#i think i'm gna be overwhelmed

[noxtivagus]

I WILL PLAY PERSONA 3 ONE DAY 🥹🫶🏼

[fir3ylolol]

i had an idea…i’ve been thinking A Lot about that one johnny cage skin with the red shirt where he has the forearm tattoos…. maybe they’re those long lasting temporary ones and he has them on for a movie? and reader is realllllly into them

place beyond the pines

pairing: Johnny Cage x Reader

summary: your boyfriend comes home, with a couple of new additions 0.0

tw: vaginal penetration, fingering, afab reader, gn reader, slightly dirty talk, groping, established relationship, sloppy makeout, smut, shameless smut

a/n: im alive! ive beaten a cold, finally. glad to write again! it's almost break for me, so i'm gna try to stay consistent. and if not…don't be mad at me pls. ALSO check out my works in progress post linked in my pinned to see what's to come ;P

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Ao3

The front door shuts firmly, and you perk up at the sound. That sound means only one thing: your boyfriend is home. He’s not usually home at this hour, so you’re really excited to see him more after a long, lazy day in sweatpants and baggy t-shirts. But as you rush out to see him, you’re stopped by the sight in front of you. There, standing by the doorway, is Johnny, in a tight red compression shirt with the sleeves pushed up. On his exposed forearms, you see black and white American Traditional tattoos, interlaced with a snake twisting its way up his arm. You’re caught off-guard, frozen across the room from him as he puts his keys down on the entry table.

He turns to face you, with a wide but tired smile. But he notices your still state and his face drops slightly in confusion. He walks over, shaking your shoulders lightly. “Love? You ok there?” You snap out of it, shaking your head as you do. “Yeah, sorry, I just…what are those?” You shakily reach your arms out to trace down the patterns. He lifts them to meet your hands, smile returning, “Don’t you think they’re cool? They’re just temporary, but it’s for that movie I was just cast in. You know, ex-cons tend to have tattoos so,” he gestures with his head. You start to fluster further, feeling the warmth of his skin under the intricate patterns and artwork. Finally, the gears start turning in his head and he laughs lightly. “You like them, don’t you?” Your head bolts up, embarrassed that you were so blatantly called out. You shake your head rapidly, stepping back slightly. “No, I just think the art is cool!” He steps forward, smirking at how flustered you are, lightly grabbing your wrist.

“Really? Because it feels like you think it's hot, and it’s flustering you,” his other hand coming up to cup your face tenderly. You try to turn it into a joke, pushing past his touch to walk towards the kitchen. “Come on, stop playing. You must be hungry, ri-” You’re abruptly cut off as that familiar pair of arms wrap around your waist and hold you in place. You’re about to protest until you hear a gravely quiet voice in your ear, “You’re a shit liar, you know.” Suddenly, your feet no longer touch the ground, being carried towards the couch with little to no say. You would fight it but…you don’t really want to. Your eyes are locked on the sight of them, art straining against the veins that pop out of his skin as he constricts around you. You feel him slowly sit down, grip on you still tight as you end up on his lap. You expect him to ease up, but when has Johnny ever gone easy? You notice his hold on you loosening, but his hands start to travel. One traces its way up your chest, reaching your head and gently holding your jaw. The other slips towards your waistband, fingers moving teasingly slow. He leans his head forward, warm breath against your ear as he whispers, “I had a pretty long day…wanna help me relax, baby?” Overwhelmed slightly by him, you nod against his hold on your face.

You watch as his inked hand slides lower, not as teasing anymore. But he loves to put on a show, and he shuffles your sweatpants off slightly. His voice, slightly louder this time, rasps out, “Gotta make sure you can see the whole show.” Helping direct your head down, you watch as his fingers circle against your clit. You jolt at the feeling, but his grip on you tightens slightly, keeping your back pressed into his strong chest. You’re slightly dizzy, watching as he sinks one finger inside you, hand tensing at the feeling. You can feel a heavy sigh from him, as he continues to curl in and out of you. His thumb reaches up, returning to sit comfortably against your clit again. As he moves, speed increasing bit by bit, you can’t help to whine out. The sight of his detailed art disappearing inside you, the feeling of his rough thumb moving so softly. As he slides another finger in, a gentle moan slipping out, he lifts your head again. He tilts it back, resting it against his shoulder. You watch with half-lidded eyes as he brushes your face off, his face barely visible from your angle. But he never stops, steady pace as you squirm at the sensation. But his free hand shows up again, clinging to your chest. It’s as if he’s holding himself back from moving at a ruthless pace, but he can only hold so much back. You can hear murmurs echoing through his throat against your right ear, incoherent, but very much through gritted teeth.

