” he rolls his eyes and I turn around to prepare one of my playlists "and I won't take no for an answer." When I turn to see him, I find him already standing before me, offering me his hand. I look at him shyly, I thought it was going to cost me, but no. What a surprise. I accept his hand and place the other on his shoulder, while he places one on my waist. We move slowly while Ed Sheeran's 'How do you feel' starts playing in the background. The atmosphere could not be more romantic. "You really would like to be with them right now, would you not?" He asks me slowly "I have seen it on your face." I make a face doubting whether to answer or not. But I can't fool you. "Yes, I’d like that a lot." I say a little sadly "I want to protect them." "They will be far from Duskwood, don't worry." "Wouldn't you like to be there too?" I ask at the same time that he makes me spin on the spot. I thought that he didn't know how to dance and that's why he had pouted. I wonder who taught him. “I think would feel incredibly out of place." "But you wouldn't be" I reach out to him, trying to wrap my arms around his neck, though I manage to grab my hands. But it's okay, because we're pretty close together "You’d be exactly where you belong" I whisper, looking into his eyes, little by little it's hard for me to breathe ", with them... With me..." Jake eases his hand down my face, up to my lips, resting his thumb under them. He fixes his eyes on mine, intense. He leans in slowly as he also tilts my chin up, our lips brushing against each other. "You give me the feeling of belonging somewhere for the first time in my life..." I don't know which of the two takes the step. I don't know if he or me. But finally our lips meet. It's a slow kiss, one of those you see in the movies and you don't want them to ever stop, because it was what you most expected to see. I try not to be clumsy, because I don't even remember how to kiss, I let him guide me a bit, although… I also notice him nervous.

In the end, we managed to calm our nerves and I even ran my hands through his hair, making sounds of satisfaction as I felt his tongue play with mine. Jake runs his hands down my back, down to below my waist. He pulls me so close to him that it's like I'm going to melt into his body.

There comes a time when we need air and with a little sadness we separate a little. I can see it in his eyes. The desire. Will he see them in mine too? As if he understood me, I nod and slowly we approach the bed. He takes his hands to my blouse and begins to unbutton it and while I unbutton his pants. We later exchanged the task, until we were exposed. He stares at me, running his hand over my shoulder. "Please…" I say, in a pleading voice "Please don't stop now…" “I wanted to completely admire you” he answers, slowly starting to lay me down on the bed ", I have never been with an angel." He takes my breath away listening to him speak. I don't hesitate to kiss him again, hugging him against my body.

It has been even better than in my dreams. Jake's hands have traveled all over my body, leaving no place without being caressed. And now I can say with more certainty that he is good with his hands. But it's not just that, it was because of the affection that he treated me, although his eyes looked hungry, he was as careful as possible, even when he left kisses on my neck, telling me that he was going to make me forget about the pain. Sometimes I even begged him to kiss me, I envy my body, it was being kissed by him, but my lips wanted another kiss. Another kiss that silenced my moans. Ah… He really knew how to handle the situation. Had he also dreamed of this? Had he wanted it too? I think from the way he pronounced my name, he seemed like he had been doing it all his life. Or so I wanted to believe.

I had finally felt contact with his skin. My hands had run up his back, I was lucky I have short fingernails or he would be marked by me from how tightly I gripped to him.

The music plays all over the room, it's romantic, slow. It's the perfect environment right now. I admire him as I lie on top of him and his hand slowly caresses my back. I can't stop smiling, I think I already know how it feels when you do things with love. "What are you thinking about?" He asks me, giving me a smile. "That I don't want tonight to end." I answered, approaching him a little more up to get to his face "And you?" I ask, tracing circles on his body. "That you are better than the government and everyone who is after me." he says with a laugh. "Why?" "Because you were the only one to catch me." I kissed him intensely after hearing his words. Jake tries to pull me closer to him, as if that's possible. There was not a gap between us. We were finally where we wanted. Together. If all the breaks we are going to have are like this, I think I will want to work a lot more to have this reward.

My phone rings and I complain. I didn't want the job so soon. "They claim you." he whispers into my lips. "They can wait." I replied, giving him little kisses. "Maybe it is about the case." I grumbled. He's right. It can be important. I sit up getting out of bed, then I fall into something for a moment. "Did you do it to see me standing up and naked?" I ask curiously. "No, I swear." He replies, sitting up on the bed. I frown, approaching him with the phone, seeing how he now smiles mischievously. I sit on top of him, kissing him again before seeing the message. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Dan What’s up honey ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

"It's Dan." I replied, resting my head on his chest. I listen as Jake grumbles, reading it. "Hey, I am going to take a shower, can you watch the computer?" He asks me, pointing "And so you talk a little with your friend." I hear how he drags the word and I laugh. "Okay, as soon as I'm done, I'll go." I replied, letting her get up. "Do not let him entertain you too much." I see his back as he picks up new clothes. The famous tattoo I can finally see it completely. I bite my lip when I see him. It's much better than I imagined. “Stop looking at me like that.” he tells me, even though his back is turned. "It's not my fault you're so sexy." I tell him, sitting up on my knees in bed. Jake leans in and kisses me, caressing my body slowly. "Do not be long..." he whispered. "I won't…" He separates from me going to the bathroom and I admiring him. I grabbed his sweatshirt from the floor and put it on to cover me while I got cold, sitting in the chair to talk to Dan. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Macie That’s Macie to you

Dan You have taken a long time to answer Where were you? In the bathroom? ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

<<No, with the sexiest guy in the world.>> ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Macie Doing some exercise to defeat the man without a face 😜

Dan Haha, very good that one! Aren’t we in a merry mood today You have no idea how good it is to finally by out of that hellhole of hospital

Macie I think ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

He hands me a picture of him with his Wishkey glass in hand. Well, despite everything, I'm glad he's okay… But I'm mad at him. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Macie So, what’s up with that fancy new wheelchair you’ve got?

Dan Don’t know what you mean ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I pass him the proof that Cleo sent me. He's not going to get away from this. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Dan Hahaha Do you like it?

Macie But that’s just temporary, right?

Dan Yeah ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I try to get him to confess that he had left the hospital. What was he thinking? He still had a little more to recover, it was okay to wait a bit. At least in the hospital he was safe. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Macie Why would you do this?!

Dan You’re one to talk I’d have expected you to be here before me Because you are in Duskwood And you're all alone You aren’t the one who should be angry with me, but the other way around

Macie Hey! Don't give it back to me! Unfortunately mine is for work I have to get up early But I accept your concern, Dan, even though I'm fine.

Dan How not to worry, little detective If it had been you instead of me You would have done the same

Macie Maybe, who knows Probably 😒 ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Maybe if Jake and I hadn't met here, I probably would have gone with them. I knew that at the moment he can't show himself to more people, too risky. Only three people know what Jake looks like: Hannah, Lilly, and me. The people closest to him at the moment. And it's risky enough for him to do it. It will always be so.

Dan hands me a photo of the girls and Thomas, talking quietly by the campfire, though Thomas seems a little more lost in thought of him. Thinking about our conversation for sure. In Hannah. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Macie So it's about protecting others? I warn you, if anything happens to you...

Dan Then what?

Macie Then I'll personally make sure you never leave that wheelchair again

Dan Oh my I’m much more afraid of you than of that raven dude. Totally If that feathered freak really comes here Then I’m the only one who’d have the guts to do anything And you know it And I owe it to Richy ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I massage my temple. Unbelievable… Dan was risking perhaps losing his life a second time. And by the least indicated person. Still, he's an incredibly cool guy, I have to admit. When he doesn't go stupid and open up, you can clearly see that he's not like everyone else thinks too. I don't know, I think of him as the older brother of the group. I welcome him to the group of detectives and he laughs.

We received a group message, Cleo wants a meeting with everyone.

I wait for the news when I get a message from Hannah's phone. There was a connection again and I was already starting to ask myself when he would text me again. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Unknown Do you remember what I told you on the phone? I'm coming, Macie And I am going to kill them all

Hannah I won't let you I really feel sorry for you I understand you At least I’m trying to understand you It’s been ten long years You saw no other way of finding peace Give up and tell me where you are ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I bite my nail, nervous. Hoping my words work. He don't have to go through with this. Just that everything comes out honestly. It will make his situation worse if he continues like this, he won't look any better than Hannah.

