#i still have 5 assignments i didnt complete

[agtavio]

been busy, haven't drawn much BUT new blorbo

[i-cant-sing]

This is going to be interesting fr, like how much differently do your Theodore treat the reader if they were childhood friends

Yesss, but like imagine Theodore being a platonic yandere for his childhood bestie Y/n. He knows you inside out and knows every struggle you've been through, all your secrets, even the ones you've never disclosed to him (yes, he was outside your window on October 12th, 2008 when you didnt come to school because you were "sick" as you had told him but had actually started your period).

Imagine just how overprotective he is, and he's so mean about it too. Its in his nature. He's glaring at you as you tell him that he had no right to beat up your date just because that man had his arm around your waist because you were okay with it. Ofc he just rolls his eyes and tells you that you're too stupid to know what guys are actually like, that you dont know about the "locker room talk" and he's just trying to keep you safe from pervs but ofc youre too "dense" to see it. You could've thought that he might be doing it because he's interested in you like that, but no, he violently cringes at the mere suggestion of your friends that you two fight like a married couple, not to mention how he treats you more like a sibling than your own. Bullying you constantly, messing up your hair, putting you in headlocks as often as he could, kicking the back of your knees to watch you flop on the ground, anything he could do to annoy you.

But he's also very helpful, yknow? He pretends like he couldnt give a rats ass about your existence but will just scoff and yank your assignment from your hands and complete it. Working on your college essay? He reads it, insults you at how stupid it is, then write one for you in one sitting, actually writing about your personal experiences that moves the admission officers to fucking tears at the pure raw emotion it draws out of them. About to leave for a date and you ripped your dress? Signs to you that this is just universe telling you to ditch the guy but then one look at your sad face and he's pulling out an emergency needle kit from his pocket and sewing it up. He'll think of another way to end your date <3

Theodore is also very possessive of you. Even as kids, he would throw sand in other kids eyes just so that theyre too busy crying to approach you and try to play with you. In highschool, he's already built like a transformer and with him having this mean look on his face, people definitely hesitated to approach you, especially when you have this brooding man standing behind you, intimidating everyone who dared to step within 5 feet of you. Now that you two are adults, and Theo is still working as a spy, he would use his skills to take out people that become a little to important to you.

I feel like Theo isn't an animal person, he is definitely not a people person, but he also doesn't care much for pets and it's not even cause his work doesn't allow him to care for pets properly but I still think that he would get a dog trained specifically to keep you out of danger. Or more particularly, keep you in home and bark (and bite/mutilate) anyone who is not him. So if you got a date, make sure he's not picking you up from home.

Definitely definitely finds a way to make you move in with him, if not live next to him. Of course, he has a different place where he keeps his work stuff and gear hidden, but he needs to live with you for his own sanity. And even though he has trackers hidden all over your clothes and belongings, he still likes to ask you where you are, what you're upto, etc, just to see if you'd lie to him. And if you do, be prepared for a very pissed off Theo who is just huffing and puffing all day because how dare you not trust him, your best friend???? Offensive.

But also, when he finds out that someone, anyone made you cry, or even is causing you to stress out, guess who's pulling out their murder gloves?

[cluelylikesporn]

okay exam update cuz im actually really pissed off.

so im autistic + adhd, and only been diagnosed relatively recently, so i havent really been getting assistance until now. (autism diagnosis last year, adhd 2 years ago.)

my last exam was (still is) this period, and im going home once i finish it. one of my other exams i was sent to special ed (it’s called different things in australia and other schools but i dont wanna get doxxed) and the chick helping me (we’ll call her charlie) told me she couldnt even read the questions out to me… like i legit get more help in my normal exam conditions.

she told me WHILE HAVING A PANIC ATTACK “i think i know why your so upset, because you know you dont listen in class and just sleep and draw on your hand.” cunt, what..?

HOW ARE YOU WORKING WITH NEURODIVERGENT KIDS..?

i literally have spent my whole life wondering why i cant listen in class and hearing “just reread it.” or “your not listening hard enough.” is so fucking tiring. maybe explain it? she refused to help me because i “wasnt approved” to have a helper

the school knows im autistic so why do i have to be approved to get the help i need? like you dont have to make up all these forms and files. you have teachers who can help me literally in the building who could help me but you refuse.

okok i got rlly off topic but tldr on what happened today:

my teacher sent me to the special ed area to do my exam (last time he did they told me to go back) also shout out to my english teacher hes a legend. he gave me my sheet, i took a ritalin, said bye to the people i liked and left. (i used to take ritalin daily but now i jst take it to focus better in exams and shit)

i went to se and saw a couple kids i knew. one i hated and didnt know why he was there, one who has some mental problems so i understood why he was there. hes a sweetie. and some chick i knew who broke her wrist and had to write on a laptop.

so one by one they were assigned a teacher who would sit with them and help them/ read out questions and then the lady said “oh chloe your not supposed to be here, you have to go back to class.”

are you fucking kidding me.

i completely understand its not her or my teachers fault im not meant to be there, but im allowed to be a little frustrated. i asked why i kept getting sent here and why i couldn’t get help.

same shit about documents and boring stuff.