Suddenly, he’s speeding up more, his hand on your chest loosening slightly. At the angle of your head, you can’t muffle yourself, louder and louder moans as his hand starts to grab and massage your chest. You can hear him clearer now, voice carrying better, “God, look at you. You look so good like this, spread out just for me. You feel so good, baby, shit.” You can feel him growing sloppier, and more impatient than before. But you’re not far from cumming, your hands desperately searching for purchase. One latches to his thigh under you, and the other on his wrist, moving as he pumps his fingers inside you. You help guide him slightly, shuddering as he touches the exact right spot. You’re nearly seeing stars, but you lift your head, letting it flop forward. His entire arm is moving at this point, both flexing at the effort he’s exerting. As you manage to gasp out that you’re close, the hand on your chest lets go and shoots back to your jaw. He turns your head, angling in back and to the side, as his lips collide with yours. His kisses are as sloppy as his moves, desperate for more of you than there is. Your grip tightens and you feel him groan into your mouth at the feeling. That does it, a harsh flinch as you cum around his fingers. Both of you are moaning at this point, unable to break the kiss. You’re not sure which voice is yours anymore as it echoes through your head. But as he removes his fingers, you break the kiss, taking a deep breath as you rest your head against his shoulder again. You hear as he brings the drenched fingers to his mouth, wanting to get every last bit of you as possible. But it only lasts so long, as he removes them with a quiet, “Ew, these things taste bad.” After a pause, he scrambles to clarify himself, “Not you! The tattoos! They taste bad, not you.”

[mmoodd-jobutupaki]

*takes a deep breath* AHHHHHDKAJFKSJA

I JUST WATCHED BOY AND THE HERON AND I LOVE IT SM AND IT'S SO GOOD.

So obvs, it's studio ghibli, it's gna be some of the prettiest stuff you've ever seen. So many scenery frames made me think "I'm gna scour the internet for them and repaint them as art practice. It resembles smudgy oil paintings rather than studio ghibli's gouache style (see spirited away, Totoro) but it's honestly beautiful nonetheless, and seeing it on the big screen made me feel like I was in the movie. There's even a stone passage that looks like the one from Coraline. The animation works so smoothly to make the film an overall wonderful immersive experience.

The character design was so good. You have your classic ghibli, countryside, apron wearing girl. Your boy with spiky hair. And probably the best addition of a butch seafarer, Kiriko, dubbed by Florence Pugh (oh my goodness I am too gay for this). The grannies were so inexplicably lovely and visually distinct I just want a hug from them. The wizard (Mark Hamill having this otherworldly yet grounded design and amazing hair. The heron was oddly grotesque without being scary (this is such a gift only japanese have.) and his various designs fluctuate along with the story. I was surprisingly intrigued by the fact that even in crane form, he had human teeth. And ofc THE WARAWARA.

GOSH THEY ARE ADORABLE I LOVE THESE DAMN TAPIOCA PEARL LOOKING THINGS THEY HAD ME SQUEALING IN THE THEATRE EITH HOW CUTE THEY ARE.

The score is beautiful and I dare say that it's on par, maybe even better than the Spiderverse score (and that's REALLY HIGH praise coming from me, I love the Spiderverse score to the point where it's on my Spotify wrapped.) I loved how the use of motifs, especially in relation to magic in the film. And definitely need to go give it more listens. 11/10 would recommend listening to it even outside of the film, it's just that great, give it a Grammy or smth.