I get the messages. Messages that scare me to read. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Unknown I set a trap for you And you didn’t even realized *Jake POV*

I did not think I would break the rule I set for myself about not involving my feelings towards someone when I had to leave home. I was alone for four years. No friends, no family, no co-workers… No one. Me and my mental conversations. Changing places every month. There was nothing I cared about and I didn't have to worry about anyone but myself.

Well, that day I met her, the days I spent with her, that rule was breaking more and more and the barrier that I imposed on me became thinner.

Tonight I have forgotten all the rules written in my head to feel Macie in my arms. I have forgotten why I am really here or what I had done in the past to end up losing everything. Because she has made me feel that I do not need anything more than her to be complete.

I have loved every part of her and I have not been able to restrain myself from whispering her name on some occasions or kissing her neck so as not to leave any trace of what that man did to her. Now only the traces of kisses that I had left her remained. There is nothing about her that I have forgotten to caress or kiss.

Macie is taking a while to come to the bathroom, could something have happened to the group? Has something happened to Lilly? I finished showering and I grab the towel, wrapping it around my waist. When I come out, I see her sitting on the chair with my sweatshirt on. It's quite big on her... I do not know if I will want to wash it now that she is wearing her scent. "Is everything alright, Macie?" I ask concerned "You took a long time." "Yes, sorry, the talk with Dan has been extended." I lean towards her and kiss her. Every time I do it, my mind does not think of anything other than making her mine again... Does that sound bad? I do not want to sound possessive, but I can not stop thinking about something else right now. "Now I'm the one asking you if you're okay." She tells me with a laugh. "I was… thinking." "Oh yeah?" Macie stands up, playing with my towel. She is tempting me too much "in what?" "I'm sure you already know that." I whispered, starting to slowly pull the sweatshirt up. We are going to kiss again and her cell phone rings. I see on the screen that it is a video call with Lilly. Just in case, I back off a bit. “Hello Lilly.” Macie says, sitting up on the bed. I sit next to her, watching closely. "Hi Macie." I see her looking everywhere "Are you “busy”?" "It depends on the definition." she replies, looking at me with tempting eyes. I try not to get nervous, because on top of that, it is my sister she is talking to. Now I do not know if I prefer that they get along like before so as not to go through this or that they be friends so that I do not have to worry about the situation of splitting myself in two. "Well, I'm sorry to spoil your moment" she sighs, genuinely annoyed for interrupting us. "In case you didn’t see it in the group chat, Cleo just ask us to come in to discuss something.” She focuses on the ground for a second "I thought that you shouldn't be excluded and that's why I called you." She walks into the house and we see Cleo and Thomas sitting up and Dan in the wheelchair. A 'What going in?' had been heard in the distance. Jessica. "Guys, I called Macie too" Lilly announces "she's also part of the group and she's probably interested it." I see that she turns the cell phone around for them to greet her. “Hello Macie” Cleo says “. I'm glad Lilly brought you over too." "I never miss a party, even if it's virtually." she replies, in an amused tone. I avoid laughing so they won't hear me. "Well, this party is over" Cleo looks angry, her arms crossed. I do not like this ". Sit down” she tells him, looking at Jessica ". So I was actually looking for a lighter, but instead, I found this." She turns a little and takes out a gun naturally, leaving it on the table. I watch Macie look worriedly at the gun. Jessica gets up scared and Dan adjusts his glasses to see the gun. "What the f-" Jessy has a terrified look on her face. "Is this a real one?" Thomas asks, in a tone of genuine surprise. “Yep.” Dan picks up the gun for a second and puts it down again. "Well? Whose is it?" Cleo asks, pointing at it. “Definitely not mine.” Jessica replies. Macie seems to scan their faces, looking for the person who had taken it. Some reaction. Dan is completely calm and Thomas shakes his hands.

In the background we begin to hear the slight sound of a cell phone. "You hear that?" Jessica asks, looking at them all. "It's coming from the hallway." One by one they begin to move away from the table, except for Dan who does it slowly because of his wheelchair. “Hannah's phone.” Thomas says. He is the first to enter the room and turn on the light. He could hear the phone much more closely thanks to Lilly. "A call..." Jessica goes over to the phone to see who she is and she looks at them confused. "No number." she says, not knowing what to do. “Pick it up.” Cleo orders. Frightened, Jessica accepts the call. "Hello?" "I know where you are now!" A distorted voice sounds through the other line "You were too confident, but you fell into my trap." "What?" I see Macie's face, expression completely changing. She was beginning to be afraid for her friends. I go straight to the computer, to see how he could possibly know where they are now. "I'm coming now" I hear Michael's words clenching my teeth angrily ", and then I am going to end this." "What the-" I hear Jessica say, after that a scream. "Guys?!" Macie yells. I move away from the computer to get closer to her. "What's going on?" I ask nervously. "I-I don't know! The lights!" "Stay on the cell phone." I commanded as I returned to the computer, to find out why he knew where they were.

According to the data, it seemed that the cell phone's GPS was the cause of the location. Shit, it was my fault, I should have paid attention. I try to see what other things they could also have located and I read some messages. Macie had talked to Michael. And she hadn't told me. I look at her and she seems more relieved looking at the phone screen.

Why have she been keeping these messages from Michael from me?

Chapter 38

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girafeduvexin · 6 months

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Now that i finished s4 of Within the Wires, I can say that s3 was boring. My ranking so far (a bit spoilery) :

S2 : wlw !! Toxicity !! Art ! The setting is interesting but the main focus is this relationship between these two women. No big deal, no huge mystery to resolve. Just the story of two artists and how they love and sometimes hate each other. And the last episode... Insanely good. Still thinking about it.

S1 : Partly because it's quite efficient to introduce us to the main story, because of the "woh !" effect, also because I adore the damselfly "meditation, its haunting honestly. And the episode about sadness... lesbians!! Second only because it can be a bit repetitive.

S4 : interesting, love how we change perspective on that society, love toxic women, always etc, but a bit boring unfortunately? Freya could have been way more awful, way more manipulative but she mostly repeated the same stuff all the time. The finale is chilling though, love the damselfly analogy.

S3 : good concept, bad execution. Love the idea of a secretary you're supposed to trust but gradually you realize you should be more careful... but Michael is suspicious way too quickly! But in the next tape, he trusts her again... Also don't like how Amy goes to "efficient secretary" to "cofounder of the Institute" I think it's a huge gap and not a very interesting one. Also, lot of lore, which is useful i guess but not that interesting - Within the Wires so far is better when the setting is a pretext to explore humanity (like s2 ofc, but also s2).

Also, I would have loved Michael and Freya to be more... expressive? When Roimata and Hester break down in tears, its haunting, you empathize with them. I loved when Freya got angry but it was too short. Michael is supposed to be drunk at some point but it was hard to believe honestly. I don't blame the voice acting but the script not allowing them to express emotions.

Edit : mixed up s4 and s3

#within the wires #had to write about it!!!#s2 is so so so good #(its the type of thing i love to write :))))

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rosemaryreality · 1 year

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Sonic Prime S2 EP1 Reaction.

Alright so we are back to the start? but from Shadow's pov

2. Ooooh so Shadow saw all those freaky giant hollograms(? of their friends

3. Ah, i was wondering about that, so there's a barrier Shadow can't pass through.

4. HE LOST THE CHAOS EMERALD????!!!!!

5. !!!! so SHADOW is the reason why Sonic's shoes would act up???

6. Oof, dude's been trying for a while.

7. I had noticed this before in season 1, but god, the way sonic says "home" breaks my heart every time

8. So he still thinks Shadow isn't the real Shadow? really dude? unlike everyone else, he clearly recognizes you

9. "Sherrif shadow of floating rock world" ALRIGHT WE GET IT!! there's no cowboy world, no need to rub it in

10. DUDE HE CLEARLY SAID YOUR NAME. HE KNOWS WHO YOU ARE. HE IS YOUR SHADOW.

11. Oh. speaked too soon i guess. Anyway FINALLY!!

12. SONADOW HUG!!! i'm redrawing this.

13. LMAO. the way shadow slides to the left, feels so extra for me i love it.

14. If those giant shards weren't there, how would sonic move while in there? would shadow have to carry him?

15. Rip green emerald.

16. Aww he missed the palm trees.

17. "Just like home" but it's not.

18. Holy shit he is gonna see the "ghost" version of tails.

19. Oooooh, interesting. I thought everyone except big would be at the cage, but tails is at the beach near his workshop. So it's not about where they where when it happened, it's probably about significant places.

