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lanshappycorner · 8 months
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Recently I've been kinda quiet on here and it's not that I don't like byakusho enough to talk abt it its just that 90% of my brainpower is spent rambling on twt......sorry 💔
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suntails · 5 months
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I’m going to paint you a picture of modern communication, and how it is fundamentally broken.
Let’s look at one friend. You chat pretty much everyday, and mostly talk to this person on twitter and discord, with occasional tumblr DMs. That’s three places you talk. But that’s actually not true, because you also have each other’s priv twitters and talk there as well. That’s four. Now account for, let’s say, one post reply per account per person, in addition to your DMs. That’s eight. But that’s ALSO not true, because not only do you talk in discord DMs with each other, but you’re in a friend group server as well! And you talk in those channels together! That’s nine.
This is one friend.
Now look around you. How many friends, how many mutuals are you in contact with. A few, a handful, a dozen, more? How many accounts per person do you have, how many places can you send each other posts, devolve into separate topics and conversations? How many people text you as well. Friends, family, coworkers? What do you do day to day around catching up, what IRL commitments will rip you away long enough to let the pile build again?
I can’t do it. I cannot live an actual life in the real world and balance this much interaction, it’s crushing. I reply to a friend’s post because I’m interested in the subject, I want to have a discussion! I WANT to talk about it with them, but I immediately kick myself for adding another conversation to the pile. Day by day, I ignore messages for hours on end and watch mountains pile around me, to reply en masse at the end of the night to let the cycle repeat. I wake up to six discord DMs and as I clear the third, the first replies back again.
We weren’t meant to have thirty simultaneous conversations. We weren’t. And you know in your bones that the number isn’t an exaggeration.
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torsamors · 2 months
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i realize ive been posting a lot on here lately n telling myself ‘who cares’ after typing out posts has rly truly helped in that
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limielle · 11 months
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idk i feel like so much discourse could be easily minimized if people learned to say "i think" instead of "it is"
#like “i think this is a bad game” is way less abrasive/aggressive than “this is a bad game”#do u know where im going w this like#it's literally 2 extra words and it could avoid like 99% of confrontation#ofc there would still be people who are like “omg how can u hate smth i like ur trash” but idk i feel like so much of this discourse u see#on twt especially#is like ? just people being deliberately aggressive abt stuff they dont like to antagonise others and then going “its just my opinion”#and it's hard to read tone online so it's often hard for me (and im sure for others ?? idk actually) to read whether or not sm1 is being#like. just sharing what they think vs them trying to bait out people who will defend smth they like#idk ive been trying to find ffxiv people to follow bc getting back into the game and finally being confident in my art to draw for it also#has me looking for ppl to follow but i wanna avoid the big livetweet first time experiencers and unfortunately that leaves#a lot of people who are afraid of dawntrail/unhappy with the current patch quests#of which i am neither and i also dont want to log on to the internet every day just to see ppl shitting on things u know ?#and i have seen a LOT of like#'x sucked' and 'fandom lacks critical reading skills' and whatnot#but then u see what theyre talking abt and all theyre doing is shitting on the game itself or going 'x expansion was mid'#like . if u stopped phrasing ur opinions as objective fact i feel like maybe ud avoid half those arguments id k???#just words#SORRY im talkative today the truth is i worked on a drawing veyr hard and i do not have the strength to colour it but it will not look good#without colour and i feel like i cant move on without it so i went and replayed shadowbringers instead and cried a lot#and now i have lots of icarus feelings again#WOW loiok at me writing an essay out here i overshare so much im sorry
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gregoftom · 1 year
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no but seriously. i find it really fascinating how there is such a similarity between the way tomgreg and tedbecca shippers are treated, at least on twitter. here the “temperature” as they would say on succ sesh is a lot more tepid, but on twitter my god ppl either hate tomgreg [which is Okay ofc but like. i mean hate it to the point of being unnecessarily cruel] and its shippers or completely ignore its existence, and you know, it’s the same for tedbecca. there’s lots of. i guess “evidence” for both but ppl will stick their fingers in their ears and go lalalaaa and say they have no idea what we’re talking about. and i said it’s fascinating bc you have a mlm ship and a straight ship and both are treated in this fashion, and i guess i’ve never seen a straight ship shunned like this before. like, ever. and especially one which seems so... idk tame? i guess? and idk wtf tedbecca did to people but there are a lot of antis for it. like quite a few people would rather rebecca got with some rando than ted, or there is this weird push for her to have been sa by the guy who saved her from the canal. with succ its a lil different because there’s not so much of a focus on romantic relationships, it’s very much a background to everything else so people don’t really say they’d rather have greg with someone else, but ofc they could say they’d prefer t/omshiv WHICH IS VALID like i’m not discrediting that at all bc there’s some actual, you know there’s history, and there’s reasoning, it’s very clear that tom loves shiv and shiv loves tom they just do it in different ways and it’s complex and messy. but they do either ignore it or discredit it completely. but like my point is, it’s interesting. tedbecca and tomgreg shippers are also kinda treated as like. yknow. fucking insane. which is. i mean they do make me insane but fashionably, yknow? like you get it. when we say these things we don’t mean it in a genuine sense, like they act like we can’t have a rational conversation anymore. we’re treated as a bit of a joke, is what i mean. not to be taken seriously.
and i just find myself kinda taken aback, you know. i expect pushback for gay ships/them not being taken seriously/them being ignored bc it’s been that way since the dawn of time but for a straight ship? especially one which appears to be written out so obviously, romcom tropes and all [and with some strangely similar path to a mlm ship] so i’m just like. huh. that’s weird.