keep in mind i get ndis funding so i thought that would impact my education experience but nope, literally nothing. i also understand there could be things my mum hasnt done and that’s completely ok she has her own life, but also THE SCHOOL KNOWS IM AUTISTIC. that should be enough. its like i only get the help if i start ditching class and become an eshay or some shit like i shouldnt have to become a troubled kid to get help.

so the lady said my only benefit i even got from the school is like 5 minutes extra time. and she told me i could either go back to class or do my exam here( which means i could get no help/ questions read to me.)

ngl this was dumb of me but i said ok bc i didnt want to go back to class after saying bye to everyone😭

so i sat there with one airpod in, a pen that didnt fucking work, the only help i could get was eavesdropping on what the assistant teachers were saying but they were so quiet. i did manage to write some stuff but it was pretty fucking stressful. i couldnt stop thinking about what charlie said (the lady helping me with my maths the week before.)

this may sound super dumb but i saw a crow fly onto a table outside and i felt like it was watching over me. like it was looking right at me. it made me feel a bit better and i got some work done.

it wouldve been fine if those fucking assistant teachers didnt keep giving me pitiful looks like bro. i know im fucked.

anyway i finished my exam (barely) and went to the bathroom to tell my friend ab what happened, caught a bus home and am about to play dbd 😾

sorry for the long post im jst so pissed😭 but ily guys and ill post i swear🙏

song of the day:

[curio-queries]

Run BTS: 052 | BTS Escape

Original Air Date: 26 JUN 2018 Episode Length: 35:28 Total Parts: 1 YouTube English Subtitles: No Title Song: Blood Sweat & Tears

Synopsis: Official Escape rooms! the guys are divided into two teams and completing separate escape rooms to see which team completes theirs first.

Production: This was an excellent location to work with for an escape room episode. Having two teams do separate rooms that expanded into several spaces beyond the initial room was perfect for the visual storytelling. The edit was excellent as well. They had excellent pacing throughout whilst also keeping us up-to-date with both teams' progress. One note though regarding the two rooms for those that don't do escape rooms: There was a difficulty difference between the two. With the information shown to us this episode, i can tell you the main difference is Jin's room is pretty linear and the Jimin's is concurrent, which is what makes it more suited to a higher player count. the first room in Jin's space only has one puzzle to work on at a time, once they're done with that room, they only briefly have to return and they keep getting to progress to the next rooms. There aren't as many 'active' puzzle at the same time like Jimin's room. There's so many puzzles presented at first that the difficulty can be in knowing which ones to focus on that you can solve and which you just dont have enough information for.

Endearment: I do think Jimin's team was a little stronger in the endearment category. Jin's team was a little more focused on the puzzle than on being entertainers. Nothing wrong with that, we got to see how every member responds in this type of setting.

Winner: JN, YG, V (39min56sec 5 hints)

Loser: RM, JH, JM, JK (40min53sec 4 hints)

Best Cheater: There's a theory that i see go around occaissionallu about JK getting a peak at his team assignment before opting to switch with V but if you watch, he really only opens it halfway before he stops. So this only holds if the font is visible through the paper which it doesn't really look like it is. So I'm not counting this as a cheat. Everything else that we see in the ep was using the approved method of hints so I'm saying none for this ep.

Member Moments:

RM: Ah, RM. It took him a while to get used to the escape room ways but I think he's got it now!

JN: Jin has an interesting strategy for the escape room. Since he knows he's competing against the other team for speed, he has no hesitation calling for hints. They call for their first one barely 4 min in the room! Definitely not a common tactic but it works in this specific scenario.

YG: Yoongi is so thrilled with himself when he puts that cane in the right place!

JH: We've seen hints of this before, but i love Hobi's method of team-based problem solving. He's actually pretty intuitive regarding picking out info that's helpful and just shouts it out. (an excellent escape room strategy if you've never done one, have everyone say what they're finding/working on). anyway, i love his comments right at the beginning: 'who am i talking to?'

JM: I was confused the first time I watched this why Jimin was preselected to be one of the team captains but it's obvious that he actually enjoys this kind of activity. a puzzle that he knows he can solve, especially when he has the team lead role. I love seeing Jimin when he's confident as a leader.

V: V with Jin and Yoongi is such an interesting dynamic, especially in this kind of challenge. You can tell just how earnest he is and he wants to be a good helper to his hyungs.

JK: JK absolutely holds his own on this team. He speaks up when he sees connections and then proceeds with his theory if he others move on. a great teammate for an escape room.

Bonus Content: There is some good content in this one. great moments of memory squirrel jimin with his Polaroids and lots of extra footage that didn't make it into the ep (i still dont understand why they didnt give us the extra footage like this in the blue village episodes....)

CQ Rank: 4.5

(CQ Eval Date: 25 FEB 2024)

Check out this post for my Masterlist of all episodes and descriptions of how I'm evaluating these.