20. Oh, they're ALL at the beach. I'm guessing the palm tree amy's at is THE palm three, so they really must have plenty of memories there, if it's the place they're all at.

21. Omg i love prime sonic but GOD is he slow, they're not you're real friends!! and where is shadow anyway? i bet he is silently judging you.

22. Oooooh i wonder if this is partly why shadow is so quick to dismiss the people from the shatterverses, even if they're clearly more life like than these versions, it's probably hard for him to consider them as much more than this: shallow versions of their friends, their missing pieces, especially since he can't meet them for himself (yet).

23. THE WAY HE HUGS HIMSELF I CAN'T!!!! i know it's his fault but COME ON!!

24. Oooh the way Shadow looked at his shoes, already planning to steal them?

25. EXCUSE YOU SHADOW WHAT DID YOU SAY ABOUT MY BOY NINE?!!! HAVE YOU EVEN MET HIM? WHO ARE YOU TO SAY HE CAN'T BE TRUSTED??!

26. Oh god he really thinks of Nine as "angsty Tails" i'm crying.

27. "He's not tails. he is nine" look at what you've done Sonic, now i have to agree with Shadow just after he insulted Nine.

28. "This is his reality" oh god ummm i don't think I agree with that.

29. Ugh sonic how can i be mad at you when you are defending Nine? still don't like that he doesn't see him as his own person though.

30. Yeah i can't blame Shadow for not trusting Sonic, like, WHO would trust him at this point?

31. "I know what you are capable of" oh? OH? so NEITHER of them trust the other one, huh.

32. OMG HE GRABBED IT WITH HIS MOUTH?? I ACTUALLY LAUGHED OUT.

33. Well, that was fast, let's see his reaction to the fact they do nothing for him.

34. ?????????????????????????? WTF? I'M SORRY DID I MISS A SCENE??

35. OOOOOOOOH HE TOOK BACK THE ONES FOR HIS SHOES.

36. God this Shadow is so extra, couldn't you put that one like a normal person?

37. Wait so they DID help him get out of there, how? maybe those things have some of Sonic's energy on them? whtever it is, couldn't be enough to get past the barriers.

38. I don't know if the place between shatterspaces is a good place to be fighting, Shadow has his airshoes but what if Sonic falls into the void?

39. I couldn't believe Sonic said "come at me, bro" when i heard it, now SHADOW? and he sounded so smug too

40. What happened in new yoke?

41. Oh right, THOSE guys.

42. So sonic can just spindash his way through that place.

43. Man that knocked out shadow BAD.

44. SONADOW PRINCESS CARRY!!!! Sonic prime really is a gift to all ships.

45. OF COURSE he fell on his face, gotta love running gags.

46. Finally got to the "together" part, god is sonic smug about it, on other news, sonadow needs each other, hell yeah.

47. "I won't let you down, shadow" awwwww.

48. For some reason the shadow vision was so funny to me, bro he is not DEAD.

#sonic prime #sonic the hedgehog #sonic prime spoilers #sonic prime season 2 #sonic prime season 2 spoilers #sonic prime s2 ep1 #shadow the hedgehog #mine

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scoobydoodean · 1 year

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Does "Rowena is responsible for Charlie's death" count for people misremembering? Or is it more of a purposeful misinterpretation?

I might file that one more under terrible interpretations of the text (because it's like the stupidest thing ever, but it isn't that the person is misrembering that Charlie left partly because Rowena was being "annoying"—it's that blaming Rowena (who was literally being held against her will) for Charlie's death based on that detail is nuts.

Thinking more like forgetting or misremembering literal events that transpired. Examples of things people say that are wrong or misremembered:

Jack connecting with Kelly and Cas's minds from the womb did not happen. Dean just made that up.

Emma was lunging at either Sam or Dean when Sam shot her.

Amy killed murderers.

Sam did not see Kevin get kidnapped.

Dean did not know how Sam felt about possession in season 9. (This one was me I forgot hehe)

#mail

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okay the thing though, the one thing that absolutely murders me about richie and eddie remembering everything they lost, everything they were, after a twenty-seven year long ache neither of them could ever define is that richie’s memories flying through his shattering brain at the speed of light— the second after he hangs up on mike and he already feels the bile already churning at the back of his throat —all his memories and flashing images would be [summer nights filled with fireflies and mosquito bites][endless afternoons splashing in the quarry, his glasses tossed carelessly away][hours playing street fighter in a noisy, crowded arcade with a chocolate haired, slightly smaller boy, all freckles and bright red shorts and laughing and laughing, happy and beautiful][a fussing, too-fast voice always itching and fighting for the last word in][his own scrapped knees and cuts hastily covered with dozens of unnecessary bandages by shaking, soft hands][a crinkled nose and honey-warm brown eyes slightly squinting before letting out a loud, almost crazed laugh at one of his dumb jokes][lazy days crammed in a too small hammock with comics passed back and forth too close, too sweaty but somehow never close enough][that soft, soft hand clasped around his wrist as searing as a burn][and that ache— that same goddamn ache he’s felt every waking hour of his fucked adult existence —soothed and glowing brighter and more golden then the sun when he stares down into that ridiculously freckled face that finally has a name] but for eddie— for poor, desperately lonely eddie —it hits him even worse because in his limbo-existence and decaying marriage he’s convinced himself for over a decade that he’s fine he’s fine he’s fine but then mike calls and he ends up in a collision that isn’t half as bad as the spiraling in his brain at that moment, all the memories hitting him like a semi-truck and he’s sitting there, his car completely totaled but all he can see, the very first image that bursts and overwhelms his mind is [blinding terror ready to choke him alive and in the midst of it are hands on his face and wide dark eyes hidden behind too big glasses and a voice just begging him to keep looking keep looking keep looking][the feeling of complete safety even while drowning in his fears][a fierce savage voice screaming WELCOME TO THE LOSERS CLUB, ASSHOLE and feeling so proud, so goddamn proud to be standing there even surrounded by all that darkness][two incredibly familiar initials at the top of the street fighter leaderboard][snorting laugher paired with wild curls that annoyingly could never stay straight and always looked stupidly, perfectly windswept][a steady if spindly hand gripping his shoulder during his worst panic attacks][gangly limbs climbing up the tree outside his house and crashing gracelessly through the window into his bedroom][cigarette smoke— not his own —circling his head in slow tendrils up into a late august sky][a crooked smile that is always teasing, often smirking, and always so full of something eddie could never quite read and always wanted to spend hours decoding] and eddie wants to weep and weep and weep because he remembers that fucking look behind that stupid, irresistible grin and he finally remembers a name and he knows, he finally fucking knows what that look always meant even when they were both fourteen and didn’t know anything but the sad town they were born into and they’re just both hit so fast by all of it like can you even imagine how they felt in those first moments of remembering everything, can you—

#i partly blame amy for this #we were screaming about reddie together and this is where my mind went with it all #clearly we’ve been handling our emotions over chapter two really well #otp: but he knew well enough #reddie #it: chapter two #tori talks #usereddiekzpbrak

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unfolded73 · 4 years

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Cool, just realized the song “To Build a Home” has already become an instant crying trigger thanks to the documentary. So watch me listen to it on repeat until I’ve wrung all the feeling out of it.

#i blame amy segal #the end of that documentary is MURDER #i just watched the last 10 minutes because I was chatting with lana about her gifsets and i haven't stopped crying since #partly because of the song #but also because of dan's fucking face #best wishes warmest regards

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helmes-deep · 6 years

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You know, out of all the couples on The Big Bang Theory, Sheldon and Amy are the best written—which I wasn’t expecting. I actually enjoy watching them more as a married couple than I did when they were dating :o

#the big bang theory #tbbt #sheldon cooper #amy farrah fowler #sheldon x amy #shamy #amy fowler #they're BUTCHERING Leonard and Penny though!!! >:CC #which makes me really sad because they're my favorite couple off of the show #and it's clear they're compatible and do really care for each other #but they're refusing to write them as a couple who can work through their problems and quirks like Sheldon and Amy #(I partly blame it on the focus shifting to Sheldon because of Young Sheldon but what can you dooooo)#the only good thing about married Leonard x Penny is that it shifted the 'bulllying wife' dynamic from Howard and Bernadette to them #ughhhh :////#text

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oldbookist · 3 years

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the caesar problem

Happy Ides of March and it is a lovely night to talk about the Caesar motif in Les Misérables, don't you think?