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miikaarinn · 9 days
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woke up on friday to a msg from my ex partner/fp and i have been struggling with what to do ever since. also who the fuck sends somwone a tiktok at 1am when as fair as he's concerned you hate him and then expect him to gladly have a conversation with you at 11 (he has his own life surprisingly)
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waloeders · 7 months
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also re ppl leaving tumblr/takin a break i do have a cohost +twt under this username, ur welcome to follow there! i will probably stick around for a while longer tbh bc i dont really like twt or cohost enough to perma leave i would just. stop talking abt selfship 😔
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sanchoyo · 1 year
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the job has been going surprisingly ok! I got most of my hours for the week done in like 4 days and im kinda hoping next week i can cut that down to getting it done in like, 3 and then having 4 days off lol. but i do have a webinar thing to attend tomorrow and im dreading it dskkfhkj. i never do well at live meeting call thngies. I do ok at in person ones but for some reason web based ones wig me out x_x (its only like 45 mins and mic only so it could be worse??) auggh
#just experiencing Real Heavy anxiety abt it. like im sure itll be fine#but also its kinda objectively funny to have a training/basics and faq webinar. after ive been working here almost 2 weeks? LMAO??#a bit late for training isnt it?? 😭 ive been learning on the job...#ive made a few mistakes so far and my brain is like. the person is going to call u out on ALl of them and be mad#but. the guide literally said u have 3 months to get ur accuracy up to a certain level . so i know thats just anxiety talking#BUT STILL.#at least i recognized they were mistakes on my own and dont make them anymore?? like im still learning TwT;;#i dont actually hate the job its very chill and a diff vibe from my prev jobs and the work is kinda interesting#like its prob not what id choose to do ideally. but. not mental breakdown type terrible?#like itd never be enough to live off of and the work loads are very inconsistent but. yk. its better than nothing#and better than going back to retail hell. ill die before i go back.#im kinda just hoping theres a lot of new hires at the webinar so i can just knda sit back and chill w/out having to say much lol..pls dont#be a small group...#i also want to try and list more things on depop tomorrow or this weekend bc idk whats going on w me#but i like. hate evryhting i own suddenly ?? and want to kinda overhaul my style...#ugggh. my brain is full of bees lately#sanchoyorambles#i also wanna post some art sometime soon bc my art blog is STAGNATING but i havent had anything huge to post#im working on smthbehind the scenes but its BIG and taking TIME
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highbury-days · 2 years
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Time for me to vent my feelings abt being back on footblr
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christronomy · 1 year
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Hi!! Its the anon who sent in the chan car ride hard thought with the insta reel, if u remember me. But i have came to give u a new hard thought. First off, HAVE YOU SEEN THE VID OF CHAN DOING THAT LIL FINGER MOVE IN HALL OF FAME?!? i feel dizzy. 😵‍💫 anyways, onto my hard thought, picture this, y/n is scrolling on twt and that tweet that says imagine chan fingering you till you cry (or sum like that i hope you know what tweet im talking abt) and it has the chan vid attached to it, THEN BANGCHAN COMES INTO THE ROOM AND CATCHES Y/N AND FINGERS HEER OMGGGG (also i jus noticed that i used twt and tweet instead of X, sorry lol)
of course i remember you! hi, love! and YES, of course i saw that tweet, and i feel totally not normal about it! i would link them but i can't remember which accounts they're from sigh. also i hate calling it "x" bc cause wtf is that. LMAO
but onto this gem of a thought. honestly, he'd tease you so much if he caught you gushing over those tweets, he'd be so sweet about it though. if you don't mind i wanna add some more to this under the cut cause it just came to mind hehe (it's so long and i didn't proof read. help).
he caught you trying to finger yourself in his dorm room after spending almost hours scrolling through your timeline. you weren't really expecting to see anything interesting, but the only thing that popped up was the clips of him and that finger movement that caught your attention and immediately drove you insane. you couldn't help but keep watching the same clip over and over again in awe. it was just so attractive, especially when he made that certain expression and looked right straight at the camera, almost as if he were looking right at you.
so here you were now, desperately bucking your hips up against your hand, sticking your fingers as far inside your cunt as you could, palming your clit to gain some extra friction. you whined exasperatedly as you failed miserably yet again, not being able to get that stimulation you so desperately wanted.
chan got home a few minutes ago, so he's already been watching you, chuckling to himself softly cause you just look so cute like that—legs spread, face flushed a bright red, fucking your fingers in and out of your sopping hole. you keep going for a few more minutes, until you finally toss your head back to groan in frustration because it's just not enough.
his cock is already twitching, straining in his pants at the sight of you, so he can't help but open the door, and he finds it cute how you immediately close your legs and draw your hand back, the surprise of having been caught in the act showing on your face. he laughs softly and sits next to you on the bed. "what's wrong, love? you upset?" he asks, his tone teasing, yet sweet, and you can tell it's because he knows exactly what you were doing.
you nod and sigh, trying your best to come up with a reasonable explanation as to why you were naked on your boyfriend's bed, alone, when you knew he'd always expected you to wait for him whenever you needed to get off. "i was scrolling through twitter, and i saw these tweets about you... i got curious so i spent a while looking at them, and then..." you trail off with a gasp as he suddenly grabs your phone from where you'd put it next to you on the bed. you try to snatch it back, but he's a lot quicker than you. he scrolls a little bit, his expression serious, and then a smug smile plays at the corner of his lips as he looks at you again.