Humor in this film is hilarious without being corny. It's very on the nose, what's currently happening in the scene humor. Characters (won't say who) also have amazing dynamics that supply a lot of humor for the film. Obviously we have that last snippet from the trailer and I'll give you this out of context "Mahito's turned into a parakeet"

The story is very easy to follow. The first half of the story is very grounded. And even in the second fantastical half, the visuals and little sprinkles of just the right amount of information help to guide us through the amazing fantastical world. Nothing ever feels too spoonfed to the audience or too overwhelming.

Spoilers below the cut

Character was great too. The main cast each have a very touching emotional aspect and nothing is what it seems, not from the trailers and not even within the show. Characters go on journeys you never could've expected from the beginning of the show. Such as the heron, who I genuinely thought from trailers was gna be the bad guy but turned into a genuine, squat goblin companion. And the parakeet king goddamn I thought he was gna be a good guy with his "we must protect this world" gig, not some giant cannibalistic parakeet with a surprising penchant for sneaking. Anyway, I especially loved how we meet characters almost multiple times with how we're introduced to different versions of them. Kiriko>>>

The moral of this story had me confused ngl, but I'm fcking dumb and need to go read some analysis so ignore this. The main message I got was that "Life is shit. But it's worth living and I can make it better for myself. Through friends, I don't have to be alone through it all" which made me tear up ngl since I've been struggling with life this year and seeing how our boy Mahito went from being a closed off lil squat to that *cries*. Personally I interpreted the great granduncle and his blocks as seeing what's wrong with the system the older generation has built, and demanding more from it/straight up turning away from it. Also Mahito learning to let go of his mom. The pelicans wanting the best for their children and not always liking what they have to do for survival as a link to war soldiers @hamable . I also read from @simplysparrow14 and @rockpaperimpala the film is also Miyazaki coming to the realisation that 'studio ghibli will be his legacy and it will be put to rest, it won't be the same if continued without him and that's okay' and ow I just got hit in the feels.

To summarize the boy and the heron excelled, slaps, is show stopping, brilliant, awesome, a true work of art and soul and 11000/10 go watch it ON THE BIG SCREEN I am not joking.

[ambcass]

ᴊᴇᴀɴ ᴋɪʀꜱᴛᴇɪɴ x ꜰᴇᴍ! ʀᴇᴀᴅᴇʀ || ᴅᴀᴛɪɴɢ ʜᴇᴀᴅᴄᴀɴᴏɴꜱ

in honor of aot ending :( Also what if I told yall that ck isn't my thing no more... when s6 comes out I'll watch it but idk if I'm gna post anymore ck stuff

ᴡᴀʀɴɪɴɢꜱ: implied sexual content (it's mild dw), AOT ENDING SPOILERS!!, Terrible pet names, SOME SAD PARTS

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Jean is a big PDA guy. He tries not to get too handsy but good lord he can't help it. Hands on your waist, hands on your thighs, and hands around your neck are all it'll take to get him going.

His top three love languages are physical touch, quality time, and words of affirmation. He doesn't mean to always touch you but it makes him feel safe that he knows that you're safe. He cannot go one day without kisses or hugs!!

If he doesn't get the slightest attention from you, he'll get super grumpy. Spending time with you is what really helps Jean connect and bond. He'll slowly educate himself on your favorite foods, clothing, etc.

Words of affirmation are how he really bagged you in the first place. Commenting on how beautiful you look, how much he loves you, and encouraging you to do things you love is what makes you fall for him even more.

Dates can range from movie nights to a full-on romantic dinner with rose petals and everything. Making sure you're loved and happy is one of Jean's priorities. He won't stop doing things until you're satisfied (winks) with whatever he's doing.

Jean hates cooking but he can cook. He always complains about how he can't cook and stuff but TRUST ME when I say he can. The second you tasted his cooking, you were in LOVE. You kept asking for seconds, thirds, and forths. (Niccolo obviously cooks better...)

Jean is the type of guy with very low self esteem in a relationship. Scared to lose you to another guy or thinking you're too good for him. Days like those is really what "breaks" the relationship. He doesn't want to but he'll ignore you for a little to give himself space to get rid of thoughts. He overthinks for sure. When he hears you tell him "I love you", he thinks that you don't mean and you're just pitying him.