Previous Episode: 051

Next Episode: 053

[basslinegrave]

long time no talking about my ship so recently ive been thinking

about dynamics and swaps again, and how they would interact with the other from a different game, note: i have my own views about them at this point and each one of them has some specific traits based on canon things; most of their main characteristics overlap between different game versions but there are tiny details and traits that differ assigned by the terrible combo of canon content and my own delusions. lets go

i feel like 6 ling tong and 8 gan ning would be an interesting match, like i feel like they would fight the least? but maybe that would make it actually boring lol but i feel like 6 ling tong starts to really care about gan ning and 8 gan ning seems to care about ling tong

also i think 5 and 7 are just good as is, but 9 ling tong needs something better, at least mainline wise. mobile game has some good stuff, basically its not just completely one sided there... in 5 its mutual rivalry, in 7 they seem to come to something quite neutral or reach a new start, would even say they care for one another, but 9 feels like gan ning doesnt give two fucks except the mobile game that fed me two crumbs within the memory cards and the story, where gan ning was quite nosy lol but towards the end it was kinda flat, i do like one part but i prefer the dialogue for gan nings death in 9, the jp and cn voice acting got me, but it felt like somethings missing like how did we come to That. and after, why is ling tong now reminiscing and mentioning gan ning when he didnt show much care for him? if anything, only hatred? i gotta do everything myself and say it was a well kept secret or else its nonsensical lol

it was like. iykyk. if you dont you wouldnt give it much thought, so the dialogue is just for the few ppl that care so theyre fed (but man im still hungry!!)

in the end i feel like 8 gan ning is like the most caring one? like also a bit childish and a himbo but in the good way? i like that too, just keeping everything simple. so i wonder how he would be with the other ling tongs, like 9 would probably hate how friendly he is and angry cry about it (note: crybaby ling tong idea has been here since the very start and im on board with that and it has been revived in the mobile game. its real thank you) 5 would probably be the same i mean 5 gan ning did p much say the same thing as 8 but 8 would do it in even simpler terms and then be less of a brute? i dont know man theyre so different in my head than the actual game at this point i guess. also everyone hates 6 gan ning. and i havent thought about how stupid 5 and 6 gan ning has been portrayed in the manga..

getting lost in my own thoughts i remembered last year i was trying to make some graphic connecting them. i failed at it so badly as i got tangled.

heres an image. i am cropping out the color assignments because youd die of cringe but they are different levels/types of relationship.(at the latest point) i also Hope its unreadable. and btw, this is all only from ling tongs pov, i got totally lost on gan nings pov, when i realized i 99% of the time main ling tong and i dont take the time to look at gan ning under a microscope, and also the fact that most of gan nings routes just straight up dont have ling tong in them 😶 one sided hell

conclusion: "chase what the actual Fuck are you Talking About theyre the Same Characters hello?"

you dont get it like i do...

[naymiriasblog]

candor im in love with tighnari and albedo sm rn

how is it rooming with them during finals? do they notice how deeply buried you are in studying — or notice how the reader is about to have a meltdown over STEM? platonic or romantic, doesn’t matter (although… maybe a little bit of both?? <3)

:))

HII <33 tighnari so scrumptious so true, immaculate taste. i love both of these awkward stem majors so much. I was going to write for albedo too but by the time i was done word vomiting about tighnari i didnt have the energy 😭😭 im so sorry;; hope you like what i wrote for tighnari tho!! <3

. ⋅ ˚̣- : ✧ : – ⭒ ⊹ ⭒ – : ✧ : -˚̣⋅ .

(Platonic) Rooming with Tighnari is like having a mother away from your ACTUAL mother, except if your mother swore at you more every time you did something self-destructive. Although he likes to nag, I can totally picture him being the type to soften when he notices that this week has been particularly rough. Not too much though, especially if you're the type to be stubborn with taking care of yourself. Perhaps he helps you by taking care of small tasks around your shared living space, picking up around your room and making sure to pester you about your bedtime. "But, Tighnari, I--" you say! No BUTS. You are getting your butt out of that chair and taking a walk with him at the very least, but he is going to do everything in his power to get you to take a break.

(Romantic) If you were Tighnari's partner in this scenario, I don't think much would change--just maybe in appearance. Instead of trying to get you to take a walk, he might run a bath for you. He might set up your favorite movie, or TV show, and insist that you take a break (and snuggle with him on the couch). If you doze off on him, he won't even complain when he wakes up with various stiff joints.

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The door clicked shut behind Tighnari softly as he stepped foot into your shared living quarters. After staying out a little later at the request of Collei, who had requested his help with an upcoming test she had to do, he had expected to come home to a completely silent home.. that was not the case. The large ears perched atop his head twitched at the soft melodies of lo-fi music, a particular song that he often heard when you were cramming because of an upcoming deadline--

His brows furrowed in concern as he took off his coat, leaving it in the closet by the door to your shared flat before he made his way over to the bedroom. Tighnari nudged the door open with his foot, observing you as you sat with your legs crossed in front of your open laptop--the bright light from the screen burning into your eyeballs, and the soft comforter beneath you seemingly bringing you no comfort. He noted that your shoulders seemed tense, and your hands kept rubbing at your eyes--a small frown made it's way onto his lips. "..you're still awake?" He spoke, startling you from your work-induced haze.

You jumped at the sound of his voice, turning to look at your partner where he stood in the doorway of the bedroom. Your eyes seemed red-rimmed and bloodshot from staring at the screen for hours, the pressure from the heavy workload having gotten to you hours ago.. yet you continued to push past your limits, worried by the deadline on the imminent horizon. "Oh.. hey, Tighnari, yeah-- m'just.." you guestured lamely to the screen, hiding the scrunched Kleenex in your palm beside you. You were tired, and you wanted nothing more than to relax; but no matter how hard you worked, it seemed like the work never stopped. You couldn't remember the last time you were able to take a full day to yourself without thinking about an assignment.