"aw baby, is this why you were so hot and bothered?" he asks, as he shows you one of the clips he was looking at, the same one from earlier, and your face turns an even darker shade of red as you nod. "that why you were using your cute little fingers, even though you know they're not good enough? you've got me right here. you could've asked me instead of just watching videos of me. i'll do whatever you want as long as i can make you feel good."
you feel like you're melting at the way condescension practically drips off his tongue, and you let him spread your legs for you again, this time using his own fingers to tease your swollen bud. he's such a dream come true. "'m sorry i couldn't wait for you," you start, but he shushes you softly. "that's okay, baby. i'm here now. i can help you," he says, and you want to thank him, but your words are cut short by the almost embarrassingly loud squeal that escapes your throat when he suddenly sticks his pointer and middle fingers in without warning, curling them just right, just like in that clip, finally giving you that pleasure you'd been chasing for hours now.
he watches you intently, from the way your back arches, to the way you clench around his fingers, but his expression stays blank. it doesn't take you that long to cum, and when you do, he doesn't stop. you look at him with furrowed brows, whining from the overstimulation, and he simply chuckles at your expression, not saying anything as he keeps torturing your walls with his fingers mercilessly. he's pushing you close to the edge all over again surprisingly quickly, and once you reach your second orgasm, you're already asking him to slow down, stop for a minute, so you can catch your breath. still, he doesn't. by the time you reach your fourth orgasm, you're already a sobbing stuttering mess as he makes you even more dumb on his fingers, begging him to stop, but that only makes him go much faster, his palm smacking your clit as he does so.
"this how needy you are for me? wanting to get yourself off without me cause of some video? you poor thing, thinking your fingers alone would satisfy you. you know you can't do it without me. guess i just have to remind you, hmm?"
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cinnabutcringy · 2 months
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[ just a small cw; i'm gonna be talking abt racist stereotypes, not very in depth but still ]
i said this on twitter but i'll say it here too: reverse1999 is NOT a perfect game and i think people should stop acting like it's "the exception" because of the devs doing the bare minimum when it comes to some of the representation.
like, it's okay to like these characters. hell, if you're part of the groups that they represent (indians, for example) then i'm not gonna tell you that you can't like them or find them decent representation. i also understand the feeling of "i take what i can get" when it comes to representation in media of marginalized groups.
but at the same time, i think it's important to acknowledge that there is genuinely criticisms to be had of this game and its way of handling non-east asian poc.
for one, there's only about 4 characters that have dark skin (i would not personally consider joe to be one of them but i'm counting him just bc i forgot to in my twt thread and also to just cover my bases.) kaalaa baunaa and kanjira do not have dark skin. has no one considered why this is???? at all???
and on the topic of kanjira, she also is a character full of orientalist stereotypes. i like kanjira, i think she's a sweet kid, but aside from that, she's written to be a thief, con artist and is illiterate and homeless. i'm not saying that that's not a reality for some kids, but the fact that she was deliberately written this way is kind of a red flag.
there's also some smaller things that people have pointed out like most of the representation in this game of those cultures being things like the characters naming off foods, or just saying small phrases (i.e. centurion talking about burritos and enchiladas, and leilani saying "aloha!") and not actually having many cultural references nor speaking a lot in their language
don't even get me STARTED on the lack of african or african american representation in this fuckin game.
again. i don't want to say that no one can like these characters. i don't want to say that people cannot relate to these characters, or that people can't think they're good representation. that's not my call especially not if you're part of the groups of ppl they're representing (i.e. latin americans, hawaiians, indians, etc.) but i think it is important to realize that like
well, for one, no group is a monolith. there are probably ppl who feel this way but either don't get heard or are too scared to say so.
and two, even if you're not a part of these groups, you can still recognize the flaws in something and acknowledge that, most likely, it's part of a bigger problem in society--colorism, orientalism, whatever. it's in many gacha games and will continue to be, and r1999 is not an exception that should be justified or ignored because "it's better than genshin impact"
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ello, ive notice you also live in galar so im curious as to what your opinions on the region are? or spikemuth or the pkmn native to the region or the city you yourself live in?
GAH I FORGOT ABOUT THIS TwT hi!!!
umummm, idk much about other places, so idk if i can say much abt the first one-its cool! i like it here!
A lot of the pokemon are scary, but that doesnt make them not cool! I really like the pokemon here, especially like- zigzagoon n nickit! ^w^ in my area there's a lotta steel n ice types and... idk? I dont rlly think about them too much.
and um, spikemuth... idk uh, I dont remember much about it and i dont have the bessst memories, but there's still good things and, idk the way i hear some people over here talk about it makes me feel a bit weird- sdfgdfhdf
sorry im rambling a lot!! you dont have to read any of this!