Caesar is not really important in his own right despite being regularly name dropped, the important thing is what he represents (arguably like Shakespeare's.) In this case, abstractly, glorious despotism, or specifically, Napoleon.

It was not a new comparison, and certainly not inherently derogatory, as it was frequently espoused by Napoleon's supporters—including his nephew Napoleon III, who later wrote a biography of Caesar in which he explicitly compared the two. Napoleon himself wrote commentaries on Caesar's battles, comparing himself and defending Caesar's dictatorship.

So the Caesar-Napoleon image was well formed in the French consciousness when Hugo published Les Mis. And Hugo plays along with it, and you'll find that comparison made in the Waterloo chapters and during Marius's "discovery" of Bonapartism—and, as is best remembered, in his speech to Les Amis.

You all know it (and Combeferre's response) and I've written about it before here.

The biggest thing to keep in mind is that Les Mis was published during the reign of Napoleon III while Hugo was in exile. He was in exile was for declaring the new Emperor a traitor to France, then published political pamphlets against him (one titled "Napoleon the Little") which were promptly banned, but smuggled into France.

Napoleon III himself was quite concerned with upholding his uncle's veneration in order to maintain the legitimacy of his own rule. So Combeferre and Marius's argument is not only about Napoleon's historical legacy, but highly relevant and provocative in the context the book was published.

This is only part of a broader dialogue about Caesar, though, partly narrated between Combeferre and Grantaire.

In fact Grantaire is the first to bring up Caesar in the chapter, as part of his first drunken ramble:

"Whom do you admire, the slain or the slayer, Caesar or Brutus? Generally men are in favor of the slayer. Long live Brutus, he has slain! There lies the virtue."

And again in "Preliminary Gaieties":

"Great accidents are the law; the order of things cannot do without them; and, judging from the apparition of comets, one would be tempted to think that Heaven itself finds actors needed for its performance. At the moment when one expects it the least, God placards a meteor on the wall of the firmament. Some queer star turns up, underlined by an enormous tail. And that causes the death of Caesar. Brutus deals him a blow with a knife, and God a blow with a comet. Crac, and behold an aurora borealis, behold a revolution, behold a great man; ’93 in big letters, Napoleon on guard, the comet of 1811 at the head of the poster."

In both cases he's being characteristically sarcastic, describing the inanity of these so-called great events, and as usual, the hypocrisy and wretchedness of the world.

On the other hand we have Combeferre, who is an interesting ideological objector here—first of all because he is the exact opposite of Grantaire with his utter belief in pure progress, but also because Combeferre is not necessarily the one you would expect to be a staunch defender of Caesar's assassination.

“Caesar,” said Combeferre, “fell justly. Cicero was severe towards Caesar, and he was right. That severity is not diatribe. When Zoïlus insults Homer, when Maevius insults Virgil, when Visé insults Molière, when Pope insults Shakespeare, when Frederic insults Voltaire, it is an old law of envy and hatred which is being carried out; genius attracts insult, great men are always more or less barked at. But Zoïlus and Cicero are two different persons. Cicero is an arbiter in thought, just as Brutus is an arbiter by the sword. For my own part, I blame that last justice, the blade; but, antiquity admitted it. Caesar, the violator of the Rubicon, conferring, as though they came from him, the dignities which emanated from the people, not rising at the entrance of the senate, committed the acts of a king and almost of a tyrant, regia ac pene tyrannica. He was a great man; so much the worse, or so much the better; the lesson is but the more exalted. His twenty-three wounds touch me less than the spitting in the face of Jesus Christ. Caesar is stabbed by the senators; Christ is cuffed by lackeys. One feels the God through the greater outrage.”

But there's his answer to Grantaire's first question. Combeferre, pacifist, lover of peaceful progress and frequently a mouthpiece for Hugo's own beliefs, thinks Caesar's assassination was justified. This lines up with a broader theme that starts all the way back with the Conventionist—that revolutions may be a necessary and justifiable part of progress, and that tyranny must not be tolerated despite the glories and greatness Marius points out, and despite the human costs of doing so. Combeferre himself is preparing to die on the barricade when he says this, so it feels like a justification for themselves and their actions.

And Combeferre gets the last word on this. Caesar isn't mentioned again in the book.

#this is kind of rambly hope it makes some sense #ides of march #combeferre #grantaire #my meta

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finalgirlbrainrot · 3 years

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I recently noticed this weird thing the fandom does, which is taking certain behaviours in sam that are very clearly caused mainly by dean and attributing them entirely to his cage trauma, namely the flinches and the inability to stand up for himself in later seasons. I mean, there's no doubt that the cage and all the other traumatic experiences he's been through are partly responsible, but I don't get how people don't realize that the main reason for those responses is dean. because you really have to not be paying attention not to notice how most of his flinches are in response to dean's outbursts specifically. and I really have to point out how, after the cage, sam has stood up for himself a few times: in s7 he got mad about amy's murder, until dean gaslit him into admitting he did the right thing; in s8 he repeatedly tried to explain to dean where he was coming from and called him out once or twice; in s9 he tried to reestablish boundaries after the possession, until he was guilt tripped into letting it go... and it's after s9-10, after the gadreel and moc storylines, that he effectively stopped standing up for himself, so clearly you can't blame him not being able to stand up for himself entirely on the cage

#gaslighting mention tw

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minervacasterly · 3 years

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Anne Neville: The Undervalued Consort

I highly recommend Anne Neville by Amy Licence, Tudor by Leanda de Lisle & Blood Sisters by Sarah Gristwood to have a better view of who Anne Neville was.

What all of these three historians and biographers do in their respective books is a shine a light on this obscure consort. First a pawn then an active participant in her husband's ambitions, Anne Neville was a young woman who was forced to play the game of thrones from an early age and after having seen and experienced her fair share of loss and disgrace, she came to understand that to survive in a cruel world, she had to use the few tools she had at her disposal to get ahead. From the core curriculum of Edward of Middleham, a picture starts to form about Anne's ambitions regarding her only child. Overshadowed by her more controversial predecessors, Anne is constantly overlooked by many scholars.

While I have a lot of respect for Shakespeare's play, sadly his history plays tend to blur the line between fact and fiction, with some still believing that the Anne and Richard of the Tragedy of Richard III are closer to the real ones. One only needs to pick up a good book about the wars of the roses and see how quickly this falls apart.

Shakespeare is partly to blame for Anne’s misrepresentation. And I underline the word ‘partly’ because this image of Anne as the reluctant consort and hostage of a tyrannical king had its roots right after her death. As previously noted, Shakespeare was working off from previous sources that were more slander than accurate reports. Nowadays these would be considered nothing more than vicious attacks by another rival. Such slander and accusations were common during this era. All was fair in love and war, especially when the end game was the English crown.

#Anne Neville #the wars of the roses #Richard III #Shakespeare #fact vs fiction #history #non daily Tudors

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buriedbybooks · 3 years

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One of Us (Leverage 5+1)

FINAL PART!!! of my fic for the Leverage Appreciation Weeks Event!

Summary and tags are below. Hope you enjoy! :) The fic will be up on AO3 in the next day or two with the art embedded!

SUMMARY Illustrated 5+1 fic exploring how Amy Palavi gets to know the Leverage Team.

TAGS Amy Palavi, Alec Hardison, Eliot Spencer, Parker (Leverage), Sophie Devereaux, Nathan Ford, 5+1, found family, illustrated fic

Amy quietly sighed as she wiped down the last table for the day. It had been a busy one, and two other members of the waitstaff had called in sick.

Hardison dropped into one of the chairs at the table she’d just finished. “I don’t pay y’all enough on days like this. How’re you still standing? Sit. Sit.” He waved with a loose hand at one of the other chairs.

The smile she returned probably looked as wry and tired as his as she sat down. Amy had been impressed that Hardison had jumped in the way he had when the dinner rush took over, helping with taking orders, serving, making sure everything had run smoothly. It had been one of their busier shifts, with the start of their new open-mic bringing in more people than they had originally anticipated. Eliot had joined the kitchen staff to help with improvising dishes as they ran out of staples. Even Parker had helped, making sure there was communication between the kitchen and the waitstaff by constantly checking in with Hardison and Eliot.