"How long have you been chipping away at this?" Tighnari asked, walking closer to where you sat and plopping down next to you on the bed. His eyes narrowed as he looked to the screen, briefly skimming an assignment you clearly had been putting your heart and soul into.

"..dunno, I feel like I've aged 5 years." You replied, letting out a humored snort and leaning your head on your partner's shoulder as he hummed thoughtfully. "m'tired, 'nari."

"Why don't you take a rest?" He responded, placing his hand on your waist as you leaned in closer to him, "You've done good work today and you deserve a break. You can't get much done if you overwork yourself like this."

"But.. I can't, this assignment is due in two days and I've already procrastinated enough-- what if something else gets assigned on top of this?" You complained.

Tighnari's frown deepened, "If your professor puts more work on you in the coming days, then I'll personally go down there and give him a peace of my mind." He stated, mildly annoyed that your professor pushed his students this much to begin with. Tighnari let out a huff, before turning his head and pressing a chaste kiss to the crown of your head, "..but alas, my love," he began, "you've been working really hard, you deserve a rest. I don't plan on taking no for an answer here, either. I'll run a bath for you, how does that sound? Maybe we can watch movie afterwards as well. Anything to get you up off your rump."

You let out a small laugh at the idea of Tighnari scolding your professor. As amusing as the idea was, his offer of the break from work was as tantalizing as a fresh dessert. You lifted your head, meeting Tighnari's expectant gaze, and responding with a soft smile, "..that sounds lovely, Tighnari."

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[alejandramdcblog]

3D- FINAL CURATED PORTAFOLIO

1. sketched ideas from first weeks and movie notes day one.

-What motivates these artists? How do they go about collecting and assembling their work?

when we first start we have Schwitters with color and collage that gets motivated by the total freedom of his choice and materials. George Herms used burned up or out of junkyards object for his assemblage. With Betye Saar her motivation on the assemblage where she maintained issues of civil rights and issues of African-American equality. For Cornell his composition was white and black and also blue with layerings. Rausheberg he would use furniture or soda moving through space. Nevelson was like a collage she expressed herself like that. All of this artist collect for their assembling what they want to expressed and what they what art to be. Either to be free or to tell a story. But art always tells a story. It’s interesting seeing the different assembling that this artist make because all have different meanings and art elements.

2. Process photos from assemblage.

3. Assemblage- side by side photo of final product and artist statement and title.

“ A KIDS MIND”

- This was my first assignment that it was a little bit hard for me. I wanted to approarch this assignment by making it my own and having a little of me into it. The title that i selected was “A KIDS MIND” because when i was little i used to imagine so many things that it didnt make sense at the end. I also think that how a mind of a kid work with little animals or dinosaurs and also with many things that they see in the works that we just keep on our mind always. At the end i feel like i accomplish what message i wanted to give to the audience with a kids mind. The color also i wanted to be white because it how innocent a kid can be.

4. Process work for Soap Sculpture

5. Photo shoot of soap and final product with artist statement and title.

“ MOONS OF ICE”

i had so much fun with this assessment because how i came to approach this project is just to go with the soap and with nothing in mind. I didnt have something that i wanted to intend to do just i wanted to see what could came out of my carving. When it came to the three openings i struggled because i didnt know what to do or how to make the openings but successfully i came up with the opening just to make like a broken sculpture. With this i fell like i successfully came with what i wanted to do in my sculpture. For that i name it “Moons of Ice” becuase i feel like you could see different types of moon that we have in spaces, that they aren’t perfect but are beautiful at the same time.

6. Ephemeral Art - process photos 

7. Ephemeral art - completed project and photo shoot with artist statement and title.

“PORTALS”

For this project is was hard but easy at the same time give me a little bit of a struggle but i came tu approach this with just going with how the sticks where made and little by little i got to what i wanted. I didnt have in mind what i wanted to intend to i just saw and just guide myself with the sticks. With this i feel like i did my best and its successful to me. What i when with the tittle was “PORTALS” because it has openings that want you to come in and never come out.

8. Ready Made process photos.

9.Ready Made completed assignment , various photos , show different angles and include a brief artist statement with the title.

For this final I wanted the message to be about my experience having Covid-19, becuase I didnt have symptoms but my mom did have and even tough I was vaccinated and i was using my mask I still got covid. For this readymade I made a covid molecule attached to me and I am holding a mask as a parachute like its covering me and around me theirs crosses for also the people around me that sadly pass away. This piece is called “ THE RUNNER” because is like im running from Covid but its still attached to me anyway. With this project i wanted to have a sad story because Covid affected many people even thought it didnt affected me, many other families lost their family members. I still have mix feelings on how it came out, I still proud of what i made and hope I got my message express.

“THE RUNNER”

10.Final Artist statement explaining the different processes from the semester

This was my first time doing 3D classes and learning how additive, subtractive, and constructive work. Theres was first the addictive that i feel like it was the assemblage assignment because we need to use so many things to make a story out of it. The subtractive would be the carving assignment because we were taking out soap to make a shape. The constructive would be the ephemeral assignment because we had to make something out of sticks. For me my favorite process for this would be Constructive because is something that you making slowly and everything is just there to do. For this I would recommend taking 3D because is an experience that you put yourself to make things that you draw in 2D in reality and learn from it.