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side-of-honey · 1 year
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Wooooo the rest of the team is finally done! Overall they didn't change nearly as much as Okoru, but I made a lot of changes in the little details and I like these designs a lot more :)
Uhhh ill put rambles under the cut bc the images already kinda make this a long post and ik most ppl probably dont care abt this stuff but I like talking about it! <:D
I tried a lot harder to make Kare + Sunai and Haji + Okoru look plausibly like siblings, aaand I think it's at least better? They have a few little nods to each other if you look hard enough :) I also tried to make them look less like the real world counterparts they were based off of, although tbh they still look too similar for my liking... oh well TwT
I was reaaally conflicted about changing Kare's weapon, and tbh I still am? But the ice cream ball was just too obscure and didn't really fit </3 Oh well, what's done is done...and probably nobody but me cares about this JKSDGLJSDG
I also actually drew the Hideout this time!! (Neighbor's Room equivalent) It turns out that I really like drawing areas as like concept art but not backgrounds lol so you'll probably see more of that? Maybe?
I know Doubloons sounds really. Cheesy??? But like its the quintessential pirate money ok it can't be anything else
Ummm and lastly... normally I'd leave this to other people to possibly figure out but I highly doubt anyone's going to get this one SO Esha is Jori's dog and he named him after his favorite drink, Esha Jo' :) Briefly mentioned in Jori's Guide to Favorite Drinks WAYYY back JKLSDJG
Anywayss that's enough from me! Next up is Jori and Basil, and then one more special post before we're caught back up ^^; If you read this far... thanks!!
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mamoonde · 1 year
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if wwx were a public figure (like a legit science/physics geek with a phd who organizes science festivals/makes fun sci experiments on ytb) ppl would have a lot of fun making parody accts of him always mooning over olympic medalist figure skater lwj
wwx complains that he doesn't sound THAT much of a simp, except his followers come at him with receipts - videos of interviews where he brings up lwj unasked/unrelatedly - videos of panels where he gushes abt lwj's quad jumps - timeline-span tweets of his rts of lwj fan accts
even his own phd colleagues who had to peer-review his latest article come at him with snippets of the heavily edited out paper where they had to remove chunks of anecdotes feat. lwj
wwx is a good sport tho and thanks the fan accts who supply him with HD photos of lwj mid-jump / during rehearsals one follower makes a fanart of "the universe accdg to wwx" and it's a collection of galaxies that form a picture of lwj and wwx rts it and asks permission to print
one of them goes to far tho, tweeting: "i am (wwx is) a flat earther bcuz my world is lwj's ass" wwx screencaps the twt "1 that is factually untrue on many accts. 2 only I can talk abt my husband's ass." then blocks acct. lwj fans also mass block and report the acct
hd photos of lwj's "not flat" ass floods the tl. it even trends. lwj's ears burn the whole time that week's family dinner. its ok wwx eats him out for a long time that week. also maybe lwj wears those ass-emphasizing leggings to rehearsals that week 😏🤭
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moonjxsung · 7 months
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STAR IM DEVASTATED so i have a priv twt acc right w some irls and this stay from stayville req-ed me a long time ago and i was soooo happy that i was mutuals w someone from stayville and i THOUGHT everything between us was cool? but today they unfollowed me and removed me as a follower and im devastated i dunno why they did that :((( i don't think they had a problem w me saying nsfw stuff cuz they previously tweeted things like "cancelling someone over saying smth nsfw abt an adult is stupid" and also ive seen them interact w nsfw minsung posts so i dunno if me tweeting smth like "i wanna suck flxs cock sooooo bad" couldve made them wanna break the mutual??? i dmed them too and i was like "heyy is there a reason you don't wanna be moots w me anymore </3" and not even minutes later they turned off their message perms and im devastated. its STUPID bcs they'd barely interact w me Sure but it felt nice to have a stay be my friend on my priv twt that's usually just for my irls and i </3 it's ironic that they did that too bcs just earlier today (before they broke the mutual) i noticed that my followers went down (i have a very low amt already. like. 25. not even joking) and i tweeted "yall dont wanan be friends w me anymore </3" bcs like. my followers are QUITE LITERALLY only my irls + a skz writer so i was (i think rightfully??) alarmed that the number went down!!!! man im just Sad about it and SIIIGH i know i shouldnt care so much bcs at the end of the day they're just a person online but the least they could've done was dm me back and explain why and GHFSDDSJHFKJADDSDSAAAAA you get me!?!! also im sorry i dropped this on you randomly feel free to ignore LMAAOOAOAO can i be 💫 anon? thank yew <3
(Adding 💫 to the anon list!!! Also fun fact that’s my favorite emoji of all time. Slay)
I feel like I’m the LAST person who should be giving advice abt this bc one of my mutuals and a very good friend of mine who I’d been talking to every day randomly blocked me on everything this week after me literally being there to console this person for every little thing and playing into this pretend homoerotic friendship we had even though she was clearly looking for another boyfriend and would get mad if I even called another girl pretty (???) I wish nothing but the absolute best for her but like…. The double standard is WILD. to not provide closure to a months-long friendship is just genuinely a very mean spirited thing to do imo.