“Well, I would say that open mic night was an unquestionable success,” Hardison huffed with a grin. “I’d blame you, but I’d have to admit you came up with the idea.”

Amy laughed. This was her boss in a nutshell, all welcoming, teasing humor. “I’m glad it met expectations.”

“Exceeded,” Hardison corrected. “Ah, what have you got for us, man?”

Amy looked over her shoulder and saw Eliot and Parker approaching with trays of food and drink. They set the table and then took the other two chairs.

“Just sent the rest of the staff home,” Eliot told them both.

Amy looked up from her glass in surprise. If that was the case, why hadn’t they asked her to leave?

Hardison just nodded and then turned to Parker. “You wanna do the honors?”

Amy looked across at the other woman to find Parker studying her, head tilted slightly to the side.

“You know we’re a bit… different. We have other work besides the pub.” Parker waits for Amy to nod before continuing. “ We help people that need it but can’t get it through normal means.”

“That’s why you were asking me about that woman!” Amy exclaimed.

“Yes.”

“People usually find us, but sometimes, we find them,” Hardison picked up the thread. “It’s mostly word of mouth.”

“You help people,” Eliot states.

“We are wondering if you’d like to help us help people,” Parker asks, leaning forward slightly.

Amy can’t help but frown. “Is this another one of your not-quite-legal things?”

“Yes. But sometimes legal isn’t enough,” Parker agrees honestly.

“You wouldn’t be doing anything illegal,” Hardison assures. “Nate and Sophie are off to go get married, so we’re looking to stabilize our bases. We’d like to promote you to manager to help me run this place when we need to be gone.”

“I’m not the most senior person here, and I don’t have any experience!” Amy protested before she could consider tempering it.

Eliot just glared at her. “We know you’re taking all those business classes your parents are demanding. Think of this as practical experience.”

“Everyone on the staff works well with you, and you’re already partly managing anyway,” Hardison added. “We’ll ease you into it.”

“Say yes,” Parker demanded.

Amy nodded, mute, eyes wide as she looked from one face to the next. This was… more… than she had ever anticipated when she’d walked in the door all those months ago.

Hardison’s hands come up to rest on the table on either side of the bowl in front of him. Looking at those hands, Amy realized that none of them had touched the food that Eliot had served them. It was a shame, the thought that it would go cold. But she also couldn’t have eaten a bite if any of them had demanded it, her stomach almost in free-fall with the discussion.

“Nate and Sophie also used to do a lot of our consulting, meeting people, talking with them.” Hardison paused until Amy met his gaze. “If you’re willing, we’d like you to keep an eye out for people who come looking for us. Talk to them, get their stories, let us know. You’ll have more time to do that as a manager.”

That was something she could do. Had been doing a bit, ever since Parker had asked her about the woman at Table 8. If she thought something was wrong, Amy let Parker know.

As if she could read Amy’s mind, Parker smiled slyly. “That part is easier for you to agree to, isn’t it?”

“Yes,” Amy murmured.

Parker’s eyes narrowed. “To all of it?”

Amy nodded.

“Perfect. Now, eat up. Eliot will get mad if we don’t,” Hardison ordered.

Eliot grunted and from the wince Hardison made a moment later, Amy suspected that the chef had kicked his shin under the table. Parker grabbed her bowl and tucked in.

Hardison picked up his spoon, glaring at his companions before turning back to Amy with a raised eyebrow. “Welcome to the team.”

Amy let out a breathy snort. It was going to be chaos, but she was starting to look forward to it.

#leverage #amy palavi #eliot spencer #alec hardison #parker #leverageappreciationweek #my fanfiction tag

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samnyangie · 3 years

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Personal reviews on RSL filmography

Rsl, iI thought it’d be a good idea to record my thought on each films rsl was in, it was something I always wanted to do...

Rsl in total, was starred in (excluding tv series etc) 27-ish films, to be honest, considering his years as an actor(approximately more than 30 years) he wasn’t starred in that many. We all know why lol

Just saying I’m not a film expert, therefore the list is very subjective.

The reviews with trigger warning (r*pe, g*re etc): Tape, Killer: Journal of Murder, A glimpse of hell. Tho in the writing I’ve censored them with * since I don’t feel comfortable saying them here

There isn’t particular spoilers except for dps, tape, and ground control

The favourites (literally my life time films)

Dead Poets Society

I assume many would agree, and as many would have, it was my first ever rsl film, like I was on the plane and it was one of the films they offered, and I was like, oh I think i heard of this, so I watched and instantly loved it. The message is very relevant to this day, the cinematography is very beautiful and somehow nostalgic. I was horrified with Neil’s death. Tbh now I’ve seen too many memes and all kind of things from the fandom (which I’m grateful for!) I thought the heartfelt I once had would deluded a bit, however when I watched it again last April with my family at the cinema and it still moved me very deeply.

The age of Innocence

Okay, unpopular opinion here, I love this so much. It’s my all time favourite rsl film. It even outruns dps tiny winy bit haha. Aside from how he had tiny winy screen time, appearing at the end but the fact that he played quite an important role and him being gorgeous in it just<33 I couldn’t help but smiling! It just the whole film was so much of my cup of tea? The melodrama and the hypocrisy hidden by elegance among the upper social classes in 19th century is just what I needed. The more I watch it, the more I understand the characters and their emotions, it’s one of those films you should keep visit to discover the things you weren’t aware of before. I watched it again this morning and i couldn’t stop thinking about it. However, I know some people find it boring and I understand why, my sister is one of them lol(except for a bit where rsl was in) but i think it’s more complex than what it appears to be at a first glance haha. In conclusion, it became one of my comfort film to watch time to time.

The ones I like<33

Swing kids

At first viewing, I didn’t expected much because it had underwhelming reviews but when I actually saw it, I thought it was quite decent and more and more I watched it, I felt like it was underrated. Yes, I think some directing choices were bit old fashioned and cheesy especially the ending, I’m not saying it was a perfect masterpiece but it deserves more recognition than it has now. Also in spite that there’re some parts being too simplified, it touched on something other films about ww2 normally don’t. It was interesting to see the German perspective on it than Jewish or the allies perspective like many of them does, but of course the latter perspectives matter, it could be argued that they more valid than the former, which partly was where sk criticised for, however, the portrayal of the varied reactions of the German people (in this one particular the teenagers) has its value in their on way. Anyway along side with it, the music and the dance scenes were great, without exaggeration, though Swing kids isn’t my fav, peter’s solo dance scene is my favourite scene in any movies I’ve ever watched. I mean that scene had both visuals and meaning as it demonstrated Peter’s determination as well as resentment with a hitch of unsureness. Rsl acting in that scene was just phenomenal, it’s not about showing off the dancing skills but he portrayed every mixed emotions peter has from his expression and the moves, I just can’t talk about this enough especially this scene was the reason I started fallen for him. lol

Much ado about nothing

Much ado is something I never seen anything like so it was a refreshing exprience. I barely watched Shakespeare on screen kind of thing. Though I felt there were some bits too cheesy for me but they are also the charms in the same time, and the cinematography was pretty also Claudio aka rsl, it was like an official announcement of declaring my worship on this man. Especially it was after SWING KIDSSSS so I couldn’t help it now everyone knows how I fallen for him but no one can blame meeeeee Anyway, it’s a really good film to watch when you want be relaxed with cup of tea maybe hehe

In the gloaming

I heard about it before I watched it, that it’s a heart wrenching, tearful piece, though I didn’t managed to cry, it’s just.... painful and in a way heartfelt. I liked that story telling was calm and collected rather than forcing you to join the sob party, just showing the characters to carry on. And thanks to the great acting from the cast, the characters could be emphasised and understood, personally the older sister was the most relatable character for me, well, eldest complex lol. In short I liked it but it’s not something I would watch it often.