11. Show how you used the sketchbook during the semester . Post 3-4 pages titles Sketchbook.

ARTIST STATEMENT

This class make me want to do more stuff in 3D. It was my first time talking 3D classes and honestly it was a good experience and i want to make more 3D art because there are so many things you can come up in 3D art. My favorite materials for this class would have been the sticks that we use for the Ephemeral Art assignment it was a good experiences and also i love this assignment i just concentrated everything into it. I love hope it turn out and hope to do more stuff like this in the future. I would only had one obstacle and it was the final assignment because I didnt know what to do and had a hard time thinking on how to express the Covid message. But at the end i am happy with what i could come up with and it make me learn that its okay to make mistakes in art. Another one would be the soap but it just the material was a little bit hard but is one of my favorite that we i did this semester. With that I want to say thank you to my Prof for helping through this semester and making me learn new ways of seeing art and hope in the future i can inspired someone as my Prof did.

[otakusheep15]

hey im the anon who said ill hit rook once in my life if he existed irl.

I totally agree with what u said about rook's potential being wasted. It too made me uncomfortable watching his interactions and but then at times i end up laughing because of the exaggeration or his actions like when in the halloween event he just started singing out of nowhere very cheerfully in contrast to their stuation. But then i think, what if they deliberately wrote his character to not be very likeable to the viewers because hes based off the huntsman

"Yes, Vil appreciates his opinions and perspectives, but many other characters don't, and they express this heavily, especially the non-human characters" Yep this is what i mean by when he gives unsolicited advice and him failing to be socially appropriate. I really want him to read the social cues. I really hope to see his character development cause we didnt really get that in ch-5 or 6 cause while we do get sides of rook we dont normally see he still hasnt stopped being entirely a creep or or trying to improve on it. While rook's intentions arent bad his actions are very uncomfortable, i really wish the writers would give him his character development so i wouldnt have this like-hate feelings towards him even if it means they graduated nrc cause at least my man got better

"So we can't really confirm if his traits are a result of trauma like the others." the fact that we dont know much more about rook makes it much harder to bear his presence at times, we know more about vil and epel and a got more than a glimpse to understand what their relationship with their parents but with rook.....everything about him mysterious we dont really know much even about his family while we know that epel has a grandma and ace has a older brother,etc and generally doesnt like speaking about himself. I hope to see him open up to someone or seeing the world from his eyes from the past to the present.

"Plus, unlike the majority of characters, Rook is not based on a villain, he's based on the huntsman from Snow White. So, realistically, he should be one of the morally best characters, and he shouldn't be as bad as some of the "villain" characters."

not really,the huntsman isnt really a good character, he is introduced to us as a villain in the beginning who plans to kill snow white and spares her. The Huntsman is not necessarily good, because of his agreement to kill Snow White, but the reason he couldnt bring himself to kill her was because of how much she resembled an innocent child and after failing to complete his task he's try to deceive the queen because he wants to save her and himself as well. This shows the huntsman had a little bit of conscience despite him agreeing to take another's life and almost succeding to do so if she hadnt turned towards the huntsman direction and giving a shriek which was the final straw that he couldnt do that. He is a villain but not a major one at that. His morals are also in a grey area when u consider that and that the queen wouldnt assign a rookie who just killed animals to kill a human being. And rook isnt morally bad and could possibly be consider good because he saved neige from drinking vils poison and trying to help vil in the process in both chap-5 and 6. He has mostly all the time been honest and isnt morally bad in theory but in practicality he sucks at interacting with others even if he doesnt mean it.

"I wish that I could like Rook more, I really do, but he just gives me too much ick, and I apologize to all Rook lovers for that."

Please dont apologise for not liking a character. U have very valid reasons for not liking him. I hope in the future that rook is more considerate of others and that u slowly start to like him a little bit. The fact that u tried to see him in a better light even tho u couldnt is still admirable for the fact u tried to see the better inside of him and for that i thank u because most of the fandom just disregards him and takes no weight of his actual character

Honestly, I can agree with you. There are moments where I do enjoy Rook's character. The Halloween event is probably the only time he hasn't made me feel super uncomfortable, and I found myself actually wanting to see more of him, especially with how funny his dynamic between him, Trey, and Sebek was.

I also really want to see his character development in game. I remember absolutely hating characters like Riddle, Azul, and Vil during their feature chapters, but then loving them after they get their character development. Even more minor characters like Ruggie and the Tweels were much more enjoyable once they were redeemed, so I do hope the same happens to Rook at some point.

As much as I love mysterious characters, I do wish to learn more about Rook. He seems so fascinating, and I want him to open up more about his life. Like, he's the only non-beastman character who comes from Sunset Savannah, and I wanna hear more about that. Is he secretly part beastman? Is that why he's so obsessed with the non-human students? I really wanna find out.

I do see where you're coming from about the Huntsman not technically being a "good guy," but I do respectfully disagree. In game, the characters use void magic, as I'm sure you know. Most of them have dark void magic, but three of them are different. Rook, Kalim, and Silver all use a light form of void magic. Silver and Kalim are both based off of non-villain characters (Aurora and the Sultan respectively) which makes sense. The fact that Rook is the only other character with light void magic leads me to believe that, at least according to the devs, Rook, and therefore the Huntsman, are not villains. However, I do agree that Rook isn't morally bad at all, and I do genuinely believe that most of his off-putting nature stems from a lack of social skills. I lowkey headcanon that he didn't have many friends or neighbors growing up, leading to his strange form of interacting with others. I think he could honestly benefit from someone teaching him how to talk to others without creeping them out.