(If she’s reading this, best of luck with everything and I hope you know I cared for you a lot more than you think I did. I distanced myself because you were clearly looking for someone to fill a void in your life that I could simply not fulfill, and I didn’t want to lead you on, nor be kept around like I wasn’t allowed to talk to other girls either. Regardless, I hope you know I used to sleep with my phone on full volume in case you called, and I deleted a page worth of poetry in my notes app for you I meant to deliver on your birthday. I also deleted your number so I have zero way of contacting you, but I will always be here if you need me. Take care and I love you always, I hope you still see me when you look up at the moon)
It’s not the first time I’ve lost an internet friend to the magical world of blocking, but fortunately the attitude I’ve developed towards it is that none of this is real!!! These are people on the internet miles away you’ve never met irl and they have no real impact in your life whether they remain following you or not. I’ve lost internet friends nearly a decade ago that I don’t even remember anymore. Better ones will come along!!! Especially stays! This fandom has so many beautiful remarkable people who are actually worth following and they wouldn’t cut you off like that. Sending so many positive vibes your way and I KNOW that the universe will send you some better mutuals. In the meanwhile I will be your internet bestie and I would never unfollow you for nsfw content or without some form of an explanation. And I also want to suck Felix’s dick. 🩷🫶
(I love you, don’t be so hard on yourself!!!! You’re wonderful, angel 🩷 anyone would be lucky to be moots with you)
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lovelylusts · 1 year
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cloud nine // csb // 07 - bunny
summary: a group of friends form on nsfw twitter, and hijinks ensue. but when jisu starts catching feelings for soobin after filming with him, she has to grapple with her feelings while assuring her close bond with him doesn’t die.
general warnings: choi soobin x oc (moon jisu), smau, smut, fluff, angst, crack, the rest of txt is here too, aespa is also here just bc they serve, no relationships or events in this story reflect real ships and are just for the story, this is a pro sex-work story obv, lowkey probably gonna be filthy as hell considering it’s a sex work au, vague relationships lmao, she/they oc because i’m projecting, genderfluid yeonjun agenda, oc has a not-so-secret thing for soobin’s hands, they use fake names on twt :)
chapter warnings: another written chapter :3, intentional lowercase lol, sub!soobin, dom!oc, same warning abt jisu’s pronouns as before, sex toys as per usual with me, rigging (rope bunny soobin <3), blindfolding, begging, handjob, praise, humiliation?, two instances of premature ejaculation :(, multiple orgasms, degradation/slut-shaming, oral (m receiving), anal fingering (m receiving, and also mentions of soobin fingering himself), pegging (in missionary), minor dacryphilia, squirting, very very brief aftercare
word count: 4.1k
series masterlist // general masterlist
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jisu was certain she was a masochist, because why would she suggest putting herself in more situations that would make her feelings for soobin worsen? she was yet again at his doorstep with everything they would need for the filming session of the day, this time matching the different themes of the video. they had spent the days prior discussing ideas for the video which, this time, would be featuring jisu as the dominant one, and during these discussions she learned a lot about soobin that he had previously only reflected in something as unnoticeable as his liked tweets - which, surprisingly, she hadn’t gone through until the first night they talked about their second video. she knew he could be submissive at times, but she didn’t know how far he could go with the video.
soobin was no stranger to making submissive content. while he was more known for being dominant, his fans were always excited when he posted content that didn’t necessarily fall in that category. every time he reached a milestone in followers or subscribers, soobin would ask his followers for what celebratory content they wanted, and somehow it was always content where he took on a more submissive role. but what his fans didn’t really know is how much of a sub he could really be. the last time he filmed with jisu, although he was supposed to be in control, when he felt her lips around his cock, he felt himself slipping off, barely able to keep himself together enough for his viewers.
he was excited to finally be able to let go this time.
jisu was equally excited. seeing him fall apart beneath her as she went down on him filled her ego like never before. her mind was wandering as she waited for him to answer the door, her desire for him increasing as she imagined him tied up, tip leaking precum as he begged for her to touch him. or him crying sweetly as she entered his tight hole with the toy she brought. or-
“hey, jisu,” he said, knocking her out of her lustful trance. he pulled her in for a hug, a smile creeping onto his face as the sweet vanilla scent of her perfume filled his senses.
fuck, he thought to himself. why am i already so hard?
jisu could feel it too, his member poking her stomach - they were both aware of its presence, but whether it was nerves, awkwardness, or the comforting fact they had done this before, kept either of them from commenting on it. if anything, the feeling of his hard member through those damn sweatpants made the throbbing feeling between her legs even worse.
“you ready?” she asked, her chin resting against his chest as she looked up at him.
it should be illegal for somebody to be this cute while asking me if i’m ready to be destroyed, he thought to himself.
wait, what?
shaking off the intruding thought, he led her into his apartment, through his living room and into the bedroom that he had been setting up when he heard the knock on his door. the main camera was positioned by the foot of the bed, just as it had been last time, as well as the secondary camera. the comforter was different, this time monochromatic grey plaid, and it looked like he was able to fill in the gaps of jisu’s own selection toys that she brought.
“we should film now before i explode,” soobin said with a cheek smile, already taking his shirt off.
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soobin looked so pretty with his wrists tied to his headboard and a lace blindfold adorning his face, a blindfold that matched her lacey lingerie, it made jisu feel breathless. she now understood how he felt last time - even being in the position of power, he just looked so amazing that she would fold and do anything he asked her to. his lips were red and swollen from intense kisses, his distinct collarbones covered in bruises and teeth marks, his nipples hard from her manipulation. and, of course, his member was pink- nearing red, precum dripping down his veiny shaft.