Last days of Disco

As a person who looks at aesthetic in films, I simply enjoyed this for that tbh. I don’t know, I just liked the feeling. But I don’t think it’d be everyone’s cup of tea. I love the day time clothes the girls wore in the film. Tbh I love the music too, I think I love all the films of rsl with music in it. Speaking about rsl, oh rsl, he’s.... His character might be bit unlikable but he was just.... This is why I can’t unlove his characters even the debatable ones<33

They were decent! (I would recommend it)

Married to it

This is the first and last ever attempt of rsl of romcomssss The film itself is cliche to be frank it’s like love actually but it’s about marriage life + it’s not christmas but I like heartfelt cliche stories like this, if anyone also loves this type of story, it’s really worth watching, it’s one of my comfort films, also, rsl is so pretty I mean he always is but to see him being a office man with a baby face made me go awww my baby grew up heheh I wish he did another romcom like this or more preferably, melodramatic romance, I’d have made a shrine of it and worship it every morning lol

The boys next door

I kind of smiled while watching it throughout, if you want something that is heartfelt and touch on some serious topic about social workers and the people with mental disorder, Rsl plays a character who has (I think it was) Schizophrenia and troubled relationship with his father(Deja vu I know) but general atmosphere tend to be quite humourous. I don’t get me wrong, though it’s light hearted, it doesn’t mean they treat the topic in the same way. There’s a scene where the protagonist imagining the one of the characters with the disorder talking eloquently and honourably at the court on the rights and the dignity of the people with mental disorders deserve to/should have and they’re just the same people as the people without mental disorders. It was a powerful scene.

My two loves

Rsl’s first ever screen debut film! Hehe it’s about a woman who is discovering her sexual identity and the conflicts within I personally thought it was fairly sensible depiction but I can’t say for sure whether it was accurate or else, since I don’t think it’s my place to say it:) But if you’re interested, it’s on YouTube, you can just search for it or go to this post I made. Fun fact: since it was his debut film, it credits him as he’s real name, Robert L. Leonard, I just find it amusing haha

Tape

It’s another type of film I don’t encounter that often, I enjoyed it, especially with Neil and Todd’s reunion lol. Rsl mentioned how he enjoyed it because it felt like doing a play, my first impression was that the structure is like a play, though the camera work made me quite dizzy haha. But the dialogues, the acting, I think it was quite spot on. Especially the human contradictions and hypocrisy side of it. The most people assume the baddie in the film is Jon the character rsl played and has a distaste for him. I mean how can anyone love a character who is accused of r*pe but to be honest, Vincent for me seemed just as problematic, both of them are hypocrites for sure in their own different ways but in the end we can’t be sure what’s really the truth or not. It’s about the vagueness, and phychology and the uncertainty from the audience on who to believe(well, myself included, most would trust on Amy’s claims since she’s the victim in the accusation, but by her denying the claims, making everything way unclear,) so I don’t know. I don’t really have an opinion haha tho I don’t believe nothing happened because Amy denied so, even Umma Thurman who played her, said that her interpretation was that Amy lied. I felt it’s endless rabbit hole this film. Sorry I couldn’t worded it better.

My best friend is a Vampire

It’s cringey and weird but there’re odd charm to it. Vampire rsl’s so cute as well.... and I think it’s the only film, he acted kind of flirty ? So for that itself I’d like to appreciate itttt And it’s so 80s/90s, like it has general odd nostalgia like all films from that age has. I saw a Korean blog about rsl films and this was mentioned, that- they said- it’s a bible of rsl’s adorableness and I think that sum up the film perfectly.

Mr&Mrs Bridge

Before this was in ‘I mean it was fine” category, but I watched it again and now I want to retract my statement lol Still isn’t my fav but I noticed how delicately depicted each characters are, Mr and Mrs Bridge in particular. This film is alternatively about the changes in the young generation regarding liberty, feminism, free expression especially on sex. It’s in the perspective of the bridges, the mother and father who is old fashioned and conservative (as it was normal in their previous generation) and the children who are the young generation, and the misunderstanding and conflicts between them. After all it all happened not only because of the difference but also the lack of communication, which rsl emphasised in his interviews. I found it interesting that they made it seems like the Bridges truly existed with the video footage and (with the ending) describing what happened to each family member in text with photos. When I watched it at first I was really confused if it was based on a real life. I think what they wanted to suggest was that the Bridges every typical American family at the time. It was something everyone was going through. I said previously I didn’t get why Rsl’s character (the youngest in the Bridges) treated his mother so coldly. Honestly I do get why, but I guess I felt so bad so the mother haha

I mean it was fine

The safe passage

It was okay but to be honest it didn’t stood out to me. It was okay. The story, the characters weren’t that interesting. I wish they extended it longer to go depth with their family relationship or something.

A painted house

I find it likeable, it has a chill, old folk story vibe, but same as previous one. it didn’t really stand out except for shirtless rsl, do close ups you cowards

Bluffing it

I was really fond of the premise of this film and I think it has great intention. It was specifically made to promote the awareness of illiteracy and how to get support. However, I don’t get the reason of Jack the protagonist’s illiteracy. Unless, it was common occurrence in America at the time, I feel like it’d have been more convincing if he was in poor family hood, so there was no time to learn at school due to working at young age...? I mean, just finding it hard to believe he passed the high school just like that, I mean the teachers or anyone should have noticed it, maybe I’m missing something here but it seemed unlikely to me.

Ground control

Again, I liked the message, as it depicted how frightening and difficult job the ground controller is, by one mistake could take away the lives of hundreds, especially as someone who goes on planes a lot... But it was quite cliche throughout, I just couldn’t get engaged to it. But I do admit at the end when the protagonist runs off to the landing zone see the pilot who he had just saved, they acknowledged each other and have eye contacts was truly wholesome. Rsl as cocky, bad boy was such a icing on the cake, I loved it so much. Chewing gum in every scene lol I hope he plays these sort of characters more often. I saw someone criticising him saying he has narrow spectrum of just playing nice boy roles like Neil but I really wanted to debunk the narrative and this could be one of the examples!

Chelsea walls

I knew that this has split reviews but nonetheless I think worth to watch it, 1. Ethan and rsl re union, 2. Ethan is the directer of the film and rsl sing in it. But I have to say, it’s one of those hard to follow art indie film so I couldn’t finish it on one go. I feel like I have to devour it over and over again. Maybe later on I grow fond of it more lol But his character, I loved him so much. He’s just has everyone don’t touch me, I’m a cocky artist vibe, there’s a scene where his annoying friend annoying him and he looks up and says: ‘Fck off’. Absolute golddddd not to mention he sings and plays guitar so beautifully<333

Well... it’s not my cup of tea

The Manhattan project

I don’t think the film it self was that bad, it’s about high school boy who find out the existence of some nuclear energy research lab and stole the energy to make his own nuclear bomb. I just don’t get the thinking process of the protagonist. It really frustrated me. He seemed apathetic and unlikable I disliked him throughout and that’s why I didn’t really enjoyed it. I mean it has humour and ridiculous storyline might be humorous to some. But more importantly there was such little screen time for rsl!! LIKE WHY? WHY PEOPLE?? HE LOOKS LIKE A FRESH HUMAN MOCHI!!! It makes me soooo mad to think about it

Killer: Journal of Murder

Well, first of all, it had a lot of graphic things than I imagined, brutally murd*red bodies, execution, and r*pe scene, gosh I was strucken by it when I saw that, I had to skipped that scene. It’s based on a real event and a real criminal called Carl Panzram, so if you’re aware of it, it might be more intriguiging to see. But personally for me... meh, I don’t think directing was good as it failed to portray it enough for me to comprehend fully.

A Glimpse of Hell

This is also based on a true event of a tragic accident in the us battleship in Iowa in 1989. They shows tragedy lin a blunt, brutal way by showing horribly damaged bodies of the soldiers torn into pieces, all the horrid things directly so be warned about that. I was quite alarmed because i didn’t expect to see it haha there’s no much to say. The film quality was so so for me. I feel their approach wasn’t appropriate, they were clearly trying to make it dramatic which is fine but in a melodramatic emotional way. It didn’t work because first, there aren’t enough portrayal of the characters for me to get attached, secondly it added the unnecessary exaggeration it prevented me from being emotionally involved or even to think about it. In my opinion, I think it’d have been better if they made it more restrained, dry, focus on the accuracy. For example like 1987 or Zodiac, I mean both of them has dramatic elements since they’re not a documentary but they were not overdone, in a contrary added emphasis to their message/conclusion. I know it’s easier said than done but it was something I consistently felt during it.