And, yeah, I do have a tendency to apologize when I disagree with someone. I just don't want them thinking I'm trying to start something with them or anything lol. But, really, I do try to see all characters in a good light at least once before I immediately start hating them. In my opinion, all characters deserve a chance, especially in a game where most of them are based off of villains. I do want to like Rook so bad because I love the Huntsman character from Snow White, and Rook does have such an interesting character design to him, both in looks and personality. I hope the devs give him some type of story arch, or at least a side story that delves more into his character.

Also, side note, I like how you cited quotes from my previous post. As someone whose favorite subject in high school was english, it made me laugh a bit, in a good way ofc /pos.

[sapphicshart]

I posted 28,002 times in 2022

That's 14,882 more posts than 2021!

198 posts created (1%)

27,804 posts reblogged (99%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

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I tagged 2,068 of my posts in 2022

#cat - 463 posts

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#my mutuals are all hot no exceptions - 421 posts

#cars - 168 posts

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#yearnposting - 150 posts

#mongooseposting - 120 posts

#birbs - 112 posts

Longest Tag: 134 characters

#not difficult at all and the laptop definitely had an easy port to change it and i didnt have to completely disassemble the damn thing

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

jim henson's amogus babies

60 notes - Posted February 3, 2022

#4

Jane Birkin as Sofia in Goncharov (1973), Production Still

119 notes - Posted November 20, 2022

#3

today is a good day to respect and cherish trans women

189 notes - Posted July 8, 2022

#2

i see lots of posts about healing from trauma and new beginnings but so many of them feel like they are directed at teenagers or young adults, not quintagenarians who are newly permanently disabled.

but then i think about how tree stumps can be kept alive long after you would assume they are dead, because the other trees feed them nutrients, and sometimes they even sprout again!

and that actually feels more hopeful to me. it's never gonna happen that i will recover and be like i was before, but it IS possible that with support from my friends and the mycelial network, i will still be beautiful, still grow, and one day maybe even sprout again

and it's the most hopeful i've felt in years

422 notes - Posted October 9, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

i was uh taking a uquiz like you do and noticed THIS ONE

678 notes - Posted September 22, 2022

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[kingsephir]

My short term memory has been getting really bad. Like short term short term- like I forget what im doing and i forget where I put something when I was holding it not 2 seconds before and I spend 5 min trying to find it- but I am still capable of learning new things and studying. I know it’s probably a combination of my slight substance abuse and borderline alcoholism as well as depression and being alone for so long.

I’m having a time where I feel a bit like I’m breaking from reality. Like usually I feel quite grounded and secure but I feel like gravity has gone in reverse and im floating up barely holding on and things I don’t understand are rippling just below the surface. And like, I like learning new things and things I have never considered but lately- maybe its just bc of my fried brain rn- I feel there are things just beyond my grasp but within my awareness. It has me…. Anxious. Things that never bothered me before are bothering me and I feel a little out of control like my own sense of self is slipping through my fingers.

I’ve felt like this before, in college I went through an amount of time (I still don’t know how long it was) where I would dream each day as it was and I couldn’t tell the difference between dream or real life. I didn’t know what to do so I just did my best everyday and took notes and left notes everywhere so I knew when to do things and what to do. How I realized I must be dreaming was that stuff I’d completed the previous day was gone and also never assigned but then later it would show up again and be due. Or i’d make plans and either not show up (bc i could not get the day right) or show up and they didnt (bc I actually hadn’t invited them but then they’d be mad that I didn’t show up a couple days later) Just stuff that did not line up and everyone conspiring against me was the more insane scenerio. (Imo) Anyways I’ve been getting that same unnerved feeling I did then.

But I don’t think that is happening like with the dream stuff- my dreams are normal rn. I really probably think it’s just being alone too much, lack of physical touch (which makes me start to feel unreal), and light substance abuse. 😔

I think i’ll feel better when my husband returns (11 days!!) and im gonna do a complete substance detox in a month or so and just do a lot of cardio and get that brain power back to baseline. For now I think im gonna start carrying a lil notebook on like a chain so i can always be writing in it if I do something I need to remember. Btw i’m sleeping fine so I don’t think that is an issue.