“aww, look at you,” jisu said as she traced his abs with the tip of her pointer finger, chuckling as he flinched beneath her. “so hard for me and i haven’t even touched your pretty cock yet.”
“all for you,” he sighed out. his voice was strained, breathless, filled with need - he was about to cry and she had barely started. “p-please touch me. please.”
“i am touching you, onyx.” she continued tracing her blunt nail around the outlines of his abdomen, entranced by the way his chest heaved with her feather-light touches. his eyes were covered with lace that, in her own experience, he could only barely see through, thinking to herself that she would probably take it off later so she could watch his face as she entered him. “if you want me to touch you, you’re going to have to be more specific.”
“my cock. please touch my cock. it hurts, jiu.”
his words sent a new, stronger wave of arousal to jisu’s core - yeah, this definitely isn’t helping me. she very slowly, very lightly, dragged her hand down soobin’s abdomen, admiring the v-shape of his hips before pulling her hand away and reveling in the whine that slipped out of him.
soobin could feel the intense heat in his cheeks, and the embarrassment of sounding so fucking needy was definitely not helping. it was already rare that he act submissive alone, but with another person? he was sure it was only two or three times with an experimental fling in his final months of high school, but that was forever ago, and he couldn’t recall it making him feel anything close to how he felt when jisu was touching him. in fact, as her hand slowly wrapped around the base of his sensitive length, he was sure he was about to start sobbing.
jisu looked down at him in adoration as his stomach caved lightly as he choked out shallow breaths, precum dripping from his tip onto her hand.
she took her time stroking his sensitive length, her movements slow so as to draw more needy whines from his lips.
“please, more, please,” he begged. soobin was well aware of his large stature - he was tall, had big hands, and a massive dick - but he had never felt as small as he had at that moment, in the best way possible. he was slipping into a bliss he had never felt before, his hips jerking as she teased him. he couldn’t even form a proper thought. how pathetic.
“more what, baby? use your words, pretty boy,” she spoke softly.
pretty boy. the words played over and over in his mind until-
“no fucking way,” she muttered under her breath as she watched him unravel beneath her unexpectedly, small ropes of cum covering her hand as he groaned out. “you’re so fucking hot.”
soobin didn’t even have time to feel embarrassed because of her words. yet he thought to himself, my ego is never going to recover from this. holy fuck.
“more, jiu, please,” he cried out, his cock twitching and still painfully hard as he came down from his first high of the session. all shame was out the window now. he was gone. he was all hers for the time being, no questions asked.
“you’re such a little slut,” she started as she once again wrapped her cum-covered hand around his throbbing member and began stroking, only a little faster than before. “but i bet only i can make you act like this, hm? you cum that fast for anyone else?”
“n-no, only you.”
this was getting to her head way too much to be good for her, it was as if she were slowly forgetting that this was for the camera. it felt like it was just the two of them, just like last time. like it wasn’t a performance. jimin was right, their video felt too real, and this time she was just falling more. he just looked so perfect under her. so disheveled, but maybe that made him even more appealing.
“good boy.”
with what remaining thinking abilities were remaining within his foggy brain, he was convinced he was about to cum again. this was just too good - better than last time, and she hadn’t even put her mouth on him yet. subconsciously, he was thrusting his hips up towards her hand, only making her slow her movements again and making him whine in frustration.
“is there something you want?” jisu asked him while leaning forward, putting pressure on his hips with one hand to try to keep him from moving. in any other situation, he definitely would have overpowered her with no effort; but he simply didn’t want to. he could only give into what she asked of him.
“your mouth. please, i need to feel your mouth.”
“will you be able to control yourself this time or are you gonna cum early again?” she teased.
soobin whine in embarrassment, but ultimately decided that it was better to nod and ask for forgiveness later. “yes. i promise. please.”
“well,” she started, “i don’t particularly believe you, but you look so cute when asking, so i guess i’ll have to give in.” with no moment for him to take in what jisu said, her lips were wrapped around the tip of his cock as she gently sucked, hand still stroking the rest of his member.
he knew he was already being noisy before, but now he couldn’t control any of the loud whines coming from his lips. just like last time, she started taking his impressive length down her throat like it was nothing. this is heaven, he thought to himself, and even his internal monologue sounded as desperate as he did physically.
“ji-jiu, i’m gonna cum,” he cried out in an attempt to either get her to stop or let him cum again - the latter was definitely more embarrassing, yet he chased his release so desperately that he could not bring himself to care in the moment. that was for not-so-future soobin to worry about.
jisu did care, however, but she didn’t stop. she was basking in the power she held over the boy who had been occupying her thoughts over the past couple of weeks, and for some reason she had never thought about before, there was something so satisfying in seeing him turn cherry red from embarrassment. her sense of satisfaction increased tenfold when he cried out one last time, louder than his other sounds, and the slightly salty taste of his release filled her mouth before quickly swallowing it down. she pulled off of him slowly, looking up at him expecting for their eyes to meet, only to see him staring at the ceiling over his heaving chest, the sounds of him trying to regulate his breathing pattern filling the otherwise quite room.