You always try your hardest to comfort him when he thinks that way. You reassure him that you do love him and you give him millions of reasons why you do love him. It's canon that he covers his ears and gets lost in thoughts when he's really overwhelmed.

After Eren's death, the both of you were closer than ever. He was scared to lose you just like Mikasa lost Eren. (I AM A MIKASA LOVER I SWEAR.) He promises to stay by your side no matter what.

Jean gets jealous easily. He can't hold himself back when he sees a guy getting too comfortable with you. He'll interfere no matter what and doesn't care who that guy is- he'll rush over to you, telling that guy off and making sure that guy knows who you belong to.

He's pretty basic when it comes to pet names. It's just "Babe", "Baby", or a stupid nickname he made for you.

a/n: got lazy lol. AMBCASS ACTUALLY POSTS?!? PLEASE SOMEONE REQUEST SMTH IM CRYINGG I HAVE NOTHING TO WRITE

[b1mbodoll]

MY QUEEN IS BACK 💗💗💗💗

Literally, mere hours before you make your grand return, I was thinking about how I haven't seen your works of art on my fyp on tumblr as of late.

I hope your break served you well - I had to take a break by getting high off my ass this weekend after neing pretty overwhelmed woth school this pats week. But I'm doing better now so I hope you are too.

(I did make plans to meet up with a boy I had a massive crush on this past summer, over Thanksgiving break) so that's now something I have to overthink about 😭😭

Anyways, sorry for the ramble - just wanted to let you know that I'm so happy ur back 🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶 smooches galore sent ur way

MY LOVE !!!!! HI!!!!!! wah im so overwhelmed with happiness omg ur asks always make me smile u r just the sweetest <333

my works of art 😭😭 im giggling rn ur too kind to me <3 im sorry for just disappearing !!!! i needed a break from everythin n everyone makin me feel bad :( but i missed all my wonderful little followers n anonies n mutuals and especially ur sweet messages <3 i cherish them as if they were love letters 💌

i’m sososo sorry school is tough :( i hope ur sesh was wonderful n that it helped you relax <3 you deserve it ♡ i hope ur able to rest more soon :( dont want u overworkin urself honey !!!! n tysm im feeling a smidge better :D and im kinda hopin being on here n interacting with you all helps me get my mind off the things botherin me lately :p

i am SO happy for u omg!!!!!! i hope ur hangout goes well im gna go BANANAS i love love and tomance and crushes and feelings and im wishing u THE BEST!!!!!!!!! crossing my fingers n hoping u have the best time <3 please keep me updated if ur comfy <3 pls do not overthink!!!!! im positive things will be fine and if they are not or he does something then i will simply eat the boy 🩷 and u will never have to think abt him again <3 mwah

dont apologize for rambling!!!!! i love rambling!!!! i love talking to u guys n it hurts my lil hurt when u guys apologize bc i love it!!!!!!!!!! im happy that ur happy im back :D sending u a MILLION smooches rn sweetpea <3

[germaphrodite]

430 am and I’m panicking thinking about 1) how I need a car and a house that doesn’t depend on endangering my praxis and community by living with violent people & 2) everything I have to do to get there and how focused I’m going to have to be for years ! 3) wisdom teeth removal 5) birth control 6) new gig work 7) 3000x tons of paperwork

[cowboyjimkirk]

it has been a very good past couple days!! dgmw I'm still Incredibly Depressed but am not v s*icid*l anymore!!! had rlly good stir fry w noodles and now I'm busy looking @ hair dyes and deciding what colours I wanna spray paint my furniture (hair dye is gna be a neon yellow-deep purple split) - trans anon

i have an overwhelming need to hug you??? i’m just so glad you’re doing better, even if it’s only a little bit. i keep thinking about dying my hair, but i don’t think i can pull off the look i have in mind. so you go be healthy and sexy and i’ll watch enviously from a distance alskdjflasjd