Idk just some thoughts. It helps me to write them. I feel more grounded already. :))

[xxbend0v3rxx]

12 college algebra lessons back to back im gonna implooode [ i was supposed to do them spaced out over the past 5 weeks but i didnt work on any of them until now so i just did them all in one sitting cause theyre past dueee ] only other past due assignment i still have is a lab for physics that i dont even think i have the materials to complete and then this weeks assignments i still have to do are two physics quizzes, a written history assignment, and an essay for english which isnt baaad i guess

[zims-left-antenna]

i've noticed a pattern after ive taken my third uni course (fourth course i take because i had to repeat the first one-- got a bad grade the first time). idk what to do about it cuz my bachelor's is not smth that interests me 😭 not a fan of programming yknow

week 1: full motivation !! everything on time !!

weeks 2 and 3: still good. everything fine. my fav weeks even.

week 4: this is when the procrastination and lack of motivation start kicking in, slowly. it coincides with lessons getting more difficult too, because for the first 3 weeks i didnt have to make much effort (if at all?) to understand and learn. from that point on i mostly, if not always, read the lessons and complete my assignments at 1 am on a rush (deadline is saturday 2:59 am..)

week 5: the lessons become increasingly more difficult and i get less motivated. it may get a bit boring too (after all im not studying a career that fully interests me, im there for the moneyy). i usually start missing assignments here, because i get overwhelmed

weeks 6 and 7: i need chatgpt to do my homework for me or else my grade will drop from an A to a D

honestly idk why im posting this but yknow what. whatever. its almost 2 am and i dont wanna go to sleep

[tearsofcalamity]

lowkey! don't know what it means to transfer to a bachelor's program i googled it and still couldn't connect the dots to my country's educational system so the clown nose for me! but whatever it means i wish luck & courage the only 2 things you need in uni really. as for me, end of the semester means Shit, I've Been Bullshitting Around For A Whole 5 Months, And Now I Kinda Need To Get 4 Assignments Done, Pick Up The Textbooks I Should've Gotten 3 Months Ago, And Figure Out What Fucking Classes I'm Even Enrolled In For Exams. so double clown nose.

btw i think i might rlly need to get back to hsr bc who is boothill!!! why are we fucking a robot (?)!! why's his name that!!???

ooh sorry!! lemme explain a bit!! I'm american and we and some other countries use a degree program so like it goes associate's degree which usually takes like 2 years, bachelor's degree which takes like 4, and master's which can take a varying amount of years depending on what subject it's for!

I'm currently in community college which usually focuses on associate's degrees. I've been in my program for 2 years so I'm graduating with a business administration and economics degree in just a week after finals :) then I'll be transferring to a new college that has bachelor's degrees available, because my current one doesn't have bachelor's only associate's. but I'll only be going to the new college for 2 years because technically I already "completed" the requirements for the first 2 years. it's a little weird/complex sorry for the rant!! I hope that kinda made sense!

I AM WISHING YOU LUCK & COURAGE AS WELL!! I'm also wishing you ease in all those tasks ;;; that sounds like a lot but I'm sure you can get through it!! final stretch!!!

ALSO YESSS!!! PLEASE get back into hsr I'll go and put an image of him down here but boothill's a galaxy ranger which is a faction in hsr that follows the hunt and is basically a vigilante group. he's a dashing cyborg cowboy w a silky smooth voice <3 <3 <3 his backstory is VERY sad too. he just appeared in the recent update BUT he's been leaked for a while I think since back in like january ish (?) I ADORE HIM AND I DIDNT THINK I WOULD SOOOO IT SUCKS CAUSE IM GONNA NEED TO SPEND MONEY ON PULLING HIM LOL

also I should note he cant swear LOL he got his translation implant fucked with so every curse word is replaced w something safe like fuck = fudge, son of a bitch = son of a nice lady etc.

also also! his name is a reference to cemeteries made for gunslingers in the 19th/20th centuries of western america. it's a reference to how they "died with their boots on" hence the name boot hill

here he is oughghghghgh <3 <3 <3

[shadowbannedthehedgehog]

today's 5 test run down test 1 was a french oral exam with the man i am viscerally hate n i went to one of his classes this half sem n i was completely unfamiliar with the topic n potential qs n i skipped his presentation last week so i was like had many reasons to be worried but it didnt go too bad? i got to work with my og partner so tht def helped n i mean it wasnt perfect but like considering everything we were able to pull it off so. test 2 was french listening comp which is usually one of my strongest points but oof again lack of preparation n too many skipped classes but still not terrible. test 3 was french lit like i wasnt super prepared for this tho i tried to be n i was worried but like i finished the intro n 4 body paragraphs n started the conclusion n i didnt have many critics but i did include like 2 3 times which is better than nothing so the results shld be ok enough. test 4 ouchie french reading comp literally the whole class' downfall no one does good in this literally we have no ability to read and understand adjfak; oops! and idk for some reason i was super sleepy n i cldnt stop dozing off n i have no idea what i wrote i felt like i cldnt understand any of the questions n i stopped trying at some point lol. test 5 oh my beautiful french essay exam it was perfect usually my fav component n despite test 4 n 5 being back to back i was no longer sleepy n i cld focus n think clearly n i wrote n had so much fun writing like i love this exam. now we hv 2 more in course tests on thurs n fri n then 2 final tests n like 5 assignments to hand in due between tomorrow n i think next week fri

[kidkintsugi]

i never knew it would get to this point, but:

a LOT of people have taken a liking to me to the point that im considered popular and i despise it.

tw very brief mention of sh towards the end

i try my hardest to be kind even when faced with rude or careless people. this makes me a gigantic people pleaser, also meaning that i attract a lot of people that either try to leech off of me or people that are just plain weird!! im a bit weird myself but theres always bigger fish and BROTHER im barely a guppy in this metaphor.

but these new people are good people (aside from my flatmate im still pissed. fuck him). i want to be good to them in return because i cant remember a time i have ever been treated this nicely.