“you did so good for me,” said jisu as she ran her nails through his soft, jet black hair. “are you ready?” she asked, aware she didn’t have to say what for. they had talked it through thoroughly, and it definitely awoke something within her - she would probably have never considered doing this with anybody else.
soobin, still trying to catch his breath, just nodded lazily. but as he came down, the feeling of nervousness he experienced in the morning came flooding back. this had always been a fantasy of his, but the most he had ever done is fit two fingers inside of himself. nobody else had ever touched him like that, and he knew he could trust jisu, but the butterflies in his stomach wouldn’t subside. the butterflies certainly couldn’t calm down now that jisu had grabbed the toy from the nightstand. even though they had split the cost of the toy in her hands, even though he had spent the entire morning hyping himself up for this, he still felt entirely underprepared. his dick, however, was having a completely different reaction, quickly hardening after again after his second orgasm and bordering painful.
she admittedly had never done this before, either, a fact that she had divulged to him as they planned the video. they were both oddly comforted that this was their first time in this situation, but just as nervous about it as well; but jisu couldn’t help but find the idea of being the first person to fuck his ass super appealing, and luckily for her they decided on a vibrating strapless strap-on, so she could be stimulated with him. she had spent the morning trying to master the toy, making sure it would sit comfortably inside her without slipping, and that the built-in vibrator was strong enough; and now, after slipping off her lacy underwear, she was sliding the short curve of one end of the toy in her wet heat, a small, quiet gasp escaping from her lungs.
jisu grabbed the bottle of lube that was placed next to the toy, squirting a bit on the fingers of her right hand before using the left to nudge soobin’s thighs apart and bringing her fingers to his tight hole, pressing them against the virgin rim and slowly drawing tiny circles, the cold, slippery substance sending a slight chill up his spine.
he tensed up subconsciously, the sensation of her fingers teasing his hole, although pleasurable and exciting, ultimately foreign.
“relax, baby. i promise i’ll be careful,” she said to soothe not only his nerves, but also probably her own. she waited until he visibly relaxed, becoming used to the sensation of being touched in such a manner, then slowly sliding her pointer finger inside of him, meeting some resistance as he tensed up again. “onyx. i need you to relax, baby.”
“i’m sorry,” he whined. he started tugging at his restraints a bit, desperate to touch something, maybe grab at the sheets or hold the hand that she currently had placed firmly on the underside of his right thigh. he tried to calm his breathing, slowing his breaths to calm down and relax himself, trying to fight the urge to stiffen as she continued to push her finger in. it was one thing to finger himself, but to give all control to somebody else scared him a bit… but it also felt so much better.
she just watched him breathe for a bit, rubbing his thigh with her left hand to soothe him while her right hand stilled to let him adjust to the feeling. “if you want me to keep going, you’ll have to ask.”
he took a short moment to compose himself, making sure he was truly relaxed, before softly saying, “please keep going. feels good.”
“yeah?” she asked, her tone becoming more playful now that she knew he was more comfortable, and while speaking she slowly began to pump her finger in and out of the hole, grinning to herself as she felt him little-by-little loosen up. “look at you. hard to believe that such a big, strong boy can be such a little bitch for me.”
it was a bit embarrassing for him, but he honestly could not have cared less as he felt her finger begin to slightly curve, just barely brushing up against his prostate. maybe it was a bit shocking that he could be such a baby, but he just couldn’t bring himself to give a fuck if it meant feeling this good.
“i’m gonna put another finger in, ok?” she asked sweetly.
“please,” he said, so softly he wasn’t sure the microphone caught it, but that was for them to worry about while editing later. “it feels so good.”
“i’m glad you think so, baby.” she pulled her one finger out of his asshole, only to immediately press it back against the rim, now with her middle finger, and slowly push them in. her fingers faced more resistance than last time, but his sounds of bliss increased as she pushed forward, until she ultimately bottomed out and stilled again, just as before, to let him adjust to the feeling. “still doing good?”
“fuck, yes, please move,” he pleaded, barely able to choke out the words because of how full he felt. he let out a low groan that shifted into a higher pitched whine as she began to move her fingers, this time angling them more than before to stimulate him more. his tip was leaking precum again, twitching at the sensation of her fingers curly against the sweet spot within. he was tired of this already; now that he knew he could handle the stretch, he had the carnal need for her to fuck him already. “jiu, please fuck me. i need it, i need it so bad.”
she chuckled a bit before answering. she wants to, she really did, but, “you’re just too tight. i need to stretch you out a bit more, ok?”
“i promise i can handle it, please. i need your cock,” he cried out. he was desperate to touch himself, but the restraints forbid him from doing so.
soobin’s words rang in her mind over and over. jisu really, truly never thought she’d be into, well, anything that had happened in the past… she had lost track of time completely due to how lost in the moment she felt. i need your cock. jesus fucking christ, she was so done for.
but she had to show restraint. the last thing she wanted to do was hurt him and ruin something that could be so good.