[noxtivagus]

i shld sleep oh my god

[fairycosmos]

hey.. im really sorry to bother you but i just need to vent. This makes me sound like a pig (which i am haha) but i lost it and just completely binged on candy and now I feel like absolute shit. I really want to purge but I can't since my family is all home (I mean i know it's not worth it but it would still make me feel better) and i just don't know what to do and I don't have anybody to talk to and i'm just confused.

hey. don’t worry about it, you’re not bothering me. and don’t say that, you’re not a pig at all. all you did was eat, and any negative connotation you have about that is coming from an unreliable and untrustworthy portion of your mind. it’s not based in fact or reality, and you don’t have to buy into the bullshit. we all do impulsive things sometimes, and the sooner you learn to accept it, the easier it will be to confront it. this whole ‘ideal’ you have in your brain about the person you want to be, the person that never fucks up or does the wrong thing is not real or obtainable. you don’t need to lose your life striving for something that doesn’t exist, okay? that’s what it comes down to, and that’s why you need to prevent this from snowballing into a life threatening illness that could literally kill you. none of this is worth losing yourself over, love.

you don’t have to know what to do, and you don’t have to have it all figured out. you can’t change what has happened, but you don’t NEED to. one binge isn’t going to drastically alter anything, and it’s not the end of the world even if your mind is trying to tell you that it is. the good thing is that you already have the maturity and the awareness to know that purging isn’t worth it - that’s a really fucking positive sign. reading that made me feel such a strong surge of belief in you and your ability to fight your way out of this, you know? now you just need to see it for yourself. you need to realize just how much you can endure, because it’s a lot more than you can even begin to imagine. you are not your thoughts, and you are not all of the things your mind is telling you that you are. i hope one day, you’ll find a way to believe me.

have a glass of water, lay down for a while. let your stomach settle, and don’t dwell on it. feeling bad about binging isn’t going to change the fact that it happened, and you don’t need to give those negative thoughts the power to actually impact what you do and how you act. you clearly have a lot of anxiety around food and eating, but you don’t have to just accept it. you were not put on this earth just to be skinny, just to lose weight. there is so much more to you than that, and so much more to life in general than that. you don’t want to look back in 50 years and regret losing your youth over something so insignificant. i don’t know the extent of your situation, and i don’t know how far it’s gotten to at this point. i’m just fucking hoping with all of my heart that you see this for what it is - not a diet, not a lifestyle choice, not a way to get skinny - but a serious disease that is one of the most fatal mental illness’s out there. please, please just be smart about this. you are not invincible. if you push your body hard enough, it’s going to break. and trust me, you don’t want that even if you think you do.

i know you don’t want to hear it, but there are so many ways to deal with this and to get the help you need. you’re clearly going through something very difficult and dark, and during those times it’s okay to lean on the people around you for support. you might feel like you’re alone, but you’re not. you have options, your mind is just trying to convince you otherwise so you’re easier to control. please, please think about telling a family member what you’re dealing with, if that’s an option for you. you don’t have to go into great detail, but you owe it yourself to do the right thing. enough is enough - you are not supposed to spend every day worrying about calories and dieting and your body. i know you’re tired of it, so please just allow yourself to talk to somebody and to let it all out. i’d also really recommend seeing a professional about it, such as a school counselor or a therapist. eating disorders are a real serious thing, just as serious as any kind of physical illness. they need medical attention and care in order to overcome, which includes consistent therapy and use of healthier coping mechanisms. i get that the idea of talking to someone is scary, but it’s a LOT less scary than going into a coma or giving yourself a heart attack because you purged too much or ate too little. this isn’t bullshit, i’m saying this because i fucking care about you. it’s okay to give yourself the chance to get better. you don’t have to hurt yourself on the outside to show that you’re hurting on the inside, not anymore. you can talk to people, you can confront the depths of your brain and you can get out of this mindset. you can. it’s possible, but only if you believe it’s possible. i know that it feels like a lot of pressure, and i’m not saying you have to do it all at once. getting over this is going to be a process, so be gentle and patient with yourself. take it one small step at a time. separate yourself from the part of your mind that is trying to kill you, and take the initiative to do what’s right for your own mental and physical health. if you’re doing that, then you’re honestly doing more than enough. sry if this overwhelmed you, i’m just super worried and i want you to know that there is a way out of this. i’m gna leave a few links that might help you out a little more, check them out while you take the time to decide what it is that you really need. i hope you find some peace of mind soon my love. you’re a beautiful soul, and things are going to be okay. hmu if you ever need a friend or someone to talk to, i’m always here :)