Sir.... I’m sorry but-

Standoff

Haha... it’s very peculiar... the directing is off and it just weird. I knew it was bad already but I watched it because rsl as a cop with gunssssssss just... so rare and just.... something else. There’s no way of me missing that seriously. Tbh him doing an action stunt isn’t what I imagine when it comes to him and there’s really any actions scenes anyway but it really was something. Like the character he played here really became my soft spot Hehehehe he was pretty and plus, tbh it’s kind of film I’d make fun of while watching so everything was (alomst) forgivable. There is a recent thing I think about, since this is about a cult, I kind of hope he’d at some day play a role like Eli Sunday from There will be blood: a manipulative, deceitful and maddened priest with twisted faith. Though Paul Dano did a grand job, the idea was in my head the whole time. Well, it’s a shame he wasn’t any of those here lol

Driven

From what I seen, the majority of people seem to unanimously hate this film, and after watching it I became one of those ppl. At least Standoff could be make fun of and rsl held gunssss but this...... I want to say so many things... I feel like they should have chose either fancy, fast paced, thrilling racing film or detailed depiction of emotions/relationships with the racers and people involved in it, I know both can be done, but I think that was outside of their ability, but since they tried to do that at once, it became a mess that doesn’t go either way. And the characters, any of them, including rsl’s are narrow or impossible to understand. I mean rsl did great himself, it was not about acting, the problem lies on the script and editing in my opinion. Also there were so many unnecessary characters made me question of their existence. Luckily rsl’s character isn’t one of them, however because of them, he had to squeeze in and unable to elaborate, which is a shame as he was an interesting character and someone rsl rarely plays; a arrogant and opportunist agent/brother of the protagonist, who would do anything for success... ha.... whyyyyy

This is it. If I watch other stuff I might add to it in the future. Overall, I know I’m biased but I do like His filmography, I do have appreciations in every one of them in different way to the good ones to bad. He may have disagree, but I love his acting on screen, well, I barely seen him on stage (crying)

Edit: as some of you could see, I’ve edited this over and over again haha elaborating on thing or the contrary. I can say with a glimpse of hell I practically managed to watch every rsl films out there lol except for the i inside and the short film he did called a dog race in Alaska. But with the former I’m not interested and already know the storyline, and the latter is just impossible to find, trust me I did my best;;

So to sum up: I HAVE MASTERED THE RSL FILMOGRAPHY!

#robert sean leonard #rsl #films #filmography #personal #thoughts

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Shannon! I have a question for today, it might be a little broad, but how did you come up with Natia’s character? :)

AMY!!! hello! sorry that i have *just* gotten to this as my weeks have increasingly gotten insanely busy between my job starting back up, school, college stuff, and ap exam chaos as well haha! i did this at about 11pm(?) and i'll be queuing it up for the morning for you, but outside of tumblr, i've thought a lot about this question and what i really wanted to include in this question. having almost spent 10 months spent writing and developing natia to who she is today makes a whole lot of stuff move through my brain when i go back to my developing stages for her! thank you for the question (and the broadness, never fear, i absolutely love it!)

Natia's character really came from the idea of just wanting to really push myself out of the box and *out there* to see what I could do. And I will say Landslide is one of my most *out-there* projects in terms of content - I mean we have Death as a personified character, crazy Agent Mortem, all these past connections to Natia? It's chaos haha! But, I had experimented previously with a partly Polish-OC, Hazel Parker of "The Soldier of Stars", and from that, I went, well there's no centrally focused Polish OC yet that I have seen (this was back in like June-July 2020 mind you, so there probably has been Polish OCs created since this time!!) and I had always felt that the Warsaw Uprising was inherently important! I also read up on the Polish Resistance and how they were the most effective resistance group of continental Europe during the war, with ultimately the Warsaw Uprising being their last final push that did sort of end that.

Something I've really enjoyed about creating Natia's character was putting a great focus on her flaws. Now, her strengths are just as important - she is a great soldier in the field, she's highly intelligent and can make quick decisions on the fly, she withholds a lot of strength when it comes to situations where she needs to focus, she's observant, and she keeps herself fairly humble when not bursting at the seems. She doesn't let herself get stepped over very often (unless it's Mortem) and if anything she will insert herself, and show what skills she has, but she won't go overboard. She's also passionate about her country and her people and she always has something to fight for and even when she feels all hope is lost, she withholds a tiny little sliver no matter what, even if she doesn't feel it. But her flaws I feel are a massive part of her character. She's stubborn, she won't let people help her, she has trouble expressing emotion, she numbs herself more often than not to not feel the pain that she is supposed to feel, she blames everything on herself, she gets hot-headed quite easily, and grows to the point of nearly irrational at some moments in time and even will let her emotions get the best of her in times like this. But that makes up who Natia is as a character and who she is as a person in general.

But even with the strengths and flaws of her character, it makes her very much still a human being. And that was one of my main goals when creating Natia - make her human enough to make that angst HURT, but make her human enough that when you see her succeed or even the little wins here and there, you want to cheer. Because those are human moments. And I know this sort of character creation is not for everyone, but for me over the past near-year, this has been one of my favorite things about creating Natia because I've found myself able to relate to her even though I'm so vastly different from her.

I did some research on a British-Polish SOE Agent, Krystyna Skarbek otherwise known as her alias Christine Granville and I took a few liberties from this amazing woman and used it on Natia. But things such as Agent Mortem, Death/War connection and the eventual introduction of another character Solomon Campbell (who will be in Part 3), as well as the Resistance group of Part 1 and her siblings and parents, are all more of my own ideas and connections!

Something I have had a LOT of fun doing is showing that even though on the exterior Natia seems cold-hearted and dark and numb, and whatever other *cold+dark* ideas can be thought up, she is very much underneath -- not that. We can see how much evidently she cares for someone like George Luz; I mean even Joe Liebgott has pointed it out to her. She always is just trying to do her best and do what is best in the situation - no longer it is about what is good or bad anymore to her, it's about doing what's best in the situation for the time being, and I really love that aspect of her character a lot! We can see that when the war ends, she wants to live on the English coast, far away from war all alone with a dog and even a little goat in a seaside cottage. She grew so attached to the word AWOL after Joe Toye came and sat with her that night in Holland and they talked for once about something other than war. She even withheld her name, her nationality and just about everything else to keep the idea of the cold-face agent she thought she was up so the men of Easy Company don't have to know the real her. But -- was it to protect her...or to protect Easy? All these little ideas I threw in there to show that she is actually, very, compassionate in many ways, and caring and attentive and observant of the men and women she works with.

I really try to show that Natia listens when she listens to someone speak and she observes and she pays attention more than anything. And she ends up, holding information like that close to her and finding comfort in it.

My goal with Natia was to show that there can be a balance to "the bad-ass fighter" idea who fights for what she believes, but also remain human as well. We can see how much things affect her, especially the loss of friends. Of course, she doesn't show this to other people, but to use as readers, we see this and we see her occasional breakdown - and in a way, she continues living on their legacies because she listened to what they had to say. For example, Zdzich told her to not let the war overtake her, and throughout the story so far, we've see her sort of repeat this to herself in various ways. Because Zdzich meant that much to her. She's lost so much by this point in war that almost it's so sad to see that she, from what we all know of BoB, still has to go through so much, but at that point, she's fought so much, that all she can do it keep pushing on with it.

I think one of the most interesting moments from writing Natia was when the first few chapters were actually uploaded on platforms and there was someone really coming after Natia for her decisions and for this, that and the other thing (amy if i vaguely remember i think you remember who this person is as well because you clapped back at them once, and man your response was GOLD!!!). One of those things was Natia's approach with food (TW: mentions of struggling to eat with food, references of depression and struggling to eat, mental health issues relating...) and the person who commented would always be saying something about how she needs to eat, and she needs to remain strong and she needs to snap out of it with her depression and all this other stuff and to be honest, I sort of sat there for a moment like??? But there's reasons WHY she's not eating? Why she's holding back? (And of course ones I had mentioned so...) But let's move on.

Mental health was a prevalent thing in World War 2, though it was not looked upon fondly and Natia essentially does have depression as well as a border-line eating disorder. And so when the comment said that she had to snap out of it, I don't know it sort of off-put me because I have family with both those disorders and they've had treatment for it for years and you can't just snap out of it. I really tried to stress that 'the snapping-out-of-it" does not work, and the person kept firing back a bit at it, so I just moved on from it and ignored it. Natia's struggle with eating, as one can see, also comes from the heavy guilt and grief that is slowly uncovered throughout the story of what Natia has done and what has happened throughout the course of the war to her. Natia's number one thing she constantly does and has now become the focus of many character relationships with her (ie Doc Gene Roe) is the clenched fists, that she squeezes until they bleed and eventually need wrapped up by the Doc. Something she also refuses to accept she has a problem with. As we can see, acceptance is a concept she struggles with more than anything and something she will essentially have to learn to simply, accept.