this comes at a price. i am a very private person and i enjoy and value my spare time ALONE. some people are aching to be in the position im in but to me its painful.

i want to spend time with you but ive ran out of energy. i would never tell you off though because i know that youre feeling lonely and i dont want you to dwell on your feelings all alone. i want to be there for you but im so, so exhausted.

i want to help you with this assignment because you asked so nicely, but keep in mind that i will completely lose focus of my own tasks and end up as a burnt out pos by the end of the deadline because of it. theres also 5 other people asking for my help.

yes, you may do all of the art related parts of our project. i wanted to do some art stuff as well, but the guy that wanted to program for us has been calling in sick and well, somebody has to do it and if you dont want to then i might as well get busy huh! its an opportunity to learn i should be happy about it!

yes i can bring you food. you also called in sick and i care about you. i know how hard it is for you to ask for help, but you did so well asking me and so i will bring you some food from the store. i might have sacrificed my entire break and didnt get any food for myself because i was in a rush, but im glad to see you happy.

yes i will continue to spend time with you even though your constant romantic advances and hints scare me shitless. i value as a friend and pointing out your flirting will either get me ridiculed or destroy the wonderful friendship we have. please just stop touching me (not like i would ever have the balls to say that)

how could i ever say no to you when i love you so so much.

my skin tingles with the urge to inj/re myself. its like electricity below my skin and theres no other way for me to do it than to scratch bite and cvt like a rabid animal.

i stopped tracking the time i was clean; i will probably never be. its not worth trying anymore.

i just wanna sleep bro. why wont you hate me like the others did. please dont expect so much im practically useless.

i hope this all ends soon.

[millionsorganel]

2022

(Wrote in 22/12/22)

This year is almost done. 1st January 2022, i dont really picture what to achieve other than completing my never ending assignments and struggle to finish my degree. That time i was so scared, so anxious I couldn’t finish my degree like how i wanted for so long. Time pass by. During semester break in March i have trip to Penang with my friends like how we planned (after a year postponed) spending time with them for 3 days and how short it is compared to when we were in diploma years we met everyday, i miss those moment and realize it will never be the same anymore. I hoped we all achieve our dreams i will always prayed the best for them. I hoped even after 20 years we still there for each other even we no longer in the same path like how we met before. I always blessed with unexpected rezeki. A week after, my aunty offered to join her trip to tioman bcs her friends couldn’t make it. I just payed half of the expenses for the trip and it is one of the best unexpected trip to go. I always grateful for that. In april, i started my final semester, this time there are classes in hybrid and physical. I didnt get college and had to going back and forth bangi shah alam like in March 2020 before covid happens. Of course i never like shah alam before, i always feel i never belonged there. Aby (my friend) offered to stay with her sometimes since she got college and she will be attending more physical class. There are few times i stay with her when im tired to go back. I started getting close to her in 2019 we were housemate and same place for internship. It was four of us, until we entered degree we still close. And when covid happen, i think she is one of friend that I regularly kept in touch and met. Before she was having hard time but recently she getting a job that she really happy with and back near her home, im so happy for her.

My final semester was not the best, i juggling with every emotions, i felt alone, i was trying very hard, going back and forth, seeing everyone travelling, working, having their own money to spend where i still nowhere. It was so hard. Till the very end, i still cannot believe in myself to completing this degree. 5 August 2022, im officially finished and complete my degree. Submitted my final thesis and sitting exam for the last time. I go back home with all heavy burden lifted but i feel overwhelmed at the same time. Next day, i jumped to a roadtrip with my highschool friends, it was fun and best trip because for the first time i dont have to think about my study, my thesis or my assignments. It was one of the best moment in my life. We checked in at a beautiful boutique hotel. It also the first time we met nani’s boyfriend. I think he was shy with us, we rarely make any conversation and i kinda feel bad to joined their date. But i can see they clearly loves each other, i prayed the best for them!!!! Our on the way back was all fun until we almost arrive home.. we had a small accident. a bit traumatised bcs involve big lorry and it was at the highway and things could go really bad if we are not lucky. We made police report and all those things and arrived home safely. Back from the trip, i am officially unemployed and yes i have been job hunting ever since. It was up and down moment for me seeing my friends landing their first job only after a month graduate. I try to think positive it not yet my rezeki, my time will come soon. Idk i just hope i landed my first job this year but now less than 10 days to 2023, im not getting any job offer yet. During this 4 months of unemployed and job hunting, i try to rediscover myself, i wanted to be better, i wanted to change bad habits. Slowly but surely. I hoped i become better next year. I also going to few places that was not in plan. I went to perak with my family, trip to singapore with my parent as birthday trip and went to genting with my cousin. Im trying to enjoyed those moment that i will maybe no longer can do it after i landed a job. Deep inside i know Allah has planned something bigger for me that i have been waited patiently. But as human, theres a time i questioning why im still jobless, why im still like this, why im not like others. Having 9-5 job (they hated) but had that adult money to spend. Maybe it just because of money, i know i have to trust Allah in this but i still have to do something right?

I know i have to start somewhere but I couldn’t find where to begin. Idk if im not meant to be an engineer or it just not my time yet? Im scared i will become a failure to my family. I am a burden now, i wanted to help my family financial crisis. But im lowkey scared to start randomly. I hoped i have the courage to start again.

22 December 2022, 11.19 pm