http://www.sportsdoctor.com/chg/eating_disorders.htmlhttps://growinghumankindness.com/how-to-recover-from-a-food-or-sugar-binge/https://www.eatingdisorderhope.com/recovery/self-help-tools-skills-tips/self-care-stepshttp://www.your-bulimia-recovery.com/bulimia-self-help.htmlhttps://www.eatingdisorderhope.com/recovery/self-help-tools-skills-tips

[drashleighreid]

i'm having a really really rough day (week, month, year..) and i just wanted to tell you that scrolling through your blog always makes me feel a lot better so thank you. do you have any tips for feeling better when you're having a bad day

oh I’m so sorry that you’re having such a rough time my sweetpea :( literally if its any solace im gna fkn cry reading this omfg the fact that my blog could bring happiness to anyone ???? wild ! thank you so much for telling me that. you’re a very nice person! 

and I know it’s so hard when you’re in that space to pull yourself out of it, especially if you’ve been in it for a while. i feel like there’s a really fine line between riding the wave and wallowing tbh. I’m a strong advocate for feeling your feelings, it sucks and is uncomfortable but sitting in them exploring them understanding them feeling them to their fullest extent is really important i think. burying them never helps anyone or anything. i have a few things if i’m feeling down ! writing out what you’re feeling helps a lot! you dont have to share it anywhere but solidifying everything you feel in a physical way really helps to compartmentalise and give you some semblance of control over your feelings!! if all of the things you’re stressed ab are just swirling around in your mind it can be easy to become overwhelmed by them !! 

i know its hard but take some time to do the things you enjoy !! watch something funny !! i got really into watching standup comedy when i was having a super rough time because it was a lovely balance of cynicism that was perfect for the mindset i was in but still was hilarious and would make me laugh lol. but it wasnt super cheery or obnoxious like some sitcoms can be. but funny tv shows! something mindless !! i play a lot of mindless games too like apps on my phone and findawords and sudoku ! things like that that keep my mind occupied but aren’t too overwhelming. 

its super hard sometimes but getting up and getting out of the house can make a world of difference! a few months ago i was having the shittest day and i knew if i stayed home and sat around it would make me feel worse so i forced myself up and out and i went and tried a new cafe i’d been wanting to go to and when i got there they ended up having a resident cat !!! and i dont know if she could sense that i needed it but out of all of the other people in the whole cafe she got out of her bed by the window and wandered over to me and jumped up in my lap and let me pet her for almost half an hour while i drank my coffee !! and it literally turned my whole mood around omfg. but the universe is on your side tbh !!! little acts of self love and positivity can make a world of difference. whether its going for a walk, or taking a shower washing your face, putting on a face mask, tidying up a corner of your desk, messaging something nice to an old friend or a family member, treating yourself to a coffee. anything. 

honestly i understand how hard it is to feel that low. emotions are a bitch and i know its easy for me to give you this advice, but its super flingin difficult to implement any of it when it feels like lifes against you and you don’t have the energy to fight it anymore. its rough and im so sorry for whatever it is you’re going through right now. i truly and honestly wish you all the best. 

if you ever just need an ear to listen please know that im always here !! my ask box is always open for anyone for any reason ! so please if you’re having a shitty time and just want to vent or anything i care a lot and would love to listen and help out in any way that i can !! 

lots of love to you my friend i hope you’re able to find comfort in something today xx 

[noxtivagus]

i get distracted so easily but i promise i'll get more done ! eventually aaaa 🫶🏼

[noxtivagus]

evening has come again huh

[noxtivagus]

reading some short stories for literature rn n i'm just. in awe of life.

[noxtivagus]

when when hyth in hfalksdjfaklsfj

[noxtivagus]

getting back into a lot of my old interests again lately hehe

[noxtivagus]

how do u interact w ppl again >////<