“you’re playing with fire,” she warned instead. “let me prep you first.”
he didn’t say anything, he just groaned in frustration, but ultimately let it go and instead relinquished control to her once again. she pulled out of him briefly, making him release another sound of disappointment, so she could cover her fingers in more lube, before circling his rim once again. he shuttered again at the cold sensation, but now he had more control over his body - he could relax now, not allowing his body to resist as she pushed three or her fingers into his entrance.
jisu set a quick rhythm of thrusting her fingers in and out of soobin’s ass, mainly because she knew that if either of them having to wait much longer was basically a fate worse than death. loose enough, she thought to herself as she pulled her fingers out. reaching over to the bottle of lube one last time, she drenched her fingers in the cold substance before spreading it along the pink dildo - wow, that’s really hot, she thought to herself, i could get used to this.
the sensation of a cold, stiff object felt different this time. the pressure of the toy pressing against his hole was definitely different from how jisu’s fingers felt, it sent a wave of excitement through his body. he gritted his teeth as jisu pushed her hips forwards, her hands gripping his waist firmly as she slowly moved her hips towards his own, his body feeling as if it had been set on fire in the best way. the stretch was deliciously painful, and the curve of the toy made it so that his prostate was being hit at just the right angle. he finally felt her hips meet his ass, groaning at the sensation of the entire length of the toy resting inside of him. so focused on the full feeling, he didn’t notice that she was reaching for the small remote on the nightstand until he felt the vibrations start.
“f-fuck,” jisu whispered to herself. her clit had been throbbing, aching since she arrived at soobin’s place, and her pussy had been so wet, just getting wetter and wetter as she pleased soobin - to finally get some stimulation was amazing. “want me to move, baby?”
“god, yes.” he gasped and nearly choked on his own breath as he felt her pull out slowly, dragging the toy almost all the way out before moving her hips forward again. “it’s so good. too good. fuck, please, please ruin me.”
“i don’t know if you can handle that yet,” she said. “i’m gonna have to train you to take my cock.” jisu really wasn’t sure what had gotten into her. the power of having a fake dick, i guess.
soobin also had no idea what had gotten into her. he had known her for quite a while and she always seemed really docile - there was no way he would have ever predicted she could be this domineering, but it made him briefly consider that he could spend the rest of his life being her little bitch. dude, what are you saying? he asked himself. this thought, however, did not last more than a mere second or two before she began increasing her speed out of nowhere, the sound of her hips meeting his bare ass filling the room, accompanied by breathy moans.
“god, i love fucking you like this,” she grunted to him, looking down to watch as the silicone penis slid in and out of his ass, his cock red and leaking precum everywhere. her hand quickly found its way to the member, slowly stroking it in tandem with the rolling of her hips. “i bet you love being fucked like this, hm? like a little fucking whore?”
“y-yes- fuck, hah. love it so much.” soobin’s head was spinning. there was not a single coherent thought behind his lace-covered eyes - that is, until he remembered the presence of the vision-obscuring material. “i wanna see you, please. wanna see you fuck me.”
“aww, so cute. since you asked me so nicely,” she taunted, balancing herself before moving her hand from his hip to snatch the blindfold off over his head, throwing it haphazardly on the floor beside his bed. his eyes were slightly puffy and a bit red, making it clear that he had in fact cried at some point - when, neither of them were quite sure, but the knowledge of it was enough to boost her ego further. both her hand and hip movement increased in speed at the sight. with each thrust of her hips, the base of the toy was knocking against her clit, which, mixed with the vibrations against the sensitive nub as well as her g-spot, was enough to bring her closer to the edge faster than she would have liked.
soobin was faring no better. his entire body felt fuzzy from the intense stimulation. being able to watch her didn’t help at all - she was covered in a light sheen of sweat, her jiggling tits slipping out of the black lacy bralette due to the rough rolling of her hips. he lowered his gaze to watch as their bodies met, her hand wrapped perfectly around his length as she jerked him off, and her hips seductively rocking against him. the visuals of the situation were only bringing him closer and closer to the edge. “i’m so close. fuck, i’m gonna cum.”
“can you wait for me? wanna cum at the same time,” jisu grunted breathlessly, her speed increasing to make him holding in his orgasm a little harder. she loved to see him squirm and beg for; but luckily for him, her orgasm was rapidly approaching. “fuck, i wish you could see yourself the way i see you right now. you’re taking my cock so well.” she finally felt the blinding pleasure reaching her, it was time. “cum for me.”
he didn’t need to be told twice. his thighs were shaking as white hot pleasure took over his body, ropes and ropes of his release shot out of his cock, covering her hand and abdomen. through the overwhelming feeling, he could feel her still rapidly fucking into him, making his orgasm way more intense. he didn’t notice but his eyes were watering again as he felt himself slowly come down.
the climax that hit jisu was equally as intense, riding her high by continuing to rock her hips, the sensations against her throbbing clit intensifying the warm fuzziness climbing up her spine until she cried out. she really tried to prevent this to keep up her dominant appearance, but she felt her own fluids releasing, soaking the (luckily waterproof) toy and once again ruining poor soobin’s bedsheets.
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it took a while, but once they had both calmed themselves, jisu helped clean up a very fucked-out soobin before they sat in his bed (of course, after she changed his sheets) and watched a random netflix show.
“so…” jisu trailed off. “did that live up to your expectations?”
soobin let out a soft chuckle. “i don’t think anything could have prepared me for that. if i weren’t worried about being able to sit properly for the next week, i’d ask you to do it again.”
jisu couldn’t help but laugh at him, commenting on how much of a dork he was.
yeah… she was in deep.
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