That's just sort of one of the many bits of information about her character that I added, especially in society today as mental health is so important and so I just wanted to share a bit of the backlash I got from someone for it. But I guess that's life, but I'll continue to write Natia Filipska as an OC who does struggle with depression because of her life in war.

Natia's character and her story is probably one of the most complex characters and stories I've written and crafted and created and I'm just extremely happy with how she ended up coming out in the end! I'm about to go and do some writing and editing for her and it's just so exciting writing her because of all these various levels she withholds and she slowly lets uncover as the story unfolds! I just love it! OH - and we can't forget about the infamous mentions of the piano....yep that'll be coming up soon haha!! <3

THANK YOU FOR THE QUESTION AMY!!! IT MEANT SO MUCH!!!! just getting to talk about Natia a little bit and her character and what my mind set was creating her - it means so much. my mindset with her is somehow always changing and shifting as she goes through her character arc throughout the story and how her developmental shifts and it's just something i really love and enjoy more than anything!!! <3 so thank you for letting me just talk about it for a little while as well as my thoughts and opinions, it means a lot :)

#character analysis #natia filipska #agent fidel #landslide #bob fic #band of brothers #band of brothers fic #OC #band of brothers OC #thank you amy!#this was very fun to put together i will say!#tw: mentions of depression/slight eating disorder #ALL QUEUED UP !!!!

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The Pirate and the runaway Princess pt. 8

Pairing: Amira White x Captain Hook/Killian Jones

28 years in storybrooke maine was the worst that could of happened to all of us, me included. For one I was in the beginning stages of being pregnant and because of this curse nothing progressed! For the first 14 years my life in storybrooke consisted of a job working in Granny's diner. Regina had come in there frequently but I never worked the time she was in there until one day she noticed me working there and our paths crossed. Clearly she had it out for me cause she made me quit working for Granny and work for her as her assistant. In this town you didn't say no to the mayor no matter what. The first four years were a living nightmare doing all her errands and she didn't really care. Needless to say I was there when she had Henry growing up, I'd have to walk him to the school bus when she was pulled in for meetings or pick him up from school. Yes, my sister and I crossed paths but we didn't remember we were sisters after all her name was Mary Margaret Blanchard and I was Selena Marriott. Let's just say there isn't anything to really tell but the moment the curse was broken after my niece had been there awhile, My memories came back in a rush.

"Killian, Snow" Amira said softly as I dropped the papers

Regina wasn't there at least not at first so I set the papers down and I ran out going to find the crew. You probably thought I was going to find my sister first, right? Nope, I went to find the crew first knowing I needed to get my story straight on how I was going to tell my sister she was going to be an aunt. Needless to say i came across Smee first and even though I didn't have my pirate attire I had to keep my act on it.

"Smee!" Amira said

Smee looked at me almost as if in shock and went over "Selena, we wondered what happened to you and the captain." Smee said to me

"I saw him before the curse, he tried to break me out but my step mother interfere offering him a deal. Have you found him?" Amira asked

"I'm sorry Selena, when we were brought to this land he wasn't with us." Smee said

Those words went through my head several times, he wasn't with us here? All I could wonder is where was he and if he was alive. He told me he was a survivor so in my heart I felt he was alive. I didn't have to even tell Smee as he ran off and rounded up the men who surrounded me seeing I was there but our Captain was not.

"Selena, what should we do? Without the Captain we don't know." One of them said

"Your in charge Selena, it's your call." Smee said

'My call? I'm not the first mate Smee was.' Amira thought as she looked at her crew members "Wait why me? Smee your the captain's first mate." Amira asked

"Sorry Selena, but your the captain's girl now. You spent more time with him then any of us." The men said

'Spent more time with him? Oh yeah, we spent time but it wasn't always talking that's how I ended up the way I am now. Pregnant and unsure if I'll ever get to tell him.' Amira thought but she smiled at them "Everyone just stay local and for now keep updates." Amira said

I left them later to find my sister, to face what I knew would be probably disappointment. It was a little time before I found her and her husband hugging each other. Distracted as they were kissing I snuck up on them and laughed a bit. Snow was startled by what I did but I couldn't help it.

"Ami?" Snow asked

"Hi" Amira said

Snow embraced me and I hugged her back knowing I couldn't be more happy to see my only sister. We were the last living family members we had for the longest time and now she was married, her daughter was close in age with us. Talk about feeling old when you're still young and well there's Henry who's my Great Nephew.

"I was going to come look for you but I didn't know where you were." Snow said to me and I laughed a bit rubbing the back of my head.

"Yeah I know but I had to find some of my crew mates." Amira said

It was no lie I was a pirate, even now without my pirate gear I just needed to find the Jolly Roger or some portal to go home to get my outfit back. Snow could tell something was up, needless to say we always could figure out the other had something to hide and I had something to hide big time.

"What's wrong?" Snow asked

"Nothing's wrong entirely just well How do I say this?" Amira said and I thought about my next words to my sister. I chose the only words I could figure was logical "Your going to be an aunt."

I waited but Snow hugged me which was more than I expected but it was true. "I'm so happy for you, have you told him yet? Wait where is your captain?" Snow asked me

I sighed and shook my head "No I haven't told him yet, I never had the courage too. He's not here snow. I don't know if he's alive or dead cause of Regina." Amira said

I wished that was the least of my worries finding him, knowing where he was but it was only the beginning. A mist formed and everyone freaked out, true our powers were gone in this land with no magic. Yet there was a purple mist coming our way and well David pulled my sister to him and I hugged my sister knowing I didn't know what was going to happen as it went in the town. I felt my powers return, yes I'd practiced light magic for going up against my step mother.

Everybody gathered together and for the first time I got to meet my niece who I'd wanted to meet for a long time. You could imagine my surprise when she had blonde hair when both her parents did not and she was powerful I could tell that.

"Emma, right?" Amira asked

"Yeah and you're Selena." Emma said

"Well actually I'm your Aunt. Snow's my sister." Amira said

Emma was taking in all this and I couldn't blame her yet now that magic was returned. I knew there was a way to find Killian. I was going to find him, like he found me in the castle Regina locked me up in but I knew in my heart somehow we'd always find each other. I spent most of my time with my sister and some of it with my crew mates keeping the peace of what was going on.

Keeping my pregnancy secret from them was no problem, I'd come accustomed to lying to protect myself in any case necessary so they never saw anything past what I said. Still when a Wraith was in town I knew that was not going to be good.

"Hide! Stay away from the Wraith!" Amira said

The men followed my directions, one wanted to stay with me but I insisted he stick to the plan. We were lost without Killian and I was biding my time to find him. I didn't think much was going on in town after all it's only been two days of peace with Regina locked away.

The wraith was flying all over town, I didn't know what to do but just stayed in the shadow and follow it to see what was going on. Needless to say it was first led to the jail where Regina was locked away. Now I had two choices here let it take her and we'd be free or save her from what was going on. My answer was simple, I needed the answers about Killian so I helped in preventing it from getting her this time.

"What are you doing here?" Regina asked me

I used the key to unlock her cell and grabbed her by the shirt collar "Where Is My Pirate?" Amira said to her

Regina looked at me for a moment before she laughed knowing who I was talking about. "He's alive Amira. He did as asked but clearly he didn't get to you in time dear." Regina said

"So where is he?! He's not in town!" Amira sid

When I said that she wondered what that meant, still she didn't give me an answer so I had to find him on my own. We all had a plan now on how to catch the wraith and let's just say I planned to jump in with it. One way or the other I was going back to our home land and finding him, I had to do this for me and for my unborn child. So when the plan was started I didn't get the chance to act in time because the wraith grabbed hold of my niece Emma.

"Shit." Amira said

When Snow jumped in needless to say I jumped in after her but it wasn't entirely to help my sister. Partly I was being selfish for once in my life going for the thing I wanted most but if there was a way to get back what I lost I'd do anything. When we landed let's just say it wasn't an easy landing nor was it probably the best choice to jump in knowing you were only going to get the love of your life. I don't know exactly where we landed as I was unconscious with Emma and Snow but my magic changed my outfit without me knowing.

#Colin O'Donoghue #killian jones #killian jones x reader #once upon a time #ouat #captain hook x oc #captain hook #Once upon a time fanfic #Fanfic

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